Captain Levi,

I often wonder, just how many nights have you laid awake with visions of blood stained hands and the deafening screams of your comrades? And just how many nights do you plan to spend like this, wide awake and flinching at the slightest of sounds.

I don’t know how you do it but damn, all this pain, all these nights and you still haven’t let your heart turn into something ugly; you always survive no matter if you want to or not and you wear your survival like a badge. You live even though you’ve got no one left to live for. They take it as a fact that even if the whole lot dies there’s one soldier who will survive, he always has, right? He has to. He’s Humanity’s strongest afterall. You walk in the walls and everyone has their eyes on you, what do they see? Strength? Power? Pride? Survival? They feel that you’re invincible, completely bulletproof. God, if they only knew that humanity’s strongest ain’t nothing but a broken broken man who can’t even get a decent nights sleep because of the sheer trauma that never seems to subside. A clean freak who cleans till his hands bleed raw, why though? Is it really as simple as you not liking filth or are you trying to get rid of the crimson from your nightmares? Are you trying to cleanse yourself of all the sins you think you have to atone for? Do you too think like the commander did? Do you wonder if you’ve been locked out of heaven too?

How could you be when you’re one of heavens own? A man with an endless potential and reasoning for evil but a choice to be and do good instead. A kid left on the brink of death and a man who just can’t seem to die. It’s not your choice that you survive when everyone you’ve ever cared for never does but it’s your choice to live with it nevertheless and show how survival, as inescapable as it is, can still be beautiful. And damn if it isn’t a choice with no regrets.

I’ll always always look at you at the depths of my despair, captain. Cause if you can breathe still, then anyone can.

Live long, soldier.

So we know that, There’s this thing about Ackermans that there’s this one very emotionally monumental thing happens and triggers this superhuman power In them which is basically them inherenting the battle experience of the previous Ackerman warriors. Great strength of sorts and this much is canon. So, The two ackermans Levi and mikasa. Mikasa had that moment when eren asked her to fight *shouted* at her to fight and the scarf thing. So that moment was out of love. The love she has for EREN and it’s physical manifestation when she fought when he asked her to and eren was there to push that moment for her. It was born out of love sort of. AND FOR LEVI THAT MOMENT HAS NOT BEEN MADE CANON YET. Everyone ASSUMES it is either something in his childhood OR the moment when he saw Isabel and farlan die by titans. AND IF IT IS ISABEL ANDFARLANS DEATH, then for Levi, that awakening moment was born out of sheer loss and grief. Of absolute helplessness and incomprehensible guilt cause he damn well knows he would’ve been able to save them if he was there and OH GOD THAT MOMENT OF POWER AKAWENING IS ONE OF THE WORST MOMENTS OF THAT MANS LIFE full of grief and helplessness and Everyone in the world keeps going on about humanity’s strongest soldier and his insane power and everytime Levi hears people praising that and going on about his power he just can’t help but get reminded of how he got it in the first place. And that’s why he always hates it when people do. And it just makes me saaadd that Levi will always be associated with loosing. He lost everyone he ever felt like home with. His mom Isabel farlan kenny, his ENTIRE squad and FUCKING ERWIN. The man he would take orders through hell with. He lost everything. All he has ever known is loosing and he has never lost a battle, all he has lost is love time and time again. He’s only ever known grief and it is KILLING me. HE IS ONE OF THE SADDEST CHARACTERS IN ANIME AS A WHOLE PERIOD. Levi is just- SOMEBODY GIVE THIS MAN A HUG. PLEASE.

Happy birthday, Jimin~🥀

“It happens suddenly; one day you see someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else. Perhaps because this person embodies an angel; one sent to you for a higher purpose, to maybe protect you during a perilous time and be of strength to you. What you must do, is trust in them. The reason for their presence will become clear in time.

Though a word of caution- you may grow to love this person but remember, they’re not yours to keep. Their purpose isn’t to save you but to show you how to save yourself.”

SHINee’s Kibum.

That’s it, that’s the post.✨

We as a fandom, don’t talk about this absolute serve enough and I’m here to change that.

Currently playing: ‘Hello bitches’ by CL. 🔥

Jimin_ break the silence ep 5

There’s so much that I have to say about this, lets just start with the fact that I choke sobbed my way through the episode like literal tears down my face sobbing. I find it absolutely baffling how Jimin was in so much fucking pain that, I quote him, “My throat hurts so much, it hurts to even breathe.” It was hard for him to even breathe. If you’ve seen the episode you saw that when he was talking it was hard for him to even get the words out of his mouth and his voice was barely above a whisper. 

The fact that Jimin performed an entire fucking show in that condition to the point where he had to physically break down crying in front of thousands of people, it hurts me. It absolutely shatters my heart that he had to perform for hours in that condition singing and dancing continuously when all he really should be doing at that was resting. It makes me fucking mad that we wouldn’t have even known that he was in so much pain if he wouldn’t have broke down during the truth untold.

And what’s worse is that it absolutely infuriates me to no limit that, after he came down from performing the truth untold, after he literally broke down on stage to the point of Jungkook comforting him while he sobbed, he came down and had exactly four fucking seconds before he was being rushed into a cloth change and was getting ready to perform mic drop. It fucking makes me so mad that he had four fucking seconds to stop crying, get a grip on himself, forget the fact that his throat pains so much that it’s hard to breathe and just get changed and go up on stage to perform mic drop of all songs, a song that we all know ain’t easy to perform.

Now I’ll get a lot of people saying “they chose this life” “its what idol lives are supposed to be like”, NO. FUCK YOU. They could’ve made him sit out the concert, they could've made him lip sync or least of all could’ve given him a fucking bottle of water before making him change his damn clothes when he is fucking struggling to breathe for fucks sake?? BUT then again, if he lip syncs the kpoppies would come for him, right? If he sings when he’s sick and makes a mistake, the kpoppies would come for him, right? If he sits out a concert because he is sick, he’s an attention seeker or he’s not professional enough, right? If he sings, he’s at fault. If he doesn’t he’s at fault. If he sits a concert out he’s at fault and if he performs when sick and misses a single damn note, even then, he’s at fault? What do people even want from him? what ?

It absolutely baffles me how he had the sheer will power to pull through a full fledged concert whilst being a main dancer and a lead vocalist, doing his part as the stage genius he is, all whilst being in pain and being sick and even then EVEN THEN some people have it in their damn hearts to find faults in this hardworking, humble, genuine man who had done nothing but worked his ass off from the day he left his home at the mere age of 17 and have not stopped since to take  a damn breath. The way Jin said “In my opinion Jimin is perfect so it makes me crazy how he’s still able to work so tirelessly”. Park Jimin is already a perfect performer and even then he keeps on improving when it seems like there’s nothing even left to improve upon. 

The fact that Jimin ALWAYS gives his 100% to the point where the members have to ask him to slow down cause they’re scared he will overwork himself on stage, to the point where his back is covered in tapes for days on end. THIS. THIS is exactly why I don’t take shit when it comes to him. His work ethic and dedication is fucking unparalleled in this industry, no one and i repeat NO ONE works as hard as this man on stage and no one ever can. They don’t call him the stage genius for nothing. He goes up on stage even when his body is breaking down and puts up a performance that is nothing less of perfection and has been doing that for YEARS upon YEARS and this is exactly why anyone who ever doubts him or talks shit about him is automatically dead to me because this man did not work to the point of his body breaking down only for some 14 year old bitch who hasn’t even completed elementary school, living on her parents money from america to come up and talk shit about how there are faults in him and how their oppars are better. This man did not give every waking second of his life to his artistry for a fucking nameless faceless blob on the internet to find faults in him and kekeke over it. I swear I have always been a shooter for Jimin and day after day that only grows and I’ll tell you this; Jimin’s karma works real hard and y’all should know better than to mess with God’s favorite child. I refuse to let anyone step on him and his artistry and his tireless hardwork for some clout. I refuse to just sit there and ignore the hate he gets just cause “every idol gets hated upon” “its normal” nah mate, I will personally fight every bitch who has shit to say about this man who has nothing but worked his ass off all day all night for years to get to where he is now. I refuse to be a bystander to the bullshit people throw at him cause GOD KNOWS that Jimin deserves the whole fucking world but this world will never deserve him.

Jimins undercut: gone but never forgotten. 🥀

Not a day goes by when I don’t think about these two pictures and wonder how on earth is this man real and not just a beautiful figment of my imagination.🌻

The actual love of my life.🌻

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘴 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘥,

𝘏𝘢𝘥 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.

𝘔𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘶𝘯'𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵,

𝘈 𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘰𝘶𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘴.

- 𝘑𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯, 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘨𝘭𝘰𝘸.

Angelic✨

“I’m sweeping the board, who would’ve ever imagined? The kid who danced in Busan four years ago, now the world is yours. That’s true. This is my area, I’m stepping on Gocheok dome here. My major that y’all curse at, my essence is of an idol. The result is three billboards that’s true.”

I love you.🥀

Pretty boy with the prettiest rings💍

Florist Jimin🥀

Airport fashion🥀