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I wish I could write x reader content again, but it's just so difficult to do. After I started writing fics with my characters in them, writing y/n stories just became impossible for me. I used to only write x reader fics.

Maybe one day I'll be able to do it again. But right now it seems like it won't happen.

I at the very least leave kudos. As an AO3 writer myself, I wanna try and support other writers because it's the very least I could do. I don't often leave comments because of my awkwardness and never knowing what to say, but I leave kudos. Even if the fic isn't exactly favorite, I leave kudos. I just don't want other writers to think their writing isn't good.

You guys are commenting on the fics you read right? You’re at least leaving kudos on the Astarion smut and the pairs that have less than 20 fics for them too? You’re bookmarking stories you really like that are still being updated and ones that haven’t been touched in over a year right?

You know that even the smallest interactions are like cocaine to fic writers right? You understand how important a string of emoji hearts left behind on chapter at three am is right?? Right????

You’re treating AO3 like a community and not a content factory….right?

Due to the fact that the movies underutilized Logan's animal empathy, I made the choice that Olivia uses this ability heavily in the RDR2/X-Men crossover AU.

It only makes sense that Liv would use her animal empathy more than Logan would, especially since after her amnesia she spends a lot more time traveling with her horse, Magnus. Liv doesn't feel as though she belongs in the Van der Linde gang due to not remembering anything and it also isn't easy with Micah fucking Bell in her ear saying some of the most rancid and discriminatory shit about mutants because if that motherfucker is racist, then he'd def hate mutants too.

On the topic of other members of the gang; Liv would be very close to the ladies of the gang, obviously, because women stay together. And the people she's the closest to friendship wise are Arthur, John, Lenny, Uncle, Charles, and Sean. Liv and Arthur have a strong "responsible big brother/reckless little sister" bond and everywhere he goes, she will often shadow him because she looks to him for strength and guidance. And during the events of the first game, Olivia travels and works with John.

Liv constantly butts heads with Dutch due to her being able to catch onto the fact that maybe he's not the "amazing" leader everyone claims he is thanks to the amnesia removing any sort of good memories of him. Olivia and Javier have a relationship, one that existed before the amnesia and now is reforming after it. Though after the gang starts to fall apart, Liv and Javier break apart due to his blind devotion to Dutch.

By 1911, Liv and Javier are such drastically different people between his disloyalty to everybody and Olivia's bitterness that the likelihood of them ever being the same is impossible. Despite this, Olivia actually saves him from execution because she can't handle anymore pain of losing anybody else, so it's more of a final goodbye than anything.

Will I ever make this into a full fledged fic? Probably not. I want to but without a computer to help me keep shit in line, writing is fucking impossible. Writing on my phone is a fucking joke but I kind of have to. I would love to turn this into a fic but for right now, it's just a bunch of ideas and a general outline.

I was given free will. And with that free will, I make silly little crossovers.

So I made a RDR2 / X-Men crossover because it's a fun idea to make Olivia and Logan cowboys!

The story is so much more, as well though. There's a whole plotline where Logan first realizes that they can suffer brain damage to an extent because Olivia gets shot in the head and the damage done to her brain causes many of her memories to just completely disappear, much like Logan's do when he gets shot.

There's also a lot of Victor Creed in it bc uncle Victor is something I need in my life ���� I know some people will disagree, but XMCU Victor feels like he'd be a genuinely decent uncle, especially since this takes place WAY before Logan abandons Victor and loses his memories.

It also has lots of Olivia and Logan moments since this takes place in 1899, so again Logan has his memories and knows Liv is his daughter because he was married to hers and Laura's mom (bc Laura is actually Logan's daughter in this fic and not a genetic clone) so this means they have lots of cute moments of their father/daughter relationship

Also Liv wears Logan's old hat. He gave it to her after she suffers the amnesia in hopes that it'll help her with her memories. It doesn't, but it's very special to her despite not remembering he's her dad and she gets really upset and heartbroken when someone takes it. She may not remember him, but the hat is enough to prove to her that he truly does love her and care for her.

Said gorl in this AU:

This storyline has my whole heart dude. Because while I may love Judas and The Badger (two other fics I'm working on for Liv), this storyline is wholly based on the love that the Howlett-Creed family have for each other. Because even when she loses her memories and barely remembers who her family is or even who she truly is, she still loves them and does all she can for them.

Plus I think a Logan and Arthur friendship is absolutely iconic. Those two men would either be the best of friends or worst enemies, there would be no in between.

Will I make this into a full fledged fic? I don't know yet. But I do know that if I don't, then I'll at the very least make more art that'll explain more of the story if I don't. It'll mostly be on my art blog @m00nz-artpad but I'll also go more into description here.

On the topic of my GTA 3 / X-Men fic - that I will ACTUALLY be making because I have the plot and some of the storyline figured out - due to the entire fic is named after a Lady Gaga song, I have decided that many of the chapters will be titled after a Lady Gaga song.

I chose Judas as the title of the entire fic due to the relationship between Olivia and Claude being similar to the lines;

"I wanna love you,

But something's pulling me away from you,

Jesus is my virtue,

And Judas is the demon I cling to"

Obviously due to the fact that Olivia is fully aware that Claude isn't a good person and will continue doing bad things even after Catalina's death, but she's still very much attracted and attached to him. The relationship is not at all abusive between them, but the major difference between them is that Olivia commits crimes like robbing banks and taking occasional jobs from Salvatore Leone so she can support Laura, while Claude commits crimes seemingly just because.

I'm just a sucker for the whole "forbidden romance" trope, is all I'm trying to say. Liv tries to not let herself fall in love with Claude but she does anyway. I mean, look at him

Such beauty

I'm actively working on a project based around GTA and X-Men because nobody can or will stop me.

I've been thinking about what storyline to go with in order to bring more severity to Olivia's plot in this fic, and I thought that since Olivia is Laura's legal guardian in this fic, then maybe there could be something there.

(Welcome to yappersville y'all. Also, spoilers for X-2 United and X-Men The Last Stand just in case + some really depressing topics as losing a child 😀)

But this fic will involve a somewhat similar storyline to X-2 and Last Stand, involving Jean's supposed death, Scott's death, Charles's death, and Jean's actual death by Olivia's hand instead of Logan's because in Liv's storyline, there is no Logan/Jean romance.

This is important because Charles is Olivia's adoptive father and even though in this fic she runs away at 15 due to not feeling as though she fit in well with the other mutants and the whole "hero" shtick, she still loves him and views him as her father. And as such, she views Jean and Scott as older siblings. So watching her adoptive father die in a very depressing manner and then having to kill her surrogate sister by her own hand to save her from what she's capable of already breaks Olivia down so much. Then her childhood best friend, who she had distanced herself from to protect her, bleeds out in her arms. So that's just the cherry on the trauma and angst cake.

The original plan was something akin to the Clarke and Madi scene in The 100 where Olivia finds Laura (who's healing isn't anywhere near as strong as Liv's and Logan's, nor is she as invulnerable to severe damage due to having the adamantium only on her claws) dead and she has to come to terms with that on her own. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized how cruel it truly was. Because Liv has lost everything, leaving her in a horrific place where she's so fucked up and traumatized from losing almost everyone she loves in such a short span of time, then ripping the "sister" she actually views more so as a daughter away from her is just too much.

As much sense as it would make for something as grim as the storyline of Grand Theft Auto 3 (cause let's be real, a lot of that story is so fucked), I just can't do that to Olivia. Liv cannot handle another heartbreak, because with every death of someone she loves, she loses a piece of her heart. Losing her baby would destroy her, and I cannot do that to her no matter how it may work well with the story full of driving sex workers around, turning humans into dog food, murdering countless people, and committing some of the craziest crimes known to man... I just can't take someones baby away.

Especially not Olivia's because she would quite literally be the new threat to all of humanity. I don't care how much I may like angst, I can't hurt Olivia like that because she could never recover. Her recovering from having Jean die by her own hand - or rather claws - will take her years to do, as it always does because Jean was the one who found her after the lab Olivia was held hostage in got destroyed. Jean is her everything, but so is Laura.

Anyways, just wanted to reveal the fact that I'm actively working on a GTA/X-Men crossiver fic where everything takes place in Liberty City (or rather a hybrid of GTA 3 LC and GTA 4 LC because I like both versions of LC 🙂) and Olivia maybe, possibly, definitely has a relationship with Claude that is very fun and cute and a lil scary because despite her very tiny 5'2" stature, she is a government weapon designed to kill and not just a tiny lil haha goofy claw girl.

I would just like to inform everyone that I now have a ko-fi and hopefully I'll be able to start taking writing commissions through it. I was taking commissions off the books for a bit to make extra money, but with a ko-fi it'll be a lot easier. Hopefully when I have a new computer, I can go more into detail about that.

My ko-fi for those who may want to support me. It's not a requirement, it's just a little something for now until I have a computer and am able to get a new job.

Alright, so some updates on A Single Black Rose -

As I said in a previous post, there's a new pivotal character. And some things have been shifted around story wise, so here's what I've got made up for this silly ass fic:

- ASBR takes place between 2007 and 2013, this is due to Issac being Niko's son. This means Niko was around 17/18 when Issac was born, and that also makes Issa the same age that Niko was when he was born. This means that the events of Bully takes place in 2011.

- There is no separate universes between the HD and the 3D games, they exist in the same exact universe, this meaning that Claude, Tommy, and Luis will all make - at the very least - minor appearances.

- CJ will be a major character in the latter half of the story for Alexi as she forms her own gang in Los Santos - the Serpientes de Marfil. CJ plays a similar role to Lex as Michael does for Franklin, only without the tons of crime and psychotic ex-friends showing up.

- Niko become sort of a surrogate dad for the entire gang after Issac runs away from Bullworth to meet him.

- Pinky is prominently featured in this fic with a major role as Issac's on-and-off-again girlfriend. They love each other, they're just too stupid to say it.

- This fic will now focus on Alexi and Issac interchangeably, but the title will still remain "A Single Black Rose" because I feel it fits both of them. The story will focus on two halves of the same coin basically; with Alexi growing up in the crime syndicate and Issac dealing with the trauma of living through some of the Yugoslav wars as well as the abuse he suffered at the hands of his mother. They're basically two representations of how some people may deal with their trauma; Alexi instead embraces it and becomes what she feared, while Issac actively tries to esacpe it and live a somewhat decent life with what little good he has yet is unable to truly leave.

Now let me make this clear (as how I do with all of my fics), I am not trying to write something profound or revolutionary. The topic of trauma and trauma responses have been explored through fiction for decades and this will definitely not add anything new to this topic. These are just OCs I care very deeply for, especially Issac as there's quite a bit of me in him, thus why he has a Medusa tattoo later in his life. I love Bully and I love GTA, and I just wanted to merge them because I felt it was something that worked so well together. I am sorry to say, but Jimmy won't be a carjacking, psychotic murderer in this fic. Those roles are reserved for Alexi and Gary respectively (Lex being a big name crime boss and Gary being a hitman). He's something more akin to Floyd Hebert in the sense that he's caught up in everyone's bullshit.

I've been working on rewriting the story for A Single Black Rose [CCE + GTA fic] since I basically lost everything I had for it, and I decided to add a new character to the storyline. A character who will be the reasoning behind the gang moving to Los Santos after graduation from Bullworth Academy.

His name is Issac Bellic, Niko Bellic's illegitimate son. He's a young Serbian immigrant who's only true friend is Alexi Castillo Torres. Issac knows nothing of his father and hates his mother, so after graduation and learning of the possibility that Niko could be hiding/living in Los Santos, Issac and the gang move to San Andreas.

This spurred about due to my GTA Online character having Niko as his father and coming up with the goofy idea that Issac is Niko's actual son. Some examples of why;

Honestly I just thought having a GTA Online character look like Niko would be silly goofy fun times, but then I actually started to adore Issac. So now we have a new addition to the main cast. And also an excuse for why the gang goes to LS in the first place because I can't imagine any of the group (aside from maybe Jimmy) wanting to just move to San Andreas for no reason.

Issac's goofy suit is because boy does not know how to dress himself so I have this thought that Lexi bought him a bunch of colorful and fun suits despite the fact that Issac's main color pallet is brown, black, and red. Lex - in the future - dresses in obnoxious leopard print blazers, skirts, and heels, so of course she'd force her goofy style onto Issac, who won't refuse because they're BFFLs.

I'm gonna make this fic and nobody can stop me.

But for some more info I have made up for this; Olivia is in fact 17 in this fic, thus making her the youngest she's even been in a fic. Also, she's still very much a mutant because I'm not stripping her of that. She doesn't remember her childhood in the Weapon X program because her brain made her forget everything to protect her psyche.

She never suffered at the hands of Freddy like the others did because she didn't come to Springfield, Ohio until she was 13 when Charles Xavier placed her in the care of Logan and his wife Kamea Palakiko. However, when Freddy appears he does in fact target Olivia due to the fact that she's best friends with Nancy, Quentin, and Jesse.

Through her dreams, Freddy instead uses her forgotten trauma she'd endured in the Weapon X program because he learns quickly she can't die. Not permanently, at least. However, every time Freddy does kill her in her dreams, her regenerative healing does start slowing down because her mutation can't protect her from the psychological damage (sort of similar to how Logan's powers can't heal memory loss / brain damage), thus bringing her down a peg and forcing her to learn better ways to defend herself and her friends than just through punching and clawing.

Also yes; Olivia and Quentin are endgame. I just love the trope of the quiet and geeky character with the abrasive and extroverted character. And this fic with have Liv and Logan with a full family this time; with Laura, Melanie (my spidersona), her mother Kamea, and her baby brother Kalei. I just want Liv to have her happy ending for once. You know, minus the whole murder and child predator demon man.

This will have a happy ending. Not for Kris or Dean, because they still die. But Jesse's sticking around because I just can't kill off that stupid idiot. Not when he and Liv will have such fun banter. They really are bffl's.

Silly goofy idea...

What if I forced my crazy X-Men oc into the NOES 2010 remake as a joke? And I made remake Freddy suffer at the hands of my angry 5'2" beast of a lady as a goofy lil joke?

Wouldn't that be so hilarious???

Silly goofy idea...

What if I forced my crazy X-Men oc into the NOES 2010 remake as a joke? And I made remake Freddy suffer at the hands of my angry 5'2" beast of a lady as a goofy lil joke?

Wouldn't that be so hilarious???

lowkey wanna make an x-men / child's play crossover simply so olivia and jake can be found family because god fucking forbid they both suffer with immense daddy problems and trauma alone.

like liv would be the best mom to jake because she knows what it's like to feel so out of place and alone due to who you are (albeit she's a super soldier created to destroy and kill and he's just an ostracized queer kid who needs a strong community to love and cherish him) and also i feel like everything charles xavier taught liv would make her a great parent.

she literally lives by the saying "never give up on someone who's lost their way, especially if it's someone you love" because that's that the professor always told her when he would tell her stories of when he and erik were still close.

plus the idea that liv would just be the perfect thwart to chucky is HILARIOUS to me. like he'd try to kill her the first time and she pulls a "dead possum" move just to give him a taste of his own medicine by popping out of nowhere and being like "OOGILY BOOGILY BITCH!"

long story short; if i make a child's play / x-men crossover (as well as with heroes nbc because that's just so tightly ingrained in olivia's story that i fucking refuse to remove it and not even god can make me) then we all know it's because i LOVE LOVE LOVE found family stories.

and the idea of liv and andy being forced to work together but simultaneously hating each other for no other reason other than andy finds her unbearable and olivia finds him ridiculous is amazing. i just know eventually they'd become great friends, but andy hates her because she punches and claws her way through everything and she hates him because he's too overly cautious for her liking. literally bffs in the making.

also dad peter petrelli to jake is really fucking cute to me because i know pete would just be the best dad whether it's through blood or not. like pete would 100% try to connect with jake at any costs and would try and relate to him through shared interests. also peter feels like the kinda dude who'd be like "woo gays, gay it up" unironically because he wants to be supportive so so badly but is also lowkey a lil confused. def not bigoted because i could never imagine peter discriminating against anybody for their sexuality, gender, race, or anything like that. he's just a very very straight italian man who wants to connect with his foster son.

i just want to force this concept down everyone's throat now and i will never stop until i've done so :)

Despite losing access to my laptop for the time being(hopefully not for long), I am still working on the layout of The Badger (my XMCU / Heroes NBC crossover fic with my oc Olivia) and will continue to work on it.

I am hoping that by the time I finish it, I will be able to either get my laptop fixed or get my hands on a new one so I can release the fic. But if I don't, then I will be writing the entire fic in my notes app on my phone.

I don't want to quit on this project. It's the only one I made sure to backup because for whatever reason, I was so sure that my laptop wouldn't break, so I neglected to backup the other files. And while it's not technically broken (just screen damage) I can't access it. Maybe if I find some way to display my computer screen on my TV I could do it? I don't know. I'd have to ask my brother if there's anything he can do to help since I'm very clearly not good with technology.

Unfortunately, this does mean that my layouts for Blackened Angel, A Single Black Rose, and The Puppet and his Vampire are lost for right now. If I can't get the laptop fixed, I am hopeful I will be able to at least transfer some of the files to a new computer.

so i fucked up royally today. my laptop is completely fucked for the time being as i accidentally broke the screen like the moron i truly am, so all projects are currently on hiatus until i can either get the secondary laptop i have running and unlocked, or i can get my primary laptop fixed. basically; i'm beyond fucked right now.

I am currently working on the layout of Olivia's story so I can post it to AO3. The current title I have for it is "The Badger", but it may change. As for right now, I'm rewatching the first two seasons of Heroes and rewatching the original timeline XMCU movies + X-Men Evolution.

I'm trying to make sure that this story will be as good as possible because these are things I love so very dearly. Also there might be a spinoff for Melanie in the future since Olivia and Melanie's stories so tightly intertwine.

My reasoning for only watching the first two seasons of Heroes is because those are the only seasons I am going to use for this fic. Unfortunately, those are the only seasons that're good and I just don't like the whole storyline they went with for the third and fourth seasons, so I will rewrite the story with my bare fucking hands like the goofy lil freak I am.

I am currently working on a ref sheet for Olivia so it's easier for those who want more info on her to get it. Once it's done, I'll post it so people can go look at it :)