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cloverstayy · 2 months

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𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙸𝙶 𝙼𝙰𝙳 → 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗; 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗

So, for those of you whom aren't subscribed to Christopher's Bubble OR whom haven't either heard and/or seen about the most recent Bubble antics recently on other forms of social media, the man decided to live out his K-Drama Fantasies on behalf of Chan Stans and Stay everywhere.

What exactly did he do, you ask? Well, to put it simply (and trust me, this is difficult because Chan is my bias) he broke up with us, tried to accuse us of cheating, but then admitted it was him who had been cheating to then admitting he was playing a simple joke on us and reassured us that he'd never want to do anything to hurt us (bless him, I swear). Who was it? It was Berry. Yes. His dog, Berry. 😒😂

I'm pretty sure non-Chan stans were convinced there was something actually wrong with him due to the number of Tiktoks and Fans posts I personally saw, however, us Chan-biased knew the man was full of shit and was most assuredly pulling some of his usual Chan-coded shenanigans.

In any case, my bestie and twin @ariaphoenix26-blog demanded I post this somewhat random as fuck idea I had yesterday as head canon. So, yeah.

𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙸𝙶 𝙼𝙰𝙳

It didn't matter what Chris did, how he said it, or why he did it. The simple fact still remained the same: you could never get mad at him.

→ Chris is the type of man that if asked, he'd likely do some crazy shit for the person he loves. Walk over hot coals? Sure. Dodge a few bullets? Yeah, no problem. Clean your shared living space, wash and fold laundry, put away dishes and cook dinner last minute? Of course.

→ But ask him to do something like, take out the trash? Well, fuck all of that.

→ And, truthfully, its not because he's incapable. He's exceedingly able to do said task. Its just...well...well he gets really hyper-focused on a task, especially a task he wants to do, it kind of--sort of--slips his mind.

→ And sure, the first few times he tells you this and flashes that thought-paralyzing smile, its suddenly not a big deal and you have no problem taking it out yourself.

→ However, the moment it goes from "a few times" to "too many times", you're suddenly finding yourself overcome with a rather new emotion. At least, when it comes to anything related to Chris.

→ You're big mad. Furious even. And its justifiable! Even Chris would agree with you. He's a grown ass man; he knows better.

→ However, the stars align and the universe conspires against you the morning you do ask him to take it out.

→ You're running late. You have an entirely packed work schedule. You slept for literal shit the night before. Your favorite pair of work pants weren't clean. You didn't have your favorite breakfast yogurt and you had to do mandatory overtime to top it all off.

→ So you ask Chris last minute as you're hastily packing up your work bag to take out the trash before you get home from work later that evening.

→ "Yeah, yeah, of course, beautiful! I'll take care of it." He promises and you believe him. Because in that moment, you don't have the time nor bandwidth to remember to question him about the other times he forgot. So, in your haste, you thank him and plant a kiss on his forehead before dashing out the door for work.

→ Well, see, Chris really did intend to do it. And he even wrote it down on a post-it note that he stuck to the monitor of his computer to remind him. But then he got distracted, watching Stay vlogs on Youtube. And then he got inspired by a mashup of Case 143 and God's Menu that a Stay had made, so he had to mess around in his studio.

→ Then suddenly it was 6:30pm. Chris is the literal physical embodiment of If You Give A Mouse A Cookie.

→ Chris hears the door open when you arrive home. And then the subsequent shout of his name. Okay, you're definitely not happy. He's also pretty sure he hears some slamming of somekind, maybe.

→ But it isn't until he hears your little feet stomping down the hall towards his studio door that he cannot help but find you the absolute cutest thing he's ever seen and heard than in this moment.

→ And lets be clear...Chris never invalidates you or dismisses you when you're upset. He just can't help but find it really fucking precious.

→ But you? Well, you're pissed. And you're determined to let his ass know. Because every other time you have been upset with him, he somehow disarms you completely and you immediately forget why you were mad in the first place.

→ Its damn near impossible to be mad at him. I mean, look at him. How can you get mad at that face? You can't, that's why.

→ Anticipating you, Chris is on the other side of his studio door just waiting. And as expected, he hears the all too familiar bang, bang, bang of your fist making contact with the door.

→ You do your best to strengthen your resolve. This time you're gonna give him the people's elbow and really let him have it. He just couldn't keep getting away with this. You know it. He knows it.

→ But that was before he'd opened his door. Well, after your little fists pounded his door, he promptly opened it and looked down at you. His head cocked to the side, one brow lifted as if he has absolutely no clue why you're standing there with your arms crossed, tapping your foot against the hardwood floor while wearing a really pathetic attempt at pure ire.

→ And you were so determined to proverbially throat punch the man, especially after the day you'd had (and to be fair, Chris probably would've let you literally throat punch him if he knew it would make you feel better). But once he opens the door and the scent of his studio and him bum rushes your nostrils, your eyes dart up to his and...and...

→ Well, god fucking damnit.

→ What were you even mad at him for? Why is he looking at you like you're some sort of damsel in distress? Why is he smiling? What's so funny?

→ "CHRISTOPHER!" Is all you can manage, your voice coming out in more of an exasperated whine and definitely not sounding any bit angry.

→ Chris stands there and mirrors you, crossing his arms and leans into the door jam with his head still cocked to the side. One of his dimples is showing and you just know he fucking knows. He knows why you're standing there. And he knows why you're upset. Or, well, you think he knows just based on the way he's looking at you like the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ You release your crossed arms, letting out a very audible huff through your nose as you do and you just stare at him. Blinking wildly, trying to find the resolve you knew you had about 60 seconds ago. But where it went, you haven't a fucking clue. Because he's standing there...just looking at you like you are the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ "Baby?" He finally responds. His voice is calm, suddenly soothing your rattled nerves. You let out yet another huff, but this time its a little less intense and you drop your shoulders.

→ "I hate you. You know that? I'm mad. I'm mad at...you!" You press your finger gently into his chest as you speak, "But...but I can't fucking remember why now because you're looking at me like that and...and...UGH!"

→ Chris knows you had a rough day. He doesn't even need to ask you to know it. He just feels it radiating off of you. So, he cocks his head to the opposite side as you stand there, trying to be mad about something and looking less and less like the raging bull you thought you did and more like a shrieking squirrel.

→ And Chris lets a beat of silence go between the both of you before he simply places each of his hands on either side of your arms and brings you close to him. You hear a soft sigh breach his lips before he leans in and presses a firm, but gentle kiss to your forehead.

→ Yeah, this fucker disarmed you with the forehead kiss this time. Damnit, damnit, damnit.

→ He leans back up, straightening himself upright before giving your arms a gentle squeeze. And he doesn't say anything. His arms fall back to his sides as he resumes his previous stance against the door jam. He's still smiling at you like you are the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ You let out one last sigh. Well, the man did it again. And you can't even be mad. Because I mean, look at him. Try being mad at him. Its impossible.

→ You give a shake of your head before spinning on your heels, heading back down the hall towards the kitchen. But you feel Chris' eyes are still on you. And you look back over your shoulder and yep, there those brown little boba eyes are, locked on you.

→ "I'm mad at you. So don't you dare stare at my ass as I walk away from you." You look forward again, but not before you place a hand on each butt cheek in a feeble attempt to block Chris' gaze.

→ And all you hear are his muffled giggles. His absolutely adorable, precious and cute giggles. Fucking shitbird.

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cloverstayy · 2 months

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BANG CHAN X NYLON JAPAN

I apologize in advance. I’ll be here for the next 5-7 business days.

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cloverstayy · 2 months

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𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽 𝙳𝙸𝙰𝙻𝙾𝙶𝚄𝙴: 𝚜𝚔𝚣 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝗣𝗧. 𝟭

𝙿𝚁𝙴𝙵𝙰𝙲𝙴;

The Open Dialogue Series is meant to spark conversation within the Stray Kids Fan Fiction community, not only between authors, but readers as well.

If you enjoyed or wish to add your perspective, 𝗣𝗟𝗘𝗔𝗦𝗘 𝗥𝗘𝗕𝗟𝗢𝗚!

So, since becoming a Stray Kids fanfic author, as well as consuming plenty of it, there are quite a few canonical concepts I feel like I just need to get on my soapbox about. And let me preface this by saying that generally these beliefs are strengthened not only from the copious hours of observations of the boys I’ve done (and still do), but in the way certain things are said or how they’re phrased by each one, respectively.

I feel like fan fiction, by virtue, is the middle ground between fiction and non-fiction. And for “good” fan fiction to be a truly immersive experience (in most instances, anyways), there has to be some kind of basis in fact. And fact can be considered anything observed (generally more than once) like behaviors or mannerisms, things that are explicitly or implicitly said, how the boys interact with one another/Stay/staff, etc.

Now, that isn’t to say that a fanfic author can’t manipulate a few details or concepts because, after all, it is a fan fiction. However, when a plot line is developed around a factual/semi-factual basis (person or otherwise) to then immediately deviate in direct opposition to that fact, it makes the entire experience and general believability of the story to fall flat on its face.

Especially if the believability of the story is critical to the plot line itself—consider instances where “y/n” is utilized instead of an original female character, for example. The author presumably uses the function of “y/n” so the reader, whomever they are, can directly place themselves within that role (as is the entire purpose of utilizing that pronoun in the first place, realistically). In some instances, “y/n” is and can be self serving and of course it is, but it isn’t just that. It also serves the reader. And maintaining a reasonable level of believability helps the reader have a truly captivating experience.

Keep in mind, this isn’t necessarily true when the concept of alternate universes are being utilized and/or when an author has explicitly stated otherwise. There is a lot more freedom to manipulate many, or quite literally all, pieces of factual evidence for the sole purpose of telling a story. Its only when the story hasn’t been presented as an alternate universe that the (in the tags, author’s notes or prologue) point I’m making becomes even more valid.

I also want to mention that masculinity and femininity ≠ masculine and feminine energy. The two concepts are not the same thing and the amount of times I’ve either seen these concepts confused or straight up misused is unreal. Masculinity/Femininity are patriarchal societal constructs taught to us from a very young age—a woman’s place is in the home or a man needs to always hide his emotions are great examples of how these constructs can take a toxic turn and influence us negatively. Now, that is not to say that there are not healthy and realistic presentations of the masculine and feminine constructs; but those are not rooted in patriarchal tradition and have honestly, in my opinion, only really started to come to the forefront of society within the last 40-50 years.

Masculine and Feminine energy, on the other hand, are constructs of expression we are born with. Masculinity/Femininity are nurture, where as Masculine and Feminine energy are very much nature—if that makes sense. These forms of expression can be influenced by the societal ideas of what is or isn’t masculine or feminine, however, Masculine/Feminine energy is how we present to others—their perception of us in society.

Let’s take Changbin and Felix, for example. I would say that Changbin’s Masc./Fem. energy is a 60/40 split, where his Masculine energy presents 60% of the time and his feminine energy presents 40% of the time. However, he is primarily a masculine presenting individual. There is little to no androgyny when it comes to Changbin, however his relatively balanced energies allow for him to be that masculine presenting man who has moments where he can present with quite a feminine energy (for example, when he’s doing aegyo or being ‘mom’ to the group).

Felix, on the other hand, has a Masc./Fem. energy split closer to 70/30. Where 70% of the time, his energy reads feminine and the other 30%, it is masculine. When it comes to masculine/feminine presentation, its a neutral 50/50 split. Felix is exceedingly androgynous; capable of encapsulating a strong masculine or feminine presentation regardless of his energy split. Take Felix’s modeling as the example here: in some shoots, he is presented in more feminine apparel, but clearly exudes a strong masculine presentation, either in facial expression or stance/posture. Where as the opposite can be true when he is presented in more masculine apparel, his features can and do come across much softer and proverbially graceful, as it were.

That being said, for the purpose of this dialogue, I’m not referring to anything with any basis around alternate universe plot lines because I understand the flexibility with them and how those literary devices are meant to function.

And, truthfully, write whatever and however you want to write it! These are just my thoughts and opinions and by no means are these things a resolute requirement. Just keep in mind that there is a difference between writing something inspired by a real life person versus writing something using their likeness as inspiration.

If you want to write about Chan, completely disregarding any of his beliefs, mannerisms, quirks, behaviors, etc but write about him as the “Stray Kids Bang Chan” (and without it being an alternate universe plot line), just realize that there are going to be people who could find your presentation to be severely lacking or simply stated, wrong/incorrect. And at the end of the day, that may have an affect regarding their perception and relationship with your piece of work.

In any case, I’ll probably end up making this a series because there are too many canons to put into one post. But, here are just a few of my canonical beliefs and why I believe the way I do.

Let me know if you feel the same way I do! Alternatively, if you’ve got a different frame of reference than the one I presented, please share; I’m always open to hearing other perspectives! If there a canon that you believe with your whole chest and its one I didn’t happen to mention, share that, too! Send it to me and I’ll provide my point of view…for science.

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳 𝙲𝙰𝙽𝙾𝙽𝚂

𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡 𝗜𝗦 𝗔 𝗗𝗢𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗔𝗡𝗧. Are there moments where he can have “bottom energy”? Sure. But “bottom energy” is not the same thing as being a submissive; they’re not synonymous. Understanding the difference is critical here and if you don’t understand the difference, either educate yourself or simply don’t write about it. I'll also mention that he can, and often time does, defer to his team. That's especially true when any kind of decision making occurs. Deferring is also not synonymous with being submissive in nature, either.

𝗪𝗛𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗚𝗛? In various interviews, performances, and interactions, he has presented himself as someone with strong dominant qualities and behaviors. Things like being able to command an entire arena of people, his stubborn ways or in the ways he speaks about each of the boys only substantiate this fact.

Being a leader is not a skill he learned, but one he was born with and continues to perfect as he gets older. Leaders by virtue of being leaders are almost always dominant individuals; the role literally requires it. But notice how I didn’t say anything about dominance in terms of sexuality; I said energy. This was on purpose. However, don’t get me wrong, I do believe that he is also dominant in that capacity as well, but when we are talking about writing fan fiction, illustrating him with meek and timid personality traits just do not make any sense at all. And this is especially true when he’s used as the inspiration for a story and not just his likeness.

𝗦𝗘𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗠𝗜𝗡 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗜.𝗡. 𝗔𝗥𝗘 𝗡𝗢𝗧 𝗜𝗡𝗡𝗢𝗖𝗘𝗡𝗧 𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗧𝗟𝗘 𝗕𝗢𝗬𝗦. There are so, so many fanfics that I’ve read where Seungmin and I.N. are presented as these inexperienced and sheltered little boys, which is so far from the truth. Or they're described in very submissive character roles, sometimes in embarassing or even degrading ones. Taking that route just always seems goofy to me, to be honest. First, they’re grown ass men. AKA big boys who've, I assure you, been around the figurative block a few times. Second, being the two youngest in the group does not equal sexual inexperience and/or ignorance. To consistently see them as virgins who’ve never seen a pair of tits, for example, is just silly.

𝗪𝗛𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗚𝗛? If you’ve watched at least one SKZ Talker episode or seen at least one of their lives respectively, it’ll be pretty easy to understand my reasoning here. While they're not blatantly flirtatious by nature, they're also not always appropriate in what they say, for example. Not only that, but look at the Hyung Line. The four of them are going to be men whom they look up to and seek guidance from, especially in regards to things they may actually be inexperienced or ignorant about. So to tell me they’re “innocent and pure creatures” just makes no damn sense.

𝗙𝗘𝗟𝗜𝗫 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗛𝗔𝗡 𝗔𝗥𝗘 𝗡𝗢𝗧 𝗦𝗨𝗕𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗦𝗜𝗩𝗘, 𝗖𝗢𝗟𝗟𝗢𝗤𝗨𝗜𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗬 "𝗕𝗔𝗕𝗬 𝗚𝗜𝗥𝗟"/"𝗣𝗜𝗟𝗟𝗢𝗪 𝗣𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗖𝗘𝗦𝗦"-𝗧𝗬𝗣𝗘 𝗠𝗘𝗡. Han and Felix are somewhat enigmatic (as are most Virgos and this is coming from a Virgo). However, I’m not going to utilize just astrological meanings and interpretation as a basis for my beliefs. However, I do feel as though—regarding all of them—their zodiacs and where they fall within their birth charts is something I could have a lot of fun dissecting. Regardless of that specific trait, just observing them not only in the group of 8, but also in interviews or where the lot of them are all interacting in some way shows how they often times fall back, listen and observe before adding in any of their thoughts/ideas/contributions. It is in their nature to be a bit more reserved before they speak. They are the observers of the group—as is Seungmin!

𝗪𝗛𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗚𝗛? In most cases within society, men whom are quiet or more reserved while around others can come across as more timid or submissive in nature, when in reality, thats so far from the truth—especially in this instance.

The toxic masculinity constructs emphasize that men should be aggressive and stand their ground, but a lot of men are the opposite of that. Even more, the toxic feminine construct stresses that women should be 180º in the other direction; for a woman to be opinionated and passionate can come across as being "unladylike"—and for anecdotal evidence sake, I know this to be true because I've been told I'm "too aggressive" when I'm talking about something I'm particularly passionate about because my mannerisms and tone of voice are utilizing the more masculine energies I do possess.

Now, do I know with unyielding certainty any of what I’m saying is fact? Of course not. I’m simply going off of patterns in behavior, responses, observations of those and things they’ve said directly—or indirectly. Without having a personal conversation with each of them, everything I say is purely speculative and should be treated as such. But to assign them societal expectations of what we believe feminine energy to be, we also strip them of that masculine energy they already possess. And it makes it that much harder for others to recognize that energy when presented with it, especially in general terms unrelated to anything fan fiction related.

Of course, each of these topics are not exhaustive and I can talk about them at length. Not only because I find it fascinating, but creating a dialogue around my observations and the observations of others is what creates such a rich fanfic community-at least, in part!

But, do you agree? Disagree? I am very interested to hear what your perspective and thoughts are, as the whole point of making this post is to create an open dialogue not only between other fan fiction authors, but fans, too!

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