#I know this is all pretty irrelevant to everyone but Im just so happy for my sis ;u; she is excited to finally cosplay Sakura!
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Delusional - Part 17
*Not my GIF *
Once everyone was at the clubhouse they all gathered round the bar. “ATF isnt hrere about the blast at the warehouse a month ago. They are here digging into the club. Agent Stahl got Hale to pull me from the cells for an Interview. She knew all about me. My information, Everything. Even questioned me about Alex. Said his mum has filed some kind of missing report. Told me once she’s tore down SAMCRO, she’s gonna go looking into Alex.” Delaney held on to Jax’s hand tight. “What if she finds him? What if he comes back?” It was obvious to see she was worried. Alex really would kill her this time. But this time she had so much more to lose. Jax wrapped his arms around her tightly and pulled her close to him. “He wont come back baby. He knows I’ll kill him for everything he did to you.” Clay looked at Unser angrily. “And you had no idea about this bitch? Clearly Hale is working with her.” Unser raised his hands in surrender. “Woah just hold on a minute! If your suggesting i knew about this and didnt tell you, your completely wrong. They were here about the blast, thats all i knew!” Clay looked as though he didnt believe a word that came out of his mouth. “Why question Delaney though? It doesnt make sense.” Chibs spoke up. It went quiet as everyone tried to think of why she went after Delaney. What could she possibly achieve by going after her? “She wants information. Even if its something small.” Juice spoke up. “Whats the one thing she can use against us if she only has small bits of information? Where no information is irrelevant or not useful?” The penny dropped. They knew her game. “RICO. Shes using RICO.” Clay slammed his hands on the bar angrily. “THAT BITCH!” Silence quickly filled the clubhouse as the reality of what that meant for everyone sunk in.
From her place at Jax’s side, Delaney broke the silence. “We need to be smart about every move we make from now on. Atleast while Feds are in town. Gemma you need to get word to Luann that she’ll be watched. Shes an old lady, they’ll think shes privy to everything. Especially with Otto on the inside.” Everyone looked at her in suprise, while Jax looked at her proudly. His woman was so smart. “Over the next few weeks we need to run the garage like clock work. Only legit business in or out. Meaning your gonna have to find somewhere quiet to store and assemble the guns. Juice, pull up a map and start looking for possible places.” Delaney cleared space on the bar for Juice to start his search. “This bitch is smart. She’s gonna pick off the weakest links first. People with the most to lose. People she can blackmail. Ope, As much as i love Donna, she wants you out of Samcro, meaning shes a target for this Bitch. If she can convince Donna she can get you out if they cut a deal, She’ll take it. Get her straight with that.” Turning to Chief Unser, Delaney continued her rant. “And you Chief, i suggest you keep your ears open at the station. You’ll be the one to hear anything first hand. Oh and rein in Your Deputy. Or he’s gonna get that smirk wiped off his face, and not by Jax. By me.” Turning her attention to Gemma and Clay, Delaney smiled wide. “While Juice finds somewhere to store them, The rest of the guys can help Clay and Jax find a way to keep shipments coming in on time without ATF seeing how we get them in. Also need a way to get them out to the buyers without Feds seeing guns for cash. Maybe one location to pick up cash another location to exchange the guns. Either way thats the most important, keeping shipments going out and cash coming in.” Tig cut in once Delaney had finished talking. “And what are you guys gonna do while we do the hard work? sit there and look pretty?” Delaney rolled her eyes at the older man. “Me and Gem have the hardest job ofcourse. Making us all look like one big normal happy family. How you feel about a fundraiser Gem?” at the mention of that Gemma smiled wide. “Im thinking money for the local highschool? new music block maybe?” Gemma wrapped her arm around Delaney and looked to Jax. “See this is why i love her! Shes smart.” Jax grinned at his mom and his woman. God, he loved her. “What are you all standing around for? You have your orders!” Clay pulled himself up from the bar stool and kissed Delaney’s forehead. “You are a blessing to this family. Lets hope your plans work Sweetie.” He kissed Gemma before making his way through the double doors to the meeting room. Gemma wandered off into the kitchen ready to start planning the fundraiser. Jax walked up to Delaney and pulled her to him by his hoodie that she had on. “I love you.” He spoke softly pressing a kiss to her lips. “God, im never gonna get tired of hearing you say that.” Delaney sighed in bliss as she wrapped her arms over his shoulders, standing on her tip toes to press another kiss to his lips. “I know our moment got interrupted. But you kinda forgot something.” Jax grinned at her confused expression as he reached into his back pocket and pulled out a small black velvet box. “I told you this wasnt a spur of the moment decision. Ive been wanting to ask you for a little while. I just never expected to blurt it out in the moment. I wanted to do something special but i was so worried you’d say no.” Jax opened the box to reveal a beautiful ring. Tears welled in Delaneys eyes for what must have been the thousandth time that day. “I would never say no. We’ve been through alot. Alex. The baby. Now this. But we always do it together. Youre my world, Jaxon.” Jax placed a kiss on her ring finger before sliding the engagement ring on. It fit perfect and Delaney’s breath hitched in her throat. It was official. She was his.
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it started out with a song!!!
I've yet to see the broadway revival of merrily we roll along (although I desperately need to) but I have watched the first production of the show that Maria Friedman directed in the west end several times (shoutout @dolorianpolymath for insisting that I do like five years ago now??) I am still manifesting a New York trip where I see this show before it closes, but in lieu of that, the announcement of the revival cast recording was the most exciting news I've heard in a while. this is the first time I've had a chance to really sit down and listen (with my copy of Finishing The Hat by my side) so im going to ramble about how I feel about the whole thing now:
overture
like the rest of the show, this has been a profoundly overlooked. overture, its jazzy, it sets you so perfectly in the eras of the show, it makes me cry, needless to say it could've kept on going! gimme just the orchestrations of the entire show and I would enjoy it just as much <3
HEY WHERE THE FUCK IS THE HILLS OF TOMORROW
since when is "may we come to trust the dreams we must fulfill" irrelevant to the show???
merrily we roll along
this narrative device that is literally directly lifted from the ancient greeks that people decided was too confusing in the 80's. sounds like they're looking us directly in the eyes saying "I guess it made sense the whole fucking time, didn't it?"
that frank
feels like an audio play more than a modern cast recording. much more interested in carrying you through the show than being like "Hey guys look Lindsay Mendez is here! There's Jonathan Groff!" character/plot centric over celebrity boasting.
old friends-- like it was
old friends is a top tier Sondheim song of all time. on top of being really fun, it perfectly canonizes this relationship dynamic in a way you can apply to any story. Case in point, I made a letterboxd list about it earlier this year!
Trouble is Charlie, that's what everyone does, blames the way it is on the way it was. on the way it never, ever was.
and like it was really fucking gets to me, it gets to me more and more every year. the brutal underbelly of nostalgia, amirite ladies?!!
Franklin shephard inc.
"Listen- Frank does the money thing very well, but you know what, other people do it better. And Frank does the music thing very well, and you know what, no one does it better."
tour du force from Radcliffe, fucking good for him! what else is there to say! its like the realest song ever. the whole money refrain is really interesting coming from Daniel, because like he's part of a unique group of actors that had their breakout in massively successful franchises and now choose to use their clout to get fun, interesting indie projects made (ie. Kristen Stewart, Elijah Wood, Robert Pattinson post-Twilight, pre-The Batman) Give him a Tony (and give me the video of him in the recording studio)
old friends
its really interesting to see where old friends falls in the plotting of the show, because unlike not a day goes by, we aren't heartbroken by this not reprise reprise because we are starting to understand these characters but we don't fully love them like we will in an hour. so this gets to mainly be fun.
Halfway through listening to the song and trying to formulate an opinion on it I realized that I was literally listening to fucking Jonathan Groff, Daniel Radcliffe and Lindsay Mendez sing Old Friends in a Merrily cast recording and got so happy I could cry. what a gift!!!!
growing up
secret good thing going reprise. capitalism ruins everything! they all want the same thing and they still end up where they end up I can't handle it :(((((( I can't help but feel we don't really need the Gussie stuff. I guess that seeing someone who has no dog in the fight in terms of Frank's soul is an important foil to Charlie and Mary.
third transition
the harmony is so pretty
omg not a day goes by
lets GO Katie Rose Clarke! I've been truly obsessed with this song since I first heard it. It just grabs you by the shoulders and stares in your soul and shakes you around a bit and then it lets you go and you're like holy the fuck where am I. no shade to Katie Rose Clarke (who kills) but Bernadette's version is the only version.
Now You Know
wow this show really moves. we're already at now you know. I guess I have bootleg brain. fun story I saw Lindsay Mendez in Godspell at Circle in the Square like 12 years ago and she scared me when she was running through the audience and high fived me. I'll never ever forget it. Legend behavior always.
every "right" from Groff is iconic lololol
Gussie's opening number
oh Gussie. I don't think she's a horrible character but she's a narrative device. a two and a half dimensional character, to use Sondheim's term. cannot over-emphasize how good Krystal Joy Brown sounds though
It's a Hit!
"If it only even runs a minute, at least it's a wedge"
it's a bop! the most meta-song of the whole show. you love to see it!
fourth transition- the blob part 1
the transition slide is so fucking gorgeous I could listen to it all day.
I initially feel compelled to say the blob is prescient but I know it's not meant to be. It was written by Steven Sondheim in 1980 about the 60s, and it's reflective of how this sect of society has always been and always will be. It feels diminutive and inaccurate to call it prescient.
growing up (reprise)
Gussie's power is that she takes control of the pace of the show. its manic time-traveling nature has to stand still and listen to her every word.
good thing going
"it could've kept on growing, instead of just kept on"
makes me cry before it even starts *bangs my head on the table* the pain in Radcliffe's voice is killing me.
"we want to hear it again"
I truly feel like I'm in a horror film every time I hear this line. It is so fucking brilliant it feels like it must've come from lived experience because how do you even think of something so subtle that feels like such a direct attack on our characters emotional evolution. give in to the encore and you'll never keep on growing.
the blob- part II
the interruptions during the encore are fucking perfect- because its like yeah of course they didn't really want to hear it again- the blob can't know what it really wants that's the whole point! its the blob!
Frank and Charlie singing louder hurts me personally because they don't just want to be heard they want to keep singing together.
fifth transition
the tonal & rhythmic shifts are thrilling- I think it would be fun to sing this at an audition or something lol
Bobby and Jackie and Jack
the Irish jig music is so fucking funny
Both Beth and Gussie are undersung but it's nice that Beth gets to be funny and not just the stereotypical long suffering wife. two and a half dimensional!
not a day goes by (reprise)
I think Mary being literally in love with Frank is realistic but doesn't provide much to the story in the grand scheme of things.
Groff just has one of the most lovely voices on planet earth. they all sound so lovely together.
sixth transition
how did you ever get to be here?
more mournful the more we move backward. real. devastating
Opening Doors
"Russian Tea Room" feels dated without feeling actively offensive? a smart change.
groff's "I saw My Fair Lady/ I sort of enjoyed it" is so fucking funny! I love when line deliveries prove that actors get what lines are fun!
they all have so much chemistry its unreal. this feels like their polygraph test video.
the horns!!! the horns are incredible!
I love "up a tone" it showcases their chemistry instantly
can you imagine being in the room when Lindsay, Jonathan, and Daniel sang together for the first time??? I think I would pass out
seventh transition
a child??????
our time
the decrescendo at the end truly almost killed me. this song makes me so emo already and groff was born to sing it. it got me so bad!
final thoughts
I'm really hoping they're filming a pro-shot because they clearly marketing.the shit. out of it. so why not? its star studded and historical and I would like to see it!!!!
#merrily we roll along#broadway#stephen sondheim#hal prince#Jonathan groff#Daniel radcliffe#Lindsay Mendez#broadway revival
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Hey im not good with words or english, but its ok to feel burnt out or tired. Youre not obligated to provide anything to us. You are an author who writes for free. Maybe to have fun maybe to express yourself. You have your own life and thats a good thing. I havent been playing genshin in a while because theres so much work i need to do there like building characters. I havent watched link click s2 because i cant bring myself to sit down for that long. Im sure everyone has something like this happening to them and i just remind myself that it doesnt matter that much. Post unfinished things, make your character builds crap, dont finish a book youve started it doesntmatter. Its about having fun. Its about forgetting your problems(at least for me) or its about spending time with your online friends. Taking a break is necessary. Spending time for yourself is necessary. Taking care of yourself is necessary. I hope i could get my message across. I cant even take my own advice seriously as im too scared to post this without anon but i hope i was able to make you feel better somehow. I also want to say i really love your works even if i dont know who the person you’re writing about is. Ive been following your works for a while and i dont regret it one bit. I would be pretty sad if you were to stop writing for certain people but if it makes you feel happy then i dont mind and im sure others wouldn’t mind it as well. Youre free to do whatever you want ( as long as youre not intruding on other peoples freedom obviously) thank you for reading my wordvomit written in an attempt to comfort you.
dearie anon,
to have you in my inbox is already a blessing enough for me. thank you so much for taking the time of your day to cheer me up, you have no idea how much this means to me (brb crying i dont deserve you sob)
first of all, your message got across. i'm not sure about your english being not good part, but really, your message resonates with me on a level deeper than language can ever explain, truly.
i appreciate your kind reminder that i shouldn't feel obliged to write for anyone. i honestly feel like it's eating me out because i put myself in the equation as well. i had been a writer before, back when tokyo revengers (anime) was still in its first season since i'm more of a manga reader. if you were in that era, you might came across my work. alas, things happened. what used to be good memories (including writing) turned into very hurtful ones and i stopped doing what i love because they're causing me so much pain. nonetheless, i still slowly died inside. it took me a while to be at peace with my past and understand that writing is what makes me the person i am. so i'm determined to start again and keep it up. but when life gets in the way and hold me back from writing (again), it depresses me. (including not playing genshin). honestly, i'm feeling lonely. what and who i used to know and love seemed to only exist in the past. people moved on, topics became irrelevant, relationship broke. which i don't blame, but it still makes me cry once in a while.
sorry for the traumadump uh- i feel like i should explain myself a little. i hope that didn't scare you too much. but anyway, you're right! i should do whatever i want. maybe i need to reframe my perspective. i love that you mention about reading book thingy because i have the same issue and yes, i'm a reader through and through. but it's been so long since i read.. the irony. maybe all i need to do is start. and love myself a bit more to stop torturing myself with unnecessary thoughts..
you know what anon? i love the past me. i dont remember exactly what i love about her, but she used to be so at peace. i'm trying to find my way back to her, and i think you're helping me set my way there, so thank you. i dont know about your problems, but if you're willing to share, i'm more than happy to listen. don't forget to take care of yourself too okay? i hope your days ahead are the loveliest yet!
also, thank you for appreciating my works! when i started writing again, i told myself and whoever that's willing to take the time of their day to consume my content that i don't need anyone's attention or approval (shadowban be damned. if it happens, it happens). i did it solely for myself. but god knows how much your kind words and others' fill up the spaces in my heart.
i'm not going to ask anything from my works. your support is something i could never repay, but i'll always appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.
(btw yes, you did send this on anon hehe i got a hunch on who you might be but if you prefer to keep it a secret, then rest assured, your secret is safe with me!)
#no seriously anon#are you an angel????#also link click 2 is a pain to watch#please take your time to watch it#thank you once again anon for sending me this ilysm mwah mwah mwah!!#yoru's mailbox
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Hiiii!! Just wanna say that I really really love your art :>>> oh and I first uhh found?? you on tiktok and I love watching your videos djdj they're so nicely edited and entertaining to watch
Anywho, also came here in your uhh asks to let you know how happy I am to see a fellow pinoy turtle fan!!! I kinda rarely get to meet one especially here from where I live jddj only a few peeps watch tmnt, let alone rise soooo uhmm hiii againnn :>>>
[Haha sorry if am being weird am just really giddy]
AHH THANK YOU SO MUCHH OMG??? YOURE SO NICE IM GLAD YOU LIKE MY STUFF!!!
and yeahh it's pretty hard finding other tmnt fans in general around here, it feels a bit too niche since it's been around for so long that it's faded into irrelevance. I'm glad that there are still some non-US fans of Rise, it really helps you feel less alone in a way :]
this is coming from someone who's Rise obsession was so bad it became their whole personality, to the point where everyone at school designated me as THE ninja turtle guy (with a negative connotation, but can you imagine how much cooler I would've been if there were other tmnt enjoyers with me???LIKE I COULDVE HAD AN ENTOURAGE!!)
Literally why are all the rise fans so far away from each other can't there be at least one itty bitty miracle where two are at the same place at the same time </3
#also no ur not weird at all this brought the biggest smile to my face thank you <33333#filipino rottmnt enjoyers...RISE#you just reminded me how many other filipino turtle ideas i have yet to draw ty#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt#tmnt 2018#tmnt 2k18#taikko asks#mikyomix gifs
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I love you I love you
Thank you thank you
It’s a long story of circle of abuse, I used to save her from my father hitting her and few years later I had to save myself from both of them hitting me
I truly believe she’s evil, not what she does to me but to others also, she beats and humiliates not only me but the maids too, the other siblings are not beaten, the brother sometimes rarely but he’s her worshipper so i don’t think he minds.
I will get a job soon but I don’t think I can move out, it’s not very common here you know, and my father is like a influential guy, but hopefully when I earn my own money and cut her off I’ll be happy, we have a big house so living separately is possible.
I found out something today and it made me sick to my stomach, I have my whole life faced disgusting men, but turns out my brother is also one of them, he is after all my fathers and mothers son. he is an Andrew tate fanboy btw so you can guess his entire personality by that lolllllll.
I am so sorry this is alot of stuff to hear on a site where you are supposed to have fun, I am sending you apology hugs, take care 🫂❤️
Btw have you read the bell jar by Sylvia plath? It’s so depressing it’s taking me months to finish HAHAHAH
that is fucking awful and yes, i dont even believe in the whole concept of evil (i was raised without religion in a completely secular country + im very into psychology so good vs evil is not part of my worldview lol) but some behaviors even i just have to describe as evil and ur mom fits that pretty well like abusing ur own children is fucking evil. i have empathy for her to some extent since her behavior is clearly the result of her being abused herself like u said but it gets clouded by the absolute disgust and hatred and rage i feel for her for letting herself become the abuser herself and keeping the circle of abuse going by passing it on to her children. its one thing to not have the strength or power to stop ur husband from abusing ur kids, but straight up joining in on the abuse is a whole other level of disgusting and im so sorry u have to experience this.
but i do have to say that u seem like a genuinely good person like i really feel like u have so much kindness and love in ur heart and u seem like a very strong, sensible and intelligent girl and i get a strong feeling that the cycle of abuse is gonna end with u (as in, u wont be carrying it on and u will break free from it and if u have kids in the future u will be a good and loving mom to them) and i just wanna acknowledge that bc thats amazing and inspiring and i admire u so much like i just have so much admiration for u right now like u are everything u are the moment u are the vibe
anyway, glad to hear that u at least live in a big house so that u can at the very least have some space from her even tho u live together. i get that its not as easy or simple as some ppl think to ”just move out” especially if u live in a very family oriented culture where its not the norm to do so on top of it all so i think the best thing to do currently is to just kind of try to stay out of her way and honestly just not even listen to the bullshit she says bc her insults are kinda meaningless tbh bc lets be real, if u were skinny she would just use something else to criticize u for. she just wants to put u down in any way she can no matter what u look like. u could probably look like a damn supermodel or movie star and she would still find something to pick on and put u down for, bc she has issues. shes disturbed. her words are empty and her opinions on u are just completely irrelevant. why should u care if a deranged abusive sadist doesnt ”approve” of ur body and size? this woman thinks its ok to mentally torment everyone around her, even HER OWN CHILDREN that she just so happens to not just verbally and emotionally abuse but straight up physically abuse. shes a child abuser. actual scum of the earth. like honestly next time she says something about ur body or calls u fat or whatever this psychopath likes to call u just remind urself that this woman is actually disturbed and sick in the head like shes literally a terrible human being lol who the fuck is she to criticize anyone like ok so u got a little extra meat on ur bones meanwhile she is a deranged sadistic child abuser. like girl whatever flaw u may have is nothing compared to the flaws she has like u are so far above her in every way that actually matters like ur literally so much better than her in every way like shes actually pathetic.
sorry about ur brother btw. seems like us women can never catch a break from these male parasites that are crawling around everywhere these days. they just keep getting worse and worse now with all the andrew tate shit brainwashing them. thank god we women have each others backs in this vile current climate. sisterhood is so important, especially now with all this crazy shit going around.
and yes ofc ive read the bell jar! read it for the first time when i was 16 and have reread it a few times since then. its one of those books that deeply resonates with nearly every woman who reads it even now generations later like its truly timeless in that way thats why its so good
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okay 17th birthday synopsis & realizations
- my voice regulation is so bad especially when i’m making a joke about my friend hate criming me and everyone asks wtf i mean and i have to explain that i keep having a “gay little run”. also the time i won a round of a game and shouted fuck you at my friend by instinct but it was like dead quiet and i did it in front of a bunch of 13 year olds
- assume the best in people assume the best in people assume the best in people. skipped a party last night and was convinced everyone thought i was a square or a bitch for it NO literally nobody shittalked me nobody cared everyone hung w me later etc. some of my close IRLs forgot it was my bday but like they are busy as fuck and i forget things like that too. things r so much better in life when u try actively not to think people are after u and DAMN im still working on it but likeeee
- i am so pretty. irrelevant just want u guys 2 know that
- keep me busy and i’m happy but keep me busy w stuff i like bc otherwise literal misery forever like I DON’T WANT TO READ PRIDE AND PREJUDICE but ummmm i guess i will now. bc like. when the missus calls but the missus is schools
- there’s an app called be real and literally i thought it was a fake app bc i was like no way in hell people would want to do that but no its a thing and everyone here has it and im like literally what if we all died. love u guys to death. why tho.
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BUNNIE I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEIR PERSONAL IG ACCOUNTS!!! i saw it in my twt notifications when I was coming back from working out and I said "THE MOST AMAZING THING JUST HAPPENED" and my mom got excited as well but when I told her what it was she just started laughing 💀 anyways I don't know why this is making me so happy but im still happy about it jajakjahs, dahyun and tzuyu picked so pretty users! <3 I was gonna make fun of mina's user but she said that she thought a lot about it so now I think it's amazing and mina is a genius /hj 🥰
sorry for sending something so irrelevant but I wanted to talk about it with someone jahsk, tqm bunnie <3
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i was so happy too!! duckie sent me a twitter post about dahyun’s and then i found everyone else’s hehe i was stoked! so so happy they’re getting some more freedom with individual accounts it’s been a long time coming. honestly on the username front i’m just impressed momo got the @/momo lol good for her
and don’t be sorry!! i never mind, i promise it’s not irrelevant at all 🥺 i love chatting with anons so so much always 🤍🤍🤍
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Saw ur reblog so uh 4, 16, 25, 35 and 39, ITS ALOT I KNOW BUT IM JUST REALLY CURIOUS, and i wanna learn from you cause you're one of my faves😭😭😭
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I'm happy to answer! (And thank you, you're literally so sweet my dude! :))
4.) Q: What's a word that makes me go feral?
A: Hissed. I love how it can imply a very serious scene while also reminding me of a cat- like 'Hunter hissed' could mean he's in pain, but it could also mean he makes cat sounds when angered. It's just very amusing to me. My other top word is dreary, simply because of my love for rain, clouds, and the cozy gloom of writing on a dreary afternoon...(I know, I'm being overly poetic-)
16.) Q: What's the weirdest thing I've used as a bookmark?
A: Probably steampunk goggles. Or maybe that one steampunk Monster High doll. In case you couldn't tell, I like steampunk stuff.
25.) Q: What is a weird hyper-specific detail I know about one of my characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?
A: Darling, I have a whole list! But to spare your time, I'll just share a few.
My OC, Finn Basilton, wears lipgloss instead of chapstick. He says it's more fun to wear, but would never ever tell anyone. It's like a really dumb secret.
Romina Aster -another OC- really wants a motorcycle. She'll get one someday, but long after the story is over.
(Y/N) in 'Masks and Bets' is much more focused on magic than combat. I also like to think their dad is a bard, but that's just because my dad would probably be a bard. (He has a huge collection of instruments and a personality like Gomez Addams. He'd love to be a bard.)
35.) Q: What's my favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?
A: Whenever people say "don't use the word 'said'" I just...feel mental pain. 'Said' is an invisible word, much like 'he, she, they, etc...'. When you use another word, you have to mean it, because it isn't invisible. It stand out and means something, which is great in certain contexts, buuut.....
'"Hi, how are you?" She mumbled happily' vs '"Hi, how are you?" She said'
I can't stand re-reading my old works where I'd misuse words like 'groaned' or 'muttered'- just use 'said'. It's okay to use 'said'.
39.) A: What keeps you writing when you feel like giving up?
Q: Honestly, just the fact that I get ideas. Like, I'll have writers block, but then I'll see an awesome line of dialogue in a twine game and will just...itch to write! I have ADHD so motivation can be a huge problem, but I have too many ideas to contain in my head- like, you know when you find a really cool fact and just...tell it to everyone? (No? Just me?) Because if you do, then that's how writing is for me.
However. Sometimes I just can't get over a hurdle, or I'll hate how a story is going. For instance, my OtGW fic. I still love the fic, but I've learned to be okay with putting it on the shelf for a bit. I work on rewriting it slowly but surely, and maybe by next Halloween, 'Fleeting Austice' will finally be finished satisfactorily. In other words, I just give myself some grace and be okay with being a bit slow. At least I'm writing, even if it's just one sentence a day! I read some quote by Neil Gaiman- I don't recall the exact words, but it was something like 'Inspiration won't make you a writer, dedication will.' So when I'm miserable and uninspired, I just...add another word.
And *big secret*- 'An Oath to Keep' was one of the stories I struggled with. I was completely devoid of inspiration and absolutely sick of it- And I wasn't even past a thousand words. But I painstakingly added more, bit by bit- not even all on my laptop even! I wrote the face reveal scene on my notes app at a family diner because I was bored, and was later pleased to find out that it fixed a few plotholes and added a cool plotpoint- that was how I got the everlasting oath idea in the first place! I'm still not totally pleased with how it turned out, but that leads into my last bit of advice-
You're pretty much always going to be your own harshest critic. I'm 85% sure we all do that. But glaring problems through an author's eyes....usually aren't actually problems. Keep that in mind.
TL,DR: Just keep writing, just keep writing, just keep writing writing writing....
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Thanks for asking! Sorry for how long the last answer was, I hope you find some advice that might help you!
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Of Fandoms, Corporations Forcing Old Stuff Back Into the Zeigeist and How Disney Stretching IP Rights Beyond 50 Years After an Author's Death Has Been Pure Culture Poison
some thought occurred to me.
I hate South Park. It was fun way back when but now it's just meanspirited plop that's gone on way too long. I think I hate it compared to my soulache at how long the Simpsons has been going on for.
This all came to me as I pondered how publishers can own the rights to frankly dated and now inappropriate kids books in perpetuity (functionally speaking). The ownership of such rights means corporations feel like they have to use em or lose em, they gotta keep getting new generations hooked on old stuff, which in turn means they'll inevitably have to update them.
Of course, I dont like it, not because Im a Dahl or Blyton or Rev. Audry purist... but because I think all art has its natural lifespan, a zeitgeist in which it exists as a living thing. After that passes, it acquires other lives as archeology, historiography perhaps even a cautionary tale from a bygone age. BUT! but... corporations gotta corporation, and times and tastes and mores change, and so long as we can be sold the old nostalgic flavours, there will be efforts to update things, effacing the authors' big old colonial thumbprints.
What does this have to do with South Park and the Simpson or even Star Wars for that matter? They all share a thing in common - the corporate ownership of intellectual properties, the dead hand of capital that prevents things naturally entering the Commons, permitting more re-use, re-examination, or even just drifting off into becoming historical curiosities.. NO, the corporations have a vested interest in constantly trying to force old things back into the zeitgeist, taking off the signs of age, wear or irrelevance.
but once they've jammed them back into the collective consciousness, a ton of binaries arise. is one a fan or not? Were you a fan of the old version(s) or the new? Some people even take it further - Which one is the 'true' version?
I've found myself falling in and out of love with a lot of such intellectual properties over time, and cant help but recoil in revulsion at the rise of extremists among the fandoms - those imaginary republics and kingdoms made of childhood memory. The corporations keep propping up these often creaky edifices as they ride the tides of fans' often inchoate dreams, desires and hopes, with varying degrees of success. Are you a Rain Johnson fan, or a JJAbrams? Are there just too many women altogether in these new stories of the time traveller in his blue box?
There's nothing wrong with having a fondness for a story or a character, but I've wondered for a long time why things feel more... dangerous now? more aggressive? And once again, I couldnt help but assign blame to the modern capitalist world we live in.
Its undeniable that the global economy has managed to improve many people's lives, but the price is as old as pre-feudalism. "workplace flexibility" has always been a con, a one-way street where the serfs and artisans are the ones expected to contort to their overlords' whims and desires. Our lives are in constant turmoil as many of us cant even be assured a place to rest our heads at night, or perhaps if bosses will demand we stop taking personal safety precautions because they dont believe in them. Our parents wonder why we're such fuckups because the system worked OK for them, why cant we succeed like they did? Every system and institution we depend on seems hell bent on not serving our needs and rights. Im pretty sure everyone I know has a thought or a feeling like that at least once EVERY DAY.
Fandoms and nerding over what ever makes us happy start to look like boulders or tiny islands where we can find respite from the torrent of daily life effluent we're all standing in. They may look solid, like we can lean or even camp out on them, but they're more and more often made of whatever the corporations and rights holders dredged up and piled up in the stream.
Are we seeing more aggro fandoms because of a rise in inequality, a lack of predictability and the means of agency over other real-world aspects of our own lives? Are aggressive fans a dark echo of the alienated men in Fight Club, looking for something they can lean on, depend on in their seemingly immutable fond memories of the past? Is fan backlash just a response to how fragile people feel the rest of their lives really are, that nothing else is certain, and now even memory and nostalgia are weapons some Other, some Third Person From Over There is using to wound personally them?
If you've read this far, I thank you for persevering with me. I'd be keen to hear your thoughts.
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What is happening to me?
I had it in my mind to go one way and now my body is racing with ecstasy
Somewhere along the way, i lost my identity.
I look in the mirror and a different person looking back at me.
It’s like I went to sleep and woke up as someone else entirely.
I’m not sure what I’m trying to be.
I strive to be better than I was and now im doing shit differently.
Do you like what you see?
All the struggles I’ve experienced have given me a new way to think
I don’t care what anyone else wants anymore
The old me said fuck off and walked out that door
I’m not what you thought you could take me for
And it’s you who keeps coming back for more
Don’t ask for the old me cause she’s gone, good riddance.
Sad little bitch who cared way too much about other peoples opinions
I’m a sight for sore eyes
Im a woman most women despise
I’ve got more lies told about me that anyone that I know personally and yet I still continued to make sure I’m accommodating everybody and it’s bullshit.
I was a clueless kid.
Young dumb and having fun and yet I was still made into the joke time and time again.
My grandma always said you got to kill them with kindness but what about the people that are really close minded
At some point you gotta tell yourself that it doesn’t matter where their mind is.
They don’t know how bad i wanted to show them they were wrong.
Looking back on it, I should’ve been done with them before they were gone.
I’ve gone out of my way to help others in need
For years, I surrounded myself by bad company.
Had a fucking meltdown and took off on my family.
I still don’t understand what made me lose myself to insanity
I can’t even begin to comprehend or explain
I’m not here to talk about the price of my pain.
But I know for a fact there’s a lot of people who can relate.
I don’t associate with people who can’t bring something to the plate.
I used to feed everyone till I realized they didn’t even leave me with a bite to take.
Every time I’d go out of my way
It always ended the same
Some how and some way
They never cared how much I had to pay
Shit happens to everyone.
My situation is a result to my poorly made decisions.
I had good intentions.
My only goal at the end of the day is you and if you leave, what the fuck am I gonna do?
I’ll figure it out, it’s not like I can’t live without you.
At the same time, the thought of you not with me makes me wanna scream.
A terrible dream.
Don’t make me cause a scene.
I’m tired of arguing
Just shut up and hold me so I can sleep.
I’m feeling like I got a dagger in my chest and the rest of our future is drifting to a different galaxy
You got me fucked up if you think you’re gonna space travel without me
You defy the gravity of my personal atmosphere
Baby, you are what got me here
Sky diving through my stratosphere
Ill let you enjoy me after we get out of here
Listen dude, sit down and don’t act like a prude.
They don’t gotta know our business to know we aren’t afraid to see each other nude.
The haters can hate cause they are irrelevant between us
Kill them with kindness, don’t show them any weakness
You are my man so
Please don’t leave my standing alone
Let’s prove everybody wrong
A happy ending can still happen for people who used to get along…
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to come at you
But please remember some facts too.
We are always together, when the fuck would I have the time to go out of my way to play little fucking games.
I want everything to change.
I miss the man I call my everything.
Im his pretty bird so let’s spread our wings
It’s time to let go of the little things you can’t change
That’s if you want me the same way.
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Watching Until We Meet Again part 5(?)
There's a bunch of stuff i wrote elsewhere that i may copy here
Part 4 (includes links to all the other parts)
(love that i wrote that as if im not the only one wanting to know how to find these posts)
I need to vent about their sometimes bad acting a bit more, this "ignoring it because its not that bad and i like the show so much" isn't working. So yeah, sometimes, their acting is shit and annoying though i want to say that A LOT OF THAT IS THE EDITING
I get the public affection thing but idk why they joke about people knowing whether they fucked or not (they didn't but that's irrelevant) , everyone knows you're dating, its college, im sure a lot of them think you already are doing the devil's tango
WinTeam is good, potential and all, though (win, who is usually pretty good at not having his acting butchered at the hands of the editors sadly couldn't escape in the lake scene and , this is small but it made me laugh so: when they're in bed having the whole no need to be afraid of me conversation win is on top of team, then team switches them going on top of win and like a second later win switches them again??? What was the purpose??? If he wants to be on top let him be on top what is ha- whyyy??
They made me cry at 10 am with Pharm meeting Alin.
anyway, this "sad→horny-sad→horny" pipeline is an interesting formula to go with
I am a SUCKER for all things reincarnation, immortality the whole "loved one's who don't recognize you" thing , i LOVE IT GIMME GIMME. but i think the meeting the sister scene was done better though I get why they changed a few thing, i think, the part as a whole hits, but not any of the individual scenes that much.
(if i see one more person calling them top-bottom relationships, i get that they're saying it jokingly, but it doesn't sit right with me, just because someone's shy( Pharm is, Team isn't even shy) doesn't mean they're a bottom and again Team isn't even shy, he's just hesitant to take Win and their romantic thing seriously. Top and bottom is just a sexual thing and it's not a "shy=bottom" "assertive=top" kind of thing. And i think it's interesting how they're quick to but winteam and pharmdean in those boxes but not inkorn (cause in's the assertive one and korn's the less femme, so it doesn't fit with the joke i guess)
EP14 PART2 👌 directing, acting,editing (not flawless but good) dialogue goes from great to meh (multiple times not in that order) but i think it may be the english subtitles, when i watched it with greek ones it was better maybe the translation fits better
Oh both dreams where korn leaving in some way
(idk if they do a good job of showing korn's struggles leading up to it or if im understanding him because it has to do with suicide or if me understanding him also means they do a good job of it)
"my parents are not scary" was possibly the best thing she could've said.
Im loving this family time screentime. All of it is 👌
Ooh good job from the dad i really don't know if he's happy uncomfortable or bad uncomfortable
Love everyone's inclusion in this. ("say it in front of the whole family" they all know already my friend)
Idk if the dad's a comedic genius or if im just relieved
"we have to keep doing our best" and im crying
I love this family
("its not good for her if someone knows about this"??? Assuming it was a girl its still a what???😄)
Not the blow job face
↑ (see what i meant about the tears→horny sequences?)
"prepare yourself"? 😄
(See idk why they make him say stuff like "i will not wait any longer" which can be weird and creepy , when that's not the vibe and we all know that if pharm said so he'd be sleeping on the couch, its the dialogues fault and i dont like it)
Pharm is the personification of horny and excited but nervous af, bless.
#until we meet again the series#uwma#until we meet again#uwma the series#a bunch of em cause ill add the one's i have elsewhere at some point too#but currently at#ep14
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Getting to meet Jason Liebrecht has really motivated my sis and I QuQo I know she has been wanting to try cosplay for years now but she didn't go for it till they announced his upcoming appearance for this con in June. Jason has voiced so many of out fave characters & we just constantly hella hype!She is gonna have her first official cosplay ^_^!
Since her ultimate fave anime boy is Syaoran, she wants to go as Sakura! If we were gonna attend the con 2 days I would DEFINITELY go as Syaoran for 1 day and Hei for the other day. But since I only have 1 shot, I am going as Best Boy Hei. I helped her with figuring out her cosplay budget and stuff and she bought the Clear Card Arc wand plus the outfit Sakura wears in the 2nd OP ^_^! It's gonna be so much fun getting to go to a con while we both cosplay. I wish we could go multiple days ;w; but Metrocon is around the corner sooo yeh gotta budget. But even getting to go a day is gonna be great! And I finally bought Season 1 of Darker Than Black! So sis and I will be binging both seasons as soon as the DVD gets here by the 13th! Honestly we just wanna talk with him and thank him for bringing us together with all his roles QuQo!
In the meantime, I have been hard at work getting my other Metrocon cosplays done. I finally found the brand of spray paint I need for Poppy's shoes (I needed a special floral paint called Design Master Colortool Spray. IT WAS HARD TO TRACK DOWN FOR SOME REASON???)) and as soon as I'm done with making her speaker skirt plates, I will paint them as well ^_^! I have to print out her music notes too oof...I have mostly been focusing on the hat ;w; I had to start over due to an accident but I AM progressing on this. Sorry if I have been quite here lately but I have been prepping for these things and on top of that I still gotta schedule a call with my Utapri cosplay group so we can figure out everything we need for our photoshoot at Metrocon (props,poses,locations &stuff)
#Mana Blabz#I know this is all pretty irrelevant to everyone but Im just so happy for my sis ;u; she is excited to finally cosplay Sakura!
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dadzawa 🥺
this is so self indulgent im sorry 😭
ALSO YALL CAN MF SEND IN REQUESTS GRR BARK BARK YOU HAVE TO STOP MY SELF INDULGENCY HELP-
this is like a fic but headcanon format???? idk???? i just??? wrote??????? help???????
secret relationship w ur hr teacher prohero dad check 😊🔫
pairings: dad!aizawa x daughter!reader
warnings: overprotective dad 🤨🤨 and strong language
bte the bullets are really irrelevent i just thought itd be nice to know for refrence for future fics since its what my quirk is in my shifting script and its also a go to superpower of mine
so background on you: ur his love child but the mom ✨ a b a n d o n e d ✨ you
yall habe a great relationship,,, very open
u got into UA as top of recomemdations
no one knows you and mr. aizawa (who is ur hr teacher) are actually related
he doesnt go easy on you (thats prob why they cant tell dumb fuck) in class
ur quirk is that based off how happy or sad/strong your emotions are mean how much you can control light or darkness (its soley based off emotions, not like how much light is where you are)
you can make weapons of light and dark from your quirk or pull a tokoyami and have light or dark surround you, making you have basically armour which elevates yiur strength
if someone gets hit by ur quirk they become paralyzed w too many emotions
ur go to weapon is either balls of light/dark or light/dark whips
sad emotions=dark, happy emotions=light
you have ur dads hair and his eye bags skjsjd
ur hero name is eclipse and ur light whip is named solar, while ur dark whip is named lunar
ur hero suit is like this (ac: ON-K on deviantart) but black and white 😩
yes most of the guys are attracted to you, yes you are friends w everyone, yes mr. aizawa hates the first part
SJJSDH SORRY THIS WAS LONG BUT THIS IS JUST AN IDEA IVE HAD FOR THE LONGEST MF TIME EVER
its your first day at school and ur parental figure pulls up??? like he legit goes ‘y/n l/n (ur moms last name just go w it)’ come with me.
uh this fucking idiot forgets that HE DOESNT KNOW ANYONE IN HIS CLASS.
so he goes ‘you too todoroki, i need to talk to you guys about,,, recomendations.’ and then he just rolls away 😭🤚
for the first day field thing he makes you do the timing bc he trusts u af but then thats sus so he makes midoriya do it too bc yalls quirks are both pretty useless for it (not midoriyas bc he just doesnt know how to do jackshit w his quirk. ily tho deku)
when you see him sleeping in class w his yellow sleeping bag you go ‘baka.’
only problem is, is that you say it louder than u meant to. and,,, the class was silent 😐🧍🏻♀️
so ur just staring at the guy sleeping in a bright yellow sleeping bag whos ur teacher whos also ur secret father like 😀 ‘bestie im afraid to tell you this, bestie im afraid to tell you this’
hes rly good at keeping it a secret, but UR UNCLES AND AUNTS (uncle and aunt!proheroes getting me all soft and shit) cant do shit. mfs be all ‘y/n are you ok?’ ‘y/n you did so well!!’ ‘y/n this,’ ‘y/n that’ they cant do nothing istg 😐🔫
they baby you and everyones like ‘are one of them ur parents?’ and ur like ‘no ahahaha 😊🔪’
for the dorms- oh hell naw. them dorms hes so ‘i refuse. no. absolutely not. my daughter in the same BUILDING. sleeping in the same BUILDING. as m*neta i- no.’
ends up letting you as he should but makes the curfew so strict??? 😭 what? like it didnt do anything anyways
but he also goes ‘no girls and boys in the same room w the door closed’ like pls i thought we were supposed to be a secret 😐🤚
for hero training he goes so much harder on you. like u get bakugo, kirishima, and mina on the same team AGAINST JUST YOU.
mans really said ‘choke.’
N E WAYS-
this bitch goes ‘you are FORBIDDEN. to be in the same vicinity as m*neta alone.’ like preach but u didnt want to anyways period. 🙄
he sees ur HEREDITARY eyebags and he freaks tf out like u rly think we getting frisky in these ting as dorms? tf?
but hes alsk like checking every single girls eyebags and realizes urs are hereditary and goes ‘make sure yall are getting enough sleep 😀👍class dismissed.’ and rolls out of that classroom so fast istg-
HE 👏 KNOWS 👏 HOW 👏 TO 👏 DO 👏 HAIR👏
he just doesnt want to do his own. but he will do urs and the rest of the girls’ hair (and eri’s 🥺)
will let you blast depressing music in the middle of class bc felt but also dont leave me bc i <3 you. but also felt. but as soon as he hears a cuss word he will give u detention no question
mf knows everythung ab ur life
like ur dating todoroki? he knows.
kirishima broke ur heart? he knows. and also makes him run extra and do extra pushups
anyone who makes you cry will literally be met w the dadzawa glare and thats so terrifying it literally scares me and hes like a dad to me ‼️
for the provisional license exam thingy he does in fact tell you ab the like UA takedown super smash bros competition thing 😊👊
yall are found out in the weirdest way possible
ok so one day ur blasting music as per usual, and you blast blackpink, you and ur dads’ fav band. so obvi he starts rapping and singing under his breath harmonizing w ur parts
and mina and jiro go ‘whats this i hear?’
and they just look at the two of you, piecing everything together
they tell everyone obvi but the guys and some of the girls are like ‘but we cant be making false accusations??’ so they steal the two of yalls phones
and u have as his contact ‘dadzawa 😐👎’ and ur ‘problem child 😐👎’ in his bc matching goals
then they send texts, its the same person and the next day u walk in WITH HIM ‼️‼️
and theyre like ‘what the fuck 😊🔪’ and jump you two sjshshjs
yall admit and ur like ‘but i didnt want media surrounding me or people to think that dad had a bias towards me, so we kept it secret’ while ur just both sipping iced coffee sjshshhfhdid
he just nods and shoves u PLS-
then nothing changes except sometimes when he calls on you he goes ‘whats up sweetie?’ and ur like ‘nothing just what do i do for blah blah blah dad 😊?’ and yall say it so casually and everyone else is like ‘😟’ bc no one is used to it yet 😭 HELP-
anyways bonus: you get everyone in class 1-A to ship present mic x aizawa and everyone in class 1-B to ship ms. joke x aizawa to stir drama and ✨c h a o s ✨
ok thats all i have for now have a good day/night lovelies!!
eat some food and drink some water and like my king sal khan says ‘you need fat to be alive.’ and also ‘i eat nutrients and protein to feed my six pack 🥶’ or something like that <3
#dadzawa#aizawa x reader#aizawa x daughter!reader#my hero academia aizawa#aizawa x you#aizawa x present mic#aizawa x ms joke#class 1 a#class 1 b#bnha aizawa#aizawa headcanons#aizawa fluff#aizawa x y/n#shouta aizawa imagine#shouta aizawa#bhna headcanons#mha fluff#mha headcanons#eitelle writes
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Heyhey! It's 20th november here and uh, it's my birthday! Yeepee yoohoo or whatevs i suppose, um, is it okay if i request Bakugou, Todoroki, and Tamaki with an S/O who's crying on their bday? Like maybe life has been hard on them for the last few months and now everyone is pressuring them using "act more mature" or "you're old enough to stop acting like a kid" or sumn, and the fact that they're getting older just kinda makes them sad cuz now people are going to expect MORE from them. I hope that's aight, thanks✨💕
aaa happy birthday :) if you’re experiencing that then i’m sorry :(( you’re supposed to feel special on your birthday, so this is my birthday treat to you 🤍
you’re sad on your birthday
characters : bakugou katsuki, todoroki shouto, amajiki tamaki
legend : [Y/N = your name] i’ll use they/them pronouns. reader has a strong quirk
fic type : headcanons [comfort; angst-ish to fluff]
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bakugou katsuki
he likes to pretend he doesn’t really care that much about your birthday
again, he’s pretty tsundere— that’s how katsuki is
IN REALITY
katsuki cares about your birthday a lot
he’s been saving up for your gift for a few months, and he will NOT fuck this up
so, he’s kinda shocked when he sees your melancholic expression the entire day
you’re someone that’s usually pretty laid back, and you seem pretty carefree
you do what you want, even if it seems a little immature at some times
but— why do you look that way??
so he comes to confront you around dinner time while holding his gift behind his back, asking what the hell is wrong with you
but your eyes,, they’re teary eyed
“what’s wrong idiot?? isn’t it your birthday??”
he’s kinda confused, but his spirit is right
“i don’t know katsuki, it’s like it’s crashing down on me”
your room is dark, so he places the gift onto your desk quietly— before running his hands along the side of your arms
“talk to me, idiot. what’s on your mind?”
and that’s when you voice all your worries.
on how you’re getting older and older by the second. even though you guys are still young, the expectations people have on you are building up on you
“everyone says im being ‘immature’ for my age, and i’m starting to think it’s true.”
you heave, and you push your head against his chest (not wishing to see his face)
“Y/N, look at me.”
begrudgingly, you look at him— tears rolling down your face
and even in the dark, you can see that genuine expression on his face
“fuck everyone’s expectations. look, it might be pretty plain of me to say this, but does some random extra’s opinion matter? no- hell no. it’s irrelevant.”
and it’s actually quite true, you’re lost for words— are you surprised? no. bakugou has a habit of doing that, catching you by surprise.
“also, you’re not immature. you’re just really genuine, and take that compliment— idiot.”
you giggle. you’re no longer crying— and you wrap your arms around his torso “thank you, katsuki”
“no problem, idiot. i’ll beat up any idiot that’ll say that shit about you.”
you guys lay in silence for a while, and he pulls you off of him— and walks back to your gift
“happy birthday, idiot.”
todoroki shouto
he’s oddly ethusiastic about your birthday
“love, where do you wanna go on your birthday? i’ll get anything you want.”
though, he’s confused when you’re not sharing the same ethusiasm.
you’re pretty relaxed and upgoing, so this is a little off. something is weird.
he doesn’t like pushing things onto you, so hours before your birthday,
he comes to your room, and you’re simply staring at the clock— watching as time passes by you.
“what’s wrong, love? it’s fine to hate birthday celebrations”
he’s too blunt, but expect that from him
you sigh, trying to find the words that you want to say. he encourages you by running his left hand along your back
“it’s my birthday soon, and everyone is expecting so much of me.”
he blinks
he doesn’t understand, but— he’s waiting for you to elaborate.
“i mean, given my quirk— i’d see why but. in the end, they always forget that i can’t meet their expectations.”
you tear up
“and i’m getting older, and it’s building up on me. i know i have to suck it up some day but.. it’s painful. sometimes i can be a little immature but really- it’s just me trying to save what’s left of my youth i guess...”
you guys aren’t even that old ngl
his expression is pained, and he pulls you into a hug
“i’m sorry love, you shouldn’t be feeling that way. you don’t have to please everyone all the time, and if you make mistakes— it shouldn’t discredit you for your talent. embrace your personality, even if you find yourself immature— i’ll always love you regardless.”
you don’t say anything, but you’re smiling. that’s the important part
growing older is still scary, but with shouto— it makes the journey less intimidating.
also, he spoils tf out of you on your birthday
amajiki tamaki
oddly enough, he’s doing the midnight countdown with you
you’d guess he’d be asleep by now, since tamaki isn’t such a ‘night owl’ to be frank
but!! he’s so pumped for your birthday
so he’s anticipating the clock to hit midnight, and when it does..
he’s elated! he’s looking at you for that classical Y/N smile
but it’s not there..? your expression hasn’t been this empty.
he’s worried if he made you mad, and his anxiety almost sets off
“d-did i make you mad, Y/N?”
“what? no- it’s not that.”
“please tell me Y/N, i’m not sure if i can go pass this without you telling me..”
you sigh, the moonlight luminating your face— enough to showcase that melancholic expression
“it’s my birthday. i know i should be happy but, getting older is so scary- you know?”
he gets it, because he himself has his troubles
but you’re there to calm him down from his worries. that’s why he fell head over heels for you.
he’s so shocked— and he’s not the best at comforting, so when you cry
it makes it worse for him. it’s like he’s in that much pain as you are!
“b-bunny, i know how hard it must be.. i’m not the best at this comforting stuff, but i want you to know that i’ll always be here. you don’t have to match everyone’s expectations, that’s what you’ve taught me. and i want you to know that i-i’ll love you, really! and seeing you in this pain isn’t what i want. i don’t care if people say you’re ‘immature’ i love you for you, bunny!”
it’s honestly the most tamaki has said, and it catches you off guard too.
he seems equally as surprised as you are, however, his intent is solid.
“thank you, tamaki.” you pull him into a hug, tears rolling down your cheeks “i.. really needed to hear that.”
tamaki’s cheeks are painted a bright red, but he pushes deeper into the hug— his hands running up and down your back
you finally allow the emotions to spill. all the buildup falling apart, and does tamaki mind? no. not at all, he prefers you to be clear with your emotions the most.
he’ll be your #1 supporter, even if he has to speak paragraphs and paragraphs to you
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likes and reblogs are appreciated, thank you for reading! (happy birthday exclipsses🤍)
i do not own bnha/mha and it’s characters. boku no hero academia/my hero academia belongs to horikoshi kohei. i only own the writing
do not plagiarize my work :)
#bakugou imagines#bnha imagines#bnha x reader#mha x reader#mha imagines#todoroki shouto x reader#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#todoroki imagines#todoroki x reader#amajiki tamaki x reader#amajiki imagines#amajiki x reader#bnha fluff#bnha angst#bnha fanfiction
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Larry songs timeline & what it tells us about the evolution of their relationship
**These are all just my interpretations but the more I listen to the music they wrote, the more it all fits together. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THROUGHOUT THE YEARS THEY’VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT WRITING “AUTOBIOGRAPHICALLY” AND “FROM PERSONAL EXPERIENCE”
I deffo missed some songs but these stood out to me:
2013
L-Strong: Love isn’t easy (waves trying to break it) but what we have means something and it’s worth fighting for. read: love is only for the brave (Think of how much love that’s been wasted...there’s nothing i’m running from...i don’t care, I’m not scared of love) And we bring out the best in each other so lets not throw this away (i’d do anything to save it...when i’m not with you i’m weaker).
H-Happily: I want to fight for us too bc we’re on fire and our love is powerful af. ik we have to do stunts and stuff (and if (s)he feels my traces in your hair, sorry love but I don’t really care) but what we have is insane and fuck everyone else bc you’re MINE and i’m YOURS at the end of the day (i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep). Together, we’re magic so just be with me so happily
H-Something Great: ****this song is very straightforward so i won’t explain it much***** (i want you here with me like how i pictured it so i dont have to keep imagining... We’re better off together here tonight). Written as a longing for what could be if they dont have to suppress the relationship. (script was written...want to rip it all to shreds) Louis’ response (you’re all I want so much it’s hurting) basically says “it’s not too much to ask babe, i want it too.” This has the kind of longing that ‘wouldn’t it be nice- beach boys’ which Harry has admitted is kind of a theme song.
L-Through the Dark: I know all this bs we’re going through is taking a toll on you and hurts you and i hate seeing you upset (you tell me that your sad...you tell me that you’re hurt and youre in pain and i can see your head is held in shame...i just wanna see you smile again) but I will do everything physically possible to protect you from any pain bb (i’d never let you fall and break your heart, if u wanna cry or fall apart, i’ll be there to hold ya). We’re going through this together and I will take on any responsibility needed to keep you happy. I’M WILLING TO GO THROUGH HELL TO FIGHT FOR US HARRY LOVE (entire chorus basically).
L-Better than Words: holy fuck our love is amazing can’t even describe it can i just sing to you foreva love u babycakes
L-Why don’t we go there: what if...we just forgot about the world and escaped and enjoyed each others love and rode the high??? Also sex
2014
L-Ready to Run: *******Followup to Why Don’t We Go There*********** But this time let’s escape for real bc (there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time). Like i’m ready to get out of here and it could just be us living happily ever after (this time i’m ready to run). Honestly nothing else makes sense (without you i’ll never make it out alive...wherever you are is the place i belong). I know what i want out of life and IT’S YOU HARREH (i want to be free and i wanna be yours, i will never look back).
L-Steal My Girl: all u thirsty hoes find someone else bc Harry is MY pretty princess. Srsly ask his family. But you can still admire how he looks in those jeans. We all do. You know the ones
L-No Control: boy u fine, let’s do what lovers do IN THE MORNING. bc we can. also you own me and i am urs
L-Clouds: WE KNEW THIS WAS GONNA BE HARD SO WHY ARE YOU BEING A LITTLE BITCH (you dont like it complicated...but love is never ever simple...you are tired of all the changes, but love is always always changing). We could be great yo, just keep fighting (if we’re never coming back down, we’ll looking down on the clouds...we go and we go and we dont stop)
H-Where do Broken Hearts Go: IM SORRY LOU BABY YOURE EVERYTHING (rest of my crimes dont come close the look on your face when i let you go... the taste of your lips...is at the top of the list of things i want). H&L’s call and response at the end is basically forgiveness and acknowledgment (come on baby come and get me out, come on baby cuz i need you now)
H-Two Ghosts: *****was written around this time according to Harry******. This is fucking hard yo. We’re drained and exhausted and idk how much more we can fight for this... (it’s not you and it’s not me...sounds like something that i used to feel). That infatuation and electricity and hope that fueled our younger selves isn’t really there anymore and i’m just tired man (we’re just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty, trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat, we’re not who we used to be...this was all we used to need). We’re empty vessels going through the motions (same eyes blue, couple more tattoos). AND WE AREN’T FUCKING COMMUNICATING (we dont say what we really mean).
2015
H&L-Perfect: so what if... we get rid of the pressure of forever? What if we just have fun doing the stupid shit we love and makes us feel alive (trouble up in hotel rooms, secret little rendezvous, things you know that we shouldn’t do). Like we won’t be out of each others’ lives, I’m still around and we can find comfort in each other and even mess around here and there (I can be the one you love from time to time). Remember how we used to be young and EXCITED (when i first saw you from across the room, i could tell that you were curious) let’s get that energy back without the responsiblity of an adult relationship. And we can keep making art lmao (if youre looking for someone to write your breakup songs about).
L-Long Way Down *****this song fkn hurts man. It’s overlooked a lot but shows so much insight**** We were...everything. And maybe that’s the problem? We’ve been through so fucking much, more than anyone our age should have to endure. (We've been in fire, Went down in the flames. We sailed the ocean And drowned in the waves. Built a cathedral But we never prayed) We didn’t know what we had. We were damn kids man. We weren’t prepared for all this. We didn’t know how powerful this would be. We didn’t know what it required of us. (We had a mountain But took it for granted. We had it all yeah. Who could’ve planned it). We didn’t know what to do with it, how to deal with it, so here we are. (We had a spaceship But we couldn't land it) We’re each other’s everything, but we can’t keep going on like this babe. (We found an island But we got stranded). I don’t want to leave you but being together is breaking us down. (Point of no return and now It's just too late to turn around) We thought we were untouchable. That love conquers all. Maybe, we were wrong. This is gonna hurt like a bitch (We built it up so high and now I'm fallin', it’s a long way down)
H-Olivia: I LIVE FOR YOU, I LONG FOR YOU, I LOVE YA. And i think i’ll always love ya. And I’m scared...of life without you (i get the feeling you’re walking out, time is irrelevant when i’ve not been seeing you, the consequences are falling now, there’s something i’m having nightmares about...dont let me go). But maybe just maybe thats okay, because you’re AIMH (you live in my imagination...i love you, it’s all i do).
L-Love you Goodbye: I fucking love you and I’ll always fucking love you but i think this is the right thing to do even though it feels so wrong (i know there’s nothing i can do to change it, but is there something that can be negotiated?) We made some goddamn fireworks together though (unforgettable together held the whole world in our hands) and do ya maybe think...we can make them just once more? (if tomorrow you wont be mine, let me give it to you one last time, baby let me love you goodbye...one more taste of your lips just to bring me back to the places we’ve been and the nights we’ve had because if this is it, then at least we could end it riiiiight). ********in the interview with our FAVE Gwen Garcia, she asked if it’s better to say goodbye and end a relationship that’s not feeling right or keep trying even if your heart’s not in it. Harry responds with “I think it’s better to say goodbye...but sometimes if youre trying to protect..” Then Louis cuts him off and says “you’re going deep aren’t you”, brushing the question off as a joke but imho i think there was pain in that answer. Then Harry continues “if you’re not 100% in it, I think it’s better for both parties if you say goodbye”. And Louis adds a “yeah” at the end.********
H-Walking in the Wind: I know this is scary but i think we can do it, (you said to me do you believe i’ll be too far? if youre lost just look for me you’ll find me) I think because youre AIMH and i’m always in yours, it’ll be good for us. And look at us being mature, we’re killing it babe. We can live our separate lives and grow on our own. We dont need to make it messy and hurtful. We’re on the same page. (the fact that we can sit right here and say goodbye means we’ve already won. A necessity for apologies between you and me, baby there is none). At this point, we’re kinda part of each other right? So it’s healthy for us to be apart for a bit. (it’s not the end, i’ll see your face again... i know we’ll be alright...just close your eyes and see i’ll be by your side any time you need me). And you’ve helped me grow into the person I am, and I you, so that’s cool as hell, right? (you will find me in places that we’ve never been). We had a TON of fun (we had some good times didnt we) so i feel okay that we’re doing this (goodbyes are bittersweet) and starting the next adventure in our lives.
H-If I could fly: I. am. yours. Louis. William. Tomlinson. (for your eyes only, i’ll show you my heart). Maybe this growth thing isn’t worth it, let me prove to you how much you mean to me (i think i might give up everything just ask me to). This is gonna be hard as shit because i’m so dependent on you (i’m missing half of me when we’re apart). I’m being honest and I’m being scared and I’m being vulnerable because I can’t lie to you and pretend I’m strong (i let my guard down, right now i’m completely defenseless). But we’re part of each other, right? (i could feel your heart inside of mine). I’ll always be here for you Lou (for when you’re lonely and forget who you are) even if for now we can’t physically be together.
L-Home: I’ve tried, Harry. I’ve tried to play pretend (told myself i kind of like her but there was something missin in her eyes). But i was lost (i was stumblin, lookin in the dark with an empty heart) because none of it was enough, none of it was YOU (it was there i sawr it in your eyes). And then i met you and you felt the same and we’re both lost souls playing pretend who found magic in each other (but you say you feel the same, could we ever be enough?) Is our love enough to overcome everything? Maybe we can be enough. Maybe I can make this enough, let me try to make it enough for you. And if we go our separate ways, know that I’m here for you no matter what. I won’t let you be lost again. (When you’re lost I’ll find a way and I’ll be your light, you will never feel like you’re alone, I’ll make this feel like home). So go. wander. find yourself. Then when you’re ready, come home.
2016-2017
H- Sweet Creature: ***Harry admit that this was the first song he wrote for the album**** We aren’t in the best place rn. We’ve been fighting (had another talk about where it’s going wrong...it’s hard when we argue, we’re both stubborn). But it’s you Louis. It can’t be anyone else. (don’t know where we’re going but we know where we belong... wherever I go, you bring me home). That’s not even a question. I’m still trying to figure out who I am, but the one thing I know is that a large part of who I am is you (we started 2 hearts in one home). And aint no way I’m losing that part of myself (when i run out of road, you bring me home). It was always you.
H-MMITH: Whenever you’re ready, I’m ready (just let me know i’ll be at the door, hoping you’ll come around). I know I need to work on myself a little more (i gotta get better, and maybe we’ll work it out) but honestly i’m getting impatient and i want things to go back to how they were and i want to be yours again (once you go without it, nothing else would do). But I can’t communicate this to you clearly so let me just put this in a song and hope you get it (we dont talk about it, it’s something we dont do) ****Harry mentioned in an interview that he expresses himself through songwriting when he can’t say the words directly to a person because it’s easier to just write it in a song than have difficult conversations*****
H-ESNY: ****honestly no idea what this song is about but it’s something to do with them fighting and not communicating and being in a weird place before their relationship is rekindled******* edit: this could be about his stepdad
H-FTDT: I MISS YOU AND I’M TOO FULL OF PRIDE TO TELL YOU DIRECTLY JUST COME BACK INTO LIFE LOU I’M LONELY AND SAD AND EMPTY AND IM NOT FUCKING FINDING MYSELF LIKE YOU SAID I WOULD (woke up alone, played with myself where were you...we havent spoke since you went away, why wont you ever say what you wanna say) So until then I sit and wait for your sorry ass to make the first move (maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too...but you never do). Also like i have to hear from other people how you are?? (i saw your friend that you know from work, he said that you feel just fine) ANd you’re sharing OUR clothes with people?? wtf just swallow your pride and call me
L-Miss You: OKAY BUT I CANT JUST CALL YOU BECAUSE I HAVE PRIDE TOO also my mates are trying to make me get over you (now i’m asking my friends how to say I’m sorry, they say lad give it ttime there’s no need to worry, and we can’t even be on the phone now). So i’m just numbing your absence with partying and drinks but CLEARLY ITS NOT WORKING (should be laughing but there’s something wrong...shit maybe i miss you...when i feel it coming up i just throw it all away, get another few shots cuz it doesn’t matter anyway...such a good time, i’ll believe it this time). This is weird bc like you were my everything but im trying to get used to this and it fucking sux (oh how shit changes, we were in love, now we’re strangers). And tbh, its scary af bc what if this is it (i’m asking myself, is it over?). BUT ALSO LIKE WTF U COULD REACH OUT FIRST YA KNOW (i’ve been checking my phone all evening).
H-Anna: wtf Louis how do you not see how much this is killing me. I miss you so much and seeing you on tv or in pics drives me wild bc you’re not mine. (I don’t want your sympathy but you don’t know what you do to me...everytime I see your face there’s only so much I can take...I guess it would be nice if I can touch your body). And idk if you’re replacing me (don’t know where you’re laying, just know it’s not with me) and we’re in SUCH a weird place rn how do I tell u you’re the loml (don’t know what I’d say if I passed you on the street...don’t know what I’d tell you if you asked me for the truth) so I refuse to put this song on the album and let you know this and give you satisfaction from knowing how gone I still am for you bc I have 0 idea how you feel (hope you never see this and know that it’s for you)
L-Always You: SO THIS IS ME SWALLOWING MY PRIDE STANDING IN FRONT OF YOU SAYING IM SORRY FOR THAT NIGHT... ok but fr i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u and nothing else compares like i can travel the whole world and all i think about is how much more fun it was with you and the memories we shared and i wish i could just say thx fr th mmrs and move on but actually no thx actually fuck you for making me not able to enjoy my life without you. So like...come home? and wrap your legs around me? also lmao i took El to a gay bar in amsterdam for her bday lmao i miss u come cuddle me and i’ll tell you all about it
L-We Made It: looks like we made it, look how far we’ve come my baby. They saidd I bett they’ll never make it, but just look at us holding onn, we’re still togetherr, still going stronggg. Also to the fans, miss our single bed and the nights we talked about our dreams :-* also Andrew my man luv u
2018-2019
L-KMM: our love was youthful and exhilarating and fucking electric and i think it still can be. dont know what i’d do without you now H
L-DLIBYH: We’re strong babe and we’ve grown and we aren’t gonna let life drag us down. I’m doing better, you’re doing better, this is what we wanted. And now any shit we go through, we’ll go through TOGETHER
L-Too Young: Okay but looking back, that was a lot of shit we went through and we were just babies and i’m sorry for not fighting harder (i cant believe i gave in to the pressure when they said a love like this would never last so i cut you off cuz i didnt know no better) baby i tried, i tried to protect you but like it was just so much and i hate that you got hurt and i wont ever let that happen again. ALso go us for being mature and COMMUNICATING (face to face at the kitchen table, we can finally have a conversation that I wish we could’ve had before). ANd i know you’re an arrogant son of a bitch who can’t admit when he’s sorry so here let ME say i’m sorry that i hurt you darling. Like we were too young to know we had everything BUT now we’re old(er) and can realize that when we’re together, we DO have everything now and omg is this our happily ever after and we can have a daughter and name her Darcy
L-Habit: do i need to spell it out for you iiiiii aaaaaaaaammmmmmm sssssssoooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy. But tbh i let you go because it felt right because mentally you were already out the door and i needed to give you room to grow babe. And i needed the space too (you gave me the time and the space i was out of control and i’m sorry i let you down). but like also i’ve learned i can’t escape you Styles. You’re always in my fucking heart and my fucking mind and in every essence of my being and somehow I knew that 9 years ago and it took me this long to realize how powerful this really is (guess that that i know what i already knew, i was better with you and i miss you now). Ooooh also my favorite line i wrote (took some time cuz i ran out of energy of playing someone I heard I’m supposed to be and honestly i dont have to choose anymore) like who am i kidding, im done pretending i just wanna be yoursss now
L-Defenseless: I can’t help it okay theres something about you that doesn’t let me stay away. I need you and I know that rekindling this relationship isn’t going to be easy even though it feels so so right. It’s going to be hard work (sleeping on our problems but we’ll solved them in our dreams, wake up early morning and it’s still under the sheets) and we need to communicate and solve our problems but here I am, raw and unfiltered and emotionally naked in front of you ready to lay it all on the table (not sure how to say this right, got so much to lose. NEver been so defenseless). So like this branch I’m reach out to you and you be honest with me too babe (you dont have to keep on being strong for me and you. Acting like you feel no pain, you know i know you do...I can’t get inside, when you’re lost in your pride but you don’t have a thing to prove). Be open with me. Lets talk. Let’s solve problems. Lets have an adult relationship. I’m asking for a little vulnerabiltiy babe. It’s just me. Theres nothing to be scared of
L-Walls: And here you have me in my purest form. No lies, no secrets, no insecurities to hide behind. Losing you was fucking painful but i got through it. I’ve been through hell and back and I’ve fought. And without you, I grew into the person I am. And any further growing i’m doing is gonna be with you. bc it was all for you babe. and honestly i can take anything life throws at me now. I’m strong baby. I’m fucking strong and fucking brave and fucking resilient and...fucking yours. ***** wtf is the I just hope i see you one day and you’ll say to me oh oh********
H-Golden: You are the literal sun and I’m not ready. YOU’RE SUCH A GOOD PERSON (you were way too bright for me, i’m hopeless, broken, so you wait for me in the sky). I’m scared to go through this alone, I need your comfort and your guidance (i can feel you take control of who i am and all i’ve ever known). But you’re scared to go through this with me bc you dont wanna get hurt and i’m too open so where tf does that leave us. ******this could be about coming out especially with the London AND NY secret shows where Harry added the lyric I’m hoping someday you’ll open*******
H-Adore You: You dont have to say you love me, you dont have to say nothing, you dont have to say you’re mine. I’d walk through fire for you. Just let me adore Lou. Like its the only thing I’ll ever do. read: Louis is a great person to just admire what he’s like. ALso I dont need anything back. I just dont want to hide my love for you anymore. I don’t need answers or promises. Just let me adore you. ********the music video is also basically a Louis appreciation post. He was the boy with the smile that the world took away from him. He found Harry lost and loved him and nurtured him and made him confident and allowed him to be who he wanted to be. But in doing so, Harry became big and unsatisfied and wanted to explore the world and was clearly interested in Hollywood and Rockstardom especially evident in his behavior 2014-2015. And Louis wasn’t about that life and didn’t want to hold him back. So he let him free. But they realized that they don’t work apart. Wherever they’re going, they’re going together, as the boy sails into the unknown following the fish. I see it as Harry’s version of “this one is a thank you for what you did for me” ************* I see it, I appreciate it, and I love you for it
H-Lights Up: ****fight with Louis. (What do you mean I’m sorry by the way) About coming out? About fame? (Step into the light, so bright sometimes) Either way, L is the guy driving the motorcycle in the video who makes H feel comfortable and safe until they get pulled over because SOMEONE wont let them love*******
H-Falling: What if i’m out, what if i’m someone you won’t talk about? Okay maybe I lied I do want you to claim me. Would me coming out of the closet make that hard for you? I CAN’T GO THROUGH AN IDENTITY CRISIS WITHOUT YOU LOU. I picked someone supportive and now I’m spoiled and I dont know how to be with myself. You want back in my life but what if I dont deserve it? (you said you cared and you missed me too...what i’m someone i dont want around). What if you’re better off without me? (i get the feeling that you’ll never need me again). I know youve been through so much shit because of me, things you’ve never even told me about and im afraid...that I wasn’t worth it. Am I being selfish? because either way, i want YOU (what if you’re someone i just want around). Does that make me a bad person?
H-TBSL: ****Probably when they starting talking again but it was v casual and they didn’t really discuss their relationship yet*****. I MISS U BUT I WONT TELL U THAT and its nice to talk to u again i missed your voice but if u call me baby i will kill u bc that word has weight OKAY. Like i know you just call everyone babe and darling and sweetheart but baby is FOR ME and only for me when you wake up with me and cuddle me and if you think you have any right calling me baby without giving the luxury of being in a relationship with you then piss off because that shit hurts dude. (i know that you’re trying to be friends, know that you mean it...it’s hard for me to go home to be so lonely). ALso it’s not my fault i’m like this, you literally captured my heart when i was 16 like wtf do u expect (dont blame me for falling, i was just a little boy)
H-Sunflower Vol. 6: we were babies and i was so enamored by you and you’re so bright and beautiful and i want to watch you all day and make you smile and i want you to touch my hair and call me curly and i hope im not making you uncomfortable with my heart eyes but like how are you so perfect. I hope you think i’m cool, i’m really trying but like you’re SO FUNNY and charming and everyone loves you i hope im not embarassing myself. And now it’s like 8 years later and i think i can have you again and i want you so bad but i dont wanna seem too eager and im trying to have dignity and not text you first but like also i want nothing more than to talk to you. Do you think i’m cool now? did you like my new hairstyle? Do you think i’m funny on tour? I want everything i want to be domestic again and kiss in the kitchen and i want to cook for you and as;ldfa;sdhaf i want to buy you flowers everyday and shower ur cute face with kiss. boopx28
H-Canyon Moon: Hell yea i got ma man back and i have a girlfriend named Jennifer ;) and we are domestic and even though I HATE being away from him for work (so hard to leave it) we have the 2 week rule yall then i can wrap my legs around him and after so so so long I’ll be h.o.m.e. Also did i tell you his eyes are so so blue like sky who i dont know her
H-TPWK: So we’re really doing this. We don’t need to have it all figured out. We can just be us. and happy. and dance. The world loves us babe. (Giving second chances, I don’t need all the answers and if we’re here long enough we’ll see it’s all for us and we’ll belong)
H-Fine Line: You’ve got my devotion but man I can hate you sometimes....We’ll be a fine line. Between what? love and hate? public and private? out and in the closet? each others’ and ourselves? Idk. But i’m going to swallow my pride (my hands at risk I fold) because no matter what, the worst possible outcome is not having you. And I never wanna go through that again. I know we have work to do on our relationship (spreading you open is the only way I know you). And there’s lot of unknown here (there’s things that we’ll never know) but what i do know is that i cant resist you (you sunshine you temptress) and i cant be without you ever again. I think it’ll be hard as hell. But when have we known love as anything but hard? And when have we known our love as anything but worth it? We’ll be a fine line baby. But i know, i knowww with every part of me that we’ll be alright. Because these past 10 years, we’ve been through A LOT. ANd it could have ruined us and made us cynical and cold and closed off. And I think at one point it did. But you know what we did? We fought it. We fought it together. Then we fought it individually. And we became BRAVE. And a brilliant man once said, “love is only for the brave”.
#hl#stayed up till 5 am writing this so if the quality worsens through the post thats why#ik the og larries think they never broke up and i have mad respect for them#again this is just what i got from listening to the songs back to back#we all have our own opinions#none of us know ANYTHING#dm if you wanna discuss tho!#larry#larry stylinson#larry timeline#larry is real#larry masterpost#larry breakup#larry break up#larry theory#fine line analysis#walls analysis#larry analysis#louis tomlinson#Harry Styles
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Headcanon for being Hela’s child
Hela Odinsdottir x child!reader
Thor/Loki x reader
warnings: blood/death/ alcohol mentions
a/n: been thinking abt hela a lot lmao
prompt: y/n is hela’s child
you were born in hel
and raised on stories of your mother’s triumph
she always left out her downfall, though
growing up to hate the thought of your grandfather, odin
he was always regarded as “backstabbing coward”
“and what will you do when we finally go back to asgard, my child?”
“stand beside you while you rightfully rule the kingdom, mother”
“that’s correct”
after years and years of enduring hel, you’re only home, you were released at the sight where your grandfather had took his final breath
“you didn’t tell me i had any uncles...”
“they’re irrelevant, my dear”
thor and loki being extremely confused upon meeting the evil family members that they had just discovered
“and odin never said anything about hela having a child!”
“i was born in hel”
:)))
straight up attacking them, it was all you had been trained for
you were your mother’s weapon, that was for certain
craving destruction and blood, that was what you were taught—now that you’d escaped your prison, you could finally do that
and you wanted asgard, you were robbed of that much after your mother was banished
it felt so elegant there, nothing like the depths you were trapped in
striking fear into the hearts of asgardians, but something seemed very off
their fear didn’t make you happy like mother had promised?
it wasn’t very glorious when you killed anyone
“mother, you said this would be fun...”
“you’re not having fun?”
“not even a bit”
your only fun was watchcing skurge dance around for your mom
and it wasn’t even that good then
your uncles returning to asgard for a fight to remember
while your mother was distracted with thor, you ran across the bifrost, running into loki
“now just what do you think you’re doing, child?”
“my mother is a monster, i cant serve her any longer”
this god of mischief believed you
“then you better fight like hell to prove it”
your powers were similar to your mother’s, blades were never scarce to you
thor and the rest of the “revengers” regrouping on the bridge
“what the hell is this one doing here?”
“helping you defeat my mother”
“well, okay then. welcome to the team”
valkyrie didn’t trust you right away
you paid no mind to that, you were focused on one thing
“y/n?! what do you think you’re doing with them?”
“getting rid of you once and for all, you..?”
*thor, whispering* “bitch”
“bitch!”
“typically i dont condone the usage of that word, but your mother gets a free pass”
happily fighting alongside your uncles, it was almost as if you could tell each others next move, it was mesmerizing
you saved loki from being hurt
“well then...thank you, little one”
“im 1200 years old”
“i stand by my words”
hela begged you to join her once more, it was startling and pathetic (and maybe even a trap)
happily watching your mother perish, you hadn’t realized how cruel she was until then
“i’m sorry about your mother, young y/n” -thor
“im not”
the asgardians didn’t trust you very much, you would have to earn it
and you did when you encountered the mad titan known as thanos
you swore you did everything you could, but it wasn’t enough
you had to watch thor be tortured and loki be killed, it was scarring
being picked up by the guardians of the galaxy
“who are you?”
“i barely know who i am”
thor needing to go to nidavellir and taking you with him
“im sure you’ll need a mighty weapon to see the fall of thanos!”
“but...am i worthy of such a thing?”
you felt a sense of guilt for your past actions
and even your mother’s
thor put each of his hands on your shoulders and looked you in the eye (with the only one he had)
“y/n, you must understand that your mother...she poisoned your mind with nothing but hate, but i can tell that you’re much different than her. i’ll be here for you from now on, believe me”
dmitri was able to forge you a weapon of your own, you fell in love with it as soon as you laid eyes upon it
also thor almost died??? that would’ve sucked
and then he took you to midgard, the only thing you knew about it was that the people were weak and irrelevant
but when you met the midgardians, you only met warriors (mind you, you had just landed in the middle of a battle)
another significant fight with your uncle thor
“captain! this is y/n, my (neice, nephew, nibling)”
“hello, y/n. welcome to earth”
“thanks, i hate it!”
going out of your way to save as many as you can, it just felt right
“who is that?”
“well, apparently thor had a sister no one knew about, that’s her kid?”
i nearly forgot about rocket and groot, who you thought were the coolest
“rabbit! over here!”
“for the millionth time, y/n, it’s ‘rocket’”
seeing thanos once again, you and thor thought alike over what needed to be done
you attacked him from behind while thor struck him in the chest, but the disaster ensued and you were left blaming yourself once more
“it’s not your fault, y/n. we all failed”
“captain rogers, i could have killed him, i know that im the one to blame”
everyone could tell that you carried an abundance of guilt, your mother didn’t treat you well
you had to control your anger, you didn’t want to be perceived as a threat
eager to kill thanos
thor told you his stories of war, you idolized him after this
“so, y/n, tell me about your childhood”
“what’s there to tell? i was born in hel”
“good point”
happy to watch thanos die
thor and you rescued the rest of your people and founded new asgard
you and valkyrie ended up running it together, though
thor only became depressed, but he did teach you how to play fortnite
“y/n, y/n look! im doing the dance!”
“very impressing, korg!”
you and valkyrie actually became friends
she realized that the horrors inflicted by your mother were not a reflection of your character, you could be guided by valkyrie instead
“val, where’d all the beer go?”
“ask your uncle”
“why do i even bother”
a shot at redemption after meeting a smaller version of the hulk, giving your uncle a small sliver of hope
and him telling you who jane was
“you never told me you dated a midgardian?”
“yes, well, the reason for that was...”
he started crying
“right...”
tony called you “the little hel-raiser”
you did not laugh
maybe you didn’t have the greatest sense of humor
thor took you back to asgard where you met frigga
“thor, do you know if she’s my grandmother?”
“not a clue”
:)
but you met her anyways
“y/n, dear, it’s good to finally meet you”
“oh, yes, you...you too”
she was very kind, you wished that you were able to see her in the natural timeline
you sort of wished to meet odin, as well
yall kinda saved the universe tho, that was pretty cool
valkyrie brought pegasus to the fight, you rode behind her while shooting daggers below
“you’re very good at that!”
when the fight was finally over, thor made the decision to leave new asgard to you and valkyrie
“you’re ready, y/n. they trust you. and valkyrie will be sure to guide you, ill see you again someday”
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