Season 3 wish list

The events of mirror Kirk assassinating mirror Pike.

SYBOK! and I want all of them to share their pain with him.

Given the show’s name we need more FIRST CONTACT stories!

ERICA ORTEGAS FINALLY GETS HER EPISODE!!

WHAT IS THIS | dr3 x brabham!reader | lh44 x brabham!reader (platonic) - smau

summary : you got into dating rumor with lewis hamilton after your sudden appearance in bahrain gp 2021. and your friend is not happy at all.

fc : emily ratajkowski, pinterest.

a/n : this is part of 'just a silly crush' universe, so i suggest you to read it first <3 and also this is just a small break (i lost the chapter 3 and 4 on my draft brb crying)

y/nbrabham.official

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y/nbrabham.official alright i take back what i said about cars go vroom-vroom. y'all cool, i guess.

big thanks to @ mercedesamgf1 and @ tommyhilfiger for inviting me!

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30 March 2021

user1 HELLO?!? F1 AND Y/N?!?!? WHAT DID I MISS?!?! WHEN WAS THIS?!

user2 she decided to wake up and choose chaos, because what the hell??!

lewishamilton Glad you came, Y/N! Come again next race? 😊

y/nbrabham okay hamilton, now you're pushing it too far 🙄

lewishamilton Well, at least I tried.😮‍💨

user3 HELLO?!?!? WHAT IS GOING ON

mercedesamgf1 Our best paddock girl! 🥰

y/nbrabham.official admin stop making me blush! 😳😳

user4 there's no daniel in the likes, what's going on?

user1 someone said that daniel is unfollowing her because she attend bahrain gp as lewis plus one, while he'd been trying to invite her since his debut race and she refuse to come.

user2 she's actually look sad and guilty when daniel refuse to look at her and avoided her at the whole race :(

user7 she doesn't deserve the spotlight :\ she only there because she is brand ambassador for tommy hilfiger. what did she knows about f1 anyway.

user5 GIRL SHE'S LITERALLY THE DAUGHTER OF DAVID BRABHAM?!?!

user4 blud is talking f1 knowledge to one of the brabham is crazy

mclaren maybe you can go to ours next race? 👀

redbullracing she will come to ours next, sorry.🫢

mercedesamgf1 BACK OFF I SAID 🤺🤺

user9 NAHHH THE ADMINS ARE ON IT AGAIN

y/nbrabham.official maybe... 🤔

user9 Y/N ?!?!?

danielricciardo posted a story!

lewishamilton

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lewishamilton We out ✌🏾

Thanks for the photos and for supporting me, dear friend! @ y/nbrabham.official

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y/nbrabham.official i look like that one kid in meme... the one who smile at the burning house... what is this lewis... 🤨

lewishamilton You look fine, Y/N stop worrying so much! 😩

y/nbrabham.official i am a model, of course i worry about my image 😤😤

user6 DEAR FRIEND??!? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?!?

lewishamilton She is my beloved friend! (I got rejected)

y/nbrabhams.official we are friends! (plz ignore lewis)

user44 HE GOT WHAT BY WHO?!?

user1 only y/n could reject THE lewis hamilton.

user10 i mean it is y/n, she can reject me, spit on me, call me names and i would still thank her

user12 @.user10 okay grandma, lets get you back to bed.

mercedesamgf1 looking' fresh 🔥🔥

user9 MAX I SEE YOU

user3 it is probably daniel stalking with max's phone

maxverstappen I have no comment on that.

user33 MAX?!?!?!?

user2 BOY BFR RIGHT NOW

user4 WHAT DID YOU KNOW MAX VERSTAPPEN

landonorris 😶

user5 LANDO NORRIS?!

user11 ohh so this is what daniel story meant.. (im delulu)

user14 wait you might be onto something since daniel unfollow y/n.. (let me join you)

user23 OKAY BED TIME FOR YOU TWO, CHOP CHOP

"lew, daniel unfollowed me on insta. what should i do?" you said, voice panicking through the call.

"calm down, y/n. i'll try and talk to him." lewis, voice groggy, said.

it was almost 4 a.m in imola, and lewis had just finish reading a book. meanwhile it was 1 p.m for you in australia, and he is kind enough to listen to your sudden panic call. daniel had unfollowed you and you just notice that because you are opening your twitter after a week away from it.

the whole bahrain gp literally flooded your timeline so you just opted to stay off the twitter. which proven not so wise because now you're left with few chapters behind.

first, daniel unfollowed you. which of course understandable regarding the situation you're in. but daniel hasn't give you a chance to even apologize because that man is ignoring your messages and call and he of course won't read your dm

second, you just notice most of the grid is following you. other than few friend that you know about a.k.a daniel's friends, lance stroll, valterri bottas, and even zak brown decided to joining the bandwagon. and you know it won't be long until your next grand prix invitation.

"he is angry, y/n. that is understandable. and also why didn't you tell me sooner about your whole anti f1 agenda? i can prevent this disaster happen, you know that."

"yeah i know, i should've at least talk to you... but tommy really want me to go! he personally talk to me lew, how can i say no to him?"

"okay, fair. by the way, we've been friend for how long now? 3 years?"

"around that, yes. why?"

"and how long you've been friend with daniel?"

"umm, 19 years 20? i can't remember"

"yeah that outta do it. anyways i'll try talking to him okay? he avoided me too, maybe i'll ask max verstappen to help. i better go to sleep now, its like almost 5 a.m and my body is screaming."

"okay, you do that. i'm gonna go with my lunch... thanks lew."

"anytime, y/n."

anna watch as you return to your table with a suspicious look on her face. she never see you this restless or this nervous after your 'beef' with elsa hosk back in 2017. anna had her suspicion that it is about bahrain and she knew that it is partially her fault as well, but who knows?

"who was it?" anna asked, sipping her virgin mojito.

"lewis hamilton." you simply said, taking of your sunny as you open the menu.

"ohh, you finally agreeing on that second date?"

"what? no! he trying to help me to talk to daniel again."

"oh right, daniel."

"he didn't block me, but he definitely ignore me." you said, voice dejected.

anna wave her hand, calling the waitress to finally take your orders. you frown at her as the waitress approach both of you.

"i didn't order yet." you said.

"you've been ordering the same thing in this restaurant for almost 10 years, y/n. trust me i know what you want."

so you pout your mouth, rolling your eyes as you let anna order for you. she's not wrong that's why you let her be. this restaurant is one of if not the only restaurant that you always go to whenever you visit perth. you went here first time ever with daniel, back when you are 16. this restaurant just open then and you are excited to let daniel drive you around after finally getting his driver license.

"have you tried calling max? he is daniel closest friend on track right?" anna suggest, looking at you silently.

"should i?"

"try it."

and so you did. you open your phone, hovering at the contact name as you hesitate to press the call button. i mean it is 5 a.m at imola anyway, he won't pick up. right?

"hello?"

"uhh, hi max. this is y/n brabham. sorry for bothering you this early."

"ah don't worry i already woke up an hour ago. what can i help you?

"its about daniel."

"oh, yeah. bahrain?"

"yeah, he is mad at me. he won't answer his phone, unfollowed me on everywhere, and just avoiding me."

"he is mad at you, that's for sure. but he won't be mad at you forever. trust me, i know."

anna watch you in silence and you just looked away from her, staring at the ocean. you know anna is being nosy, but you let her anyway.

"i want to apologize to him... but how?"

"well, i have an idea. you have place in monaco right?"

"yeah, i do have house in monaco. why?"

"okay, here's the plan."

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[55/?]

original prompt | complete masterlist

Thank you to @tinybrie for the idea!

Since the big revelation and confrontation, Ladybug has been invited more frequently to JL meetings. Marinette and Bruce are well aware of this change. The rest of the League, however, are still in the dark about what happened. The heroes only assume Batman had softened towards the Parisian heroine. 

One day, Ladybug decides to take advantage of the situation. 

Batman is giving his report and updates when she pulls out an entire bowl of cereal to munch on. Superman gives a dubious look. Wonder Woman pales. Green Lantern is ready to have a heart attack. Ladybug pays them no mind and starts eating the cereal. 

Flash looks back and forth between Batman and Ladybug, seemingly expecting the former to lash out and yell at the latter. 

But nothing happens. Batman continues his presentation. Ladybug continues her mid-meeting snack-fest. 

Then she ups the ante. She starts chewing loudly while consistently maintaining eye contact with the Big Bat. This time, Batman pauses to look back at her. 

And Ladybug knows. She knows what the other League members expect. They expect a war. A full-on match. A head-to-head. The vigilante throwing his Batarangs while Ladybug attacks with her yoyo. The tick on Batman’s jaw or his passive-aggressive tone. 

None of that happens. 

“Ladybug.” Batman’s voice is soft. “Can you eat quietly?” 

Aquaman’s jaw drops. Black Canary gasps. Ladybug hides her smirk. ‘Can you eat quietly?’ Not even a ‘put that away’ or ‘please leave’ or ‘be quiet’. Batman is in his father mode and Ladybug can’t enjoy it more. 

“Sorry,” she says unapologetically and continues eating.

—

She strikes again in the next meeting. 

“Batman, why don’t you remove your cowl?” she says out of the blue. 

Heads turn towards Batman, who grunts. “I’d rather not.” 

Ladybug’s smile turns sickly sweet. She knows what’s under that cowl, since she became a witness to the diabolical plan of Timothy Jackson Drake and Jason Peter Todd. She will not stop until she unveils the monstrosity. 

Meanwhile, the League members present are astounded by her audacity.

“I thought you trusted the whole League with your identity already.” She examines her (gloved) fingernails casually. 

“Yes, but not you,” Batman mumbles as a futile defense. 

She grins. “What do you mean? You told me last week! The cowl, pretty please?” 

The universe knows Batman will never deny his dear daughter of anything. Grumbling under his breath, he pulls down his cowl to reveal his bright pink hair littered with sparkly glitter. 

The League is silent after choking on split-second laughs. No one tries to make a sound. They’re too afraid. Too afraid of both Ladybug and Batman. 

Batman continues his report with his cowl removed. Ladybug leans back, giggling and listening. 

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To your soul, from my body

Dear Love

Time was always trivial. I never waited for anything, for anything would come and go eventually. Whether it would take a month or a century, it mattered not, for it was a certainty I would live to see it. In my eternal mind it was a truth that all destined to perish could carry no meaning or significance, for it would be lost to time’s endless massacre anyway. Why care if the end is inevitable?

When I told you this you scoffed at me, nearly laughed. You said you had always believed the divine were wise. I scoff now at how wrong we both were.

Do you remember when you kissed me? I remember time stopping. Your lips on mine was all that existed. You consumed me, body and soul. Lightning does not compare to the electricityI felt when you touched me. Your words carried more weight than black holes. I can breathe underwater yet I drowned in your eyes. To alter time’s flow like you did was only witnessed before in vain dreams of gods. I still can’t comprehend the power you hold. The universe was jealous of you. Perhaps that is why they could not let you live.

I always knew you would leave me, is it shamefull I'm glad you didnt choose to? I was never worthy of your love, yet you chose to stay. I would thank you for it, if you were still among those who could listen, I would hold you in my arms and whisper it in your ear, like I did many times before. I would howl it from a mountain top for all to hear, but it would not matter. For none of them is you anymore..

I am immortal yet you taught me death. I shall never be alive anymore, without you I merely exist.

To: your soul

From: my body

(I don’t usually write, be kind plz)

Okay I know we've been over this a million times and at this point ppl probably get the idea but I might as well say it:

Really everyone in hatchetfield is morally gray.

It's okay to like villains, yes this includes really bad villains who are just straight up murders like Hidgens and Wilbur. If you don't actually think cold blooded murder is okay then your fine and it's cool and doesn't matter.

And you know what? Hidgens and Wilbur might not actually be that controversial but I'll fucking say it: this goes for every character including Zoey, Sam, Linda, Gerald, Roman and even Pamela too. You're allowed like them, like them as characters, think their funny, whatever, once again as long as you don't actually think killing or child abuse is okay it's fine. Yeah Pamela's a fucking terrible person but you know what she's a hilarious character.

But also, like I said, about all the characters are morally gray. Ted is an absolute peice shit but he used be nice and he also a tragic character with a sad story. Bill doesn't fully listen to and support Alice with absolutely everything (& plz don't think I'm saying "doesn't support" in way that means he's homophobic, dear God no, he fully supports her there, I just mean he doesn't like Deb.) but he also does love her and wants to connect with her. Sam is cheating on Charlotte and she's lonely and sad but she's also cheating on him. This goes into smaller ones too like Ethan can be an asshole sometimes. Or hell even Paul and Emma can be jerks. This goes for basically every single character. I could literally talk about every character and the good and bad they've done (and I would too don't test me).

And also when we see a post saying "I like this character" we don't need be like "okay but are you okay with their bad actions?" like ppl don't need to defend everything, guess what that person is probably aware of that character being bad we don't need to ask. Unless someone is legit being like "actually these absolutely horrible things they did are totally fine" there's no need to worry, and guess what, no one does think those actions are okay bc we're not dumb we're aware murder is bad we're aware cheating is bad, ect ect.

Yessss to all of this. Everyone is morally gray in this universe. There is no one that is 100% good or bad. Yes there are characters that clearly lean more to one side but everyone has some of the other in them too

Also yeah, you're not a bad person for liking bad characters. Like unless you're trying to justify their actions you're allowed to just enjoy fiction

Can i have a marvel matchup plz with a oneshot (yes i saw nwh yes it reignited my love for marvel and yes I’m very much want to be matched with peter but want you to be completely honest in who you match me with (i can always request a peter imagine later) and no idk why i said all this i just thought it’d be funny…..so anyway)

Gender: cis female

Age: 17 (18 on the 23rd)

Sexuality: heterosexual ally

Mbti: infj

Zodiac: Capricorn

Height: 5’2.6

Blood type: O+

Hair: black curly/wavy

Eye color: brown (almost black)

Ethnicity: African American

Personality: kind smart funny motherly responsible empathetic anxious emotional moody perfectionist helpful likes helping other protective people pleaser fearful shy introvert curious nervous nerdy low self esteem imposter syndrome insecure awkward

Likes: animals books fantasy magic reading writing video games listening to music anime cartoons movies learning personality quizzes bread and sweets friends

Dislikes: spiders (im sorry peter they’re scary dw you’re an exception) loud sounds toxic mean jerky people my emotions (sometimes) my siblings not listening to me people i care about not taking care of themselves trypophobia (fear of holes) math (math anxiety) tests (test anxiety) and im a picky eater so lots of foods and textures

Love language:

Giving: acts of service gift giving and physical affection if close enough

Receiving: words of affirmation and physical affection if close enough

What i don’t want: just don’t be a jerk and we’re good (although i liker nerdy smart nice guys if i didn’t make that obvious lol)

What i don’t want: a toxic jerk

Oneshot scenario i would like: just taking care of me 👉🏾👈🏾🥺

Ok thank you

Hello dear 💖 im glad you've gotten back into marvel.

And so without further ado I ship you with:

Peter parker a.k.a spiderman🕸️

- he met you through his school, he would study everyday but ends up trying to follow you around. He is shy around girls he likes often either showing off as Spiderman but as himself he just is very shy.

- you were a beauty to him your stunning looks and attitude is what attracted him. You were on the cheerleading team as the leader. Yes in this universe your a cheerleader whether you like it or not.

- you are incredibly shy however and nerdy. Your friends supported you but you weren't one for the crowd only wanting to read and do fanfiction quizzes.

- you often wear headphones and one day you bumped into Peter when he nervously apologies and you say no problem. The two of you are quite awrkward since both share attraction.

- you have a fear of spiders of course but that didn't stop Peter from coming into your house one night.

- you didn't know he was Spiderman so in your dreamy state you feel his mask and realise it was Peter.

- you have the most prettiest eyes in the world and he would happily stare in them all day.

- video gaming to him would be a dream a girl gamer is one of his top tier dream dates.

- overall you two would eventually work for Sheild you as a agent and him as Spiderman. You turn out to have powers, your ability is to shapeshift. You married in a chapel and have a kid who's got your hair and Peter's eyes. They become the next spider man.

And of course the one shot.

Peter parker X reader💖

A comfort from a spider🕸️

Y/n was reading her book in her room, it was late and she was just finished having a shower. Y/n was reading on her bed quietly dreaming of Peter parker, he was her crush.

The two had met through high school and began dating. Peter had never met someone so beautiful in his life and he didn't regret it. y/n was in love with both Peter and spiderman she knew she was utterly devoted to him.

Suddenly you heard a faint "tap" from your window, afraid you open it to see who it was. You jump in surprise "gah Peter what are you doing".

"oh uh sorry y/n just wanted to check in, see how ya doing" he acted awrkward. "Sorry I scared ya, I forgot you have a thing against spiders" he chuckles.

"or it's the fact a boys at my window" you raise an eyebrow. "Oh yeah anyways I brought you something" he holds up a box of pizza. "Oh you didn't have to-" before he cuts you off "no it's my treat I was going to ask if you wanted to share this with me" he smiles shyly.

Y/n smiled warmly at her boyfriends gesture "alright fine but keep your voice down low my parents are sleeping". Peter nods and slings himself inside.

Slowly you and Peter sit on your bed trying not to make a sound. "Sweet room by the way cleaner then mine" he smiles "aunt may always tries to make me clean".

"oh is that so~ well you do have a messy room" you teased lightly. "Aw come on man" he whined laughing.

He couldn't help but stare into your eyes as you are pizza. "Hey y/n, I'm glad to have met you and if you need anything I'm here for ya" he smiles warmly.

"oh Peter" you couldn't help but smooch his lips. Peter does the same and smiles at your cuteness.

The end of the night was brisk he swung out of your room. He had that same dorky smile as he left.

You were in love who knew spiders could be such a comfort.

Anyways that's all I have for now:

Ta Ta 💫

Prompt 60 Victor plz?

so I usually write all my headcannons and scenarios that are set in ‘present day’ as part of the bittersweetmelxdy writing universe, where each of the love interest exist in their own separate universe where all the scenarios and headcanons are connected to the other. But I couldn’t fit this one in the rest, so assume this one exists by itself :), Hope you like this dear, I know you’ve been waiting for this for a long time.

Title: a calm before the proverbial stormPairing: Victor x MCWords: 1,417

Victor had woken up that morning in a state of calm, something that would not last throughout the day unbeknownst to him. He rose at his usual time, kissed his wife on the temple before rising to complete his morning routine. He then helped his wife out of bed, checked his schedule and emails, whilst she got dressed and then he carried her down the stairs to the kitchen, to prevent any accidents whilst she was heavily pregnant. Setting her tenderly in a rocking chair in the corner of the kitchen he then was about to leave, when he heard some sniffing behind him, immediately he whipped his head back around to see what had hurt his wife.  

“Wait! Where are you going?” your tears welled up in your eyes, and Victor’s felt a sharp pain in his chest at the sight of your pitiful gaze.

“Just to the kitchen.” he reassured, “you’ll be able to see me.” he then pointed at the counter that was clearly in your sight range.

“It’s too far.” you sobbed.

“Dearest, it’s not-”

“Victor if I say it’s far! it’s far!” you were on the verge of sobbing due to your irritation

Victor drew you into his chest and rubbed your back, which somehow only made your tears come worse. Feeling helpless, he just drew you in a little tighter, taking care of your pregnant belly, and hushed your sobs whispering soft words into your ear. Until your sobs subsided and you simply just sat and breathed deeply.  

“I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry, I don’t mean to be like this, but I just can’t.” You whispered, your voice hoarse and your fists clenched tightly in the back of his shirt.

“No, no dearest, it’s fine.” Victor slowly extracted you from his frame and then he eased you into a standing position, escorting you gallantly into the kitchen, “But maybe you are a bit too far for me to look after.” Victor took your bright beaming smile as his reward for his solution to your pregnancy-induced mood swing.

While he made breakfast for the two of you, he snuck glances as you set the coffee machine on for him, and then reached for a cloth to continue to clean the surfaces of your already spotless kitchen. He smiled as he watched you furrow your brows in concentration, if the doctor hadn’t mentioned that this behaviour was sometimes exhibited by expectant mothers, he would have been really confused at your new-found mysophobia. The doctor had amusedly told him when he had fussed over you about this, that sometimes some mothers take to “nesting” as their labour date draws closer and closer. He was told it was nothing to worry about, and that if anything he should indulge you in your behaviour and allow you to “nest” happily. You hadn’t caused too much chaos in your day-to-day life; it was mostly just excessive cleaning and moving around pillows and blankets in order to make the place more comfortable for yourself. Victor would just let you be, secretly enjoying how hard you were trying to make your home more friendly for your coming child.  

The smell of breakfast being finished, is what stopped your cleaning spree, Victor watched as you sniffed twice deeply before waddling your way to the table and easing yourself into a chair awaiting Victor with both of your breakfasts. Victor snorted once, and you immediately glared at him in response.

“Stop laughing Victor, it’s not funny, I can’t walk.” You pouted at him.

“I can’t help it dummy.” Victor placed the plate in front of you and as you tilted your head in anticipation towards him, he rewarded you with another kiss to your temple, withholding his thought on how adorable you were.

Breakfast passed without much fuss, Victor filling you in about his schedule whilst he watched you fondly munch away at your stack of pancakes that were literally covered maple syrup and bananas. He was lucky that your pregnancy cravings hadn’t been too crazy, the baby mostly just craving sweet foods, their favourites including kit-kats and strawberries. Seeing as you had always had a bit of a sweet tooth, this was a game Victor was definitely a pro at, knowing plenty of recipes to satiate your urgings. Victor loved watching you eat what he cooked, and you being pregnant meant that he could impress you even further with his culinary skill.

After breakfast, despite his refusals, Victor eventually bowed out and let you wash the dishes, choosing to instead to gather both your belongings to place them by the front door. He then helped you to the car and carefully drove you to LFG. Seeing as your office was closed for the day, Victor didn’t want you at home by yourself, so he decided that today he’d look after you himself.

Arriving at LFG, Victor settled you into his office, letting you place your belongings where you saw fit, as also using the blanket Victor had bought for you earlier, to nest yourself onto the sofa in the office. After a parting hug and kiss, Victor went about his day, working in his office and answering phones calls, periodically checking on you throughout the day to make your safe and happy. You had felt a few cramps and twinges, but you didn’t want to worry Victor unnecessarily, so you passed it off and didn’t let him know. However, it was when he finally left his office that things took a turn.

It was halfway-through the meeting, just as Victor was about to ask the company’s representative about their financial projections for the project, when Goldman burst into the room breathless. Victor raised his eyebrow at his assistant and Goldman doesn’t even bother to work around to tell him discreetly he just panted out the news that both made Victor’s blood run cold and sent him into fight-or-flight mode.

“Y/N’s water broke, she’s gone into labour.”

The whole room was so quiet, as Victor stood up abruptly, didn’t even gather his things and barely remembered to utter a “meeting adjourned”, before rushing back to his office to see you. You were sat, exactly where he had left you, and were breathing deeply, hands on your stomach. Victor sat gingerly next to you and placed a hand gently on your back, rubbing it in smooth circles to calm your already frazzled nerves. Looking up at him up offered him a tired smile and another contraction caused you face to twist in pain and your head lolled forwards, Victor scrunching his brows and resting his forehead against yours, as he listened to Goldman tell him that he had contacted the ambulance and they were on their way.

The paramedics helped you into a wheelchair and wheeled you down into the ambulance, Victor being allowed to ride in the vehicle to the hospital. Following them as they wheeled you into the delivery room, Victor’s heart contracted watching how much pain you were in. Once in the room, you latched onto Victor’s hand, squeezing it to the point of pain, as the doctor told you calmly to push.

“This hurts so much. We have to use condoms next time; you can never plan this pain as much as you plan for the baby!” You were almost screaming in pain.

“I thought you were the one who wanted a big family.” Victor tried to tease.

“Victor, don’t give me that smart attitude this is to-” you stopped speaking to give another painful push, “this is totally your fault.”

“Wholly and completely dearest.” Victor tried to placate you.

“Just another push Mrs Li, we can see the head.” the doctor told you.

You turned to Victor tiredly, “Victor I can’t, I just can’t…”

“You can, my brave, brave girl, I know you can.” Victor reassured you, and finally after one final push that nearly caused you to pass out, as your consciousness began to blur, you were greeted by the glorious cry of a small baby.

“Congratulations Mrs Li, you have a beautiful baby girl.” the doctor smiled, cutting the umblical cord, and you wearily smiled back, having already given birth to the afterbirth, watching as they left to clean and weigh the baby.

Victor brushed the damp hair from your forehead and pressed a firm kiss to your forehead, as you continued to slip in and out of consciousness, “Sleep dearest, you deserve it.” and your world faded as you finally succumbed to sleep.

Awww a tag game! @stag-of-almyra tagged me in a tag game which is real sweet! So Imma go and answer these questions.

Favourite colour: This is gonna sound crazy but Yellow, Purple, Green, red, and orange. Yup. There's a lot of em. I also like pink.

Last song I listened to: Don't Loose Ur Head, from Six the Musical. (one of my many favorites)

Favourite Musician: oooohhhh. That is tough..... Um... ABBA? Or maybe (no hate plz) One Direction... Or maybe Of Monsters And Men... I HAVE SO MANY FAVORITES AND THEYRE ALL VEERRRY DIFFERENT!!!

Favourite Song: don't have one. My current Master Playlist has over 500 songs on it and counting... So I really can't choose, but right now I'm listening to a lot of Dear Evan Hansen...

Last film I watched: Detective Pikachu, before that Interstellar, and before that My Neighbour Totoro.

Last TV show I watched: Steven Universe Future. And before that The Dragon Prince. Love them both..❤️❤️

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Hard to say... I find if something is too sweet, I don't like it. But I only like some spicy stuff, and savoury... IDK probably sweet. But I'm really not sure

Pets: One dog and one cat. My dog's name is Fawkes, and my cat's name is Artemis, after the Pheonix from Harry Potter, and the main character of Artemis Fowl respectably. (If this wasn't a FE blog, I'd be trashing it with pictures of my bois)

Thank you for tagging me! I'll tag @thatidiotedgelord @the-worst-fe-player @strink-family @flamingopuuuunch @kalinary @laurentthings literally anyone. I'm bad at thinking up blogs off the top of my head. EVERYONE! THAT'S RIGHT I'M TALKING TA YOUUUUUUUUU! tysm for tagging me!

wolf 359 finale

No liveblogging because I wanted to avoid all spoilers at all costs but here goes livetyping (then posting everything in one go) OOOOOMG.

Needless to say: spoilers! (I'm also tagging this post of course)

- HOLY SHIT HERE WE GO - wow sad Pryce backstory - ok this was the creepiest 'Hello little girl' ever, Cutter stahp. But okay Pryce isn't quite as old as Cutter, that's interesting. - "KEPLER WHY ARE YOU ON MY SHIP" lmfaoooo - how badly I just want them to leave NOW, to hell with everything, but alas 2 hours left lmao kill me - "Eiffel will this work" Eiffel is the expert "It will work" oh crap - Jacobi is in pain NO - is Kepler saying thank you - "I'm concerned" "OH YOU'RE CONCERNED" - no Kepler stop the weak excuses omg "I played the game" shut up "bigger p-" NO - yessssss Jacobi you're calling it - what is Lovelace doing what is she eating omg haha - wtf that fridge, freezer, drinks cabinet, because of course lmfao - every time they mention "back on earth" and "home" I mean almost two hours left to this episode we're all screwed aren't we - "do let it hit you on the way out" Jacobi I love you - species but WHICH one - everyone sounds really damn happy about Minkowski's decision? - "Jacobi don't" ok tiny feels - KEPLER TAKE THE RIGHT SIDE - RACHEL TAKE THE RIGHT SIDE - OH they don't fuck - JACOBI SPEECH OMG I LOVE YOU you are the best ;0; - but what is the evil plannnnnn - KEPLER NO oh god "don't do this colonel" BIG FEELS "thank you Daniel and goodbye" HUGE FEELS - I'm dead - Maxwell - flashback?! - MAXWELL - huge, crushing, feels - "Have you gotten the whiskey speech yet?" LMFAO - Kepler you big ass - Cutter omg - TRACKER AND TRANSMITTER ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME HANDS OFF MY BBY - Eiffel's log... T_T - ok here are my tears, at last - Eiffel and Minkowski laughing over musical I love it - but one day more ok end my suffering now - Zach making Eiffel do a terrible Hilbert imitation is.. Zach, you are perfect, never change - OMG MINKOWSKI OMG EIFFEL SCREAMING OMG MORE TEARS HOLY S HIT - this can't be the last we hear of Eiffel right? right? nah - "Mr Jacobi's tracker" one thing I never want to hear again - did Kepler really use "Eiffel" and "enemy forces" in one sentence, like, have you MET Eiffel - "I'm so sick of this happening" oh whoops of course because he's torpedoed into space alone AGAIN - "wait a minute where is Eiffel" AGAIN - a wolf 359 unique trope - Hera's "chance to say goodbye" T_T - "so: reckless, dangerous and practically guaranteed to fail?" - "not in a million years" - just a random moment to say so far this episode is VERY GOOD and I'm not dead yet?? - Cutter plays the piano because of course - "Do... read a book some time" MIRANDA - so brave new world = The Tempest, after all - device what device - "Oohhh fun!" that was v creepy, Cutter - and after all that's happened Eiffel says Minkowski's name right - hahahahha EIFFEL WHAT this is terrible - Eiffel have you not being paying any attention - Jacobi lmfao "you're gonna ruin everything" - "VIC" - "she basically invented the paranoia on this station" lmao - "AWW YOUR LITTLE FACE" Jacobi you perfect asshole I love you - JACOBI ARE YOU OK OMG - STOP HURTING JACOBI JFC - JACOBI DON'T GET KILLED - PLEASE I BEG YOU - Minkowski and Lovelace scheming together is in my top 3 of favourite things in the universe - "there are way too many ghosts in this place" feels - Hilbertttttt omg everyone is in this episode????? - Lovelace sass - Hilbert/Selberg groan - "I am never going to be rid of you am I" IF ONLY YOU KNEW - EIFFEL FFS YOU SHOULD HAVE PAID ATTENTION - I BELIEVE IN YOU - "I can't do this, not on my own" "That I'm not smart enough, that I'm not military enough, that I'm not YOU enough" "Let it go, let it all go" RIGHT IN THE HEART - GOOD JOB EIFFEL - what a terrible way to confirm identity btw just saying, "here's my password for everyone to hear because I have to say it out loud!" jfc - "a very witching hour" did you really - DEVICE WHAT DEVICE - WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO - 2 MINUTES NO WHAT STOP - haha wow Cutter talking to the Dear Listeners oh man - what happened last time OH RIGHT Kepler lost a hand - good luck Cutter lmfao - virus because of course - decima???? but but wait? or is it? but Eiffel survived that? - it IS DECIMA but wait what - OH HOLY FUCK THE DESTRUCTION OF THE HUMAN RACE - "SO IF YOU STILL WANT TO LEARN SOMETHING FROM US" - ALL OF THIS SHIT OVER MUSIC?! GODDAMN MUSIC????!!!SOFJ;LASFKJL;SAF - oooooooooohhhhhhhhhh it's blue - "Nice to meet you, Bob!" HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS TERRIBLE - also Cutter you are disgusting - I could use some Bob-sass right now - "Remarkable and cold" that's just Pryce & Carter honestly - ah yes the sass there it is - which technology do they want - THE ABILITY TO WHAT OH FUCK OF COURSE - "Bobby baby no" CUTTER OMG STOP - "We - like - humans" "new" "better" "randomness out of the equation" "self-guided evolution" Idk what to say - acceptable?! - STOP SAYING "BOB" IT'S KILLING ME - Douglas Eiffel "the appropriate mental structure" AHAHAHSFLKDJSA;FASJ;LFKJSAFLKASFJASJAS FSOHHSFHSFHSADF - OH THIS IS THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE EVER - HAHAHASLFKJ;SAFJ;LASF I CAN'T I'M DEAD - HOLY MOLY CUTTER THAT WAS HOLY SHIT NO THAT WAS TERRIFYING DON'T DO THAT AGAIN - Eiffel no - EIFFEL NO - EIIIIFFFFFFFFEL NOOOOOOO - EIFFEL. NO. NO. - stop. saying. Bob. Eiffel why did you have to call him Bob goddammit - Eiffel no - "Tell me I didn't kill anyone we like" Eiffel is channeling all of us - "let's make sure at least someone makes it through this" all of you plz minus Pryce and Carter and Rachel because yeah - Minkowski no - I don't know what you're going to do but no - Lovelace yes - "Let's go get our idiot back" ily Isabel - STOP HURTING JACOBI - PLEASE - I'M SO SCARED FOR MY BBY - "your funeral" shut up - ok Zach talking to Zach just perfect this is what I'm going to miss when it's all over tbh - "YOU KILLED BOB ARE YOU CRAZY" - "I JUST HATE LOOSE ENDS" well I HATE YOU - "the Pryce is not right" haha oh crap - Harry Potter books one through four "oh that's nice" YES WHAT THE HELL PRYCE - "So that's who Dumbledore is" DO READ A BOOK SOME TIME, MIRANDA - HERA how though - complicated, yes I'd say so - Cutter step away - "streamline" lmfao "me?!" haha "can't of course catch bullets" ENHANCEMENTS no "rude" dammit - JACOBI BE OKAY PLEASE - ok I am now 100% sure who my favourite terrible character is hi Jacobi PLEASE BE OKAY - JACOBI YES - Pryce vs Hera, this is terrifying - "You don't look like me" "I spent my entire life trying to NOT be you" "Adorable but futile" holy crap - stop calling her 214 you creeper - careful with Eiffel kids - the first two Queen albums and all things Star Wars prequels "I think I might be okay with that last one actually" hahahahahahahaHA - "bye bye Mr Bob" I think you're making a mistake Rachel - Kepler shut up no one cares about you (I do but NO ONE ON THE HEPHAESTUS) - "don't go soft on me Warren" oh Rachel - "we have to tell Mr Cutter" "do we?" listen to Warren - KEPLER YES - KEPLER YESSSSSS - KEPLERRRRRRR YESSSSSSSSSSSS - (oh no Rachel but) - KEPLER YES - YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS - KEPLER OH NO - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - NO NO NO NO NO - SOMEONE STOP HER - of course he was the one to go - fuck T_T FUCK - FUCKKK T____________T - it was oddly nice to hear he had his whiskey with him - oh god I'm worried about Jacobi what will he feel - Cutter - JACOBIIIIIIIIIII - NO NO NO NO NO NO NO - JACOBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - my heart - MY HEART MY POOR HEART - he went out with a bang - MY HEART T_T - Minlace vs Cutter oh my god - NO NO NO NO - JEZUS FUCKING CHRIST YOU ALL LIKE TO WATCH US SUFFER DON'T YOU - MINKOWSKI NOOOOO - so everyone dies? are we going to ignore the existence of this episode? are we? yes? yes. - STOP HURTING EIFFEL YOU GIGANTIC BITCH - STOP TOUCHING HIS MEMORIES - this is going to be a farewell?! - DON'T DO THE FAREWELL SPEECH THING - PLEASE DON'T - Cutter shut up - Minkowski are you ok - HOLY SHIT MINKOWSKI GO GO GO - "I actually felt that one" GOOD - YES LOVELACE SHOOT HIM - "neat" shUT UP - HOLY MOLY LOVELACE YES - groaning Cutter - HARPOON A FUCKING HARPOON THAT IS BRILLIANT - "that is not how this is supposed to end" BYE BITCH - Minkowski T_T - Lovelace T_T - go get Eiffel - there is no way anyone is going to make it out alive ok I'm trying to make peace with this - out of all the terrible people Pryce is still there why - "goodbye doctor Pryce" Hera you are scary what are you doing - everyone is going to die - "thanks for all the fish before I don't understand that reference" omg - NO YOU IDIOT PRYCE IS RIGHT BUT - IT'S THE ONLY THING TO DO BUT - OH MY GOD NO - eiFFEL - what a pleasure to hear Pryce so angry for a moment - bye bitch - Eiffel :( - oh god he gets to say goodbye - OH GOD HE GETS TO SAY GOODBYE I'M CRYING - CRYING - NO NO NO NO NO - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHY ARE THEY HURTING US SO POOR HERA - "he's gone" - oh no this flashback please stop we're already broken. you're kicking someone who's already down stop it - "Minkovski" "Minkowski" "Minkovski" "Minekowski" oh no :'(((( - cigarettes ffs all the feelings "I'll think of something" omg - oh no I'm crying so hard oh no - "starrrr- what?" NO - Lovelace - end our suffering - end all our sufferings - Hera no - why do you hate us so - Minkowski is basically all alone now - WHY DO YOU HATE US SO - WE HAVE FEELINGS TOO - "Renée, Renée?!" - WHAT IS HAPPENING - WHAT WHAT WHAT IS HAPPENING - OMG - LOVELACE. MINKOWSKI. - IS THIS HAPPENING - IS ANYONE ELSE ALIVE?! - HERA. EIFFEL?! - JACOBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII - "JACOBI MY PERSONAL LORD AND SAVIOUR THANK GOD YOU GOT US OUT OF THAT DEATH TRAP" OMGGGGG - OMG  OMGSODFKJ;SAF JOMG OGM OGM OMG OMGOMG OMGOMGOM G OMG THANK YOU UNIVERSE - JACOBI IS ALIVE - "Jacobi, what about Kepler?" I love that you asked :( - "No." "I'm sorry." "It's alright." oh god you really did love him?! You really did?! And everyone knew. I can't interpret this any other way, I just can't - Eiffel EIFFEL this is brilliant the logs oh god this is brilliant I love it yeah you were a jerk but we love you so much Eiffel - BY THE WAY Jacobi is alive JACOBI IS ALIVE - "Am I still that same person?" oh man are they doing what I think they're doing? Super duper Eiffel not-a-jerk-redemption-arc?? - MY FAVES ARE ALIVE I'M JUST SAYING - Oh my god PRYCE IS ALIVE?! - ahahhaskfljas;f ahahahahahaha *spirals into insanity* - Pryce. Hera. Holy crap. I... I don't know what I expected but this is beautiful?? I can't believe this is happening? This is so good? I love it? - Jacobi is alive I can't believe I get to hear him talk still I am so happy I can die peacefully - if it doesn't hold I'll scream, I'm just saying - "TELL ME YOU DIDN'T DO ALL THIS JUST TO WIN A BET" OF COURSE HE DID HAHAHAHAHA IT'S JACOBI i'm dead - no glitches! you deserve it bby! - we are talking about "back on earth", I'm so happy - thank you universe - find husband, take apart Goddard Futuristics, Disney Land, vacations, I love this thank you - "see you on the other side" I'd be happy if you never say terrifying things like that ever again thanks - "Hera, you ready to go home?" "What about you mister?" I love you all - I love you all so much thank you for staying alive I love you - Eiffel ;0; - "Spending time with you two was one of the best things I ever did" aw - this doesn't sound good - please be ok, you're ok right? yes yes you are I choose to believe you are okay thanks - you're fine I love you all thank you I'm so happy I'm also crying but I'm happy - the final credits are the worst I'm crying I love you all thank you for my life

Tagged!

Rules: You must answer these 81 (originally it was 85, but someone missed few numbers while counting) and tag 20 people

Tagged by: @reimeijennoir

THE LAST

1. Drink: Mint alcohol drink (dear Lord save me) 2. Phone call: to my Mom~ 3. Text message: Also to my Mom (let me love my family) 4. Song you listened to: by my own will? Opening from Assassination Classroom - Bye bye yesterday 5. Time you cried: A few days ago while laughing, watching some anime crack 6. Dated someone twice: nope, it was hard enough for me to date someone once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never happened 8. Been cheated on: never 9. Lost someone special: half year ago… 10. Been depressed: Tell me when I wasn’t lol 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I can hold my liquor pretty well, so never~

FAVOURITE COLORS

12. Blue 13. Black 14. Mint

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. Made new friends: If we are talking about 2016 then not really 16. Fallen out of love: yes… 17. Laught until you cried: Yaas, many times xd 18. Found out someone was talking about you: well, of course 19. Met someone who changed you: I think that’s a no 20. Found out who your friends are: in a way, yes 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yup

GENERAL

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: uhm… Around 100? 23. Do you have any pets: Yes! I have a hamster! 24. Do you want to change your name: yes, but not that much 25. What did you do for your last birthday: Spending time with my family and EATING CAKES 26. What time did you wake up: after 8 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: playing Castle Cats ( and messaging @reimeijennoir ) 28. Name something you can’t wait for: I can’t wait for ending my education (I’m not even at the University yet, lol) 29. When was the last time you saw your Mom: a minute ago 30. What are you listening to right now: my parents and their friends talking (I can’t escape) 31. Have you ever talked to a person called Tom: Yup 32. Something that is getting on your nerves: stupid people talking to me about things they don’t know anything about, but still trying to convince me that their words are truth 33. Most visited website: Tumblr or Discord (for reasons), I’m not exacly sure 34. Hair color: Dark blonde 35. Long or short hair: Long (my hair reaches my waist, so I guess it’s long) 36. Do you have a crush on someone: If we are counting fictional characters, then YES 37. What do you like about yourself: my sense of humor ( I believe I’m funny) 38. Piercings: in my ears, but I’m not wearing earrings often 39. Blood type: B 40. Nickname: Platypus (it’s complicated) 41. Relationship status: Fiance of fictional character from otome game 42. Zodiac: Cancer ♋ 43. Pronouns: she/her 44. Favorite TV show: Bones all the way! 45. Tattoos: don’t have any 46. Right or left handed: Right 47. Surgery: not yet 48. Sport: eating and sleeping xd 49. Vacation: currently on vacation~

MORE GENERAL

50. Eating: Sandwiches and snacks 51. Drinking: Coffee 52. I’m about to: run after that fluffy cat over there 53. Waiting for: THAT CAT TO LOVE ME 54. Want: to cuddle with that cat forever T_T 55. Get married: I hope for it one day 56. Career: Dietetian

WHICH IS BETTER

57. Hugs or kisses: Hugs all the way! (be scared! I love cuddling!) 58. Lips or eyes: Eyes~ 59. Shorter or taller: Taller 60. Older or younger: Older, but not too much 61. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice stomach (￣▽￣)ノ 62. Hook up or relationship: Relationship 63. Troublemaker or hestitant: I guess troublemaker would expose my crazy side more

HAVE YOU EVER

64. Kissed a stranger: bleh, nope 65. Drank hard liquor: a few times 66. Lost glasses/ contact lenses: Glasses like twice and I can’t count how many times I lost my contact lenses 67. Turned someone down: Not directly, but yes 68. Sex on the first date: Nope 69. Broken someone’s heart: Yes… Few times sadly… 70. Had your heart broken: Someone plz help me count, how many times, lol 71. Been arrested: Never. I’m pure and innocent angel 😇 72. Cried when someone died: Yes 73. Fallen for a friend: Of course, it’s usually like that

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

74. Yourself: I’m trying, but… not really… 75. Miracles: Well… Kinda 76. Love at first sight: not really 77. Santa Claus: Even as a kid, I didn’t 78. Kiss on the first date: not possible in my case, but for others… Yes 79. Angels: Yes

OTHER

80. Eye color: yellowish brown with some green in it? It’s hard to tell 81. Favorite movies: Harry Potter, Hairspray (that version with Zac Efron), all Disney movies!

I’m not going to tag anyone, because screw the rules! xd (also I don’t have many friends…)

🌙🌙🔥🌙🌙||HOPE #4; ||You Know My Name, Not My Story||🌙🌙🔥🌙🌙

🌙🌙🔥🔥facebook, this is part of my life story, this is in the past. Im in no way a harm to myself and others. Thank u. PART FOUR!!!🌟🌟🥀🥀 *SatanslashGod; im gonna pray, i think God is calling me to fufill His duties. I was homeless for the 13th time. I walked the streets for days. I got possessed by God. And i acted out bizarrely insanely dangerously, abnormally, like an animal. I stayed up for 3 days straight. And taking extra of my medication. I had a full blown physcotic break. I didnt kniw my name. I was talking like a baby, waving my arms in the air. I lost all my senses. I forgot how to function. I got admitted to Loma Linda ER, and they took me in right away. I was like nonresponsive. I was an animal, a vegetable. I was dysfunctional. And then they transferred me to Loma Linda BMC. Mental hospital. While i was there i acted out. They put me on concervertaship, i had a hearing, and i saw the judge. It was my over 200th mental hospital. And the judge almost sent me to an institution but i lied, and i got off. Ive been concervered over 5 times. I gor diagnosed with ovee 10+ mental illnesses. Critically/Clinically Insane && The Most High Maitnence Case In The System. When i was 12 i sold my soul to the devil. And i became a bully. And multiple places and people told me that i had a serial killers personality, that she looked into my eyes and said "theres nothing in there" "your untreatable" "your too high maintenance for us to treat" my therapist Thea said ahe waz one step away from conserving me and taken to a state institution. And she said they probably couldn't treat me. Ive been to 215 mental hospitals. And ive been thru it all. I cant tell the difference between God and satan, when i get commands i cant tell the difference. *Richard Enxxellia/Puppoi/Three 7s/SeventyThree6's/UglyBitterSky; Richard gives me paranormal activities. Qualities, which he possesses me to act out dangerously. One example is when i get homoscidal. He decodes the devil into me. He moves certain objects and living things to make me use my 10 senses. As i dissociate to many alternate universes. The darkness takes over me. He decodes demons into me. Decoding me, i have codes, we all do. In NXSP. Rascal/Raskal is my therapy dog. Whos dying of cancer. I hallucinate him everywhere. But i see him as if he was real. And people tell me itz all in my head. Like i have a full blown convo or im playing with him. But my mom and bro tells me hes not in here. Three 7s is where my mania gets out of control. Like i feel like im famous, for the right or wrong reasons. Its all a delusional world. I go out of reality now 100% of the day. And thats not normal. *Bad Mommy-Good Mommy/Duplicates Of People/TwentyStepsForward; __::::TSF was a demon that Johnny hated, but somehow was connected too. So after Me/I, Izzy "Ace 8/Spizey/MsSweetInsanityyx" (Me/I/M3/iii) killed him. The reason why Lily "Dancing Fire" was so mad at Izzy was because TSF turned to ashes after Johnny died, (was killed by Izzy) and that made Lily wanna send Izzy to The Ends more, as she tried to follow thru with that plan, but failed. Ever since i killed Johnny, Dancing Fire has become a bigger and more dangerous demon in my head, becoming worse and telling Alvaro to possess me more. So Alvaro && Dancing Fire have gotten worse. After i killed Johnny. __::::Bad Mommy/Good Mommy take toll of my mind. When i was in my drug and alcohol addiction, Bad Mommy got worse, she wears a scar on her face. She abuses me, (in real life she did abuse me mentally and very rarely physically, but this was before i got back into my addiction) after i tried to come home after she kicked me out *again* (while i was homeless for the 13th time) i was on cocaine, meth. Acid, pills, heroin etc etc. I came home and she slammed me against a wall, and called me a whore. Then she "switched" and forgot about it later, it scared me, and she won my trust and forgiveness back by giving me brownies. This went on for awhile. In reality tho. She did call me really offensive names. But she didn't slam me against the wall. I was scared of her and on multiple occasions didn't wanna come home from school. Anyways i dont wanna elaborate on that. __::::Duplicates of people really fucked me up. This waz after me coming home in 2018. I saw duplicates of people i do and don't know. And it scares me. Now it only happens with my therapy dog, Rascal *Cones/Wesley "Presley" Garcia/Mr.OutOfDate; |__::::????::::__| XX_XX __::::????::::__ | | Cones;____Guide me in the right direction. Master Cone. Controlling your slaves and servants. Your fucking with my head, your make me follow your path, as u soar strangely thru the air. Trying to show me a new reality, the Cones are ahead of the other flying objects. Its like your all dancing around me and my reality of a dreamland, a dreamland like reality. You opened my eyes, but also made me more insane. Therez all sorts of shapes, dancing strangly. You made me dissociate more than usual. As i traveled all the universes and galaxies. You did both harm and good for me. Thank u, for opening up my eyes, as im developing my 11th sense, i already have 10 senses. You traumatized me and u saved me. Thank u. Cones and Objects. For becoming a part of me. Cones are non living transitioning to living. But only i can see them. I appreciate you all. All the different breeds and kinds of objects. Theres millions of them. And im glad we crossed paths. I love u my Cone Family🖤🥀🌙🔥 Wesley "Presley" Garcia;____ Dear, Wesley/Presley, Did u Wanna get away, why did u make Johnny so bad, i know u were his master. And i know after u died, Johnny took your place, but i had to kill him, he tortured me and all of NXSP, i just wanna ask, why are u so fucked up? We did nothing to deserve this torture. Thank u for trying ur best with Johnny, but i just wanna let u know, even if u tortured us (made Johnny do it) im still here for u, cus i jyst found out that you didn't torture Johnny. Lily lied. And i should have known. Johnny tortured u, and no one knew, so i apologize for blaming u. Johnny also made up stories about you, that u tortured him. And i just put the pieces together and i realized Johnny started all this. NOT ERIN! Lily is just as bad as Johnny and Alvaro. All 3 of them fucked and traumatized all of us. If there is anything i can do to help. Plz let me know. I wanna save NXSP. Not destroy it. I know ur dead, but i miss u. And i realized you tried to pull/put NXSP back together, now its just pure darkness. Do u mind (&& u dont have to if ur not comfortable with it) send us angels to protect us from harm. Like what Constance used to do. I love u hun, keep fighting, soldier, Sincerely, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez/Ace 8/Spizey/Ms_SweetInsanityyx && im also speaking for my family at NXSP. I love u. Hope u get this message.🖤🥀🌙🔥 Mr.OutOfDate;____ You give me reoccurring dreams and visions of my mom dying. && u made me live thru hell itself. Literally, and u bring me closer and more content with death. I feel like im dying everyday, like literally. I feel my body being tortured by my demons and Satan. Who ive met thru traveling the galaxies and universes. Why? I wanna live, not die. Heres a lil thing i wrote about this. "I wanna become content with living But i feel closer that death My mom is the only thing i have Without her i would already be dead I check her breathing while shes asleep on her bed I just wanna be dead No words left unsaid I feel closer to death everyday And i feel myself fading away Still happens to this day Losing levels of sanity more each day Losing my mind and i cant stay awake Ive been thru hell and torture Trauma, pain and darkness Do we know all the answers? Do we all get possessed by the devil Do we all lose control by the hour Dont die Mom Plz dont go Your my sun Plz dont go Your my reason I sold my soul to the darkness But i cant let my mom go Its hard to explain the love i have for her Its easy to explain why i love her Im becoming closer to death Got this fire in my heart Got this fire in my soul Im not whole, im not ok Maybe ill be ok one day I love u mom, Mr.OutOfDate, Youve come way to date You brought me and made me live thru hell Ive lived thru hell itself. Goodnight my beautiful sunshine Aint nobody dying tonight."-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez Were all strangers to ourselves. Its hard to say i love myself, cuz im broken and damaged. I love u mom, ur my everything. Your my sunshine my sunrise and my nighttime. If u die i die. Goodnight. 🖤🥀🌙🔥 *Visions&Hallucinations of Past&Future/ObjectsHavingAForceOnMe; Dancing Fire cordinates it. All 100% of my past flashes in my head at random times. And i cant control it. Id be in a completely different reality. And i use all my 10 intensitied senses for every part of my past. Like i was there again. CODE 203 J REPEAT CODE 203 THIS IS SYSTEM SHUTDOWN X FOLLOW ALL GIVEN PROCATIONS. Lily you need to get the fuck outta here with that shit. SHUT UP CHARLOTTE! Homie, you better back up. Im talking to u, Lily. Well Charlotte imma show Izzy her past right now. OHHHH IS THAT IT LILY THATS WHY UR SHUTTING EVERYTHING DOWN! I miss u Lily, the old u.. Im not feeling to good Lily. Im sorry Lily. IM DONE! When objects look at me, its like im looking in a mirror, and there using codes to take over me && they scare me, for example i can look at a door knob, a window. A sky, a cieling, and i feel like it has a force on me. Like there trying to get inside me. Like i see a chair and i scream cuz its looking right thru me. Heres a lil poem i wrote: "Dont talk to the ceiling It might talk back Taking over me Can u see me Can u hear me Do u get that peculiar feeling Of all the hell im dealing Leave me alone I dont have a stable home I look into ur eyes The pretty silver sky Its looking right thru me Its posessing oh its controlling me Got that strange feeling Are these the Aces that im dealing Your looking right thru me Dont listen to the walls They dont think when they talk Dont run away from fear Dont draw the devil nearer There decoding you my darling There breathing how non living objects should Cuz non living things are just as important As living things, your being cornered Breathe my friend In and out Breathe and shout Theres no way out There surrounding me Im inside my TV This is all a game And i declare you insane Smiles on everybody Nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors Smiles on my little baby Nobody needs to ser what goes on behind closed doors. Take control dont let it control you Why are u so blue? Are u in the flumes Ace 8 Break It Down Theres No Way Out Im In The Dark Now Im Just Hellbound The more u try to fight it The stronger it gets I would take my life to save yours Trauma occurring 24/7 From 2001-2018 Over 10+ mental illnesses They say your insane Well they did diagnose me critically/clinically insane So play your game, Satan Torture me, im waiting So play your Ace, Aint nobody dying tonight Not in this place Your known as the girl with no face Your pointing me towards my dog days Who am i, good question Fuck me torture me, my new obsession Im used to hell and trauma I know rock bottom Im used to pain and darkness Were all in it for the torture There controlling me There possessing me They arnt living Sonetimes non living things Are more alive than the living Smiles on, everybody Shut them system down Smiles on, everyone Were not going down without a fight."-written by me. Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez Sometimes non living are more living than the living. I deal with this everyday. Stay strong yo. *Flying Objects/DemonsPosssesingMe; **||||** Flying Objects: objects that are non living but act like there living. All non living objects float around and talk and act like the living. Like the taxis, or the furniture or anything thats an object. Starts using there senses, they have more senses than us. Heres a lil thing i wrote about that.;;;; "You take control Sweet little ceiling A dangerous feeling Are we really dreaming Your magic head got me screaming You are demons inside of objects As the tables fly As the staircase sighs Its like a labrynth Were all sentenced Were in a fantasy This isnt reality Wake up. Wake up Torture me plz dont stop Wake up wake up All non living things are living All non living things are living Dont be drifting Dont be living Cuz ur not living No not at all They all have faces They all have bodies They all have senses Dont be scared my love Dont runaway my love Im an animal in a cage I got blinding rage I got bad and good days The chairs are all wrong Smiley is coming back Am i wrong? Am i right? Police on the search for me There not gonna catch me These flying objects are very living They will protect me They will seduce me. Flying objects flying round They dont make a single sound Take me far away"-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez **||||** Demons Possessing Me; ??????Different Species if demons come and literallt possess me. I start raising hell ans becoming the demon thats controlling my body. I literally "snap into DeZanity" which is 100% worse than Insanity. I become dangerous, act out strangely unsafely dangerously etc etc. I become worse than satan himself. I walk thru and live thru hell itself. Ive seen hell. Ive literally lived in hell. I become darkness itself. Heres a lil thing i wrote about this; "Falling down to rock bottom Lived inside hell, oh pardon? Did u possess me last night the devil fucked me in the dark light I dont kno what to do Why u feelin blue, My darling my darling They say im acting strange Out of character as u say They say i went completely insane Out of character as they say The darkness controlling me Demons possessing me Im dangerous, im dangerous This aint fun Im always on the run I snapped into DeZanity I lost all my senses Ive died many times Im just fucking senseless As all the species of demons Come inside of me Im a dysfunctional animal Im a dysfunctional animal Who am i, my mind is worse than hell itself The devil puts himself up on the shelf Hes not powerful enough to enter Tryna make these dreams centered Tryna make reality my bitch Dont try. Do, win lose Dont do. Try, lose win Either way. There out to get me Lets change the codes Weve already killed ourselves. So far away from home Im feeling so alone. Im feeling cold Flying around the universes There aint no reverses Imma tell u a secret I am more powerful than the devil Are u gonna run and hide Were committing suicide My name is Izzy, Ace 8 My name is Tyler, Ms_SweetInsanityyx Lets fuck this place up Im here to save and help all non living And living things, im here to save the world I help, care. Love support be there Im by there side no matter what When u fall ill lift u up I help everyone and everything obsessivly Im on the battlefield fighting by yo side Im not in the sidelines Lets get ready to snap back Izzys out for the attack. Goodnight, Drearyyx"-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez _____________||||____________ *Dancing Rooms/Past In Vivid Movie-LikeForm; ||||_||||Dancing Rooms; dont talk to the ceiling it might talk back. Im in a dreamscape, traveling thru the galaxies, doors all over the walls, all the stair cases are going in many directions, they keep moving. They dont stop. Each room is something new. Im walking over the stars 🌟 , i see all of these different galaxies. Were midnight racing. Its like im in a Lo-Fi setting. All my dreams turned reality. Im in a wild place. Im soaring thru space. U ever seen the movie Labrynth with David Bowie its like that. I feel so free, racing cars over the stars. Im not in reality. Im escaping. Its like im flying, always flying. Im traveling everywhere. You saved me. Dancing Room. Its like a good trip. Like were in a movie, many kinds of movies. Its a new reality. Im escaping earth. So many colors. So much to see. Im sitting on the sunrise. I turn on Lo-Fi radio (the app is purple) and i do meditation to it. I go to extraordinary places. Thank u Dancing Rooms. ||||_|||| Past In Vivid Like Movie Form; so u kno ive had brutal trauma. Hell, pain, torture, bad experiences occurring 24/7 since 2001-2018, and u read part of my life story. Well theres sone parts u dont kknow, Dancing Fire flashes my past in more than just flashbacksx its in vivid movie form frok beginning to end. But its everyday. And even when im happy i get reminded that it constantly, Dancing Fire aka Lileth "Lily" Ramos-Garcia. Tortures me with it. The more i try to escape it or "put my past in the past" i get reminded of it everyday, from beginning to end. Its not ok. And i also get nightmares everynight that makes me not wanna sleep. Like i could be doing my thing, and out of fucking nowhere here comes the show (vivid movie like form of my past from beginning to end) and i cant escape. People say "leave ur past in the past" uh how am i supposed to do that if i get constantly reminded of it every day. ?? But yet i help care love support fix save be there for everyone and everything obsessivly. And i dont stop. I love helping others, i wanna save and fix all non living and living things. That's what keeps me alive. Someone asks me "what's wrong Izzy. U havent been yourself lately?" i tell them an excuse like "im fine" so imagine this: _Having over 10+ Mental illnesses _Having trauma occurred 24/7 from 2001-2018 _being constantly reminded of ur past daily _having 22+ mental breakdowns a day, every day _trying to remain sane _dealing with the present. _never escaping the past _everything combined together times 10+ working all at once _and trying to describe what ur feeling/whats going on/what's wrong, cus u don't know how to explain it _Constantly having demons fuck with ur head _hating myself _having an eating disorder/autism _not kniwing what ur feeling _feeling unwanted and unloved _being tortured, abused, raped most of ur life _not knowing who u are _having no home from 2011-2018 _having no hope _having severe brain damage _being critically/clinically insane _Been thru/experienced mostly every traumatic thing _not wanting pity sympathy or attention _after 2018, the hell never ending, getting worse mentally physically and emotionally _being insecure _dealing and drug addiction/alcoholism (im over 1 year sober _being the blacksheep _being LBGTQ _not wanting to date ever again/hating sex _cant go in public without breaking down _dissociating 99% of the day _explaining yourself to people _my mom being sick. My dogs having cancer _my mom and bro not wanting me home _thinking ur worth nothing _being a prisoner to ur mind _not knowing who u are _Alvaro possessing me _not feeling like ur in ur body/being possessed _paranioa/objects having a force on u _being confused/delusional _everything youve read/heard in all of this story applied to u everyday _acting like ur okay _trying to save. Fix. Love. Care, support, help, be there for everyone and everything obsessivly but not feeling like its good enough _missing my unbio son, Anthony everyday. _not wanting to cry or show emotions _avoiding feeling feelings/being so used to the bad that u cant process the good _not processing things _wanting to end ur life on a daily basis _wanting to self harm/act out on a daily basis _just hating yourself/having trust and anger issues _the rest i cant explain 🌟🔥🌙Hey this is Izzy here, thank u for breathing, for being alive. Im proud of u. Thank u for coming to my TED TALK.🌙🔥 **Another One Of My Suicide Attempts (i was on the online news); My brother and i got into a huge fight. Cuz we were playing pranks on eachother, but around that time i got raped *again* my mom still isnt aware that it. My whole past flashed by in my head vividly. My mom and brother told me they didnt want me home. And i felt like a failure. I was walking on the side of the street and the highway. I self harmed really bad. But i got home and everything else was a blackout. I had 33 breakdowns that day. We were at Farmer Boys. And my mom kept asking if i was "okay" i told her "yes" but i was lying. I had dreams of my granpa dying (hes deceas3d now) and my monmm dying. My mental health got 10 times worse. Leading up to my attempt i got raped again* by 10 people one by one torture, abusing and raping me for about 2 hours. I still havnt told my mom. I came home and i tried to have a "silent suicide attempt" i took 2 bottles of Gabapentin (one of my medications, this ones for anxiety) and they were big bottles, and i took every pill in there. I started fading out and u heard a voice in my head, trying to stop me from dying. I called 911 and told them that i overdosed, they got all my info and told me to stay where i was. There were fire trucks. Ambulances, police cars. They made me drink Charcoal, instead of pumping my stomach. My mom came out && was talking to the officers/AMRs etc. They did there normal procedures and transported me to Corona Regional Medical Center (aka CRC). I had a sitter, or a 1:1, they did their hospital procedures and i got transferred to "The Willows Mental Hospital" (Still CRC but not emergency, just psychiatric) my brother told me i was on the Corona Newspage, descibing my attempt. But not using any names of people. But it showed my house. I stayed on a 52/50 hold. I cant remember clearly exactly how the whole thing happened but im doing the best i can. ________________________________________ 🌙🔥🌟🥀hey its izzy, if anyone needs a prayer lemme know ok. This is something i just wrote, its from my heart. Stay True!!! Keep sharing your story, cuz it matters you matter your life matters YOU MATTER. , thank u for breathing, for continuing and being alive. Ur all Angels, you are a work of art, you just gotta put the peices together. U gotta creaate your art, your story. It doesnt end here tho. Id give my life if it meant all of u become painless, im not a saint. I just wanna be the person to save care love be there for living and non living things. Yea ive had trauma occurring 24/7 from 2001-2018, but its 2020 in a month. All i want for Christmas is for all yall to be safe and happy. If any of yall need anything, ill be here. Ill be fighting by ur side on the battlegrounds. Im sitting here crying cuz idk how to fix this world. Im proud of u. Even if u didnt wanna be alive today, youve made it another day and youve made it this far. Your doing the best u can. You all make me wanna cry cuz of how amazing u are and how beautiful ur soul is. If ur thinking about taking ur life tonight trust me ive been there. Put ur hand on ur heart, feel that? That's purpose. Your life is a mess right now. Keep looking up. Your someones reason. I wanna save ur life tonight/today. Thank u for ecsisting. I know its dark out, you grow stronger every second. Take ur time. Slow down, take a moment or a few moments. Relax ur whole body, ur gonna be ok. Ur gonna keep fighting. For everyone but mainly for yourself. Im proud of u. Trust me im far from ok. But id do anything if it means everyone else can ok. U are a broken soul. But we will fight, we will win. We will stick together x im here for all yall. Dont go. Its not ur time. I kno it may seem cliche. Bit ur voice matters ur story matters your message matters. YOU MATTER YOUR IMPORTANT YOU HAVE A PURPOSE YOUR ENOUGH YOUR WORTH IT. ! Thank u for being u. This is Izzy here. Keep fighting, soldier. Keep going. Your destiny is inside of u. I love u all. Message me if anything. Stay true stay u. Live u my warriors my angels xx----Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez (me)🖤🥀🖤🥀

for the character playlist ask meme u should do su or some characters from the marvel universe!! (if the "marvel universe" is too broad of a fandom do a smaller part like avengers or somethin) (u dont have to do both just choose whichever !!)

Thanks so much ‘nonny!

Steven Universe:

1. Mean Green Mother from Outerspace from Little Shop of Horrors

Um, I guess Yellow Diamond because she’s mean, (not green), but she is from Outer Space.

2. Black Balloon by The Goo Goo Dolls

Geez, um…Greg singing about Rose. Especially with “A hundred boys could never reach you/how could i have been the one?”

3. The Schuyler Sisters from Hamilton

Shit. I’m gonna go with Garnet as Angelica, Pearl as Eliza, and Amethyst as Penny.

4. Unworthy of Your Love from Assassins

…I listen to way too many musicals. Um, this is a stretch, but Jasper about Pink Diamond because she worships her but it’s uncomfortable. I tried.

5. Heathens by Twenty One Pilots

Lapis, because she’s emo.

6. Hold My Hand by The Fray

Ruby and Sapphire, because they love each other and I can so imagine Ruby singing “You got every right to leave/stay with me/hold my hand/i can hear the sky falling”

7. Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray

Definitely Steven, with the “she” being Rose. “Eight seconds left in overtime/she’s on your mind”

8. …Be Wherever You Are from Steven Universe

For some reason this makes me think of Lars and Sadie. Wonder why.

9. Some Fun Now from Little Shop of Horrors

Wow, I have no idea. Sorry, I tried.

10. Fix You by Coldplay

Steven about Jasper. “Lights will guide you home/and ignite your bones/and i will try to fix you”

Marvel under the cut!

MARVEL:

1. Right Hand Man from Hamilton

omg definetly spiderman and captain america, Cap being Washington and Spidey being like “plz adopt me sir-i mean, sure, i’ll fight for you”

2. Telescope by Go! Child

definetly steve rogers my sweet son. Reasons why: lyrics like “it’s hard to say goodbye/so comforting is his pathway”; “this place is not my home and your distance is so far”; other reasons: They’re both my faves lol

3. I.D. by Go! Child

Hulk and Bruce Banner having a song fight, absolutely. The actual song is about dysphoria (plz check it out!!!!!!) but in this case i can imagine them talking about how they can’t live without each other even when they want to. lyrics: “you and i have danced around the issue/and you’d think by now i wouldn’t even miss you” AND MOST IMPORTANTLY “How hard can coexistence be???”

4. viva la vida by coldplay

Tony Stark, wow this is so much easier than Steven Universe. Used to be rich and stuff. 

5. dear maria count me in by all time low

clint barton. gives me clint vibes like hella this dude would so be like “gurl im ur pimp now lets go make money”

6. in the heights from in the heights

…shit. um, i have no idea. this is the opening number in a musical. not very interpretable or malleable

7. johanna from sweeney todd

this is hard but at least it’s not the opening number. I’d go with vision singing about scarlet witch because magneto must be sweeney he must.

8. Gravitated by Go! Child

…this is a gravity falls fan song but imma make it work… shit i can’t im so sorry fam i failed you

9. House of gold by twenty one pilots

scarlet witch my sweet sweet daughter. because with lyrics like “i will make you queen of everything you see” from an actual witch and then also its so sad yet beautiful yet perfect god im gay for her

10. my shot from Hamilton

aaaaaaa the avengers all together getting lit.

i clearly love the avengers and wanda too much i promise i also love x-men

Thank you so much!!!!!!!!!! sorry it was so long!!!!!!!!!!!!