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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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I know what you are...
ATTACHED
#this is two days after meeting but their lives are CHANGED#LMAO anyways i love having brain damage and forgetting why i love xyz and then being delighted with re-finding the love#can't believe i clowned myself with being all meh when i bought the switch ver for 15$ bc I'm over p5 right#yeah now here i am screenshotting every damn scene with my boy like an overzealous parent witnessing their child's first talent show#but i also be having THOUGHTS UP IN THIS CHILIS#quietly going insane at how ryuji keeps asking akira to not ditch or avoid him and being so earnest in his approach#and akira having such sad eyes and the most wounded vibe being told to avoid sakamoto and choosing to follow and hang with him anyway#like YEAH akira has the option to be sarcastic and verbally refuse ryuji's requests but his actions are the opposite of that#and I'm wondering how much action must mean to the both of them and agwaaghh#akira's little statement to sojiro about how he made a friend LIKE YES MY BOY YOU DID AND YOU'RE ACKNOWLEDGING IT#literally rolling around rn and trying not to write bc i have lost the ability but LORD I AM WEAK#huxiantalks#pegoryu#persona 5
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fanfic rec post tomorrow maybe???👀
me to all my fandom ships knowing perfectly i wont have the time to do even 1 for at least one pairing til next week 🤡
#percabeth#snowbaird#anidala#zutara#hiccstrid#so much more ships name to add (like REALLY) these tagged ships are just some my brain is currently obsessed with this week#my next obsession next month???? idk yet 💀 my head is weird. like often#rn im mostly frustated with myself and feel a little bit useless be.cause. it takes so much time!!! but i want to do it#but i dont#so my brain says to me DWE IT YOU LAZY USELESS PROCASTINATING ASS!!!!#like first i have to remember the fic#then scroll through my 7000 downloaded fic folder. a nightmare 💀most of the time i dont remember the title but only the period#where i was obsessed with them (also hell because my multiple obsession with a ship always leave and then come back 2 or 6 months later 🤡#so sometimes I find myself downloading 2 or 3 times the same fic🤡)#(ALSO some its been 4/5 years since i read them so i let u imagine the headache i get trying to remember lol)#then class them by long fic one shot - theme etc...while re-reading fast some of them bc my memory is shit#and AFTER ALL THAT i write the actual commentary for each one of them and remembering what my experience reading it was like#because personal commentary that made people laugh and want to read the fic recommended make me so happy for the author!!!!#ALSO I MOSTLY JUST LOVE SHARING MY READING EXPERIENCE WITH OTHERS!!!!! SO MUCH JOY AND HAPPINESS!#but then real life is like no.not today. and indeed. not today.#fanfic rec#fanfic#reader#fandom
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a girlboss (sad) and the cause of half of her problems (a daughter)
#hii this is like a timeline kind of template so there's spoilers be warned :]#and hiii again this is the first time i come up with my own template if u see smth weird don't mind it please <3 jkdfnk#DO NOT LOOK at vhanya's fc i just idk i struggled so hard bc i need someone with blonde hair so it's easier to edit to white and just jsdnfk#i was losing my mind truly#anyways rhaenne and vhaemond <33 my current brain worms#*ocstuff#oc: arianne#oc: visenyra#mine#this was supposed to be an arianne only show but then i was like...i will never get the energy to make a template from scratch so i'll#squeeze this as much as i can. i just needed smth like..relationship template but also timeline?? then i wanted to talk with no sense about#them and the second template was born. idk i just like intricate stories. much to say just vhanya is both sooo dumb and sooo..i want to hug#i could've easily go with haha she sides with the blacks :) but noo i want her to feel the pain coming with her choice till her very last#moment <33 i love torturing my ocs huh. and arianne..girlboss gaslight and so on..her putting her daughter above love...#the resentment and hate but love and affection that goes on between mother and daughter...shocking#there's so much i could say but my brain feels blank rn so rip#also watch me trying to find alternative ways to not just plainly write 'these guys fucked lmao' in vhaemond timeline dkfjfksd
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#yet again i fail to convince my counselor i have executive function problems. mostly its bc i dont think well in the moment but also i just#feel kinda weird rn so i was having trouble making my thoughts connect. but i swear to christ i do have problems making my executives#function. i think the issue is im a grad student so i do well in school. not that it matters bc i kno loads of grad students with pretty#god awful adhd. one of my former lab mates was like. Adderall barely made her normal. and yet she was still a phd student#so like. its possible to have executive function issues as a grad student. the problem with me is the obsessive thoughts and self#destructive behavior so to her it sounds like im telling myself that i cant get my brain to work unless i put myself under extreme pressure#rather than i cant get my brain to work so to cope im putting myself under extreme pressure bc if i dont nothing gets done#but like fucking if i try to relax i dont do things. i cant clean my kitchen or my room or take out the trash or do my laundry#and im not like not doing it bc i dont wanna. these things r causing me active distress but i cant flip the switch that makes them happen#ive gotta write a grant proposal. read a paper. and find a paper to discuss by tomorrow morning. i had time to do all of this before but i#didnt do it. y didnt i do it? fucking i dont kno. ugh. whatever. i got refered to a psychiatrist so well see what happens there#i did accidentally set the meeting to when i meet with my advisor tho. oops. also my counselor said it sounds like im a rat running on a#wheel. which is accurate but also a really fucking funny thing to have said abt u. ur r a scrawny neglected lil rat. boohoo.#idk what type of medication she thinks i should b on. like what symptom r we trying to exhaust? the 0cd or the mood issues?#i dont even kno what the issue is. not that i guess it matters. idk. i need to read and write. fucking hell#unrelated
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MiqoMarch'24, Day #16: - twilight -
Every now and then when he watches the sun slowly sink beyond horizon, he catches glimpses of a far-flung memory. A past life where he is not D'nyr, but Polydeuces, where he is whole and happy and surrounded by many friends…
He is taller too (though not by much; he still appears shorter than most of his colleagues!), with slightly longer and more tousled hair, his fringe pinned back on one side by a silver circlet-- it seems he is forever destined to have one eye left beset by hair-- and when the light hits, his face appears almost softer without his signature X-shaped scar.
Part of the Convocation of Fourteen, his title was Theidos* the Recordkeeper and his role was to maintain and safeguard mankind's accumulated wisdom, an accolade which paired well with his main vocation as the Chief Archivist of Anamnesis Anyder. During the early stages of the Final Days, he sought assistance from colleagues like The Watcher (as well as from Hythlodaeus, Chief of the Bureau of the Architect) to develop a mobile version of Anamnesis which could be used as a fortress and sanctuary both, one that could protect the treasures and knowledge of the current age and carry them on safely into the future; a concept he dubbed "Alexander".
As time grew short he would entrust his position to his senior-most advisor and step down in order to fully pursue these plans, however the advent of Zodiark and the schism that ensued upon its summoning threw a spanner in the works, and not just for the loss of a friend and collaborator-- although not a part of it, he was of course well aware of Venat's group due to his ties to Anamnesis Anyder, and in agreement with their views he cast aside his title of Theidos. In response to this, his Convocation-related belongings were seized with the drafts along with them and, left powerless in the wake of cataclysm, he fled…
(These designs were later repurposed by the Ascians for their own ends in ushering in the Rejoining, and fragments would find their way to others through mysterious means, inspiring the actualisation of Alexander and everything that entailed!)
*from the Greek thymámai (to memorize) + eîdos (form); my WoL's lore has no Azem as I drafted this all at the time of base-ShB expac release when we knew close to nothing about the Ancients, and I haven't got an interest in retconning it to fit :')
(yes there is a Castor out there somewhere but he'll have to be on a free day bc none of the upcoming prompts make sense to introduce him on)
#MiqoMarch2024#MiqoMarch#ffxiv#d'nyr#d'nyr fellcrest#VERY late one today#my brain is actual mush rn-- busy day at work but I'm just feeling really blobby and boneless today#I have Thoughts but it's not coming out well when I try to put em on paper.. FINALLY trudged through writing this out (help)#I ended up spending half of the day on a wild goose chase trying to find if the watcher was actually the chief archivist or not-#-because of one wiki page which said so and it was the only one but I had to go cross-referencing everything just to be sure!!#I added onto his old ShB-launch lore when we got anamnesis in 5.2 but we still didn't have the whole picture back then so I wanted-#-to be sure I wasn't yoinking the watcher's job on account of Mush Brain... I have had this all half-written for 5 years so it was good to-#-go through and make it make sense with what we know now (except azem. I have no contingency for that. shoo)
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local audhd having idiot has to do something not related to their hyperfixation and fuCKING EXPLODES!!1!!!!!! /j
#/silly#don't mind me im just trying to brainwash myself into being productive#i am capable of focusing on things. i am capable of focusing on things i am capable of focusing on things.#im using my stupid blog to keep my stupid self accountable#i did a page so now i get to bitch and moan!! as a treat!!#this has zero entertainment value#if this is what my emotional regulation is gonna look like then so be it#*crying and throwing up* i love art its my passion#this might b a sign i OFFICIALLY FR need medication but thats gonna b incredibly hard to achieve. groan. ill figure it out. hopefully soon??#hate my countrys mental health system!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! ill figure it out!!!!!!!#shut up maiora#fandomNOT#is this liveblogging???#maiora shitposts#once i figure out how to hack my own brain chemistry into doing what i want it to its is so over!!!! im gonna kick so much ass!!!#im gonna draw silly comics!! im gonna draw platonic affection in many different ways!! i wanna make shit people find interesting!!#i wanna make shit im gonna be proud of!!! i wanna make my corner of the world a lil less lonely!!!! earnest cringe lessgooooooooooooo!!#maybe ill even learn how to write coherent stories?????? that might be too high to aim at rn but its not impossible!!!#ill figure it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's gonna be okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok ok ok what matters right now is i gotta calm down and lower my heart rate lmao#its gonna be okay#thanks for reading have a nice day!!#<3
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byan's distrust and outright fear of hospitals is something that's come up a bit in threads and muse discussion, but i've never really talked about why they hate them so much?
for one, they have a heavy distrust of any authority figures, including doctors and nurses. pair that with the fact that being treated in the hospital puts them in a vulnerable position and not in any control of things going on around them or to them, that's already enough reason for them to hate the place. and YET... the thing that really traumatized them and created a proper fear of hospitals happened when they were 12. after running away from an abusive foster home, which put them back on the street as they had no where else to go, byan stole from the wrong person and wound up severely injured in the resulting altercation. someone found them, called an ambulance, and they woke up in a hospital bed. using clues from the things they'd had stuffed away in their backpack, the hospital managed to find byan's identity and, from there, found their family - or, the foster family they were still technically under the care of. when the nurse told them that their family had been called and was already on the way, byan panicked and pleaded with her to not let them in, but... of course that didn't work. she thought they were merely afraid of the consequences of running away and being out so late in such an unsafe part of the city, brushing off their concerns to assure them that everything would be fine. it wasn't.
going to the hospital resulted in the family they fled from not only finding them, but dragging them back to that terrible house which became much, much more difficult to escape from after that. and that's all they can think about anytime they're in one of those buildings, be it in a bed or simply visiting.
#'maaaa grey's posting depressing headcanons on the dash agaaaaain'#sorry (: being in a rough place mentally has been really fleshing out some of the darker parts of byan's childhood in my brain ok#this is something I've had headcanoned for months now tbh. only just writing it down rn while I'm on this depressive kick#this isn't the only Unpleasant experience they've had bc of hospitals either - just the worst one#they've also had their drug use revealed to foster families against their will to..... mixed results. some Very Bad.#they Do Not Trust nurses or doctors to genuinely have their best interests in mind.#and any time they find themself waking up in a hospital bed all they feel is that same ice cold chill of dread and fear that they did at 12#this is also why they have a tendency to try to escape hospitals regardless of what state they're in 🙃#anyway.......#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ HEADCANON ⋮ DANGER IN THE FABRIC OF THIS THING I MADE.#child abuse cw#ask to tag
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ɢᴇᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴜɴ
stealing stealing is a thief is a stinky little thief ☆
ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘɪᴄᴋ ᴜᴘ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴍᴜꜱᴇ ( ꜱ ) ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ?
hard to? remember?? exactly?? at first Nathaniel was a wildly different muse. I think I was mad about Alois Black Butler Season 2 and my way of showing love to neglected characters was to steal their face for something. I combined him with other things I was into at the time and got to writing, and he. GREW. oh boy did he grow alois's face barely even works for him anymore. that's life.
fun fact, he was a much more pompous brat at first. Like he's still a pompous brat but he had attitude. these days he keeps the attitude inside and tries to be more polite. sometimes
ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ?
nothing.. general? it's case-by-case. maybe I don't love focus on shipping unless I can personally feel the chemistry, so I'm a little hesitant when it comes so that, but there's very little I'm not willing to explore
ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ?
:333 I like angst.....
ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ ?
🤷♂️... it just happens. do people do it on purpose
ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ɪɴ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴏʀ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴀʏ ᴍᴜꜱɪᴄ ?
silence. sometimes I can pull it off, but generally my brain doesn't like sound when I'm trying to write.
ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴀɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʀᴇᴘʟɪᴇꜱ ᴏʀ ᴡɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ?
wing it babey don't think just act
ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ꜱʜɪᴘᴘɪɴɢ ?
read above. the chemistry has to be clear to me or else I'm just kinda. ehh.
There's a lot of potential types of relationships that I'd much rather explore
ᴡʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀʟɪᴀꜱ / ɴᴀᴍᴇ ?
aku! I stole it from the uh. from um. aku no musume/meshitsukai. evillious series. and also I'm evil.
I picked it when I was 14ish and it just stuck www
ᴀɢᴇ ?
25 now oh boy
ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ ?
Jan 30!
ꜰᴀᴠᴏuʀɪᴛᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏuʀ ( ꜱ ) ?
all are good! lean toward muted/darker blues and greens but all good
ꜰᴀᴠᴏuʀɪᴛᴇ ꜱᴏɴɢ ( ꜱ ) ?
hhmn. outing myself as a vocaloid dweeb. hm.
I don't have favorites, but lately samsa, Hi Φ CLUB, and yacchatta wa are up there
at this exact moment tho, enamel by sid got stuck in my head somehow 😷 >didn't even listen to it recently
ʟᴀꜱᴛ ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ ?
UH UM I don't. most recent new movie I watched was del toro's pinnochio I think? I could be forgetting something. I didn't get myself to watch it til a few months ago oop
I rewatch movies from babyhood a lot when I draw or sleep cuz I don't wanna think in those moments so those don't COUNT
ʟᴀꜱᴛ ꜱʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ ?
uhhhhh dw about it
ʟᴀꜱᴛ ꜱᴏɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ?
hiΦclub. so why is enamel in there. watch hiΦclub.
ꜰᴀᴠᴏuʀɪᴛᴇ ꜰᴏᴏᴅ ?
hmm. looks around runs away.
ꜰᴀᴠᴏuʀɪᴛᴇ ꜱᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ ?
spring and fall!
ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ?
all my besties I met through tumblr rp fhadjslgfahl
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I know it's probably just a part of restarting the lamotrigine, but. holy fuck does it have me short on spoons and patience and. Everything mentally today lmao
#text post#worst case scenario I find out this med no longer helps me and i stop it#but it's been less than a week so I know this is just. Part Of It All lmao#that said every decision I've had to make today has immediately paralysed me and/or immediately made me angry/upset so. That's something#that usually only happens when I'm already overwhelmed and/or overstimulated but it's EVERYTHING today as if im stuck in a state of that#like. I had to choose if i wanted to work upstairs or downstairs today (surveys and writing) and i had tears in my eyes trying to choose#im upstairs rn and considering going down but. yeah. Having An Moment#and I hope this effect doesn't last more than a few weeks to a month at longest lmao#on that note apologies if u reach out and i don't reply right away i absolutely will be reaching back out!!#I just need a bit today to try and chill my brain out before I'm talking to anyone for an extended period of time#hoping if i wrangle the spoons for that now I can use them all and feel better by this evening which has worked in the past so!!!
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gonna be honest, the sheer amount of drafts i have makes me want to perish and thus even entering my drafts inspires the urge to run away immediately ASDFGFD
#NGL THIS IS WHY I'VE BEEN CONCENTRATING ON MEMES#the idea of scrolling through all of my drafts rn makes me want to actually close my laptop oh man#i wish there was a mass delete button so i could just reset the whole thing and simply ask which threads y'all wanted to keep#bc if i try to go through and delete stuff myself i think i'll struggle a lot with keeping and tossing#i'm very bad about 'well i don't have muse now but i wanna see how it turns out so badly!!'#memes piling up doesn't stress me out as much bc most are quick blurbs with unprompted asks sprinkled in#and those are much quicker to scroll through and just?? i dunno easier to find muse for sometimes#but i wanna write consistent threads very badly y'all i wanna go 'AAAAHHH' bc of what our muses are getting up to!!#my brain is being so mean rn she needs to get it together#get ready to ramble | ooc
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good morning!! <3
#more of the same today :3#basically more of the event in hsr and then whatever i wanna do#but yeah it's sunday so breakfast day :D#might find a prompt list or something when i try to write bc I'm struggling for ideas#tempted to like bullet fic the wedding one (either as a in-between step or the final product)#bc i want something for it (i'll announce the date... likely sometime this week)#but my brain's struggling to write rn so it's likely a good compromise#anyways#i hope you'll have a good day/night!! <3#morning rambles
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more transition rambling
as upset as i sometimes get about not passing, i still love what transitioning is doing for/to my body so much. like i never get sick of seeing how hairy i’m getting, i’m impatient for more facial hair and so excited to have stubble and one side burn (and i would love for both side burns to come in.) my chest hair has started coming in the past few weeks and THATS been a thrill.
every time i hear myself singing and actually like how i sound? every time i laugh weird and sound like my brother, who i love so much? every time i see a friend for the first time in awhile
it’s just, life has been so hard for like, a year and a half now, and while i do think i’m finally on the upswing, there’s a lot of new trauma to deal with. but one thing i’ve learned from all this is how to take care of myself so, so well. i can love and care for myself now in ways i never imagined being possible. and having a body that actually brings me joy makes that so much easier.
and like, it’s especially resonant to have a body that actually brings JOY when i’ve had chronic pain since i was 12. when this all started because i got a new disability. my body can do less and hurts more and i still love it more. its harder to care for, but i’m trying harder.
transitioning has saved my life in SO many ways i could not be more grateful that i finally did it
#separate ramble for the tags:#i deactivated my twitter for a day and realized i could just. not bring it back#and so i didnt! and while i will pop in occasionally so i dont lose it permanently and to check in w people and there and such#it is kinda nice. its also very weird#i also deleted the tumblr app#so i cant just like share every random thought i have with the internet#and i WANT to so badly i am so used to it lmao#but i think practicing being more intentional about what i share online and like breaking that habit of tweeting everything is good for me#even if its not permanent#but hell it might be!#i havent done a great job on breaking the scrolling habit bc i still have instagram for my sibling gc lmao#but reels are. way less engaging than twitter so.#reflecting on it though has made me realize like my memory is so bad and one reason i tweet so much is literally as a Record#but its like alright well maybe a Journal would be Better#and accepting that its ok to forget random thoughts i do not need to preserve every little idea i have#reflecting on internet habits on the internet is very online i admit#but i dont mind being online im just trying to find a way to do so that doesnt break my brain so bad#which is why this is on my mind rn bc like i do genuinely enjoy doing a little blog every so often lmao#might branch out and start actually blogging/writing about my interests too
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Not dad trying to tell me about some big fallout news he heard about from some work colleague 😂 oh what the poor man just subjected himself too.
#it was about that leak from weeks ago. dad got quite the details about it. he walked right into that one.#and that dear sir is why we do not try to bring news about the hyperfixation. i will know about it and you will hear about it.#dude even got the history of fallout 3 as a bonus. since that was the one he mentioned 😂#he also got a very veeeery long version about why i would necessarily get so excited about the leaks.#you know age of the document. the whole company sale thing. how much the time line clearly has already gone to shit. etc etc etc.#yeah... yeah i think he really came to regret that one 😅#listen i have only slept 5 hours. am high on caffeine and painkillers- almost had a migraine ok.#which means i have like 0 filter rn and am quite brain tired. i will not realise how long i am going on for once i get started rn.#the info dump has started and it will end when i brain says so. i sure af won't notice I am doing it cause I'm just excited to share#not until i manage to like finish my long ass story do i realise i went on for like a good 20-30 minutes... oops.#and that may just be a generous estimate cause i got really going on the infodump ok. it was a blast. ngl.#i am very passionate about fallout ok. this is what happens when you fall asleep to fallout lore most days of the week.#yes i lost the plot ages ago about this hyperfixation. it makes me very happy. so i don't even care. i will keep doing it.#til the hyperfixation dies and bring great sadness to the lands... til we find something else. god knows when that is though.#i am very ok if fallout hyperfixation just... doesn't go away actually. i like hyperfixation. brings many a solution when upsetty.#.... i really need to stfu up now. hi. 👋 why are you still reading this??? these ramblings of a madman. 😂#ryder speaking#i got this far before i realised i did not in fact write wouldn't get excited... well i aint fixing it now 🙃
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so i finished a haunting of hill house and kind of wanna do a proper breakdown of my thoughts but also don't know if i have the energy for that rn... maybe i'll reread it since it was short and try making some simple notes to see if it's gonna b doable. don't even know if my thoughts on it are going to be brief or not tbh i have a lot of thoughts about it but i also don't??? idk mayb when i've slept and am not insomnia crazy i'll give it a go
#i started the fall of the house of usher but my brain is a bit too soup rn for poes kind of meandering sentences#which isn't to put shit on my man poe i just need to have all my brains available to parse it#i really want to write some horror tbh but whenever i try to i get stumped because im not sure what scares me#so im looking at a lot of horror classics atm and trying to figure out what i like and don't like and what i find scary#or worth dialing into?? i guess?
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taking a bit of a weekend off from all the hectic life shit so uhh. hi <3
#( * ooc. )#i keep feeling the need to apologise for not being around here#but life has been uhhhh ROUGH for the past few months and i just don't have the energy#i miss lewis i miss writing him but my god is my brain pretty dead rn#if anyone wants to do some discord stuff i find it so much easier / more comfortable to write there#but i'm gonna try to be here a bit today
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