[#Today'sBangtan] #Suchwita EP.21 with #Jungkook
Lost the 'loving BTS contest' to BTS again today.. As expected, it's the best when BTS is next to BTS🥹💜
[#오늘의방탄] #슈취타 EP.21 with #정국
방탄사랑 오늘도 방탄한테 졌다.. 방옆방일때 역시 최고다🥹💜
[TodaysBangtan] Suchwita ep.21 with JungKook
Today we lost the 'loving Bangtan contest' to Bangtan once again.. and as expected, it's the best when BTS is together with BTS🥹💜
올해 본 눈사람 중에 최고다 . 아마 동네 아이들 작품 인듯한데 , 너무 귀여워서 찍었다 .
한동안 글 쓰기 하는거 조차 잊고 살았다. 생각지도 못했던 남자 친구 아버지를 모시고 살고 있다. 아침에 식사 준비해서 방에 들어가 아버지 깨우고 식사 드리면 새처럼 입이 움직인다 . 그리고 아버지의 기억은 오늘 사람들과 배 타고 낚시 중이시다. 나 역시도 말 상대 해드리며 고기 많이 잡으셨냐고 물으니 웃으신다. 왠지 핑 하며 코 끝이 찡했다. 우리들의 머리 속엔 부모님 들의 건강했고 젊었던 모습들이 남아 있을것이다. 근데 아버님의 기억은 끝도 없이 허공을 돌고 있는듯 하다.
그런걸 보면 참 허무한거 같다.
12월 31일
모든 분들 건강 하고 행복한 새해 맞이 하시고, 웃음 가득한 새해 맞이 하시길 기원합니다.
길가에 커다란 나무가 많고 풍경이 푸르다. 거리를 걸을때면 폐가 촉촉한 느낌이고 코가 마르지 않는다. 사람뿐만 아니라 11월인데도 낮에 15도 까지 올라가는 기온에, 시내에선 50, 끽해야 60 으로 달리다가도 걸핏하면 신호에 걸려 서다 가다를 반복하는 도로 사정은 드디어 피앗이 자기한테 맞는 도시를 찾은 느낌이다. 기후 하나는 진짜 최고다. 아주 만족스럽다.
모든 구원은 내 손에 있다는 걸 이제 어렴풋이 깨달아 가는 요즘이다. 하지만 아직도 난 사춘기 애새끼 마냥. 또 이렇게 걜 떠올리고 만다. 한동안 걔로부터 완전히 멀어졌다고 생각했다. 더 이상 말도 안 되는 환상 같은 생각에서 벗어났다고, 이제 난 걔로부터 벗어나 깨달았다고 생각했다. 당장 걔랑 몇 마디 대화를 나누면 모든 게 나아질 것만 같다. 정작 과거의 난 걔 옆에 멀뚱멀뚱 서서 매 순간 도망치길 원했다. 이런 쓸데없는 생각을 곧바로 굳이 끄집어내 정리해 보는 것도 진짜 아무것도 아니란 걸 알게 돼서 가능해진 거겠지?
벗어났다고 생각했을 땐 꼼짝 못 한 채 가만히 서있었고, 한쪽 발쯤 뺐다고 느꼈을 땐 고개만 돌려 억지로 다른 곳을 바라보고 있었다. 이젠 허우적거리지 않고 벗어날 수 있다. 하지만 간만에 이렇게 휩쓸려가는 건 어젯밤 다섯시쯤 뜬금없이 스팸전화가 왔는데, 잠결에 나도 모르게 그게 걘줄 알고 헐레벌떡 깨어났기 때문이라 위안 삼아본다.
비가 그치면 좀 달리고 와야겠다 생각하며 일기예보만 하루종일 쳐다봤다. 한 세번쯤 비가 그친다더니 비는 그칠듯 말듯 하다가 자꾸만 쏟아붓는다. 모처럼 아껴둔 캄파리를 꺼냈다. 네그로니 최고다 ^ㅡ^
She couldn’t keep track of the time, her mind was filled with things while laying in bed. The girl was facing Minghao. Who was already asleep calmly. But his hand was still manage to hold onto hers. It was comforting of him, but the cramps she’s having makes it even harder for y/n to fall asleep.
The pain pressure on the below of her stomach was getting severe and she tried to move without waking the sleepy boy up. Slowly, y/n unattached their hands and got up quietly walk outside the balcony where there is only a view of the ocean’s waves and thousands of stars in the sky.
Everything was so beautiful. Y/n thought. It made her sad and happy at the same time. Because the stars and ocean reminds her of Minghao.
The way they both liked the same thing in common. The way his eyes lit up whenever they have a conversation about astronomy and astrology.
Or maybe the way he pulls her to join him in the sea or ocean.
It makes y/n calm. The sound of the waves made her forget about everything in the world. Its something she really like. Even when it comes to dates. Minghao would bring her near the beach before dusk and have dinner there after practice.
And that small thing would already made her the most happiest girl in the world. Sometimes, Minghao would still take her somewhere else as a date. But it doesn’t mean more special than being beside the ocean and stargazing.
Y/n was thinking so much, she didn’t realize a tear slipped down her cheek. How things could’ve been better if her mothers side didn’t have a problem with her being an artist while dating someone.
There was a sudden footsteps that made her quickly wipe her face and turn around. A smile formed on y/n’s lips when he saw the Chinese boy appeared.
“You should go back to bed, I’ll be there in a minute” y/n said but Minghao wasn’t listening to her, he walked closer and took her hand before kissing the tip of her knuckle. “I’ll make you chamomile tea. Let’s go back inside. Its getting cold love.” Minghao said pulling her inside and sat her down on the counter table before went to boil the water and came back while waiting for the hot water.
He was staring at y/n deeply into her eyes while caressing her face. Minghao could tell something was wrong. “We don’t have to talk about it if you aren’t ready. I’m not forcing you baby” he said softly in almost a soothingly tone. He also knew it was your time of the month so he tried to relax your tension.
“Did I wake you up?”
He shook his head no. “ I know when my love is beside me or not. The bed feels empty without you and I completely understand that you can’t sleep because of your cramps. I wish I could help you with that but I’m only able to comfort you.” Minghao said having a pout on his lips when he saw his girlfriend having a hard time dealing with pain.
But he can’t do anything about it other side than giving his best act of service as he could. But that was rarely done too since y/n always trued to do something in her own instead the help of Minghao.
His hand was touching her waist and rubbing her stomach softly with his thumb as he leans in and kiss the girl’s lips. The smell of his scent was already making y/n drowsy. His strong cologne was always her favorite smell.
Suddenly the electric water boiler turned off knowing that the water was already hot. Minghao pulled away from the kiss and flashed a small smile at his love before going to the kitchen counter and made two cups of chamomile tea before bringing it to the bedroom with y/n following him from behind.
He watch as y/n took a cup and start drinking it. “Better?”
The girl chuckled before giving him a nod as an answer. Then they both talk.
It was maybe 4:30 in the morning already and y/n went through what was wandering in her mind and Minghao listened. Until suddenly she stopped talking and Minghao look at girl that was snuggling in his chest. She fell asleep.
A smile fall on his lips as he watches his love comfortably and peacefully sound asleep really close beside him. Her head was on his arm, her face buried in his chest. Minghao softly stroke her head.
“I love you but I’m scared if one day you wouldn’t feel the spark we have now”
That was what she confessed to him before he had the chance to answer, she already fell asleep. He didn’t know she could think that far.
“Until the end of my last day, my love for you is like the Ocean and stars. There’s no limit to it.”