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#I DONT CARE IT SUCKS AND CHEATING TURNS ME OFF SO BAD
cowboy-robooty · 2 months
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watched brokeback mountain yesterday.... mid as fuck. i think it wouldve played out a lot better if the main characters were yuri and jimmy from yarichin bitch club. do u see my vision?
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azure-cherie · 4 months
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PAC :
What's in your store for January
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Pile 1 -3
Hello love's hope you had a very happy and fruitful new year , I'm praying for the happiness and well being of all of us one more year together I'm so grateful for each one of youuu
Please choose using your intuition and take what resonates
If you'd like a personalized reading for new year
Paid readings , paid readings 2 , masterlist
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Pile 1 :
First of all what are you guys even dealing with good lord The energy is pretty heavy , I will not be surprised if you have prominent Saturn in your charts this month I believe you are dealing with karmic cycles , Things ending in general, you might be a bit shaken up soon something you thought never would happen will happen
I'm sensing career or home sector fights could be there as well as inner conflicts beware and take precautions don't get too caught up about what others have to say rather choose your own story this also indicates you might soon take a stand for yourself its really required something has to come to an end because the time is over now you are to urge for more ! Financially! Abundance is written for you this time your creativity will pay off I know you like you play with fire but remember life moulds you like a clay some fire glazes some melts you gotta choose your own battles why do I feel like I'm talking to myself lol .
You will understand the worth of spontaneous plans soon sometimes you gotta do stuff for the sake of doing it and you just gotta act wild just be careful about the fact that everyone you go out with isn't a friend every co worker doesn't mean good for you learn to see through people's mask ! Theres one video by persephonesmind its perfect she explains it really well , followed by ten of swords some of you might experience a rock bottom moment however it isn't for everyone but with the world be assured you will pick yourself up this might seem like a bad ending but it's a good one or turn out to be good it's a matter of time bae anyone who tries to play you cheat on you will be ashamed themselves because they will see the purity in your heart .towards the end of the month I see some enemies becoming friends.
Pile 2 :
You're a bad bitch period !! This month is about embodying the best version of yourself move on despite the snakes around you ignore the people you're gonna be investing on something that is worth it it's a sign ! Friendships are something you will be blessed this month new and old you will also actively let go of a fear of yours I heart heights and abandonment issues.
If you're looking for commitment from someone it will be given this month like engagements marriage yay social media fame is also written there would be more family functions to attend to I see more active energy in this pile. You will understand the worth of standing alone and work your intuition through difficult situations .Your dreams might be a clear indicator of something also I feel you're making someone cry or someone is making you cry ask advice from someone who's been there in your situation you can also ignore if the situation isn't as important I also feel ignorance energy I guess it's good because you're also healing from abandonment issues .
You'll be doing some course on money management or get advise from your elders on your resources. Sometimes we make our own problems dont get sucked into that take time but let your loved ones know that you need it ! Also you really need that money management advice as you might end up losing something but I also don't think it will he a bad loss ! Sometimes sacrifices are necessary you might understand the worth of small losses now but that will protect from bigger issues later.
Pile 3 :
I don't dress for women I don't dress for men lately I've been dressing for revenge! That's your main mood this January you're gonna show everyone who didn't believe in you what you're capable of you're going new heights reaching new goals making new ways I'm so proud of you
You have struggled a lot to do this actions manifesting you are getting closer to what you want , might fetch yourself a new leadership position this month you're gonna be an example an epitome of grown beside the struggles because you're so ready to work despite all the sneaking going on behind your back you're gonna be doing the thing needed to defeat your enemies you will undergo momentary defeat and might cry for a while because you might feel all forces are against you this is the time to pour into your inter child
When trauma shows up remember to shadow work nothing ever goes away one needs to heal with it don't get swayed away with temptations and fake promises I heard devil is strong but so is the knight know that your emotional strength will lead you through this you have to be more intune with your emotions but also lead with logic it's a hard balance to learn but once you're on it you become undefeated and you will be I'm so sure about that.
Thank you so much for reading
Have a great day/night ahead ❤️
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poppy-metal · 5 months
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procrastinating like crazy dont tell my bio professor but but i raise to yoy ... upperclassman!jordan who's in some of your classes--who you aren't reaallyy friends w but it's sort of implied that they r there for you bc they always seem to end up coming to ur rescue when creepy guys hit on u at parties 🙄 because your scumbag bf is probably too busy playing beer pong with his bros. it's not like you and jordan go out of ur way to hang out w each other but you know they care about you at least a tiny bit !!
and it just so happens they live in the same building as aforementioned bf. n when you and he get into a fight--a big one, bad enough to leave tears streaming down your cheeks n your hands fisted at your sides--and you just want to get away from him, their door is the one u end up knocking on. sniffling when they open it up, barely having time to open your mouth around a meek "'m sorry." before they're gripping your chin, painstakingly gentle, eyes panicky. "hey- what happened? you're not hurt, are you?" and their tone, the way they touch you, everything--js makes you feel so much better :( hiccuping out "can i come in?" and they aren't gnna say no 🙄
make sure everything's okay, that he didn't hurt you, get you a drink n everything before sitting on the edge of their bed. you pacing, ranting abt dookieface bf between sniffles 😔 all "i just- i don't know who he thinks he is. i know i'm not perfect, whatever, but--i'm nice to him!! i mean, for fuck's sake, i'm pretty cute, too. nd he just- he doesn't care about me. i don't know what i did wrong." jordan mumbling out "hey, c'mere." bc your voice breaks w the last sentence and you're crying all over again :( wrap you up in their arms, hand coming up to hold the back of your neck. "you didn't do anything wrong, freshie. he's just an asshole." n they don't say it but they're fantasizing abt allll the ways they could kill him 🤗
and you pull back, wiping your cheeks w the back of your hand. "don't think he likes me, jordan. he ignores me nd--he's probably cheated on me a million times. it's like i don't mean anything to him--he can't--won't even make me cum." and jordan raises an eyebrow at that one. n you're quick on the defensive, "'s just- i don't know. don't even think he tries." and booy have u piqued their interest. you're just digging yourself a hole, unable to stop ur words from spilling out. "he- he was my first. ever. and it's like that meant nothing to him." taking a step back n mumbling out, "i'm sorry. that was too much, i just... i should probably go, anyways." as if they would ever let you 🙄 especialky after that lil confession.
n you're still close enough that they can grab your hips, pull you back towards them all gentle. "'s that why you came here, hm?" soft smirk on their face at the way you flush, stumbling over your words, your excuses--gripping your chin to shut you up. "shh. he's an asshole, baby, i know." when they stand up and turn you around, hands moving to your waist to sit you on their bed. your big eyes looking up at them, your shaky little voice when you whisper out, "jordan..." them pushing your legs apart so they can step between them :( grabbing at your thighs, leaning in so you can feel their hot breath on your ear when they whisper, "what is it, little girl? need me to make you cum, hm?" nddd you know it's wrong but you r nodding :( a little bit frantically :( and zoo wee mama are you in for it!! bc they csll jordan pussy destroyer for a reason!!!
too dleepy to proofread anf also my demons possessed me and. couldnt fight them off but ❤️❤️ love u poppy!!
-🦸‍♀️
grabs u by the shoulders and shakes u
breath catching n tears teetering on your lashes your mouth dropping in a perfect O when jordan pushes your thighs apart. their ringed hands sliding up your stocking clad thighs is enough to suck all the air out of the room and you're already panting by the time you let words tremble out, "b- be gentle, please?" because your boyfriend - ex - has always been rough meaty hands grabbing at you in ways that never made you feel small in a good way, more like a poorly treated chew toy. dry digits shoving in your cunt - pumping once, maybe twice, before calling it enough.
jordan chews on their lip, to you it looks like contemplating; but jordans just hiding a grin. you're such a little fawn, they think. stumbling on shaky legs from the jaws of a bear into the den of a fox, because it looks kinder. but jordans still has fangs and they still want to eat you up. the difference, they guess, is that they actually want you to enjoy yourself.
nothing feels quite as good to their ego than a cute girl squeezing the life out of their fingers with their cunt.
"you've been with bad men, not only that, but one who by the looks of it - can't lay pipe for shit." their hands soothe up your thighs higher, fingers hooking into the edge of your panties under your skirt. "we'll get you sorted, princess."
you think they'd slide your panties down but they dont. you jolt, though when you feel the bare brush of their knuckle against the slick folds of your cunt as they skim their fingers down the edges of your panties. they hook the fabric to one side.
their eyes flick up to yours, "have you ever been with a woman before?"
your shake your head, biting your lip. something flashes in jordans eyes. "you good with me eating you out like this?"
you feel your face flush but you're quick to nod. "yes." you rush to say, "um. youre very pretty."
jordan smiles then. something in their gaze softens, just a little. "thank you, baby." with their free hand they pat one of your knees, nudging it open - "spread for me? there you go -"
nawing on your lip as you spread your thighs shyly, you cant help but eagerly look at jordans reaction to seeing your cunt. the way their eyes darken immediately. they bite their own lip, silky hair falling around their cheek as they shuffle closer.
"fuck." they say. still holding your panties to the side, still just looking. "shit. i need to-" their eyes dart to your face, "was gonna rizz you up some more but i really fucking need to eat you out -"
your head falls back when they cut themselves off like they can't help it, can't talk anymore, the draw between your legs to intense, and their head is between your thighs and you feel the soft wet heat of their lips around your tight little bud and its so fucking good - already better than anything you've had. jordans so earnest - they fucking love eating pussy, you can tell. the way they move their tongue, like their kissing it - sucking your lips, licking between them, swirling around your clit. dipping in and out of your weeping hole.
your hands fist the sheets - you dont even remember your exes name.
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bebx · 8 months
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hi im so sorry but i need to get this off my chest and i cant talk to my friends about it because its so embarrassing and ive talked about it PLENTY
but anyway long story short i was dating someone, we have a weird history dating wise & have been best friends for 3+ years before that all started. literally three weeks ago we decided to be exclusive, on friday i found out that the day before, he kissed another girl IN PUBLIC. i know that girl, they've hooked up before (when i was also hooking up with him but it wasn't anything really and i didn't actually know for sure if they were hooking up (they were)). so we called it quits.
i still spent the weekend bc i'm weak and all i want is him. he said he never felt a connection like this with anyone, he said he loved me and he said he was sorry a hundred times..... he said it would take a long time before he'd feel 'normal' about me. we were both emotional when i left, and since then i havent really stopped crying lol
AND NOW. i dont know if im just driving myself crazy but i feel like he's (still) (again?) talking to that one girl and it would make sense because he basically cheated on me not even a week ago so why wouldnt he do this now??? but. it feels too cruel. but maybe thats just who he is.
god i hate this so much he drives me completely mad im stalking his every move and every time i see something that even slightly hints at my suspicions i get so ill and it makes me wanna kms. i just wanna feel normal i hate that he did this to me i miss him so bad. i know we literally shouldn't ever get back together again because this is just a fraction of the shit thats happened in the past 10 months, BUT I ONLY WANT HIM. and i feel like we're soulmates. BYEEEEE this is so humiliating. im so tired i just want it to end
hugging you so tight right now, anon!!! 🩷🩷🩷 so sorry you have to go through something like this. I can’t say I know exactly how you feel, because each person experiences this type of pain differently, but I do know it just super sucks when the person who hurts us and the person we want to hate turns out to be the one we love the most. sometimes our hearts can be stubborn just like that (it all would’ve been so easy if we could convince ourselves to stop caring and to being able to fully hate them and moving on, but it’s never that easy, sadly). I can’t tell you what to do or how to react to the pain you feel, but know that your pain is valid and how you feel / how you react / how you cope with that pain, that’s valid too. and you are not weak for being hurt when someone wronged you, especially when it’s someone you trusted. I know this is cliche and is so much easier said than done, but please also be kind to yourself, above anything else. that boy and the girl he cheated on you with, they don’t deserve you. they lost you, not the other way around. think of this as an opportunity for you to open yourself to someone else who truly loves and values you, whether it be romantically or platonically. I know right now you just want him, but if the wrong person can make you love him this bad, imagine how much happier you’ll be when you finally find the right one who can make you love them the same way you loved him, if not more, the only difference is that they won’t break your heart. and you deserve to be happy. that someone is out there, and I truly believe you both will find each other when the time is right. but for now, try loving and being gentle to yourself even if it’s hard (I know it can be hard, but at least give it a try), the best revenge is to prove to them that you don’t need them to be happy and that you can heal from this and thrive without them in your life. doesn’t matter how long it takes, but you will get there one day, and you will look back and be so damn proud of yourself for how far you’ve come. because hey, look at you, you are still here, and for that, I am so damn proud of you!!
it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be completely broken, because the thing about crying and being broken is that it’s not permanent, even if it feels like it right now.
and by the way, the ones who should feel humiliated are him and that girl, not you. screw it if they deserve each other. YOU deserve so much better than that anyway.
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thegeminisage · 5 months
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okay i have TEN MINUTES to type out my thots about the last two tng eps i watched. day before yesterday was a surprise watch of "the icarus factor" together and last night i did "pen pals"
the icarus factor: i have nnnnever been more angry IN my entire life. riker's dad sucks so bad he sucks SO BAD
that being said the episode was horrifically sloppy. it could have been a must see but it was all over the place and committed so many crimes
firstly, i dont understand the point of offering riker a promotion in this episode when 1. he already canonically turned down a promotion to be here and 2. it didn't tie into his daddy issues in any way whatsoever
also, why did they have his dad DATE THIS DOCTOR LADY? not only is that extremely uncomfortable for everyone involved (can you imaaaagine your parent bringing home a coworker or vice versa seeing a coworker show up at work with your parent) but it ALSO served no function - pulaski didn't tell us anything about riker's dad that he didn't know and we didn't know
it also used up basically all of my goodwill that had been generated re: pulaski. she really is just a knock-off bones and she's actually so boring because of that and even her dating riker's dad and being a chronic divorcee didn't make her interesting. sigh. once again i'm sorry women.
i also don't understand worf's b-plot being about his ten year (although wesley trying to get them both into the dead dad club was HILAAARIOUS and maybe the most i've ever liked wesley so far, i'm allowed to say this since i'm also in the club). i feel like worf's >:( should have been something to do with riker's daddy issues either a disapproval of his parenting or a lack of understanding of why it's bad parenting or SOMETHING bc that needed to be the whole episode and the b plot was just so ??? like it's a b plot i would have enjoyed in a diff ep but not this one
and finally, after ALL of that, after outlining in detail what a shitty person riker's dad is, how he felt the need to compete with his own child who he was also emotionally and physically neglecting so much so that he CHEATED and felt proud for it, how he never put anything before his career, AND
AFTER HE SAID
"IT WASN'T AS HARD FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU WERE IN DIAPERS WHEN SHE DIED"
WHICH MADE ME SO ANGRY I ALMOST BLACKED OUT
the man didn't even apologize. the word "sorry" never left his mouth he just told his shitty sob story and that was it. they yelled some japanese at each other while doign this martial arts thing and will was like glad you came pops and they hugged and that was the end. and also he didn't take the promotion because we knew he wouldn't. girl come ON.
pen pals: the first half of this episode sucked real bad. picard and the horses was awful and i don't think he should be allowed to say the word "allah" on television
wesley getting his own command...eh. it was fine and he hasn't been nearly as annoying in s1 as he was in s2 but i don't care so i was tapping my watch and waiting to get to the ACTUAL episode. it was so tedious to watch everyone argue about his mental wellbeing and future or whatever. who cares. he shouldn't even be here there should not be children aboard starships
i liked the part with data's pen pal BUT i also think he knows better than to violate the prime directive like that. if he slipped and did it once and then confessed that'd be one thing but 8 weeks?? he wouldn't fucking say that
i was also ??? when he beamed her up and didn't leave her in the transport room...idk, i like that he has feelings, and she WAS cute if a little uncanny (the voice filter sounds like the one tumblr used in that one interview lol), but it seems like if you wanted an episode About Data he could have fugured out that third answer of how to both save her and obey the prime directive, instead of getting yelled at and/or ignored by picard and then picard doing it. (man when picard asked for tea first from the replicator while data was trying to get his attention...)
at least pulaski was nice to him i guess :/
tonight, "q who," which will sadly probably have q in it, but at least i get to meet the BORG. at long last...................................
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MAC!!! GOOD EVENING!!!!!! im thinking soo hard abt interesting fairytale things rn but also. i would LOVE to hear abt ur danny phantom thing?(images aren't loading for me but i think? graphic novel? normal novel?? 👀) ??????!!!! i'm peripherally interested in dp on the basis that my beloved mutual (u) is into it & im!!!! curious!!!! whys it so good!!!! tell me!! free infodump card for u 👀👀👀
THIS ASK IS A MISTAKE. BEWARE. FUCK. DUDE I COULD TALK ABOUT DANNY PHANTOM FOR SO LONG IM NOT EVEN KIDDING IVE GOT . NEARLY 20 YEARS WORTH OF LOVE FOR THIS SHOW. I AM 23 YESRS OLD. THATS HOW SERIOUS I AM . IM.*THE* DANNY PHANTOM GUY THERES A REASON ALL OF MY USERNAMES ARE DP REFERENCES. ohhhh my god. where do i even fucking start. i guess ill start with agit but im still so overwhelmed with love that i have not fully processed yet so prepare for this to be a total fucking mess of words
so. the show ended in.. 2007. and. god the last episode sucks so fucking bad. bad enough that the fandom as a whole collectively agrees it does not exist it never happened . phantom planet isnt real phantom planet cant hurt you if you dont look at it or think about it ever. i could go on a whole. rant about how much phantom planet sucks but instead ill just say butch hartman (<< creator of the show) is a fucking. annoying awful person and he was greedy + wanted more money from nickelodeon than they were willing to give him so they gave him a hard limit on episodes before the shoe would be canceled. so. season 3 goes downhill SO fast and ends with the fucking disaster that is phantom planet . and !!! you know how disappointing it is to have your facorite show have a garbage ending!! it sucks!! so then there was like. a HUGE HUGE long silence where there was. 0 canon content bc hartman considered it a flop and kind of just. abandoned it until he wanted clout (there were a few gameboy games that came out after the show ended + some nickelodeon games that included danny as a character + butch made a youtube channel where he would spout absolute death of the author garbage about the show every time he wanted attention but it was mostly dead silence) UNTIL. AGIT. A GLITCH IN TIME IS THE FIRST CANON SHOW COMPLIANT CONTENT THAT HAS BEEN RELEASED SINCE 200 GODDAMN 7. FUCK . and not only is it canon compliant it is ALSO A CONTINUATION OF MY FAVORITE EPISODE IN THE WHOLE SERIES.
so. my favorite episode. is ultimate enemy. it was one of the 4 movie-length episodes and the basic premise is. danny uses his ghodt powers to cheat on a huge standardized test and this sets off a butterfly effect reaction that leads to a timeline where his family + friends get killed in an explosion and he loses his mind and turns into the worlds most powerful villain <3 you can see why i like it so much im sure (<< guy who has a documented chronic weakness for stories where a good guy turns bad etc)
SO AT THE END OF THE EPISODE. Dan (the evil future danny) is trapped and locked away forever . but at the end of the ep theres a scene that hints to a possible future episode where he escapes !!!! so there was always a teased sequel but this sequel was never created due to aforementioned. budget issues and cancellation. etc. buggest disappointment of my life. UNTIL AGIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was released. july of this year . and i am just reading it now bc its been burning a hole in my bedside table bc it never felt like the right time to read it until this morning for some reason. and fuck its so good its literally everything i wanted.
i dont know how involved butch hartman was in the creation of it but the author (gabriela epstein) is obviously someone who cares deeply about the show and the characters and im so fucking happy about it she did an incredible job. i literally had to pause a handful of times in the first few pages just because the characters and dialogue were written so well and it was like SUCH a breath of fresh air (the fandom is. so bad. its so bad. because its been around for so long people have such insane warped takes on a lot of the characters and its become completely unbearable to me ive had to block the tag and its so painful. this is literally the only reason i am not reblogging dp content constantly. i have to filter it through artists i know can handle the characters properly. if i was not nerfed by the awful fandom it would be 24/7/365 dp lockdown and id be so unbearable) OH ALSO not only is agit a continuation of my alltime favorite episode, it also retcons the garbage pile that is phantom planet in a way that acknowledges that it was a real thing that happened but going back on it in a way that feels so so so so natural for the show. so it wasnt a throwaway "no that was bad lets forget about it" it was a well crafted well thought out "this was real and it sucked and the characters remember it BUT we can play with timeline so things will continue as normal" and . holy shit it was so fucking good. i will begrudgingly acknowledge phantom planets existence if only for agit.
uhhhhhhhh fuck this is so long and i am running our of directed steam so if i keep talking i will just start rambling about the intricacies and holy shit dude i could literally talk about danny phantom for hours and hours and hours and hours if theres anything else u want to know i am the guy . i am the guy forever
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bigboobyhalo · 1 year
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obviously disregard this if you want etc etc you dont need me to tell you. but as someone who fell out of dsmp a while ago but still loves c!sam as a character. can you briefly sum up what happened or at least why it was so terrible?
okay okay let me see if I can try. I couldn’t do it last time cuz I was so pissed off about it and knew that my bias would drag it wayyy down but. well I’m still gonna be really really biased against it cuz it sucked but maybe it will be more coherent ? I’ll probably miss some stuff too cuz I have actually been trying my hardest to NOT remember this stream
basically c!sam and c!philza were friends way back in the day, which is already really confusing and weird and unnecessary and ultimately kind of stupid, and sam showed phil that he made a way to create multiple bodies (yep the alternate bodies lore is the focus here) n that it could maybe be used to cheat death and phil was like “nope. fuck that. death is awesome and I’m not you’re friend anymore” and flew away and then they were never friends again. which like. what was the point ?
then there was a way-too-long recap of the egg lore finale which contained lots of stuff that was completely unnecessary for understanding the events of this stream (honestly this isn’t even crit on the content of the lore itself, it’s just like … we didn’t need it!)
and THEN this is where it gets REALLY BAD. boomer is at his house and then he gets visions of the egg and some frog statues and a castle and he’s so so so scared or something that he runs away and he runs for literal years and years and years and then he reaches the castle from his visions and he goes thru a cave under the tunnel and finds a secret laboratory where sam’s body is floating in a tube and he breaks it and sam is like “ahhh boomer ?? what happened???” and sam slowly starts remembering everything and it turns out that he’s been in that tube for years ever since ponk killed him in the egg finale which means this is a fucking timeskip to YEARS in the future and apparently there’s been a fucking eggpocalypse that we literally don’t get to see or learn anything about and maybe everyone is dead but we don’t fucking know !! absolutely fucking ABYSMAL way to reveal that an eggpocalypse happened it pisses me off sooo much. we had just reached the climax of the crimson storyline. something that has been gradually built up for nearly TWO YEARS NOW. the egg LITERALLY JUST HATCHED. and now we’re skipping SEVERAL YEARS INTO THE FUTURE ?? thru POVs of characters who are now COMPLETELY DETACHED FROM THE EGGPOCALYPSE ITSELF ??? and THAT’S HOW THEY WANNA REVEAL THAT AN EGGPOCALYPSE HAPPENED ????? LIKE ?? HELLOOO ??? THIS SUCKS. IT WASTES ALL OF THAT WONDERFUL CLIMACTIC BUILDUP THAT THE EGG HAD GOING ON. THE EGG FINALE HAD BEEN SO FUCKING GOOD AND THEN THIS SHITSHOW COMES ALONG AND FUCKS IT ALL UP !!!!
and as if it couldn’t get any worse, CC!boomer apparently said that this is actually an alternate timeline and up to interpretation or whatever. which initially sounds like it makes it a lot better because oh well it’s just an alternate timeline it’s not necessarily canon to other storylines but then you realize that these motherfuckers just introduced ALTERNATE GOD DAMN TIMELINES into the ALREADY RIDICULOUSLY COMPLICATED STORY that is the DSMP. like what the actual fuck is WRONG with you ?? also, since the eggpocalypse happening is apparently an “alternate timeline” thing, then it probably won’t happen in the actual canon timeline or whatever the fuck. it’s just completely garbage
some other shit happened after boomer broke sam out of the tube or whatever. they went to a swamp and boomer jumped in a hole or something but I honestly could not even be bothered to care at that point. the best outcome here is that this convoluted, nonsensical garbage gets retconned and no one ever speaks of it again. UGH.
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erin-bo-berin · 1 year
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i am sick of the jonathan slander
“who cares jonathan sucks”
nancy emotional cheated on jonathan this season its like she completely forgot about him
nancy,please dont forget about him.
jonathan who stayed by your side all night because you were so traumatized from the upsidedown and he wanted to make sure you were okay? jonathan who trusted you enough to tell you about his past and all the trauma his father gave him, and who you trusted enough to do the same. jonathan with whom you share a scar with. jonathan who wanted to support you so bad that he ended up getting fired from his job that he clearly needed because he's poor and helps his single mother pay the bills. jonathan who is letting you go because he wants you to follow your dreams and he doesn't want you to hold back for his sake. jonathan who had to play dad for will starting at age eight because his own father left them. jonathan who ignored his own feelings and trauma in order to try and fix the mess his father made. jonathan who had a job at sixteen and was working extra shifts to help out at home. jonathan who had to go coffin shopping alone at sixteen for his "dead" little brother. jonathan who had to console his mother who he thought was going hysterical over his brother's "death". jonathan who had to check his father's car for his little brother's body. jonathan who was called homophobic slurs, who had his family insulted in front of him, who had his brother's "death" rubbed in his face, who was compared to his ab*sive deadbeat father. jonathan who always told his brother to embrace who he was, and to not be ashamed of it. jonathan who would never give up on his loved ones. jonathan who is loyal, jonathan who is compassionate, jonathan who would risk everything for his loved ones in a heartbeat. that is jonathan, and nobody better forget it ever again.
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
I think one of people’s problems with him lately was that the writers turned him into a stoner this season and didn’t seem to have much more depth. Of course, I still like him and especially for Nancy.
I love Steve of course, but Nancy is all wrong for him and Steve needs to remember that Nancy never loved him as much as he loved her. There’s nothing that made me change my mind of that this season. I’m positive she loves him, but just as a friend. Her and Jonathan had and hopefully still has a connection that her and Steve never had.
Also, a bit off topic but I saw this amazing Jonathan and Steve edit and I’ve never been into Jonathan like attracted to him but HOLY COW I suddenly had thoughts of a Steve and Jonathan threesome like WHEW 🥵
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hive-heart · 2 years
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Back to rant about my feelings in here because Twitter sucks ass, even if I just post to my close circle. Anyways I'm so tired of feeling powerless. I talk about it all the time and I still feel like this is such a hugely difficult thing to accept, but sometimes I just can't do anything no matter how hard I try.
I was 14 straight hours sitting at my desk pushing myself to write my essay. I only got up to prepare my brothers their meals and get a shower. I only managed to write one line. A single stupid useless embarrassing line.
I chose to study a book that interested me even outside of class, I picked a social issue that I'm very invested in, and I broke down my tasks as simple as I could. Used pomodoro timers, had my brother check up on me, had caffeine, alarms, left my cellphone away, blocked my browsers, kept hydrated, ate normally, put some nice uninterrupting music. No tactic I've ever developed or even found online pushed me to do it.
It was supossed to be delivered yesterday but all I could upload was my single line. A SINGLE LINE. I know a way to cheat around the deadline, so I got myself at least an extra day if I'm Lucky. But? What will I do? Write a second line? Come the fuck on. I have to send an email begging the professor to give me a chance to turn in late assignments so I can pass but, a second chance? a chance to disappoint him again? Just shoot me already, what's even the point, we know I'll fuck it up again
What is wrong with me. What is so fundamentally lacking in me that makes me so inhuman. I can't feel love or lust, I don't relate to any gender, my brain is incapable of managing itself, I lack basic empathy and social awareness. I dont even know if I really can feel my feelings, despite my burning anger and drowning sadness I'm still sitting here expressioneless and with no single tear in my eyes, as always. What the fuck do I even have? I'm kind sometimes? I do not know how anyone could bring themselves to like me, let alone love me. And yet! I do have friends! Thank god for that because it's the one good thing in my life, the one thing that makes me consider myself so lucky. But that just baffles and confuses me more, right? Like? What are you guys doing here? Welcome to the limbo and empty void that is my existence? There's snacks on the counter?
My biggest regret is how much I believed in the future. In the future I'll be fine. Tomorrow I'll finish my essay. Next week I'll finish all my remaining assignments flawlessly. Next month I'll be doing things I like. Next year I'll have access to meds and therapy. Next decade I'll have a job and a partner. Next century my existence will have mattered. Later. Later. Later. It is always sometime else. Never right now, today, in the present. Hope and luck and dreams they're all poison they're all betrayers, backstabbing assholes that I keep around because I'm DELUSIONAL.
I want my brain to shut off, to shut up, to stop making so much darn noise. I know I fuck up a lot, I feel bad about it, I don't need to constantly hear how much I hate myself for it and how much everyone else should hate me for it and how much you want to stop existing. I just want an out. Why did I get the stupid idiot brain disease. Why me I had so many dreams and so much potential. Everyone believes in me so much, but I know the truth, I know that I can't live up to any image we have of me. Yes we. I also believe in myself. Despite everything, beyond my sorrow I believe in me. But it just makes the pain so much worse. Why is this incurable. Why does it have the stupid name and reputation it has. Why can't I just snap out of it sometimes. Consistently Inconsistent. This is hell and I'm frozen in it. The silly billy kids disease for stupid weeny babies is going to be the end of me.
I won't survive. I'm not strong enough to keep going. I have not, despite what I would like everyone to believe, stopped caring. I care so so much about everything. My guilt and shame are like a snowball that grows bigger and bigger as it goes on rolling down the hill, and it becomes more and more destructive until it is just unstoppable. Even now my little essay fiasco is just an accumulation of how guilty I feel about small things I didn't do months ago. But hey lying comes as easily as breathing for me and so I gotta stay aloof and carefree in front of others, lest they think I'm not in control of how shitty I have been. Lest they think I'm horribly failing despite putting in effort, how embarrassing! How lowly! How undeserving of being here with us at this prestigious school for the special and gifted! Everyone is so darn skilled and smart and hardworking and beautiful and holy. I love them so much. But I also despise myself for it. What am I doing here, who let me in, why haven't I been thrown out like the trash that I am.
haha whatever right? Anyways, I have to go have nightmares about failing a single class that was basically failproof, toodles
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thatsenoughforme · 2 years
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its okay to vent the bad thoughts out sometimes!
I truly try to stay positive about everything. I can hold things in for so long but eventually it just explodes! A person can only take so much! We are all human no one is better than anyone! BUT our actions prove how much we care about others and though words should never hurt us they can make a difference in the actions we make!
For four years i have held in my thoughts, tried to take all the crap thrown at me and turn it into gold haha.... well wake up me! Crap is what it is! its not going to be a brick of gold no matter how much i wish for it!
I am weak. I easily want to cater to my man and do whatever to make him happy. I will do anything to support him, keep my mouth shut, turn into a slave, washing his feet while i suck his dick in the shower. Make him dinner, pour shots all night playing poker online, while he talks crap to everyone and show off my titties whenever he asks me too. Wake up and take him to work, pick him up no matter how far away he is. or what time of night when he has ignored me for months, i get a call at 3 am and there i am! Helping get you out of jail, and pay all your fines and classes for domstic abuse, all while your cheating on me with your kids mother that the classes were for! I can go on and on of the things i have done to prove my love, commitment, loyalty, given up so much to cater to his insecurities. Get yelled at for everything i do. Not to mention the kids thats another story! I am never enough!!!
I admit i have done wrong in life, i had a what i call single lady time when i was with a few more people than i probably should have, i dont consider myself a whore like many say i am! and while i dont care what people say about me that dont know me, it does hurt when the one who claims he loves you repeats this to you daily.
Dirty stinky whore, nasty fish cunt, stupid ass retarded mother fucker, gross dirty bitch, fat ass nasty whore, trashy cunt, rooster bc any cock will do, homey hopper, toilet seat, weirdo, stinky pussy slut, worse than the hookers down on 3rd street, diseased STD clamydia pussy, lying ass sneaky slut whore, stupid bitch! loser, worthless, good for nuthing but sucking dick, easy, weak....i can go on and on...daily...everyday i hear every since one of these things said to me.
We can fall asleep together and if i get up to go to the bathroom, or wake up before him and get out of the bed to do anything, clean, eat, watch tv downstairs so he can sleep, i am a cheating whore! if i shower and dont call him or text him a picture than i only showered bc i was cheating. When we shower i wash his whole body head to toes to butt hole to feet while im sucking his dick. I have asked to shower for 3 days before bc its already been about 3 days since we showered last! sit aorund have sex all day long for 4 days no shower and hello obvioulsy we stink!! not just me!!
There were some good times, sex always good. But other than that we did have a few fun times together. I do like his fun mean side, but there is a limit! NO one likes to be told they are a nasty worthless whore 24/7, 365 days a year! So i cant say i let this go on so long for no reason. In my head i was in love, i wanted to do everything to make both of ourlives better so we could be together. But at the end of the day i always felt like not only have i given up everything and only made myself worse while you are improving, i am also being verbal beat down every day!! made to belive i am not worth anything. i am too stupid to do anything.
Now after four years you have decided to try and be a little nicer. SO i feel bad for wanting to break up...im trying to hold on and see if this can get better. But its not....You may have stopped hitting me as often or as severe, but you quit your job once again, and at the worst time ever! Made sure to beat me down on my birthday, and promise me empty promises to make up for it. and you want me to be the bigger person and let your whole family over for your kids birthday. When i had to meet my mom at the curb so she could give me her present. You broke my phone on my face so i couldnt even see if i do have friends that care about me on my birthday, and i had to embarrisingly text my family to say this is my temporary number so they could even say happy birthday to me! I dont have a job bc you tell me in a whore, and whole i know i am not and i am great at my jb. I worked hard put my self thru school, while it may not have been for a long time, i still had to get my small child to his sgrandmas every morning at 430 to get to school on time, i do have a good family to support me but that doesnt mean i still had to put the work in. Secluded myself for years to work on my mental health and build a career for myself. Making $60 plus an hour. I gave it all up bc you wanted me too. Bc i wanted to be with you and i thought that us fighting about my job everyday and me being told im a whore everyday wasnt going to work. So i gave it up, started doordashing smh and even tho you can potentially make money doing that it was fun, but how depressing to just give up yor carreer to deliver food! and you still told me everyday that i was lying and cheating instead f doordashing.
I can sit here and try and blame you for the everything, but i know that i had a choice to leave this relationship whenever i wanted. I decided to stay and hope that things would get better. I hoped that you would not only see the good i was doing and the endless amount of time i was willing to give to change myself to be who yo uwanted me to be. Neglecting my family that only wanted to be part of ourlives too, meet you and your kids and we all just wanted to care about you. You were unable to see that i am not better than you, i just wanted better for you. You have treated me with endless amounts of disrespect, embarrassed me in public, and tore me back down mentally worse than i was before, when you knew what i have been through in the first place. I also knew who you were and i decided to look past that and see only the you that you showed and gave to me, I turned my head to almost everything you did to me.
Now that i have decided to stand up for myself and call you out everytime you hurt me, mentally physically, emotionally, materially. You not only tell me im wrong to do so and i need to learn my place, You have cowardly tried to be the better person. But letting me speak my mind and then telling me calmly that i am a nasty whore still. Just because you have shut your mouth a little more doesnt mean you have tired to help, or make anything better. Saying im sorry everyday doesnt help me feel better. You make me feel bad for wanting to be treated better. I dont need im sorry everyday, i need you to stop doing the things your saying sorry for. See me for the good like i said and realize my intentions were always true to you yur kids your family your job your friends.
Small things to show me you care. Like a kiss when i get home, a small touch when you pass by me in the kitchen. Tell me in pretty, it might sounds stupid but it matters! I know i didnt touch you or kiss you or treat you the way i wanted to the past few week. But i was tired of being the better person, i was tired of turning my cheek to what you did to me to hug you and kiss your body while you rarely touched me back. Too occupied on your phone to every see me or give me your full attention. Unless of course i was sucking your dick or letting you fuck me in all my holes. smh you know what thats from. throw me off when your done and right back to the dirty worthless whore i am.
I am better than your words, i am better than the way you see me. I am better than what you tell your kids about me, and how confusing for them when they tell me how much fun they have with me. Bc i am nice to them!! Not only am i enough but so is my son. We arent better than anyone but we treat everyone with respect and that doesnt make us a pussy!!!
And while i know this is only a small portion of my side of the story, i am able to admit my flaws and any wrong i did in this relationship. I am not willing to admit that i am the reason it failed! Bc i was willing to trying and save this no matter what it took. I knew that once i put my foot down you would give up on me. You cant hear your flaws and fix them, you hear your flaws and blame them on everyone else and never try to fix it. pointing out every flaw in everyone around you instead of just being happy with yourself and growing and building a loving house like i was trying.
I have had enough, I have given enough, i am enough!!!!!!
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diabeticcoma · 2 years
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wow.. what to say.. where to begin. maybe you wouldnt actually read this and no would will every hear me whine anyway right? I mis-sang a song today and made me stop and think why? "You betrayed meAnd I know that you'll never feel sorryFor the way I hurt, yeahYou'd talk to herWhen we were togetherLoved you at your worstBut that didn't matter"
but i sang it a little different giving it a different meaning..
You replaced me And I know that you'll never feel sorry For the way I hurt, yeah You'd talk to her but were not together Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter
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Growing up my dad left at a young age and I didnt know him. I had talked to him a few times on the phone but it was nothing but how his life sucks and he missed me and that my mom was horrible because she took me away and moved states away after he cheated on her and moved away himself.
He started a whole new family. He had a new girlfriend with 3 kids of her own and then by the time I was old enough to talk to him. he had told me they had a daughter and gave her my name. mine is RaeAnne And hers is Larrissa Rae. Our name is Rae.
he had replaced me. walked out of my life and decided since this family failed he would start another one and completely replaced me sending her to private school in florida. a life of laying on the beach getting a good education and knowing my dad. the life i should have had. instead i went to public school years of molestation and silence. mental abuse and being put down by other relatives, made to feel less then myself.
IDK maybe 12 years old my mom decided it was time to move to florida. maybe meet my dad for the first time really. i wasnt good enough for them either. they didnt really care for me either. i was prissy and didnt like a lot of the new different sea food or fish they liked. they lived in florida everyone eats fish. i live off of food stamps in the mountains we dont really eat fish. so now shes RissaRae and im PrissaRae. another way to mock me.
we ended up moving back to the mountains but i had decided to stay in touch with my dad. a couple years later i decided to visit them. i loved my little sister but my dad wasnt the best. i grew to realize maybe my sister wasnt the lucky one and my dad wasnt the nicest or best dad so it wasnt really a good time going down.
moving on, the man i fell in love with and choose to spend my life with was sick.this man stood with me turn my rebellion aganst my family my crazy depression episode and violet fits of rage for no reason and never flinched. never even thought about running. he seen something in me i never seen in myself and slowly but sure i found peace out of his love. no relationship has their ups and downs and being with him since i was what 16? lol there were some trouble. but also he had a life threatening kidney disease passed on from his mother. a lot of the time he was sick and time sleeping a lot going through treatments. i was young and didnt understand so this made me mad. well telling my dad about my life he seems to only remember me telling him bad things about my man instead of all the amazing times we have together. instead of him being sick going through treatments and fighting for his life he seen it as he was lazy and ungrateful always unsure if he had some alternitive motive for being with me as in what can i do for him. and yes i did a lot but that was never what it was. he has never stayed with me because i took care of him . so visiting my dad and meeting my now fiance for the first time and it didnt go well
for whatever reason my dad my my fiance feel less then, and unwelcome. then had asked me why i was with him made me feel like i had to defend myself and my relationship after he wasnt there for me for 85% of my life. you dont know me and you sure as hell dont know him in order to pass some judgement over him in 2 hours. he is not a dirt ball druggy or anything like that. he got sick and never finished school hes shy so not talkitive keeps to himself and doesnt ask for anything. taking me home i sat silent and just cried. at that moment i thought i would probably never talk to my dad again.
when his father in law died. him and his wife came up from florida and just so happens to bury him 30 mins from me. side note. still with my fiance i am polyamorous so when i met up with my dad and his wife for dinner i brought my girlfriend. my dad was nice and happy to meet her completely different then when my fiance and i went to visit. he had made a mildly nasty comment implying my fiance doesnt take care of me or cook for me. after the visit and now this comment i am old enough and at a point in my life where i will no longer let someone make me or my other feel some type of way for any reason whatsoever. with that being said we got up and left quickly.
the next day i decided i should try to talk to my dad and give him the chance to understand where i was coming from without others. without his wife in his ear or putting in her two sense. so i picked him up and took him for a ride around town. i tried to talk to him but it was a horrible conversation he belittled me and talked over top of me and would have a conversation with himself wouldnt let me talk or add anything to the conversation which ended up just being frustrating and a total waste of time. i tried so hard to mend the relationship.
my dad has not reached out to me for 8 months. my dad calls me out of nowhere middle of work i stop what im doing to answer the phone. something must be wrong right? he sounds like he just woke up his voice is all scratchy and tell him he isnt sure if he is going to live or die and wanted me to know i loved him. that was it. i had no idea what was going on or what was wrong. i tried to call the wife she didnt answer told me to get information from my brothers. i felt like i was being punished and i had done something wrong i just wanted to know what was wrong with my dad and if i needed to jump on a plane and come down. i really didnt want anything to do with him but if he called me and tried to make amands i would have. i would forgave him for everything and gotten over it. but he never did. when she wouldnt tell me anything i flipped texted him and told him this wasnt a game he cannot treat me the way he did and then call me playing on my emotions and that just because he is sick doesnt mean all is forgotten.
he replied an hour later. and to tell me how selfish i was and how he will not call me next time hes fighting for his life and that he only called me so i didnt feel guilty if he died because of the way we left things. now after surgery they still never called me to tell me he was okay or anything. i have never been important. he replaced me i didnt need to know anything im nothing but a side child.
not that it doesnt hurt but i have come to the realization that he will never feel sorry for the way he made me feel.
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ameliasbitvh · 2 years
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i see red; d.m. (sequel to why?)
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a/n: omg stop, i finally finished the sequel for you all but it's going to need a part 3. LOL and i've been inactive for almost a month oml, sorry about that! also i feel like this sucks ass, so dont come after me.
summary: reader plans revenge on draco with the one and only theodore nott after he cheated on her and got astoria pregnant and got with her.
wc: 4k
warning(s): language, pregnancy, smut, degrading, prasising, gas lighting, and mentions of a miscarriage!!
part 1
REBLOGS ARE APPRECIATED!!
Did you really think, I'd just forgive and forget, no
After catching you with her, your blood should run cold, so cold
You, you two-timing, cheap lying wannabe
You're a fool, if you thought that I'd just let this go
You strode into the Manor of, the one and only Theodore Nott. Your body was wrapped in a black, tight suit, revealing every curve on your body. “Nott,” you smirked, holding your hand out to the wavy haired man.
“Y/l/n, what brings you here on this lovely afternoon?” he smirked back, taking your hand in his, enveloping it. Pulling your hand out, you confessed. “Well, a little birdy told me that you have unfinished business and by little birdy I mean me. You remember how you lost that bet to me in the sixth year? Now's the time to use that good ol’ dare.”
“Tell me what's in store, doll.” He smiled, up for whatever you had for him. And he knew it was gonna be good, you were sly as a fox.
“How would you like to help me?”
“Help you how?”
“Make Draco jealous.”
The day of your supposed marriage, utterly the worst day of your life. Embarrassing for Draco to cheat on you with Astoria Greengrass of all people. It was humiliating for him to sleep with her, because he lost a true gem. You.
You were beautiful, elegant and had grace. Everyone could see that. Rumors were flying around on how you were the one to cheat on him and he cheated on you back. Which, obviously isn't true, because you were a loyal woman.
You were stabbed in the back, and so would he be soon.
You loathed Draco Malfoy for what he had done to you. First off, he slept with her. Second got her pregnant and third of all, acted like he didn’t care. Oh please, he acts as if he didn’t give you a whole fucking speech so that you would stay with him.
He even tried to use metaphors, pathetic. Draco Malfoy, a pathetic little boy swimming in his own insecurities, but his ego’s so big that it keeps him afloat. You wish that he’d just drown in them instead, you hated his guts. You wish that his lungs would overflow with the cold water that soaked his body, and the last thing that you wanted him to think about was how bad he hurt you. That feeling of drowning: was all you felt. Either that was falling in love with him, or even when he broke your heart. He left you there to drown, fucking suffocate on your own tears that chocked you. That lump in your throat, you never wanted to feel it climb up again. You wanted to shove it down to the deepest parts on earth known to ma- no, you wanted to bury it where no one else could find it. Only you knew where those emotions had gone. You had a map leading you back to find it, but somehow it vanished into thin air. It turned into sand, flowing in the air. And you watched it drift farther and farther away from you. Having second thoughts, you tried to chase it but your legs couldn't keep up. They just couldn’t. They faltered, your knees crashed onto the soft sand where you buried every emotion away. Your emotions were hidden: blended in with the sand. You couldn't find it anywhere, all you had left was the demented passion in your heart: thirsting for revenge.
You needed a game plan and a damn good one.
That's when boy toy Theodore Knott strode in. Tall, handsome, beautiful hair and eyes. Everything a girl could dream for in a guy.
Theodore Knott and Draco Malfoy, best mates. But little did Draco know that Theo had thought of you so many times as he slept with other women, or even stroked his own fucking length. He shivered, imagining your pretty lips wrapped around his cock. When in reality a blonde woman he had met at a pub was sucking him off. She’d never be as good as you and he knew that. Even if he had never fucked you. He knew that you would be the best, because the way your hips swayed unintentionally when you walked told him everything he needed to know.
He yearned to feel your tight cunt embracing his cock. He wanted to see you writhe, fucking shake beneath him; it gave him a sense of power. A power he never had growing up, domination. The way he imagined pounding you into his mattress for so many damn years. He waited and waited for Draco to screw up your relationship, because there was no way that Draco Malfoy could keep a stable relationship without fumbling.
And the time had finally come.
He fumbled: completely losing balance, letting you slip from his hands, just to let another fall into them?
He had moved on so quickly, immediately got with Astoria.
What can I say? She was carrying his child, right? That was something you were specticle about, she had no baby bump? Yet again, it could be because she was small.
I see red, red, oh red
A gun to your head, head, to your head
Now all I see is red, red, red
The garden, beautiful. The contrast of the pink, blue, red, yellow and purple flowers all on a sunny day? It was lovely.
“Draco, dear.” Narcissa beckoned him over to her.
“Yes, mother?” he responded, walking to her.
“Y/n, how’s she been ever since-”
“I don't want to talk about her.” He snapped. His attitude grew cold, colder than before. He knew that he lost you that day, and he fucking regretted it. If he didnt think with his damn dick then you’d still be by his side. You no longer were there for him, he only had himself and he was miserable. Astoria was nothing like you. She wasn't kind to others, her smile didn't shine, her presence didn’t make him light up inside… she didn’t make him happy. But you did. You were always there for him. You were kind to others, even those who you didnt know, your smile shined brighter than the sun, your presence alone gave him butterflies- fucking explosions in his heart. Even now when he thinks of you his heart explodes. Just not in a good way.
“Why not? You do understand that you were the one to mess up your relationship with her? You both would’ve had beautiful children. But no. You didn’t think, Draco! You aren’t supposed to cheat on a woman you love. If you truly loved Y/n, you would've never done such things to her. Most of all, never gotten that Greengrass pregnant!” She finally let it all out, her voice shook with anger. She swiftly swept her skirt up in a quick motion standing up. She was begging that he’d fucking wake up and see the mistake he was making for staying with Astoria and not fighting for you back.
“Don’t you dare bring Astoria into this!” he barked, eyes deranged.
“You know what, don’t come to me when something goes wrong. I love you, my beautiful boy, but you should know better. Also,Y/n is coming to the masquerade ball.” She sighed, finally walking into the manor. Leaving Draco alone, surrounded by the chirping birds in the evening air. Their tune sank into his ear drums. He shook the noise of their song out, irritated. The sun beamed on him while he marched. But midway to his desired destination, it hit him. He would have to face you.
“Shit,”
You woke up, bare. An arm was wrapped around your waist, more specifically: Theo’s arm. “Good morning, love.” he grumbled, still sleepy from last night's events.
Let’s just say that you both have been practicing for your game plan.
And that practicing required naked bodies grinding against each other, dirty sheets, filthy words and demented moans.
“Good morning to you too, handsome.” you pecked his lips, getting out of the bed.
He peeled his eyes open to see your naked body in front of him. His green eyes darted to your legs trailing up to your pussy. His eyes soon were raw and lush, “Get back in here you little-”
“No,” a smirk pulled at your lips, challenging him and he took it to offense.
He followed after you left the bed, only to throw you over his shoulder and toss you into the comfort of the mattress. Laughter encircled the two of you, you had never felt this happy before. This was completely foreign to you, but that only made you want it more. You craved it, it was a hunger that needed to be fed over and over again. All to endure this blissful state, where there were no problems. Only you and Theo laying against each other, his head would rest in the crook of your neck. His skin would burn against yours. His light and your shadows contrasting each other. Even though you both were opposites, contradicting. You both had found the beauty in it all.
His lips connected with yours, and it was soft; comforting, almost.
But it grew fierce within time, teeth clashing against each other. Your hips bucked up underneath him, your clit grazed over his abs, whimpers fled from your lips. He grabbed your ass, rolling your hips against him. He only cared about your pleasure, what you wanted. Because you're all he wanted.
“You like that, pretty girl.”
A giggle erupted from you. with him around your guard seemed to slowly come down. You didn’t know what or who the source was pulling it down. But it- he was passionate about coming in.
“Theo we need to get ready, the ball is in a few hours.”
“But my balls-” he complained. you quickly cut him off, pushing his chest playfully.
“Oh, shut it.”
“Anything for you, ma’am.”
Did you really just say, she didn't mean anything, oh
I'll remember those words, when I come for your soul, your soul
Know that you, you dug your own grave, now lie in it
You're so cruel, but revenge is a dish best served cold
Your dress was absolutely beautiful. It was black, your shoulders were exposed, so were your breasts. It flowed, swimming around your ankles, black heels with red bottoms to top. and most important, red lipstick to top it off. Oh this will come into play.
Yeah you were a bitch, but an elegant bitch you were.You were here to play dirty, not get dirty.
You and Theo came separately to the ball, not wanting anyone to get suspicious of you two. You were met with the door to Malfoy Manor, just as you raised your hand to knock the door it miraculously opened itself.
“Y/n, I am so happy to see you!” Narcissa gasped seeing you.
That’s when you realized you forgot to put your mask on, quickly you brought it to your face.
“Hi, Cissy! How have you been?” you weren’t in the mood for small talk, but if you didn’t speak they would all know something was up. Or maybe they would have the decency to understand why you wouldn't want to talk to the mother of the man who cheated on you, got her pregnant and then left you. Whatever.
You spoke to her for awhile and finally made an excuse, “Excuse me but I have to go to loo,”
She nodded in response, you made your way through the crowd of dancing people and then you bumped into someone. A whiff of cigarettes and mint rushed to your senses, even with the masks on you knew exactly who it was. “Didn’t I tell you to stop smoking, before we got married- well were.” you queried, smiling at the last part.
And he knew that voice from anywhere, “I don’t care,”
“Aww, but you seemed to care when you gave me a whole damn speech about how you loved me inevitably, ‘I'm a fish out of water without you Y/n,’.” you mocked him, a small laugh escaping your lips.
“Bitch,” he scowled.
“What did you call me?” you challenged him to repeat himself.
“A bitch,”
“All these flavors and you choose to be salty?” you gave a sad sarcastic head shake.
How you loved using your wit to annoy him.
“Ladies and gentlemen please dance with your partner, If you do not have one dance with the person next to you.” The brunette woman announced. Oddly specific if you ask me.
Draco followed the speaking, grabbed your waist, and took one of your hands in his. You shivered, feeling his cool skin against yours again. Something in you ignited: an old flame. You immediately brushed it off, not giving it a second thought. Getting back with this blondie? You thought with a small sadistic laugh. Both of your feet swayed on the dance floor, your dress flowed from behind you like a waterfall, pooling down your legs.
“You look like a whore tonight, your tits are practically out.” he growled into your ear.
Your plan was going exactly as you needed it to.
“A whore? But I did it all for you, Draco? And you know me, sir. Only ever going to be a whore for you.” you purred, hands trailing his chest. You smirked at the fact that he wanted more than just words.
He was under your spell, you had full control over that poor naive man.
“Only for me? Good girl.”
He was so fucking dumb.
I see red, red, oh red
A gun to your head, head, to your head, oh
Executioner style, and there won't be no trial
Don't you know that you're better off dead
All I see is red, red, oh red
Now all I see is
“Meet me, in your room.” you declared, kissing from his neck to his white collared shirt. He didn’t notice, he just wanted to reminisce about the heat of your skin against his. But Astoria will lose her shit when she sees this.
Your red lipstick, stained on him.
He twirled you, dipping you down. You rose up, hair whipping up along with you. You realized all eyes were on the two of you, trying to manipulate an idea of which: why two exes who ended things horribly be dancing with each other? And mostly the fact that you kissed his neck?
A particular brunette caught your eye though, Theo.
Your eyes darted to him and you threw him a smirk over the blonde's shoulder. He brought his drink up and downed it, signaling that he knew what you were doing. The liquid burned his throat in the best way possible.
Even if he didn’t like it, he knew what he was going to get out of this little scheme.
His eyes followed where Draco’s hands were, right above your ass. His blood boiled, but he had to remember this was all a part of the plan, after this you'll be his.
Again, murmurs, whispers and rumors fill the room about the two of you. Exes, yet dancing with each other. Their eyes followed the movement of your bodies, scanning each step and swaying the both of you took. Their eyes were as sharp as an eagle eyeing their prey.
His hands found their way to the straps on your arms, pulling at them. He nipped his bottom lip.
“Nuh-uh, you got to wait, baby.” you said with a glint of mischief glimmering in your eyes, but not bright enough for him to notice that it was something that wasn't sensual.
Walking away from him, all eyes gravitated to you, even his. And all you did was look back at him, ignoring them all and threw a wink his way. He was entranced, lost in the delirium of his imagination: seeing you unravel as his cock twitched, breeding you full. So astray from reality that he didn’t even notice the hard building up in his pants.
This was going to be fun.
Racing to Theo, you whispered, “It’s time.”
Revenge is sweet, but not as sweet as Theo’s cock in your mouth.
Theo’s hands reached to his belt, taking it off, he tossed it to the side, discarding it like a piece of rubbish. Immediately his hands got working on you. Taking your dress off roughly, he pushed you down onto Draco's bed. Your body instantaneously collided with the cold silk sheets.
“You think this whole things funny, I wanted to fuck you until you were crying when I saw you with him.” He growled, his mouth crashing down onto yours, so damn fierce. You bit his lower lip and he reciprocated quickly, biting yours harder in response.
“So many damn years I watched you swoon over that arsehole and now you're all mine.”
“All yours,” you mewled.
His lips traveled from your neck to the valley of your breast, marking them with purple hues.
Your arousal pooled, trickling down your inner thighs. your was cunt hot and ready, ready for him to destroy. You whimpered feeling needy, you wanted him to fuck you raw and now. Opening your legs giving him an open invitation, you demanded weakly. “Want y’to fuck me now, please.”
“Gonna fuck your tight cunt raw, princess. But for now, y’get my fingers.” he stated, making you writhe underneath him from just words.
His hand grazed your cunt, you shivered from his touch. It was electrifying.
“Want m’fingers? Y’gonna have to earn them first, sweet cheeks.”
Your head fell back in defeat on the pillow, but you couldn’t give up. If you have to beg for his fingers, you'll do it. “Please, sir. I want y’fingers in me!”
“Not good enough.” growled the brunette.
“Sir! I need you so bad, m’aching for you!” that did it for him.
His erection was evident, he brought his tip to your cunt and striked, with no damn mercy. He thrusted into you with a relentless amount of force. Cries, whimpers, and screams fell from your lips. His cock felt so good sliding in and out of your cunt.
“Filling up y’cunt s’good baby?”
“S’good and big, don’t know if i can take it.” you cried.
He went even harder, viciously the headboard slammed against the wall and his cock was hitting your good spot. You inevitably shook beneath him, your legs wrapping around his waist, bringing you two closer.
“Now, tell me why you were touching him everyfuckingwhere.”
“I was just being friendly, sir. Like how I am with you!”
“Sweetheart, is there anything friendly with me giving you this cock and the way you're taking it?” grunting, his strokes viciously intruded your sex over and over again. You yelped, fucking cried; urgent for more of his deranged thrust.
“N-no,”
“He could never fuck you like this,” he scoffed.
“Never, sir. Only you can!” you confessed, feeding his ego.
Draco walked up the stairs, finding his way to his room. He heard a creaking… no a bang and it was repeated, all coming from his room?
His face had a puzzled look, putting his hand on his dorr knob, he twisted to open the door to his worst fucking nightmare. His best mate fucking the girl he loved most in the world. There you were, crying like a bitch for Theodore fucking Knott. His blood pressure rose, knuckles cracked, jaw twitched.
You both were so lost in it that you didn’t even know that he was there.
Your nails dug into his back, “This what you want, doll? A real man who can fuck you like how you deserve to be, a bitch.” he groaned, tearing you to pieces.
“Yes, yes!” you cried, tears spilling from your eyes.
That was the end point for Draco.
“What the fuck are you both doing!” he barked.
But Theo didn’t stop, no fucking way. After all these years, he was gonna fuck you in front of him. Everything he dreamed of since the blonde took you from his grasp. Draco knew that Theo liked you, yet still went after you. This was Theo’s revenge on the blonde brat.
“Fuck, get out, Malfoy!” you screamed, in bliss and annoyance.
“You're in my room!” he deadpanned, his heart was still twisting in distraught hearing you call him ‘Malfoy’.
It hurt more than it should have.
“Get the fuck out.” Theo growled, his pace going even faster; your whole body thrashed. Knowing that draco was there watching his rough rolls were only enraged, out of fucking control. Your cunt was sure to be bruised.
With a scowl on his face, the blond retreated. Tears of anger and pain brimmed his eyes, is this what you felt that day when you found out? Did you also feel your chest closing in, about to give out on you? That strange lump in his throat climbing its way up? He couldn’t stand these feelings, It hurt. The pain rhythmed against him, just like how she did that night in the bar. The mistake of a lifetime. For his committed crimes, he was bound to pay a debt, the debt of love. That day… it was supposed to be the happiest day of his life, and yet it wasn’t. It was disheartening, miserable, he dreaded every moment of it. It utterly was the worst day of his life. And that was all because you had found out about his crimes, he said he was loyal and lied to your face.
Run, hide
Oh, you're so done
Oh, better sleep with one eye open tonight.
“Where were you that night?” you questioned, hands wrapped around the hot cup of coffee.
“What night?” he responded,
“The night of the miscarrige, you never came home and I waited for you.”
His heart ached and the ice in his heart roared to thaw out, it shivered in spite; all so that he could spill the truth to you. But the ice was frozen solid, only the heat of eternal love could break it down and there wasn’t enough love in his heart for you. . . and that’s what hurt the most.
But realizing that he was going to lose you, and that's when it registered in his mind that he loved you more than anything, even more than himself. And watching you with another man was just the cherry on top. Something unpleasant inflamed something inside of him, he was going to get you back.
No matter how many times you’ll say no, turn him away, scowl in return, he’ll keep trying. He had to, it was eternal love and your heart would set him free from his own despair.
So maybe this wasn’t just all about his love for you, he was going to get something out of it. He needed to woo you first, get you to fall for him again, and then all the guilt he’s ever felt would simply disappear.
Did he really think it was this easy?
Ever since the day you had discovered he cheated on you, your hatred stemmed, growing high as mount everest. You would make him pay, make him understand that what he did to you was wrong. Show everyone that you're not just Draco Malfoy’s ex. The One That Got Away. You were so much more and you were going to show everyone that.
I see red, red, oh red, oh
A gun to your head, head, to your head, oh
Executioner style, and there won’t be no trial
Don’t you know that you're better off dead
All I see is red, red, oh red,
Now all I see is red, red
“I know, mother! They all think I'm pregnant with Draco's child, carrying the next Malfoy heir!” Astoria cackled, tossing her head back. Her mother laughed along. They both were seated on the black leather couches of Malfoy Manor, having a cup of tea. Draco had told Astoria that he was going out to Diagon Alley to hang out with Blaise for the day.
Turns out there was a change of plans.
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erodasfishtacos · 3 years
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Cheating!h blurb where ana asks why they dont have sex or at a party and she’s trying to pull him into a room and y/n watching him try to make excuses and then next time having sex with y/n he says anna keeps trying and she has the pride he doesnt give in... or something exploring that situation
warnings: smut, cheating, angst
“Anna, I just-“ Harry huffs as she tugs him into a spare bedroom of the party after he had put up a valiant fight to keep them in the main area.
Her hands are unbuttoning his already barely buttoned shirt, running down his bare skin, and he is cut off by a sloppy kiss to his mouth.
Fear shoots up through him, it’s not YN, he doesn’t want this with her.
“C’mon, it’s been almost six months and you still haven’t touched me. Just fuck me,” Anna complains, fed up with the lack of or more like nonexsistence of their sex life.
It was near impossible to believe, someone like Harry who oozed sex out of every pore of his body wasn’t sexually active or interested in fucking his girlfriend.
When Anna takes a different approach of going for his belt buckle, mouth trailing against his collarbone, and attempting to get to his groin - which hadn’t hardened in the slightest.
“Enough,” Harry states firmly, grasping her wrists lightly and making her look at him, “I don’t want to have sex right now, okay?”
His girlfriend’s face falters, “You never want to.”
“If you don’t like it break up with me,” He hisses, knowing YN is going to get suspicious the longer they’re in a room together.
Anna, who really did have a kind heart, frowns, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to pressure you into anything. I would never force you to.”
Harry just rebuttons his shirt, “S’fine. Let’s just get back to the party and have a good time, yeah?”
She nods as Harry swings his arm around her shoulder, unlocking the door, and pausing when he sees YN a bit of the ways down the corridor - staring at the two leaving the bedroom.
“I’m going to get a drink,” He dismisses bluntly, his focus set on the girl who was visible angry with him in the kitchen.
Before he can get out a word, she steps forward and swipes her thumb against his collarbone.
It comes back with the waxy substance of Anna’s bright mauve lipstick.
“Have fun in there, did you?” YN asks, she tries to keep her tone cool and unbothered by Harry sees right through it to the insecurity.
“You know I didn’t,” He replies between gritted teeth, how could she get jealous when this was all her?
He didn’t want a girlfriend.
Well he did but he only want her and she fucking knew that.
“If you wanted me to believe you, maybe you would have wiped her lipstick marks from your neck and chest,” She chuckles and it makes Harry’s hair on the back of his neck stand up.
It was the distinct chuckle and tone she used when she was upset but wasn’t going to admit it over her dead body.
Before he can call her out, she shoulders past him, disappearing into the dancing crowd of people and out of his side.
“Fuck,” He mutters, running a hand through his hair before trudging off to find Niall and Zayn - to distract himself.
-
“Stay the night, please?” Anna asks softly when Harry pulls up to her small, quaint little house that fit her perfectly.
“M’sorry. I have a long day tomorrow.”
It was a lie. It was rarer that he told the truth to his girlfriend than fibbing.
“So? Let’s cuddle, do something,” She begs, frustrated with her emotionally and sometimes physically distant boyfriend.
Harry shakes his head, “Maybe next weekend.”
He always said that.
It never happened.
As soon as he drops off Anna, his next stop is a route that is ingrained in his head front and backwards, her apartment.
He has a key, doesn’t bother knocking and just barges into the dimly lit house with her shoes tossed clumsily on the floor - almost trips.
When he finds her, she’s in a towel - freshly showered, and brushing through her hair in her small walk-in closet.
She heard him come in, knew he was storming in here, and still didn’t turn around when he slammed open her bedroom door.
He’s crowding behind her, knocking the brush out of her hand, and pinning her to the wall, “You’re so bloody ridiculous. You jealous little brat.”
YN doesn’t respond, her body still wound tight with tension and a gluttonous feeling of rage for earlier in the night.
“Been fuckin’ you and only you since I was seventeen. Y’know that I didn’t fuck her, didn’t even touch her and you still have the nerve to act like a crybaby,” Harry seethes, his whole chest pressed against her back, no room to escape.
“Her lipstick was all over you,” She argues back weakly when his hands come to the knot in her towel, teasing at unraveling.
“Yeah because she was begging me to fuck her and I said ‘no’ so she tried to get in my pants and I pushed her off.”
“Why?” YN murmurs, quiet in the small space.
“You fuckin’ know why,” Harry growls with his teeth grazing across her bare shoulder blade.
“Say it.”
“I pushed her off ‘cause you’re the only person I’ve fucked since I was seventeen. My cock is yours,” He rasps, untying the knot and letting the towel drop.
He wishes she would just end all this bullshit.
Let him have her fully and completely but she was so fucking afraid of getting hurt when it wouldn’t happen.
“Go on, tell me who owns this cunt,” Harry demands, hand tucking between her thick thighs to cup her puffy mound in his hand.
“H,” She whimpers as his finger lightly slides up the wet groove of her center with a careful drag.
When she doesn’t give him the answer he wants, he gives her clit a hard pinch, “Don’t make me repeat myself.”
“Yours, fuck - it’s yours,” YN huffs at the slight but welcome pain on her nerves - relaxing when it returns to soft strokes.
“Anna is pretty, y’know? Had her on me, kissing my neck, unbuttoning my shirt and shit,” Harry hums against her ear, two fingers sinking into the tight heat of her body.
He continues, “Didn’t even get hard when that happened. That’s how fucking trained I am for you. What a tight fucking leash you have me on.”
YN turns a bit into putty at his words, insecurity slow flooding out of her body, and feeling more like how she usually does.
“How do y’ever forget? How much I love you?” He asks in true disbelief, it literally oozes through his pores how much he adores his high school sweetheart.
“Don’t-“ She squeaks desperately.
“Why won’t you let me tell you how much I love you, baby?”
His voice like dark, sweet honey that seeps into her every nerve-ending and makes her feel lethargic, in a boneless silky way.
“Stop plea- Just touch me,” YN begs when his fingers crook into against her plushy, tight walls with focused strokes.
“You need to admit it, y’stubborn little thing. I know how in love you are with me,” Harry pushes, needing to hear validation from his favorite person on this earth.
He squats down, spreading her cheeks, and leaning in to lick from the top of clit all the way back to her other entrance.
His large palms keeping her apart, digging into the thick skin until his fingers are white - tongue finding her core and darting in to her most sensitive area.
“H, oh my god,” YN moans, head falling forward against the wall, pushing her hips backward into his mouth.
“Darling, c’mon. Show me how sweet y’can be f’me,” Harry goads encouragingly, it always took a little bit of effort to get her to break.
“I love you….s’much,” She whispers, voice cracking on the last syllable as he rewards her with a suckling kiss to her clit and slips his fingers back in.
“I know y’do, baby. You know I’d never give it to anyone but you,” Harry coos, anything to get her to soften her harsh edges, chip away at her stone wall.
Her hand reaches behind to weave through his hair, her stomach sucking in harshly as she feels her tight band snap as she releases.
“O-oh, you’re mine. Y’mine,” His love chants as she rides out her intense wave of her orgasm as he helps her through it.
“M’yours,” Harry agrees immediately, standing up and a smile breaks on his face when she turns around and wraps him into a hug.
“I love you. I know you didn’t touch her. I just hate it,” YN murmurs softly, undoing his shirt and sliding it off of his shoulders.
His smile fades at her words, “Then make it stop. The minute you tell me you’re ready to make this work, I’ll break up with her.”
“I’m no-not ready,” She stammers, eyes widening like a deer in headlights at his words.
So afraid. So fucking scared.
“Okay, okay,” He soothes when he sees her chest start to rise faster and faster with anxiety.
He doesn’t want to drop it.
He wants to shake her and ask her how the fuck she doesn’t see that they’re already in a relationship and she’s being blinded by irrational fears.
Harry waddles them over to her messy bed, pushing her back and adjusting until she’s in the center - staring at him with doe eyes.
He loves her so much it hurts to look at her for too long.
When he tugs off his jeans, taking his phone out to put on the side table - he sees an unread text from Anna.
I’m sorry about earlier. I really want to make it work with you. You’re a great guy x
Harry should feel bad. Maybe his stomach should have dropped or something at how awful he’s being to that girl.
But when his love is splayed out, pliant and malleable for him, he can’t find an ounce of fucks to give as he tosses it on the bedside table.
He had been in love with this girl since he was sixteen, never fell out of it, he was addicted to her - willing to go through all this bullshit if it meant he had her.
It always felt like the first time, crawling on top of her, and bending down to pull her puffy lips into a strong kiss as he slides in, always a pleasant stretch.
As they move together, in a familiar rhythm, she murmurs against his lips, “One day, I’ll be ready.”
“Please, make it soon, darlin’,” Harry pleas, swallowing harshly before pushing his emotions into hard, deep thrusts.
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goldnn-harry · 3 years
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loving family [h.s]
i've recently been obsessed with dad!harry fics so here you go <3
warnings: none, just plenty of fluff😁
tags: dad!harry 
“dada?” 
harry groaned softly as his daughter lightly touched his arm. not in a bad way of course, just due to the fact of being woken up.
“yes bub?” he turned over to the side of the bed and picked lily up unto the bed. she was still too short to climb up, so she always waited patiently for her dad to help her.
she grinned, “good morning daddy.”
harry smiled and kissed her nose. “good morning princess. how’d you sleep?”
“good, pascal gave me company!” little lily smiled even wider as she showed harry her favorite stuffie, one of pascal from tangled.
“that’s amazing baby. i’m glad you like your stuffie. how about we go brush our teeth, hm?”
lily whined, but still complied and got out of bed with harry. hand in hand, they walked to the bathroom. harry picked her up and set her on the counter, brushing her teeth first and then his own.
“alright bub, clothes or food first?”
lily rested a finger on her chin and hummed, “food!”
harry chuckled, “alright pumpkin, lets go.”
harry helped lily off the counter and carried her to the kitchen. 
he peered down at his daughter as he walked and lightly pulled her thumb out of her mouth, “hey, remember what nanna told you about that? don't suck your thumb baby.” he lightly kissed her forehead to show that he wasn't mad at her, and then set her in her high chair so he could make her breakfast.
“what do you wanna have for breakfast, hm?”
“cinnamon rolls? pleaseeee daddy?” she pouted adorably, earning a chuckle from harry.
“alright bub. but remember that's not an everyday thing mkay?”
she nodded, “yes dada i know. can you eat them too?” she asked him hopefully. most of the time, when he made cinnamon rolls, he didn't eat them. he usually had eggs or toast instead, since he wasn't a big fan of the sugary treat so early in the morning.
but of course, he'd do anything to see lily happy. so, he nodded and started to cook their cinnamon rolls along with scrambled eggs and a couple of cut up strawberries as he listened to his daughter ramble to him (and to pascal of course) about the movie gemma and her had watched a couple nights ago.
a couple minutes later, he served her food in her favorite plate, which featured some of her favorite disney princesses. (***)
after giving lily her food he served his own, and stored the left overs in a tupperware container.
“is it good baby?” he asked, after giving her juice and sitting by her to eat aswell.
she nodded eagerly, “very!”
harry smiled, happy to see his daughter happy. “i'm glad you like it.”
“dada are we gonna go see y/n today?”
harry absolutely loved how much lily loved y/n. she was always so excited to see her, or even to talk about her, anything that involved y/n made her happy. and that was one of harry's biggest concerns, his daughter not liking the person he dated. so when he saw how much lily loved y/n, and not only that, but also how much y/n loved and adored lily, he was more than relieved.
with being a single parent, there's always going to be people that don't want a kid that's not theirs, or just dont want a kid in general, and even though it sucked, harry had to understand that.
but that didn't mean that he didn't worry whenever he had to break the news to someone he's talking to that he had a kid. he'd only dated four people after lily's mom left him (and lily).
the first girl was called ellie, and she was so complicated. she didn't trust harry at all, always accusing him of cheating or whatever she could come up with. she also didn't love lily, but she didn't hate her, and she told harry that she was trying and would eventually love her as her own. and although she was nice and loving at times, harry ended it after 6 months.
the second girl was noelle. she was gorgeous, such an amazing person. but that ended at 10 months, when she broke up with him and harry found out she was never over her ex.
then he dated bella, who was a not affectionate person, and didn't care for lily at all. she always pushed her away and asked harry to hang out, without her. that ended super quickly, just after a month. harry was never going to tolerate or date someone who didn't want his kid.
but then he met y/n. he met y/n at his job. y/n was a clothes designer, and she designed and made most of the outfits harry wore to his last tour.
she had walked into his trailer, hands full of folders and papers which harry immediately offered to help with. after getting situated, they went over all of her designs and harry picked the ones he liked and wanted to wear. their first interaction went smoothly and friendly, just how both of them had hoped for. after that they had to meet each other countless of times for measurements and just overall discussing how harry wanted his outfits to look, fit and even feel.
when tour ended, harry asked her out on a date, which went amazingly. and here they are, a year later, completely in love.
“yes baby, we'll go bring y/n breakfast before i take you to school.” he smiled. somedays, before taking lily to preschool harry brought y/n some breakfast if she wasn't too busy. those were lily's favorite days.
she giggled in excitement and finished her food quickly. “hurry daddy!” she pointed to his still half full plate of food.
“alright, alright pumpkin give me a second.” he grinned and ate his food a bit quicker. he washed the plates and cups and everything they used and carried lily to her bedroom.
he walked to her closet and picked out two outfits so lily could choose. he layed both of them on the floor and set her down. “go ahead baby, pick one.”
lily looked at them for a couple seconds, and then walked to the one on the left. she picked it up and held it up for harry. (***)
he smiled, that had been his favorite outfit too.
he helped lily get dressed and then moved on to her hair. he lightly brushed it, her small curls usually got tangled at night. her hair was exactly like harry's, brown with soft, light curls. he put two butterfly clips on the front and kissed her on the forehead.
“all done.”
“okay now your turn!” lily smiled and pushed harry out of her room and into his as he laughed.
“okay okay i'm coming!” he walked into his room with her, and picked out an outfit to wear. (***)
he also added his pearl necklace, knowing that basically everyone loved it.
after he finished getting ready, him and lily left the house and headed over to y/n's work place with the extra breakfast he had stored in the tupperware.
lily held his hand as they walked inside, eager to see y/n but a bit nervous to be around so many other people.
harry knocked lightly on y/n's door, gently opening it when he heard the soft “come in,” from inside.
“y/n!” lily grinned as she ran over to her, jumping in her arms.
she laughed, "hi lily." she pressed a soft kiss to her head and set her back down.
“we brought you breakfast! show her dada!"
y/n smiled as she looked at harry, who was smiling too, holding the container and waiting for y/n and lily to finish their moment so he could go say hi.
“thank you lily! i bet the yummy treat was your idea, hm?”
lily giggled, “yes! dada made cinnamon rolls.”
“just my favorite.” y/n smiled. lily sat down on the small couch in y/n's office, paying more attention to her toy now.
harry took the opportunity to walk over to y/n and give her a big kiss on the lips. “hi my love. i brought you breakfast, but you already knew that.” he grinned.
y/n kissed him one more time and set the container on her desk. “thank you. i missed you.”
“i missed you too. we've been so busy," he said as he tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.
“i know. is it okay if i stay with you for a couple days?”
harry smiled, “that's more than okay.”
she grinned, “good. i suppose you have to take lily to school now right?” the dissapointment in her voice was evident, as she didn't want to say bye to her so soon.
“yes i do, but i'll take you with me to pick her up. deal?” y/n grinned and nodded, “deal.”
harry kissed her once more. “i love you.”
“i love you too harry.”
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2jaeh · 3 years
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Country Club | Kim Doyoung
Genre: smut , daddy
Warnings: dilf! Doyoung, uni! Reader, RichAU,
Praise kink!, public, just DY being a hot rich dad tbh.
WORD COUNT: 2,9K
Author! SIN
Your father invited a friend to join you for your Saturday morning golf game, the catch was his friend and you have a very dirty secret.
A/N: admin SIN here! Sorry I’ve been IA, I’ve had so many commissions and I’m still working on the freaks prequel and another Yuta fic (help), so here’s a little smutty DY fic while y’all wait !
TAGS: @infnteen 🖤 thanks for the cute msg!
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It was a cool morning and the smell of the wet freshly cut grass signaled the first rain of spring. You were up in your room, taking a break from university, and you found yourself longing for the Mountain View’s of the country club.
Thankfully mom and dad were aching to host a spring party for their friends and you were able to tag along with them to your summer vacation home. It had been awhile since you’d been here, and the last time you set foot on these grounds you were almost in trouble.
Almost.
“Sweetheart dont you think the gardens look absolutely ravishing today” your mom marveled as you made your way downstairs in a white mini tennis skirt and a sky blue golf shirt.
“Absolutely mother” you smiled and placed kiss on her forehead before grabbing the pitcher of lemonade and poured yourself a glass. You stood in front of the clear glass sliding doors watching your father pace the lawn probably talking to a work friend on his phone.
“Mother I thought we were going to the golf course today, he’s not planning on working is he ?” You pouted, stuffing a blueberry muffin into your mouth.
“Your father will never miss a golf session dear” your mother chuckled, “just get your things together sweety your dad will be with you shortly.”
Sighing you downed the last of the lemonade and went to the shoe rack to find your white tennis shoes and asked one of the estates employees to load your golf bag into the golf cart.
Shortly after, your dad followed, a huge smile spread across his face as he noticed your cheeky pout obviously knowing what mood you were in.
“I’m sorry hun but work called, those varsity tuition isn’t going to pay itself now is it ?”
You rolled your eyes playfully and slipped into the golf carts driver seat and patted the seat next to you,
“Ok fine but I’m driving.”
The two of you made your way down the courtyard and into the country club’s entrance. The gravel road was covered by huge oak trees, placed strategically along the sides leading to the huge mansion at the end.
Your father directed you to the golf course and one of the gates men welcomed you in before all you saw in front of you was the bright green golf course.
“I’m feeling lucky today hun, I can feel it” your dad squeezed his fist while you let out a chuckle, “easy there Tiger Woods”
“Well I’m definitely going to beat Doyoung that’s for sure”
“Doyoung ?” Saying his name already brought you a flash of memories.
“Yeah you remember my work buddy Mr Kim right ? He’s here helping out with the party, he brought over his sons too” your dad spoke as you pulled up to the first hole.
“What about his....wife ?” You swallowed, as your mind raced back to last year’s Christmas lunch.
First and fur-most Kim Doyoung was the hottest dad at the country club. He was still quite young in comparison to the other fathers thanks to his choices of getting hitched way too early. Most people would describe him as helpful, responsible the kind of guy who genuinely helped out the people around him.
But you knew a very different side to him.
It was the evening of the lunch that you and a friend had snuck outside for a smoke, knowing your fathers would be tremendously upset with that action for their little girls. After your friend ran off to God knows where, Doyoung had emerged and the look on his face as he watched you drag in that cigarette was...something.
“You’re such a naughty girl y/n disobeying daddy like this” he said in a silky voice, taking the cigarette with his slender fingers and placing it to his own mouth.
You watched him in awe, pulling in that cigarette and exhale the smoke up into the sky like a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
“Please don’t tell my dad Mr Kim” you had said in a high tone, surprising yourself at the hint of desperation in your voice.
“Don’t worry it will be our little secret love” Doyoung winked taking in another drag but this time he grabbed your chin and blew the smoke into your mouth. It felt intoxicating. But a sudden call from his wife had pulled you out of your fantasy and he disappeared, not seeing him since then.
Until now ofcourse.
“Oh your mother didn’t tell you ? Doyoung and Hani are divorced now, yeah she took off with some model and left him with the kids” your dad shrugged and greeted the caddy waiting on the course for him.
“Oh I see” you responded, placing a baseball cap on your head and watched your father tee off.
It wasn’t long until you heard another golf cart behind you as you began setting up your shot, wanting to look back desperately.
“Kim Doyoung” your father bellowed as you took your shot and turned around to meet your guests.
You noticed Doyoung had brought both his sons, Jeno a guy somewhat around your age and his little brother Jisung. It was quite surprising to see them outside when you knew they preferred to stay couped up in their bedrooms playing video games.
“Hey y/n, I didn’t know you’d be here too” Jeno shyly waved while Jisung inspected a golf club.
“Yeah I’m on spring break, so I decided to spend a bit of it here” you replied, moving a strand of your hair behind your ear.
Doyoung smiled at you innocently and held out his hand, “it’s good to have you back y/n” he said as you took his hand and nodded shyly. Doyoung returned to his conversation with your father and all you could do was stare at how gorgeous he looked today.
Dressed in white slacks, a navy blue polo shirt and black rimmed glasses, girls your age may not understand your desires but to you Doyoung was incredibly sexy to say the least.
He was well built too, his wide shoulders and small waist gave him a swimmer physique, it was all too tempting to know what he looked like underneath his attire.
“How about we mix the teams, you and y/n versus Jeno and I ?” Your dad suggested and Doyoung looked over at you briefly and smiled,
“You got yourself a deal, winner gets that Sauvignon Blanc you’ve been hoarding in your cellar” Doyoung chuckled and set up his ball for his shot.
You tried not to stare but God was it hard. You watched as his eyes narrowed on his target and his dark hair waved as he swung. Doyoung twisted his body posing as he watched his almost perfect swing lead his ball closer it’s target.
“Jeno get ya head in the game boy” your father grumbled as Jeno found himself lost in a game on his phone.
Jisung snickered as Jeno sighed and removed himself from his game to join the one he was supposed to be playing in reality. You could already tell that your competitive father immediately regretted his decision of swopping teams when Jeno’s swing only had the ball drop just a few feet away from him.
“I mean, that was a hit alright” You stifled a laughter.
“I’m not used to these golf clubs!” Jeno whined as his father tapped him on his shoulder, “A good player never blames the equipment son, y/n let’s head over to the hole shall we ?” Doyoung said jumping into his cart.
“Are we not waiting until we’re done ?” Your father grumbled still watching Jeno struggle with his form.
“Seems like we’ll be here all night if one team doesn’t get a move on” Doyoung pressed his lips together, hiding the smug smile that was beginning to form on his face,
“The caddy’s will make sure we’re not...cheating, let’s go win this y/n.”
You hugged your sulking father and hopped in the golf cart next to Doyoung, keeping your eyes on the path ahead of you.
From time to time you found yourself staring over at him, taking in that side profile as he casually maneuvered the vehicle over the greenery until you arrived at your destination.
“Shall we ?” Doyoung said, wetting his bottom lip with tongue and placed his cold hand on your exposed thigh.
You felt a shiver run down your spine, much like that night with the cigarette. You wanted more, you wanted to test just how far you could go.
And knowing that sneaking around in secret like this only made it more exciting.
“It’s going to be pretty easy to sink this” you pouted as you noticed your ball was just mere centimeters away from the first hole.
“You sound disappointed” Doyoung raised an eyebrow as he watched you set up your shot.
“We’re going to be quite far ahead of them”
“That’s not necessarily a bad thing”
You looked up at Doyoung who causally waited aside, watching you line up your shot. He wasn’t going to say it just yet, but he was definitely enjoying the view.
Sucking in a deep breath you hit the ball, but missed the target completely and felt your cheeks heat up when Doyoung lightly chuckled.
“Your form is correct you just hit it way too hard, here let me help you”
Doyoung dropped his club and made his way over to you as you got into position for your shot. Your breathing hitched when he stood behind you, a hand placed around your waist and the other on top of yours on the golf club.
You could feel his warm breath on your neck as he pulled your hips against his, bending you slightly over to feel a little more of you.
Your eyes fluttered up to where the caddy was, nervous that he’d feel some type away about this interaction but he was too invested in his phone to care.
“He’s not going to say or do anything, trust me” Doyoung whispered into your ear as you felt his hand tighten around your waist and pull your ass even closer to his crotch.
“Like this ?” You pushed your ass up to grind up against him, satisfied when you heard a small moan escape his lips.
You hit the ball and watched it sink into the hole in satisfaction. Doyoung pulled away from your body and clapped at your victory,
“Well done love” he praised and it made you rub your thighs together. You don’t know why but hearing him praise you made you so wet, all you wanted to do was be his good girl.
Doyoung’s turn was next and he easily sunk in his shot and before you knew it you two were already on your way to the next hole.
This time in the drive Doyoung had one hand on your thigh, squeezing lightly as he drove through the course casually. Finally pulling up to the next hole, you immediately got into position to tee off,
“Am I doing it right ?” You pouted back at Doyoung who stood a distance as he downed a bottle of water.
“You got this love, hey I’ll tell you what” Doyoung ran his fingers through his hair and unbuttoned the first button of his Ralph Lauren polo shirt,
“If you get this in with Atleast three shots I’ll give you a reward.”
You swallowed hard, your mind buzzing with what the reward could be. Shaking your head that was filled with fantasies you took your shot, surprised that it was a pretty decent one at that.
“Well done love, you must really want that reward” Doyoung mused, his small praises driving you into a frenzy once again.
Doyoung quickly took yet another perfect shot and the two of you hopped in the cart headed for the final stretch of the play.
Again not wasting anytime you took your shot and managed to complete the round in just two shots, immediately turning to Doyoung and gave him a dashing smile.
“Wow love, you did beautifully” he praised, coming over to stroke your back and sent your thoughts into overdrive,
“Let me finish up here and we can sort that reward out” Doyoung’s voice was filled with mischief.
Just like he said Doyoung finished his round quite quickly and went over to the caddy whispering to him before heading back to you in the cart.
“What did you tell him ?” You asked as Doyoung started the ignition and began driving on a slightly different, more secluded path.
“Told him not to follow us, and just meet us at the next hole” Doyoung pressed his lips together and you watched his eyes search for a spot that was hidden from passerby’s.
Doyoung stopped the engine and jumped out of the cart, quickly pulling you out and leaned your back against the hood of the golf cart. His eyes were dark and a smirk grew on his face as his fingers brushed against your cheek, over your chest and eventually landed on your thigh.
“You love to praised y/n, I’ve taken notice of that” he hummed and his fingers separated your legs slightly as it moved higher up your skirt.
“I want you to know how good I am” you fluttered your lashes at him, leaning back into the hood and licked your lips.
“You think you’re good ?” Doyoung chuckled darkly as his finger grazed your soaked underwear, “I think you’re a bad girl y/n, just so fucking bad.”
You bit down on your lip as Doyoung pushed your underwear to the side and pushed his index finger into your core. You threw your head back as Doyoung slowly fingered you, bringing his mouth to you jaw and kissed you gently.
“But you know a promise is a promise and you deserve your reward” Doyoung responded by inserting two more fingers in you, quickly using his free hand to cover your mouth before you moaned.
“I’m good...daddy”
Doyoung’s ears perked at the nickname and responded by moving his fingers even faster, pushing his large frame into yours as you began chasing your orgasm.
Just as you were about to come undone Doyoung removed his fingers and wiped your wetness on your skirt before pulling you into a hot and sloppy kiss.
“If you think you’re a good girl, how about doing something about this huh” Doyoung growled into your ear and grabbed your hand, placing it over his hardened member.
You immediately slipped down to your knees and unbuckled his pants, waiting to please him. Doyoung freed his member and looked down as you took him into your mouth, making sure every inch of him entered before slowly sucking him off.
“Fuck...that feels so good, you’re doing so good my love” he sighed, throwing your cap aside and grabbed tufts of your hair as you sucked him off in the middle of the country club golf course.
Doyoung began thrusting into your mouth until you felt him hit the back of your throat and he came undone, feeling every bit of him slide down your throat.
Doyoung brought you up and swiped his thumb across your lips before inserting it into your mouth while you sucked on it gently.
“You’re right, you’re such a good girl” he praised and began rubbing his member in between your thighs as you felt him slowly grow hard once more.
“Do I get a reward again daddy ?” You placed your manicured hands on his chest and looked up at him with barely innocent eyes.
“Ofcourse, anything for you my love” Doyoung mused and spun you around, bending you over the golf cart and dropped your panties down to your knees.
Doyoung pushed his member into your core and slipped a hand in front between your legs to stimulate you while he fucked you senseless. He placed a hand over your mouth once more, the last thing he needed was your father or his own damn kids walking in on this.
But he wanted to feel as much of you as he could and removed the hand from your mouth and slipped it under your shirt, giving your breast a squeeze.
“Don’t you dare make a sound my love, or else I’ll stop” Doyoung grunted as he heard your soft whimpers in his ear.
Doyoung felt himself getting closer again and pulled out, leading you to the seats of the cart and propped you up on it and entered you again. Your legs wrapped around his waist as you felt him twitch inside of you. Grabbing onto the seats for support you nodded at him, signaling that you too were close and Doyoung sped up until you came all over his member and he pulled out waiting for your mouth to return to his tip.
“Take it all in again my love, you’re such a good girl” he groaned, biting down on his lips and your mouth wrapped around him once more and felt his liquid run down your throat for the second time that day.
You finally cleaned up and Doyoung neatened himself before texting the caddy that the two of you were on your way.
“What’s the next reward daddy ?” You raised your eyebrow at him as you watched a smug smile spread across his face as he drove,
“Well after this game is over and you get yourself cleaned up, how about meeting for another reward daddys room ?”
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My Happy Ending (pt2) ~ Ellie x fem!reader
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note. sorry i cant use gif rn because of my stupid wifi. i'll change it soon if i have good connection :) enjoy!
click here to read pt 1 !
[ summary ]
Patrol is a disaster but to make it worst, you went out with the 2 people you hate at the moment. Ellie and Dina. (lmao i suck at summary)
warnings: angst,swearing, kinda sexual themes
"There you are!" Maria cheerfully walk towards you. You could feel your heart beating faster as you walk closer to the stables, you know this would be a disaster. She met you halfway of your walk and discuss about patrol while you were practically dying inside.
"Their waiting for you at the gate, I will talk to you later. Stay safe y/n!" said Maria who is turning away from you. You were about to say something when a hand touch your shoulder gently. Turning around, you see the one and only Ellie Williams.
"what" You spoke furiously, Not having the mood to talk to her. She sighed quietly before replying, "you ready?". Nodding, she point at your horse waiting outside with Dina standing beside Ellie's horse. You walk towards them, not saying a single word to Ellie.
Ellie follows beside you and sneakily place her arms around your waist. "what are you doing?" you pulled away from her touch, a little uncomfortable. "cant i touch my girl?" Ellie smirks. You scoff, walking further away from her until you reach the gate. "hey" Dina grins and hands you Rafe's (OC horse huh sorry obx fans 💀😂) rein.
You grab it swiftly, looking at her with a blank face. not in the mood to talk with her too. You have every right to be angry, and have every right to treat them unsatisfactorily because they made a mistake espicially Ellie.
You pat Rafe's head lightly while listening to the man giving instructions when you see Ellie walking towards your side. You ignore it somehow, thinking that maybe she was just gonna walk past you but you were wrong.
She stop beside you and tug you closer to her, making your body turn and press against her. "Ellie! what the fuck?!" you whisper-yell, pushing her away. She chuckles and pulled you by your waist, leaning in for a kiss. You immediately push her away. A little too hard though as she stumble backwards and hits Shimmer's side, making the horse whine.
Some of the adults look towards your way and some teens laughing. Dina just sighs and mounts Shimmer. Ellie stands there, looking at you angrily. You dont care though. Maybe.
The man finish his discussions and told the patrols to head out, all of you following his orders. Ellie gave you one last glance while she whistles for the horse to trot and went off like a rocket. You groan in annoyance and followed her.
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It's been an hour or two since you were in this trail and its killing you. Ellie giving you the glances and the awkward silence. Dina somehow getting tired of it, started a conversation. "it's peaceful out here" smiling as she look around the trees. Ellie nods and glances at you for the millionth time. "I think its just a bit further till we arrive at the lookout." Dina point towards north.
Still silence....
"look, y/n we're sorry! We shouldn't have done that, we just-" Dina frowns. "This is bullshit. We're not talking about this now." You interupt her, giving them a glare.
Ellie mumbles something but you couldn't hear it due to the wind. Dina just nod at what Ellie's statement is and stayed quiet.
It's been 10 min since that happened and you were currently tying Rafe's rein to a fence when Ellie unknowingly slap your ass. You gasped and turn towards her, "What the fuck is wrong with you?!" you yelled, seeing her smirking and letting out a chuckle.
"c'mon I know you love it." Ellie replied. crossing her arms, leaning her side to the wall. You scoff and rolled your eyes, "I dont have time for this." walking away for no more further actions from her.
"okay so.. the lookout is right over there but Maria told us to check this shop for supplies before we head to the lookout." Dina sighs, stroking Shimmer's hair. You nod and open the door. Not caring if there are infected inside.
Unbeknownst, a clicker was infront of you and when it heard the door creak open, it immediately push you to the ground. "FUCK!" you growled as you struggle against the clicker. You tried reaching for your switchblade, which Ellie gave before but failed as it was thrown away from the side due to the clicker moving its hands around.
Ellie ran towards you and immediately kick the clicker's head leading to a gunshot being heard as you were laying there closing your eyes. "fuck, are you good?" Ellie kneels and checks your figure. You open your eyes and mumbled a "yes" before getting up hastily. "hey, slow down" Dina gently held your arm. You immediately shove your arm away when you felt a pain on your elbow.
"shit. you have wounds" Ellie mutters, immediately gripping your wrist and leading you towards your horse. "im fine"
Ellie doesn't listen though as she unties your horse rein and demands for you to ride the horse. You obey otherwise, getting angry as to Ellie pretending that she cares.
Dina did the same too, riding Shimmer while Ellie holding the rein for your horse to walk slowly. "Ellie, I said im fine. We should check-"
"Stop with the bullshit, y/n. Your hurt." Ellie spoke furiously, giving you a serious glance.
Dina stopped Shimmer as the three of you arrived at the lookout. Ellie tied Rafe's rein to a post and immediately held her hand out for you to hold as you dismount the horse. You didn't accept it as you jump away from the horse.
Dina open the wooden door and waits for the two of you to come in, "Im gonna sign our names, Y/n clean up." Closing the door, Ellie immediately pulled you into the closest room and lock the door. Leaving Dina outside the room.
"Damn it y/n, why are you being reckless? that was so stupid." she mumbles, throwing her bag to the table and opening it to find some bandages. You rolled your eyes.
"sit" Ellie demands, glancing at the chair then back at you. Sighing, you lazily walk towards it and sat on it. "arms up"
"oh my gosh, Ellie im fine" you look at her, only to see her giving you the "serious demand type" look. (ngl stubborn ellie is adorbz) "you know what-" stands, "stop pretending that you care"
"I do-" Ellie whispered, "then why the fuck did you do it?!" you semi-yell at her, raising your hands slightly at your side. "the what-"
"stop being stupid Ellie! you know what I mean" You got up your sit and tried walking past her but she grip your wrist, making you look at her.
Ellie pushed you to the wall, putting her hand beside your head while the other places on your waist, "you know- your hot when your all like this. pretending to be mad at what i've done, you think I didn't caught on to that, babe?"
She pulled you closer to which both of your bodies pressed against each other and she immediately lean in, which shocked you. You push her away not long after, "Are you stupid?! Ellie. You cheated on me!! and now you act like it didn't just happened?!" yelling at her.
Ellie smirks and harshly grab your ass, pulling you closer again. "Damn it, Ellie! Let go!!" you cried out. Ellie didn't obey as she kept sucking your neck and squeezing your ass.
Pushing her harder this time, she stands back giving you an angry look. "dont make me go rough on you, y/n" she smirks, unbuttoning her jeans. You push her again, this time a little more harsh as she hit the side of the table.
Sighing, "okay" she mumbled. "Me and Dina were just having fun-" "yeah well no shit." you spoked, all the anger bottling up inside you. "and im sorry-"
" 'sorry' isn't gonna fix our relationship, Ellie! You cheated on me!!" you could feel tears streaming down your cheeks as you yelled at Ellie. "and then you acted like it didn't happen and being all around me at public?! your not being yourself Ellie!!"
sighing, "just tell me...tell me that you dont love me anymore.. please.. I dont wanna just go on with our relationship thinking that you love me but you truly not.. this is just a waste of our time." you look her in the eyes, seeing nothing but an angry ones. shocked that she wipe her tears away, "fine, we're done. your nothing but a useless bitch." the last part that Ellie said went straight to your heart, making you feel broken and fragile even more. She look at you one last time before leaving the room, slamming the door shut.
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DAMN so i've tried to my best to write it really well and sorry if my grammar or spelling is bad lmao, english is not my first language so yeah. also this is kinda short bruhhh hope you like this story and dont worry im gonna make a pt 3 💭 love ya friends! ~ Jazmine ( name reveal :) )
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