Im so proud of myself it might be normal for some people but today I saw that sky was looking so good and took my phone around people and took a picture of it. I also did go all alone to a gallery art and took all the time of the world to just admire and understand what's behind every art and didn't even felt cringy or pressured. It was all nice and safe like I wanted. I just kept in my mind that I should be myself more and stop performing to the people inside my mind. And that no one actually care I won't even see those people again.
The crazy of all that I used to feel that doing new things felt so unsafe but when I actually while doing them I felt SAFE. (Seriously I had a big issue with being safe and feeling it now finally makes me alive again)
"In the shadows of my achievements, I find no pride, only a relentless chase for the 'next.' The weight of constant stress keeps me moving, but I forget to pause and appreciate myself. Breaks become elusive dreams I can't catch. 🌑💔 "
I feel like I have accomplished the impossible today. I have played Minecraft many times over the years and have never been able to get past getting iron armor and maybe a diamond pickaxe. That changed today though, because I finally got an enchantment table! Now I can attempt to figure out how enchantments actually work. Maybe the higher my level, the more enchantments I have access to?