Hello😙 Im here to request 17

(Wouldn’t mind if it gets smutty) (tag me if you’re already writing it)

17...to distract

Get it off me. 

The singular thought pounded with every beat of her heart, reverberating under the walls of her skin. Get it off me. Elain repeated the command in her mind over and over again, loud enough that it drowned out his unexpected words from her memory. “This was a mistake,” he had told her before winnowing away into the shadows, as he always did. 

As she raced up the stairs of the river house, away from the humiliation she had endured down below on the Solstice night, all she could feel was Azriel’s damn rose necklace choking her neck. She pumped her legs faster and faster in hopes of outrunning the tears pricking at her eyes and the sob building up in her chest; she needed to get to her room before the emotions escaped her, before anyone else could find her. 

Her chest heaved—a warning of the inevitable. A tidal wave was inside her with nowhere to crash. Elain’s hand clutched the final wooden bannister, her feet shakily meeting the landing. Her room was just to the right of the stairs. All she had to do was make one more turn. 

Except he was there. As if he had been waiting. 

The awareness of his presence was instantaneous. Her momentum halted and with a slow turn of her head to the left, she saw Lucien standing outside his door in the hallway, his red hair nearly molten by the window’s soft moonlight. Of course he was here, as he had spent the night after the Solstice celebrations. Even in the darkness, she could see the gold of his mechanical eye, the sharp line of his jaw. Lucien said nothing as he studied her, which told her the truth she should have known—he knew exactly what had occured with the Shadowsinger just a floor below. 

She took in his unreadable expression that cautiously appraised her. But did he really know? 

That it was his fault she needed to distract herself with the Shadowsinger in the first place? That his very presence demanded to feed the primal beast that laid dormant inside her core, only awoken by the call of her mate.

To be wanted, to be liked, to be kissed, even temporarily...it was just to satiate the desire.

And so his rejection had stung, a sharp slap to the face, still burning as she beheld her mate at the end of the hallway. Her mate. Undoubtedly the reason underscored in Azriel’s declaration of his so-called mistake. And now the reason she was left once again with nothing but that near damning wanting that threatened to eat her alive. 

The thought alone released the waiting tidal wave inside her chest. Elain grasped at the necklace, her other hand attempting to cover the sob wrenched from her throat. And finally, those words echoing inside found her voice. “Get—it—off—me!” She gasped, desperate to find enough air to fill her lungs before another cry shook her body. 

For whatever it was worth, Lucien abided her command. He reached her in three long strides, where he stood behind her, two strong hands taking her by the shoulders. “Breathe,” he whispered, his grip and words steadying her trembles. “Breathe, Elain.” 

There was a resounding beat of a drum. Lucien’s heartbeat. 

With a soft touch, he pushed her thick hair to the side, his warm hands grazing the nape of her neck as he undid the necklace clasp with careful precision. It was barely there, but his hands gave her the urge to confess everything to him—that Azriel’s hands hadn’t come close to the way he felt. That Azriel’s scarred touch was a salve to the burn that the mating bond left her. And Lucien’s touch was the flame itself. 

The cold chain left her skin and she could finally breathe, a sharp gasp filling her chest. She felt Lucien turn her, forcing her feet to move, until she faced him directly. Their faces were only inches apart and it was perhaps the closest they had ever stood. 

She wanted to find the same anger mirrored on his face. She wanted to witness his hurt and confusion and jealousy she had assumed he would harbor against her. But it wasn’t there. Only something softer and kinder laid behind his gaze in comfort.

"It will pass," Lucien whispered, his eyes finding hers. Kinder than she deserved. "You will be alright."

Something about his words unleashed her. Elain could not hold herself up anymore, could not repress what was building up inside her. She threw her arms around his neck in an embrace, the tears sliding from her shut eyes. He tensed momentarily before snaking his arms around her waist, firm but gentle.

Elain could not stop.

Without an ounce of control, she dragged her nose along the column of his neck, inhaling his scent deeply, her fingers digging into his back. She didn't know what she was doing but she needed to fill her lungs with him. The scent alone made her head feel like a drunken haze. The only thing she recognized in that moment was the nervous flutter of his heartbeat in the pulse of his neck.

At her realization of what she had just done, Elain shuddered.

"It's only natural," Lucien blurted out.

”There is nothing natural about this," Elain hissed, stepping angrily back, away from his warm body, her skin crying out at the loss. "There is nothing natural about wanting you when I do not know you. There is nothing natural about dreaming of you constantly,” 

But Lucien did not mirror her. Did not back down. In fact, he stepped closer. "Then look me in the eyes and tell me the truth—does this feel wrong?” He ran his knuckles across her cheek, and where their flesh met sang for mercy.

He was right and she knew. Gods, did she know it.

"I can't do this anymore," Elain breathed, glancing between the necklace and her mate. Lucien's face splintered into a frown.

And she hated that look on his face so much, Elain could do nothing but surge forward, her lips finding his own. She wasn't ready for this but she needed the distraction, needed to feed the starving, longing, yearning burn coiling at her core. She couldn't keep fighting. Not tonight.

When they kissed, it was fire meeting fire. When he touched her, he could have burned the entire city down with his heat. And when Elain's tongue crashed into his, there was only one certainty—this wouldn't be the end.

@bettdraws so sorry there is no smut but I gave u angst

Kiss prompts.

there's a kid who i just love when he talks it's so funny-cute

i'm pretty sure his mom speaks german at home with him so his grammar is a little off, for example:

"what do you have?" becomes "what got/have you?" and idk man it's so silly

also instead of the dreaded "why?" that goes on loop he says "and why?" in a pitch that just makes me smile he's so silly

... Hey bestie!!! I saw your requests are open!!! So, I wanted to request something!!!

May I request: Lilia reacting to a motherly/fatherly reader? Reader simply likes to take care of the 1st year students!

(You knew I was going to request for Lilia lol!!! Take your time btw!)

DISNEY TWISTED WONDERLAND BULLETED SCENARIO ! - lilia vanrouge

how lilia would react to mc being a parent-figure to the first years ?

genre - pure fluff!

notes - LMAOOOOO BESTIEEEEE i knew your ass would request for lilia damn, what a simp 🤨🙄 jkjk, here's your dilf lilia request! i hope it fits to your liking. i HOPE.

THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING ! ✿･ﾟ｡

• lilia finds it cute. not even kidding, i have a feeling he would that goes the point where he gains a soft spot over you.  he was surprised to know that you act like a parent-figure with the first years. but you're only doing that cause you genuinely care for them. still, they would consider you as a parent just for laughs. 

• he is impressed by it. his reactions say it all. like for this one situation here with you and sebek: "don't run too fast sebek, you might get hurt." you picked up the papers he had drop while sebek helps you out. "it's for emergency purposes, human! i can't afford to bring over these copies at a late hour!"

• you sighed at his response since you already expected how he would react. you just only wanted to remind him to be careful next time. lilia was there nodding in impression as he witnessed all of that. silver looked at him and wondered if his father was okay hence the look on his face. "father, are you alright?"

• he won't hesitate to throw a compliment at you. like, on any every opportunity, he won't hesitate to take it down. he'd find a way to say it to you immediately. 

• "ah, now i'm darn hungry! magift practice made me drain my stomach out." epel groans while stretching his arms out. you were lucky to have brought a spare snack to give epel for his empty stomach.

• "here epel, you can have my spare sandwhich." epel was surprised as he looked at the sandwhich in your hands. "thank you mc! i've been starvin!" he says as he took a bite off the sandwhich after.

• "epel, you are really lucky to have the prefect act like a parent-figure towards you." the two of you stopped in your tracks as you both saw lilia who was standing in the middle of the corridors. "lilia?!" epel gasps.

• "parent-figure?" you questioned him as he nods. "you seem to care for the first year students and prevent them from doing harm. i must say, it's rather impressive of you to do so mc." you began to blush at his words.

• "oh, that's nothing at all! i only did it cause i truly care for them, y'know?" epel looks at you with an surprise. "is that why you're a bit too overprotective?" you nodded at his question. "well, you could say that." you told him. then you began to grap epel by the hand. "but, we'd best be going now lilia. see ya!" lilia waves back at you before you and epel finally left.

• "AAAH-" deuce lost a hold of his grip that resulted him into falling off the tree. "DEUCE!" jack ran off to catch him but you were in the way. he was about to land on the ground until you succesfully catched him. deuce departed from your arms after you managed to catch him from falling off the ground.

• "please don't do any of this next time, you guys. i would actually pass out on the ground if you guys were seriously injured." you let out a loud sigh with worry in your voice. "i'm impressed with how you are able to catch deuce from falling, mc." you heard lilia's voice so you turned to him. "MR. LILIA?!" jack, deuce, and ace gasped in surprise upon seeing him. "oh, lilia. so you saw all of that, huh?" lilia nods.

• "mhm, i heard a commotion nearby which turned out to be the three of you." he answers. "now, all of you ought to listen to the prefect here. they are always cautious of your safety." lilia says. "oh good, the boomers are talking." ace lets out a sigh. both deuce and jack smacked him by the shoulder because of his response. "hey, i was just kidding!" he curses out.

• "heck, even trey isn't on the same level as mc!" he randomly called him out as he saw him. trey heard his name being called by ace. "heh, what did you just say, ace?" he stopped picking up the apples that were dropped on the ground. someone was definitely not getting their slice of apple pie.

•his expression was priceless which lead to everyone laughing. "might this mean that i have a chance?" lilia hummed as he wonders. "what chance?" ace bluntly points it out as lilia shook his head. "whoops, you hear nothing trappola." 

• oh, and lilia would be glad to take you in as silver's other parent. just kidding. though he is still in favor for that, you're gonna have to sort that up with him; if you're interested. (ehem)

• "father, must you be serious about it?!" silver gasps in shock. you were on the same boat as him as well. lilia said something about wanting you to be silver's other parent.

• "the look on my face says it all, son. i am in fact serious." you didn't know how to react at all. but you knew lilia would be joking since that's how he usually is. the cheeky one.

• "i, i don't know how to respond to that." you sighed. lilia lets out a loud laugh. "HAHAHAHA, i was rather joking mc. no need to feel pressured now." he assures you.

• but before letting out another word his mouth, he looks at you with a smirk and leans over the wall with his arms crossed. "but, if you do happen to change your mind.... feel free to inform me right away-"

• "FATHER!"

Leverage Ep 11 >:3

Pre-game thoughts:

ngl the last episode was a lot of fun! got to see Nate at his breaking point, Sophie being the best (as always), ALEC AND ELIOT DUO!!!!!

also it looks like this one focuses on Parker? (at least, that’s what the blurb says 🤷🏻‍♀️) so praying for more moments for my ot3 🥰 either as duos or altogether, I do not care. just want them to have screen time 

anyway, can’t really think of anything else to add???

I mean, this is the last episode before the 2-parter finale, so I’m curious if this will touch on…..the ✨insurance company✨and that uh Crowley-looking dude (unrelated to GO!Crowley, a show I should also watch)

BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAT ON WITH THE SHOW ✨ 

Reaction:

ooooooh a flashback 👀

Ok that was not a safe dose

AHHHHHH THE STOVE

NOOOOOOOOO ERNESTO

is he dead?????

oooooooooh team drama 👀

lmaooooo parents (Nate/Sophie) using jury duty as a lesson

“Yeah, I know jury duty, this seems legit” <- has only gone once

OooooOOOoooooOoOooh defendant is wearing colored shades, he must be an asshole 😂

WAIT WHAT

WHO IS FILMING THE CASE???? IS THAT LEGAL????

babe, please step the fuck away from the jury panel. i would not be in favor of you anyways with you standing so close wtf

oop! she knows!!! fuck they’re gonna strike her out 

ok but seriously who are those camera people???? are they even a real legal team???? the ick is strong, I hope they burn this other team to the ground

YES PARKER

CONVINCE THEM

SHUT NATE YOU WERE A SLIMY INSURANCE MAN BEFORE YOU DONT GET TO TALK

everybody giving Nate the stink eye, yesssssssssss 

(You would think, with how much I yell at this man, I hate him, but tis the opposite! Love him. He’s just an asshole, and I would never like him in person, great character <3)

OMFG ALEC BACKSTORY??????

YES PLEASE

NANA YOU BADASS

ELIOT AND PARKER DUOOOOOO

FUCK YES

Lmao he took the beer

literally before clicking play I was like “you know, I don’t think Parker and Eliot have been a duo yet” AND HERE WE GO

ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE

nO glasses guy 🫢 was a faker?! <- is not shocked

jfc Alec is good 😍

ok what you doing Parker? oh wait nvm 

Chess???? lmao you nerd

“Hmmmm how do we show an evil character is smart…..I KNOW! Chess!”

ohhhhhh big pharma ok (can’t believe it took me this long)

WAIT WE DOING POISONED APPLE

ugh no we’re not

oh shit bribery????

ELIOT PLAYS CHESS???? you fucking nerd 💕

lmao Parker gets a lesson in social interaction (I’m so sorry, girlie, I’d hate it too, but tbh I also befriended an older lady while at jury duty so same????)

it’s ok Parker you tried your best 🫂

“I have a peanut allergy” <- love you Alec 

Nate, I sure hope you don’t regret that honeypot plan

OHHHHHHHHH oh dear ok now the brownface comments make sense

Ok show’s age has been shown

jfc Sophie wtf please tell me this is the only episode where this happened 

“I’m very spiritual” <- 🤢 god how many times have I heard this

Jesus H Christ I can’t even look at her T^T

awwwww Sophie is helping Parker

ELIOT YOU ARE SO CUTE

HES TRYING

PARKER YOU CUTIE 🥰 

i want Parker and the grandma to be friends. Like best friends

lmaooooooo she’s foreman now (I don’t think I spelled that right)

girlie, you sound like you’re giving the old man a job interview 😂

SHE GONNA BUY OUT THE LAWYER???? 

He won’t

Nate noooooooooo

ALEC

YES

MY BOY

HE LOOKS SO GOOD IN A SUIT

but also shit they are treading the legality there (<- she says even tho they do this every episode)

“Do you trust your government, Ms. Vargas?” ALEC 😂😂😂😂 bringing back the old teachings of being a Jehova Witness i see

WE ARE BARELY HALFWAY?????? (Sorry just looked at the time stamp  what do you mean it’s only been 20 minutes????)

“is that a high school yearbook?” oh my god

Alec, babe, love you, but what

ALEC I LOVE YOU

girlie you could say cauliflower steak

Awwwwwwwwwwww Parker has a friend 🤧🤧🤧🤧

Alec’s headshot is beautiful 

“It all checks out unless [says an example of exactly what Alec did]”

Ooooooh outsource mention 👀 

Nate there are cameras!!!!

“You know why they say, ‘Justice has a blindfold’? Because Justice is asleep” FUCKING DEAD

ok bro this isn’t jury duty anymore this is a trial???? did I miss the part where they finished jury selection 

OH SO HE’S AN ACTOR???

lmaooooo he was Scottish 

Awwwwwwwww Parker 🥺 “she likes rainy days” im fucking sobbing

Ok now that’s why we were only halfway 

“We win the trial” LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO

Hehe Alec has to actually win the trial

“You think lawyers aren’t just pretending and trying to fill in daddy’s shoes” ok, uh, wow 💔 

SHE GOT A BAG LUNCH 🥺🤧

Eliot on another parents trip!!!

wait who is he fighting???? Oh ok

Nate, you look so fucking dumb 😂

*gasp* THAT MEDICAL MAN IS LYING FIGHT HIM ALEC

oh ho ho! bringing up his qualifications I see 👀 why he now only doing cases in Cali 👀

OH HO 👀

HE BROUGHT UP BIN LADEN 👀

GET HIS ASS ALEC! FUCK HIM UP!!! FUCK! HIM! UP!

Alex’s closing statement 👀 omg 🥺 yes babe 🤧 beautiful 💐 take my flowers 💐💐💐💐💐

jfc I’m nervous!!!! I know this will end happy but still!!!! So nervous 🫠

nooooo, she must not figure out 🫠

Oh dear, 

OH YES THEY TURNED OFF THE TV WONDERFUL

lol yesssss girlie, burn that fucking bridge!!!! BURN THE BRIDGE!!!! DIG THAT HOLE!!!!

unrelated but her jacket is super pretty

ok ok here we go. fuck I’m nervous 

YESSSSS LETS GO BITCH

FUCK YEAH MESS WITH THEIR CAMERA

why are you revealing yourself to her????? bro she could find people to get you!!!!

OMG SHE MADE A FRIEND! GET THAT COFFEE

Final Thoughts:

this episode was so much fun!!!! we may not have gotten much of the Parker/Eliot duo but I’m still happy that they got to tag-team! Parker learning how to socialize, be a team player, and lead was just 👌👌👌👌👌👌 wonderful so proud of her T^T Alec was amazing (obviously) and fucking killed both for stalling the case and winning it <3

not as much Nate/Sophie moments besides them acting like parents to their teammates and being a well-oiled machine 😎 so I’m still satisfied! a little disappointed that there wasn’t any hint for the finale but that might just be because of the messed up order again 😔 

overall: wonderful episode, this might be my favorite of the season (tho Miracle Job still has my heart)

7&19 from the sickfic prompt list for Jake please?<3

Sure thinggggg!

Not gonna lie, I've been counting down the days to this one 😂 I'm so keen!

7. "You okay? You're never this quiet" and 19. "You look like death"

I've already done 19 but for Rooster so I think that's technically fine? I can't reinforce my own rules if I don't know them myself lmaooooo.

I also did something a little different and maybe a little rule-break-y? Is that a thing? I essentially split 7 into two parts; the question, and then the statement a couple of sentences later. It was a vibeeee!

Savannah passed the Daggers at the Hard Deck and tapped on the table, waving at them.

"Hey, guys. Anyone heard my husband recently?"

"Oh, Sav, oh!" Phoenix faux-moaned, the rest of the Daggers bursting into snorts and amused giggles. Savannah rolled her eyes, nudging her best friend's arm.

"I'd be concerned if he was that high-pitched. Seriously, though; I can't find him."

"He went to get drinks a couple minutes ago, I saw him and Rooster bickering," Payback offered, Bob rolling his eyes.

"No change there then."

"I actually think Bradshaw might have won for once. Bagman walked off, hands in his pockets. Not a drink in sight- hey, there's Rooster. He might have an idea where he went."

Savannah squeezed Phoenix's shoulder, watching Rooster move through the bar. As per usual he stopped by his godfather sitting at the bar, and they exchanged words quietly. Sav made her way through the crowd, ending up standing with Bradley and Maverick, who she was yet to know further than a night out with the team.

"Hey, Maverick; it's good to see you. Can I borrow Rooster for a minute?"

"You can have him; little shit's getting too big for his boots," Maverick replied with a fond smile toward his godson, ruffling his hair. Rooster huffed, looking mildly unimpressed.

"My boots are bigger than yours, Mav, I don't know if you've noticed-"

"-actually, uh, sorry, before you two get into it again; have either of you seen my husband?"

Maverick and Rooster both shook their heads, Rooster's moustache twitching in amusement.

"No, but he let me win earlier. Walked away mid-debate."

"Where did he go?"

"Uh... think he went out the back- hey! There he is; I'm gonna go now."

Rooster made himself scarce before Maverick could start up their squabbling and Savannah smiled politely at Maverick before heading toward where she could see Jake coming in the back door.

"You okay?" She asked, giving him a kiss when he reached her.

"Yeah, yeah I'm good. Let's go back to the Daggers."

-

Standing between Jake's legs, Savannah was deep in conversation with Natasha and Bob who was a new friend of hers. Jake's hand was on her hip and he was moving his thumb in gentle circles absentmindedly, like he wasn't paying attention to the movement. He wasn't exactly chatty either, and he wasn't drinking; all red flags if you knew Jake really well. She leaned back against him, putting her hand on his thigh.

"Hey, you're never this quiet. Do you want to go home?"

"No, no I'm good. Are you good?"

"Mmhmm."

Savannah felt him squeeze her waist and she took it for what it was; he was most likely tired, or not feeling up to his usual shithead ways considering he wasn't riling Rooster up or doing shit that made Bob roll his eyes. If anything, he was a little... clingy. She wasn't particularly bothered, considering he didn't get like this often, but it did make her a little concerned.

"Hey; I changed my mind. Let's go; I'm fucking bored."

Savannah glanced over her shoulder, sighing as she nodded.

"I'm tired anyway; let's go."

She moved from her spot where she'd been standing since they reunited, pausing to nudge Natasha's shoulder.

"We're gonna go home, probably catch up on some sleep."

"Y'know, that explains a lot; Bagman was not Bagman today at work and I have to say; I was a little put off by it."

Savannah frowned, looking at her husband again.

"Thanks for letting me know, Tash. I'll keep an eye on him."

-

The next morning Savannah woke to an empty bed, and when she rolled over to touch where Jake had been sleeping it was cold signalling he'd been gone a while. She frowned, sitting up and scrubbing at her eyes.

"Jake?"

When she didn't get an answer she pulled the blankets off, reaching for a hoodie to pull over her usual sleepwear. She checked their ensuite first, gut telling her something was up, but it was empty and the shower wasn't steamed up so he hadn't been there. Tracking down the stairs, she glanced over the railing and located her husband at the dining table, head in his hands with a cup of coffee in front of him.

"Hey, good morning. What are you doing up? It's early."

She pressed a kiss to his temple but immediately recoiled at the warmth to his skin. Jake turned and wrapped his arms around her waist, resting his head on her chest.

"Don't laugh," he whispered, "I didn't want to wake you up."

"With what? Jake? Lemme look at you."

He pulled away and she put her hand on his cheek, frowning.

"Well; you look like death. Wait; why would I laugh? You're sick, honey."

Jake shrugged.

"I dunno; you slept through the worst of it. Thought you'd think I was overreacting; man flu and all that."

"I can feel you burning up against my palm, I have no doubt there are other symptoms you're not telling me about, and you think I'm going to accuse you of having a tiny little cold?"

"Uh... yeah, a little?"

"If I didn't know you better I'd be a little offended. C'mon; let's get you some toast and Advil."

-

The rest of the morning Jake spent with his head in the downstairs toilet. Toast and Advil was not the best way to go when his stomach was upset, and a part of her knew that but she didn't know that was his main issue until he was excusing himself from their dining table.

"Sav?" Jake groaned at one point, resting his head on the rim of the toilet. She'd begged him not to but at that point she could understand why he was kind of done with listening to that.

"Yeah?" She replied, leaning against the wall.

"I don't think it's man-flu."

"Honey," she snorted, "we're way past the point of man-flu."

-

The next time Jake stirred and didn't feel like he was going to lose his stomach contents again, Savannah had left his side and he could tell it was later in the day. She appeared, carrying a laundry hamper and a blanket.

"So we're strangers to the deep clean, but considering what you've got, I think it's time we get to know it. Jake, meet washing our bedding more than once a week."

"Sounds like a lot of work."

"Yeah, well, I'm not gonna lie; you're disgusting right now. I think the least I can do is some clean sheets."

Jake shook his head.

"Baby; clean sheets sounds fantastic, but I'm speaking from experience here; do not let me near them until this is over."

Savannah burst out laughing.

RUO: professor and keane👀

sorry, it took so long to get you this. I wrote a majority of it all out, and then tumblr crashed, deleted everything I wrote, and I about threw my computer at the fking wall so I decided I needed a break

Professor:

Professor's characterization took a hit after the Powerpuff Girl Movie. His character in the earlier seasons is A+, and overall, he's a great dad. The writers of the show made it very obvious how much the Professor loved the girls, going out of his way to make sure they stayed safe and were taken care of. Sometimes, it was almost like he forgot he created them for the specific purpose of kicking ass and treated them solely as kids, which was/is always nice to watch.

I've got two favorite little details about the Professor i really like:

1) I enjoy how the time travel episode where the girls meet douchy Little Professor fermented the idea of the girls into his head. I love the idea that Little Professor was so inspired by these girls and wanted to meet them again that he began to take school seriously. I theorize that while the girls kickstarted his path into STEM, he forgets that they met in the sense that children's memories fade. All he knows is he was inspired to become a better person by these random and brightly colored little girls, who for some reason, he always pictures flying (??). Keeping the above in mind, fast-forward to the movie that establishes the girls' origin story. The Professor identifies a problem, realizes that the City needs new superheroes (because the og show establishes that the old ones are retired), and kind of has this moment where he's like, "huh, where did those little girls go?" and then he's like, "wait? little girls?" And the memories slot back into place and he realizes that this was his purpose, he has to create them.

While not explicitly doing so, I really enjoy how the movie weaved together with little plot points we see in the show that you wouldn't have noticed if you weren't looking, and this is my favorite one.

2) One of my fave professor gags is when the writers make him create these really complex machines or inventions, and when people ask how he does it, instead of explaining their work, the writers make him say, "Ya know what? I really can't remember???" It's so funny to me as a writer because it really do be like that sometimes, and the fact that they just establish it as an easy canon cop-out is perfection.

The professor is a really funny character and when I find an author or an artist who nails his character, it's just amazing. Honestly, not a lot of us do anything with him, but when someone does add him to their work, even just as a background character when the girls go on missions, it makes the piece of work 100x better. I think people tend to forget how important the Professor is to the girls, and when he's not added, it does them all an injustice!

Tbh, I'd think I'd do this answer injustice if I don't throw a shoutout to @miutonium. They're the only person out there that I've seen actually put time and care into the Professor's character, and I really appreciate them for it.

And speaking of miutonium, their art is so convincing, I sometimes forget her sona, Chloe isn't the Professor's gf 😂😂😂

Speaking of ships, I don't like him paired with Keane, which I feel is popular. They broke up in the show and I'm just not interested in revisiting the topic. I also don't ship him with Bellum. She's out of his league. I do however ship him with Sedusa hardcore. I think he'd be the first guy to date Sedusa who genuinely cared about her, and after the events of Mommy Fearest, she'd actually be a lil heartbroken over him. They're like this bittersweet, in another life couple that I love!

I also one time saw ship art of him and Mr. Green. And at first, i was like 😨 but then i was like 👀👀👀, so there's that too lmaooooo

Keane:

Real talk, she's like just the preschool teacher to me. I think when I was little I liked the idea of her getting together with the Professor, but now I'm like eh, whatever. If I need a mom character in my au's I'll throw her in as an easy pick, but I don't do much with her character.

This is kind of sad, I can't think of anything to gush over. I like her cat. I'm also a cat person who would dump a guy if he hated them lmao. I also think just for fun, I'd make her an ace character b/c to me she gives off zero sexual energy, which makes her a funny contrast to Bellum.

So I watched OFMD

Oh no the show *starts* with my crush, I'm not gonna survive

objectively incredibly beautiful

Yall remember a while ago, I took a test that assigned me Lucius?

YEAH I CAN DEFINITELY FEEL IT.

gosh Oluwande is so darn beautiful too. The whole cast. damn.

Very appreciated, more male objectification thank youuuuu

"Actually, everyone knows cats are very evil because they steal children's breath." HE'S MY HUSBAND. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOOOOOOOOD. MARRY ME PLEASE.

AND OMG JIM THREW A KNIFE BECAUSE THE BRITISH OFFICER WAS TALKING SHIT ABOUT FRENCHIE. I'M SHIPPING IT. I'M SO SHIPPING IT.

LUCIUS IS THERE, BEING GAY. GOD HE'S SO RELATABLE. LIKE SERIOUSLY. OMG.

OMG THE FLAGS!!!!!! OH MY GOD.

OH MY GOD CON O'NEIL'S VOICE (I absolutely couldn't remember his face lol BUT HIS VOICE)

he's so beautiful like seriously

BLACKBEARD AND STEDE'S MEETING IS SO GAY

belly

Black Pete SOOOOOO WANTS TO GET FUCKED BY IZZY

And I think Izzy wants to fuck pretty much everyone

Just kiss already!!!

OH MY GOD BLACKBEARD

"Ooooh, ooh, Daddy" Izzy calling the fuck out of us

THE FRENCH ACCENTS OH MY GOD

Oluwande and Frenchie are boy friends, thanks for coming to my TED talk

Can I just say that the "Excuse me?" came from the heart? It's. Real. It feels real.

Lmaooooo the "pyramid scheme"

They almost kissed!!! Come oooon

Oh no baby................ Stede give him a hug. Dewit!!!

I'm crying, Lucius and Black Pete are so cute

Them holding each other in their sleep 🥺🥺🥺

On one hand I FUCKING KNEW IT THAT THEY'D BEEN FUCK BUDDIES. On the other hand I hate, HATE sounds related to urine. 😩

Aww Stede let Oluwande sleep in his quarters <3 <3 <3

As an aside, I really disliked the first part of the episode. It's, like, I feel like I've seen that kind of stuff again and again. Not compelling to me, personally.

THE FEET.

FANFICTION.

I'm pleading you Blackbeard get your beard back on.

EP9'S ENDING. COME OOOON.

So THAT'S why there's so much choking on AO3 with Izzy.

I was gonna say Stede is kind of an asshole but. He's drunk. Of course he is. *sigh*

Husband and wife supporting each other after one of them tried to kill the other, we love to see it.

I know this scene should be horrible but I'M SHIPPING BLACKBEARD AND IZZY SO MUCH.

HMM. THAT ENDING.

so casually cruel

great. this would leave a mark on me now. just like that crush I had for 10 years. i just now realized that, i think I have finally moved on from that crush? because of this new one that i had to move on from from now on. that crush from 10 years was the 1st real one i had. anyway, wow. the time I and this new guy have spent together are now just faint memories in my head. i dont want to forget it, so im going to type it down lol: the 1st one, i thought it wasn’t going to happen, akala ko di matutuloy, because he was talking to someone on the phone, about meeting up and those. he was quite busy on his phone that time which is unusual for him, he wasnt on his phone as much as that before during my treatment, so i really did thought it will not push through, gosh if i was right at that time i would really be bumbed. seriously tho, the time we had planned something he talks to someone about meeting up and be really busy on his phone? lol i originally thought I would ask him after my treatment but I held back. i had experiences like that before, i didnt want to embarrass myself anymore so i kept my mouth shut. after i was done with my treatment, i was ready to leave.. but then OMG!!! he asked me “are we not going?” shittttttttt why does this make me smile while i type it lmaoooo nooooo!!!! it was kinda cute tho. i actually thought it wouldnt happen, knowing or reading him based on the chats we had, but then hey.. it happened omg!!! we had coffee together. it was kinda embarrassing the topics i opned up. omygod hahahahaha because this dude doesnt speak much so i had to think about something to talk about. i h8 thissss why am i smiling. how would i get over this!!!! lmao alright so the next agenda was this.. lol, actually he was quite predictable. the texts he sent before was pretty cliche and predictable lmao. i didnt know back then but whenever i thought he would text, he would actually do? whenever i finished my treatment in their house he would text me immediately. i would only see him for an hour or two within the day and i guess we might have the same feeling that it wasnt enough? so we would chat but that would end in just a short while lmaooooo CLOWNING :’) alright moving on to the second one. im starting to forget thats why im writing this down. i dont wanna forget. he invited me again, it wasnt supposed to push through that day, mygod our angels really are stopping this huh? his parents were out, the nurse who was supposed to be on duty that night didnt show up. you know what he did? he contacted the nurse that was supposed to be on duty the next day just so we can go out lmao. the nurse that was on day duty came and he was thinking on making her take the time that night lol. his parents came home before i left. i was leaving lol, this was predictable too, i actually thought he would go after me aHAHAA mygoooood!!!!!!!!! this part makes me smile. i was leaving but his mom stopped me and said “arent you going to wait for him?” lmaoooo PLEASEEEEEEEEEE LOL and then he called me HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i knew what i was doing. i was leaving then he called me came after me LMAOOOOO IRA PLEASEEEEEE. i turned and looked at him coming towards me. i cant get that moment out of my mind to be honest. that moment, that look. him coming towards me in quite a hurry. gawd i really have it bad dont I. i wish i had someone think about me like this. like the moment i come towards them in quite a hurry would stay in their mind and be keep on replaying. we had dinner and had coffee. i stayed with him until 10 pm, until my mom chatted and told me to go home. it was fun. i waited for him to text bacause wasnt that supposed to happen, like its a code, he invited me so he had to thank me right? it took a while... another doubtful moment. if he really was into me he woud text me as soon as we part ways but he didnt. it took a while before he thanked me. i thought he wouldnt. so that was the last. he invited me again for the 3rd time but this time. it really did not happen and there was no next. i just realized the 1st, 2nd and 3rd one were like stages? lol the 1st one i thought wouldnt push through but it did, 2nd one there were already circumstances that was stopping it from happening but it did anyway, 3rd one, there were circumstances again and it finally won, the 3rd one didnt happen and there was no next. I wished to have more of those though. i kept holding on to it but i guess it wouldnt happen now. we even planned to go somewhere far with just the two of us. I had my eyebrows done just because of that idea. it was so embarrassing, tho i have already planned to do it before, but I the reason I had it done immediately was because of that. of course he noticed, his mom noticed everyone noticed, the most embarrassing part i told one of my friends the real reason and i was so excited. i had all these story ideas planned out in my head, it never got to happen. he probably forgot now. how cruel was that? he’s probably not affected too. how could you do that tho? have someone anticipate for something and.... just be gone in an instant. my friends were quite convinced as well that it was something more. maybe it was.. but just for a while. just some borrowed time. free trial lol. you know what as silly as it might sound to others, i find comfort in tiktok, there’s a lot of people who experience things that I do so.. it makes me feel quite better that a lot can relate to you too.  2 months have passed maybe i would get over it soon enough. my explanation is, ive got nothing to think about that why he crosses my mind soooooo often. everyday. do i run in his mind as much as he does in mine? does he miss me too? does he miss talking to me too? does that plan we had ever cross his mind? sayang. i got tired of talking to him too because of how slow he replies. and sometimes the things he says too. the difference with this and the ex is that the good stuff overpowers the bad.. while the ex, the bad overpowers the good. tho there were things that he did or said to me that i didnt like, it is shadowed by the good. and i kept on clinging to that. im still hoping something happens or maybe not. i dont know, i just want to find love. 

I just got ID'd for an energy drink 😭😭

BnHA Chapter 314: ...Or You Live Long Enough to See Yourself Become the Villain

Previously on BnHA: Some random assholes were all “let’s throw exploding spears at All Might and see if it activates his Conqueror’s Haki” and SURPRISE, MOTHERFUCKERS, IT DID!! Elsewhere, Lady Nagant confusingly tried to capture Deku alive by shooting him in the stomach, but to be fair I guess that’s what happens when you send an assassin to do a bounty hunter’s job, so yeah. Deku was all “ouch”, and then because this is a shounen he basically just straight up forgot about it, and did a big fancy Smokescreen thing, and then activated his mildly incomprehensible new ki-blasting quirk which he got from the Third. En and the Third were all “hey Deku maybe let’s not just impulsively activate all this shit in the heat of battle when you don’t know how to use it yet and you’re already injured,” and Deku was all “thanks for the quirks guys but I’ll take it from here” and snuck up on Nagant and grabbed her arm and so now what’s going to happen I wonder.

Today on BnHA: Nagant is all “[shoots Deku again]” because of course she is lol. Deku is all “tell me about AFO!” and Nagant is all “why would I tell you anything?” and then proceeds to tell him her entire life story which is FILLED WITH SO MUCH MURDER, YOU GUYS. Holy shit. So basically she was an assassin for the HPSC, which we already knew, but somehow it’s one thing to know that, and another to actually see her running around capping dudes in the forehead and being covered in more blood than the elevator from The Shining. Anyway, so you’ll never believe it, but all that murder had a negative impact on her psychologically, and eventually led her to question everything she believed about hero society, and so she killed her creepy boss and was promptly sent to Tartarus. This extremely fun chapter ends with Overhaul showing up all “HI, HELLO, I’M STILL HERE”, because for some reason he is still here. Why are you still here, Overhaul.

“the beautiful Lady Nagant” oh you know your audience don’t you Horikoshi

well all right then! so I’m guessing this means that she is not, in fact, going to roll over and die just because Deku’s out here all “GOT YA!” like they’re playing a game or tag or something. ffff may the manga gods have mercy on our young suicidal protagonist

lmao so Deku is all “GOD I’M SO SMART, WHAT A GOOD STRATEGY I HAD, CAPITOL JOB THERE OL’ CHAP, CAPITOL” and lol, okay. I mean, it was a good plan though. but I’m still waiting for the other shoe to drop here

“I’ll make you give me information on All for One” well there you go, lol. Deku Angst arc still fully engaged. still no light in his eyes either of course. just a lil chaotic ball of sleep deprivation and rage

lol, fucking THANK YOU though

oh my god what the hell did she do to him lol

did she shoot him with her elbow??? fucking look at this?? THIS IS WHY WE LISTEN TO HAWKS oh my god Deku are you dead

WHAT’S HAPPENING, IS THIS GOOD OR BAD, WHO’S WINNING

things that I wish I could tell from this panel which I unfortunately cannot tell

did she stab him or shoot him?? can you imagine if it was the former lol. why does Horikoshi keep stabbing all my kids. look Kacchan now the two of you can match

did she actually hit him or did he get away??

or did she hit him and then he jumped away?? just, what

well anyway, so now Deku is asking her why she sided with AFO, but he seems a lot more pissed off than when he was interrogating Muscular, though. probably because she shot him three times. fair enough

oh my god

does Lady have a blog here on tumblr dot com?? -- does Horikoshi have a blog here on tumblr motherfucking dot com?? why do I suddenly feel like this man is out here sneakily reading up on all our discourse

oh my god Deku it’s almost like getting up close and personal with someone who can shoot custom bullets from any distance and any position with deadly accuracy was a terrible fucking idea

IF ONLY SOMEONE HAD WARNED YOU NOT TO ENGAGE WITH HER AT ALL COSTS. IF ONLY SOMEONE HAD HAD THE FORESIGHT TO DO THAT sob. can you imagine how much shorter this series would be if characters actually listened to Hawks. Hawks, and Momo. why do we even let anyone else run the show ever

OH MY GOD

DEKU, RUN

OH MY GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING

this looks a lot like what happens to me whenever I play One’s Justice. those fucking combo attacks that you can’t fucking escape from and so your character just has to stand there getting their ass whalloped repeatedly while you wonder why you paid $40 for this

but anyways though. so Lady who did you kill?? I bet they deserved it, don’t worry I forgive you

(ETA: ANYWAY SO FRIENDLY REMINDER THAT LADY NAGANT DID NOTHING WRONG EVER IN HER ENTIRE LIFE. aside from murdering all those innocent people and shit. but there were CIRCUMSTANCES, and THEY WERE EXTENUATING, OKAY.)

-- holy shit

looks like the HPSC arc is back on the menu boys

so are we about to learn that the HPSC was going full Hydra on people’s asses? secretly dispatching anyone they deemed a threat to society?? “taken care of” as in you fucking shot them??

so then was the “hero” she killed actually one of the guys who was giving or carrying out these orders?? holy shit Lady, up until now I’ve mainly just been stanning you for your flawless eyebrow game and metal af quirk, but this shit could actually get real very quickly, and I am prepared to genuinely and sincerely love the shit out of you depending on what we learn next about your backstory

oh my god?!?

so wait, hold up. am I reading this right?? basically the HPSC started murdering vigilantes because they were worried they were gaining too much of the public’s favor?? holy fucking shit???

oh my GOD oh my god

“it’s been a while since I scarred you all with the dead dog and the graphic slaughter of an entire innocent family, huh,” Horikoshi says thoughtfully. “anyway so what do you all think of my new creation, the Spaghetti Bullet.” well, Horikoshi, so you know that squished-up face that Kermit the Frog makes sometimes? yeah. that’s what I think, if you must know lol

holy hell the juxtaposition

I’m actually kind of surprised to learn she had a lot of fans? what with her M.O., I was expecting her to have been an underground hero like Aizawa, but apparently not? then again I still have absolutely no idea how any of that works. I really need to read Vigilantes already

oh snap

nothing like a sweet dose of assassin trauma to finally round out our BnHA Trauma Bingo!! well done guys, we finally collected all of the traumas! hooray!

noooo Ladyyyyyyy

holy shit what a fucking chapter. like, this man promised us an assassin, and went and fucking delivered. I was not expecting it to be this dark, lol, but holy shit I am here for it

you know, at some point you have to start questioning the logistics of this, though

I mean, how do I put this... her quirk isn’t exactly subtle. that murder scene from a few pages back looked like the first season of Dexter for fuck’s sake, that’s not exactly “disappearing” people now is it?? and I mean, her bullets are literally made from her own fucking hair; it seems like it would be impossible not to leave any evidence behind. did no one start to wonder who the fuck was going around murdering all these people? or did the people who asked too many questions wind up getting conveniently “disappeared” themselves??

and hey, speaking of asking too many questions

holy shit is he blackmailing her??!? or no, wait -- what the hell is he reaching for in his pocket boy you better not

(ETA: what exactly was this man expecting fdslkjd. “uh oh my unstoppable hair trigger assassin who is literally always armed is asking questions, better announce that I am going to shoot her and then reach into my pocket veeeeeery slowly while she stands there all of two feet away.” how did this guy ever function as the head of a shadow government with these decision-making skills, I’m genuinely baffled.)

OH MY GOD LADY YES

this. right here. is why “run the fuck away” was damn good solid fucking advice. oh shit. but my god did this dude have it coming

so wait lol has she just been narrating all of this out loud to Deku this entire time

okay but can we just stop for a moment and appreciate the fact that they’re having this deep conversation about the dark secrets of hero society right in the middle of their intense mid-air sniper free-for-all lol

holy shit you guys, Nagant’s the one that should have made the tell-all video. I mean, no offense to you, Dabi, I’m sure you worked very hard on your video and did a ton of crunches every day so that you would look good with your shirt off while you told the world all about how your dad was a jerk. but seriously...

this is already like 100x more convincing than what he put out. also, gasp, is it another flashback

yes it is oh my gosh

so the HPSC Chairladyperson whom ReDestro killed used to be this guy’s direct subordinate, huh? I wonder if she kept the whole assassin program going after she took over. can’t say I was feeling any particular kind of grieving way about her death before, but certainly not now lol

but unfortunately Nagant has finally lost me at the same place where all of the villains inevitably do, which is to say when they somehow make the dubious mental leap from “society sucks and is bad” to “let’s just be openly fucking evil lol, worth a shot.” because when heroes murder innocent people and cover it up, that’s obviously bad (and I mean, it absolutely fucking is lol, don’t get me wrong); but when villains murder innocent people straight up out in the open without giving a fuck, they’re righteous revolutionaries? just -- is there really no non-murdery middle ground here?? I guess that’s what Deku and co. are for, hopefully

anyways oh shit Deku seems to have spotted something?? and he’s doing something weird with Blackwhip what

oh, he spotted her, I guess

lmaooooo

new favorite Deku panel right here. a masterpiece

oh my god you guys our little boy is starting to grow up before our eyes

you love to see it. and you can tell with those elipses that he’s gearing up to say something really cool and determined and badass like the shounen protag he is, yes please, Deku ilu so much please do your thing

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

IS THAT A TEENY TINY LIL EYE SPARKLE THERE OMG. still not anywhere close to his usual standard, but that’s some clear resolve there in his eyes there at long last! it always shines the most clearly when he’s being true to himself and his ideals, so I love that it finally shows up again here, when he’s reaffirming his resolve to help others no matter what

uh oh so what’s Lady going to do now

is it time for a trump card?? kinda sounding like it’s time for a trump card

???

I lied btw, this is my new favorite Deku panel. but anyways what is she up to now lol

ohhhhhh, lol

why does she seem shocked, lol. here I thought this was part of her plan, but apparently she forgot all about ol’ “Look Ma, No Hands” back up there

and so I guess that’s it for this week! so we’ve learned basically everything now about Lady and her quirk and her history with the HPSC and why she agreed to work for AFO. pretty much the only question that still remains is why the hell she decided to drag this asshole along for the ride! because I still cannot figure that out dsklkjlkf

(ETA: actually now I’m kind of wondering if they maybe have some past connection we don’t know about yet. when exactly was Nagant sent to Tartarus? is it possible she was ordered to track down and kill Overhaul at some point before that, but never got around to it? or something else along those lines? idk but now I’m curious.)

anyways Deku, I know that your empathy has no bounds and that you’re on a “saving villains” kick right now, and good on you... but also, if you decide to just like, skip all of that shit just this once, absolutely no one will hold it against you, I’m just saying. just, all I’m asking here is maybe let’s think twice before we start trying to reform guys who imprison and torture little girls for profit. I think maybe that’s a good place to draw the line. next week is going to be a very interesting chapter lol

Izana was abandoned when he was 7 which is young but not young enough for him to not understand what was happening to him back then. He was pretty much left to rely on himself and actually did a favour to Kakucho by taking him under his wing. This was until he met Shinichiro, the big brother that he dreamed about and while Shinichiro did care for him, I have no doubt, he certainly wasn’t the best caretaker for Izana. He taught Izana all the gang lifestyle as a way to bond I assume which obviously Izana could only take extremely seriously considering he never had anyone he could look up to. Unfortunately, we know how it goes, Shinichiro doesn’t have any excuses as to why he never introduced Izana to his family considering that Izana was old enough to leave the orphanage, to begin with, and Shinichiro was of legal age. Now it’s not to shift the blame on Shinichiro but he definitely played a major role in what led Izana to turn into the way he turned. He didn’t even know when Izana got out of juvie and it’s him that sought Shinichiro out which is when he learned that he was only second in the eyes of the person he loved the most and thought actually loved him too. So of course he’s going to be furious and shift the blame to Mikey because it’s too painful to imagine that this big brother who was supposed to love him as no one else did might not have cared as much as Izana thought he did. I also have to add that once he lost his brother he had nothing and it was Kisaki that used him as he was vulnerable and gave him an outlet for his pent up anger. Izana is quite frankly awful for his crimes but he was someone who had nothing and with his gang, he built trust and loyalty which he values more than anything else. Then he took what no one was ever going to give him. I personally am in love with his passion as well as the values we share, which are the importance of trust and loyalty. That’s more superficial but he’s also really beautiful and charismatic. He’s confident too and knows how to get things done. I think winning his heart would be quite the privilege actually despite his dirty history and he would treat me better than anyone else.

this was beautiful i'm giving you a standing ovation

as a true izana simp would lmfaooo

"I personally am in love with his passion as well as the values we share, which are the importance of trust and loyalty."

"think winning his heart would be quite the privilege actually despite his dirty history and he would treat me better than anyone else."

BARS

this is so cute

ethos: you clearly have a mastery of the text cuz you use context and i'm pretty sure wakui doesn't remember this shit himself LOL

pathos: i heard violins in the background as i read this no lie lmaooooo you said senpai didn't mean it and i was like fuck you're right :(((

logos: well crafted and well developed argument with supporting examples from the text and with a clear conclusion,

'Izana is quite frankly awful for his crimes but he was someone who had nothing and with his gang, he built trust and loyalty which he values more than anything else.'

anyway i need you to defend me in court

5/5

Oh did he?

Yeah LMAO there’s one part of the set where before Billie does oxytocin she tells the crowd there is one part where she’s gonna tell them to get low and she wants them all to do it. Then when she started the song she yelled JUMP! And Harry misunderstood and got low LMAOOOOO and it was on film and all. He really took it seriously 😂 and there’s video of him jumping at the end too

Oh yeah I saw that but it looks like Olivia is palling around with them too

look towards yourself for evidence

while i was away, i had a conversation with one of my friends where i randomly brought up the fact that i actually have tons of great friends now and it’s weird to think at one point in life (a little over a year ago) i was so hellbent on the fact i had “no one.” she was like, “yeah! i noticed that too. its crazy. you didnt even do anything!” this made me spiral into looking at how much my life has actually changed since finding out about the law.

firstly, i did do something. not on the outside, but the inside. my concept of self has definitely become more desirable.

over a year ago, i was a miserable wreck. i felt like no one really cared about me, i felt like i was unimportant and i always wanted friends who actually wanted to hang out with me but had none. i just wanted a good group of dependable friends. i felt like i showed up and showed out for the friends i did have, and they never returned the favor. i felt so alone. even when i found self love, it was more because i had to do it since no one else would love me. i still continued with the old story. then, i went through a dark time last fall a little after finding out about the law (which was really just the old story dying), and i can say that i picked myself up shortly after creating this blog. and everything started to take place and shift and rearrange to suit my new self concept after that. literally, looking back at the last few months. that’s all it took.

now, i look at my life and it’s so different. like, i have a couple of friends that are down to hang out basically anytime they’re free, and the best part is they’re asking me. i don’t even have to ask them. i literally love every friend i have and they’re all cool people who let me be my silly, playful self and everyone thinks im great. i am literally always hearing about how inspirational i am, how there’s no one like me, how i am one of kind (being seen as special is like... the upmost important thing to me y’all lmaooooo). how i’m that one person they can tell everything to and how loyal i am. i am so highly regarded. and i didnt even notice how this aspect of my life changed because... i was so busy focusing on this one ultimate manifestation.

literally, i have effortlessly manifested people back into my life. i wanted to be closer to this girl at work and without even realizing it, we are closer than ever and i am like her bestie. and i literally didn’t even realize this happened, until now. i’m even suddenly closer to my sister. we hang out all the time and suddenly have the same interests. for so many years we were so different and at one point in time we barely spoke to each other because we were so different. and it’s all just suddenly changed and i barely noticed.

literally, this one aspect of my life that was so damn dry and a big part of my past pain has absolutely transformed. and all i did was... intend for things. change my conception of self. i changed the way i see myself in relation to others (i am one of a kind, i am their favorite, i am the best they ever knew/had, i am so loved and cared for). 

i noticed the nice little comments when they happened but i dismissed them quickly because i was too busy worrying about this one thing i really wanted. this one thing that was the ultimate way for me to finally prove to myself i am god of my reality. meanwhile the god within me was absolutely reconstructing the 3D to fit my desires and i didn’t even freaking realize until recently. that’s how natural this whole thing is y’all.

to me the craziest part is how much my life has improved because of the law, and i was so busy doubting the law because of my obsession with this one ultimate manifestation. it’s kind of... sad, in a way. but it just goes to show the law is actually always working. and maybe sometimes we don’t notice it until we really take a moment to look back and pay attention.

i guess my point here is, for those of us who have been manifesting for months, actually take a look around. has there really not been any movement at all? or are you just so busy being hyper-focused on the one or two things you want the most that you have totally ignored how wonderful your life has actually become as a whole?

anyway, after this realization, i feel like. so secure in life? lmao like everything i want is going to fucking happen. everything you want is going to happen. it’s already all ours, lets just relax and enjoy the ride, really. seriously pay attention to everything you once wanted that already has happened. and suddenly you really won’t feel the need to try so hard anymore or be so obsessed and worried. because it is that effortless and easy. it really is all about your concept of self. i stopped feeling so desperate for friends and started to just change the way i saw myself in relation to relationships and how i felt about myself and my godself literally took care of the rest lmao

remember, we are all the evidence we need. as always, there is no one to change but self.

💖🌈✨🌺

Ficlet: Violator (1/1)

Summary: This prompt from @songsofgayanddevotion and @raphinas: "basically, dave goes to have a prostate exam and alans the doctor and basically dave comes over the table while alan is checking him LMAOOOOO" Rating: Mature

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When Dave opened the door, he thought he’d gotten the wrong office at first. “Oh, sorry,” he said hesitantly, hovering in the doorway. At Dr. Miller’s desk was an immensely good-looking young man who was scanning a clipboard, his eyebrows raised inquiringly at Dave. “Erm, I think I’ve got the wrong office--” Dave began.

“Are you David Gahan?” the man said pleasantly before rising to his feet. He was a little taller than Dave, six feet of trim muscle in neatly pressed grey trousers and a black Oxford shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. It was a world away from the casual polo tees and slacks that Dr. Miller favoured. “You’re here for the prostate check?”

Dave only belatedly realised his mouth was hanging open when the bloke’s eyebrows inched higher, waiting for Dave’s response. “Um, yeah, yeah that’s right,” he said hurriedly, stepping into the office and closing the door behind him. “Sorry, I was expecting Dr. Dan Miller--”

“He’s down with a very bad flu,” the bloke said, before offering his hand. He had the longest, most elegant fingers Dave had ever seen, and Dave forced himself not to think about where those fingers would be later. “I’m Dr. Alan Wilder, I’m the locum taking over his patients for today.”

“Oh. Um. Cool.” Dave shook his hand a little awkwardly, trying not to notice the nice firm grip of Dr. Wilder’s handshake. “I’m Dave Gahan.”

Dr. Wilder’s mouth curled up a little in amusement. It somehow made him even more attractive; Dave was fucking doomed. “Yes, I know,” Dr. Wilder said, tilting the clipboard at Dave. “Do have a seat, Mr. Gahan.”

“Dave!” he blurted out, before realising that Dr. Wilder was staring at him. “I mean, Dave is fine. No need for Mr. Gahan.”

“Sure.” Dr. Wilder just smiled at him, and Dave decided this must be divine punishment for all the grief he’d put his mother through as a wayward teenager. “So I read through your files, and I understand you told Dr. Miller that you had concerns about prostate cancer.”

Dave nodded, feeling a bit more settled back on familiar territory. “Yeah, my uncle was diagnosed with it last month. And I don’t know the medical history of my dad - my bio dad - so I thought I should get it checked on.”

Dr. Wilder simply nodded without judgement. “You’re in your 30s now, so you’re not in the typical at-risk group for prostate cancer. Still, whenever family history is involved, it is understandable if you have concerns.”

Dave let out a long breath, relieved that Dr. Wilder seemed to be taking him seriously for now. Besides, Dr. Wilder had a very calm, relaxing manner about him that felt infectious, something about his voice that was pleasant and soothing. Dave would pay money to hear this bloke read audiobooks.

Then again, Dave would also pay to hear and see the very handsome Dr. Wilder do a whole manner of other things.

“So what’s going to happen now are two things,” Dr. Wilder explained. “First, we will conduct a Digital Rectal Exam, which would be a physical examination by a trained physician to see if you have an enlarged prostate. Then we will also do a blood test to check your prostate-specific antigen levels.”

“Right.” Dave desperately tried to ignore the heat suffusing his face. He wasn’t going to blush in front of a medical professional because of a fucking prostate exam. “Yup, I get that.”

Here, Dr. Wilder hesitated. “It’s important that you feel comfortable with the doctor conducting the digital rectal exam,” he said quietly. “If you would rather have Dr. Miller do the test with you, we can reschedule--”

“No I want you,” Dave said a little too quickly. His face felt like it was on fire as Dr. Wilder’s smile curled up in amusement again. “I mean-- fuck, sorry. I meant I don’t mind you doing it.”

“If you’re sure.” Dr. Wilder was already pulling the drawer open and taking out a box of latex gloves, so hell yes, Dave was fucking sure.

Dave tried not to look too eager as he unbuttoned his jeans and shed them, going to where Dr. Wilder was telling him to stand. “Could you take off your briefs, then bend over the examination bed?” Dr. Wilder politely asked him, and Dave had to bite his tongue so he wouldn’t respond that he would do anything Dr. Wilder asked him to that involved beds and getting naked. Slipping off his briefs and folding them on top of his jeans in a neat pile, Dave shivered a little at the cold air hitting his exposed bottom.

Getting into position as he leaned against the bed, Dave heard the snap of Dr. Wilder’s gloves, along with his footsteps coming closer. “Relax,” Dr. Wilder said, a cool hand resting on Dave’s bum. “I’m a doctor.”

Dave could only nod in response, not trusting himself to speak. Already he could smell Dr. Wilder’s clean scent, a mix of aftershave and a faint whiff of tobacco. Dave closed his eyes, thinking about Dr. Wilder’s hands on his body, touching the most intimate of places that only his ex-wives had breached. He could also feel the heat emanating off Dr. Wilder’s body behind him, and Dave couldn’t help thinking about what the man would feel like in bed, spooning behind Dave and fucking him from behind, that sly refined mouth pressing kisses to Dave’s neck.

To Dave’s horror, his dick started taking a very keen interest in Dr. Wilder’s nearness as well as the lurid fantasies running through Dave’s head. “It’s fine,” Dr. Wilder reassured him, his voice dropping to that low and relaxing tone again. “Don’t worry about it, it happens to patients sometimes.”

Dave was thankful that Dr. Wilder was both acknowledging his erection while not being weird about it or put off. “I don’t, I’m sorry--”

“Relax, Dave.” The silky way Dr. Wilder said his name made Dave jerk a little, his cock starting to leak over the sterile paper sheets on the examination bed.

Now Dave could hear the squirting of lube from a pump bottle, then Dr. Wilder slicking his fingers. “Spread your legs a little wider,” Dr. Wilder said, and maybe it was Dave’s imagination but the doctor’s voice sounded a little rougher than normal. “Mmm yes, that’s good. Open up for me.”

Dave bit back a moan as he felt Dr. Wilder’s finger slipping inside him, slowly at first so as to help him get used to the intrusion. “Okay?” Dr. Wilder asked, his voice so gentle that Dave fought the temptation to turn around and kiss the living daylights out of him.

“Yeah.” Dave kept his breaths slow and easy, biting down on his forearm as Dr. Wilder slid in a second finger, in and out of Dave in an easy glide. “Keep-keep going.”

Dr. Wilder didn’t say anything, but he pressed a comforting hand on the small of Dave’s back while his fingers inside Dave were searching around for his prostate. This time Dave couldn’t hold back the moan when Dr. Wilder finally found it, pressing on it gently and making Dave leak embarrassing amounts of pre-come all over the covered bed.

“All right?” Dr. Wilder was definitely breathing faster now, even though his voice was still even, but Dave was too busy rolling his hips back, greedily demanding for more pressure from those talented fingers, too far gone with pleasure to care about propriety and inappropriate doctor-patient boundaries and getting sued by the hospital. All he cared about was the insanely hot man behind him with his fingers sending Dave through waves and waves of toe-curling pleasure, on the brink of one of the most intense orgasms he would ever experience.

“Dave--” Dr. Wilder sounded so breathless and stunned that when his fingers crooked against Dave’s prostate again, Dave came and came with a resounding yell, spurting all over the bed and his own bare feet, his legs shaking so hard that they almost couldn’t hold him up. Dave was gasping for air, trying to recover from the brain-melting orgasm as his head thunked down on the bed.

Oh fuck, Dave thought, remembering that Dr. Wilder definitely did not sign up to finger fuck one of his patients into oblivion. Shakily standing upright, Dave turned around with a litany of apologies at the ready. “Fucking hell, I’m so sorry--”

Dr. Wilder was staring at him, his cheeks pink with pleasure and his eyes brighter than stars. His gaze dropped down to Dave’s mouth, and Dave suddenly realised - with a white-hot pleasure - that he had nothing to be embarrassed about because the doctor was licking his lips while staring at Dave’s dripping cock.

“I, uhh--” Dr. Wilder quickly took off his gloves before handing Dave a box of tissues. “I will give you a while to clean up, Mr. Gahan. Someone else will be along shortly to help you. Sorry about that.”

“What do you-- wait!” Dave called out as Dr. Wilder left the examination room, but it was too late.

***

After Dave had finished cleaning up and putting on his jeans again, a nurse came in and apologetically told him that Dr. Wilder had been called to assist with an emergency, so Dr. Miller would follow up with Dave next week about his test results. “Emergency my arse,” Dave grumbled under his breath as the nurse led him out. Outside, Dr Wilder was nowhere to be seen.

Then Dave had an idea.

He only had to wait outside the hospital for about 15 minutes before he spotted Dr. Wilder heading to the designated smoking area, looking a bit shaken as he dug around for his cigarettes. When Dave walked up to him, Wilder avoided his eyes. “If you have any complaints, you can lodge them with the hospital,” he said in a tired voice.

Dave gaped at him. “Wh- wait, why would I want to lodge a complaint?” he said in amazement. “I came to fuckin’ apologise to you, mate.”

“Oh.” Dr. Wilder took a deep drag of his cigarette, a bit confused. “So you’re not mad I took advantage of you?”

Dave stepped a little closer, taking Dr. Wilder’s cigarette from him for his own drag. “As long as you’re not mad I came all over your table.”

They smoked in silence for a while, at least until one of the nurses popped her head out of the back door and called Dr. Wilder’s name, saying his next patient was here. Dr. Wilder stubbed out the cigarette, looking carefully at Dave.

“They warned us about this in pre-med, you know,” Dr. Wilder said with a little smile. “Being attracted to one of your patients. Never happened to me until today.”

Dave’s grin at him was so wide that it was hurting his cheeks a little. “Well, when Dan Miller comes back, I won’t be your patient anymore, will I?”

Dr. Wilder’s smile widened in response. “No, I suppose not.”

“Then it’s a date.” Dave grabbed his arm, taking the pen from his pocket and writing his number on Dr. Wilder’s arm. “So you don’t have to nick my mobile from my personal data.”

“Because that would be wrong.” Dr. Wilder smirked at him before heading back inside, leaving Dave laughing at the smoking area.

Hey, hope your classes are going okay. I don't know if you accept headcanons like this but a college FrUK AU with enthusiastic history professor Arthur whom everyone loves (why not? let's shake it up a bit) and terror of students art and philosophy professor Francis who's super intense and passionate. The only times that Francis is ever 'chill' are when he talks to Arthur. It's a shock for students everywhere when this happens.

My college classes are NOT going okay but that’s fine cause this blog is my ✨escapism✨

Francis is an absolute menace in his classroom. He teaches arts and philosophy and he just gets so into it!! He’s a tough grader because he expects a lot from his students, his class is usually taken by upperclassmen who want a challenge but occasionally, he’ll get a freshman who thought his class would be fun or a blow off class and...well, they signed their soul away the second they walked in the door

He is a fantastic lecturer!!! Very captivating and great to listen to but man...He is such a tough grader. And he calls on kids who look like they’re not paying attention just cause he’s petty lmaoooo

He also makes no effort to sound more English. You just gotta figure out what he’s saying, he refused to sacrifice his accent for his class HA-

Arthur, on the other hand, doesn’t take his classes as seriously. He keeps his kids engaged and makes his class fun!! He has tons of stories about his great grandfather who fought in WW2 and brings his journal in “This is one of my most prized possessions! As a history nerd myself, having such a well taken care of source of information is amazing! I’ll leave it on my desk if you want to come take a look but please don’t touch it-“

He grades hard but still not nearly as tough as Francis. If he can tell his students put the effort in, he’ll grade nicer. He usually gets freshman in his courses so he tries to make his class as unstressful as it can be so they can have an easy transition into college :)

Arthur learned how to make Kahoots for his class and actually really enjoys using them as team bonding exersises and also it’s a tool for him to see who’s studying but the class doesn’t need to know that lol

Arthurs class is on the first floor right next to the teachers lounge so Francis is down there constantly getting coffee...like an unhealthy amount...oh jeez

He stops into Art’s classes often! Francis has two classes on mondays and four on Thursdays so other than that, he comes to work to socialize or supervise theatre students

((Art has two classes on mondays, two on Tuesdays and two on Fridays. He likes having a spaced out schedule))

So Fran just helps himself to Arthurs lectures. He sits himself in the front and enjoys the show! Art, much to his own annoyance, feels like he has to impress the guy cause he has also been to Fran’s lectures and they...are just great

Francis loves cracking jokes in Art’s class and the students love it too cause hey, he’s funny when he wants to be

In return, Art joins Fran’s classes to learn a little from him. He’s interested in philosophy, he took a lot of philosophy classes in college and listening to Fran talk is just very interesting!!!!

Fran lightens up when Art’s there and his students are so grateful for it lmao they even thank Arthur in the halls when they see him

“Oi! Talk a little slower, no one can keep up, Frog!” “.....Alright” and the class is like 🧿👄🧿 what how did you get him to do that

“Oh come on now, he isn’t that bad” “Professor Kirkland! He’s awful!” “He just has high standards, he’s a Frenchman! What did you expect, lad?” “I heard that!!!!”

They meet for breakfast early in the mornings just to chat over tea and coffee :) they compare class notes and talk about their students. Especially ones that they share hatred for lmaooooo

Francis’s classroom is on the second floor, right above Arthur’s, and in the hallway there’s an area with couches and plugs stuff for students to sit as well as a balcony so you can sit outside. Art likes sitting out there while grading so on those days he just lets himself into Fran’s class to ‘stop by before heading out to grade’...That doesn’t always happen lol

I will talk more about this later lol I’m actually in class right now 😅😅👍👍

I need to scream about RE ID bc like. Did I enjoy it? Yeah, I did. Was it. Just wrapped up way too nicely and quickly? Also yeah. I was a little disappointed by it tho, like the length, and the flashback scenes weren't as clear as I think they should have been? Like I understood what was happening, but it took me a little too much brain power to like keep up with what was and wasn't a flashback lmao

Also I wanna say, I get wanting to keep Jun See alive but god, that did not look fun. Just let him die, dude, no one wants to live like that, smh.

Thank god they kept Leon's one liners tho, like thank you for that at least lol also Claire, my GIRL, I love her holy shit. Honestly she was amazing, like, just perfect. Not sure why she has a gun in the promotional poster, bc she just. Never has a gun throughout the entire show, I don't think? Also can we talk about how she took that guy down with that lamp, and then hopped on top of him just fucking ready to continue to beat the shit out of him? Chris would be so proud 🥲

Okay also, I saw what you said with that flirting scene, and I agree that it seemed like Leon was trying to lighten the mood, but it so didn't need to be put in there at all @ the writers. Like this show could have gotten away with no romance, or just that one moment near the end with Claire and Leon (which, I don't ship them much, and that moment at the v end where she was like "are you ever gonna stop treating me like a kid?" And he responded with "probably not" or whatever kind of ruined whatever was shown earlier? Like it feels like she's had that convo with Chris before too, so I'm like hm no don't imply romance and then imply that he treats her like a little kid every time they run into each other, now it's weird lol) and been fine. None of the story was contingent on any kind of romance between anyone.

Now with that said, can I just say Patrick absolutely wanted to suck Leon's dick? Like he was smitten, and I bet you they at least fuck after all this is said and done, if not date for a short period of time. I thought they were gonna kill Patrick off, I'm glad they didn't tho, he was v wholesome lol.

Also I wanna mention that every serious moment (save a small handful) I just. I couldn't take it seriously, it was too over the top. Acid? Really? That's the self destruct measure? Slowly rising acid? I dunno, that doesn't seem quite right to me, I don't think that's how it works lol

Honestly they should have just made this into a new movie, bc making it a series implies more to follow and in general a longer narrative, but these eps were barely 20 minutes each, so there's almost no point splitting it like that. Did I enjoy myself? Yeah, I always do when Leon is involved, but it could have been so much better.

Also the silly little shipper in me is kind of desperate for more interaction between Chris and Leon, bc as far as I'm aware it's just RE6, RE vendetta, and RE ID (and I think the person who told Chris to save Claire in either code x or Veronica was Leon? Not 100% about that tho lol) where they actually interact with each other, and considering that they're the two main characters of the franchise, they should probably meet up more? Idk, that's just my gay ass hoping for more Chreon content lmao but still.

ANYWAYS yeah, I would rate the show like a 7.5/10? It wasn't amazing but it wasn't garbage, either. Probably my least favorite of the four animated movies tbh, but I will take the Leon content, thank you Capcom. Also it was interesting to see Leon around the time following/around RE4 and RE degeneration, I thought, I dunno.

oh boy I agree 100% it was wrapped up way too quickly in the end. like killing Jason? by just dropping him in the acid? it was way too simple and easy if you ask me. and like, why didn't he yeet Leon into the acid when he had him by the throat? him not killing Leon makes zero sense to me??

asdfg yeah I get they weren't ready to let Jun See go, but I bet Jun See really would've preferred to go...

I am so happy that they kept the one liners!! Leon felt very, very in character which I loved so much. I was afraid they'd tone it down or make him super serious or so, and it was such a relief they didn't. he was so eager to help and so goddamn kind to everyone I don't know if my heart can even handle it ;;;;;

also Claire!! so badass!! I loved the part where she attacked the guy with the lamp (yes Chris would be super proud haha) and THE HEADBUTT seriously, one of the top highlights of the entire series :'D

(but honestly this is gonna get long i'mma gonna hit that read more here)

and the flirting scene, I do think they could've left it out entirely and it felt a little strong-armed in. but I'm trying to look at the silver lining? Leon was super goddamn adorable in it, like, so cute it hurts :'D and Shen May didn't seem bothered really, it was more this joking thing between them. so while yes, it was unnecessary, i'm focusing on the joking feel of it and choosing to interpret it as such :'D

also, can I just say, the "romantic moment" with Claire and Leon near the end didn't feel very romantic to me? I know it's a romcom cliché (or at least a fanfic cliché lmao) how they ended up in a pile after the rescue but ...it didn't scream romance to me? although I do kind of like the pairing! (not a top fave but a cute one)

and yes, the whole "when are you gonna stop treating me like a kid?" "probably never" felt SO much like a sibling moment!! such big brother energy from Leon, and I don't know, that made me super duper happy?? I want them to be friends. I neeeed them to be friends gdi. which is why I am unhappy with how mad Claire seemed to be at Leon in the end and how they left it off like they did. I am hoping that it sets things up for a second season? and they for whatever reason need them on kind of the opposing sides at first? because otherwise it makes no sense to me for her to be that disappointed in him. in Degeneration they already establish they work in different ways towards the same goal, and for that to do a 180 now feels... like a disservice to the characters? idk?

lmaooooo but yes Patrick 100% wanted to suck Leon's dick he didn't even try to be subtle about it :'D idk I would've wanted Patrick to have more depth and screentime too, i so wish they would've made it a longer series and given the characters more development. because I liked pretty much all of the new characters they introduced! but it feels none of them reached their actual potential!

then again that is kind of the whole deal with resident evil in general, they set up awesome characters and end up wasting them half of the time :'D guess i shouldn't be surprised.

THE SLOWLY RISING ACID PISSED ME OFF lmaooo c'mon!! it doesn't seem like a good self destruct measure. especially since ...you'd need different acid to dissolve organic matter and to dissolve inorganic matter if we're being nitpicky. and how would it be plausible for them to store enough of it safely to even do this?? they should've just detonated the whole place and blown it to smithereens or something, the acid was. stupid.

i agree, it feels like a movie. but I think @tirsynni is probably right when saying that it was sort of a test run to see if they should make more? which I am so hoping for. because even with the complaints I have of this, I DID enjoy it, a lot!! and I do want more! and maybe this time we get Claire and Leon actually working together for more than fifteen seconds! :'D

also I definitely would not say no to more Chris and Leon interactions. (yes it was Leon who told Chris to save Claire :) at least that) it... in general makes no sense to me how capcom seems to think friendships work? like how Sherry is all "Leon and Claire are my best friends" and then they imply they haven't met in years? if not more? idek it's. weird. it's like their characters go into storage containers in between their missions to be stored away so they can't even accidentally have personal lives or friendships or anything. weird.

(what I said about having amazing characters and ending up wasting their potential? yeah)

for me, personally, it's... well, my score for the show would depend on whether I just focus on the characterizations and what I liked, or if I try to actually take the plot and all into account too :'D but I did like this more than Degeneration! already the fact that Leon has actual facial expressions is enough to put it way above that one. (and for the record, I don't hate Degeneration either, I do like it, but... Leon is such a cardboard cutout with zero personality in it, it's super frustrating)

idk I think I need to still process this a bit to see how I will like it in the end :'D there are things i'm super hyped about in it, and things i'm disappointed in, let's see how they'll weigh in the overall experience eventually.