And then ppl have the audacity to wonder why i think of suicide 24/7 like idk mayb its bc of how useless im made to feel isk maybe just a thought

Haha there just playing among us

All of the design belongs to @bruhstation

This was based on a tag i wrote

"I used to be a lot more muscular... I can not believe it has only been two weeks since I started to bulk up!"

"These days my abs are coveren by this layer of fat, haha."

"I can't wait to stop this bulk, cutting back! My muscles would get so big!"

Later that day, he decided to have a big meal wanting to bulk up more...

"OOF... I am full. My belly... I feel kinda fat, haha!"

...also growing his belly more!

Even after he finished his meal, he got more food... it started with cookies, followed my ice cream and pancakes. Than milk, coke and more...

"OOF, that will be enough eating for today.... OOF... Time to go to bed, I will continue tomorow!"

It is only than, we he get to bed, he realises he didn't bulk up but fatten up! Not yet knowing what will happen next.

The next morning be wakes up, he feels something is different!

"I feel hungry, very hungry today. I could eat anything right now!"

So that is what he does!

He ate more than ever. Three times more than usual, or maybe even more!

After all this eating he sat down, comforting his big belly, rubbing and patting it.

While sitting down, he came to the conclusion he should have cut his bulk. Getting fit again was his plan to begin with, but it didn't sucseed!

"What am I doing, I am turning into a fatty. Stop this, and get to the gym! Time to make me fit again!"

That is easier said than done ofcourse! None of his clothes fit him anymore, he cant even fit his favorite pants anymore. He can't leave the house like this, so staying at home was his only option!

"Why... why does this happen to me! I can't even get to the gym!"

After some days he started to like his new belly, eating more everyday, playing with it, rubbing it! He was always ment to be like this, having a little belly...

Pictures are form @abs624 , thank you for these pictures and video's!

#bulk #gainer #bulkingup #belly #bellygains #fatty #fatbelly #bigbelly

Self-Aware BSD meet the Internet. Short № 1

Description: After BSD gang gain an acsess to the rest of your phone, they also gain the acsess to the internet and YouTube. Unknown to you, they accompany you while you serf the Internet.

Slight Crack. OOC. Slight Self-Aware! Nikolai Gogol x GN! Reader

[Y/N] are watching the video.

[Y/N]: Is that how Gogol become friends with Fyodor? Like... Dostoevsky does look like an introvert who was adopted by an extrovert Gogol.

Meanwhile, in your phone/ BSD Mayoi app.

Everyone is looking at Dostoevsky and Gogol.

Nikolai: *opens his mouth*

Fyodor: Don't you dare, Kolya. Don't you dare.

Nikolai: *when he decided, that it is worth it. Quotes a poem for children he found, while he was browsing an Internet by himself.* He is tattered, torn, and lame. Yet I love him just the same.

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For the next few days, you had, what you assumed, a Gogol shimeji running around your phone. It looked like he tried to 'enter' "BSD Mayoi App" but couldn't sucseed. For some reason, you couldn't turn it off. You decide, that it was a bug. Mini Gogol didn't bother you, so you left him alone.

Between his attempts to launch the application, he tried to get your attention by performing magic tricks and doing tricks with "The Overcoat". You clapped, when he did it.

When shimeji dissapeared (when Fyodor realised, that you start paying more attention towards Nikolai, so he drag Gogol back to the game app), you had new note in "Notes" app.

"Thank you for been a great audience, Birdy [Y/N]. Until my next performance"

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A/N: Gogol quotes a poem by Agnia Barto, a Soviet poet and children's writer. Full poem in English:

Teddy

On the floor lies tiny Teddy

Half a paw is gone already.

He is tattered, torn, and lame.

Yet I love him just the same.

By Agnia Barto

AITA for being mad at my dad for getting married without telling me (and for learning this information by reading my mom's diary?)

My (20NB) parents got divorced when I was six, my brother and I stayed in our home country with our mom and my dad moved to the US. My mom always tried her best, but nevertheless she was... not a very good mom. She was always busy with work (raising two disabled kids by yourself isn't easy after all) so when she came home she was always tired and angry and would yell at us, break our toys, etc. She also had a very strict and discipline focoused parenting style which, combined with me being autistic and her finding that unacceptable, didn't make for a very happy experince growing up. She has worked on her issues a lot and we get along much better these days, but I still can't trust her with most things.

My dad is a diffrent story. He honestly can be very selfish and irresponsible a lot of the time. He was never around even when they were married, he didn't pay child support afterwards (even though he was financially in a much better situation than my mom), and also might have cheated on my mom at some point (I'm not sure?) He would come and visit us two or three times a year, and he was my favourite parent when I was a kid, because unlike my mom he was actually nice to us and would take us to the park and bring us nice toys and candy and stuff we couldn't find in our own country. But he also always had very high expectations of me and put me under a lot of pressure to sucseed, even though he never actually did his job as a parent and basically tried to buy our affection with vacations and gifts. We still keep in touch regularly, but I don't tell him anything important about my life.

Both of my parents also always had a habit of hiding important stuff from me. They didn't actually tell me they were getting a divorce until three years after it happened. They also never told me about the autism diagnosis I got when I was five, leaving me to find this out myself by digging through my medical records (I knew I was autistic beforehand, but didn't know I was already formally diagnosed.) There are many more examples, but these are the big two that come to mind. As a result I developed a habit of not trusting what my parents told me and always snooping around to try and find out yhings on my own. Recently I had an inkling that my dad might have gotten married in the US. There were a lot of signs: my dad at one point saying that his marital status "had nothing to do" with my mom, my mom constantly aluding to some sort of secret my dad was keeping, my dad calling someone on the phone when he was with us and using names like "love" and "sweetie" for that person... a few fays ago I was alone at home and saw my mom's diary, and even though I knew it was wrong, couldn't resist the urge to read it in search for some answer. And... yep. My dad's married. He's been married for more than a year, and my mom knew. He never bothered to bring it up for more than a year. And, frankly, I'm pissed. I'm so upset and angry. And I'm also angry at myself, because obviously my dad is allowed to marry whoever he wants and it's none of my business. But... he never told us. And I wish he had. I wish I had gotten a chance to meet or at least talk to his new wife, instead of getting this information suddenly dumped on my head like this. He never was a real dad, and yet he has such high expectations of me, to the point that I chose my major with only one goal to make him proud of me... and yet he couldn't care enough about me to mention once, in the past year, that he was married. And I feel extra horrible about myself because, like, I blatently ignored my mom's privacy by reading her diary. I don't know what to do, I feel like I can't trust anyone about anything anymore, and I don't know if I should tell anyone about the fact that I know this (or tell my brother about our dad being married). I just feel so full of hurt and rage, and I know I shouldn't feel like this cause I'm not entitled to my dad's life, and I know it's my own fault for readimg something I shouldn't have. So... am I the asshole?

What are these acronyms?

(@joltik-guy)

Hey Dops. How do you cope with the feeling that the whole world is against you- and literally no one wants you to sucseed? You don't have to answer this- I just feel like you- get it sometimes. Or at least more than anyone else.

Yeah........ Yeah so far I've just been trying harder to be better. I don't know what that better is, but I'm trying. And I cry a lot. That helps. But otherwise I'm in no way qualified to give good advice, sorry Tik. I just don't really cope that well

I think the reason why "loser" works for me is because it obviously works for Angel!

TW mentions of abuse

Also, i rushed this, i Just needed to get it off my chest

Even when he at first thinks he's being insulted

His reaction ISNT "OMG😭😭😭😭"

But rather "the FAK🤨😡"

Angel is only offended cuz he thinks he should be. Its more cuz it seems Husk is saying some cheap, meaningless word to him while trying to make his point.

He's been called way WAY worse

And even so, he still kinda enjoys being called things like 'slut', 'whore' and everything else when it is like praise(or at least that what we saw)

What hurts him is when Someone uses it as a reason/excuse to hurt him, abuse him or say he's less of a person. It hurts when a label becomes who he is.

But Husk is saying none of that. He's saying, yes, thats a part of what he is, but it isnt that big of a deal.

And just like all those other names, once he realises its just another silly label, he likes it. Because this one is about being just like everyone else there in hell.

If anything, being like everyone else is what he needs. Cuz why would he be worthless if he's just like everyone else? How can he be exploted for it if he isnt anything new or special?(we know he is a famous pronstar in hell for a reason. He is Val's number one victim for. A. Reason. The reason being that he is a "special little doll" everyone wants to have.)

He was never mad about being a loser(he had bigger problems) but now.... He is happy about it.

Ffs, even Charlie is an obvious loser(DONT TRY TO DENY IT) and he still cares about her and is glad he met her. He defenetly wishes for her project to sucseed in a way. Not to bring him to heaven, but to be his safe place.

And REMINDER: Husk doesnt know about Angel's SA at this point so the song is not about that. Rather about his sould being owened by an overlord and his addiction. Thats very important!

İ can barely contain my excitement for Turkey's independence finally being 100 years old!

Did you know that Turkey is one of the first countries to give women the right to vote?

As well as Atatürk personally going to villages and encouraged women to go to school and be active members of society!

His surname wasn't given by himself, it was given by the people of the nation he saved, which quite literally means ancestor of the turk.

He also researched turkish history beside the muslim ones and got the nation back on its feet, he couldn't even have a child of his own since he was so busy with Turkey, he loved children and visited schools often, even gave 23rd of April to the children of the whole nation and the world! To him, children were the future and everything there can be.

It's thanks to him that i am not speaking English as my language right now, my gratefulness to his existence cannot be understood by the words I may tell you.

İ know you would be proud to see the country you left standing for a century, hopefully it will last even longer than that and in each your name will he on the tongues of your people, you'll forever be the leader of this nation!

"theres two versions of Mustafa Kemal, one is me, my blood and my bones, the one will pass, the other, i cannot explain as 'me', it's not me, its us! He is the one that gives new ideas, life and the ones that fight for this great country! İ am symbolizing their dreams. my efforts is to symbolize their efforts. That Mustafa Kemal is you, all of you! The Mustafa Kemal thats eternal, the one that must sucseed and keep on living "

-Mustafa Kemal ATATÜRK

Yaşa Mustafa Kemal Paşa yaşa!

Adın yazılacak mücevher taşa!

Yaşa Mustafa Kemal Paşa yaşa!

Adın yazılacak mücevher taşa!

She’s here! The magical girl of victory! Based on my other OC Nike who I based on (you guessed it) the goddess/entity from Greek mythology. You can find her original design right here. 

Who is she in the madoka universe? What is her biography? well:  Nike’s wish was to protect the “love of her life.” Whom doesn’t even know that she exists. She will always be there, looking after him from the sidelines. She is OK with him never knowing that she exists, as long as he is happy. She protects, and will make sure the world is a better place. Free from suffering, and most of all, witches. wether or not she sucseeds in this is a different story however.

After seeing that her soulgem was getting clouded, she decided to seek help in Kamihama, the city that had been said to protect all magical girls.

How does her weapon work? It’s a spear, but it can shoot magical feather shards that can damage the enemy.

Toyhouse page

IM TURNING IT AROUND. I HAVE IDEAS. IM FIXING IT. IM GONNA SUCSEED

Your hc is totally valid ! I mostly think of chihiro as genderfluid so they alternate between many pronouns. ((I agree other hcs are also valid)Taka is.. interesting to Say the least PBPBPB

Genderfluid chihiro is sooooooooooooo valid tho, so much respect💗🤍💜🖤💙

As for Taka, he became my favorite the moment he started yelling (witch was probebly his first line honestly). He's just super straightforward and wears his heart on his sleeve, and I just kept finding myself wanting him to sucseed.

I just think he's neat<3

Aww I was really hoping that pun would sucseed

hwa- stop. nooo, that's terrible. god. what kind of chat environment am i cultivating here??

It's done! After almost 10 years and after the sucsees of the hit song Euphoria. The Queen is back and I actually think that Sweden can have a great chance to win the whole Eurovision this year. Keep your fingers crossed for Loreen in May. 🤞🎶

Have you ever seen the long youtube interview about the "Pink Lady" aka this womans entire life and personality revolve around the fact she is OBSESSED with the color pink. She even went as far as to use beet root dye on her lil white chihuahua or pomerarian looking fucker- still cute though.

ANYWAYS

Would you rather pick one color and have it consume your entire life or never wear a speck of color again (black and white are allowed, basically requirement to be fully emo the rest of your life- like to the grave)?

You can of course fix this by offering your soul to a contract with a devil (not demon- my DM assures me theres a big difference) you then gotta complete a quest to regain your soul. but in the meantime your free to dress however tf you want.

Fail the quest, your soul belongs to the devil- and you will be in hell in all yellow or B&W etc OR you sucseed and your free to wear whatever your mortal heart pleases.

So-

Do we have a deal? :)

a devil not The Devil?? hmm curious

i love a good bit of variety in my outfits so ill be offering up my soul thanks-

my question is what’s the task…?

I had to go to like. A group where autistic students meet other autistic people on a weekly basis. To be like. Connected and shit. It was really small. And we were asked How are we dealing with "the war". The answers kind of made my blood boil. I was trying desprately not to say anything that will have consequences. Cause I am a coward. I didn't even sucseed in that.

Source wants me to bring this to your attention

Ya'll know i'm not crazy right?! Do you dare embark on the journey into your mind far enough the shit might actually CLICK and make sense?! No no that's too hard, the ego says, she might expose us, the real us. She might figure us out and then call us out on it. It's too risky. GUESS WHAT? I ALREADY KNOW YOU! I am you. Even though the human mind is a scared little bitch and proves this fact over and over again beyond logical time and space. People still insist on aligning with the mind as if it is who they are. Proud of the logical equations constantly working like a Gawd Damn sweat shop factory with no windows for air. If this is the case for you reading this, stick around. Know one deserves to live in the MIND HELL, believing there is knowwhere else and that this is it. This is who I am, this dull fucking idiot whos mind never stops over analiyzing everything, driving me and the peole around me crazt becaaus im a spaz about everything under the sun and am ALWAYS uncomfortable.

Do you know why you are uncomfortable at all times?... The reason is due to the lack of authentic connection and concept of self. Your mind has doe it's mission well. It has overworked gathering information, calculating human behavior and response. Forever figuring ways to sucseed at getting what you want. the job, car, partner, financial security etc. It knows how to read others and respond in reaction to what you perceive that other people want from you in that moment in order to fullfill this ultimate goal of what ever it is. There is no authentic response from the human mind slave. There is only ego. There is only fear of not getting what you want and being alone. WHen in actuality you are already alone in your own mind identifing with the stupid off topic shit it spits out for no gawd damn reason over and over. There is no lonliness worse in existence. To act and be like what you thing others want and like is true lonliness and ignorence of self. Alianation Of spirit is the full alignment with mind as if you are it and it is you. Arguably the most fucked place of existence one could ever experience and come out on the other side of awareness still in the same human body. Believing you are a human body experiencing self as mind with only this ONE LIFE TO LIVE. You only get ONE! You only live once! I cringe evertime I hear that bull shit come out of someones mouth. The level of ignorence and lack of basic awareness is frightening.

But dont run away and threaten to kill yourself for attention just yet! I am able to provide nuggets of expansion that just might do the trick and initiate a deeper level of awareness and understanding to this experience you find yourself living. In this body you most likely fell trapped in.

People like this grow into adults from a most likely childhood of strict religious values and no permittence of self suffiency. Not as a woman or child and even if we are talking about a young boy. He still was permitted to do as he was told, dont ask questions, do as your told. The root of narcissism. The breeding and recreating of narsacistic people roaming the Earth, fucking up everyhting around them just like there parents did and there parents did and the ones before that and so on. Narsasicim is a generational consequence of continued stupidity and alighnemt with the ego mind as self. Organized religions and the bull shit they make people do in order to be worthy of their gods acknowledgment is inexcusable. The level of manipulation is monumental. What makes this disease called organized religion exceptionally treturous is that these ass holes are considered the norm. Its easier for most people to just give in and conform to what eeryone else is doing just in an effort to stay out of confrontation. It takes a lot of courage to think for oneself. It takes a people of wise intention to speak up to their authentic experiences exposing the manipulation and control being acted upon the masses.

Religion indoctrinates the masses to operate fully in agreeence that the mind of a human is the identity of the human. You are your mind and only God has the power to be anything and everything else. You better not attmept to play God or you will be punished. Tisk tisk tisk. The way that people actually fall for and spend generation asfter generation worshiping this trauma bonded behavior is mind blowing to me. People are so afraid of the unknown that they have to be given laws to not cross so they can rest at night knowthing that when their time comes, they will go to heaven. The problem is , the restrictions are in humane and and dehumanizing. Everyone is fucking up on the low but not saying anything becaseu they dont want to be outcasted. This causes an even deeper level of denial of oneself needs and wants, which has the tendancy to create literal monstors due to the energy explosion no longer controllable due to lack of proper guidance, connction with the true spirit and soul and flat out fear.

One of my deepest desires for the collective experiencing human life on Earth is for the massess to wake up to the way they have been manipuated out of their life force energy, their freedom of thought and will and most importantly stripped of their right to be the GOdly badd ass they were meant to be but insted deprive themselves due to fear taktics.

The most important point to all of this is, this was all designed to be exactly the way that it is. Is a program installed and on repeat in most humans until the crack the program, see it for what it is and ascend onward down their journey. Eventually everyone will have ascended onward and beyond the manipulation of the organized crime rings calling themselves diciples of God and claiming religious rights to ruin the lives of innocent people stuck in generational cyclical hell. All to feed their ego, live fully in greed and power getting off on fulling the masses into thinking all this religious bull shit is actually the truth. When anyone tricks you out of the ability to think for yourself and question authority, its a SCAM POINT BLANK PERIOD. The people running these religions cant even live up to their own expectations and instead of owning it and taking responsibity for theirself , they'd rather lie to look good (EGO) which digs an even deeper hole which causes an energetic reaction and inbalance with awareness of the mind and its utter nonsense, they then entertain their currupt mind becaseu they think thats who they are driven by uncontrolable intrusive thoughts from their own child hood and the trauma of denying themselves the right to basic love and desire to grow. This is how so many priests molest children. Their energy is so blocked and in denial of self, molesting the innocent in hopes they are too young to tell or thinking they have authority over the victims and will never be found out.

As I'm writing this I am being made aware that there is something way more horrific and problematic going on within the catholic church. How they allow their priest and pope even to be accused and proven guilty of child molestation but then nothing is done about it. This feels like a normality to their culture. It's like they were raised by pedophiles and are proud to be one just like their dad. It's something sick and sinister like that but instead of reveling their real identity and owning who they really are and what their really about, they lie and do nothing becaseu they are so seemingliy untouchable that they just continue on like nothing happened. Thats because to them nothing tragic did happen, its just another day of ruining innocent peoples lives for their own shits and giggles.

It's sick and such people need to be brought to justice and exposed for who they really are. THen the people can make an informed dicision on wether or not they want to be involved with a person of that nature. SInce this doesnt happen, the massses stay confused and stick to what they know out of fear and pure laziness to change their reality becasue whats the point? I am not alloud to want nice things or live in luxury, thats reserved for God which I am not so whats the point, its like they dont want to tease themselves becasue then they will fuck up. which will be the end of the forsean world, or is it a door opening to show you the truth in effort to ignight the drive to be unique and stand out, live life and be you.

This is all I want for everyone stuck in any religious indoctrination or cult stripped of their forseen free will in a free world. My advise is do not give up, see things for what they are, decide for yourself if you are 100% comfortablbe with the people and situaltions going on around you. If your not 100% in it, then plan courageously have patience and escape permanately. Sanctualry awaits you where you have unlimited lives to live and choice in everything. Forgivness is a true thing expanding from the hearts of those who have forgiven themselves. Your GOdly existence awats you to arrive and come to accept and embrace the power you hold from with in that has been stollen from your innocense. If you need help, there is assistence all around you. Be sure to look for what you want and need, the Univers provies the rest. Always rememebr you are always safe , protected and Divinely Guided , this was all apart of the planned programming you chose to incarnate into in order to have the first hand experience, no matter how hard that pill is to swallow. You are in control, co creating with Source consciousness and the perceived collective we call humanity. Dont be afraid, what you have experience through indotrination is the trauma. End the trauma now.

If you are truly in need/want of assistence of removing yourself from the kind of situations I spoke about in this article, know that you are not alone and I am here for you. Reach out and I will assist in any way possible. You are stronger than they permitted, they dimmed your light in order to manipulate you into thinking they were the light keepers and you needed them in order to earn it back.

Lindsey Latham

Psychic Medium

Founder

Alchemystic Creatives LLC