holland is not a country, it’s two provinces (north and south holland) put together. the country is called the netherlands

I know :) my family is specifically from that area of the Netherlands I grew up saying that’s where they’re from 🥰

I am going to CRY I am MINDBLOWN 😭😭😭😭😭

I discovered your svt blog today (through a reblog on someone else’s blog) and I started reading your other fics after the Mingyu 26k oneshot (it is AMAZING btw, I love everything about it) and I’ve been loving your works they are actually so fun !!!! And then I came across your tags on the jihoon fic and I laughed a bit about it because I always go “ahhh the good old days” when I come across any version of ‘I used to write gay character x character fics and now I write reader inserts’ because !!! So did I! I haven’t written in a while now, and haven’t posted in an even longer while but my trajectory does go like gay chara x chara for western media (? am I wording that correctly) ---> gay chara x chara anime ---> anime reader inserts ---> kpop reader inserts.

Then I casually scrolled up your blog and realised it’s a sideblog because there was a main blog linked to it? ANd I was like. “WELL SHIT. CAPTAIN-BRIE… ISN’T THAT… THE PERSON I USED TO KNOW BACK IN MY SPN DAYS… AHAHA… no maybe that’s just a character from some show and it’s a common name for people to use………” but then I couldn’t resist because I got antsy and I searched up ao3 dot org slash users slash captainbrietoast, then captainbriestoast, and when I didn’t find anything I was like “yea ok mistake on my part”

the reason why i do know them is because they once wrote a fic based on a fic i wrote and we talked for a bit ahjgfhjghjgjad (that fic is probably gone now because i removed a lot of my old works)

AND THEN. THEN I WAS AWAY AND SUDDENLY I WAS LIKE “wait weren’t they uhhh captainbrieontoast.”

AND I SHIT YOU NOT THE WAY I ALMOST YELLED WHEN I SAW “SEVENTEEN (20)” ON HOW MANY WORKS YOU HAVE AND I WAS LIKE AJGHHJA NOOOO BYEEE and then um I went to the blog that you linked on your ao3 and it linked me back to this blog and uhhhhh anyway I guess we used to know each other years back and im LITERALLY SO SORRY IF THIS MAKES YOU FEEL TERRIBLE I GENUINELY DID NOT MEAN FOR YOU TO FEEL STRESSED OR TERRIBLE OR ANYTHING

BOTTOM LINE IS IVE BEEN LOVING YOUR SVT WORKS AND I GUESS THIS IS A HAPPY COINCIDENCE AHJDHGJAHJGAHJGA BYEEEE I HOPE YOU’RE DOING REALLY WELL IN LIFE ??? YOU DESERVE IT !!!

2/2: P.S. now im embarrassed because this is like coming across the works written by someone you knew in school or something ajfhhjghjagea am i STILL allowed to read your svt works… i was really enjoying them </3

First off, I'm sorry for not responding to this sooner, these days I haven't been noticing when anons come through on my phone alerts even though I pretty thoroughly scan my notifications on my phone so I don't really see the messages into my inbox until I happen to hop on my computer :/

BUT EXCUSE ME YOU CAN'T JUST COME DROP THIS IN MY INBOX AND NOT TELL ME WHO YOU ARE??????!!!!!!!! MY JAW IS LITERALLY ON THE FLOOR RIGHT NOW- NOT US MEETING AGAIN AFTER HOW MANY YEARS???

I don't remember what fics you are talking about !!! Did we talk on ao3? I AM LITERALLY DESPERATELY SEARCHING MY MEMORY AND I LITTLE AM SO BAD AT REMEMBERING THINGS PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE UNLOCK THIS MEMORY FOR ME OH MY GOD

HI???????!!!!!!!! HELLOOOOO????????? OF COURSE YOU'RE STILL ALLOWED TO READ MY WORKS????

Realllyyyyy funny how we both made the transition from gay fanfics to reader inserts like bro what are the odds that we would end up here, because if you had told me then I would be here I wouldn't believe it for a second

but yo seriously. slide into my dms. SLIDE INTO MY DMS LETS RECONNECT OMG WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THE UNIVERSE BRINGING US BACK TOGETHER??????

FATE.

Anonymous asked:

Dont tell me that Gale guy is the same hypocrite that wrote the luka salt while claiming to be against salt….

Yup. They also would use “blue one salt” instead and censor Luka’s name like “****”

I think they were also the same guy who talked about “““how bad they’d feel for Marinette after the Lukanette break-up””” and then reblogged stuff/celebrated the break-up (you know, the episode that ended with Marinette sobbing on her bed).

Anonymous asked:

So I’m going to be completely honest: I once followed gale and was sure they were a salt blog for a bit. Like he had an au or fic I can’t remember but I was interested to see more and the first few top posts were salty so I followed. It wasn’t too much later on that I got just so confused and annoyed that I unfollowed and almost blocked because I don’t need that content my life thanks.

So however long it’s been since then, it’s really funny to me how much they dislike salt content because of how salty some of their posts were to the point that without knowing much besides one au, I genuinely thought that they were a salt blog

Ahaha, don’t blame you. Quick looks could make you think he’s one thing when he’s actually the other.

A salt blog in disguise.

I also think it’s adorable that you guys are admitting to having followed him once like this is confession. “Forgive me, MC, for I have sinned.”

Anonymous asked:

I wish they'd just be honest and say they like to salt too, just on different characters and episodes. But, then the fact that so many of those blogs spent the past year or so trying to force everyone with an opinion they hate out of the main tags would be more obvious. (It's also funny because every so often someone new comes along, shares a critique about the LS or Cat Boy, and then doesn't tag as salt because they'd have no idea the tag even exists. And then the fun police get mad about it.)

Newcomers get smote by the fun police.

It’s the hypocrisy and lack of honesty that gets me among all the other things. I got an ask about some blog calling Luka a cuck and I knew deep down who’d done it, but remember, they’re not salty and they don’t hate Luka, you guys.

can you do tom and reader who’s most likely too couple edition 🥺

TH’s YouTube Extras: Most Likely To

a/n: i’m sorry this took long, love. this is short and sweet, kinda a different format but i hope you still like it! Oh and Harry is in italics ahaha.

☰ youtube channel | recent video

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You were sat crossed legged on the couch, closely beside Tom who was all sprawled out. His legs were open wide as he leaned back on the cushion with one arm on the back of the sofa, right behind you. There was a camera on a tripod right in front of you both that was already recording.

"Hello guys! Welcome to our...second channel, should I call it?" Tom turned to you with a chuckle. You gave him a nod and a sweet smile. "This is basically where we post the shorter and more unplanned videos," he elaborated, glancing back at the camera with a soft chuckle.

"Today we're going to be doing a quick Who Is Most Likely To," you explained. "We've got our ping-pong paddles right here with each our name on opposite sides," you added, showing the camera the paddles with Tom doing the same.

"And Harry is right behind the camera to ask the questions," Tom finished, pointing towards Harry to get this game going.

Who's most likely to date a celebrity?

"That's such a bad first question," you scoffed with a shake of your head, lifting up the paddle with your name.

"I mean, she's dating one now," Tom laughed, doing the exact same and showed your name as he wriggled his brows at the camera.

Who's most likely to be dramatic?

Both of you raised the paddle with Tom's name on it, the lad beside you chuckling with a nod.

"Yeah, I don't think we need to explain this one," he said.

"He's just over dramatic with everything," you pointed out with a playful roll of your eyes.

"No, I'm not!" Tom protested with a loud gasp, the hand that held the paddle landing on his chest as he gawked at you.

"You were saying?" You raised your brow, Tom pouting in response but didn't bother to say another word. You giggled at that, leaning towards him to place a sweet kiss on his cheek that was quick to replace his pout with a bright grin.

Who's most likely to die due to something stupid?

Tom showed your name with a soft chuckle, you nodding in agreement as you lifted the paddle up with your name too.

"I'm just so clumsy," you laughed. "I'd probably slip and break my neck in the process so yeah, me."

"You see now why I'm overprotective over your clumsy but pretty ass?" Tom pointed out, narrowing his eyes at you. "I need to wrap you in those human-size bubbles to keep you from harm I swear."

"See what I mean about overdramatic?" you challenged, turning to the camera with a deadpan expression.

"It's just 'cause I love you too much, darling," he crooned, leaning closer to place a tender kiss on your temple. You leaned into his warmth with a soft hum and a love-struck smile on your lips, a sight that only made Tom's heart melt.

Mostly like to go to prison for something stupid?

"Probably me," Tom chuckled, paddle up to show his name.

You did just the same. "I mean you've already admitted to wanting to rob a bank," you giggled.

"If I have superpowers," he countered.

"But that's still a very stupid thing to admit in public, is it not?" you giggled, Tom sighing softly as he nodded in agreement.

Who's most likely to cry during a sad movie?

Both of you lifted your paddles up at the same time, your name written on each of it.

"I mean I'm a big crier too but it would take a very emotional scene. But the minute she sees someone else cry, she's gone," Tom explained, turning you with a soft chuckle.

"I don't know why but yeah, every time I see someone else cry, I start crying too," you admitted with a timid laugh.

Tom's arm fell from the couch and landed on your shoulder, giving your arm a loving squeeze as he pulled you closer to his side, keeping it touch there for the rest of the video. "It just means you've got a big heart," he gushed, flashing you one of his many charming grins. You beamed at him lovingly in response, giving him a light pat on the chest as a silent 'thank you'.

Who's most likely to cry during sex?

"What kind of cry?" Tom asked, turning towards his brother.

...just generally speaking.

"Well, I haven't so—" Tom shrugged as he lifted his paddle up with your name on it.

"I have," you muttered softly, lifting the paddle of your name up, covering your face with it to hide your slight embarrassment.

"When it just feels too go—" Tom stopped himself when you shot him a death glare. He turned back to the camera and laughed, "I'm not going to finish that sentence or I'll die."

Who's most likely to go a week without a shower?

You showed Tom's name swiftly with a laugh, him doing just the same with a shaking his head in slight shame.

"It's because I'm too busy sometimes," Tom reasoned, turning to look at you with a pout, finger running up and down your arm softly.

"I don't let that happen by the way," you said as you turned to the camera. "If I need to drag him to the shower then I will."

"Among other things she does to get me in the shower," Tom muttered, mischief glimmering in his orbs as he wriggled his brows at you suggestively.

You could only roll your eyes at him.

Most likely to be a romantic?

The two of you looked at each other, paddles remaining down, smiles on your lips because you both know it was a tie.

"We're both equally romantics," Tom chuckled, giving your arm a squeeze before turning to the camera as he added, "She occasionally gives me flowers out of the blue and it honestly makes my heart soar every damn time."

You laughed with a shrug. "Yeah, because flowers don't have genders you know. A lady can get her man flowers too," you hummed, beaming widely at Tom.

"Damn right." He shot the camera firm look before turning to meet your gaze again. "I love getting flowers from you," he gushed, hand running up and down your arm fondly.

"And I love getting flowers from you too." You tilted your head at him with a bright, loving smile. "And sweets," you giggled.

Who is most likely to initiate sex?

"We both do," Tom chuckled, turning to you, his brows furrowing when you had your paddle up with his name on it.

"More Tom than me but not by much," you explained to the camera with a shrug, the lad chuckling without any protest because it was in fact, true.

Who's most likely to use the other person's toothbrush?

You quickly raised Tom's name with a shake of your head. "Mainly because I would never," you said, glancing over to your boyfriend who had his own name up. You stared at him curiously. "Wait a sec, have you?"

Tom flashed you a guilty smile. "It was an accident," he started. "I thought I grabbed my toothbrush but as soon as I placed it in my mouth I made eye-contact with my actual toothbrush and yeah."

"Tom!" you gasped, smacking his shoulder lightly.

"It's not like my tongue hasn't been in your mouth before!" he defended with a laugh.

"That's different you muppet! You're not shoving your tongue in my mouth to clean it now aren't you?"

"Shoving is a bit harsh," he muttered which only earned a glare from you. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry! But it was an accident I swear," he chuckled, wrapping both his arms around you for a quick hug, a soft kiss landing on top of your head soon after.

All you could do was sigh, Tom letting you go with a chuckle as he sat straighter. "Right, last one," he said.

Who is most likely to give a lap dance?

Tom showed your name with a smirk, glancing at your answer which only made him furrow his brows. "What'd you mean me?" Tom chuckled as he gestured towards your paddle with his name on it.

"Uh, have you seen your umbrella performance?" you said as a matter of fact, turning towards the camera with a grin.

The lad beside you groaned in dismay as he hung his head, earning a laugh from you. Lifting his head back up with a grin, he turned to you with a brow raised in challenge. "But who has actually given one?" Tom countered.

You felt your cheeks heat up at that.

"Yeah, that's right turn that paddle around," he teased, you showing your name with a sigh as you hid your face behind the paddle once again. "I'm a very very lucky guy," he hummed towards the camera, earning an eye-roll from you.

"So, that's it for today! I hope you enjoyed this short-styled video. And we'll see you again next time!"

Once he was sure that the camera was off, Tom was quick to wrap his arms around your torso, snuggling into you with a glimmer in his brown orbs.

"Babe, I don't feel like showering today," Tom whined, pout in full play as he looked at you expectantly.

"What, you want an incentive?" You raised a brow at your man, your fingers combing through his hair adoringly.

"Please?" he cooed, hiding face on the crook of your neck, a hot kiss landing on your skin soon after. "Save some water?"

You can't help but giggle at that, knowing that it wasn't a good point since you mostly spend longer in the shower when you're with him. But either way, his offer does sound very alluring.

"Fine, shower in five minutes."

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HAPPY NEW YEAR

There are so many people I’ve met on this site, so many friends I’ve made. I joined tumblr only a few months ago, but my life has already drastically improved. I smile more and laugh more and I feel happier all the time, knowing that you all are just a click away. I’ve often heard people refer to tumblr as a hellsite, but I don’t fully agree with that. True, some things on here are crazy, but more than that, I’ve found people like me. I’ve found people who understand me, who think like me and feel like I do. Ya know, before I joined tumblr, I had never met another bisexual person(crazy, right?). Y’all have made life more enjoyable and happier and brighter, and for that, I’ll never be able to thank you enough.

I have soooo many people I have to thank, so I’ll try to keep the list of people as short as possible: all my closest friends and all the people who have been amazing and I have loved seeing since I joined tumblr earlier this year <33

@one-neat-nerd you were the first blog to ever follow me, and I don’t remember if you were the first blog I followed, but you definitely were in the first 10. You were a wonderful introduction to tumblr, and I love everything you post/reblog. We’ve never really talked, but I still want you to know that I appreciate you.

@warblerjeff you’ve changed your url more than 3 times since I first followed you, and it always takes me a second to recognize you aha! But when I do, I’m immediately have a rush of happy memories- all your Glee posts and all of the Glee content I get from you. We’ve never really talked, but seeing you on my dash is always so amazing.

@jesussavedevenme aha hi! We’ve never really talked, but you were one of the first few blogs I followed when I first joined tumblr, and I know I tagged you in a lot of stuff at first (because i didn’t have any other friends lmao), so sorry about that! 😅 You’re really cool and I hope you have an amazing 2021.

@strawberry-seraph we haven’t talked in a while, sorry about that! Talking with you is always super fun, you’re a fun person and I hope your having a great day! You were one of the first TLC blogs I followed and you were definitely the first actual friend I had on tumblr. Thanks for being so nice to me <33

@cerenoya Ceren... where to begin. We haven’t talked a whole lot, but you are such an amazing friend and super kind when we do! You were my first tumblr idol for so long, because I aspired to be like you/run a blog as cool as yours!! Have a great 2021, you deserve it.

@cindersnightmare I felt very distant from you when I first followed you. You were just so COOL and your artwork was so GOOD, I didn’t know how to approach or even begin to express my love for your work. When you followed me back, I tell you, I was s h o o k. We’ve never talked, but I consider you a friend, is that okay? You’re amazing, keep being amazing <33

@books-and-starss oh gosh- I don’t even know where to begin with you! I love you so much, first of all!! So, so much. I love talking with you, you’re really sweet and ahhhh your writing is SO GOOD!!!! You are a great beta reader and so eager to help me- it just warms my heart that you would offer up your time to help me. Everything you reblog is so positive and encouraging and awesome, it’s so nice to see that kind of stuff on my dash. All the aesthetic pictures you reblog are super cool and pleasing to look at. I absolutely ADORE seeing you on my dash every day. <33333

@dylxn-lee aha hello there!! I first met you because you were one of Abi’s friends, but now I’m in your fanclub and ilysm. You’re really cool and nice and deserve to have a wonderful year <333

@theaberrantone ahaha for so long I pronounced your name wrong in my head- I just want you to know... I see you. I see you every day, liking every single one of my posts. I see you in my notifs many times a day and I just- wow. It means so much to me, I am honestly so touched that someone as cool as you takes the time to scroll through my mess of a blog and like the things I slap into it. You’re amazing and someday I aspire to be as cool as you <333333

@mochiowo-20 hi there :333 ilysm, and we haven’t talked for a few weeks, and I haven’t gone through your blog in a while, but I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH. You are amazing and ily. Your so sweet and cool and ahhhh you deserve to have the most wonderful 2021 ever. (i love your blog aesthetic btw) <333

@teawithhoneyharper I know you’re taking a break from tumblr for a while, but if you do see this, then I want you to know that I care about you so much. I love you Darcy, and you are amazing. I hope your mental health is getting better and I hope life has been better to you <33 ilysm, take care of yourself, and have a wonderful new year <333

@fablehavenfandom hi there friend!! Your posts are amazing!! I love your writing so much!!! and all your headcanons are beautiful and I 100% think of them as canon now. I hope you’re having a great day, and I hope you have a great year <33

@fairiesandstarlight omG your posts are all so cool! You’ve got a beautiful blog aesthetic and I love everything you post!! I hope you’re having a wonderful new year love <333 wishing you the best

@maya-livingstone hi there!! you’re a very, very new mutual, but I hope we’ll be able to get to know each other and become friends over the course of this new year!! I also just got the Renegades series, and I’ve noticed you like that, so hopefully we’ll be able to talk about that soon!!

@pluckycluckyducky hi plucky!! It’s Joy from the nevermoor server. we haven’t interacted on here very much, but you’re really cool and you should know it. have a wonderful 2021 <33

@fablehavenandfandomsfanatic hi there!! you had to break for a while, but you’re back now and I love all of the things you post! Have a great year <3

@fablehavenfangirl you’re really cool! Everything you post/reblog is great and I enjoy just scrolling through your blog when I’m bored. You’re amazing, keep being amazing <3

@renegadenebulahufflepuff heyyyy! how are you doing? you’re amazing, we haven’t talked much but you’re really cool and I am wishing you only the best for 2021 <333

@bookishfangirl14 hey there!! I love seeing you in my notifs!! we don’t have very many overlapping fandoms at the moment, but you’re still really cool and I love looking at your blog (even if i don’t understand most of the posts). aha, i hope you have a wonderful new year <33

@introvertedtater-tot hii! we don’t talk much, despite having a LOT of overlapping fandoms, and I don’t know why. Let’s fix that this year, shall we? I hope I can get to know you more, you’re amazing and sweet and i hope we can build up a solid friendship in the coming months <33

@devils-on-a-stereo oh my GOD. Okay, honestly? I am still s h o o k that you actually follow me, I mean, c’mon. Your art is literally the coolest thing ever, and I am honored to know you. You deserve way more attention as an artist than you have, and honest to god you are the coolest most  i c o n i c  blog I know. Stay awesome ;)

@its-liiinh-cinder-official heyyy there!! You are literally a top-notch comedian, I aDORE all of your ‘linh cinder’s random posts’. They are hilarious and your stories are hilarious, and you seem like such an amazing and chaotic person. I wish i knew you in real life, you would be so fun to hang out with. i love seeing you on my dash every day, and you’ve got such a v i b e going on. Have a beautiful, wondrous, and magical 2021 darling <333333

@just-another-freaking-dreamer it’s so awesome to see you in my notifs all the time. You’re really cool and you deserve cool things. Have a wonderful new year and I hope we can become better friends and interact more <3

@ragingbisexualcore ahhaahah you are the single most chaotic person I know. If you lived in a book, you would FOR SURE be that one character who is dead set on overthrowing the government and cackling madly as you take over the world. You are amazing and I hope you take your chaotic self and go wild in 2021.

@queenofsassgard hey there!! I hope you know that occasionally I just go scrolling through your archives and liking everything- anyways, you’re amazing and I hope you have a wonderful new year!

@elysian-starbucks-frappe heyo! what’s up? I hope you’re doing great, you deserve to do great. You’re super cool and amazing and ahhhhh you just deserve to have a wonderful 2021. ily and have a great year <33

@as-the-stars-foretold Caelum. You. Are. Fantabulous. You are my mother, you adopted me into this weird, chaotic friend group, and I will be eternally grateful. You love the stars and I love listening to you ramble about them in the server. You’re so passionate and strong and I love that about you. Life wouldn’t be the same without you. You might love stars, but you yourself ARE a star. You are a star, you shine brilliantly, and you are too good for this galaxy. We don’t deserve you. I love you so much, and you deserve every single goddamb good thing in this universe. You’re always there, ever present, and I love you so. much. Please stay your fantabulous self and I wishing on every star I see that you will have the best 2021 ever <333333

@carolinelikesdinner Carol. God, I have so much to say to you. First of all, thank you. Thank you so much for being you. You first introduced me into the big wide world of the Fablehaven fandom, and ilysm. You’re so cool, too cool for me, and I treasure every single conversation I have with you. You’re so funny and an amazing artist. All of your art is SO DAMB SPECTACULAR. You are gorgeous, your art is gorgeous, and your writing is gorgeous too. Take care of yourself love, stay safe, and have the best 2021 you possibly can <3333333333333

@operation-crown-jewels Caraaaaaaaaa ilysmmmm <3333333333333 I love talking with you and I love you so. freaking. much. I can’t even- I can’t even describe how much i love you. You are so special and sweet and supportive and I just can’t- you have NO IDEA how much that means to me, how much all your little comments mean to me. You are amazing, and special, and ahhhhh. You are SO special. So unique. And I’ll never find another friend like you <33333333333

@addies-invisible-life hey emma :3 You are actually the coolest person I know.You are so capable and smart and beautiful. You are kind and supportive and you are open to everyone who talks to you. You love with all your heart, and I love that about you. In everything you do, I can see the love behind it, the work and effort and love that you put into it. Every conversation I have with you lifts me up and energizes me(which is really rare because most conversations tire me). I still, after all this time, still can’t believe that a person as amazing as you even chooses to be friends with me. I love you so much and I will never stop loving you. You deserve the world, but I can’t give you that, so just take my reassurances that I will ALWAYS, NO MATTER WHAT, be here for you. ily and have a wonderful 2021 <3333333333333333333333333333333333333

@arushahisatroll my god. Ru, I love you so much. You are my internet girlfriend and I care about you so much. You are incredible, honestly. Your art is immaculate and you’re always so cheerful and fill me up with energy just THINKING about you. you always eager to commit arson, which is a very good trait, and I love plotting crimes with you. Every time I see your icon, my face lights up and I internally scream, bc “oh my god someone as perfect as ru exists in this world- i didn’t know that was possible.” You are the best, you are the absolute best, my bestie, and ily. Have a spectacular and immeasurably awesome 2021 <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

@starry-tea-party Abina. Abina you are my rock. You are my light, my star, my sunshine, my galaxy. I love you so much, I can’t even begin to describe it. I don’t know if I can do justice to just how much you’ve helped me. Words... words have never been my strong suit. I love writing because I can weave stories together, piece together words I like to form sentences, and use those sentences to form narratives. Writing has always been easier for me than talking.... because in writing, I don’t have to worry what others will think, or how others will perceive me. I select the best words, and I present those words- the words I meticulously chose and nit-picked- to the audience. Life is a stage, and I have never been great at improv. I often find it hard to tell people things, to convey my meaning in the best possible way and to know exactly what words I need in any given situation. Talking is hard for me. But with you... with you, I never have to monitor what I’m saying. I never feel the need to reread and reread my messages before sending to make sure everything is in perfect order. It’s... it’s easy to talk to you. It’s easy to speak and I don’t worry when I’m with you. You make me feel so at ease, and I love you so much. I don’t have to worry about saying the wrong thing, because I know that you’ll always support me and be by my side with a kind word and a heart of gold. Because that’s who you are. You are a creator, a dreamer, a lover, a visionary. You’re a friend. You are the hand that pulls people out of the water. The light that shines the pathway. You are the rock- the mountain we stand upon and look out over the beautiful sea. We look down at the seas below us and say, “how have we climbed so high already?” The reason is because you stand so tall, so bright and so magical, that we climb, we climb and we look out at the world below us. Not only are you tall, strong, powerful, but you lift people up right alongside you. There is nothing like the high of seeing the world stretch out beneath your feet, swinging you legs through the open air but knowing you’ll never fall. You represent that high in my mind. You represent and you remind me of the exhilaration of feeling untouchable- uplifted by love and kindness, able to reach heights you’ve never been to before. There is so much that can come when someone extends their hand to you. So much more can be achieved when there are two, holding each other up. You have held me up for so long. Every since we met, you have brought a smile to my face at the thought of you. Every time I think of you, my heart swells and I can’t breathe. Every comment you make or put on something I post has me screaming internally ans smiling uncontrollably. Whenever I see your icon I know my day is about to get one million times better. So thank you, Abi. For being my rock.

Spoilers for pretty much all of the past books!!

List of what I wanna see and what I don’t wanna see in the next book

I love the idea of Myron maybe having saved Jacob and Noor by teleporting them out of V’s loop. So maybe at the very beginning there are a few lines hinting at something or someone saving them or whatever. Like a huge hand is closing around them and they assume it’s Caul, but it was actually Myron—and boom they’re at Abe’s house (credits to @shibibble for the idea with the hand) (also yes I know Ransom Riggs has read a bit of the beginning in his first livestream I think? But yeah, so ahaha we’ll see)

Just Myron coming back in general. I’d kill for another family reunion

Myron and Miss P talking again!! Very important!! I want them to get along at least a tiny bit

Where is my boy PT—the last time he was mentioned was when Myron had to leave him outside the library cause PT wouldn’t fit through the entrance and now I’m scared he died in the collapse

Where is Kim? In LoS at the end they were even searching for him for a moment, which made his vanishing sound important

Okay but I’d find it so funny if Caul heard of that theatre play of the Battle of Devil’s Acre and will be forcing that peculiar theatre group to perform in front of him and the whole time he’s interrupting the play like “boring!” or “is that supposed to be me?” while eating popcorn or something, I dunno what a giant tree monster would like to eat. Meanwhile the peculiars are performing, while badly trembling with fear

What I would also really love is if the book ended with Jacob being a couple of years older and telling his story to a bunch of young peculiars, so that the whole series was basically him telling his story (so he does what Miss P and Miss Cuckoo suggested him to do in AMoD, cause I think years later he’d be ready to share his story. Like sorry, but I don’t think that only two months later he should already open up about all this, even though he still has to deal with it himself)

UHM PLEASE GIVE JACOB AND THE OTHERS THERAPY PLS!! OR ALL OF PECULIARDOM, ESPECIALLY THE KIDS. But peculiar therapists, cause normal therapists will just be like “damn you crazy”. Peculiar therapists know that all these “crazy” things are an everyday thing but that they can be traumatising. Well the wights shooting, kidnapping, killing people is definitely traumatising, there’s no denying that

Caul PLEASE NOT being defeated just by being sent to some inaccessible dimension again (I already have a whole scene with him being defeated in my head and I hate it, cause it makes me have very specific expectations lmao, but I will probably talk about that in a future post)

Murnau better be back, he was an asshole but a badass

More about Abe, that was the very thing that opened the story of this trilogy after all

Jacob maybe actually succeeding to explain everything to his parents. I feel like he hasn’t completely given up on that, or if he has, he shouldn’t (also he left their car in Abe’s garage in AMoD 👀 what if that will lead to his parents finding out all that about Abe)

I wanna see the kids’ peculiarities at their peaks. At least the ones that can improve like Hugh, Emma, Enoch, Fiona, Noor and Jacob. Imagine Enoch leading a VERY big army of dead people/animals like he never did before for example. That’d be epic. Or, I don’t know, Jacob controls even more than 11 (?) hollows like he did in LoS. Like 20 maybe, or even 30

Noor’s character getting explored more

Maybe more about the Bentham siblings 👀 I feel like that’s another reason why Caul was brought back into the story

Hopefully the apocalypse spreads into the normal world too and not only peculiardom. I mean bad for THEM, but hehe exciting content for the readers. Also in TCoTB in chapter 3 Miss Peregrine says that if a war or something broke out NOW, it would be too hard to cover or make the normals forget/manipulate their memories. And after all Caul was also talking about how oh! Back then! They used to rule over normals! And how they were at the head of the human table! Pretty sure that that’s what he wants

Some epic, scary interactions between Caul and Jacob, because as I said in some previous post, I think their rivalry is becoming very real just now, becoming personal and oh shit

I think we can all agree that we all very badly want to see more of the girl and her plushie? Pensevus who were in the epilogue of TCoTB

I’m scared Myron’s house could get destroyed in the next book, so uhm yes hello pls don’t do that Mr. Riggs

I wanna see Jacob get mad at Caul ngl. I know Caul is some scary giant tree man now, but let’s just ignore that and let Jacob go apeshit on Caul, he deserves it after everything that happend

Any old side character tbh. Like Mother Dust and Reynaldo!! Addison!!

Alright, I think that was it. Or no, I don’t. Cause I know there’s still something I didn’t mention here, but I can’t think of it at the moment :,) maybe I’ll add it later on or not, cause I don’t want to reblog this a million times and have this LOONG post pop on ya’lls dashboard again and again

For the asks, 11, 18, 19 for Edgeshot and the soggy noodle (Jeanist) please?

Oohhhh, thank you for sending one in!! I actually did number 11 for these two way back when I reblogged this for the first time in this post (one of your asks actually aha) but I’m going to write out some more/re-write what I’ve written slightly different most probably lmao

Warning: will be mentions of bad coping mechanisms, depression, death and self destructive tendencies and thoughts. Please read with caution. I’ve put number 19 under the cut for this reason.

11. Bad or petty habits.

Okay well, they’re both incredibly bad at dealing with stress and tend to have a habit of overworking themselves.

Jeans gets incredibly fidgety when nervous, however always tends to pick and scratch at his hands. So he’ll always have something with him that he can fiddle with, such as a ring or charm or just the hem of his clothes.

He also is really bad at taking care of himself for some reason, mainly with things like injuries and stuff like that, but still.

Also. Petty habits? His puns. Please, it’s his puns he just cannot stop himself.

Shinya overworks himself, as said earlier, but it just has to be emphasised.

Sometimes (very rarely) he can tend to make a snarky remark relating to someone complaining about their family, with a response along the lines of “oh yeah same” or “ahaha yeah, it’s really annoying huh?” or literally just hitting them with the “yeah, they’re dead.”

He mostly does it to villains as a way to make them actually hesitate, when they say stuff like “oh I’ll kill your friends and family blah blah” he simply answers with a “too late” and he hates how spontaneous he says it.

Obviously, this doesn’t happen often because, well it’s kinda obvious and he has respect towards his family, but some days he just cannot help himself, he considers it a very bad habit.

18. Things they’ll never admit.

That they are tired. Or stressed. Or overworked. Or mildly injured.

They are so stubborn and they just will not admit it.

Also, when one is mad at the other, they don’t like admitting when there is something that they’re mad/wrong about.

They are just incredibly stubborn and will wait for ages. And eventually they feel bad but are still stubborn so don’t want to admit that they want to speak to the other.

Not that they need to admit when one of them feels lonely or sorry or just really bad about something when they aren’t speaking. Because it’s definitely plastered all over their body language.

(To those who don’t want to read number 19 because it does have some pretty heavy angsty stuff, please feel free to leave it here ❤️)

19. People they’ve hurt or indirectly killed, and how it affected them. (Read carefully, contains some sensitive stuff as specified in my warning ^^)

Okay, like I said, these are pretty heavy and contain quite sensitive stuff so please be careful. I’ve wanted to talk about these particular headcanons for a while, but didn’t know how to.

I have a headcanon that Tsunagu has killed someone in the past, and possibly more than just one person. It was all accidental, well, mostly.

When he was younger, about 12, I can’t remember what age I said in ‘When it Rains...’ but he was young. He couldn’t control his quirk and his quirk often would be way too powerful for him and his body to handle.

He found himself rushing to help some kids from a villain but his quirk ended up going haywire and he basically strangled the villain to death, whilst doing serious damage to himself and hurting his sister by doing so. He was just so angry and out of control, his mind was screaming at him.

This spirals him into a very very dark mindset, and he starts to blame himself for everything. The kids at school knew what happened and called him a “freak” and he had no friends.

As time went on, he often got told that “his quirk wasn’t suited for being a hero” and taunted that he should just stick to “making dresses and playing hairdressers” which had a really big effect on the way he saw himself.

He started to agree with them and when they told him that “you can’t be a hero now, you killed someone! Better to just start fresh, yeah?”...he also agreed...and well, I’m sure you can imagine what that leads him to, since I’d rather not go into the details of that too much at the moment...

His sister has to feel all of this pain that he goes through, and this makes him feel even worse.

He manages to get through this with the help of his sister, and a couple of friends that stuck with him throughout it all. And he goes to UA with his mind still clouded with doubts.

He knows he’s weak, he’s thin and not of a suitable fighting form. His quirk is too powerful for him to control and also not suitable for being a hero, but with the help of others and teachers and family he manages to pull through.

As he becomes a hero, he starts to feel better and more proud of himself, however there is still that little comment at the back of his mind telling him that he is weak.

Everytime he fails to rescue someone, or accidentally injured or goes too far with capturing a villain, it takes a huge toll on his self confidence and he starts spiralling again. Even if it wasn’t his fault he will still take the blame. It all brings him back to that moment when he was 12.

This often leads him to overworking himself to the point of passing out or collapsing, and often one of his friends or interns will have to usher him to somewhere he can recover. He lets his health deteriorate and lets any injuries go untreated.

He is the type of person to carry every failure, tiny mishap and any failed missions, completely on his own back. He converts it all to regret and this makes him feel weak, stupid and helpless. He could be on the other side of town and hear of a villain attack that got someone injured and he’d blame it on himself. These thoughts get carried with him until he finally just has to break down and let it all out.

This usually happens at home, where it’s obvious to anyone that he needs to talk about it, even if he doesn’t want to. Or at their usual top 5 meet ups, because they understand and they all listen to him and comfort him beca they know how much it affects him.

Often, in these mindsets, he will end up over using his quirk and injuring himself with his recklessness, however....this time it’s quite deliberate...he just lets it happen.

This carries on until he’s quite a bit older, and even then he still gets moments where his mind starts to slip.

When he meets Shinya, it helps a lot with his mental health, due to them having so much in common (and just being a couple of generally traumatised and depressed heroes who can barely look after themselves properly). They help each other get through the hardest parts and they understand when one feels the way they do.

(I’ve got many other little things that relate to this rather depressing headcanon, but it’s a heavy subject so I won’t write them out unless someone asks and actually would like me to, just for me to make sure you guys are comfortable and okay)

—————got to switch to Shinya now aha—————————

Okay so we have his backstory (which I am still working up the motivation to finish the whole thing)

Shinya ends up killing a large group of the villains that ambushed his village. He didn’t know how it happened, how he did it, or anything like that. But in a moment of rage and adrenaline and pure unbridled emotion, he shot forwards and killed them instantly, brutally.

In the moment he didn’t care. He was scared and had just seen his family and friends die in front of him.

However, once he learnt exactly what he’d done, and how severe it actually was, that’s when he started to feel the regrets.

At first it was not much, but as he started to try to live a normal life again and interact with others, that’s when it became an issue.

He noticed how others glared at him. He noticed the fear in the other people’s faces as they walked past him. The looks on their faces as they acknowledged the broken, empty face of this child and how scared they were of his past.

Slowly this all made him very self conscious and worried about how others saw him. He started to feel more doubtful and less trusting than he was, even with barely any trust left in him.

He trained and trained, overworking himself and using his quirk way too much. This allowed him to gain experience, yes, but it also drained him of having any sense of what a childhood should be - draining his memory of living a normal life.

People were always intimidated by him, and over the years he got used to it, but there are always times where he felt that no one would see him how he really was. Just a lonely person, robbed of a happy childhood and innocence and someone who can’t find it in him to trust anyone ever again. The only person who would understand was his sister, since she wen through the exact same experience and was with him through it all.

When he meets Tsunagu, he finds himself starting to trust again, and found that he was one of the only people that he felt safe with.

Then he started meeting other pro heroes, some with tough backstories themselves, and it just made him feel less alone.

Of course, there will be days where his past haunts him, and he feels the blood of all the lives he’s taken and failed to save on his hands and it terrifies him. It drags him down. These days he ends up shutting himself away.

He doesn’t take care of himself properly and ends up collapsing and becoming ill and rundown.

However, these moments happen. And being with those who he finally trusts and those who are there to help him feel safe...that’s what allows him to recover

That’s what allows them both to feel human once again, despite their pasts and doubts. Despite their flaws and failures. They seek happiness in each other and they find safety in their friends...and that’s what keeps them going.

Thank you for asking! Sorry for how morbid that end one was, but it really is one of my most prominent headcanons for these two, especially poor jeans, and I actually kinda feel a little better to have you guys know it now, so that when I sort of reference it in my writing, you know what I’m going on about.

Please send some in guys, I would love to give you some headcanons on whatever character you’d like to send in! Love you ❤️ This is the post for the questions!! I’m going to bed for now, but please feel free to send some in for me to answer tomorrow, I’ll get to them as soon as I can!!

Drama time! (just making sure that people will be able to see my point of view of this drama)

Well, it’s not my fault. I didn’t want to add drama on my blog and honestly, I didn’t want to make another post for it but that lovely person @disneyfemslash & her main account @cancersyndrom had made me do it by deleting my responses under their post and then blocking me.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Anyway, here is a link to the post on her blog and here is a link to my reblog where I already changed text (bc their post made me realize that it can make some people feel uncomfortable and I write there word “edited” to let people know that I’m not just hiding my mistakes or I’m afraid of consequences. It’s just that I realized my mistake and I wanted to fix it.)

That’s what I wrote and that is what she wrote in reblog. Lovely. But, u know, I get that. Even tho she used “fuck” in an aggressive tone, even tho she wrote “what is your damage”, even tho she implied that I'm a pedo or perv or as if  I wrote it about real 16 yo, I wasn’t mad. I commented on her post. I wanted to clear things and let her know that she’s wrong. That I didn’t mean anything sexual. I let her knew my point of view.

I think it could be kinda mean of me, but that’s the truth? I saw that scene (3:09 - 3:15) in Brave. Looking in google I found this “Traditionally, men would not wear any underwear while wearing a kilt - and many still don't.“ From this site. So, I’ve may not think too much about it (because it was only a joke, no second thoughts, just a silly joke that I made because I remember that scene from Merida) and just straight thought that girls, women also do not wear underwear. That literally was my way of thinking and how and why I wrote what I wrote. I didn’t think about anything sexual, just a silly joke based on Scottish people. I already checked, I was wrong, most women (when they actually have to wear a kilt) have to wear panties. My bad. But like I said, I really didn’t mean anything erotic or sexual or.. or I don’t know what exactly that person was thinking that I wrote there.

And here is her answer and then mine:

Like I said in the comments, I still don’t understand what she meant by her first comment. I ignored it even because I thought it’s another person who is just going to be rude to me. But then she send another one and I realized that it’s her main account. Anyway, I think we all can agree that in her first comment, her intention was to be rude to me and again imply that I am some perv or something (again talking about panties and that she doesn’t want to know what I'm thinking <??? I guess? She never explained what she meant>, probably telling me to stop talking <???> and at the end, she called me a “freak, babe”). It looks as she didn’t even read what I wrote or just didn’t care. Because she thinks that I’m a perv, so if she thinks that, then it’s true and the other person can talk, explain, but she is the one who’s right. But’s it’s only a guess~.

And then, there is that lovely comment “once you annoy me there is no second chance”. Like, okay, sure? I don’t mind! Because I didn’t write my comments to beg for her forgiveness. I don’t need her approval. I just wanted to clear things. I just wanted to let know people, who will look at the post that @disneyfemslash wrongly interpreted my dialogue. It’s really all I wanted. But, I guess, she wanted people to think that she’s the hero in this story. Or something. I really don’t get it. 

And then I just asked her to delete that post (I mean reblog from me). I wanted this because I already said that whatever she thought I thought where writing this comment wasn’t right. She was wrong and I explain my way of thought. I just didn’t want people to think wrong of me, just because she assumed things. But she didn’t want to. 

But what’s wrong with talking in comments? Looking at our conversation it would be already the 6th reblog. And there is more. So what’s the point? Because tumblr will see her posts better if there will be more reblogs? That’s why? 

Here’s my response and yes, unfortunately. I kinda lost my patience here, ahaha. But, could you blame me? She is calling me names and implying things all the time and now, while I nicely asked her to delete the post, she rudely answered me, called me a coward, and imply that (I guess) I’m a perv because I don’t want to keep reblogging that post? That I want to hide what I wrote? Isn’t that ridiculous?

Anyway, here’s my response:

After that, she starts deleting my comments, because my next screenshots are just her comments with no trace of my comments. But that’s later. And here is her last comment and my reply (she didn’t see that I think because she already blocked me but I send this anyway). After that, I refreshed Tumblr and I realized that I was already blocked.

In the end, she really did not “give me a second chance” and keep thinking about me as some perv who likes panties of 16yo??? Oh well. I guess that she is just that kind of person who has to has the last word in the conversation. Anyway, here, how it looks now:

*Sigh* 

She probably won’t even see that, but if she did well... I don’t think that she would acknowledge her mistake or that people can be wrong or that she can be wrong sometimes. Just like that.

I saw that one post on her blog. She called all people who call The Beast by the name of Adam “the worst”. Someone reblogged, gave sources, screenshots just to let her know that Disney acknowledged fans' decision that The Beast’s name is Adam. And @disneyfemslash didn't acknowledge and just disrespected that person’s work. Lovely.

Even another person reminded her that her behavior was wrong. But she just blamed the other person again, not seeing her fault at all.

And that’s why, I don’t think that she will change her mind about me or just acknowledge that maybe, just maybe, rather than calling me names and implying things, she could just calmly talk with me in DM.

Here is just another example that cancersyndrome (disneyfemslash) just can’t accept that people can have other opinions. Other than her. And in the discussion, she just kept saying the same thing. And when she sees that she won’t win, she just starts (or even at the beginning of the discussion) calling other person names and assuming things and just being simply rude and toxic. 

But anyway, that’s all. I mean, I could also say something about @disneyfemslash shipping merelsa, a 21 (or 24 in the second movie) years old woman and 16 years old girl. Or I could remind her that she reblogged some posts that aren’t so pure. Like that one fanart with Jasmine (16) and Belle (19) in a sexual pose or edit with Jasmine (16) seducing Ariel (16).

But how would I do that? @disneyfemslash is a perfect, pure, innocent person, after all, who is always right and doesn’t give second chances! 

I hope things are clear now! 

For the fic ask game: 1 5 9 18

Hey, thank you for the ask! I always love talking about my writing ahaha ^^

1: Is writing cathartic or stressful for you?

I suppose kind of both, depending on what I'm trying to do but for the most part its pretty cathartic for me! Especially when I'm having some bad feelings, I can usually channel it into writing some angst and by the time I'm done with that, I'm mostly just too happy with what I've written to focus on the bad feelings themselves ahaha ^^

5: Share a snippet that you’re proud of from an upcoming fic/chapter.

Ooh, so just last night I was working on editing Chapter 4 of Growing Pains (it's almost ready to post!!! Might do it today even!) and I guess if I had to choose a piece of writing that I myself did, it might be this?

Before his mind was awake his body was moving, heart kicked rabbit-fast as adrenaline surged through his system and he was on his feet. 

A panicked voice, someone had shaken him awake, dark cave, danger. 

Three splashes, from the left, and he could tell the outline of several aquatic creatures making fast headway towards their location. 

He needed to fight, he needed a weapon, there. 

A long thing, a sword, softly outlined by nearby glowing plants. 

A second later it was in his hands, clattering lightly at the movement, and he drew the blade with a long hiss, pointed it towards their enemy, right hand still holding the sheath as he began to stalk towards the attackers.

Now, if you're curious about the context, you'll just have to come read the chapter ahaha ^^

9: Are there any fics you’d love to see but don’t want to write yourself? What are they?

Hmmmm, I can't think of anything off the top of my head, to be honest. Pretty much whatever fic concept I come up with I'm usually pretty willing, if not outright want to, write it myself.

18: Do you feel like your work gets enough recognition? What kind of feedback do you like to receive?

Enough recognition? I'm not really sure how to quantify that but at the very least I'm pretty happy with the feedback I get from several close friends. That said, I really do wish that people would comment more on AO3. Maybe reblog my writing a bit here. Ya know, this and that, just so that I know that strangers like my work just like my friends do, but this isn't an abnormal feeling, I don't imagine. I'm not too caught up on it though ^^

Anyway, thank you for the ask!!! I genuinely do take great joy in knowing that other people are interested in my writing so this is fun ^^

hihi! i was scrolling through your blog to read your fics and look at your other posts when i came across that ask where an anon did an analysis of your fic hostis. i’m just asking out of genuine curiosity (i hope this doesn’t come across offensive in any way but this has baffled me for quite some time!!), but how exactly should readers interact with fanfics?

probably every other month i’ll see a post by different writers about the lack of interaction from readers which really frustrates them (which i understand!) and they usually say that it doesn’t take that long to like, reblog, give a comment etc. i’m more of the passive type so i will like the fic post or share them with friends who like the same groups to read. i don’t usually comment, but i see people who do leave comments and hype up other writers who are their mutuals/friends. these comments are always positive and encouraging, but do writers ever want constructive criticism like what that anon commented? i mean it’s not like school or uni where you submit work to be marked, but when writers ask for interaction do they only want the positive, hype-me-up kind of comment? sometimes when i read a fic and i think “oh, maybe it could’ve been better if they developed this a bit more” or “it feels like it’s lacking a bit” or something like that, i just move on from it and read other fics. but for these writers who want interaction from their readers, would they actually want readers to voice out thoughts like this?

sorry for the long post ahaha i’ve just been wondering about this for a long long time and reading that anon’s detailed analysis and breakdown about what they thought could be improved really got me thinking about this as a long time fic reader. thank you ^^

HIHI no worries abt it being offensive or whatsoever!! You brought up quite a few points in this so bear with me yeah?

How should readers interact with fics?

Firstly, i'd like to put out a disclaimer that some writers might not agree with. The fact that writers post their work on an online platform accessible to everybody means that it will always be open to criticism, whether they like it or not. No, i'm not saying that it's okay to be rude or trash someone's work, i'm saying it in the context that readers will always be allowed to provide feedback/reactions. If you put a product out on a shelf for sale, you can't stop a customer from complaining about it if they purchase it and, in their opinion, finds it defective or inadequate.

You cannot stop a reader from having opinions.

It's the same for movies, music, choreography.

Secondly, however the reader wants to react (be it passive or active) is completely up to you! Personally, as long as i know someone's following my work, even if it's just 1 person, i'll be happy. My work isn't FAMOUS per se and it's just an outlet for me to vent or relax. Of course there'll be writers who want people to provide constructive feedback, and that's fine. Writers who actually want the constructive feedback WILL take it, i promise you. It will stick, even if they don't act on it, and if they agree with it, they will change according to the feedback. After i got that super long analysis from hostis, i started breaking up my sentences, especially in grounded. I started making sure my sentences were shorter, easier to understand. Might not have been 100% what the anon told me to improve on, but it stuck. For me, i write in school and it's being graded. Thus, writing here is in fact, a platform for me to practise. So of course, (though i admit i get salty sometimes when people tell me otherwise) i try to improve whenever people tell me there is something for me to improve on. It's normal human nature to feel angry or upset when people give CONSTRUCTIVE feedback bec sometimes it does feel like it's going against you.

Writers who want to improve will always appreciate constructive feedback, even if they feel salty or dissatisfied with it.

Of course, sometimes constructive feedback comes in the idea of questions. Whenever i write, i ask myself like- why does this character act like this or why did this happen- in case a reader has questions about maybe something lacking etc. (Also honestly because sometimes fanfiction is meant to cater to only the main characters, and side characters just aren't needed to be fully developed.)

Sometimes, the writers have their reasons for not developing a certain part of the story, a character, or simply- they didn't think about it, and that's fine. That's where they get to think about it too.

I always thought it was fun to discuss a story's plot with the writer, same way some people are super into trivia or like, backstories. It's like bonus features when you watch a director's cut of a film or like an easter egg, which you'll only realise when the director/writer himself shares it with you.

A writer will always be more than happy to discuss their story with you, whether or not the points of discussion are similar or different.

Keeping in mind, writers on this platform come from different countries, this means different styles of learning. Styles of writing differs from person to person. V, who wrote 17.5 of hostis, is also singaporean but her writing style is more poetic than mine. The anon who gave me that super long feedback on my writing with longass sentences and expression errors is a law student (who, i assume are more accustomed to writing short, accurate, and MUST BE grammatically correct sentences). Which is totally fine!

What you may perceive from reading a sentence may be different from what someone else perceives. When i write, i NEED to see the scenes in my head first because i'm a more visual person and i do videography and film production in school, so if i dont see it, i can't write it. sometimes it backfires and i end up stuffing like 2894 details into 1 sentence, killing the grammar and expression, which is what that anon pointed out to me.

Perception varies, so learn to understand that what the writer writes could be because they simply have trouble expressing what they see/visualise.

And that's fine. Nobody is ever perfect with writing, nobody's gna ever develop all their characters well enough to the readers' liking. If a story had 8 characters and each character had a fan, BUT the plot is meant to only focus on 3, then you cannot expect the writer to develop the other 5 just because their fans want them too. It's just not plausible, especially if the plot revolves around the 3.

Wow this was super long, i hope this gave you some valuable insight as to how a reader can interact with a writer. There's definitely no harm as to giving the writer feedback, even if its bad! Phrase it nicely of course - trashing the writer's work definitely isn't going to do anybody good. Writer's probably gna hate the reader while she/he feels shitty abt themselves and the reader doesn't gain anything in return.

THANK YOU for bothering to send this in!!! I absolutely LOVED talking about this because ive always thought that readers just wanted some fanfiction to read but now youve proven me wrong and i definitely do believe some readers look much deeper into a plot or a piece of work than just smut and fluff.

🥺💕 thanks loveee

I don't know whether to post one shots/drabbles here now or just post the link to the next chapter but here's Darker Interests 2. I had a sudden interest in revisiting the AU. I'll do both in a reblog I guess.

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❣Darker Interests 2 🧣

"Helllllo? Bo! I'm here!!" Colette announced as she entered the cavern. Her Book leapt from her arms, wanting to flutter around the place. Being carried was nice, but it had to be in sit still practically the whole time they were there— nearly a month! Stretching its wings felt great. It made it's way to the depths of the cave.

Colette looked around the dark space, wondering if she should call out again. She didn't sense him. Maybe he had gone up to the surface, or someplace out of reach.

Her questioning was quickly put to rest as a portal cut itself open into view. A cloven hoof stepped out, and the large demon it belonged to followed a second after. Colette looked up at him with a small smile. He was a very intimidating demon- towering over her easily, and this was his more casual form. She knew she was still a young demon under his jurisdiction, but she sometimes wondered if she would ever catch up to the amount of Souls he's claimed.

"Welcome back." Bo's deep voice rumbled out to greet her, his arms were crossed as usual. "How did you fare?"

Colette pushed away her doubts and grinned at the mere recollections of the Surface. "It was so exciting! I saw a lot of things. Ooh! And, my prescence has been getting stronger! There were a lot of car crashes wherever I went." She recounted. Bo listened carefully, nodding along to her story. "Their food was delicious too! Nobody ever told me about that!"

"It sounds like you enjoyed yourself." He remarked casually.

"Oh! It was very educational too, hm-hmm!" Colette assured him. "I learned about how... um, different ways humans react to car crashes. Sometimes they're all frantic, or just angry..." she tapped her chin on thought as she looked to the stalactites. "Um, what else...?"

Bo waited for the young demon to continue.

"OH!" Colette exclaimed, her eyes bright. She was so estactic, she took flight and spun around him in the air. "Bo, Guess what!!"

He was slightly surprised, but Colette's ambiance was one he was accustomed to. "What is it?" He asked.

"I made a deal with someone...!" She exclaimed.

"A deal?" Bo echoed, looking impressed. "I'm surprised that you found such an opportunity to strike one on your first visit. What was it in exchange for?"

Her confidence plummeted significantly, but her smile didn't falter. "It wasn't for anything that big." She admitted, "Because... I had forgotten my currency case. I couldn't pay. A-and yeah I could have just taken it, but I was trying to not get noticed, like you said. Everything's clearer in hindsight, right? Ahaha...." she felt so embarrassed when she got to the end of her stumbled explanation. She was on the ground again at the end of her clumsy speech.

Bo's passive expression remained. "What was it in exchange for?" He repeated.

Colette slid her foot on the rocky ground, feeling sheepish. ".....Two favors... for some of the Earth food I told you about." She said quietly, hands behind her back.

Bo considered that. It certainly wasn't ideal, but it was still a good sign that Colette was inclined to initiate a contract. It was good instinct, and for a young Trickster Demon like herself, it was very promising. "It's okay," he said. "How long ago was this?"

"It was about... a month ago? I think it was the second or third day of my trip up there." Colette said.

"Hmm..." Bo mused. "And you haven't been called yet? Usually, one who agrees to a deal has something in mind."

"Well, actually..." Colette considered her words. There was that little misunderstanding. Edgar had agreed to the deal without believing in it. She proved it to him, but what if he didn't even plan on following up? What happened to demons who were never called? Either way, she couldn't tell Bo that her first deal was a fluke. "...he said that he was going to wait until I returned back to Hell. I told him about how I was gonna be busy until I left Earth and he said he respected that! We had a really thorough talk." She nodded.

"I see..." Bo considered. He tilted his head at her. "You did seal the contract with the human, right?"

Ah, fuck. Oh Hell. Damn everything forever until the End of Times-- "Yes, of course I did!" Colette blurted out. First her name, now the actual Connection between them wasn't made! She took a deep breath to calm herself down and focus on making this lie believable. "I know that the trade off was pathetic, but I wouldn't forget to make an actual contract. You just think I'm incapable." She pouted, wishing her words were true.

Bo shook his head. "I don't doubt you at all. The deal is... well, it's a start." He said. "It's your start. Don't forget that every Demon had to obtain their first Soul at one point." He advised. "From there, one grows, and it's up to every individual to gain strength for themselves."

Colette nodded, feeling slightly better. "Yeah... I'll be as tall as your real form one day."

Bo gave a smile, a rare occasion for the wise demon. "And I hope even taller."

"Raaahhhr!!" Came a shout echoing through the cavern. Several winged creatures came flapping out, Colette's Creature being one of them. "Jøurn!" She called out. The Book flew straight into her arms. "What did you do?" She asked it.

A wild little demon, one who was far younger than even Colette, came chasing down the mischievous winged thing. Bo always took on young demons, guiding them until they were . . This one was Nita. She was still very small, and her fangs were the most precious little things, too! Despite her size, she was so ferocious. She had her eyes set on Jøurn, and she clawed at Colette's legs as she tried to climb her to get to it, all while roaring.

Colette held Jøurn above her head to keep it safe. "Nita," Bo called to her. The demon kid gradually registered her name getting called and stopped, turning to him with wide eyes and a confused frown. "You're going to have to practice hunting on a different creature. Colette needs that one."

The Trixie demon went back to hugging her book. Oh, yeah. This basic lesson: the bond of a Creature and Demon. The more you strengthen and take care of one, the more of an aid it becomes for you. Bo has long had his. His was a Strategist. It kept watch over the battlefield and helped Bo in battles. Another powerful demon, Tara, had her Creature on her forehead. Its specialty was being an Attacker. Its form was ornamental, but their combined strength was deadly.

You did have to be careful, however. The more power gained as a duo, the more prideful it would be. Depending on the Creature, it could even turn on you if it was upset. Another Demon may have had this happen. It was said that Gene was a non-demon who had a Creature bond with him, couldn't handle it, and had succumb to the influence. Colette wasn't sure about the validity this, though, Humans didn't have the access, and Angels wouldn't dare try and come here. It was simply impossible. Plus, even Bo was cautious around him-- Gene had to be a demon.

Colette was pulled away from her freeform thoughts when Nita began to pull on her arm. "Huh? What?" Colette said.

"I have to go, Colette." Bo told her (again), already entering a portal he conjured up. "Someone is summoning me. Watch over Nita until I return."

"Oh, okay! Bye!" Colette waved, and Bo was gone. Nita pulled Colette eagerly to the entrance of the cave. She wanted to play (wreak havoc) outside, no doubt. "Hmm..." Colette pursed her lips in thought as she let herself be led to the entrance. It usually took a couple of days for Bo to return. Could she have enough time to make the trip, find the human, create the contract, and then come back? It'd be worth a try, Colette decided. She knew where he worked, so it wouldn't be hard getting there. Colette watched the wild little demon laugh as she stomped around the area, scaring critters from their hiding spots and pouncing about, claws ready. What time was it up there on the surface? ...There was only one way to find out. She'd have to check it out herself.

"Hey, Nita!" She called. "Come here!" Nita stopped and turned to look at her. However, she grinned mischievously and took off running

Colette was shocked for about four seconds, and that was enough time for Nita to get a significant headstart. "Hey! Come back here!" She laughed, chasing after her by wing.

Nita cackled, jumping over rocks and bounding across the land. She was fast, for a young one. She clambered over a larger boulder, and leaped off splendidly, grinning at the rocky ground below her... until she realized it wasn't coming any closer.

"Got you, little scamp." Colette taunted with triumph. She was continuing to fly across Hell, holding Nita by her waist.

"Hmph!" Nita growled unhappily, crossing her arms. But, soon enough, the rush of the flight had her gleefully spreading her own arms as Colette flitted to and fro. Her wings and even her tail hasn't grown in yet, so this was all new and fun to her.

"Sooo," Colette began, "Look, we're gonna go up to Earth, but here's the thing. You're not supposed to be up there yet. You get it? This is going to be between us. Don't tell Bo! Okay, Nita?"

The little demon looked up at her, puzzled. This was really out of the norm for Colette, but maybe it didn't matter so much? She's heard mention of the Surface, but really didn't give it much thought. She didn't know she wasn't allowed to go. That sounded exciting! Nita nodded in agreement.

"Great!" Colette looked over at Jøurn. "Can you open up a portal for me? My hands are full. Make sure it's near where we found the guy. Do you remember?"

"..." Jøurn's wings beat rapidly, struggling a bit to keep up, but it closed its mouth as a light started shining within its jaws. Then it opened wide, expelling it from itself and shooting a portal ahead of Colette. She flew right towards it to enter it.

"Oooh...!" Nita marveled. She's always seen portals but has never been through one! She braced herself, then felt the sudden change of environment. There was blinding lights, and endless noises and it was much windier then she's ever felt before. All the buildings and passing cars were so much to take in. She looked around in excitement.

Colette took the sights more seriously. This looked like the right city, and it was nighttime, so that was great. But were they in the right vicinity? It was a small store... agh, where had that car crash been? "Hang tight, Nita." She told the younger demon. "We're gonna be store hopping for a little bit..." The girl hardly took notice of what Colette said- her pure silver eyes continued to drink in the sights of the bustling city.

....Somewhere around the forth or fifth shop, Nita grew bored of it. She had been slipping further down in Colette's grip until the older demon had her wrists gripped tightly. She was not impressed at all. "Hmmaaghh!!" She griped suddenly, flailing her body around furiously. She wanted down! To explore!

Colette looked down at her display, "Quiet down. This place looks familiar, I think we're almost there." she said, but Nita continued her temper tantrum. "Okay, we can walk from here, but you can't just run off, okay?" Nita growled. "Nita! This is serious. Understand?" Colette frowned down at her.

"Okay!!!" She finally agreed, kicking her feet in the air one last time. Colette sighed and looked for a place to land. She contemplated a roof, but took an alleyway instead. Hopping down from a rooftop with no injuries wasn't considered normal either. (She had learned this during her second week.)

As soon as they set foot on the pavement, Nita didn't hesitate on making a beeline toward the end of the alley, laughing derisively. Colette didn't bother chasing after her, and waited patiently. Nita felt a pull that jerked her back before she was too far away. "Huh?" She strained against the pull for several seconds before glaring back at Colette. The older demon held up a glowing attachment to Nita. "As if I'd trust you. Now come here! You can't go out looking like that."

Nita trudged back grumpily, and dropped to a seat on the ground with a "HUMPH!"

"Okay," Colette sighed, holding her hands out to her. She was super at her own disguise, but she hasn't provided one for anyone else. There was a first for everything though, right? She focused on creating an image for Nita. Her blank white eyes had to have pupils. Her red skin would have to be quelled. The last of the basics involved adding natural (for humans) color to her gray hair. With all of this in mind, Colette let the disguise form, then opened her eyes. Nita was looking down at herself, looking surprised yet again. Brown skin, dark auburn hair. It was so weird! So cool! Would she have these powers one day? She could hardly wait!!

The winged demon ended up a bit tired. Apparently it took more strength to disguise someone else. She couldn't wait until she was stronger... She wiped her brow with her forearm. Okay, now for herself. Her fangs went away, as did her tail and wings, and odd skin and eyes. (Again, odd for humans.)

Jøurn flew over, and seemed annoyed. "Yeah, you have to stay put again," Colette laughed lightly holding out her arms to hug her Creature. It dropped right into them, compliant. Colette turned to Nita. "Okay, let's go. Stay by my side." Nita nodded, but Colette gave her a look. She held out her hand after shifting Jøurn to one arm. "Come on."

Nita rolled her new eyes but grabbed Collete's hand to stand, and they walked out of the alley together. Out on the sidewalk, Colette looked around. "This way," she said, heading toward a four way intersection. She was pretty sure the store in question was only a few blocks away. The view from a flight was better, but someone was getting cranky. Either way, it wouldn't be long now, she hoped. A car crash occurred when they rounded a corner. Nita gawked at it, but Colette was used to it already.

Oh, but what if he didn't work tonight, or had quit? It'd be more difficult to find him in that case. She'd have to go on her own, somehow avoiding detection from Bo... Bringing Nita again on a longer trip would be out of the question, given how she acted.

...Luckily, she didn't have to worry about that. Jøurn squirmed in her grasp, bringing her attention to the convenience store a little ways down the street. Colette squinted, the superior vision of her kind allowing her to try and spot him if she focused hard enough. There!

"It's Edgar!" She exclaimed, "C'mon, Nita!" She quickened her pace, urging the girl along. They crossed the street in a hurry, diagonally across. Cars screeching to a halt and horns slammed angrily made Nita laugh as she bounded along to keep up. Colette made it to the sidewalk and entered the store. The ring of the bell signified their entrance, but there was a short line of people this time, so he didn't greet her this time.

Even so, Colette held back a giggle as she slipped behind the aisle she did last time. "We have to wait until the place clears out." She told Nita. "Ooh, maybe I'll pick up something while I'm at this--" Colette slapped her head. "I didn't bring the Case again!!" She was red. She was just going to suck it up. Jøurn's pages ruffled together in laughter. "Shut up." She told it. "Last time was your fault!"

Colette peeked around the far end of the aisle. At that moment, a girl came from the back room and noted Colette's crazy grin directed at the front. Colette noticed her stare and ducked back to her hiding spot.

The black-haired girl cocked a brow, and walked over to Edgar as she blew a bubble. "Hey," she said, as it popped. "There's someone shifty around the snacks. Go check it out."

"Take over here then, Bibi." Edgar replied.

"Duh," she smirked, stepping in continue scanning as he walked off. "You can barely do one thing at a time anyway."

"Whatever," He shrugged lightly, walking through the employee's door to walk around the counter. He passed the queue of folks, and then walked down the aisle before the snacks. Someone shifty meant to be cautious, so he leaned only his head to the aisle closest to the exit. Nobody. Did they leave already? Edgar stepped to the window of the store to see if he could catch any silhouette running off.

Outside, sirens sounded not that far away. He could even see the flickering lights on the street. Edgar started to turn, his eyes glued to the window until he finally looked in front of him, where Colette now stood.

"Hi!" She greeted. Edgar recoiled with wide eyes. Colette grinned, expecting the look of realization to melt in and a warm greeting returned to her. Instead, his look soured. "Get out." He said.

She frowned. "Huh? Why?" He glared at her, but she was just puzzled.

Now, having an opportune close look at him, Colette noticed a cut on Edgar's lips, a barely present scrape on his visible cheek, and...

Colette rose her right hand tentatively. It was out of his view. She was hesitant, and her fingers hovered over his hair, but she couldn't bring herself to ignore what she saw. She pushed aside his bangs to confirm her suspicions.

A black eye.

She managed to see it for a split second before he felt the exposure and reacted. He jerked his head away from her and shoved her away. His hair fell back into place. His eye flared with animosity.

Nita, who was watching the exchange as she dug into a bag of gummy bears, widened her eyes in shock at that action. She growled and stepped forward but Colette grabbed the back of her shirt. The white-haired demon didn't keep her eyes off of Edgar, and her head flooded with millions of things to say, to ask, to do.

"Get out of here," Edgar said through gritted teeth.

"You called me, right?" Colette asked blankly. "And I didn't show up."

"Is that written all over me too?" He flung at her. "Get lost. I'm not gonna say it again."

"I'm sorry," she said.

Edgar gave a mixed look. Not showing up, then apologizing? "What kind of a demon are you, anyway?" Colette took Nita by the wrist, and made to exit the store without giving him an answer.

Bibi heard the bell and looked over from where she stood, ringing up the last customer. Edgar remained out of sight as he stared out the window, smoothing his hair. Then, he started to return.

The customer left, and Edgar pulled himself up over the counter. He didn't feel like walking around.

"What happened? Did you know her?" Bibi asked. With that sneak-and-peek grin the gal had, it looked like it.

"No, it was just some nutjob." Edgar said, sliding down, hands in his pockets. "She was trying to steal but got embarrassed when I caught her."

"Huh," Bibi said, looking to the glass door. "If you say so."

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Outside, Colette miserably led Nita to the nearest alley again. She patted the younger demon on the head and Nita returned to her original form. She let her own disguise fall too. "Let's go," she said with no enthusiasm as she opened a portal. Nita looked up at her with concern, frowning, but walked through when nudged to go.

Colette herself paused before entering. Edgar's question was cycling through her mind. What kind of demon indeed? One who nearly gets caught, forgets to share her name, and her currency case, and to seal a contract. One who grants favors for frivolous treats, and tries to cover up just one of her countless mistakes. What kind of demon was she? Honestly, a sad excuse for one. She entered the gateway, and it closed behind her.

“Dark” Discoveries

A/N: Hey hey ya’ll! HAPPY NEW YEAR! Making my second post and first post of the new year wooooooooo! Lol I was in the mood to make a lil fluff tickle fic for my favorite boys in FF7. I love them so so so so so muuucchhh! Plus I want to see more fics were Sephiroth is tickled because lets face it the man needs it and hugs and love! So I decided to try my hand at it! So please enjoy and leave a comment, reblog, like, if ya feel friends!

Also sorry for the crappy title and play on word heehee. Oh and this is SFW!

Fandom: Final Fantasy 7

Paring: Sephiroth x Cloud Strife x Zack Fair

Summary: Today has not been a good day for Sephiroth and to make matters worse the power is out. His lovers seeing their dear Sephy upset decide to remedy that and in the process make a new discovery.

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It was a stormy day, pouring from early morning and continuing. The weather matching that of the General’s foul mood.

Sephiroth sat in his home office reading over reports regarding monster infestation around Midgard. Noting how most were escapees from Hojo’s labs. Frowning, he continued to read until the lights started flickering, he looked up only to be bathed in darkness, with the sound of the power shutting down.

‘This day couldn’t get any worse.’ Sephiroth thought as he withheld a sigh as he sat in the darkness of his office.

Today was overall not a great day, mainly due to seeing Hojo for a health checkup and examination. It only made his mood worse just remembering the encounter.

 Every time he visited the doctor, with much reluctance and disdain, he always had something negative to say about him over his lovers. Reminding him that love is something beneath him, that he was not capable of it or happiness, that he didn’t need them. Drilling into him that he himself could not be loved and wasn’t loved because of his station and what he was. Then proclaiming that only he understood him. Sephiroth tuned out the mad scientist words and blocked them but sometimes the cruel word would get to him. After each checkup, being around the doctor always left him emotionally and mentally tired. As well as insecure and frustrated that he allowed the man’s words to affect him. Sighing he leaned back in his chair at least he was home alone, and his lovers hadn’t seen him yet.

“Seph!” Boomed a voice.

“We’re back!” Followed by another cheerful voice. “Oh, the power is out here to.”

Sephiroth sighed with a smile and quietly made his way into the living room. “Welcome back Zack, Cloud.” He greeted warmly seating on the couch. “How did today go?”

Zack grinned and threw off his jacket making his way to the silver haired general. With mako in his blood he could see in the dark just fine. The mako treatment enhancing his vision. He leaned down kissing the his lips before leaning back and pecking his forehead.

“Fine! Spikey is a natural with materia.” He grinned. “We would have practiced more if not for the storm knocking out the power, so we’ll continue tomorrow.” He moved to their bedroom deciding to change into comfortable clothes.

Sephiroth smiled as he received another greeting kiss from the blond before he followed Zack and changed into dry clothing. He heard a Cloud curse followed by Zack’s laughter. Most likely the blond ran into something or Zack was being a pest. They joined him on the couch, Zack sitting on his left and Cloud on his right. Both proceeded to sandwich the man, Zack laying against the arm of the couch with Sephiroth leaning against him and Cloud on top of the general.

“So how was your day?” Cloud asked playing silver hair by twirling it around his finger.

“It was… tolerable.”

“Hm?” blue eyes blinked in question. “So not a good day?”

Sephiroth frowned. “I didn’t say that.” He squeezed Cloud making him squirm with a giggle.

Zack snorted. “You didn’t have to.” He kissed his neck. “Aggravation is practically oozing from you and you’re tense.” He kissed his neck again and Sephiroth scrunched up his shoulders.

“Sooo what has our Sephy-kins in such a foul mood.” Zack grinned.

“Zackery…” Sephiroth warned against the nickname.

“Hmm?”

“Hojo…” at the mention of his name lightning and thunder boomed and flashed. Cloud snuggled more into the general.

“Even the weather hates that guy.”

“Tch figures it would be that spectral eyed bastard…Your mood makes sense now.”

“Can an accident happen to him.” Cloud muttered. “Ya know, The fatal kind?” Sephiroth chuckled running fingers through blond hair.

“If only spikey, if only.” Zack rested his chin on Sephiroth’s shoulders his hands wandering from his shoulders, sliding along his sides to wrap around his middle. He paused when he felt the general tense up, slightly moving his fingers he felt him flinch. Zack withheld a giggle and rubbed his cheek against the other. He smiled when the affection was returned. “One of these days karmas going bite him right on the ass.” Zack grumbled.

“What did he do?” Cloud gently cupped his face tracing his jaw line.

“He’s usual examination and prattling…about…” Sephiroth released a relaxed sigh shaking his head. “Nonsense…Nonsense I know that I should not allow to be a passing thought.” He frowned. “But still…”

“Its overwhelming.” Cloud finished; he understood the negative affect the mad doctor had on his general. Hell, pretty much he and everyone in Shinra, from cadets to the upperclassmen and soldiers, were terrified of the man and hated him at the same time. The disregard Hojo had for others, and living beings in general, was sickening. What Cloud disliked the most was how the doctor would make Sephiroth feel, despite hiding it so well. He and Zack could always see the difference in his behavior and how he carried himself. He wouldn’t show his weakness or vulnerability around his soldiers, but he and Zack were the exception. The reassurance he needed.

Cloud leaned up pecking pale lips. “Are you okay now?”

“Yes.” He smiled rubbing Cloud’s cheek. “I’m fine.”

“Hmm,” Zack hummed. “Doesn’t sound like you are.” He stated nibbling lightly at the pale neck.

“Za-ack!”

Both blond and brunette blinked at the sound that left past those lips. It was small and quiet but there was no denying it.

The general giggled.

Zack being a tease went back to nibbling on his neck and lightly tracing his ribs. He felt the general lightly squirm as small grunts left him.

“Spikey I think I found a way to make our dear Seph feel better.” No one needed lights to hear and see the grin on Zacks face.

Cloud perked up. “Oh! I wanna help!” and he wiggled down and sat on Sephiroth’s hips and began to lightly pinch his sides. Cloud giggled when their lover began to squirm even more while trying to suppress his laughter and trying to stop their hands.

“Cl-Cloud don’t e-encourage h-hi-him!” he stuttered out. When the pressure increased low and soft chuckles began to leave him. “Z-Zahaha!” He clenched his mouth closed, small snorts and grunts escaping.

“Oh no no that won’t do.” Zack wiggled his fingers more and Cloud attacked his tummy with vigor.

“Hahaha!”

Zack and Cloud gaped at the wonderful reaction they received soaking up the deep, yet velvety laughter of their beloved general. The sound was free and as if it was never let out before and held in restriction. Sure, they heard him chuckle, but it was always low and quiet, even in the comfort of their home, he still seemed shy and restrained.

But this time they are going to change that.

“Gods!” Cloud whispered in awe he wished the lights were back on just to see his expression. He bet a million gil he looks just as beautiful as he sounds. And who would have thought their general, lover, the demon of Wutai was ticklish. It never occurred to him to even do such a thing, but here he was.

And he loved it.

Sephiroth was struggling more as Zack, or Cloud? Hell, someone’s hands were wiggling against his ribs and moving up toward his…. Oh gods! “Nonono! Stohahap!” He chortled out and even yelped when he felt Zack nibbling the side of his neck. “NOT THEHAHAHAHA!” he felt fingers poking around his armpits and he arch forward to get away from the feeling only to arch back into Zack when he felt pokes to his stomach and pinches to his hip. “CLOUAHAHAHAHAHA! ZACHAHAHA!” squirmed between them.

“Yes!” They chimed grinning.

“NO-AHAHA-N-NO MORE!” He managed to laugh out.

“No more? But Sephy-kins why should we stop?” Zack teased while leaning to nibble on his ear. “Especially since you seem to be enjoying yourself.” The silvered haired man could do nothing but laugh shaking his head when Zack blew into his ear.

“But I guess we could stop.” Both paused, Sephiroth thanked the Gods on high as he was able to breath. Laughter toning done to chuckles his body still tingling from the torture.

“Shi-Shiva’s blessing…Ple-ease t-tell me you both are done…With this torture.” He panted out.

“Don’t know…What do you think Spikey?”

Instead of answering Cloud pokes a finger right into his navel with a loud, “Boop!” then he vibrated his finger.

“PFFTTAHAHAHA!” An undignified snorting laugh left from Sephiroth as he yelped and bounced. It didn’t help that Zack started up again and fingers dug into his hip.

The reaction made his two lovers crackup themselves, Cloud collapsing back on top of Sephiroth and Zack laying his head on his shoulder both laughing hysterically. Despite not being tickled anymore the general threw his head back laughing free along with them. It felt nice and the tight pressure he felt within in him was gone.

Leaving him with relief and ease.

The lights came back on, Zack and Cloud could finally see the state their lover was in. pale cheeks covered in a rosy red hair splayed out around him in a silver halo, but most of all was the soft satisfied smile on his face. It held all the pureness that made their hearts melt.

“Now do you feel better?” Both asked.

“Mn…Though once I catch my breath.” He eyes ever warm and glinting with mirth and regarding the two. “You both will be sorry.” Sephiroth chuckled as his face was peppered with kisses.

“It was Zack’s idea.”

“Wha! You helped to!” he frowned. “You’re just as guilty as I am!”

“I was nicer though.”

“No you weren’t!” The two bickered bath and forth go so far as to calling each other childish name.

Sephiroth chimed in. “You both were terrible.” Cloud and Zack stopped arguing and turned their gaze on the general. “You have two choices: Try to escape from my wrath. Or the two of you can decide among one another who goes first.”

“So we are in trouble.” Cloud stated with a shy cute smile making the general return it softly.

“Very much so.”

“Even when we made you feel better.” Zack added with a sensual smile.

“Yes.”

“Fair enough… but Seph you forget the third alternative.”

“Third?” he was sure there was a third. He tilted his head at Zack. “And that is?”

Zack grinned mischievously and attacked again with vigor. “We still aren’t done finding all those delicious spots!” Sephiroth tried to stop him yet could do nothing but laugh. He jumped with a snort when he felt hands squeezing his knees. Ifrits hell! He didn’t even think he could be ticklish in such a place or at all!

“YoHAHAHAH both hahaha arehahaha goiinnggg toohoh nonono hahaha!” Cloud laid between his legs tickling the inside of his thighs now. “

Cloud teased by cooing. “Wooow! Didn’t know you could be ticklish here!”

“Oh that is a fun place!” Zack commented vibrated his fingers on his hips.

Sephiroth couldn’t take much more and finally pleaded for mercy the two pausing in their onslaught but leaving their hands where they were.

“Are we still in trouble?” Zack whispered into his ear.

The general there still laughing lightly at the tingles and teasing. “Ye-hahaha okay okay nonoohoho!”

“Do you plan to spare us and no retaliation?” Cloud asked while giving light and teasing nibbles to his stomach.

“Yes hahaha!”

“Hmm, I think he is lying about that one spikey.”

Cloud snickered leaning up and kissing the general’s chin. “I know, if you do get us back I don’t mind.” He smiled sweetly. “It will be fun… I look forward to it.”

“I agree with spikey we should do this again! I mean we can already see you are sexy. But if I had known tickling you would open new horizons, I would have done it sooner!” Zack babbled. “We should have had a camera for pics and video!”

Sephiroth let out a laugh as the brunette babbled on though he had to admit he didn’t think he could enjoy such an act and be undone like that by his lovers. At first, he felt insecure and awkward but seeing and hearing the enjoyment from his lovers he did not mind. He also found himself much relaxed and free of the tension.

He was brought out of his musings when Zack spoke and sat up. “Hm?”

“Want me to start dinner?”

Before anyone could answer the lights went out along with the rest of the power again.

“Welp there it goes again.” Cloud said. “Soooooo now what?”

Zack threw his arms around the generals middle snickering as he flinched and began to struggle. “Don’t worry Seph you get a break for now…I say we just chill.” He got comfortable snuggling in the couch more.

Sephiroth grabbed the couch blanket and draped it over them and with the general still sandwich between them the three continued to talk until eventually drifting off to sleep wrapped in warmth and love.

Sephiroth never felt more secured in his life.

So a lot of people are probably gonna hate me for what I'm about to say. I'm actually a bit worried about how many, but we're gonna do this anyway because I need this off my chest now that s3 of Skam France is close to its end(it hurts just saying it). 

Actually Yann's "Episode 9, it's almost over" made me emotional enough to write all of this. So thank him for that. Yeah.

I don't even know my exactly point yet, but I'm gonna start ranting: I love s3 of Skam France. I will be honest, I haven't seen s1 and s2 yet. I have heard so many bad things about it, and to begin with, I was one of those people who didn't understand why we needed remakes of the same story. I was one of those people. But I realise I have been TOTALLY wrong. Skam France is the only remake I have really watched through, and then the OG. I have seen some of Skam Italia, but it didn't capture me the same way. As soon as I started Skam France s3, I was mesmerized. I didn't know it was possible to get THIS invested.

Back when I just started Skam OG, I also first found out about the show during s3. It was everywhere, and as someone who watched Eyewitness at the time, and is still a Shadowhunters fan, it popped up on tumblr. I believe that was where I saw it first. Then I went to youtube and started watching, and I was hooked like no other. The show had an earthi-ness to it(I don't think that's a word lol). I related to the characters. And I just generally really liked it. 

However, the difference between back then and now, was that I wasn't really 'a part of' the fandom as I feel like I am now. I wasn't reblogging stuff and commenting and all those things. I wasn't very active on social media, so I watched the show and...yeah. I didn't really have anyone to freak out over it with, or rather I did, I just didn't use it at the time, not thinking about it. But I don't know how many times I have rewatched scenes from s3.

S3 has a very special place in my heart. Not only do we have Evak, who are incredible, but as mentioned it is the first season where I discovered Skam, and my two best friends have MI. Even as MI too, so I could see that, like, feel it deeper than anything else, because of that. Therefore Even is also a very important character in the story for me. 

Then I came across Skam France, after long long time of not being involved with anything Skam, and I can't even remember how I found it, but I'm SO happy I did. I came in around right before episode 7, I believe, so I haven't been here from the beginning, sadly. I kind of hate that to be honest, because it feels like everything have gone faster because of that. But that's not my point. My point is that I found out how much I actually love Skam France s3. Yes, it's the same story overall, but the actors, the cinematography, how deep they are going into the characters, how filled with emotion it is, everything. I love the changes they made to Even and Isak's characters too. 

For example, the intensity of it all. You really feel everything. It's very emotion-filled, and I love when a series can do that to me. Also, how bold Lucas is and what a dork Eliott is, like, how can you not love them? Plus the chemistry Maxence and Axel has, both on screen and off screen. Their friendship is so pure. And Maxence's livestreams gives me life, seriously. The whole raccoon and hedgehog. Another big thing I love, which we have seen in this latest clip, is that there is not a division between the boy and girl squad. They are one big group. 

So I'm just gonna say it straight out: At a lot of points, I like Skam France's s3 more than the OG Skam's s3. Now, please don't get mad. I know what you're thinking, and I agree. All of the remakes have their own charm, their own ups and downs, none are better than the other. But taking in a personal opinion, in this case mine, I as a person likes Skam France s3 more in several ways. Like that Lucas hangs out with the boy AND girlsquad and supports them both. As I mentioned above, there is no division. This is one of the things that I have never liked about the OG. 

But it's not 'just' about the show to me, I think: It's also about watching the live streams, seeing the interviews, seeing gifs, reblogging and commenting with you guys, the fandom. I didn't do all of that when I saw the OG. I didn't have that 'bond' with the show. But I have that bond with Skam France. I go on here to find updates all the time, and I get so emotionally invested in the story, and can see others doing that as well. I don't know, it gives me a much different feeling than what I had with the OG. Somehow this bond is just stronger, and a lot of it is thanks to you guys. I feel like I'm actually a part of this, like many others. Which also means it's so hard for me to say goodbye to Lucas. I loved his season, and I still do. I have already rewatched the clips too many times for my own good. Axel is such an incredible actor, but so is Maxence, and if I hadn't found Skam France, I wouldn't have found out how amazing these two precious people are. And how much I could freak out over instagram posts ahaha xD. But it's the fact that I am that invested that it's so hard to say goodbye, and I have to remind myself that it's not a goodbye. You guys aren't going away. You're still gonna be there, and so is Lucas and Elliot, but this time they will be in the background. That is okay. I will miss them deeply because they hold a special place in my heart, as mentioned earlier s3 is the first season where I found out about Skam in the first place, and my two best friends have MI, so Eliott's character also have great meaning to me. But they won't go away. They will still be there. 

I think what I have to get used to is the lack of Maxence and Axel. Livestreams, interviews and such. I hope they won’t go away completely because they make me so happy. They are like a walking sun for me lol.

Also, I am really hoping that we can get that s5, and that it will be about Eliott. I want to know more about MI, but not from reading on a website, I want to actually see it being represented in a good and healthy way on TV, which we sadly don't get a lot, if at all, and I don't want him to just be 'Lucas' bipolar boyfriend'. No, that man has SO much more to tell! Please David, Niels and Julie: Give him the chance to. So let's knock the views out of the park, and show them just how much we want it! :D

Yeah, that got a little side tracked I know, but that is honestly also a part of my point: Because if we get an Eliott season, a character that means so much to me, that would make me thrilled, and I will be so happy, also on behalf of my friends. Really, we need to have MI shown in a healthy way, and I feel like this is an opportunity we can't miss. Plus, it will be a season that hasn't been made before, because it's not part of the OG, and I find that really exciting!

So, short story told: I'm a mess, what a surprise, I love you guys, I love all of the cast, and I will miss Lucas' season way too much.

1, 8, 9 and 10 for the salty thingy?

1. What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?

This is the part where I’d say J.oshn.eku, but I’d get anon hate. True story.

Uhhhh I’m not too particularly big on Ed/Winry, Asano/Ren, Homura/Madoka (Bite me) or Kazuma/Bishamon, all of which I know are fairly popular. But I wouldn’t say I “don’t get” any of them. I’m just not super big on them for. Differing reasons.

8. Have you received anon hate? What about?

You want the beans about the J.oshne.ku thing? I’ll SPILL THE BEANS about the fucking J.oshn.eku thing.

I’m gonna put this below the cut (Haha. Below the cut. That’s part of the story) because it’s LONG

Back in the day in the TWEWY fandom, I was a part of the RP community. Mostly a great place! But I... Was 14. I’m not exactly going to call myself a saint, ‘cause I was a total passive aggressive brat, but I was just a kid.

Enter Not-Neku-Kin and Not-Joshua-Kin.

As you can imagine, Not-Neku-Kin and Not-Joshua-Kin roleplay Neku and Joshua. They are borderline kindating. Let’s be real here. 

For the most part, I get along with these two! I don’t like their ship, and make some admittedly VERY IMMATURE comments about not liking their ship, but remember: I was a literal middle schooler. They were over 17 at this point. They were well aware I was 14.

(*As a note here there were some other borderline ableist comments I made here, but they were never once directed at real people, but rather fictional headcanons. I don’t want to go into explicit detail because this involves extreme trauma for me, but it was about a mental illness I have, and never once left the realm of “Ahaha I’m not really comfortable with that headcanon”)

So they have every right to be annoyed by me, but maybe not to make claims of being “traumatized” by me?

Enter the porn.

This is back in the days of yore and Tumblr not being a functioning website. Tumblr did not have a “below the cut” feature! 

Not-Neku-Kin starts roleplaying porn. Fetish porn. (With a fifteen year old character, mind you, but that’s besides the point, uwu) Me and my best friend are deeply uncomfortable with this. Not-Neku-Kin does not put any of this below the cut because “Wah! I’m stuck on mobile!” Despite the fact that they KNEW they had a large amount of minors following them.

This is the part where if they were a mature ass person, they probably would have decided to move their porn to something private like Skype (Once again: This was before Discord. If that puts into perspective how long ago this was), or perhaps passed up roleplaying porn at all until they could properly hide and tag it. Nope! Explicit NSFW on our dashes!

My best friend sent a polite anon something along the lines of “Unfollowing because of the porn. Sorry! ^-^” I don’t remember if it was any more aggressive/passive aggressive than that, because it very well could have been genuinely sort of rude: But remember: Putting uncut porn on the dashboard of a bunch of middle schoolers.

Sometime or another I unfollowed them for a different reason and told them in the public TWEWY roleplay community skype server. They and Not-Joshua-Kin FLIPPED THEIR SHITS. Best friend admitted she sent the anon. They flipped their shits on the both of us and left the server.

We thought that was the last of it. 

No, lmao.

Two or three years later, I make a post ON MY MAINBLOG that’s like “Considering coming back to the TWEWY roleplay community. How active is it?”

Not-Joshua-Kin sends me an anon saying something along the lines of “The TWEWY community doesn’t want you”

OOOOKAY, then.

Around this time one of them (I don’t remember who) also got in contact with a friend of mine (Who can back this up, for the record,) and sent him a VERY passive aggressive anon along the lines of “I like your content, but I’m gonna have to unfollow :/ You reblog from an ableist abuser” (REMEMBER. ONE OF THE REASONS THEY FLIPPED OUT ON US US AN ANON ABOUT UNFOLLOWING)

Obviously when said friend asked they specify he was told it was me (And once again I’m deeply uncomfortable with their willingness to namedrop me like this, alongside seemingly stalking my blog). He got in contact with me and I told him the full story. He was like “Oh, okay.” And that was the end of it.

Two more years later. Now I’m a Senior. This drama went down when I was in 8th grade. These people are like 21 now. The TWEWY remix comes out. The fandom is blooming!

Not-Joshua-Kin makes a fandom discord.

Quite frankly I don’t even realize it’s them. I join. Insta-kicked without any information or contact given as to why. I get in contact with them, realize who they are, and we decide to maturely talk about it like adults.

I write an extremely long apology, both detailing how immature my behavior was at the time, and disclosing some of my very personal trauma behind my actions. I also express worries that they’re smearing my name in the fandom by barring me from spaces like that. 

They reply and say that A) They would never smear my name in the fandom, and would never spread gossip, even if they don’t like me. B) They’re still not sure if they and Not-Neku-Kin are comfortable inviting me in, but they’ll keep me updated.

Radio silence.

They don’t even have the balls to tell me directly “No, I’m not sure I’m comfortable with that.” They downright block me. Okay! That’s comfortable, considering all I just shared with you!

Annoying, but I’ll survive.

Few months later, I learn from ANOTHER friend they HAVE been gossiping about me. And not “some person.” “Sack.” They’re namedropping me in the TWEWY roleplay community, directly calling me annoying and ableist out of context. This is stuff they’re bringing up completely unprompted, too. So alongside being a liar and a gossip, they’re dragging my name across the mud and effectively exiling me from a fandom because I...

A) Didn’t like a ship

B) Didn’t like their one (1) autistic headcanon

C) Am closely associated with someone who told their S/O to stop putting creepy fetish porn on my dashboard in MIDDLE SCHOOL.

That’s EXTREMELY comfortable considering, once again, I really genuinely opened up to this person about my trauma and was 100% willing to try and make a new start with them. But now for all I know they’re STILL actively gossiping about me and sharing my trauma.

De-lightful!

And THAT’S the story of how I got my first anon hate.

9. Most disliked character(s)? Why?

Kazuma can eat my fucking boots.

Additionally I’m not fond of any of the bad guys in Assclass (In particular Yanagisawa, Takaoka, Gakuho, and Hiromi make me VERY uncomfortable), Homura PMMM (Eat shit bitch), or Lusamine Pokemon (Abusers Die Challenge)

10. Most disliked arc? Why?

I don’t think it’s bad persay but the entire mood of the current arc of Noragami makes me so deeply uncomfortable I’m literally having to take a break from reading it. It’s very well written, but seeing the characters take such steps backwards in their arcs makes me feel a little sick.

As for Assclass I... Don’t think the 2.0 arc is excellent. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE Irina and Karasuma’s developments during it, but 2.0 is just suchhhh a bad villain. He’s too OP to the point of bending my suspension of disbelief. It ends up not being fun, and instead just downright FUNNY to read. “How did he do that? Oh my god! DID HE JUST DO SHADOW JUJITSU?” It totally takes you out of it.

❊ I want to roleplay with you 

((Aww I mean, I’m totally down for that. I’m always up for new roleplaying partners, though I might not be the fastest - just to warn you beforehand. I’ve tried to work on my speed recently but still. >.<))

✸ I want to plot with you 

((That’s great because I love plotting! Just jump into my ims or I just jump into your’s. :’) My plotting game hasn’t been that good recently though. I’m sorry :( ))

❋ Your blog is one of my favs 

((Thank you!!! That makes me very happy to hear. <3))

✦ I like seeing you on my dash

((Thank you for that too. ; u ; I hope I don’t annoy you with all of my ooc posts, though.))

@the-lost-adventurer-plum

((I mean I want to roleplay with you too!! Like very badly? :( I miss these two... I want to do something more long-term, too. Something that develops their relationship. And adds some fluff and delicious drama :’) I’m pretty sure we have something open already but if you want to I can write a new starter for you. Maybe we can plot, too, if you are interested in that.)) 

@burmecias-protector

❊ I want to roleplay with you 

((Same here!! I’m glad that you had the courage to jump into my inbox. I love your characters and world-building, even though, so far I only know Thalessa. She is great, though!))

✸ I want to plot with you 

((SAME!! Though right now, I kind of really enjoy how natural their relationship is developing. I wouldn’t want to interfere with their natural interactions too much. I will tell you though... I might have secret plans. :’) Maybe. Depends on how they will develop~))

✤ I want to ship with you

((Well.. you know. You should feel super honored because with those two, so far, I could actually see it happen? But it would be a slow burn and yeah. :V They have great chemistry though!!))   

✥ I have roleplayed with you and it was great

((I agree. Our roleplays are definitely among the ones I enjoy the most right now. I don’t have that many to begin with but I love Thalessa, Sans and even Papyrus interactions so far!!))  

✢ I like your characters 

((Same goes back to you. <33))

✣ I like the way you express your muse(s) 

((And once again, same! <3 The musings you reblog really fit her character and make you feel for her.))

✦ I like seeing you on my dash 

((Same, I always get excited when I see your stuff, tbh. ^^; ))

✪ You seem like a cool person 

((... I’m not though. I’m kind of an asshole tbh. But thank you!))

❇ I love the way you write 

((; /// ; Thanks that helps. I really hate my recent writing. It’s nowhere as good as I used to be... so hearing that someone still enjoys it makes me happy. The same goes back to you, by the way. I do love your writing a lot!))

* I want to learn to know you

((Heheh. Same with you. But I’m really not that interesting. Mostly a disappointment when you get to know me better.))

@devotionoftheocean @syzygyofmuses

((Oh deer, since I am too lazy to copy all of these to make them quotable, I’ll just answer in one big chunk of text. My favorite thing to do. 

Anyway, thank you I loved roleplaying with you too! We did only a really short roleplay but it was fun and I totally want to do more sutff with your muses (as you already know anyway). 

I’m curious what it is that you are shipping though?? Our crack ship? :’D Tbh I kinda wanted to see where it goes. It was fun. 

And yeah I wish our characters were friends though, but my Sans is super picky who he considers his close friends so it really depends if they will click or not. Though I have a feeling they would, depending on which character we are talking about right now. :0 

Thank you, I like your muses too! I kinda even like them a bit better because they are either very creative depictions of Canon characters or complete OCs and I admire everyone who can do that. Personally, I can’t and yeah. I think I have told you these things before, too, but you know, complimenting too much (if it is honest) never hurt. :) 

And I’m glad you like the way I express the boi. I assume you mean my musings? Or just my shit posts ahaha XD.I like your stuff too. 

Hmm. Tbh I can see why you think he is underdeveloped. I stick to canon a lot and try to be very close to it, which kind of always limits some things I can do. However, I also would argue that I kind of know sans almost... too well??? And thus my development has kind of faltered a lot recently. In the beginning I wrote way more headcanons about things and now its just too obvious to me. xD Might sound weird but I can just go into “sans mode” and don’t need to think about it at all anymore. 

Either way, I would like to develop him more, but I also want to do it slow burn. So if a thread I have leads to character development, he will get that (for this thread, since my blog isn’t one verse). But for this I need some deep character interactions... and developmental things to happen. :(

Aaah makes me glad you agree because I know how picky you are with Sans depictions ;U ; I will wear it as badge of honor!! 

And your blogs are ALL my favs, even the ones I don’t know the fandoms of. But I love skimming through your stuff and I just enjoy seeing you on my dash in general. Even OOC, because your OOC stuff is very great most of the time. ;3 

Well as I mentioned above, I don’t think I’m cool and I’m pretty much an asshole, but thank you very much! I think you are a cool person too!! 

And as I stated above already... thank you for having confidence in me and my writing and idk if you want ot get to know me more bc i am very boring. XD But I do want to talk to you more. Aaanyway

Thanks everyone for having sent in something!! I love y’all.))

@fiflmegirrp

Gotham s5ep4 “Ruin” Personal Review

“There goes the element of surprise..”    Warning spoilers below (ahaha not this week, boy am I late, not that anyone would have missed this though, also little meta content this week)  

What I loved about the episode is that it´s the “apocalypse” and then it comes down to a crime scene investigation! I would take much more of that! Much more!  Just less of a bloodthirsty MOB. Like would they really want Zsasz hanged? The evidence was pretty clear, Jim Gordon really got no reason to lie to them, actually it would greatly benefit him if he did. Do they really not want to see the real culprit punished? I´m not a fan of lynch/mob law in general but does it make sense for the mob to want the wrong guy hanged, that way the police probably will think / claim everything is settled and call it a day, which means the real culprit is free to do that again, but then again I wonder how many people know about Zsasz and him having been a hitman, did some of them have had relatives that got into Carmine / Sal Maroni crossfire, was this partly a he´s a guilty filthy criminal *anyway* thing?  * “You don't need to smuggle in explosives when you can detonate 250 gallons of highly pressurized heating oil that's coursing through all the floors.”  Ah damn, they really had Edward Nygma do it, I kind of didn´t want them to follow that route. Also why put that running guy with bomb in there then, huh .. damn exploding herrings.  HOPE goes on and off this week:  “But whoever destroyed that building can't destroy the hope we've built. Not unless we let them.” “I told the people it was safe. I made them into a target.” “Jim, you gave 'em” “Don't tell me I gave 'em hope. They're dead.”  * It´s GOOD vs. EVIL “This city will never be what you want it to be, Jim. It's always gonna belong to the bad guys, like me.”  “People like you are always trying to own this city. But you never will.” * It´s GOOD ft. EVIL Oswald Cobblepot poses as if he was the synthesis of both those opposites: A bad guy that cares. “I lost people, too, Jim. People you lured with promises of safety and security, only to have them incinerated.”  Oswald arms the GCPD talking about working together just to take over and get his own trials and justice going. He´s claiming to provide what Jim can´t. While both Barbara Kean & Oswald Cobblepot claimed their help came no strings attached Oswald´s help does not include staying aside and letting them do their work. Although to be fair he said “Save for the one that we will cinch around the neck of the Haven bomber.” What is it with people that it always needs a couple hundred dead people that they can focus on nice things. Anyway everyone is appropriately appalled with this atrocity. They also gave all the villains some selfish reasons. OSWALD COBBLEPOT wants people and their cheers. EDWARD NYGMA wants the file of the inmate.  “I've been putting out feelers.” BARBARA KEAN is worried Sirens might be next, making her probably the least “selfish” one because she seems to care about the people that she protects and might not demand the same level of praise that Oswald does. (I know probably other things but unless canon proves me wrong I headcanon slightly differently) She feels hurt but understands Jim would suspect, even for a moment that she could be responsible for the destruction Haven. They slowly get her back on suitable for Jim Gordon to kiss track, which phu idk. I liked her and their relationship in S1,  but there´s just so much happened in between. And plenty in Barbara´s characterization I didn´t like so it´s nice to see her on a more reasonable track now but how about they just gave her an awesome relationship with Tabitha ........  Characterization questions aside I really loved that she did not and could not kill Oswald in the light of the explosion! That was a touching moment!  Also her outfit is nice, although they toned down the make up. And Jim gripping her arm during the kiss almost gives old timey movie vibes. I´m sure I don´t need to write on Babs / Oswald paralells, I assume I just can reblog better words on it from someone ..  * Also something tells me if JIM GORDON  had gotten that shoot out with VICTOR ZSASZ, that kiss would not have happened …… “Inmate number 1215 knows! Knows what???!!??!” Ha, distressed, puzzled, annoyed EDWARD NYGMA is a joy to watch. I don’t really have to say more on that. Edward snatching the blanket from the woman when walking into the GCPD makes me wonder, what would he have done if that woman hadn´t been there? Just walked in? Did he have a stupid disguise and was like, oh no wait that´s better.  He and LUCIUS FOX were a delight. Edward trying to snatch the file from him and run was wonderful! Him preening in pride when his expertise is wanted was delightful! Lucius claiming, he´ll deny having said the praise he gave Edward in the end, precious! Lucius playing him like a fiddle, and moving him with barely more than his fingertips, damn! Just that the whole thing was shot like when Ed pursued Kristen Kringle!  Their dynamic is just wonderful: “Impressive. Calculated the angle of incident to follow the trajectory through the window, into the fuel oil tanks.” “Yep. That, and the RPG case is right over there.”  * One thing that stressed me was Ed sending the Files flying around him on the rooftop. Like at that moment he didn´t yet know that the woman he saw in the window was connect to the note he put down on his hands. Even when the inmate was dead there could have been some hints in the file or who knows in hid grave. Like, no Edward! No! Go run and pick them up.  * Someone needs to do a Parallel Meta for 5x04 & 4x12  when Ed found out he hired the hit on Leslie Thompkins. * “I did not make that building go boom, Jim.”   Yeah, that´s a VICTOR ZSASZ line. Love him. * ““Hey, do you guys have any canned peaches? Man, I'd trade an arm and a leg for that right now. Not mine, somebody else's.” Food and cut off limbs, that´s another one. Love him. * And that one: “Do the math.  If I blew up a building full of people, I would have covered every inch of my body in sweet, sweet scars.  You guys want to do a strip search?” “I'd let Alvarez do it. He's handsome” * Him shooting Oswald´s head on the major poster after he said something was a great detail! * Him drinking while waiting for the bullet hail to stop as well. * I´m gonna make a post about the Gunman magazine that fell on the floor, after Jim tackled him so majestically ...  * Zsasz usurping the applause afterwards, and later was adorable. * “Is this about Sofia Falcone? Because you should really move past that. It's not healthy.” DOES HE KNOW SHE KILLED CARMINE, DOES HE OR DOES HE NOT ???? They had him express sympathy towards Carmine in Season 1, they showed that he cared when Carmine got killed. I get that he might abandon issues like that in the current environment but they can´t open up such a plotline and then just drop it. Does he know that Oswald didn´t kill Carmine? Like honestly .. I know it´s the Jim Gordon show but I would have loved it if Victor Zsasz just had saved himself!! I would have loved it even more if along the way they somehow figured out the whole misconception, Zsasz would recognize that Sofia and not Oswald is to blame and maybe even apologize. * But hey Oswald´s “Well said” about the mumbled last words was mean but awesome. * Soooo who went in the trashy local torture museum to get the guillotine? * How does Zsasz work? There where zero people shown around him. What is it like to live on Zsasz turf? * Zsasz mumbling must have been bewildered that they aren´t honouring the tradition of the last meal before an execution, like he got his order ready, that was the last silver lining, if he´s really going to face his end at the hands of penguin in those halls at least he´s going to get his teeth into something juicy and tasty before it happens ..  SELINA KYLE, (Bruce Wayne), JEREMIAH VALESKA, ECCO * Sykes and the Soothsayers digging a tunnel for Jeremiah Valeska. Is that poetic justice? Also is this a new tunnel, when the Soothsayers had the children dig it they went out of their way to state that their cruelty is even more infuriating because the whole endeavour is very likely futile.  Like they made it damn clear that the TUNNEL is not going to go anywhere. Also would Jeremiah, who made the bridges go boom want a tunnel that remedies that  issue partly? Only for himself? His cult? Is he doing something else altogether? Is it about what he can get into the city through it? Is he better at static issues and remedied the tunnel digging plan? Was he involved before?  * “Yes you certainly have set a very high bar - for devotion.” Fucker gave me an earworm, Ordo Rosarius Equilibrio & Spiritual Front - A Song 4 Hate and Devotion (live) I mean quite a fitting mood considering all the other portrayals of the Harley and Mr. Jay relationship, but maybe they give ECCO and JEREMIAH VALESKA a different path. Aside from that the little dance was slightly nice. * “Bruce Wayne and his sidekick Curls Or is he the sidekick?” Yes! Ecco got the right spirit. I wonder if Ecco sees herself as sidekick?  “You see, a river cuts through rock not because of its power, but because of its persistence.So what do we do when we feel like giving up?” “Dig a little deeper.” “And what do we do when we can't possibly go on any longer?” “Dig a little deeper.” “And what do we ..” “Deep enough?”  I´m afraid it was not deep enough, I´m afraid it was quite shallow because the show is not as clever as Ecco, I bet that he isn´t dead, if he was it if could have actually been just about her. Honestly, I would love that. All the BatJokes built up and then it´s about Selina. And she has plenty right for it to be about her, Jeremiah almost killed her. What else does it need.  * SELINA KYLE keeping in the shadows investigating, disguising herself as one of the people there, then getting close to Jeremiah dressed as Ecco: She´s good! She´s awesome! * That GCPD woman that was doing PAPERWORK when Ed sneaked into the building. Do they do regular paperwork? Cause damn, considering the governmental neglect if Jim got them to bother to do the regular paperwork he must have given one hell of a speech. Or is it paperwork related to organize a place like Haven? How do they do things? * Oswald destroying all strategy with a megaphone: “There goes the element of surprise.” * “Elevated position, back to the sun.” * “Never ever ask me to do anything like that again. Pull yourself together.” Harvey does not approve of Wild West Jim  * “ I know the wheels of justice turn slowly, so I'm here to provide - a modicum of grease.” / “I did not expect you to go soft, Jim. Actually, I did.”  / “By the power vested in me by well, me, I sentence you, Victor Zsasz, to die.”   * “One of the areas in which I excel is the loosening of tongues.” “No. He's mine”  Oh damn I thought Jim said “it´s mine” as in he´s better with interrogations. Well there goes my whole comparison with the Edward Nygma & Lucius Fox expertise quip:  “So, the second smartest man in Gotham needs my help.” “Explosives are not my expertise.”  “Didn't realize you had one.”  *“Jim Gordon cares more about protecting a murderer than he does about protecting you!” Okay look who is projecting ....