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Traumagenic disorders (like most disorders, I believe) can look very different in remission or during/after successful treatment than they do when someone is at their worst.
In the traumatic situations I was in, my DID presented with frequent amnesia and dissociation (depersonalization and derealization,) flat affect, and uncontrollable mood swings. Out of the situations but before treatment, it looked like frequent flashbacks and possessive switching, more amnesia, and several conflicts between alters.
Now, after a few years in therapy, my DID looks like functioning as one unit, co-consciousness and easy communication, frequent blending, and fusion being possible between even parts who had high conflict with each other.
I still have DID. It just looks different in treatment (especially since I'm working towards final fusion, it's not going to present the same way someone with untreated, unmanaged DID will present.) I've lowered dissociative barriers via work in therapy - I'm still a person with Dissociative Identity Disorder.
I personally don't see it as "recovering from DID" but "recovering with DID." When I fuse, I will hopefully have the skills to deal with stress in a way that doesn't trigger splitting again, but I don't negate the years I struggled with this disorder. That doesn't stop being a part of my history any more than recovering from my eating disorder did.
This is not even to mention people who pursue functional multiplicity - their DID doesn't stop being DID because they're in a healthier, happier state.
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Most people only get 4 stress responses: Fight, Flight, Fawn, and Freeze.
people with DID unlock the secret fifth one: Forget
-host
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Thank you :(
I will always be the angry child, the one who was too young to understand. The one who lashes out and is gagged like a rabbid dog.
I will forever be the hurt preteen, the one who was too young to understand. The one who craves attention like a starving dog.
I will be the lonely teenager each time, the one who wished so badly for comfort. The one who was too young to understand. Who wishes for a childhood they'll never have the chance to have. The one who waits everyday for their dead owner, like a loyal dog.
I will never stop having to be the adult who protects the rest, when they can't stop havoc from happening. I will be the fireplace, a mothers hugs, the embrace of childhood protection. The one who was too young to understand. I'll always be your childhood pet, like a good dog.
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I will always be the angry child, the one who was too young to understand. The one who lashes out and is gagged like a rabbid dog.
I will forever be the hurt preteen, the one who was too young to understand. The one who craves attention like a starving dog.
I will be the lonely teenager each time, the one who wished so badly for comfort. The one who was too young to understand. Who wishes for a childhood they'll never have the chance to have. The one who waits everyday for their dead owner, like a loyal dog.
I will never stop having to be the adult who protects the rest, when they can't stop havoc from happening. I will be the fireplace, a mothers hugs, the embrace of childhood protection. The one who was too young to understand. I'll always be your childhood pet, like a good dog.
#did#did osdd#did system#did comunity#dissociative identity disorder#osdd#system#traumagenic system#metaphor time#metaphor#bpd#bpd vent#system vent
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-They look so angry
...Why does everyone always look at us that way (Littles)
- ... (Symptom holders)
#did#did osdd#did system#did comunity#dissociative identity disorder#osdd#system#traumagenic system#why does this always happen#system littles#system vent#bpd vent#bpd system
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Am I genderfluid OR AM I A SYSTEM
#did system#system#did osdd#osdd system#osdd#did comunity#did#dissociative identity disorder#traumagenic system#genderfluid
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Dissociative amnesia frog
(he's so us)
Amphibiuary 2024: Day 11 - Recent
He frogot what is recent, he is a frogetful boy
#dissociative identity disorder#dissociative amnesia#dissociation#dissociative#actually dissociative#did#did osdd
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Update: I forgor
Maybe I don't remember wtf was going on, even though I think I was fronting at the time, IS because it was triggering WOW ONGGG who could have imagineddddd
(I actually just realized this and am writing this down bc brain Go brrrr forget)
- host I think lmao (it's probably not the host we blurry brrrr)
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Hot take but personally I think making huge, detailed introject lists showing off your stats like you're pokemon cards is not a great idea and is Actively Dangerous at worst. sorry
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Aizawa is berating Icarus so he doesn't look up system stuff on Tumblr anymore. Is he listening noooo idiot (I'm right here, sorry but I will continue to look into the tags)
Why is seeing stuff about DID/OSDD triggering like fr fr dissociating bc we saw a few posts on the did tag lmaoooooooooooooooooo (it literally wasn't triggering content)
-not the host lmao we were right lol
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Why is seeing stuff about DID/OSDD triggering like fr fr dissociating bc we saw a few posts on the did tag lmaoooooooooooooooooo (it literally wasn't triggering content)
-not the host lmao we were right lol
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Maybe I don't remember wtf was going on, even though I think I was fronting at the time, IS because it was triggering WOW ONGGG who could have imagineddddd
(I actually just realized this and am writing this down bc brain Go brrrr forget)
- host I think lmao (it's probably not the host we blurry brrrr)
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When the hell did "ask who's fronting" become part of "basic system respect?" When did that happen because I don't think people get how damaging it actually is for some people to push that as the right thing to do when you talk to systems.
I don't WANT you to know who is fronting. In the past when people knew that it put me in danger. I've been abused because I told someone who was fronting. I'm not comfortable with that anymore.
How about instead of making these threads on "basic system decency" we let systems decide for themselves what they are comfortable with?
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dissociative amnesia haver: wow i wish i remembered shit
dissociative amnesia havers when they remember:
dissociative amnesia havers when the memories then get taken from them:
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