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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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❝ 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐀 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐄 ! ❞

⁺‧₊˚ 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓 ⁺‧₊˚

⁺‧₊˚ 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐔𝐒 . . . ♱ ˚₊‧⁺

𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐑

,, he / him

,, cat & succubus hybrid

,, host , sexual alter — bpd & hpd

𝐋𝐀𝐃𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐇

,, she / her

,, vampire & succubus hybrid

,, persecutor — hpd & npd

— we are a part of a DID system. we will be the only ones posting for now, if anything changes we will update the blog

𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐃

— ,, there are times where we will be blended, in that case we use he / she pronouns, and might use our names interchangeably

⁺‧₊˚ 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 . . . ♱ ˚₊‧⁺

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t0rturedangel · 4 months

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I read all of your fics so far and they're great!! I really like your writing, it's fantastic! :3 Could I request a fic for Lucifer with a reader who is anxious and depressed, like him? - 🐇

╭ . . . 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚙𝚘𝚍 ੭

𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 ♰ ৎ﹕𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦

WOOOO I LOVE LUCIFER SM ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY so I'm so happy I have a request for him, i don't think i did a good job since I'm not sure how to write for stuff like this but still hope you like it!!!! also this is short so i'm sorry

✧⠀⨾ Mainly, since the two of you probably don't want to interact with the world of sinners, just stay in Lucifer's home.

✧⠀⨾ the two of you are probably coming up with new duck ideas, just the two of you- since literally no one else is welcome : the both of you hate interacting with anyone you don't have to, unless it's Charlie and her friends though that's rare

✧⠀⨾ whenever the two of you get like really anxious, or stare out the window in dread at all the sinners the other one will bring a duck over, like a personally made duck to try and help

✧⠀⨾ Lucifer has defiantly made a few ducks that look like you to try and help take your mind of your anxiety and focus on his craftmanship

જ⁀➴ Staring out of one of the many windows Lucifer had in his home, your eyes scanned over all the sinners and imps alike running around and causing havoc. Their behavior was one of the main reasons you and Lucifer never went out, beside the sheer anxiety of interacting with anyone. Sinners were crude, vulgar and had no respect for themselves or the people around them. At the thought of even talking to someone besides Lucifer caused your heart to speed up, your breathing quickening little by little which was your cue to turn from the window yet you found it difficult to do, the next option was to try and think of something different, anything different, like spending time with lucifer

The isolation from the rest of hell wasn't bad at all, you had Lucifer, Lucifer had you and the two of you had ducks! dozens and dozens of ducks... it's almost concerning really- you and his would always spend your seemingly endless days in Lucifer's workshop for hours, always designing and creating these silly little duck toys, and while Lucifer would always bring himself down at the end of the completed project, saying how the parts that he worked on were terrible while simultaneously praising your side of the work- it was almost pitiful watching the king of hell say such things though you never indulged or agreed to his self-degradation, instead you attempted to bring his spirits back up by complementing his work. Though, your methods would only sometimes work, as at those times Lucifer would sort of- avoid listening to your words.

Speaking of Lucifer, and the ducks- you noticed that Lucifer walked in the room you were resting in, a huge smile on his face as he held something behind his back. Your curiosity was peaked almost immediately, what did he have behind his back? was it money? food? a duck? the questions were endless and only came to a halt when Lucifer called to you. ˓˓ [name], my dearrr ʾʾ the tone of his voice perfectly matched his pale face, he was defiantly happy about something but what was it? finally, your mind was off of the outside world and now on lucifer and whatever he had behind his back ˓˓ hm? ʾʾ was your reply- moving so you would be sitting at the edge of the window sill, your tail wrapping around the handle of the window to ensure that you wouldn't fall however you could only stay in that position for a little while as your dear Lucifer beckoned you down to which you happily obliged.

Landing right by Lucifer, you and him both shared a smile- your one being more of a grateful smile as he did save you from your anxiety fueled thoughts. ˓˓ Hello Luci!.... what is that behind your back. ʾʾ at that question Lucifer smiled even more, chuckling to himself ˓˓ geeze aren't you curious today? ʾʾ he spoke while trying to hide what he had, you were trying to move around him so you could see what he had in his hands ˓˓ Just let me see for hell's sake ʾʾ you were determined to see what it was, and Lucifer- feeling ever so merciful today- grabbed your wrist to crease your movement ˓˓ Okay, okay [nick name] I'll show you ʾʾ finally! he was going to show you

It was no surprise to you that what he pulled out was indeed a little duck, but what was different was that this duck looked a lot like you- like really a lot like you. ˓˓ You.. made this? ʾʾ examining the little duck, you smiled at how carefully it was made made- the small details that the duck was designed with matched your visage perfectly, you could immediately see that Lucifer put a lot of time and care into this.. that is so sweet.. ˓˓ yes, why? do you not like it ʾʾ the joy in his voice seemed to falter ˓˓ I love it Luci, it's so beautiful ʾʾ looking up from the duck you faced Lucifer's slightly shocked yet pleased smile ˓˓ I'm glad you like it, I know the both of us have been dealing with quite a bit with our anxiety and stuff so... I sort of made this for you try and remind you that hey! you're not alone! The two of us will always have each other right? ʾʾ he rambled, a golden hue on his face- did he find this embarrassing? he really shouldn't, this gift was not only adorable but so incredibly delightful

˓˓ of course! Of course we'll have each other- geeze Luci, this is so sweet what the fuck? ʾʾ instinctively you hugged Lucifer tightly, an action he happily returned. You stayed like that for a few minutes before you pulled away ˓˓ now I defiantly need to make something for you ʾʾ ˓˓ you dont have to! ʾʾ ˓˓ I sure as fuck do! ʾʾ you laughed, quickly speeding away to start working on something for Lucifer while he tried to catch up to you to try and stop you.

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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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retroactive jealousy fucking sucks ass I will kms if I have to continue thinking about this

it's genuinely messing with me n my self esteem n everything else

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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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I hate myself so much mfg I feel so ugly I will kms I hate being histrionic I hate needing to be attractive I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate myself

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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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you're just waiting to leave me, aren't you? you probably realised you were so much better off without me. you're probably talking about me behind my back. I know it. you will replace me one day. n you know what? yeah fine, I don't need you. fuck you actually. leave then, I don't care anymore (I will regret this thought process within a few minutes)

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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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I don't actually have a good reason to be so annoyed by you. you're a cool person, I'm just scared of what might happen,,

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grotesque-illusion · 2 months

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a rant about booktok

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of s/a, sexualisation of minors

booktok is genuinely fucking disgusting lmao

more so the people that romanticise borderline s/a, toxic relationships, stockholm syndrome, etc.

but it's not only that that irks me. it's the fact that they continuously bring children into their stuff. first it was simping for a minor just cuz he rode a motorcycle, now its joking about how you'll get kids to read a hard-core bdsm/smut book with elements of kidnapping n s/a in it just cuz the cover looks child friendly

"we aren't addicted to porn!" if you can't read a book that isn't filled with sexual content then yes, you do. a porn addiction doesn't only indicate watching porn, it means reading it, drawing it, writing it. I'd know. I had a porn addiction that was in the form of reading smutfics. to this day i have to hold myself back from going back to it even if it's been literal years now

i couldn't read fanfics that didn't have sexual stuff in them, I couldn't read the beginning of the story if it had the plot before the smut, I'd often look for hard-core bdsm later on. it is a porn addiction. n no, you can't cover yourself up by saying "men do worse" when you do the exact same things

it's a problem when men romanticise s/a, but when booktok girlies do it? no its fine!

it's a problem when men sexualise minors, but not when you do it?

it's a problem when men have more sadistic kinks, but not when you do?

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