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opera-ghosts · 5 months

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Lotte Schöne "Carnevale di Venezia" Bravour Variations (1927)

Carneval von Venedig (Carnevale di Venezia)

Music and lyrics by Jules Benedict with Orchestra Accompaniment Recorded in Berlin (1927)

The celebrated soprano Lotte Schöne was born in Vienna on this day in 1891.

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amberjazmyn · 2 months

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she waits

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - she waits

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - parent abandonment, mentions of emotional childhood abuse, tears, pregnancy, happy ending

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - jules (julianna) benedict (nee holowitz) grew up without a mom after being abandoned by her. she never got over it and still waited for her. and maybe that was why her husband rob benedict was so against his wife's constant want and longing for her mom. this will chronical jules' life when she's a kid, teenager and now an adult with her own family with rob and the spn family.

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - i love the song "she waits" by supernatural's rob benedict's band louden swain. even though i cannot personally relate to the song since i did not experience either parent abandoning me and my brother, i still love it and think it's a gorgeous song with so much emotional meaning to those who can relate to the song.

masterlist listen to "she waits" here!

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have faith, promises were made. you just take care and behave, you left and now you are saved, the path it walks you away.

julianna shouldn't be upset anymore. it was no longer news that jules' mom left her and emotionally abused her when she was a much younger kid. now as a teenager, it still hurt her feelings when her mom fell through on a promise she had made to her daughter and the rest of her siblings. jules' mom was the best at giving excuses after making countless promises of coming back to her family.

"...c'mon jules, have faith. she promised us...mommy promised us that she'd be here so she has too!" julian, jules' younger brother was so hopeful and it broke jules' heart as she sighed

"i know she promised us julian but bub, she's never ever followed through on these promises," jules sighed as julian sniffled, upset that his older sister was telling the truth

of course, because julian was still young, the youngest of the holowitz siblings, he still had faith and belief in his mom. he still couldn't understand why all his older siblings were so against their mommy. he didn't know why they were always so mad at her and why they'd constantly spew their hate for the woman that gave birth to them and then just left them.

"i know...i just...i just want my momma..." julian cried softly as jules felt awful for the little boy who had no idea why their mother just up and left

"...i know bubba, i do too...i do too..."jules sighed as she picked up her brother and hugged him tightly

just like she was told to do by her dad, jules took care of herself and she behaved. her mom left and she was saved and now the path was left for her to walk it and see where it took her. of course, she'd always wait for her mom, she'd wait for her for eternity but she knew her mom would never come back especially when it was clear that her mom never loved her and the kids she gave birth to. or the man she married. it was clear she wanted a whole new life for herself so, that's what she did. and now, it was up to her now ex-husband to pick up the pieces that were broken forever.

and meanwhile the house is empty, the floors lay naked and weary. the walls, barely hanging on, carry on and she waits for you.

jules never thought she'd see this house again. today, jules was back in houston, texas due to a supernatural convention that was being held there. and because the convention centre was so close to her childhood home, she decided that after the convention, she'd take a quick little drive and check it out. see if it still looked the same or see if her dad had changed it like he had planned to do since the day his wife abandonded the family and his kids. even though she genuinely never thought she'd ever want to see the house again, her ego was forcing her to check it out. just to see if it would still have the painful connotations it did before she decided to leave houston when she was seventeen for hawaii.

so, it shouldn't have surprised her and made her heart physically hurt when she got out of her car and walked to the front door to see the house as it looked now. but it did make her heart physically hurt. the house was empty. the floors laid naked, weary and worn in from all the abuse it had been given by her and her siblings. the walls, were barely hanging on. the wallpaper clearly ripped off so aggressively that it had basically destroyed the walls as well. and even though jules shouldn't think this and hadn't thought of her in years, she still waited for her mom even though she had carried on with her life without her. she still yearned to be loved and appreciated by that woman. if anything, she just wanted to know why. why did that woman decide to marry that man, have all those kids and then just decide one day that she was just going to leave.

sniffling, jules was embarrassed as her husband rested his chin on her shoulder, "...you alright baby?" rob's soft voice whispered behind her as jules held back the sob that was waiting to be heard

"no...i just...i don't get it...i don't understand why we weren't enough for her, you know? were we not good kids? was dad not a good husband?" jules' voice shook as rob sighed, turning his wife around and hugging her properly

"i know babe. i know what it feels like...and i highly doubt it was your guys' fault. i think a hundred per cent it was her fault. you were more than enough for her, the whole family was, and she didn't know how to appreciate that. it scared her that she could have people that loved her and she ran away because she didn't how to deal with it like an adult," rob whispered as jules nodded her head and smiled at her husband

she knew the pain of her husband's own abandonment by his dad and how that affected him. which was why it was so easy for rob to comfort jules when she'd get upset about her mom's abandonment. so she was glad that when she told that side of her to rob, she felt safe knowing that he could relate to her, as depressing and so dependent it sounds, it meant that they both had something traumatic that they could relate to. it was something they could bond over because they knew what it felt like to be abandoned by a parent, by someone who was supposed to love unconditionally and love them.

"yeah...she was probably scared but, why couldn't she just be the one to break the generational trauma? why does it have to be me and my siblings?" jules now felt mad as rob sighed, biting his lip as he shook his head

"i don't know darling but, if you don't break the generational trauma right now, then who will?" rob spoke as jules nodded her head, knowing she couldn't argue with that so she didn't

"no one would. it'll continue happening each generation that's created so, the cycle ends here," jules breathed in heavily as she clenched her fists as rob smiled, feeling proud of his wife

"atta girl. let's go, we don't need to be here anymore," rob smiled as he held his hand out for his wife as the benedicts then left the house that held many a bad memory

last night you left like a bird, fly away and never be heard. the wind, it's cold and absurd but man, you gave her your word.

as jules and the rest of the horowitz family slept peacefully, there was a sudden slam of the front door. this made all the siblings jolt awake as jules clambered out of her bed, down the hall, down the stairs and to the front door whilst the rest of the brothers and sisters fell back asleep. where her father, john horowitz stood as he sobbed. wailing for his wife, hollie-anne horowitz to come back as he opened the door back up again after hollie-anne had slammed it shut. begging for her to not leave him and the family. apologising if he had done something wrong that caused her to up and leave, abandoning their children. and this worried jules. as the third oldest child but first oldest of the girls, she rushed to be with her dad. wanting to comfort him and wanting to know what had happened.

"...daddy? what are you doing? what's wrong?" an exhausted jules muttered as she cuddled up next to her dad at the front door that was opened for the dark early morning hours to see

"ahh...jules, honey! what are you doing here? you should be sleeping!" john sniffled, trying to wipe away his tears before kneeling down to his young daughter's height

"i heard the front door slam, it scared me...where's mommy? was it her that slammed the front door?" jules was scared, sure, her mom wasn't a great mom but that was still her mom and jules adored her mom when she shouldn't be

"yeah honey. it was mommy that slammed the front door..." john whimpered, not even trying to stay strong as jules' eyes started to tear up as well, her dad's big oversized shirt she was wearing as her pyjamas made her look even smaller as john looked at her

"...where did she go? is mommy going to come back?" jules whimpered as her eyes welled with tears and her bottom lip shook as john shook his head, closing his eyes

"i don't think so baby girl. she seemed pretty certain that she wasn't going to come back..." john then shivered, as did jules, the wind cold and absurd for this time of year as hollie-anne vowed to never do the very thing her own mother did to her

"...but...but she promised she wouldn't leave...she pinky promised me she wouldn't do what gma did..." jules' teary voice broke john's heart because he remembered that pinky promise that hollie-anne made with jules when she was actually somewhat of a nice mom

"...i know she did baby girl but...i'm afraid your mom is not good at keeping her pinky promises..." john trailed off as he finally picked up his eldest daughter to bring her back into the house since it was below freezing and it was getting late

but jules wriggled out of her dad's grip and she stepped out to the front porch step where she and her father were not even a minute ago. tears streaming down her small little cheeks as she just looked into the darkness of the houston chill and she waited. she waited as long as she could before john knew better to leave his daughter out of the house like this. bringing jules back inside the house was a struggle but once he picked her up and brought her inside, closing and then locking the front door, she couldn't fight anymore. she was too weak and exhausted, falling asleep out of pure exhaustion of her tears on her daddy's shoulder as he walked them upstairs and into daddy's room. john knew his daughter wouldn't be able to stomach falling back asleep in her own bed. so, he let his six-year-old daughter sleep in his bed with her for the next four months, right up until she turned seven.

and meanwhile the house is empty, the floors lay naked and weary. the walls, barely hanging on, carry on and she waits for you.

moving into a new house with her boyfriend rob should have excited jules. it was a happy occasion. jules left hawaii to move back to the "mainland" usa and live in los angeles with her boyfriend. however, walking into this new house felt eerily similar to her childhood home back in houston, texas. the one that haunted the adult in her sleep every night. the one that her father and youngest brother julian still lived in. the one that took years for her father to get rid of everything that had connotations to his ex-wife that just left that one evening with no other word of warning but a measly letter that john had later found after jules had finally cried herself to sleep that night that hollie-anne left. but that was exactly it, no matter where jules moved to, every single house she's moved into, it reminded her of her mother. especially when it was a house that was empty, the floors naked with no rugs or carpets or worn in from the years of it being lived in. the walls were new and pristine but to jules, she saw the walls in the same way she saw herself, barely hanging on.

"...jules, babe, you need to stop doing this every time we move houses. you're slowly killing yourself by thinking everywhere we go is houston and your mom..." rob sighed, feeling bad that his girlfriend felt like this because he knew exactly what it felt like, he too had a parent abandon him

it was his dad that abandonded rob and his family but, he still knew what parental abandonment felt like. he had to live with it and still lives with it every single day but, he doesn't let it constantly control his life. he wasn't doing what jules does which is every new place they move into, bring in the memory of her mother that left.

"...i know i need to stop but i...i just can't! i don't know how!" jules sighed as she plopped herself onto the new velvet couch - which, when she really thought about it, was definitely nothing like the couch she had in her childhood home in houston

"yes you do, jules, you just don't want to stop it. and i know that because i did the same thing for a little while too but, i eventually stopped it because i realised i knew how to stop it, i just didn't want to because i thought if i stopped bringing my dad into every situation that my world would end. but, as soon as i stopped bringing dad into everything and waiting for him, my life became better and i didn't think of him everywhere i went. and i was so much happier knowing that i could live without him and that i no longer had to wait for someone who was never going to come back..." rob was exhausted, not of his girlfriend but of the pain she was putting herself through every single day

rob really did love jules but he didn't love that she couldn't let go of the woman that abandoned her. all because somewhere inside of her, there was still the little six-year-old jules that stood outside that front door in a cold houston chill waiting for her mommy to come home the very same evening she up and left.

"...you're right rob. i do know how to stop it and i don't want to stop it because if i do stop it, i feel like i'll never get the answers i deserved. the answers that that little girl all those years ago deserved...and i want answers rob, i want to know why she decided to leave! i want to know why she thought it was a good idea to just leave my family alone in the late night houston chill. i want to know what we did that made her leave us!" jules cried as rob softened immediately, not that he was fighting her or mad, he just hated seeing the hurt and pain that was still etched on his girlfriend's face

"i know babe but that's not healthy. and it's not going to do anything to actually help you, even though it may seem like closure, it's not actually going to help you, it's only going to make you fall into a deeper spiral of the what ifs," rob soothed as he pulled jules in for a hug as jules nodded her head

"yeah...you're right..." jules whispered as she sniffled and pulled out of the hug as she then saw all the boxes filled with everything that she and rob had brought with them to fill their new house with

"...well, how about we make this house a home? it shouldn't stay empty cause then that'll be boring.." jules smiled as rob's eyes lit up with joy as he nodded his head

"..that's an amazing idea, jules. i'd love to do that, let's start with this room we're in now and go from there..." rob smiled as jules nodded her head as her tears were gone and her joy had returned

even though today was a win, tomorrow was a whole nother story because she was always going to wait for her mom. but, right now, she didn't feel like she needed to because it was clear that right now, she wasn't going to come back. and jules was okay with that because she was with rob and in a new house where her mother wasn't.

she can't hear anything they're saying, she can't believe what is true. it doesn't make sense what they're saying, she can't see anyone but you.

in all of the supernatural storylines, jules had never really explored the storyline about her characters abandonment issues. and there was a reason for that. robert singer didn't want to put jules back into the position of when she was a child and her own mother abandoning her and she loved that and appreciated what robert did. but, since it was a major part of who she was as jules but also a major part of who her character in supernatural was, it would only make sense to let that part of her story be shared. so, jules begged and begged robert and andrew dabb to create that part of her character's story into a storyline for the next season and they actually said yes and jules was bursting with joy. she was so happy that she could finally tell this side of the story to her character whilst also not needing to stray too far away from her own self to make it seem authentic and believable.

her character, leigha watson, was a hunter alongside the winchester brothers, sam and dean, and angel castiel. leigha was the youngest of the group but she was the one with the most authority, what she said, goes. and for a while, dean didn't like that because he was the leader until he met leigha and he kinda fell in love with her. however, there was a huge secret that leigha was keeping from the boys and castiel. that she was abandoned by her mom at fourteen-years-old who covered it up by saying that she was leaving for a hunting trip and would only be gone for a week. and, after the week passed, it worried leigha and her family that their mom and wife still hadn't returned. so, leigha, the oldest of the kids went out to look for her mom in the place where she had told the family where her last known location was. however, mrs watson wasn't there but what was there was a note. and written on that note was mrs watson explaining and apologising. saying that she was sorry she lied but said she lied so no one would try to find her because she knew that if she didn't lie and told the truth her family would come looking for her. which, i'm sure you can guess, is not what mrs watson wanted. she didn't want to be found because she didn't want to be a mother or a wife anymore. she wanted to be a full time hunter and not worry about wondering whether or not she was doing a good job in keeping her husband and kids safe. so, she just decided the best thing was instead of leaving her job as a hunter that it would be safer if she just left her family and abandonded them instead.

and as you can imagine, this devastated leigha and her family. it caused so many fights in her family that it broke the family up. to the point where the older children, excluding leigha, left and the youngest and leigha stayed with their father. that was until leigha had to leave since she wanted to become a hunter just like her mom. and, also because she hoped that if she became a hunter that she would run into her mom. however, leigha was still waiting for the day she'd run into her mom as it hadn't happened yet. and it discouraged her...

...that was...until she saw someone whilst on a hunt with the gang. and the woman she had seen looked exactly like her mom. she couldn't verify if it was her mom but, it gave leigha hope that it was her mom. and because she was so hyperfixated on the woman that could be her mother, she couldn't hear anything that the boys were shouting at her. she couldn't believe what the potential truth could be. the truth that she could have found her mom, finally, after over a decade of looking.

sam, dean and cas all kept on trying to get her attention but it fell on deaf ears as they watched the way leigha tried to see if she could look at the older woman's face. because that was the only thing she could see. she couldn't see anyone but her...

...until the woman turned around fully, her eyes widened and she ran away because she knew they were the hunters, the people trying to capture her because she was the monster they were hunting for. but, because leigha had full faith that it was her mom, she had no idea until she let it run away before realising that she was what they had been hunting for the entire time and now, she had just let her go.

"...i...i am so sorry guys..." leigha stammered as she knew how mad the boys would be at the fact that she let the monster go

"...it's fine, leigha...we're just worried about you, what happened back there? you are usually an amazing hunter but this trip tripped you up. what went wrong?" dean was worried as were sam and castiel, sure it was annoying that they lost this hunt, but it wasn't the end of the world

what they were catching wasn't anything like a wendigo or a dangerous changeling. it was just an angel that had lost her course of travel and all they were sent there to do was to guide the angel back on her course to wherever it was she needed to be. so, it wasn't a danger that they hadn't caught her and that she had been let free.

"i...i thought she was my mom..." leigha stammered as the boys looked at each other and then back at leigha in confusion

"...your mom? i thought you told us that she had died...that was definitely not your mom, leigha!" sam was shocked and confused as leigha scoffed a laugh and provided the truth

"i lied sammy. my mom's not dead, that i know of. she could very well be dead now but, i wouldn't know because she abandonded me and my family when i was fourteen. she covered it up with a lie, saying that she was going on a hunting trip and that she'd only be gone a week...obviously, that was a lie as by the time the week finished and she wasn't home by dinner time, i went out to what she told us was her last known location and found a letter in place of where she should have been...and she's been gone ever since and that was why i started hunting...because, if i went on a hunting trip, there was always a reason for me to believe that she could be on the same hunt that i was on and i'd see her again..." leigha trailed off as the boys watched on in sadness for their best friend

"...but you never came into contact with her even though you saw her in everyone you came into contact with..." sam finished as leigha nodded her head as she breathed out shakily, tears welling in her eyes at the memory of every hunt she had gone on just hoping she'd bump into her mom

"...yeah...that's about right..." leigha sniffled as dean pulled his lover in for a hug as the distraught girl mustered a smile

"...why didn't you tell us sooner sweetheart? we could've asked castiel to go and look for her..."

"...no, you couldn't have and i wouldn't have let you. i can't keep doing this and think that my mom's going to be there when i wait for her because she won't be there and i have to finally take that as a sign to stop waiting for her..." leigha trailed off as leigha faded away and the tears streaming down her face was jules' tears and it was jules' cheeks

the director called for a cut and jules was left to cry on her own on the sound stage as she had to pick up the pieces of herself that broke and had to start glueing them back together to fix the broken pieces of herself.

little girl hold on and wait, it's not fair the fairness is overrated. wait and you will be saved, the path it walks in this way.

jules smiled as cheers and laughter could be heard all around her as she sat onstage during a supernatural convention in texas but this time, it was san antonio so she wouldn't have to see her childhood home this time. it was nearing the end of her panel with rob, jared and jensen when a little girl all of a sudden shuffled up to the microphone.

"...wait, wait, guys, don't end the questions just yet, i am so sorry but, i think this little girl has a question..." jules felt bad for stopping the moderator who was about to halt all questions but, she saw a little girl walk near the microphone stand and it was obvious she had a question

and the moderator nodded her head and stayed at the microphone stand as the little girl made it, "...hello sweetheart, what's your name and what's your question?" jules asked softly, inching off her seat even more to see the little girl clearer

the little girl smiled with a shy energy to her as she breathed into the microphone, "my name is julianna and...and my question is for jules..." julianna, the little girl spoke in her little high-pitched voice as the crowd cooed, jules, rob, jensen and jared doing the same thing

"...hello julianna, what a beautiful name, did you know that's my full name? jules is just my nickname?" jules smiled at the little girl who lit up at hearing that she shared the same first name as one of her idols as she then started to ask her question

"well, my question is, i really loved the storyline about leigha's abandonment from her mom and i wanna know, what was it like for you to film since i know from watching it that it was very hard to watch as my mom also left me and my family so...i...i was just wondering if it was hard for you to film that or not..." julianna got teary at the end of her question as that broke jules' heart as rob, jensen and jared watched closely, their hearts breaking as well

julianna, the little girl only looked to be eight...maybe, just maybe nine but, if julianna was nine, nearing ten, she was awfully small for that age. and it broke jules' heart into two because whilst jules was a lot younger, six, when her mom left her and her family, when she was julianna's age, she was still very much struggling with the fact that she didn't have a mom to run to for help or even an older sister since she was the older sister in the family, she didn't have a girl older than her to run to for help.

"...oh honey, are you okay? do...do you need a hug?" jules stood up from her seat as she watched little julianna started to cry, no longer able to hold her tears in anymore as the audience stayed quiet

julianna nodded her head as she slightly stepped away from the microphone so it wouldn't pick up her little sobs. jules stepped down from the stage and walked the two steps to where the moderator and julianna was and picked the little girl up and hugged her tightly. it was obvious to rob, jared, jensen and the fans in the audience who knew jules' story, that she saw herself in little julianna and how unfair it was that she was still hearing these stories of little kids being abandonded and left behind by either one of or both of their parents. a few minutes later and little julianna had stopped crying, only little sniffles could be heard and jules was content in knowing that the little girl could go back to her seat back to her dad who had come to the convention with her. it was obvious that little julianna's dad had also been crying duirng that exchange because not only had julianna's mom abandonded her, julianna, but she had also abandonded her husband and the father of their children. so it wasn't shocking that little julianna's dad was also crying and it wasn't something that needed to be made into a scene either because it was a father having his heart break as his little girl tells her favourite group of actors that she can relate to one of the storylines in a tv show that technically, she is still too young to watch and comprehend properly. but, again, it's stories like these that jules and the rest of her cast mates hear on the daily that makes what they do nine months out of the year completely worth it in the end.

as little julianna went back to her seat, it only felt like now, that she was away from the microphone and with her dad, that jules felt like she could properly answer the question.

"well, julianna, to answer your question properly, i have to say, it was hard to film that because, just like you, i was also abandonded by my mother. i was a lot younger than you and way younger than leigha was as her mom abandonded her when she was fourteen whereas i was six when my mom left back home in houston. so, i was very, very young yet, i still felt like i was old enough that i could understand what was going on and that mom was leaving and never coming back. however, i feel like as i've gotten older, it's been harder to understand that my mom left and never came back. and, i remember when cut was called on that scene that ties up that abandonment storyline and i just remember i started crying. and, i couldn't distinguish if these were tears for leigha...like i couldn't tell if these were leigha's tears and emotion or if was jules' tears and emotion. and i say that because my last line in that episode regarding leigha's mom and it's after dean asks why leigha hadn't told them as they could have had castiel look for her as they were on the hunt where they were trying to find the lost angel and leigha goes, "no, you couldn't have and i wouldn't have let you. i can't keep doing this and think that my mom's going to be there when i wait for her because she won't be there and i have to finally take that as a sign to stop waiting for her." and, it just hit me in that moment that it was life imitating art imitating life because that was what i was needing to do. i was needing to stop myself from waiting for someone who i know is never going to be there for me..." jules trailed off as she smiled at the little girl and her father who clinged onto every single world jules had said but it was clear that they weren't the only ones, it looked as though the whole convention hall had clinged onto every single world and you could hear a pin drop

because it was unfair but if little jules could wait and this was the life she lived now, so could little julianna. because little julianna's life was going to change forever and in the best way and it was her mom's loss that she was never going to know about it or see it because she made the decision to leave rather than stay.

and meanwhile the house is empty, the floors lay, naked and weary. the walls barely hanging on, carry on and she waits for you.

jules hadn't ever been happier in her life. she had just found out that she was pregnant with her and rob's first baby. and the way she surprised rob was in the empty spare room at the end of the upstairs hallway that was next to their bedroom. the room, that used to lay naked and weary was now decorated from top to bottom with everything that had got to do with babies and having a baby. it was colourful, it was vibrant, it was happy. it reflected the new joy of jules becoming a mom after always being scared of being one since the only mom she ever knew was a mom that lied and eventually ran away, never to be seen again but always waited on. and that wasn't what jules wanted to be as a mom. she wanted to be a mom that told the truth, that stayed and was always one message or phone call away if help was needed, and a mom that didn't need to be waited on. a mom that didn't break her pinky promises.

"...jules? babe, where are you?" rob giggled as he entered the house after a long work day as jules bit her lip in excitement

"upstairs babe, in the spare room next to our bedroom," jules tried to hide the excitement in her voice but it was clear that it couldn't be hidden way as rob giggled

he made his way upstairs to the spare room that was always empty, with confusion as to why his wife was up there. but, because he was too tired to question it, he didn't. however, what he saw when he made his way into the room made so many questions fly through his head that it almost made him burst.

"wait...is this...are you pregnant, jules?" rob questioned as his eyes widened as jules bit her lip and nodded her head

"uh-huh! all five tests said positive!" jules burst into excited squeals and tippy taps as rob laughed in joy, pulling his wife in for a hug as tears welled in his eyes

"oh my gosh, baby, you're pregnant pregnant!" rob sobbed with a giggle as jules giggled and nodded her head

"mmm, i'm pregnant pregnant!" jules sighed with contentment as rob then relaxed his shoulders as he noticed that jules wasn't worried like she used to be

"and...you're not...worried?" rob questioned, pulling out of the hug as jules shook her head

"no, babe, oh my gosh no! i'm not worried at all. if this was happening at the beginning of our relationship or even the start of our marriage then, hell yes, i would be freaking out and thinking about not wanting it. but, because, i've stopped waiting for her and expecting her to be there when i know she won't, i feel so much better and i'm so excited rob. i'm so excited to be a mom and for you to be a dad..." jules sighed as she sat her and rob down on the bed as rob released all the stress he had just gave himself

"...i'm glad you're excited about this because you will be such an amazing mom, jules. i have no worries at all that what happened to you when you were a kid is not going to happen to this baby...to our baby. because i'm not going to leave this baby and you're not going to leave this baby, we've already broken the generational trauma to make sure it never ever happens again to the future children and their childrens children. we're doing a great thing here, jules and i cannot wait for it. if anything, we're no longer waiting for our deadbeat mom and dad but our little baby," rob smiled with tears in his eyes as jules nodded her head as she gave her husband a kiss

"we're waiting for our little benedict," jules whispered as rob nods his head as he then goes to his knees to kiss the non-existant baby bump

she waits for you, she waits

after waiting eight and a half months, in december on a cold evening in austin, texas during christmas with the padalecki's and ackles' families that jules gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. the baby girl was named tallulah eleanor benedict and was healthy at a steady five pounds and eight ounces.

hearing the cries of little tallulah sounded like the angels in heaven. whilst it may have been exhausting for jules and painful to deliver a baby into this world after it living in the womb for nearly nine months, it was still a beautiful thing. and something that jules and rob could definitely see themselves doing again if they wanted to give tallulah some siblings in the future. but, right now, tallulah had just arrived and it was all about her.

"...here she is, well done jules. you did an amazing job, does the father want to cut the cord?" the attending midwife turned to the husband as rob smiled and nodded his head

the midwife offered him the sheers and he cut the cord clean and perfectly as tallulah was properly swaddled up and returned to her mommy and daddy.

"isn't she just gorgeous, rob? we made her, we actually created an entire little human being!" jules muttered, clearly still loopy and delirious from her epidural as rob could only smile with teary eyes at his wife

"she's beautiful, jules, just like her mommy. and yes, we did make her, we made a gorgeous human being who looks like the perfect mix of her mommy and daddy!" rob smiled as he caressed both jules and then tallulah as the midwife returned

"sorry to disturb you mom and dad but, i think the godparents want to be introduced to their goddaughter..." the midwife smiled as rob smiled as did jules as they nodded their heads

although it was tradition for the grandparents to meet the new baby first, rob and jules didn't fly that why. of course, rob and jules both loved their singular parent, of course they did. but, because they had tallulah in austin, texas, not in either of the states that rob's mom and jules' dad currently were, it just made sense that the godparents and other uncles and aunties met baby tallulah first. since mrs benedict and mr holowitz were on flights over to austin which meant that it was still a few hours before they'd land in austin and then arrive to the hospital to then meet the baby.

which leads to the question that everyone was curious about and that was who the godparents to baby tallulah was. and, the godparents of tallulah are jared and gen as well as jensen and danneel. which, everyone should have theoretically seen coming but, it was still a shock when rob and jules announced it.

"...of course, they can come in," jules smiled as she sat her and baby tallulah up in the hospital bed as jared & gen and jensen & danneel walked in

the two couples were confused that all four of them were asked to come in rather than just one of the couples. but, they didn't argue and they all cooed in adoration for the new spnfamily baby.

"oh my gosh...jules, rob...she's gorgeous! what's little bubba's name?" gen cooed as she looked at the baby lovingly, danneel, jared and jensen doing the same

"thank you gen, her name's tallulah eleanor benedict..." jules trailed off as she looked down at the little girl she was cradling that was hers and her husbands

"...tallulah eleanor...that's such a perfect name for a perfect little princess!" gen cooed again as jared could tell his wife was getting baby fever even though they already had three kids as jensen could tell that danneel was trying hard to hide her own baby fever as well

"she's gorgeous jules but, why do you need all four of us in here? i thought you only needed the godparents..." jensen asked in confusion as jules and rob giggled as little tallulah wiggled and made little noises

"...exactly...all four of you are tallulah's godparents," jules smiled as they all looked at their best friend and castmate as though she had four eyes

"wait, that's allowed? i only thought only one couple were allowed to be a child's godparents..." jared trailed off in confusion as to be fair, he did have a fair point

"...technically, that is true and if there is any "paperwork" that needs only one pair of emergency contacts, it'll be you and gen, alright jared. but, if it needs a second pair of emergency contacts, that's where jensen and danneel come in and why i want tallulah to have two godmoms and two goddads cause she already has enough aunties and uncles..." jules trailed off as they all giggled but it was clear that it really touched both couples that they both had been chosen as tallulah's legal guardians if anything were to happen to jules and rob

"...well, she does have a lot of aunties and uncles and cousins but, that's the best way to do it. you wouldn't want to bring a kid up with no one around them," jared smiled as he moved over and hugged jules and placing his gigantic hand on baby tallulah's teeny tiny head

"that's very true, jared, very true," jules smiled in content as she looked at everyone around her plus the others in the waiting room and her dad and mrs benedict who were also on their way as well

she had never felt this amount of love before but she loved it but she loved her new baby girl the most. baby tallulah was what jules had been waiting for, not her mother.

- - -

okay phew, this was fun to write but i don't know if it's good i guess. mainly because i've never written about parental abandonment because i never experienced that. but, alas, i did enjoy writing this as, like i said, i do love "she waits" by louden swain and i have had this idea for a while but i just never knew how to write it or how it'll turn out. but, i am still proud of it.

ok bye ily xx

wc; 7233

#supernatural cast #rob benedict x jules #angst but happy ending #she waits #abandonment issues

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theforbiddentower · 1 year

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It was a grey, cloudy morning. The fine spring weather had broken and rain looked certain. When they gathered on the lawn, ready to leave for the day's work, the Punchinellos stared at them suspiciously. They didn't know what to make of so many drawn-on faces. One was a target for ridicule, but this number looked like some peculiar form of conspiracy. Bezuel went up to Charm and was displeased at what she had done.

"No likey," the guard replied.

"Oh, what a bloody shame," the girl replied.

He reaches up and grabbed her face, then tried to rub the moustache off her lip with a calloused thumb. Charm cried out and Lee jumped forward. Bezuel bared his teeth and pointed a gun at him.

"Its all right," Charm told Lee. "I'm OK."

Bezuel's beady eyes glowered at the boy and he held the gun at the angle like a gangster rapper. "Pop pop pop," he cackled. "Me watchy you."

- Freax and Rejex, Robin Jarvis

#Bezuel #Charm Benedict #Lee Jules Sherlon Charles #Punchinello Monsters #Robin Jarvis #Dancing Jax #Freax and Rejex by Robin Jarvis #Book Villains #Excerpts #Dancing Jax Trilogy #Dancing Jax Trilogy by Robin Jarvis

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The Disability Library

I love books, I love literature, and I love this blog, but it's only been recently that I've really been given the option to explore disabled literature, and I hate that. When I was a kid, all I wanted was to be able to read about characters like me, and now as an adult, all I want is to be able to read a book that takes us seriously.

And so, friends, Romans, countrymen, I present, a special disability and chronic illness booklist, compiled by myself and through the contributions of wonderful members from this site!

As always, if there are any at all that you want me to add, please just say. I'm always looking for more!

Edit 20/10/2023: You can now suggest books using the google form at the bottom!

Updated: 31/08/2023

Articles and Chapters

The Drifting Language of Architectural Accessibility in Victor Hugo's Notre-Dame de Paris, Essaka Joshua, 2012

Early Modern Literature and Disability Studies, Allison P. Hobgood, David Houston Wood, 2017

How Do You Develop Whole Object Relations as an Adult?, Elinor Greenburg, 2019

Making Do with What You Don't Have: Disabled Black Motherhood in Octavia E. Butler's Parable of the Sower and Parable of the Talents, Anna Hinton, 2018

Necropolitics, Achille Mbeme, 2003 OR Necropolitics, Achille Mbeme, 2019

Wasted Lives: Modernity and Its Outcasts, Zygmunt Bauman, 2004

Witchcraft and deformity in early modern English Literature, Scott Eaton, 2020

Books

Fiction:

Misc:

10 Things I Can See From Here, Carrie Mac

A-F:

A Curse So Dark and Lonely, (Series), Brigid Kemmerer

Akata Witch, (Series), Nnedi Okorafor

A Mango-Shaped Space, Wendy Mass

Ancillary Justice, (Series), Ann Leckie

An Unkindness of Ghosts, Rivers Solomon

An Unseen Attraction, (Series), K. J. Charles

A Shot in the Dark, Victoria Lee

A Snicker of Magic, Natalie Lloyd

A Song of Ice and Fire, (series), George R. R. Martin

A Spindle Splintered, (Series), Alix E. Harrow

A Time to Dance, Padma Venkatraman

Bath Haus, P. J. Vernon

Beasts of Prey, (Series), Ayana Gray

The Bedlam Stacks, (Series), Natasha Pulley

Black Bird, Blue Road, Sofiya Pasternack

Black Sun, (Series), Rebecca Roanhorse

Blood Price, (Series), Tanya Huff

Borderline, (Series), Mishell Baker

Breath, Donna Jo Napoli

The Broken Kingdoms, (Series), N.K. Jemisin

Brute, Kim Fielding

Cafe con Lychee, Emery Lee

Carry the Ocean, (Series), Heidi Cullinan

Challenger Deep, Neal Shusterman

Cinder, (Series), Marissa Meyer

Clean, Amy Reed

Connection Error, (Series), Annabeth Albert

Cosima Unfortunate Steals A Star, Laura Noakes

Crazy, Benjamin Lebert

Crooked Kingdom, (Series), Leigh Bardugo

Daniel Cabot Puts Down Roots, (Series), Cat Sebastian

Daniel, Deconstructed, James Ramos

Dead in the Garden, (Series), Dahlia Donovan

Dear Fang, With Love, Rufi Thorpe

Deathless Divide, (Series), Justina Ireland

The Degenerates, J. Albert Mann

The Doctor's Discretion, E.E. Ottoman

Earth Girl, (Series), Janet Edwards

Everyone in This Room Will Someday Be Dead, Emily R. Austin

The Extraordinaries, (Series), T. J. Klune

The Extraordinary Education of Nicholas Benedict, (Series), Trenton Lee Stewart

Fight + Flight, Jules Machias

The Final Girl Support Group, Grady Hendrix

Finding My Voice, (Series), Aoife Dooley

The First Thing About You, Chaz Hayden

Follow My Leader, James B. Garfield

Forever Is Now, Mariama J. Lockington

Fortune Favours the Dead, (Series), Stephen Spotswood

Fresh, Margot Wood

H-0:

Harmony, London Price

Harrow the Ninth, (series), Tamsyn Muir

Hench, (Series), Natalia Zina Walschots

Highly Illogical Behaviour, John Corey Whaley

Honey Girl, Morgan Rogers

How to Become a Planet, Nicole Melleby

How to Bite Your Neighbor and Win a Wager, (Series), D. N. Bryn

How to Sell Your Blood & Fall in Love, (Series), D. N. Bryn

Hunger Pangs: True Love Bites, Joy Demorra

I Am Not Alone, Francisco X. Stork

The Immeasurable Depth of You, Maria Ingrande Mora

In the Ring, Sierra Isley

Into The Drowning Deep, (Series), Mira Grant

Iron Widow, (Series), Xiran Jay Zhao

Izzy at the End of the World, K. A. Reynolds

Jodie's Journey, Colin Thiele

Just by Looking at Him, Ryan O'Connell

Kissing Doorknobs, Terry Spencer Hesser

Lakelore, Anna-Marie McLemore

Learning Curves, (Series), Ceillie Simkiss

Let's Call It a Doomsday, Katie Henry

The Library of the Dead, (Series), TL Huchu

The Lion Hunter, (Series), Elizabeth Wein

Lirael, (Series), Garth Nix

Long Macchiatos and Monsters, Alison Evans

Love from A to Z, (Series), S.K. Ali

Lycanthropy and Other Chronic Illnesses, Kristen O'Neal

Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro

The Never Tilting World, (Series), Rin Chupeco

The No-Girlfriend Rule, Christen Randall

Nona the Ninth, (series), Tamsyn Muir

Noor, Nnedi Okorafor

Odder Still, (Series), D. N. Bryn

Once Stolen, (Series), D. N. Bryn

One For All, Lillie Lainoff

On the Edge of Gone, Corinne Duyvis

Origami Striptease, Peggy Munson

Our Bloody Pearl, (Series), D. N. Bryn

Out of My Mind, Sharon M. Draper

P-T:

Parable of the Sower, (Series), Octavia E. Butler

Parable of the Talents, (Series), Octavia E. Butler

Percy Jackson & the Olympians, (series), Rick Riordan

Pomegranate, Helen Elaine Lee

The Prey of Gods, Nicky Drayden

The Pursuit Of..., (Series), Courtney Milan

The Queen's Thief, (Series), Megan Whalen Turner

The Quiet and the Loud, Helena Fox

The Raging Quiet, Sheryl Jordan

The Reanimator's Heart, (Series), Kara Jorgensen

The Remaking of Corbin Wale, Joan Parrish

Roll with It, (Series), Jamie Sumner

Russian Doll, (Series), Cristelle Comby

The Second Mango, (Series), Shira Glassman

Scar of the Bamboo Leaf, Sieni A.M

Shaman, (Series), Noah Gordon

Sick Kids in Love, Hannah Moskowitz

The Silent Boy, Lois Lowry

Six of Crows, (Series) Leigh Bardugo

Sizzle Reel, Carlyn Greenwald

The Spare Man, Mary Robinette Kowal

The Stagsblood Prince, (Series), Gideon E. Wood

Stake Sauce, Arc 1: The Secret Ingredient is Love. No, Really, (Series), RoAnna Sylver

Stars in Your Eyes, Kacen Callender [Expected release: Oct 2023]

The Storm Runner, (Series), J. C. Cervantes

Stronger Still, (Series), D. N. Bryn

Sweetblood, Pete Hautman

Tarnished Are the Stars, Rosiee Thor

The Theft of Sunlight, (Series), Intisar Khanani

Throwaway Girls, Andrea Contos

Top Ten, Katie Cotugno

Torch, Lyn Miller-Lachmann

Treasure, Rebekah Weatherspoon

Turtles All the Way Down, John Green

U-Z:

Unlicensed Delivery, Will Soulsby-McCreath Expected release October 2023

Verona Comics, Jennifer Dugan

Vorkosigan Saga, (Series), Lois McMaster Bujold

We Are the Ants, (Series), Shaun David Hutchinson

The Weight of Our Sky, Hanna Alkaf

Whip, Stir and Serve, Caitlyn Frost and Henry Drake

The Whispering Dark, Kelly Andrew

Wicked Sweet, Chelsea M. Cameron

Wonder, (Series), R. J. Palacio

Wrong to Need You, (Series), Alisha Rai

Ziggy, Stardust and Me, James Brandon

Graphic Novels:

A Quick & Easy Guide to Sex & Disability, (Non-Fiction), A. Andrews

Constellations, Kate Glasheen

Dancing After TEN: a graphic memoir, (memoir) (Non-Fiction), Vivian Chong, Georgia Webber

Everything Is an Emergency: An OCD Story in Words Pictures, (memoir) (Non-Fiction), Jason Adam Katzenstein

Frankie's World: A Graphic Novel, (Series), Aoife Dooley

The Golden Hour, Niki Smith

Nimona, N. D. Stevenson

The Third Person, (memoir) (Non-Fiction), Emma Grove

Magazines and Anthologies:

Artificial Divide, (Anthology), Robert Kingett, Randy Lacey

Beneath Ceaseless Skies #175: Grandmother-nai-Leylit's Cloth of Winds, (Article), R. B. Lemburg

Defying Doomsday, (Anthology), edited by Tsana Dolichva and Holly Kench

Josee, the Tiger and the Fish, (short story) (anthology), Seiko Tanabe

Nothing Without Us, edited by Cait Gordon and Talia C. Johnson

Nothing Without Us Too, edited by Cait Gordon and Talia C. Johnson

Unbroken: 13 Stories Starring Disabled Teens, (Anthology), edited by Marieke Nijkamp

Uncanny #24: Disabled People Destroy Science Fiction, (Anthology), edited by: Elsa Sjunneson-Henry, Dominik Parisien et al.

Uncanny #30: Disabled People Destroy Fantasy, (Anthology), edited by: Nicolette Barischoff, Lisa M. Bradley, Katharine Duckett

We Shall Be Monsters, edited by Derek Newman-Stille

Manga:

Perfect World, (Series), Rie Aruga

The Sky is Blue with a Single Cloud, (Short Stories), Kuniko Tsurita

Non-Fiction:

Academic Ableism: Disability and Higher Education, Jay Timothy Dolmage

A Disability History of the United States, Kim E, Nielsen

The Architecture of Disability: Buildings, Cities, and Landscapes beyond Access, David Gissen

Being Seen: One Deafblind Woman's Fight to End Ableism, Elsa Sjunneson

Black Disability Politics, Sami Schalk

Borderline, Narcissistic, and Schizoid Adaptations: The Pursuit of Love, Admiration, and Safety, Dr. Elinor Greenburg

Brilliant Imperfection: Grappling with Cure, Eli Clare

The Cambridge Companion to Literature and Disability, Barker, Clare and Stuart Murray, editors.

The Capacity Contract: Intellectual Disability and the Question of Citizenship, Stacy Clifford Simplican

Capitalism and Disability, Martha Russel

Care work: Dreaming Disability Justice, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

Catatonia, Shutdown and Breakdown in Autism: A Psycho-Ecological Approach, Dr Amitta Shah

The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays, Esme Weijun Wang

Crip Kinship, Shayda Kafai

Crip Up the Kitchen: Tools, Tips and Recipes for the Disabled Cook, Jules Sherred

Culture – Theory – Disability: Encounters between Disability Studies and Cultural Studies, Anne Waldschmidt, Hanjo Berressem, Moritz Ingwersen

Decarcerating Disability: Deinstitutionalization and Prison Abolition, Liat Ben-Moshe

Demystifying Disability: What to Know, What to Say, and How to Be an Ally, Emily Ladau

Dirty River: A Queer Femme of Color Dreaming Her Way Home, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

Disability Pride: Dispatches from a Post-ADA World, Ben Mattlin

Disability Visibility: First-Person Stories From the Twenty-First Century, Alice Wong

Disfigured: On Fairy Tales, Disability and Making Space, Amanda Leduc

Every Cripple a Superhero, Christoph Keller

Exile and Pride: Disability, Queerness and Liberation, Eli Clare

Feminist Queer Crip, Alison Kafer

The Future Is Disabled: Prophecies, Love Notes, and Mourning Songs, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

Growing Up Disabled in Australia, Carly Findlay

It's Just Nerves: Notes on a Disability, Kelly Davio

The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks, Rebecca Skloot

Language Deprivation & Deaf Mental Health, Neil S. Glickman, Wyatte C. Hall

The Minority Body: A Theory of Disability, Elizabeth Barnes

My Body and Other Crumbling Empires: Lessons for Healing in a World That Is Sick, Lyndsey Medford

No Right to Be Idle: The Invention of Disability, 1840s-1930s, Sarah F. Rose

Nothing About Us Without Us: Disability Oppression and Empowerment, James I. Charlton

The Pedagogy of Pathologization Dis/abled Girls of Color in the School-prison Nexus, Subini Ancy Annamma

Physical Disability in British Romantic Literature, Essaka Joshua

QDA: A Queer Disability Anthology, Raymond Luczak, Editor.

The Right to Maim: Debility, Capacity, Disability, Jasbir K. Puar

Sitting Pretty, (memoir), Rebecca Taussig

Sounds Like Home: Growing Up Black & Deaf in the South, Mary Herring Wright

Surviving and Thriving with an Invisible Chronic Illness: How to Stay Sane and Live One Step Ahead of Your Symptoms, Ilana Jacqueline

The Things We Don't Say: An Anthology of Chronic Illness Truths, Julie Morgenlender

Uncanny Bodies: Superhero Comics and Disability, Scott T. Smith, José Alaniz

Uncomfortable Labels: My Life as a Gay Autistic Trans Woman, (memoir), Laura Kate Dale

Unmasking Autism, Devon Price

The War on Disabled People: Capitalism, Welfare and the Making of a Human Catastrophe, Ellen Clifford

We've Got This: Essays by Disabled Parents, Eliza Hull

Year of the Tiger: An Activist's Life, (memoir) (essays) Alice Wong

Picture Books:

A Day With No Words, Tiffany Hammond, Kate Cosgrove-

A Friend for Henry, Jenn Bailey, Mika Song

Ali and the Sea Stars, Ali Stroker, Gillian Reid

All Are Welcome, Alexandra Penfold, Suzanne Kaufman

All the Way to the Top, Annette Bay Pimentel, Jennifer Keelan-Chaffins, Nabi Ali

Can Bears Ski?, Raymond Antrobus, Polly Dunbar

Different -- A Great Thing to Be!, Heather Alvis, Sarah Mensinga

Everyone Belongs, Heather Alvis, Sarah Mensinga

I Talk Like a River, Jordan Scott, Sydney Smith

Jubilee: The First Therapy Horse and an Olympic Dream, K. T. Johnson, Anabella Ortiz

Just Ask!, Sonia Sotomayor, Rafael López

Kami and the Yaks, Andrea Stenn Stryer, Bert Dodson

My Three Best Friends and Me, Zulay, Cari Best, Vanessa Brantley-Newton

Rescue & Jessica: A Life-Changing Friendship, Jessica Kensky, Patrick Downes, Scott Magoon

Sam's Super Seats, Keah Brown, Sharee Miller

Small Knight and the Anxiety Monster, Manka Kasha

We Move Together, Kelly Fritsch, Anne McGuire, Eduardo Trejos

We're Different, We're the Same, and We're All Wonderful!, Bobbi Jane Kates, Joe Mathieu

What Happened to You?, James Catchpole, Karen George

The World Needs More Purple People, Kristen Bell, Benjamin Hart, Daniel Wiseman

You Are Enough: A Book About Inclusion, Margaret O'Hair, Sofia Sanchez, Sofia Cardoso

You Are Loved: A Book About Families, Margaret O'Hair, Sofia Sanchez, Sofia Cardoso

The You Kind of Kind, Nina West, Hayden Evans

Zoom!, Robert Munsch, Michael Martchenko

Plays:

Peeling, Kate O'Reilly

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50 books to read in a lifetime.

The Magician's Nephew, C.S. Lewis

The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, C.S. Lewis

The Horse and His Boy, C.S. Lewis

Prince Caspian, C.S. Lewis

The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, C.S. Lewis

The Silver Chair, C.S. Lewis

The Last Battle, C.S. Lewis

Anne of Green Gables, Lucy Maud Montgomery

Anne of Avonlea, L.M. Montgomery

Ender's Game, Orson Scott Card

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue, V.E. Schwab

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

Charlotte's Web, E.B. White

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl

James and the Giant Peach, Roald Dahl

Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, J.K. Rowling

Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl, Anne Frank

Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen

The Giver, Lois Lowry

Ghost Boys, Jewell Parker Rhodes

The Golden Compass, Philip Pullman

Macbeth, William Shakespeare

Ready Player One, Ernest Cline

These Violent Delights, Chloe Gong

Our Violent Ends, Chloe Gong

Holes, Louis Sachar

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, Benjamin Alire Saénz

Life of Pi, Yann Martel

Le Petit Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Little Women, Louisa May Alcott

The Secret History, Donna Tartt

The Mysterious Benedict Society, Tristan Lee Stewart

Les Trois Mousquetaires, Alexandre Dumas

The Hate U Give, Angie Thomas

Winnie-the-Pooh, A.A. Milne

The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, L. Frank Baum

Mary Poppins, P.L. Travers

A Wrinkle in Time, Madeleine Miller

The Fault in Our Stars, John Green

Looking for Alaska, John Green

Genuine Fraud, E. Lockhart

Scythe, Neil Shusterman

The Night Circus, Erin Morgenstern

Le Horla, Guy de Maupassant

Percy Jackson and the Lighting Thief, Rick Riordan

To all the Boys I've Loved Before, Jenny Han

The Summer I Turned Pretty, Jenny Han

If We Were Villains, M.L. Rio

Dracula, Bram Stoker

Le Tour du Monde en Quatre-Vingts Jours, Jules Verne

side note: all of these are in different genres with different age groups and levels of appropriate-ness. some are older and may contain controversial subjects. I speak for none of the authors: I liked the book, and that's it.

tag and comment your favourite books to be added to the list!

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The Exhibitors Herald, June 1926

The first of the deluxe presentations was at the Forrest theatre, Philadelphia, Thursday evening. The audience was composed largely of members of the Advertising Clubs of the World, which was holding an international convention in the Quaker City, and the members of the Poor Richard Club. There were also present a large turnout of society, official and judicial life of Philadelphia. The other audience, which included Mrs. Coolidge, members of the diplomatic corps and Washington newspapermen, as guests of the National Press club, viewed the picture at a special screening Friday night at Poli’s theatre in Washington. General W. W. Atterbury; Senator-elect [and notorious political boss] Wm. S. Vare; Senator [and law professor] George W. Pepper; Lieut. Commander Geo. B. Wilson, U. S. Navy [not to be confused with the character from the Great Gatsby] ; Mrs. Barclay Warburton [civil rights supporter and journalist] ; Major Norman MacLeod; E. T. Stottsbury; Paul Thompson; Alexander Van Rensselaer; Mrs. Charlemagne Tower; Dr. H. J. Tily [department story owner, mason] ; Mr. and Mrs. Theodore W. Reath; Frank Smith; Mr. and Mrs. Jos. N. Snellenburg [merchant in clothing trade] ; Mr. and Mrs. Arthur Block; Mr. and Mrs. Jules E. Mastbaum [movie theater and department store magnates] ; George Nitsche [possibly an affiliate of U. Penn]; Josiah H. Penniman [Provost of U. Penn] ; J. Willis Martin [a judge]; H. S. McDevitt; John J. Monaghan. Judge Buffington, of Pittsburgh; Thos Finletter [could be one of a a number of lawyers with this name]; Mr. and Mrs. A. L. Einstein; Maurice Paillard, French consul; Robt. Von Moschzisker [justice of the Supreme Court of Pennsylvania]; Mayor W. Freeland Kendrick; Geo. H. Elliott, director of public safety; Chas. B. Hall, president of City Council; Dr. Charles Hart; Rev. Wm. H. Fineschriber; Chas Fox, district attorney [could be a coincidence but Charles Fox III and IV are both currently lawyers in Pennsylvania]; John Fisler, president Manufacturers Club [golf afficianado]; Albert M. Greenfield [real estate broker and developer]; Jos. P. Gaffney; Mr. and Mrs. Ellis Gimbel [department store owner]; Daniel Gimbel [brother and co-owner along with Ellis]; J. D. Lit; Richard Gimbel [son of Ellis Gimble]; Benedict Gimbel [brother of Ellis and Daniel]; Colonel Robert Glendinning [banker]; Benjamin Golder [member of the Pennsylvania State House of Representatives], Agnew T. Dice [President of Reading Railroad]. Dr. Leon Elmaleh [founder of the Levantine Jews Society of Philadelphia]; H. Gilbert Cassidy [a judge]; Utley E. Crane [author of Business Law for Business Men]; Cyrus H. K. Curtis [magazine publisher]; Chas. S. Caldwell; G. W. Cole; Hampton L. Carson [lawyer, professor, state Attorney general]; A. Lincoln Acker [Philidelphia port collector]; Max Aron [lawyer]; Eugene C. Bonniwell [a judge]; Chas. L. Brown; Edward Groome; Chas. L. Bartlett; Edward Bok [editor of the Ladies Home Journal]; Mr. and Mrs. Geo. H. Lorimer [editor of the Saturday Evening Post]; Edw. Bacon; Chas. Curtis Harrison [a judge]; Samuel S. Eels, Rev. J. J. O’Hara [future Archbishop of Philadelphia], and Bishop Thos. J. Garland, D. D. [Episcopalian bishop]

There were a bunch of Universal employees in attendance too but that's less interesting to me. Let's see who went to the Washington show

Both showings were under the auspices of Ambassador Henri Beragner of France and Marcel Knecht, French publisher and trade representative. Dr. Ferdnand Heurteur, leader of the orchestra of the Paris Opera House, came to the United States to conduct the orchestras at these two showings. Among the distinguished guests at the Washington showing were: Don Juan Riano, Spanish ambassador; Senor and Senora de Mathieu, Chilan ambassador; Raoul Tilmont, secretary, Belgium embassy; G. H. Thompson, second secretary, British embassy; A. J. Pack, British embassy; Eduardo Racedo and Madame Racedo, first secretary, Argentine embassy; Conrado Traverso, Argentine embassy; Dr. and Senora Velarde, Peruvian ambassador; Dr. and Madame Santiago F. Bedoya, secretary, Peruvian embassy; Senor and Senora Tellez, Mexican ambassador; Senor and Senora Castro, secretary, Mexican embassy; Ambassador de Martino, Italy; Colonel Augusto Villa, miltary attache, Italian embassy; Count and Countess Sommati di Mombello, Italian embassy; Signor Leonardo Vitetti, Italian embassy. Baron and Baroness Ago Maltzan, German embassy; Mr. and Madame Matsuidaira, Japanese embassy; Mr. and Madame Gurgel de Amaral, Brazilian embassy; Senor and Senora de Sanchez Aballi, Cuban embassy; Senor Don Jose T. Baron, secretary, Cuban embassy; Brigadier General Georges A. L. Dumont, military attache, French embassy; Mr. Jules Henry, first secretary, French embassy; Major and Madame Georges Thenault, French embassy; Captain and Madame Willm, French embassy; Mr. A. Konow Bojsen, secretary, Danish legation; Mr. and Madame Marc Peter, Swiss ambassador; Mr. Andor de Hertelendy, Hungarian embassay; Senor and Senora Ricardo Jaimes Freyre, Bolivian embassy. Mr. and Mrs. Timothy A. Smiddy, minister, Irish Free State; Mr. and Madame Simoposilis, Minister from Greece; Mr. and Madame Prochnik, Austrian ambassador; Mr. and Madame Charles L. Seya, Latvian embassy; Mahmoud Samy Pasha and Madame Samy Pasha, Egyptian embassy; Mr. Zdenek Fierlinger, Minister from Czechoslovakia; Mr. Simeon Radeff, Bulgarian embassy; Mr. and Madame Jan Ciechanowski, Polish minister; Senor don Manuel Zavala, Nicaragua embassy, and Mr. and Madame Bostrom, Swedish ambassador.

#les miserables #lm 1925 #fans through the ages #the longest fucking list #losing my mind

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lifewouldbebetteronmars · 8 months

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Please clarify in the tags what you voted for on the options that are multiple choice!!!

Tagging: @wagner-fell @hahahax30 @petalsofaflower-shutupthomas

#riley’s ocs #riley’s wips

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lesbianboyfriend · 1 month

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HI JULES. 25 27 and 50!!!!!

HI CALEB!!! love you forever 🩷

25. favorite middle grade books: i’m the number one middle grade book fan okay!!!! especially fantasy!!! here are some of my most beloveds: howl’s moving castle, dragon slippers series, the lands of elyon series, the mighty heart of sunny st. james, the enchanted forest chronicles, the keeper of the lost cities series, ella enchanted, the wide awake princess series, tales of the frog princess, septimus heap series, the castle glower series, the percy jackson series, the fablehaven series, the mysterious benedict society, princess academy series, the series of unfortunate events, half upon a time series, ruby holler, the girl who could fly, edgar & ellen, beyonders series, the candy shop war, the tapestry series….okay i HAVE to stop somewhere. but there are so many. i love middle grade fiction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

27. first book i remember reading as a kid: okay so i have this really clear memory of reading a picture book about bunnies. they were very cartoon style bunnies and one of them was pink. they might have been racing (?). unfortunately i have no clue what this book is called. honestly i don’t really have very linear memory from that time so idk if that was the memory that comes first chronologically. another book that i know u read very early and a lot was are you my mother? (the picture book not. the alison bechdel comic. but that would be crazy)

50. what book have i never read but always hope to find at some point in the future: can i be honest im not quite sure what this means. i have three interpretations…

1. type of book i have always been looking for but never found a book that fits: in this case the answer is hehe the two wips (<- they say as if they have actually begun working on them) that exist in my head. the terrible lesbian girls in my brain <3 one day i will make you real….

2. book i have never read but want to read: in this case there are. so many answers. but one that has been particularly haunting me (heh) is the haunting of hill house. this summer will be my time okay!!!!!

3. book i have never read but want to find a copy of: i mean this is also a pretty long list. it lines up pretty neatly with the one above. i will say i have been specifically looking for copies of moby dick and the brothers karamazov the last couple times i’ve been to the used bookstore but have not found them yet….alas

anyways hopefully one of those answers the question !!

the ask game 📚

#jules.txt #asks #bookshelf

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nappingpaperclip · 2 months

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happy very late trans day of visibility we stay winning 💪💪 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Trans people please rb and add your gfms and cashapps 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Gonna get a bit personal cause to be honest? I don’t think non trans people really understand what it is like to be trans right now and some of y’all really need to hear this.

People outside of the man/woman sex dichotomy have existed in every culture throughout history since humans have existed. Yet people are still using the argument that being trans is a “trend” that young people are falling/being groomed into

This rhetoric leeches out of politics into the minds of young people, who turn around and externalize it onto their peers. Trans people, and especially young trans people are being bullied, harassed, followed home, beaten, raped, brutalized, and killed every day because of this line of thinking.

It’s literally the same argument used against gay people in the early 2000’s and 2010’s. I was there. I heard it growing up. It made it take much longer for me to realize that I was bisexual because of it. Because I didn’t want to be just hop on a “trend.” Well, more like I didn’t want to be accused of that. I didn’t want to be seen as less than over something I didn’t think was that big of a deal.

To be honest, I find that it was more accurate to say that I was being groomed into being a cis straight girl.

As someone who was actually groomed, and who knew I was not cis before that btw thank you very much, it’s fucking frustrating to see this argument be used to make it harder for me and other people like me to safely exist. It’s so fucking frustrating to see people co-opt my OWN trauma to take away my agency, and make it 1000x more dangerous for trans people, and especially trans women, to just literally exist.

Others tell us that our existence is a violation of biology, science, logic, or reason. Laughs in biology student. The human body is a complex organism with many moving and changeable parts. Humans are complex emotional beings with incredibly diverse cultures and roles within their respective societies. Biology isn’t as simple as XY and XX, and I’m tired of hearing this argument from people who don’t understand basic biology, and who don’t understand how language, science, and gender relate to culture.

It’s frustrating because even the “gender abolitionists” who claim to want to throw off the roles of womanhood still try to pin me and people like me into roles that fit their narrow worldview.

I cannot escape the roles that other people push on me, ever. I just want to exist. I can’t use EITHER bathroom without feeling unwelcome and unsafe. I can’t use a computer without articles and videos bashing trans people and our “dangerous gender ideology” or whatever popping up and ruining my day by making me feel guilty for literally just existing. I can’t look at the comments section on any post mentioning trans people, especially from my own local news, without seeing hateful comments wishing people like me death, saying we are all pedophile groomers, that we are delusional and should be locked up, that we need to be rounded up and shot to protect the children or traditional families or whatever.

Even the way people LOOK at me is dehumanizing and at times, humiliating.

I can’t go a single day at work or at school or in public without being stared at like I am some kind of freak because people can’t immediately tell what genitals I have. It doesn’t matter how polite I am or how small I make myself.

We remember the way you treat us. It sticks with us, shapes how we feel about ourselves and how we interact with the world. Just one of the many moments that still sticks with me was recently when I spoke at a city council meeting. I had a progress flag and a picture of Nex Benedict. This lady sat next to me and was kind and polite, until she saw the flag, and then she clammed up and refused to talk to me when I tried politely asking her something. You’d think I’d threatened her or was violating her rights just by being there the way she was looking at me.

Do y’all understand how fucking bad that feels? Seeing people make the connection, seeing the way their face drops as you watch them lose respect and all care for you in real time? Over something you can’t control? Something that doesn’t even effect them?

People literally see me and freeze, give me whale eyes and refuse to speak to me because they can’t tell what I am. I am a person. I try my best to be good and do good. Why is that not enough?

I’ve been told my whole life to just shut up and take it. No. No, I won’t do that. That doesn’t suit me at all. If you have a problem with that, that says more about you than it does me. You don’t get to complain about trans people making themselves be heard or making our transness a “part of our personality” when y’all harass and bully and kill us every day. It’s part of my personality because of the way I’ve been treated for it. I spent years of my life wishing and begging and dreaming that I was not trans, but it didn’t work. I tried very hard for so long to convince myself that I was cis. I can’t be something I’m not. My transness is a part of me and I will spend the rest of my life fighting for basic kindness and respect because of it.

If you wanted us to shut up then you’d leave us alone. Our existence is not part of some grand scheme or conspiracy. Our bodies and lives are not collateral damage.

Trans people are just people. We just want to be treated like people. We just want to live our lives without being forced into a box all the time.

You don’t have to “get it,” you don’t even have to agree, but you do have to respect our agency and respect that we know ourselves better than you do. Mind your own damn business. What we do to our bodies, how we dress or act, what bathroom we use, it does not affect you. Live and let live. Our existence should not be stomped out because it makes some people uncomfortable or confused.

We are people. We deserve to live. Let us live. Let trans people live

And to any other trans folk reading this: thank you for being here. You are a boundless, beautiful soul, and you are so, so loved. Your life is precious. Please keep fighting with us. I know it is scary right now but we will make it through this.

Our stories, our love, our hopes and dreams can never be stomped out or erased. I’m holding your hand and fighting with you. Let’s show love to the most vulnerable members of our community, like the black trans women and black trans men who need our support now more than ever, and the young ones who are terrified to go to school. You deserve to live. We all deserve to live. Your community is waiting for you with open arms. We will always cherish and support you, no matter what.

Sorry for the long personal post. I hope nothing but safety and love to everyone reading this, even if my existence or this post makes you upset. We are all human and everything else is secondary. Political, gender, class and other labels just divide us when we would be stronger together.

Love is always, always more powerful and more fufilling than hate.

If you can spare a few bucks please consider supporting my partner’s top surgery and survival fund. Thank you 💕

#.txt #trans #transgender #trans day of visibility #tdov #tdov 2024 #happy tdov

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blackramhall · 2 years

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It's an instinct. A lot of people think villains have a plan, but they often don't. They're opportunists, improvisers. It's pure jazz.

Agatha Christie's Why Didn't They Ask Evans? (Hugh Laurie 2022)

Manor Murder Mystery

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siena-sevenwits · 1 year

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Books I have on my list to investigate/try/complete in 2023. Some I'm not sure about but want to check out. I am certain I won't make my way through this whole list, but everything on it I'm keen for.

The Idiot by Dostoevsky (classic novel)

"Othello" and "Cymbeline" by Shakespeare (classic plays)

In Search of the Castaways by Jules Verne (classic novel)

Kristin Lavransdatter, Book One: The Bridal Wreath by Sigrid Undset (classic novel)

The Valley of Fear by Arthur Conan Doyle (classic mystery)

The Turn of the Screw by Henry James (classic novella)

The Overneath by Peter S. Beagle (short stories)

The Heart of London by H. V. Morton (essays)

Howl's Moving Castle (YA fantasy)

How Rory Thorne Destroyed the Multiverse by K. Eason (science fiction/fantasy)

The Father's Tale by Michael O'Brien (modern literary fiction)

The Saga of Didrik of Bern (Medieval German/Scandinavian legendarium)

The King of Attolia by Megan Whalen Turner (YA fantasy)

The Garden of the Gods by Gerald Durrell (fictionalized memoir)

Three Men in a Boat by Jerome K. Jerome (classic humour)

The Letters of JRR Tolkien (correspondence)

Enchanted by Alethea Kontis (fairytale-inspired novel)

Queen of the Sea by Dylan Meconis (historical graphic novel)

The Silmarillion by JRR Tolkien (classic fantasy)

Senlin Ascends by Josiah Bancroft (fantasy)

Walking on Water by Madeleine L'Engle (nonfiction/creativity/spirituality)

The Intellectual Life by Antonin Sertillanges (nonfiction/academia/spirituality)

The epistles of Paul (Scripture)

Jesus of Nazareth, Book One by Benedict XVI (scriptural reflections/ commentary)

Collected Poems by Karol Wojtyla

Murder Must Advertise by Dorothy L. Sayers (classic mystery)

On the Edge of the Dark Sea of Darkness by Andrew Peterson (children's fantasy)

The Ghosts of Sherwood by Carrie Vaughan (YA historical novella)

A Winter's Promise by Christelle Dabos (YA fantasy)

Hood by Stephen Lawhead (historical fiction)

Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clark (fantasy)

Bandersnatch: C.S. Lewis, J.R.R. Tolkien and the Creative Collaboration of the Inklings by Diana Pavlac Glyer (non-fiction)

Troy by Stephen Fry (mythology retelling)

Brandon Sanderson's secret novels (I didn't back the kickstarter, but I hear they'll be hitting the bookstore shelves too)

Uncle Tungsten by Oliver Sacks (memoir, science)

The Perilous Gard by Elizabeth Marie Pope (children's historical fantasy)

#In no particular order #recovering reader #Coreander's Old Books

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jules-verne-propaganda · 1 year

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I started a collection:)

The illustrations show Otto Lidenbrock, Jacques Paganel, Horace Paterson and Cousin Benedict. These are characters from different books by Jules Verne, but very similar in appearance and personality.

#jules verne #the journey to center of the earth #the children of captain grant #in search of the castaways #Travel Scholarships #dick sand a captain at fifteen #classic literature #classic literature illustration #autistic #adhd #nd characters

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ticiie · 9 months

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my fave @wunderlichkind tagged me to answer those questions which isn't easier when you're working as a bookseller 😅😂 anyway thanks for tagging dearest silija, here goes nothing 💖

An estimate of how many physical books i own: uh...last time I counted was two years ago when i was moving out and therefor had to sort out some of them and I eventually moved around 350...now i guess there are about 500/550 in total

Favourite author: way too many and they change on a regular basis but Benedict Wells and Ferdinand von Schirach will probably stay on top

A popular book I've never read and never intend to read: easy: "where the crawdads sing". It's almost a sin to say it out loud as a bookseller that I haven't read a single line from that book but i will not change it 🤷🏽 also everything that comes from the "seven sisters" (Lucinda Riley) -universe

A popular book I thought was just meh: I'm really sorry to say this but that's gotta be "tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow" by Gabrielle Zevin (sue me) I liked the writing and the story was okay but I really don't understand the hype around it...

Longest book I own: that would also be "Anna Karenina"

Longest series I own all the books to: Literally the only series I own all the books to (and I really don't know why I don't seem to be able to keep track to any other/new series) is Harry Potter. 1-7 in paperback (both english and german), the three Hogwarts-Library books, "cursed child" (still haven't read that one shhhhh...) and 1-5 as illustrated versions and I am so excited for the 6th to come out 🤩 so yeah about 1/5 of the limited space on the shelf in my bedroom is used by Harry Potter 🙈

Prettiest book I own: wow okay that's a hard one...Probably the illustrated version of Gaimans "ocean at the end of the lane"? and also Andy Weirs "der Astronaut" (OT: Project Hail Mary)

A book or series I wish more people knew about: "Portrait of a theif" by Grace D. Li: I loved the whole vibe of it and although the end was so frustrating I still loved it a lot.

Book I’m reading now: "20'000 leagues under the sea" (in german though) because Jules Verne is the GOAT.

Book that’s been on my TBR list for a while but I still haven’t gotten around to it: way more than I'd like to admit so it's hard to pick just one but I think "Crescent City" is leading the very very long list

Do you have any books in a language other than English: german (duh) and one spanish edition of an old Nicholas Sparks-novel

Paperback, hardcover or ebook?: I don't really differentiate between paperback and hardcover, I enjoy both equally but ebooks really aren't my thing, the only thing I read digitally are fanfictions, apart from those I am a child of haptics

tagging bestie @nonbin-arii because I just know their answers will be a lot more interesting than mine 🙈💖

#thanks for the tag #tag game #books

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here’s a dialogue idea: benedict surprising his wife with a painting of her for her birthday

Welcome back to the tale of Jules and her long dialogues that basically don’t count as dialogues anymore

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“Please, I cannot wait a moment longer,” you whined like an impatient child, eyes shut tight - not that you could’ve looked if you wanted to with Benedict’s hand successfully covering your eyes.

“You, my dear, are the most impatient creature I have ever met,” Benedict chuckled from behind you, his left hand squeezing your waist through your thin nightgown, “but I will allow it today only because it is a most special day.”

“If it truly is a special day, show me what you’re hiding,” you had half a mind to stomp your feet and act like even more of a child, but you decided against it when the hand covering your face slipped down to grip the other side of your waist - the only thing shielding you from your surprise now being your own eyelids.

“You make look now, sweetheart,” Benedict whispered.

The sight before you made you audibly gasp, freezing you in the moment as stinging tears threatened to spill from your eyes, “oh, Benedict…”

It never failed to surprise you just how talented your husband was, how he was able to capture such beauty and transfer it from the world onto a blank canvas to create a masterpiece. The image of you forever burned in front of you blurred as tears finally spilt from your eyes.

“Do you like it?” Benedict asked sheepishly from behind you from the lack of visible reaction from you.

You turned in his arms, throwing yourself against him weeping into his billowy white shirt, “I love it… and I love you.”

#julia’s dialogues #benedict bridgerton dialogue #benedict bridgerton

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