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Taylor finally found a love that is really something and not the idea of something.

Taylor finally found a love that is really something and not the idea of something and she disassemble all the love songs, heartbreak she has been singing for the past 13 years with every guitar string scar on her hand and put it on Lover.

The Moment I Knew: Christmas lights glisten, I’ve got my eye on the door just waiting for you to walk in

Lover: We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January

Dear John: And I lived in your chess game but you changed the rules every day

Lover: This is our place, we make the rules

New Year's Day: Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby

Lover: We could let our friends crash in the living room

New Year's Day: You and me forevermore [Shoutout to Forever & Always, Superman, How You Get the Girl]

Lover: Can we always be this close forever and ever?

Style: Take me home. Yeah, take me home. Just take me home

Lover: And ah, take me out, and take me home

Mary's Song: Just two kids, you and I, oh, my, my, my, my

Lover: You're my, my, my, my lover

Tim McGraw: In a box beneath my bed is a letter that you never read from three summers back

Lover: I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all

You Are In Love: You understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars and why I’ve spent my whole life trying to put it into words.

Lover: Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand? With every guitar string scar on my hand.

Gorgeous: You should think about the consequence of your magnetic field being a little too strong.

Lover: I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

Dancing With Our Hands Tied: My love had been frozen deep blue but you painted me golden.

Lover: My heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue. All’s well that ends well to end up with you

King Of My Heart: Is this the end of all the endings?

Lover: All’s well that ends well to end up with you

End Game: I swear I don't love the drama, it loves me.

Lover: Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover

You Are In Love: Buttons on a coat, lighthearted joke. No proof, not much, but you saw enough

Lover: And you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me

The Story Of Us: I used to know my place was a spot next to you, now I’m searching the room for an empty seat.

Lover: And at every table, I'll save you a seat, lover.

I'm so happy Taylor finally found it!

Joe and Tay congratulations on whatever is the new step you took in your relationship. May God bless you and guide you 💖

@taylorswift @taylornation

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Dreaming - Part two

Word Count: 1.3k

Pairing: Seokjin x Reader.

AU: Idol AU, university life, Idol x Fan.

NSFW/SFW: SFW

A/N: I know this was supposed to be a longer update but I couldn’t put all of it in this one. As a result, there will be two more updates coming up soon. Though it’s small, I hope you like this one too. This is my first fic so please bear with me. Feedbacks are always welcome. Thank you.

Summary:

You are bored in life. With your love life non-existential, you can’t help but miss having someone’s constant company. Someone you can talk to 24x7. Someone who can talk you to sleep. So one day when you couldn’t fall asleep, you decide to install Tinder. Thinking it was about time for you to start dating again, things take an interesting turn when you find your favorite idol Kim Seokjin’s profile on the app. Trying your luck out, you wonder how different things would turn out if it was really him.

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1:47 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Yes. I am the real Kim Seokjin.

“No, you are not. Imposter. Does he think I’ll believe him that easily?”

1:47 AM

[Y/N]: Oh, are you now? Well, that’s interesting.

Knowing that you won’t be able to sleep now, you decided to play along and make the most out of your sleepless night.

1:47 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: I Know right. We can make it more interesting. 😉

1:48 AM

[Y/N]: What’s fame like? What does it feel like to have the world by its balls?

Desperately trying to change the topic, you type whatever comes to your mind. Honestly, you didn’t like the implications of his last reply. You were desperate but not that desperate.

1:50 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Lonely. It’s lonely.

1:50 AM

[Y/N]: Wait, really? Lonely? How? You are a part of the biggest boy band in the world. You have some 22 million followers on Twitter, you are the most followed Korean artists on Instagram, you have millions of fans all around the world. Everyone wants to know you. Artist all over the globe wants to have what you have, I don’t understand after all that how can you be lonely?

Suddenly, you are fired up. Maybe the idea that your seven favorite idols can feel lonely is really excruciating to you.

1:52 AM

[kim Seokjin]: Ah ha. So you are an army. I see.

Shit no….

1:52 AM

[Y/N]: No. I mean, you guys are so famous. You are always on TV. Not to mention your stupid crazy fangirls are always trending something about you guys on the world trends on twitter, all the time. It’s annoying.

Trying to degrade them, as if you are not a part of the fandom yourself, for some reason, you don’t want him to know you are his fan.

1:52 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Understandable. They love us a lot. We are really lucky to have them.

[Kim Seokjin]: So what brings you on Tinder?

1:53 AM

[Y/N]: Sleepless lonely nights.

1:53 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: oh, really? Why?

[Kim Seokjin]: That makes the two of us.

1:53 AM

[Y/N]: I have been thinking to join Tinder for so long but I was not sure. Today I couldn’t sleep so I decided to give Tinder a shot. Who would have thought I’ll meet World Wide Handsome today!

1:54 AM

[kim Seokjin]: So you know Bts vocabularies. Done some research, did we?

“Idiot. Why are you such a dork?”

1:54 AM

[Y/N]: No. Maybe I learned it from your profile where you proudly mentioned it as your pet name.

1:55 AM

[kim Seokjin]: You are stalking my profile? Cute.

[kim Seokjin]: Looks like I have a fan following here. Any other matches so far?

Rolling your eyes, you reply

1:56 AM

[Y/N]: Not yet. You were my first match. Let’s see how this app works out.

1:56 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: And hit the jackpot in the first try. Wow Y/N you are lucky.

1:56 AM

[Y/N]: Are you always so full of yourself? Or these lonely nights are making it extra special?

Snarking at him, he is getting on your nerves now.

1:57 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Sassy much? I like my cats wild anyway.

Bruh. He is not even trying.

Not wanting to do anything with him anymore, you confess

1:59 AM

[Y/N]: I don’t think you are the real Kim Seokjin!

1: 59 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: What? Why?

[Kim Seokjin]: All of a sudden? What happened?

[Kim Seokjin]: I thought we were bonding.

“Bonding, my foot”

2:00 AM

[Y/N]: Because real Kim Seokjin doesn’t need Tinder for dates or hookups. He is THE KIM SEOKJIN after all. He just has to say it, that he wants to date someone and millions of people will line up for him.

[Y/N]: Do you know how godly his visuals are?

[Y/N]: How soulful his voice is?

[Y/N]: The impact he has on so many people, coming from a non-singing background, he has worked hard to reach where he is today.

[Y/N]: You, by creating his fake profile on Tinder, are cheapening his character as a person. Degrading his image, reputation, and standard as one of the top idols. You should be ashamed of yourself.

2:03 AM

[kim Seokjin]: So you think I have godly visuals?

Ugh. I can’t. With him. Anymore.

2:03 AM

[Y/N]: you know what, Kim Seokjin’s imposter?

[Y/N]: It was nice talking to you.

[Y/N]: NOT.

2:04 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Kim Seokjin’s Imposter? Gosh, you are so adorable.

“Calm down, Y/N. He is just an imposter. Why are you getting so worked up?” Not wanting to deal with his bullshit anymore, you decide to unmatch him.

2:04 AM

[Y/N]: I am going to unmatch now. Have a great time ahead!

2:04 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Wait, no. I am sorry.

[kim Seokjin]: Don’t unmatch.

[Kim Seokjin]: I was just trying to create a friendly environment.

[Kim Seokjin]: I got carried away.

2:07 AM

[kim Seokjin]: Please. I was really enjoying your company. You seem such a fun person. Don’t go.

The slightest hint of Jin being upset because of you was heartbreaking. Making you reply at a supersonic speed.

2:07 AM

[Y/N]: OKAY. So stop being cocky now, so that we can have a decent conversation.

2:08 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Promise.

[Kim Seokjin]: Unm…

[Kim Seojin]: I have a construction Joke. Do you wanna listen?

2:08 AM

[Y/N]: I might as well. Go on….

2:08 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Sorry. It’s still under construction.

[Kim Seokjin]: HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2:09 AM

[Y/N]: Wow. So are you now, trying to prove to me that you are the real Kim Seokjin.

2:09 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Please. I don’t need to prove you, anything. You are free to believe whatever you want.

[Kim Seokjin]: But if you really wanna know, meet me at LE CINQ, tomorrow for lunch. And see for yourself.

“Is he asking me on a date? Or is he inviting me to so that he can kidnap me later and sell me off somewhere?’’

“wait…. What if he is a murderer? He is impersonating Jin to get easy targets. So tomorrow, when we’ll meet, after lunch, he’ll kill me. Cut my body into million pieces and hide them in his icecream refrigerator or throw them in some barren area.”

You were thinking about ways of how to decline him when he sent another text.

2:12 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: What’s your favorite fruit?

“My favorite fruit? Why does he wanna know that? Is this some kind of kink? Is he going to feed me my favorite fruit before killing me? Is this a ritual?”

2:13 AM

[Y/N]: Why do you wanna know that?

2:13 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Just tell.

2:14 AM

[Y/N]: Black Grapes. Why?

2:14 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: Cool.

[Kim Seokjin]: So, tomorrow I don’t have any schedules. If you really wanna know if I am the real Kim Seokjin or not, meet me Le Cinq, for lunch. I’ll clear all your doubts personally.

[Kim Seokjin]: Later, my wild cat.

2:15 AM

[Y/N]: Wait, what? What is that supposed to mean?

[Y/N]: How can you sleep now?

[Y/N]: At least answer my questions first.

[Y/N]: Where are you going?

[Y/N]: Ya! Kim Seokjin. Come back!

“Did he just leave me seen? Oh god, I am going to murder him!”

You were about to unmatch him when you got a twitter notification

Bts_twt just posted:

I had a great day today. Finally, after a long schedule, I am ending it with my favorite black grapes. But a wild cat keeps coming into my room to snatch them away. Please beware of such Wild Cats. Later. #KimSeokjin

You can’t believe what you are reading. Making sure it’s from BTS’ verified account, you read the tweet again and again and again. Not able to process what just happened, you are trying to connect the dots.

“All this time, it was him.”

“I was talking to him.”

“My Jin.”

“The real Kim Seokjin”

@mtgforall I hope you enjoy this one too. ❤

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“Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.”

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“We must be our own before we can be another’s.”

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The forbidden fruit, I ate it.

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Let me rest today, for tomorrow I have the battle to win.

#wecandoit #workhard

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Dreaming - Part One

Word Count: 1.7k

Pairing: Seokjin x Reader.

AU: Idol AU, university life, Idol x Fan.

NSFW/SFW: SFW

A/N: This story is part of the Luv Library Collab. This is the first part, the second part comes out next week while the last part comes out by the end of this month. This is my first fic, so please bear with me. Feedbacks are always welcome. The story will be a lot more clearer in the next update I promise. Thank you.

Summary:

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“This must be a dream.

This can’t be real.

This can’t be happening in reality.

I must be dreaming. I have to be dreaming.”

Last night when you went to bed, you were so exhausted from hectic schedules of university life that you couldn’t sleep. You try to count sheep in your mind but that didn’t help. Deciding to try something else, you play your favorite guided meditation audio that can somehow always put you at ease. Putting your headphones on, you lie down on your bed again. Trying to relax your body to the maximum and notice your breathing, you can’t help but feel restless. Even the audio comes to no use today. After several failed attempts at trying to sleep, you turn to porn to please yourself. Switching between different sites to find the right video to get off to, you wish you had someone to fulfill your desires instead of some crappy porn. Guess that’s what life’s about when your love life doesn’t exist. Not that you were complaining, single life has its benefits and silver linings. It's just that your last heartbreak two years ago was a major burnout in your soul. And even though the lessons learned from that experience was life-changing and truly elevating. You can’t help but miss having someone to talk to 24x7. Someone who can talk you to sleep. Guess you miss the messiness of the entire process or the entire life cycle that goes on from meeting a new person to getting to know the person to talk to that person 24x7 to the inevitable heartbreak. Maybe you need someone.

So when you couldn’t find the right video to get off to, you decided to open Instagram and go through your DM's. To find someone worthy enough to fill your lonely voids both emotionally and physically. But that was useless too. That’s when you decide that it was about time for you to get out of your head and start testing the waters again. Go back to the field and start fishing again. And to test the waters, you decide to go to the place where the water is really fresh, you download Tinder. Desperate times call for desperate measures. It is half-past 12, in the middle of Thursday night and you are unavailable to sleep. Run! BTS is running in the background on your laptop while you are busy scrolling through Twitter. Its been a busy week at the university as finals are approaching soon. That means you don’t get enough time to watch Run! BTS right away when they are uploaded. As a result, you are now catching up with the last to last week’s episode.

Download complete. The notification popped up.

Quickly opening the app, you set your profile first. You fill the basic details first. Name, age, gender, preference, location, and other things. The something about you column has always been a pain in the ass, going with whatever random gibberish that comes to your mind, you complete your profile. Now the media section. You can upload up to 9 pictures. Only if you had 9 good pictures. Going through your gallery, you choose a candid picture of you standing on a beach, 2 other selfies taken in your room and one that was taken on your university campus as display pictures. The last one was a genuine candid and you kinda looked cute in it. Trying to figure out how the app works, you start swiping left-right without thinking much. Don’t get you wrong, you were just checking the app out, trying to make the maximum out of it. But after the initial 5 minutes, you were bored, declaring it overrated.

Just when you were swiping through the various profiles, you stumble across a profile that you were too familiar with. It was a picture of a tall Asian guy getting out of a car. An HD picture of an HD quality man. He is the same person who sits proudly on your phone’s wallpaper.

Kim Seokjin, 27

South Korea.

Nickname: the car door guy

Something about me: Famously known as the third guy from the left, Kim Seokjin is responsible for stealing the hearts of millions of fans across the globe. The worldwide handsome guy is a part of the rainbow international K-pop sensation traditional transfer USB hub shrimp BTS. The oldest of the team can sing and dance to the rhythm of your heartbeats. He is the CEO of Jinhit entertainment (formerly known as Bighit). Swipe right to get a chance to go on a date with the worldwide cutie guy.

Rolling your eyes, you give him a super like and swipe right. If only it was this easy to win a chance to go on a date with your favorite idol. When you installed Tinder, you never thought you'll find Jin here. Having heard thousands of stories of how so many people catfish the locals, using K-pop idols pseudo profile, its an old trick in the book, in fact, a famous one. Sometimes they don’t even change the details and just go with the real one. This profile, for example, is one of them. The bio looks like something a fan came up in his/her sleep. Having swiped right, you wonder how many naïve people would fall for this façade and actually believe that they are talking to the real Jin. The visual of all visuals, the singer of all singers, Your Kim Seokjin. With that thought, you continue to explore the app.

“Why do people waste time on these stupid apps. If a person could that easily find his/her soul mate on this app, astrologers from all over the world would be already moving inside it.” You sighed.

“Maybe I should just go back to counting sheep instead” Closing the app you turn to your laptop where the latest episode of Run! BTS was playing providing perfect background music. You were so caught up with swiping left and right, exploring the new app, that you didn’t even take a single glance at the screen.

“I should have just watched the episode instead!” With that thought mentally apologizing to your favorite seven idols, you shut down the laptop and switch the lights off your room. Covering your face with your favorite blanket you turn to sleep, wishing that you could finally get some rest. And just when you were about to drift to the dreamland, the notification bell ring, hinting that you have a new notification.

Mentally cursing whoever it was that interpreted your almost sleep, you open your phone. Too bright for your liking, you couldn’t make out who it was. Until your eyes adjusted and your eyes read,

Kim Seokjin and you have matched. Take it easy from here.

Message from Kim Seokjin: Hi.

Your heart stops beating. It can’t be him. Can he? No. You know better than this. Why would he be on Tinder? If he wanted to date anybody, he can just announce it to the world and millions of fans from all gender identities would line up for him. Why would he need tinder? And even if he was on tinder why would he match with me? There are millions of beautiful girls out there who are way better than you look. Why would he text you? Why would he choose you? Ignoring the newly arrived notification, you quickly open tinder. You are going through your profile once again. Basic. The profile screams basic. With just your name, age, gender and preference your profile doesn’t say much about you. With a quote “Chaos is a ladder” sitting on your bio you know pretty well your profile is darned. You can’t fathom why would he, out of all the people out there, text you. You know it danm well he didn’t. If only you were that naïve to fall for the façade but you knew better. This is an imposter. He is an imposter. Or maybe she is. You don’t know who it is, that has texted you. But you know its not Jin.

It can’t be him.

You can’t help but sulk further when you realize how much you wanted it to be him. A message from Jin. A chance to get to know the person who has not only graced your life with his beautiful face, soulful voice and a windshield laugh that could light up the whole town. You also wanted to thank him. For all that he has done. He along with his other 6 band members have helped you in the most difficult times of your life. There were days when BTS was the only reason that kept you going. You wanted to thank him for his contributions to your life. You wanted him to know you as you know him.

You wanted it to be him.

You look at the clock, it was 1:37 AM. With the excitement of Jin's message and the realization followed by it that it is not him, you have completely lost your sleep. You were already struggling to fall asleep earlier and now with his message lying unread on your notification bar, you are wide awake.

Maybe you should reply to him at least. To the imposter of course. And know what it feels like to even talk to his imposter. Maybe you'll make good friends with him. Maybe you’ll become best friends with him who later fall in love with each other. Get married in Paris then move to Egypt, have 3 children and live happily ever after.

“I should reply to him.”

1:40 AM

[Y/N]: Hi.

You finally tap the send option after glaring at the two words greeting for an eternity now. Suddenly you become more conscious of your environment than you have ever been. It's almost like you can notice the minute actions that are going in your surroundings. From the clock ticking to the vehicle noises coming from the main road far away, you can notice it all.

Ding. With the notification bell, you are pulled out of your mind.

1:44 AM

[Kim Seokjin]: How are you?

Your heart started beating again. This time its 140 BPH. You can't help but get excited seeing his name flash on your phone.

1:45 AM

[Y/N]: I am good. Are you the real Kim Seokjin?

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