when you’re having a bad day but then you remember it’s like this everyday

“and i thought if you’d ever leave me, that i’d be the reason why” conan gray you are SICK

I think I’m sad because Christmas is my favorite holiday, but this December I’ve been assaulted, told I probably have herpes, got rejected from yet another job, haven’t been able to do an ounce of decorating, haven’t done one holiday thing, and can’t buy a single present for my loved ones.

i guess my denying that phantom is leaving broadway era is over. i guess phantom is as well.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

wish i wasn’t alone right now. i want to cry and for someone to hold me

I’ll never be able to beat this and I don’t really want to anymore I’ve accepted the fact that I’ll never make it thru a full lifetime and the thought of having to live scares me so fucking much I just want to end it but I feel like I don’t have the courage to

the “pressure is kind of my thing” quote from riz being a reply to his mother as he tries to keep a smile on his face as his mom explains their bleak financial situation and how a perfect gpa still probably won’t be enough to get into higher education in the face of a world in which knowledge is paywalled is another type of heartbreaking

I feel like a piece of useless trash and everything is stupid and never going to change and I need to just fucking quit but it’s not that easy

no matter what i’ll always feel lonely

I’m 18 today look at me doing adult things

like, i wanna post about my personal life ‘cause i desperately need an outlet but also, like, i don’t wanna post about my personal life because then i actually have to face it. ya feel me?

I’m fucking miserable and I have no fucking idea how to fix it cause everything feels impossible

could use some positivity. I’ve really been down in the dumps.

Can’t wait for this shit to end

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