“Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche

hm

Okay incorrect quote generators really just open up headcanon ideas hereto unknown huh?

Anyways I like to think about how the Bullies formed because it’s pretty known that they’re basically just a group of friends, far less “official” than any other clique and also don’t really have much of a defining thing that they all banded together over beyond just being Russell’s friends.

And specifically I’m thinking about Ethan and Troy, and I think they were friends with each other before being part of the group. I think it started with Troy asking his workout routine (bc that’s his conversation starter) and Ethan jumped at the opportunity to talk all about his special training, which Troy never doubted for a second. Their friendship quickly became the “infodumper / just happy to be included” but Ethan makes up for it by giving Troy special access to his collection of kung fu movies, which they watch together. While Troy does have some emotional frustration, for both of them, fighting is largely a pride/skill thing (being physically fit and “manly” in Troy’s case, having mastery of different disciplines and a “badass” factor in Ethan’s) so I think they also kind of understand each other in that way.

When Troy became, uh, I think the word I’m looking for is “enamored” —with Russell, Ethan was part of the package deal, and went where his friend did, meaning they both joined at the same time. As of the year of the game, they’re both fully part of the larger group and not as close necessarily with each other as they both are with other Bullies members, but they do have that history together.

Great News!

I just had a thought, which doesn’t come very often 😅 I made this specific game for fun; it isn’t my main one, but it was something to write when I was feeling tired of my main one. And right now, I’m feeling tired of writing this one already, which calls for a break.

But I have been working hard today, so thought, “Why not just release it? It’s for fun. It doesn’t matter.”

So, yeah. I wrapped things up quickly, said sayonara to it for the time being, and decided to get ready to publish what I have. And I’m fine with this decision because it’s better than what it was before when I originally released it.

I just have to keep thinking that this is a fun game. I shouldn’t worry about reaching a word count like I do on my og game, and I should be happy creating this content. And there you go, worries are out of the window, I’m publishing this very soon (basically tomorrow). I’ll make an announcement tomorrow! 🥳

Some Cowboy Punkboy concepts from last year that I never posted…oops

(Also I haven’t drawn anything this week so I’m digging through old stuff I haven’t posted 😅)

I’m so tired and emotional, anything slightly positive you say will make me sob

Ok so I’m historically bad at theories and I’m aware this one is like out out there but Tawny said Tai will be doing something bad in the finale the bts pic looks like Callie is at the compound?! … I just … bad thoughts are being thunk

Scott's theme song is Death by Glamour and PLEASE LISTEN TO IT IF U HAVENT

Holy shit. That- Hot damn.

To anyone who requested an edit and I didn’t do it I’m sorry

Words fail me tonight, but I do hope you can feel my love in every half finished sentence. I hope my love is woven into every reblog. I hope you can hear me say “I want everyone to see how amazing you are” I hope you can feel the warmth I press into every post and the love stained grief I pour into all my words. Even when words fail.

life will get better, i can’t tell you when, but it will get better. just hold out my guy, try adding something new and peculiar to your life - 🪐

man if i had time or motivation i totally would. there’s so much i want to do right now, specifically move on academically with my art but i can’t because i get home at 8pm, 11 pm the latest every week. i’m tired and i wasn’t cut out for this you know? and it’s beyond embarrassing to admit but this isn’t what i want to do or really ever wanted to

Something I don’t see talked about a ton is cultural social etiquette vs autism

Social rules and how the differ from culture to culture are so so so incredibly interesting but from an autistic perspective there’s a certain exhausted frustration when discussing them because it’s more rules no one told me that ppl expect me to know.

Like allistic people get confused and are looked down on or considered rude or whatever when they travel somewhere and their ingrained social rules clash with that of the new location.

How is that supposed to make me, an autistic person, feel. Social rules are ALREADY a minefield for me in the place I grew up!

Like I don’t even know what MY culture wants me to do why the fuck would I know YOURS like the idea that even if I can speak the language fluently I STILL can’t even communicate basic ideas because if I’m not turned 45° to the left and pausing every 3 words and also reading your mind then I’m coming off as incredibly insulting?!??!?!?!?

Y’all Nick is now part of the “I’m very fast” group with Cookie,

What an episode!

I’m not really doing so well mentally right now , hopefully I’ll be back around Friday.

🥲

I don’t think she understands how load bearing she is for my sanity rn