You don't understand how close to home this hits :')

Im so fucking done. Exhausted. I'm sick of happy people, I'm sick of sad people, I'm sick of people with strong opinions, I'm sick of people with no strong opinions, I'm sick of being lonely, I'm sick of everyone around me.

I just want to fade away.

My thoughts on other forms of self harm and if hair pulling/skin picking applies to that.

When I think of self harm I think of NSSI, non suicidal self injury. Sometimes that's why it bugs me when people list of all the ways one can self harm such as skin/hair picking (this is coming from someone with trichotillomania) or emotional self harm and ect..

Not that these aren't valid forms that one IS hurting themselves but in my mind there's a clear distinction between someone inflicting physical pain on themselves versus "guys I self harm because I pull my hair out."

A lot of aspects in life are very distressing and people deserve to be seen and cared for,I just get rubbed the wrong way sometimes. Its like sh is just a trend you can likely apply to yourself because someone made a box you can tick off.

Maybe this is just me and my self harm validation insanity, this is just hard.

Another thing I'd like to state from my personal experiences when it comes to hair pulling is that my hair pulling comes from a form of distress and a disorder. I can see how ripping your hair out in a state of panic or need to hurt yourself would be self injury but the idea the someone who, lets say also has trichotillomania, decides to say they self harm just because they saw somewhere that hair pulling is self harm feels kinda icky to me. The idea that I tell people I self harm just because I sit on my bed and pluck my hair without even realizing sounds like two different issues.

I pick at my skin quite a bit but its not the the point where I'd call it dermatillomania so I don't feel exactly qualified to rant about it as much as I did with hair pulling. I will say the two are pretty similar though and saying you self harm because you pick at your face and legs just... Yeah.

Now, to those like me who both self harm and have one of the two disorders I mentioned while also calling them forms of self harm. Personally its just weird for me to think, "I haven't cut myself recently but I'm not clean because I plucked my hair" or ect..

If you do think this way tell me why. I'm not here to call anyone stupid or invalidate someone, I'm just stating my own mentality. If someone has a better observation I'd like to know :)

Me when I see sh/scars on tumblr: 😜

Me when I see sh/scars in person:😭😭💀💀😭😭😭💀😵😵😵

wtf is "juicy squirt" and why is it in my self harm tags :') these bots are gonna kill me before I do.

Ed Tumblr: "Tell me I'm fat and disgusting and deserve to starve. Please, make me hate myself even more and invalidate me"

Sh Tumblr: "don't invalidate the cat scratches don't invalidate. Oh gosh😭"

I-

Wait..... Will I actually regret these scars someday? Like genuinely hate them, not just "oops this is an issue" but have to actually deal with my shit💀

noooooooooooooooo :')

I can't describe it

I wish I could take pictures of every cutting session I've had, maybe I'd be less driven to make sure my cuts scarred and wrecked me forever. I can't look back at anything, just look at what's left.

Hi my name is Charle :)

I have no idea what im doing but I'm just going to talk about my mediocre life that mental health has turned into hell.

So tw for sh and such but besides that Dm me anything I enjoy human interaction and meeting people❤

I am a minor. :D

My friend told me I wasn't suicidal... I think? It was 4am. I was telling her I wasn't going to off myself, I wanted to but I wouldn't. I told her that compared to last year where I had nothing stopping me, this year the guilt of hurting loved ones wasn't worth it.

I didn't tell her that I'd prefer death then being here but living in misery is the sacrifice I'd make so maybe they can have the something I didn't. I didn't tell her the my body aches for death, I think about it every night. I didn't tell her the past summer I planned to kill myself in this coming week and it's making me sick deciding not to. I didn't tell her so much.

After I said i wasn't going to kill myself I made a joke about being suicidal and she said I wasn't, not if I wasn't going to do anything or kill myself. I tried to say something but why would I argue? That'd just make me sound like I wanted to be. And then I'd have to go into

I strive to be depressed AND funny. You guys don't got nothing on me, ima die good (?)

I hate this year already

Anyone else have so many shallow-ish scars in one area that when you cut that area (deeper even) it scrunches up on itself and doesn't even scar as bad as it could because of it??😭

My arm has done that after I used a dull blade for a long while.

Me who hid from everything for a month coming to check my tumblr:

"Oh good gracious gosh y'all"

Any input on this would be appreciated. Please be sensitive :)

My scars are very dear to me but I don't want to hurt others or be shamed by them. I hope you're able to have support and overcome that yourself ❤

I doubt this will make it around to the side of tumblr I need, but I am trying to reach the self-harm community. I am needing some input/ideas/opinions/experiences to help me process ideas for an upcoming therapy session.

I am a full-grown adult (31yo) who self injured for over 15 years on a regular basis. I have been sh free for the last 6 years minus a few relapses. That being said, I am trying to work on the shame aspect of self harm and how it affects self-image, modesty, connection to others. Generally, how withholding my history of self harm and hiding my scars affects a lot of things in daily life. Like activities I might participate in or what I wear (ie. avoiding swimming, dressing modestly, etc).

I’m just looking for everyone’s personal thoughts and experiences with this. Whether you feel shame, or are more open about it. Whether it impacts you or not. Any insight you may have to help me think about my relationship to self harm would be very helpful. Thank you in advance! (And please be kind, I know this is a a sensitive topic for many people 🤍)

Anyone else awkwardly scroll past the sh recovery tag when adding them to your post? Sometimes I have to check to make sure I didn't accidentally add it😭