#I'm really glad he's not in my life any more. my life really did revolve around him for so long
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I saw an ask recently abt Sonic Frontiers that was like "omg when is sonic coming out?!!?!?!" and the response was "when he's ready, be respectful"
and as many things have done over the past year and a half, it reminded me of my former best friend whose idea of trying to be supportive was to try and get me to discuss my sexuality, which I never did because I wasn't comfortable with outing myself.
like there was one time when he was like "yeah just like download Tinder or like grindr or whatever", there were other occasions where he just casually dropped that he didn't think I was straight, and he would get frustrated that I wasn't more open with him. And that ask really does sum it up - it wasn't respectful. He didn't respect my boundaries, and he wanted to force the issue because he felt entitled to know. He was upset that I wasn't sharing information with him despite him being my best friend.
I do genuinely think it was coming from a good place, like he wasn't trying to be malicious, but the fact that he kept pushing it when I didn't want to talk about it really bothered me. There was this attitude of like "friends tell each other everything, I don't like that you don't share things with me" - which is valid enough to a point. I did close myself off from him, starting years earlier and then more rapidly towards the end. He's entitled to feeling closed out.
But god, I have shit I want to keep to myself. There are deep, personal, private things that are mine to keep, and nobody is entitled to that. My sexuality is one of those things, and that's information that is absolutely, unabashedly okay for me to keep close to my chest. And to be prodded and questioned, to have people make comments about my sexuality to my face because they feel entitled to that conversation when I don't want it - that shit cuts. I HATE thinking about it.
Quick sidenote, if you're reading this David, you can go and fuck yourself a thousand times over. I'll never forgive you for eight years of shit like this that made me uncomfortable.
Anyway this post has been weighing heavily on my mind for a couple weeks now. And it all dropped from a comedy ask about Sonic the Hedgehog. Be respectful of other people's privacy, and if you speculate about that aspect of them, keep it to yourself and give them the space, privacy and time to deal with it and come to you IF they feel like it. Not WHEN, IF. If they don't tell you, it's none of your business. Be respectful.
#personal#(this is abt a real-life david. if you're an internet david who's never met me irl this isn't about you)#(sorry if dropping that part with the name freaked out any internet davids)#trauma cw#oh also. there was one time where I got an internship and he like. told everyone around me#before i got the chance to#again it wasn't him being Bad. his intentions were good. maybe me being upset is like a me thing in this scenario#but like. i would see other friends and people I knew and they'd be like 'congrsts on the internship!!' and it felt weird and bad#bc I didn't tell them about the internship. i didn't post on fb about it. they knew because my friend told everyone about it#and it was just unpleasant and disorienting. like damn I appreciate that you care and are being supportice#but i wanted to tell you.#god one more vent - when I stopped being friends with my former best friend people would like ask about him before they'd ask about me#like 'oh hey mallard. how's david'#fucking Verbatim. that shit was happening for months#I'm really glad he's not in my life any more. my life really did revolve around him for so long#and it got to the point that I didn't feel like a person#things like this - keeping my sexuality to myself - were little personal victories that gave me some degree of control#at a time where I had very little of it. they were flecks of myself that were mine and mine alone. and that drove me privately#even as I lost my identity in the real world#I'm so glad I never gave up that part if myself to please others. I'm glad I had a strong sense of boundaries that I didn't give up
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ellebeesknees replied to your post "choose violence ask game except its just me complaining about fic tropes..."
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ooooh three bitchy opinions 👀 okay so, not really a trope but:
authors who are snide towards canon
this one is kinda hard for me to describe, but you know those fics that have a line that Makes A Statement about something in canon and the tone of it is just bitchy? or just any sort of vibe where the author clearly thinks they're Much Better than the actual show writer? sighs.
we've all had that phase in fandom where we hate read/watch something and then bitch about it online but my god am i glad to be over that bullshit. if you don't like it here, you don't have to be here! there's nothing making you stay! I've noticed the trend that if the author's a snide cunt about canon, they're inevitably going to be a snide cunt about some canon thing i do like, and i don't need that in my life. you can disagree with/change canon choices in a way that doesn't automatically put down anyone who does like what canon did, and you can't do that if you're going to be smug and superior about what you do or what you don't like. canon is a sandbox and if you're not here to have fun, please go to a different sandbox where you will have fun, it'll be much nicer for everyone.
spite fic
similarly: i have negative patience for spite fic. what's the fucking point of spite fic? if you only participate in spaces you don't like, you're never going to find the stuff you like or convince anyone in those spaces to change their minds, you're just going to piss everyone off as you trample on their toes. i'm a little steamed thinking about this because of the debacle of people trying to start fights in tags, but overall its just so childish and exhausting. again: why are you here if you aren't having fun!!
like i said above, there's a way to...hmm, dance? with stuff you don't like that still comes from a place of love. like, personally! i do not like Macau & Chay friendship! which is a different post, but fandom largely likes to smash the two of them together for some reason and i Don't Get It. so i avoid that tag, but i wrote interior design with the sort of playfully-antagonistic dynamic i would love to see more of between them. but like, my point was "hey, has anyone considered how funny this would be" and never at any point "the other way people write them is WRONG." because it isn't wrong, it's just not my cup of tea. i'm rambling, but tl;dr- anything tagged with "spite fic" or is spite fic in vibes has me rolling my eyes and scrolling by, no thanks.
fix-it fic
okay so like. i don't automatically click out of anything with this tag, but i'm very leery towards it. my joy in fandom is exploring all the "what-ifs" of canon and canon-divergence is such a fun playground, but i've gotten...really, really frustrated with the fix-it fic tag over the past few years. a lot of fix-its revolve around "what if x choice never happened" scenarios and very often the answer to that is "this significantly more boring y result happened instead" and meh. generally, i find it more interesting to work with things that happened in canon than to just banish them, so anything starting with the premise of just erasing something is a hard sell for me.
for example! after kinnporsche ep4 dropped and the spurt of ~fix-it~ fic that dropped so that either kp didnt fuck or it was fully consensual or whatever. it just...missed the entire point of why it was narratively important, or stripped Porsche of the agency he did have during that scene, or missed the point of how Kinn can't ignore the power imbalance between them. i'm not going to ramble more on the meta about it here, but it felt like a bunch of people clutching their pearls and more anxious about making some fictional guys ~unproblematic~ instead of digging into the story the writers were trying to tell. plus, KinnPorsche as a ship minus the power imbalance or the tension of their circumstances is a much more boring story to me, so my inclination is to just scroll by anything wanting to avoid it.
another example of fix-it fic i hated was after good omens s2 came out, a bunch of people rushed to write ~fix-it fic~ where Aziraphale didn't go to heaven or it turned out ~he was drugged all along~ or anything that didn't have Aziraphale and Crowley splitting at the end. even a lot of the literal story metas dropping at the time were theories on how Aziraphale wasn't actually leaving Crowley or he was literally being brainwashed/drugged into it somehow, and it was just like. hmm. the s2 end was the natural build-up of the story (all???? of s2 was them miscommunicating or trying to find their new purposes in the world???) (also: in all trilogies, the 2nd story ends on a cliffhanger, that's How You Write Trilogies) and like. blah, idk, i get how the natural instinct is to want some comfort food after the bombshell, but the good omens tag (on AO3 and even tumblr in many ways) was impossible for me post s2 because i was really excited about their divorce and all the ways to dig into that split, but everywhere i turned was about turning the wheel back to erase it. bleh.
anyways, overall, nothing wrong with fix-it fic, but it's usually easier to just assume anything with that tag is not a story i'm interested in reading.
...reading back and the tl;dr of this post is that i find it more fulfilling to play in a sandbox i like and take all canon choices in good faith to work with lol
[ send a ☕, get a bitchy* fic opinion ]
*personal opinion, I'm not going to be mean
#this wound up being a lot more about vibes than specific tropes oops#but yeah#canon can absolutely make dumbass decisions but i still think you find more interesting stories if you consider the implications or ways to#work with it versus outright banishing it#i care more about the story canon's trying to tell than the story fandom wants it to tell#.........okay now im officially veering into salt territory lol SHUSHING NOW 😂#i still dont know how to tag these uhh#tea asks#???
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hi! I hope you’re doing good and I was wondering if you can cast your mutuals as The Pacific men, women characters too? based off of their personalities? hope this isn’t too much to ask! anyways, have a good day!
hello! it's not too much to ask, i can definitely try to do that!
burgie → @im-chinese-believe-it-or-not this was the first one that popped into my head immediately!! you have burgie's soft caring side where you wanna look after all your friends/mutuals and make sure everyone is okay and feels Seen and heard and validated!! and i feel like you have that warmth and stabilising effect that burgie has on the boys too... when you're not around my dash feels slightly off! but you also know when to be firm and shut things down when people interact with you or others in bad faith! you're not a pushover at all and will stand up for the right thing even if it means you have to put on your "shut up bill" voice. i feel like you spread happiness and safe vibes in the same way that burgie does!
eddie → @hellofanidea because i feel like you have a lot of depth and i just feel like we'd have interesting conversations all the time and you're the kind of person whose brain i want to pick about random topics. you seemed like a Cool Online Person when we first became mutuals but it turned out you're actually super approachable and easy to talk to and eddie definitely feels similar in that way!
sledge → @theflyingfin because you're smart and always interesting to talk to! like eugene, you're open with how you feel about things and you just give me sledge vibes sometimes but not naive!sledge vibes but sledge who has seen some things y'know?
snafu → @aegondluvrs bc 99% of our first conversation revolved around svt and enha's teeth (rightly so) and you definitely have snafu's brand of chaos! also: if snafu was a carat in 2023 he too would have a folder dedicated to lee jihoon's teeth, we're not alone!
sid → my good friend @footprintsinthesxnd! i feel like i'm copying the quiz we did but it honestly felt really accurate to me because you're a literal sweetheart and one of the kindest people around but you're also way more than just that.. you're a great friend and always so supportive when anything has happened, and you're funny and witty in the same understated way that sid is. people probably think you're shy and quiet at first but that absolutely changes when you become friends with them. we have the best conversations and i'm genuinely so glad to have you in my life!!
leckie x lena hybrid → @lewis-winters look, i know i talk all the time about how annoying leckie is, so let me first of all say that i'm not including any of the annoying parts of his personality here... but you do have a similar charismatic intelligence thing going on.. y'know, the type of person you know you would always enjoy having a conversation with no matter what the topic is and whose opinion you would always be interested in hearing on just about anything. lena comes in with that aspect too, but you also have her enigmatic vibes, the kind that makes people wanna be friends with you!
runner → @ep6bastogne bc your posts make me laugh a ton and you're chill but also not at the same time? which is how i feel runner is too.. like he jokes around and winds leckie up and is silly af but he also gives off chill drama free vibes idk like i just feel like you're both the type of friend i would want in my life y'know?
chuckler → @lamialamia because our conversations are either about something ridiculous like sledge's ass flash and leckie's sex scenes or they're about the devastation of war and losing ack ack and eddie or something equally as terrible lmao you feel very balanced to me in that way and i think chuckler is like that too.. hilarious and jokes around but also serious when you need to be! kinda the perfect mix you would want in a friend or mutual!
vera → @hxad-ovxr-hxart because you're very funny but also very sweet! and you have vera vibes (warm and kind but witty vibes!!) and i feel like you're very approachable in the same way vera is too!
sorry if this didn't live up to your expectations anon!! this was a lot of fun to think about though!
#there were a few people who i wanted to tag as hoosier and ack ack and some others but i don't know them well enough so chickened out#sorry i didn't do everyone#i got shy half way through answering#mutuals#julian's inbox
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For the fandoms ask D, K, T, V
Oh @booksteaandtoomuchtv!!! Thank you so much for the ask! I really wanted to do some of these, so I'm glad you saw the reblog and sent them my way. :) Have a great Friday!!
D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can't: I hear people talk about FrankenWolf (Ruby x Victor Whale) which does sound like a cool pairing in theory, but I just can't get over not really liking Victor that much, and pretty much finding him to be a jerk and a letch. Ruby is seriously such an awesome character that I want her to be with only the best significant other. ;P
K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?
I feel like it has to be Killian Jones here. <3 He certainly isn't the only character who goes through a LOT of pain and trauma, but he genuinely learns from where he has stumbled and what he has been through. He starts out so hopeful and innocent, as the young lieutenant hoping he and his older brother can earn glory for their family name, and he gives into the Darkness when he sees how cruel and unfair the world can truly be. He does become a villain, but it is never out of pointless cruelty or just to flaunt his power either. Killian's villain story makes sense, and you're never unable to sympathize or see where he's coming from and how he got there. And THEN! He puts in the work - plain and simple. He decides to be a part of something good, to find that honorable man inside himself, and he becomes a true hero. He accepts blame when he must, he makes amends to those he's wronged, and his courage and bravery are undeniable by the end. Of the show's numerous redemption arcs, Killian Jones is the one with the best, most clear, consistent development . It often seems like he has to redeem himself over and over again, but he does it, where so many of the others fail.
T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?
I'm really partial to the idea that Graham might have befriended Belle before the Dark Curse was cast, when she was Regina's prisoner in the castle tower and he was forced to be one of Regina's Black Knights because she had his heart. I like to think he might have snuck food or books to her when Regina wasn't looking, so that she had some sort of entertainment and didn't go crazy locked in there all alone. I would have loved to have seen them interact once the curse broke in Storybrooke and have had that story proven true...
I still believe it though, regardless. In my head, it definitely happened.
V- Which character do you relate to most? Probably Belle. I mean, she's always been my favorite princess, to start with. With her nose in the book and just her whole aspect really. I loved her portrayal on Once and thought Emilie DeRavin did a great job bringing her too life. They just should have given her more ventures and action with the heroes instead of tying her down to almost exclusively revolving herself around Rumple. Anyway, she's still the one I probably feel most like.
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@ten-of-imps and me are having a big Dr. Who discussion, and because tumblr is tumblr, and it cannot do discussions for shit, all of you have to suffer through this. I made a new post because the other one was getting too big.
I feel like I touched a nerve, not just with you, but with another friend as well, who was also less than happy with Moffat in Dr. Who, and Clara especially. They said Clara did not really feel like a character to them, but like a function that was there for the Doctor, in a very sexist, it's-all-about-the-guy way. I'm still grappling with that, because I know I often miss things like that, and I'm grateful when my friends point them out. I know Moffat has a history of doing shit like that (I was a Sherlock fan before I was a Whovian). And still I like Clara, and Clara and Twelve (Peter Capaldi) together.
If it is not too forward to ask, why are you so hurt over Clara? I'm having difficulties grasping that, because to me, like I said, Clara was great the way she was.
But let's talk about your wonderful rant about Eleven (I think you mean Eleven, since he was the one with Amy and Rory and the one word bullshit, not Twelve. Matt Smith, eleventh doctor, right?). It does feel a bit brattish to me too, especially the one word thing. But what I really had a problem with were his doom-and-gloom storylines, all introspection and navel gazing and all revolving around him, in a very sexist, the-great-tragedy-is-all-about-the-guy, way. Twelve was refreshingly different from that, for me at least. No gloom, for startes^^. I'm glad we got two seasons with him and Clara, and we got Missy in there as well. But that's another story.
I am not rewatching all of Eleven, because he is also no fun for me as well, but I have rewatched the Clara episodes, just to get a feel for their dynamic. I cannot say if he is snake primary, or if he would have burned down the world for Amy, or by accident. All I know is that he returned to helping in the end, couldn't keep away forever. And from what I vaguely remember from the doom-and-gloom before, he probably had good reasons to take some me-time? Even the Doctor is allowed some of that, occasionally, I think ;)
Best of luck with your rewatch, may you find a bit more of yourself through it! Let me know if I can help with the analysis in any way by discussing something, yeah?
About the quote, I cannot do it, either. And I don't think anyone should outside of fiction. Because if the betrayer does not feel the consequences of their betrayal, what would stop them from doing it again? And the relationship that follows from there is not healthy for anyone in the real world. And yet I wonder. What must it be like to accept someone as completely as Twelve did Clara in this moment? Because that is who she is, down to her core. Burn her timeline, burn the world, betray the Doctor for Danny, and she is not sorry, and she would do it again. To accept that, to love that as the one who got betrayed is unspeakable. Fills me with all kinds of feelings I am not ready to examine yet.
One thing I do know is that the scene is not really about love and goodness for me. Not really. It's about accepting people as they are, and because you know them so well that you can forgive them anything. And that is fine for fiction, and you may even dream about knowing and being known like that from time to time. But if I learned one thing in my life, it's that it does not work outside of fiction and dreams. As much as you know a person, there is an infinity you still do not know about them, and you will never know how they will change.
I rewatched Bill's season too, and I'm beginning to like her a lot. I couldn't the first time around cause I was still reeling from Clara, but I wanted to give her a chance. I do not have an emotional connection to her, but I like her. I don't know why exactly, but I do. But I don't think she is a modern Twelve, no. But maybe you're right about her being one of the reasons for Thirteen? I think Missy was another, tbh.
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연애대전 / love to hate you (2023): ramblings and thoughts
alright, this has been loooong overdue — my thoughts (and screams) on the kdrama, love to hate you (2023), that aired on netflix.
<opinions and thoughts are purely personal>
honestly, I was in a bad kdrama slump after extraordinary attorney woo ended — I only completed a couple of dramas since then (under the queen's umbrella - ahh, another drama I have thoughts about; and curtain call - or at least those were the two that I remember the most). and, I was really itching to watch something lighthearted and fun, and boy,,, love to hate you hit all the right notes from the get go.
it's such a classic romcom with all the classic (read: cliche) tropes — enemies to lovers, fake dating / dating contract, guy and girl who start out not believing in love but fall in love anyway — you name it. they really packed all the favourites into one drama, and I can attest, believe it or not, that it was really the right move.
for starters, the chemistry between the male and female leads is exquisite. to me, romcoms are only as good as the chemistry between the two leads — the push-pull effect needs to be spot on, because the whole drama literally revolves around their love life. and I'm so glad that love to hate you did just that for me (and many others too, as I have read). their ages are compatible, their visuals, their personalities (albeit only surfacing in later episodes), but what really sealed the deal for me was their compatibility on what's beneath the surface — their push factor into their relationship, and their aligned goals/values.
and it may have seemed superficial at first glance — the fact that they both start off rolling their eyes at any hint of romance, because both parties had been so put off by their previous relationships that their views on the opposite sex are far beyond warped. but honestly, I think that it's not unrealistic; I myself have seen people similar to their characters, and it's probably far more common than we think it is. but what I truly liked was that the script didn't unnecessary prolong that hot/cold period between Kangho and Miran, and their progress was pretty satisfying to watch too; they both got over the 'dating contract' bit quite early on and thus, this gave enough airtime for their actual dating phase (which ahhh!! I sooo appreciate as a viewer). on the contrary, I find that many other romcoms drag out the hot/cold phase a lil too long, cutting the exciting dating bits short :(
and since we're on the topic of their relationship dynamics — I thought that as a whole, what kept viewers on their toes were the abundant (hahaha) skinship scenes (I actually feel so shy saying this but well, it is what it is). and they were always fresh and through those scenes, we got to see a lil bit more of their relationship progress as a whole (and more importantly, how Miran's view on men shifts subtly but surely the more time she spent with Kangho).
Another thing I absolutely loved was how soft and caring Kangho was towards Miran, even when their relationship was still under the monetary contract. it was obvious that he had fallen first, and fallen hard, and i appreciated (loved) that he wasn't afraid to show it. those lovely moments at the movie set, their hugs, brief hand touches, the way he makes an effort to take care of her well being — it's kinda a breath of fresh air from the romcom department (for me, at least); I really loved that it was clear that those actions weren't really borne out of the need to spite other parties (ie. his ex-girlfriend). I thought that Kangho's character was genuine and likeable, and a simp on the inside (hehe), which led to Miran's guard being slowly let down.
I squealed (!!!) when she said "I love you" to him,,,, ahhhh T_T
anyway, moving on, I kinda expected there to be that tiny angsty part, as they always have in these genres of shows. that tiny bump in their relationship, which has a sole purpose of allowing them personal space and to feel what it's like to not have the other party by their side. soooo I guess that phase wasn't tooo bad to wait out, for me. their reunion was so adorable though,,, hehe, giggled so bad lol.
lots on Kangho and Miran, but I also loved the second pair's relationship and dynamics. quite different from the first pair, but also unique in its own right. honestly as we reached the later episodes, I thought that they were really done for, but I'm glad to see that they got their happy ending too!!
last but not least, special honorary mention for the Gilmu squad; the bromance between Miran's ex-boyfriend and colleague got me GOOD 😆 we love to see blossoming romance in the workplace, yes!! I love Kim Sungryoung's character too; honestly NOT expecting that act of sacrifice / benevolence from her at the end but :"") such good friendship there. loved her dynamics with Miran too — big LOLs from their scenes together, always cracks me up.
and okay, I'm gonna have to stop myself before this gets unwieldy, but honestly, this drama has got to be one of the best!! (k) romcoms I have seen ever. so do give this a go if you have not already, and I promise you won't regret it!!
(also, Kim Okvin is SOOOO pretty, I really love her kickass vibes and natural visuals — I somehow feel like she's similar to Yeo Miran in real life hehe. as for Yoo Teo... I don't think he needs any explanation 🔥 잘생겼다!!!)
let me know your thoughts on this show!! I'd love to chat :)
#myramblings#lovetohateyou#love to hate you#연애대전#kdrama thoughts#netflix kdrama#kdrama review#kdramadaily#korean drama#kdramanetwork#romcom#romantic comedy#you need to watch this 100%#you will not regret it
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Lol the way I literally went 'what's sleep idk her' after I saw the update is unreal. Apologies for any unhinged comments because I'm totally not okay after whatever seonghwa pulled in the live.
Oh no... I honestly feel bad for mc, being an outcast on both sides (for no fault of one's own) sucks. And it's especially frustrating when you're trying hard to overcome something *sigh*... I'm glad that hyunwoo has found friendship even though they were basically uprooted from their home because of everything. Loved the interaction with Wooyoung, really. I mean I understand the MC's thought processes but at the same time it is interesting to see how the bond works and how much control it can have over those who are a part of it.
The guard being hurt and the whole fiasco that went down spiked my adrenaline istg. I was literally on the edge of my seat ksksksksks. I wonder what happened and who the person was and what's going on... I feel like the group might be that of halfdemons considering how they reacted but I can't be sure. Honestly, thank you for another great update hehe❤️❤️ loved it so much!
oops, i accidentally wrote a lot, my bad, so reply will be beneath the cut.
hehe, yeah, i really wanted to get the update out yesterday, but didn't think it would actually happen and then it did. and it's crazy because when i started writing it, i was hoping i would at least get about 6k words in length and then it doubled and i think i am now incapable of writing shorter chapters just like i'm incapable of writing short pieces. like, i'm addicted to writing novel length pieces, but not so much addicted to finishing them and have only like ever completed two in my life out of the many, many i've started and those were written when i was like fourteen and complete trash that i cringe every time i think about them.
and yes! i think a lot of it stems from mc's past and the way the humans always pointed out differences and how she would never be one of them, so now that she's with the daemons, she's constantly seeing these differences once more. and though the boys do their best to not mention them, she's letting past trauma dictate her thought process, especially because she knows it's going to be rough when she gets to taeyang. (little tidbit of info here, hongjoong's father may be dead, but his mother isn't and let's just say, drama may ensue)
i always find it kind of weird which side characters i get attached to when writing, and i think it starts to show in the works because i tend to involve/develop them more than others. hyunwoo is definitely one of my favorites (only second to seoyun, who i literally cannot wait to introduce in person and may or may not have mentioned her in ch. eight just because i love her so much and couldn't resist not mentioning any longer) i don't know why, but whenever i started, i always just pictured hyunwoo and jongho getting along and becoming friends, but i think as things have developed, he really fits in well with the others and i do want to expand upon that down the road.
the line between bond and natural feelings is a bit tricky, and i think it ultimately just comes down to daemons vs. humans. to daemons, who entire relationships revolve around soulmates, find the pull from the maetha as something natural. it's simply a way of life and how things work. humans, however, don't have soulmates and do life more like real life, so mc, who's lived a life dictated by human standards and cultures and customs, finds it really foreign. and since she's not at all familiar with the way it works and how important mates are to daemons, it'll definitely going to cause friction.
as for the attack, you'll just have to wait to find out. i always planned on an attack happening on their travels, but who or why hadn't quite been set in stone until now. originally, i had a different plan i was going with, and while that idea is still going to play out, i recently came up with another idea that i'm really excited to expand upon. and i recently had an epiphany about a certain character in this new idea that i really like and it's taking all my self control to not just say it because while, it might not give too much, it's definitely a big chunk of information that is probably better left unsaid for now.
as always, thank you so much for your feedback! i genuinely get so excited when i see your asks after posting a new chapter and love diving deeper into them with you! hope all is going well for you and remember to take care of yourself! <3
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For the OC ask!
Tev: 10, 26, and E!
Nanami: 3, 31, and H!
Lemel: 8, 29, and G!
Thanks Rose!
Tevane
10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?
He is most likely to lie to his parents or sometimes his boss lmfao, though he prefers lies by omission or downplay rather than blatant untruths because there's more plausible deniability so uhh probably his most frequent lies were things like "Work is too busy, I haven't had a chance to visit or keep in touch" when his mom would bitch to him about coming home for family events. Not exactly *untrue* in that he technically could have taken leave for things but he never did, for personal reasons or otherwise. Does it haunt him? Not explicitly, but it shows in his shit awful mental health so-
26. What is their preferred mode of transportation?
Spaceship! Especially if personally piloting. He looks and acts like an accountant but turns into a specific type of Car Guy while piloting a ship.
E. Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?
It's a tough question. I think I would like hanging out with him if I managed to get past his shell and if he acted like himself, but unlike Lemel, I'm probably not nosy enough to get there and neither is he, so we would pass each other like ships in the night. On the flip side, I think he would appreciate my good time management and attention to detail but would be ultimately kind of understimulated lol I don't think I'm insane enough for him. Our worksonas would NOT get along however! Captain mode is an uptight bitch LOL
Nana!! Yeah let's talk about Nana!
3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)
She likes when Tevane reads to her. I can totally see her digging like Tamora Pierce or something. She loves hero stories and chosen ones and creative worldbuilding ideas.
31. Who are they the most glad to have met?
Hmm, this is sort of hard to answer since I haven't figured out the full plot of her story yet, but nominally I'll say Tev and Lemel in her main story because those are the strongest relationships she has and her family of choice etc. I suppose it's valid to say because the story does partly revolve around her realizing they are the people she's most glad to know.
H. What trait do you admire most?
Her creativity and vision! Can be a bit pie in the sky about things, but not everything can be driven by pure rationality and it's important to dream big and paint with bold bright strokes.
Lemel
8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child
Stop taking things apart (did not stop this, just figured out how to put the things back together). Stop walking out of class just because you don't agree with the teacher (reluctantly stopped this).
29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals?
Ooh, this question would make them fidget. I think they're not personally sure. Deep down, they're a bit insecure about whether they do what they do because of a strong sense of ideals or if it's all just selfishness with a thick coating of justification. From an outside perspective though, I think they're doing as well as any person could in terms of living authentically. No one is ever going to match up to what their personal vision of a perfect person acts like but I think some people are far more consistent with their own values than others and I think Lemel is one of them. They believe in fairness and freedom for everyone, that everyone should be empowered to live their best life and that inherently means no one should be able to restrict others' empowerment. So they instinctively rebel against things that impinge upon autonomy and personhood.
G. What trait of theirs bothers you the most?
Like as a person? I think they're too overbearing of a personality for someone like me who really doesn't like chaos. Like I can see myself finding them annoying LKDJSFLJD but they're not Bad with people so they might read the room okay and be more chill and we could talk about science. On a meta level, nothing really bugs me about them, I feel like their flaws are important to their character and I like them better for having them and for being complicated and a bit bitchy and a bit of a disaster at times.
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Something To Talk About
“I like seeing my daughter in the news for dating a woman,” her mom continued. “There are much worse reasons to be famous.”
Came for a fluffy little wlw romance, stayed for the commentary on sexism in Hollywood. Meryl Wilsner's Something To Talk About is an adorable little romance novel about an A-list move star and her charming personal assistant. When Jo Jones invites her assistant Emma to attend a red carpet event with her, the paparazzi capture a few photos of them smiling making each other laugh. With tabloids being tabloids, the public automatically assumes that they're a couple. Drama ensues.
There were a lot of things that I expected from this book; sweet, and loveable characters, mutual pining, hopeless lesbian flirting.. I got all of that and more. What I didn't expect from this book (but did really enjoy) was the all to real experience of sexism in the film industry.
If you're expecting a smutty, forbidden romance with secret meet ups behind closed office doors between a boss and their employee.. you're not going to find any of that here. In fact, they never even kiss until they're no longer coworkers. But honestly, I think that this fact makes the story better. It's respectful, it's healthy, and it doesn't romanticize the very real issue of workplace harassment. Besides, who doesn't love a slow burn?
spoilers below, TW for sexual harassment and misogyny
A large part of this books plot revolves around the scandalous nature of a celebrity falling for their employee. The rumor columns focus on it, and so do Emma and Jo's coworkers. People begin to think that Emma didn't earn her place in the industry; that she slept her way into a position and would do it again. As the rumors continue to grow and evolve, Emma gets an opportunity to shadow her favorite director; the man that inspired her to go into directing in the first place. However, instead of offering her real advice or a recommendation based on her skill, he offers her a job in exchange for sexual favors from her.
Usually, I'm a reader of horror. But that scene in particular made my stomach turn more than any bloody murder scene ever has. It was heartbreaking. We see Emma struggle with losing her directing hero; with the idea of losing all of her opportunities if she ever comes forward. We see Jo struggle with the shame she feels about falling in love with her employee who has already experienced harassment from a higher up once in her life.
I don't want to include any more spoilers than I already have, but I will say that the way this particular situation resolves itself feels both realistic and satisfying.
The only thing I did not enjoy about this book was the way in which some of the middle sections seemed to drag on. A lot of this book consists of Emma and Jo talking to their respective best friends about their feelings for one another. However, there is an aggravating lack of them talking things out with one another. If you're a fan of slow burn pining, this probably won't be an issue for you, but as the number one hater of the miscommunication trope, I found it hard to sit through at certain points. I will say that this particular example of the miscommunication trope wasn't as annoying as some other books; mostly because both Jo and Emma had pretty legitimate reasons to keep their thoughts from one another. Overall, I'm glad I stuck through the slow parts, because the ending was so worth it.
I'm going to give this book a solid 7.5 (maybe even an 8?)/10. It's cute, real, and had me kicking my feet and doing a little giggle. It only loses points for the oh so dreaded lack of communication between main characters.
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Artist: egg
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It's nice to formally meet you! I'm Anne Pichard, but most know me as Rose, curator and host of Rose Magazine. Thank you for agreeing to interview with me today!
Let's start with the introductions. Can you give me your name and pronouns?
Arta: thank you for having us on this project. my name is Arta and i use they/them pronouns.
Luan: 'sup, the name's Luan, he/him only.
Tell me a little about yourself. What's your typical job like? Are you a model elsewhere?
Luan: so i'm like a model in my free time, but it's not something i do full time 'cuz i'm a prince. like i'm heir for the throne and it sucks.ughhhh.
Arta: there there, being a ruler isn't that hard. though it is boring, it is also very satisfying to watch your kingdom flourish.
Luan: ughh whatever.
Arta: well where were we again? oh yes. i'm actually dead, but when i was alive i was queen for 119 years, had mastered the harp, hapsichord and i opened my kingdom's borders. i have only started modelling post mortem.
I'm so glad you answered the call, what made you want to work with the Rose Modeling Agency?
Luan: i always love to work with more underground agencies 'cuz they're less of a hassle. but like yeah my agency called me one day and asked me if i wanted to do a shoot for rose magazine. and like who am i to refuse? obviously i pestered my auntie into it.
Is this the most difficult photoshoot you've done? What was your experience like during production?
Luan: nah, this was an easy shoot. we we're literally just standing there in front of a blue backdrop being fab.
Arta: while i may not have previous experience, i will admit that this photoshoot has been quite easy. although i really disliked when the nail artist wanted to put fake nails onto my hands. excuse me, i have lovely natural nails and i wish for them to be respected.
Luan: ughhh she didn't know what she was doing auntie, press ons are so last season.
Okay, now let's get to the looks! Tell me, who are you wearing? Was this top quality couture or did you design it yourself?
Arta: it's actually my brother's fashion company. when he was alive, he used to spend countless hours designing jewelry, crowns and he even made tapestries, although he never sold those and they're now a family heirloom.
Luan: yeah whatever they said. we're wearing their latest looks inspired by the night sky. it's not a huge collection with most of the items being kinda exclusive and not for the regular influencer, but like what do i know my cousin is the ceo.
Of course, Stelliferous is the theme this year, but what inspired your look, your design?
Luan: well as i said before we're just modelling Selene boutique's newest looks and it just so happens that it worked out for rose mag. tho i personally wanted to wear their sheer dress and the rings, 'cuz i'm not a huge fan of covering up, it kinda destroys my innate rizz.
Arta: my look mostly revolved around the crown. when i first saw it i felt a connection with it and i knew i had to wear it. the nails and the ring were also part of the collection, while my chest guard and robe were a gift from my brother.
Do you have any other upcoming projects after this? Now that you're an international model, I'm sure you'll be booked and busy soon!
Arta: hahaha, i suspect i shall go back to resting, i am after all dead.
Luan: auntie stop being so somber.
Arta: i am merely stating the truth.
Luan: whatever. anyways, i have like a couple of weddings, balls and high society events to attend so i'm gonna wear some new looks. as for modeling gigs, i have a couple of events booked in the next couple of weeks and i'm attending a fashion gala event on saturday. yeah very booked and busy indeed.
Any advice you'd like to give your fans out there? Life advice, work advice, modeling advice?
Luan: my single biggest advice would be to just be a nepo baby.
Arta: that is not really advice luan.
Luan: yeah well nobody ever said that it has to be good advice.
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We're in hiatus mode with the rewatch for the next couple of weeks or so, but I have 90 minutes until I can call to make an appointment before I sleep, so here we go with 3x05 - WTF Edition. Really hope this cut works, since we have a) plenty of negativity and b) spoilers right up to 5x11 in this post.
So. The Avery twist technically began in 3x04, but we don't get any fallout until this episode. So I'm going to go into an overview of why Avery bugs me before I get to 3x05 stuff.
Let me just start out by saying Kristina Reyes did really well with the material she had to work with. BUT I object to Avery's existence, because she's only around for one season (and thirty seconds at the end where she doesn't even interact with Jeller), and even though it would have been an angst gold mine to have Remi return and deal with her daughter being back, they didn't go there. And everything they had Avery tell the team about Crawford, they would have been easily able to get from other sources. She just plain didn't need to be there in season 3.
I once saw someone speculating that Jaimie and Kristina had a spat, based on Instagram unfollowing or something. That would make a lot of sense, that one of them refused to work with the other and ruined what the writers had originally planned for season 4 Remi and dying!Jane. But I digress.
Overall, I'm glad they wrote Avery out of the show, because when your ship has a kid, they become really boring. Even their shippy moments revolve around the kid. The things they were worrying about pre-kid are now background for kid-related angst, and there aren't that many ways to make that unique and interesting.
The writers kind of averted that with Kurt and Bethany in season 2-4, because Allie wasn't part of the team, she moved away, you only saw a few moments of 'going to be a dad' and they were buried under all the Sandstorm shenanigans, then Allie and Bethany only pop up a few times afterwards. And of course, every single character forgets about Avery's existence after 4x01. But season 3 parental!Jane and season 5 parental!Kurt were just annoying.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying real-life people shouldn't make their kids the most important thing in their lives. That's good parenting (assuming it's not overbearing). What I'm saying is that watching well-developed characters become the Worried/Protective Parent Trope is like replacing characters with cardboard cutouts, because there's not much to differentiate one worried parent TV character from another. They all just go 'MY BABY MY BABY' and it wastes screen time that could have gone towards fun team moments, or shippy playfulness, or whatever.
So yeah, from the moment I heard 'this says I have a daughter' I was already rolling my eyes. The amnesia angle makes it slightly more interesting, but the faked death plot point, when it was revealed, was just far-fetched. Roman's disregard for the only family he has who's not Jane is weird, given how family obsessed he is. A better revenge on Jane would have been what he said he'd do to get Avery to fake her death - getting her involved in his schemes against Crawford, getting her to break the law and become his permanent ally that way. No death-faking required, and a different plot point for getting Kurt to take tattoo help from him.
Basically, I just don't think there was a convincing enough reason for the whole Jane-has-a-kid storyline. Yes, conflict with Kurt and Roman being able to leverage Kurt were worthwhile plot points, but they could have found something else to make it about, that actually made sense.
But yeah. On to 3x05 discussion:
The absolute last acceptable moment for Kurt to put off telling Jane about Berlin was just before Jane got the envelope from Rossi. I mean, Kurt, you're a great FBI agent, you can't string these clues together and read the writing on the wall? Going into the seconds after Jane reads Rossi's message, he already knows that a) Roman knows about Berlin, b) Roman has promised there is more pain coming, c) Roman knows he can use Berlin to leverage Kurt's cooperation, to some as yet unknown end, and d) Jane now knows she has/had a child. When Jane said, 'I have a daughter', Kurt's response should have been, 'I know.'
The writers do have Jane say some stuff that's supposed to give Kurt an excuse for not telling her, like not wanting to disrupt the child's life, but all of that ignores the fact that they had at least twelve off-screen hours to process and discuss this information. I doubt Jane went 'I have a daughter - oh well, we'll ask Patterson about it in the morning, let's get some sleep.' She would have spent at least a couple of hours awake and stressing, and Kurt would have been talking her through it. So he totally would have had time to come clean before she started with her 'I can't have my sense of who I am ripped away again' stuff. Not cool, Kurt.
Jane reacts exactly as I would expect someone to act in her situation, except for one thing - the moment she says, 'How could I forget I had a child?' Like that's some sacred thing someone should never forget, even when they've had their entire memory wiped. She didn't say, 'How could I forget I was a terrorist?' or 'How could I forget I had a brother?' or 'How could I forget my parents were murdered?' So why should having a kid be any different? It just makes me think the implication was some 'sacred bond between mother and child' bullshit. You'd never get that if the amnesiac character was male.
Also it kinda sucks that they had Jane be processing the child reveal at the same time as the case was dealing with untested rape kits. Sure, Roman says the father was Remi's high school sweetheart, who was a 'nice enough guy', but the show seems to be nudging you into unacknowleged parallel territory up until that point. :/
Okay, I'm done. Sorry for the ramble. XD
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Title: Jealousy
Started: 2/08/22 at 22:41pm
Finished: 4/08/22 at 20:12pm
Ship: Leviathan x MC!Jade
Other Characters: Mammon, Asmodeus & Satan (mentioned)
Song Inspiration/Other Inspiration: in my miNd - Maty Noyes
Trigger Warnings: Possessive behaviour (implied/referenced)
Genre: Angst/Conflict
Summary: Levi doesn't like how much time Jade has been spending around his brothers...and Jade can only take so much of his possessive and jealous nature...
Word Count: 848
Notes: This took a while to do, but glad to finally be finished. Sorry if Levi is a bit out of character btw (tried my best to keep him in character)
Jealousy - Levithan x Jade
Jade approached a door and knocked, awaiting a response. They learned to be patient whenever it came to Levi, he usually was either absorbed in some anime or video game and he didn't appreciate anyone just entering his room without knocking.
Though much to their surprise, Levi answered almost the second they knocked.
Jade opened the door and went into their boyfriend's room,closing it behind them.
"Hey Sweet Bean~" they greeted him , giving a smile "I got your texts, did you want somethin'?"
"I texted you an hour ago!" Levi responded " Where were you?"
Jade sighed "I only just saw, I was helpin' Mammon out for a bit, okay?"
This kind of behaviour was normal for Levi, he was the avatar of envy after all. Jade has just learned to accept his jealous side.
"Oh?! So that idiot is more important than me, your boyfriend?!"
"Chill Levi, I never said th-"
"You know what, I don't think you even consider me your boyfriend at all"
"Where's this coming from, Levi? I'm sorry that I took a little longer to respond to your texts, but why are you getting like this over it?"
"Look me in the eye and tell me I'm your boyfriend, Jade"
"Wha-"
"Just do it! Now!"
Jade felt a bit uneasy about the look in the demon's eyes, but they managed to make eye contact with him despite that.
"You're my boyfriend, Levi. Happy now?"
"Then why do you prefer the company of my brothers over me?"
"What are you talking about? I don't prefer anyone else's company over yours!"
"Is that why you were with Mammon then instead of coming when I asked you to?!"
"That wa-"
"And I noticed that you had a strong scent of Asmo's perfume coming off you last night"
"Only because he-"
"Don't think I've forgotten how you were letting Satan sit that close to you while you two were supposedly studying just last week either"
While it was very normal for Levi to get jealous of Jade spending time around the other brothers, they'd never seen him get this worked up over it before.
There was no excuse for it either and they planned to make that clear to him.
"This is ridiculous, Levi! I spend the majority of my time with you. What do you want me to do, stay in your room 24/7?!"
"I'd rather that, yes!"
Despite them clearly being sarcastic with that comment, he actually wanted them to do that?!
"You're acting like a child! I have a life away from you, y'know? I'm allowed to hang around whoever I want whenever I want, you don't get a say in that!"
"So you admit that you prefer the company of my brothers then?"
"Now you're just putting words in my mouth! "
"It's obvious you never tried to make this work for both of us, Jade"
"Are you kidding me?!" Jade couldn't contain their anger any longer " You were very well going to kill me after that stupid TSL quiz, yet I still forgave you. I did nothing but try with you, yet you still act like this! "
Levi looked away from them "Yeah, because you still won't give me your attention"
"I give you more of my time than I give to anyone else. I'm sorry that my whole world doesn't revolve around you, but you just have to deal with it"
The demon fell silent, but the human couldn't see the dark look that crossed his face and continued talking.
"You can't be so possessive all the time, I need my space too. And it's really not fair to put the blame on me when you're the one with an issue!"
"Is that how you feel then? "
Jade immediately went quiet, the time of his voice was rather unsettling and when he stood to face them again…they felt that uneasy feeling they'd had back when Levi had gone off at the quiz…
"I guess you're silence proves my point"
"Levi I-"
"Get out"
A purple aura was coming off Levi and although he didn't go into his demon form, he certainly looked as if he was about to any second.
"Levi I'm so-"
"I said get out"
"Le-"
"Now, Jade! "
There was no use, Jade knew what would most likely happen if they stayed around him.
And there was no one around to stop Levi if he did attack them this time.
Jade quickly turned and made their leave, slamming the door behind them before running off to their room.
They should have felt lucky that Levi had even given them the chance to leave…
Still, they really wished that they'd handled the situation better instead of letting their emotions get the better of them.
Who knew if Levi would ever want to speak to them or even want to be around them again…
And there was always the fear that he'd be set off again if they were around…and that there would be no chance to escape next time…
Ugh, they'd really made a huge mess of things this time.
#obey me#obey me shall we date#leviathan#levi x mc#obey me leviathan#obey me angst#obey me levi angst#obey me mc#mc!jade#might make a part 2...idk o
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Bargello’s finally coming out let’s go!!!
Though while we’re on the topic of the Heroes of Light, I remember you saying a bit back that you didn’t like Rinyuu. You got a laundry list of reasons for that like with Rondo (btw totally agree with you on him) or does she just rub you the wrong way. No offence intended, it’s just that I like her a lot and I was curious about why you’re not a fan.
Yes, it's about time Bargello arrived! When he starts I should have about ~14,000 rubies! I am glad it's enough to remain above 10,000 rubies, if I have to spark him. I had to spark for Elletrix (she wasn't one in my original plan, but dang I grew to love her so much), so I am always prepared to accept that it could happen again. Depending on the situation though, if I get Bargello in 12/15 sessions, I'd consider doing the last 3 to spark Sonia.
Anyway, onto the actual question! This could get spoilery, so I hope you don't mind!
It's a real shame I don't like Rinyuu, honestly. I absolutely adored her during Master of Power, but Bestower of Fame just takes the character and throws everything out the window to replace with some other nonsense.
She goes from such a sweet girl who does her best for herself and for her boyfriend, I think it's nice. Plus a blind character is really cool to have in any fiction. As well as a character who looked First Nations was also kinda nice too, that's not something that is all that common to see. Her design is peak.
I can't even say any complaints about her in Master of Power, I really did like her. I don't want to hate her, but it's hard not to.
As for in Bestower of Fame though... Well, she goes from that strong character we get told in MoP to this relatively weak hearted character who got turned very one noted. Not to mention, Velnorte's miracle medicine just suddenly works now. Erasing the fact she was blind, it feels a bit ableist to me. Another problem with curing her blindness, is her character would have benefitted more if she was still blind. In Bestower of Fame, she just doesn't seem to be able to tell when something isn't right. Basically just thinking she sees the good in everyone instead of that "sensing their heart's warmth" thing she had before.
This character goes from being strong to a lot of her existence revolving around Velnorte's death or... stew, some characters, and the fans too, literally call her "Stew Girl". Not to mention in her playable skillset, one of her early healing skills is called "Stew".
I understand that losing a loved one can be very difficult for a person, and everyone reacts differently, but she had a lot of support from members of the church (like Phina, Dmitri, probably knew Ophilia and Lianna, she was friends with Miza, so in turn knew Monaris, etc). She seemed to be very popular, and Hugo says that everyone seemed to like her presence. Kids absolutely adored Rinyuu, and I think that's just really sweet. But none of this was enough to tell her that life was still worth living? She had countless friends and support, but apparently none of these people mattered to her, and that makes me a bit sad.
Not a part of the problem with her character, but I dislike how "wrong" her art is. She looks very white washed. The room looks like the dining room in the Cathedral of Tytos, but you know it's not, it's not red themed as the room very much is in the game. Plus her art has too much children in it. Why not have a few adults or elderly taking some seats. That way it really shows how much everyone loved her Also... her artwork is exactly what I don't like about part of her character. "Stew Girl", her Path Action is also holding a bowl of stew.
Okay, I'm going to get spoiler, from here on out, so I understand if people choose not to read anymore!
Well basically, in Bestower of Fame, Chapter 2... The Flamesgrace Cathedral is attacked by monsters and cult members turning into those monsters, and all that such, the whole place is in disarray because Pontiff Julius just about to get assassinated, Sazantos is stressed out trying to find the mastermind, but also protecting the pontiff, and Rondo's a loser who has to go get Sazantos to help despite him being clearly very busy. And what does Rinyuu do? Nothing. Absolutely nothing about the situation, except walk outside to go stand on the mountain to go overlook the church while thinking about Velnorte. After that, the mastermind kinda just comes up, calls Rinyuu as "holy blood" and Rinyuu doesn't really do anything about that.
Chapter 3, Rinyuu is missing most of the chapter until just before the boss fight where it's revealed that the villain needs Rinyuu for a ritual to which a Divine Ring and "holy blood" are needed. We get told that the holy blood is the blood of a Crossford and that Rinyuu is Graham's daughter (of a different mother to Kit). Tbh, I'd have believe this was only a plot point because they wanted to bring Lyblac in, but why through Graham's bloodline? Why not make Rinyuu and Kit be cousins instead? Could Graham not have had a sibling that Lyblac just never knew about all that much?
Being Graham's daughter itself has many problems because when did Graham have time to do this? His son, Kit, can only be old as ~16 (in order for Graham to be at a somewhat acceptable age to have children at 18 years) in the first game, taking CotC's 3 years in the past, Rinyuu is probably ~2 years older than Kit, but that puts her at a measly ~15-17 (15 in Master of Power, 16 in Bestower of Fame, and 17 in Bestower of All) years old, and that cannot be right... We have gotten told that Rinyuu is older than Kit. But that means that Graham would have been like ~16 or less himself when his daughter was born? I know things can happen, but I don't want this game to be encouraging on having children as minors on Graham's end, or sharing a bed with Velnorte at 15 years, in fact, how old is Velnorte??
Okay, back to the point. This Crossford nonsense is barely even touched on, aside from it might be the reason she was allowed in Limbo for a long length of time.
Let's get to that now. In Bestower of All, Rinyuu is somehow considered a Guardian of the Light by Finis. Not sure how, but maybe because of her bloodline? It's never stated why she is a Guardian of the Light. She constantly tells herself that she's not meant to be here and that she can't do anything that the others can aside from cooking stews. She's very much a waste of space, and even she knows that, because during the chaos of chapter 3, she finds a way to slip into Limbo to go search for Velnorte, once again where she would benefit better blind. She's walking around Limbo trying to sense Velnorte's light and how she "can't see". The idea is creepy, yet cool at the same time as we get to see a brief moment of Limbo Emberglow.
Just looking at this picture gives me chills.
By the way, this scene was shown in Bestower of All Chapter 3, and we're going to Chapter 7 in a day, and still haven't gone to Limbo Emberglow. Still just Cragspear (chapter 1 and 3), Valore (chapter 2), and Hornburg (chapter 4-6). So basically, this scene was very pointless.
From her disappearance in Chapter 3, she rarely gets mentioned Chapter 5, which is basically a telling sign that we will see her again, and see her again we do... But it is just for her to die. She "kill" Velnorte after he accidentally kills her. (She took the hit for Tytos), then they ascend to the heavens together. It's like. the idea is good, it's very tragic, but I just hate how we get nothing about her search on the way to finding Velnorte, how she went from the Frostlands to the Gate of Finis either is weird. She just spent however long just aimlessly looking for Velnorte until she finds him just to die. The only reason why she's searching, is basically just it being pure selfishness, and I don't really like that much.
I think I'll end my rambles there, you asked why I don't like her, and instead I went more on a summary... but long rambles short I just don't like what she has become. She went from a truly strong girl to a one noted about Velnorte and stew, and just being very selfish. Also the Crossford blood is also just pointless as a plot device. It feels like they tried to hard to be big with it, but in turn it flopped.
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I LOVE ZUKE AND DK’S PARENTS ALREADY CAN WE HEAR ABOUT THEM?????? (Also is the dad the only one with shadow powers?)
Glad you like them! And oh yea sure! I'll try and talk about them! (still developing them so this won't be the most extensive list lol)
I think the dad is the only parent to have shadow powers, I don't see the mom really having any at the moment. Maybe that will change but if she gets powers I don't want them to be shadow based powers (which is because I have plot points revolving around that).
Both Zuke and West had a strained relationship with their dad even before he went off to find a side chick. He didn't believe West was his son for a bit until West's shadow powers came in, and he didn't really give Zuke the time of day until his shadow powers came in (as you can see, the dad valued those powers a lot).
Even when Zuke's shadow powers came in, the dad didn't really start taking care of Zuke like he did with West. Mainly because Zuke was a bit over the top as a kid and he also didn't want to deal with helping Zuke take care of his diabetes like the mom was willing to do (the dad was kinda in the parenting="babysitting" mindset).
West got his sleazy attitude from his dad. Even though he saw how much his dad hurt his mom, he still ended up following in his footsteps (which if his mom knew she would have been absolutely pissed at him, but he hid it enough and ended up changing).
Zuke used to wear his hair closer to his dad's style (very thin braids) while West kept the more loose style of the mom. After the dad left I can see Zuke going into the more loose/thicker hair style we see him have later in his life.
The mom is who taught West to do henna. She would do his henna a lot when he was younger but there were plenty of times he would do his own and even hers (the first couple of times were a huge mess but they had a LOT of fun together doing it, and the practice payed off because West is great at henna now).
The dad's side of his head isn't shaved but isn't long. It was hard for me to like draw it, but it's supposed to be his hair braided into circles within circles. I'll make a better reference for it at some point (also he ties the long side of his hair by tying the hair itself. Something we see West do later on in life as well).
Both West and Zuke are close with their mom, but I think West is closer because he lives closer to her when they are adults. Like obviously Zuke and his mom are also close, but West and the mom are very close (even West brought his partner to meet his mom before Zuke did even though Zuke and Rin were dating for a much longer time than West and Purl were).
Um, that's all I can think of at the moment. Some of this stuff might change because these are all just points that popped into my head at the moment. I need to draw and think about these two some more before I make a super concrete plan of how they will act and stuff!
Still, I'm glad you like my designs! I have a few more ideas I want to doodle out but I also have a short comic with Synthia that will hopefully come out soon-ish! :D
(I will say, just being a lot more okay with messy lineart and stuff really does make drawing comics/mini comics a lot easier!)
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i'm not sure i've ever known a greater peace than the day i left my father's house.
my dad was not a militant man.
i think some people like to believe he's a teddy bear—big and soft and harmless. they like to believe he made sacrifices greater than any they'd ever known—sacrificed his comfortable life to take in the kids he helped create, supposedly gave everything he had to them.
my father was not a militant man, but he was an angry one, a selfish one.
i didn't leave till i was twenty-one. i spent the five years before trying to find a way to be glad i was alive; trying to find some silver lining in all the pain, the fatigue, the inability to weave some sort of hope inside of me. i spent most of my days pulling myself away from my sheets and trying to keep myself alive.
for reasons that could fill a novel—and maybe will, one day—i hit rock bottom the december after that birthday. i needed help, needed love, needed a hug, needed anything. but everyone was just...tired of me needing.
i needed to leave.
my father was an angry man. there were days him and my brother—another novel-filler—would get into fights so bad i'd swear the house would fall down. i was left with eardrums too sensitive to hear another man yelling and skin too sensitive to touch, almost like it still held the memory of the fear i felt as i watched my father press my brother up against a wall, screaming.
it felt like the weight of the world left my shoulders when i decided to leave. there would be no more hate, no more spite, no more passive aggressive mumbling when my father felt as though there was too long a moment where we did not let the world revolve around him.
but the depression did not leave, and neither did the fatigue. i knew it would be difficult. i would have to do things i could not muster up the energy for just two months before. have a job, buy groceries, keep a house clean. things i had never really been taught, had no clue where to begin with.
it was jarring. it was scary, and long, and unknown to me. but it was a decision that had to be made.
i will be uncomfortable, but i will be safe.
— r.s.
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I really dont know anymore how i discovered GNR and Slash, i think it must have been through Velvet Revolver. All i remember is that it was in 2004 before we got our Internet connection. So i basically relied on Magazines and MTV to get some stuff about them. I found a really nice penpal who helped me get all the old CDs and concert bootlegs.
After we had Internet, it was better. There was only MySpace (are you old enough to remember it?). Facebook was very new at that time but slowly but surely everyone left MySpace to go to Facebook. No Instagram yet, no Youtube yet, but i found this really cool, extremly detailed Fanmade Homepage about Slash, which helped me a lot getting deeper into the life and whereabouts of him. I was also a member in the GNR Forum but i didn't like it there.
And i was always a Slash Fan first and GNR Fan second. Wherever Slash went, i followed him. I was actually the happiest when he formed SMTC because it felt as if the band was meant to be together.
And Duff, while i was never an active Fan of him, always had a special place in my heart because i adored, and still adore his beautiful, cute friendship with Slash.
But i have to admit that i was not always an active Fan. I had months and years where i didn't really follow what Slash was doing, just wishing he was happy and healthy. Now i am in a more active Phase again. And glad that Meegan provides us with so many Slash pics and Videos because Slash mostly just posts shit. 😁
Yeah I didn't have internet until like 2003. For the LONGEST ass time I never had any concrete online presence, like I had MSN messenger, and like in 2007 created a profile on this super niche emo website whose name I forgot. I did have Limewire to download music and burn on CDs though! And I watched a lot of movies and shows on it was like Megafile, or something before it got shutdown, and the OG PirateBay. Mainly I just read fanfic, watched videos, and just was a nomad online. Shit I never even had LiveJournal, I read stuff on that site but never made my own profile. But I hardly ever participated in any fandom until 2008 when I created my own Tumblr and started to engage truly in social media, I had Facebook by then too.
Oh I kinda miss the old days of fan pages!
I find myself personally returning to fandoms or interests for a while then leaving, which I have joked about this in the past that I dunno when suddenly GnR, or rock bands will stop having any interest for me enough to continue making a lot of posts, or make gifs. I have a lot of phases, generally though the fandoms I continue to return to are; Star Trek, Star Wars, LOTR, Marvel (comics mainly), DC, again mainly the comics. I even briefly got intensely into some C-Dramas too which if you delve further back into this blog you can see! lol
Ah it's cool though you've been a Slash/GnR fan since forever. I am assuming you must be late 20s early 30s then? I'm 31!
#I'm kinda glad I didn't become more online until I was late teens early 20s#I got my very first Tumblr due to Star Trek !
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