Sequence - Saturated with Swelling

Do you ever feel so obsessed about something, that obsession begins to transform you? This is called Saturation! more sequences / sequence artpack

The best gifts for Christmas come unwrapped.

A year ago today I was happy working in a new work field. A place I thought was the right fit for me, even though it was a stressful job. For me it was the fruit of my labor, since I had worked so hard on healing throughout the years. I even managed to earn certificates through it all and change my career path. This was it! I felt like I was finally going somewhere with my life. Money struggles were over and I started to have dreams and new goals for myself again.

A few months later (March) it all came crumbling down due to health issues and two months later I lost my job. Here I was.. feeling like I had failed again. Looking back I no longer look at it that way. I was forced on a different path and had to put in the work to get better. I now see it as something that was necessary to bring me to the point where I am today. A redirection I might say. I’ve changed so much this past year. I managed to build healthy habits and let go of unhealthy ones. This includes unhealthy relationships with family and friends, resulting in removing some of them from my life. I became both mentally and physically stronger. My self worth, self esteem and self love improved. I got somewhat calmer, especially once I surrendered to the transformation, which initially felt like a curse. Along the way I met some inspiring people. People who reminded me of parts of myself I had completely forgotten about. Someone even helped me discover a side of myself I didn’t know I had in me. I’m so thankful for these people.

This past year I also learned about trauma and its effects on our bodies. I came to realize that I still have some work to do there. And I will! I just have to find the right way for me and the money to do this. Losing my job hasn’t exactly been easy financially, but I trust that everything will work out as it should. Working out like I have been these past 10 months is a good start, I believe.

I’m getting ready to go back to work. This time I really hope and pray it’s more in alignment with the path that I’m supposed to be on. I’m now fully aware that last year when I started my new job the warning signs were there. I ignored them and then my body forced me to stop. One of the many lessons learned this past year! Lessons I clearly needed to make the necessary changes in my life.

Astrology played a huge part in this transformation, and although my knowledge in Human Design is minimal, both made me understand and trust this journey a bit better.

This is the first time I’m open about what I’ve been through this past year. Even the people close to me don’t know what it’s been like for me. It’s been quite lonely, but God never left my side. Even though I’m not practicing any religion I firmly believe He always watches over me and takes care of me.

I don’t know what more life has in store for me, but I’m positive that I’m on the right path. I am confident that this will help me attract better opportunities and better people. Maybe down the line even a healthy, loving relationship. More importantly, I’m working on an improved version of myself and I love that for me!

藍湛、お誕生日おめでとうございます❣️

最悪のメンタル上げまくって頑張ったよ❣️❣️

Adventure Time Season 1 Episode 23 Title Card: “Rainy Day Daydream”

The main difference from Novel!LWJ and CQL!LWJ is that novel!LWJ is a capricorn by nature and CQL!LWJ remains an acquarius.

Happy birthday to every version of LWJ! 🤍🤍🤍 #0123

somehow this ep is both sweet and painful

January 23rd - Fictional Birthdays

Angus MacGyver Yuki

#ThankYouLove ... #SunDateOutingGifts ... #WasWonderful ... #GreatTime ... #1404 ... #0123 ... #1437 ... (at Uptown Jalan Reko) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cokiayev5_-FfcZLwK62eQYBveurdCUwxORAi40/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Been really going through it these days. I came to certain realizations about my patterns and it breaks my heart. I wish I was better at recognizing, acknowledging and handling situations differently when they happen. It feels like life is a constant battle. With myself mostly, and the men I attract and want. I really wish to break this cycle and experience a healthy, loving relationship. I want to stop wanting things not meant for me. I deserve better. At the same time I’m on my period, and I’m also being triggered by Ginny & Georgia on Netflix. I recognize certain things of myself in both characters. Maybe it’s good that this is all happening at once. Maybe I needed this breakdown. I need to process my emotions and let it all out. It’s also part of my healing process and a form of self care. I know this sadness won’t last forever, but it really sucks at the moment. The good news is that I did manage to cook a nice meal for myself. Some Surinamese comfort food which reminded me of home (not everything was bad at home ◡̈ ) After dinner I took a nice hot shower, washed my hair and did some skincare. I need to love myself harder on days like these. I need to take extra care of myself when I feel like this. I’m the only one I have that can take care of me. There’s no one else.

been a while