Yearning for the past, uncertain about the future, but avoidant to fix any of it

It's a weird point to be at, feeling like my life is already kinda in the bin despite it not even being that long ago since I turned 21. I don't know what really led me here, just my general path in life or the pandemic fucking things up or a bit of both, but it feels like my connection with people outside of family has mostly eroded and I have no idea how to fix it.

Since finishing school I haven't really found anything to replace it as my "social arena". I have my job, but I don't talk to anyone there and there's very little opportunity to talk to people anyway. In my last few years of school I started drifting away from old friends. We didn't go to school together every day anymore and the pandemic kinda put up a wall everywhere else too. I was making some new friends initially, but after a year I couldn't even make that happen anymore. My ability to make new friends just faded away and so did my connections to old friends. I just drifted into isolation more and more. At this point I feel so deep into that pit that I can't find my way out again. I can't find it within myself to start talking to people again, old or new. I can't find it within myself why I'd even be worth anyone's time.

When I was still hanging out with people I got constant feedback, it felt good, I could pick up how they might enjoy my company and that they knew I enjoyed theirs. But now, after feeling alone for so long, I don't have that feedback anymore. I don't have anything up there except my own thoughts, my own projections and assumptions, my own feedback to myself. And all I can hear is the doubt, my own voice reminding me that I'm not worth anyone's time. If I try to reach back out, maybe attempt to reforge an old bond, all I'm gonna be met with is embarassment and shame and sadness. I'll end up right back here anyway.

Maybe I could try studying again, maybe try to study something that I'd actually enjoy working in and start meeting people again in the process. Seems like the only place left where I feel I could atleast potentially flourish a bit socially. But then I just think about how much I hated school, hated studying, how anxious and depressed it made me. Fear and anxiety holds me back, and I avoid returning to school at all costs.

Maybe I could just message an old friend, give them a date and just straight up ask them if/when they're free. Anytime I have those rare occasions where I do speak to old friend through text and such we end the conversation by saying "let's hang out sometime!", but then we just never do. So just give them a date, just ask them, be specific. But am I then putting pressure on them? Making them feel obligated to say yes and hang out with me? Give me some pity and just go along with it even if they don't want to? What would we even do? Just hang out? I'm just going to bore them to death aren't I? There's nothing I could do that would make it interesting or worthwhile to them. They'll never speak to me again. They never liked me anyway. Fear and anxiety holds me back, and I avoid reaching out to any and all of my past friends.

I feel stuck here, down in this rut of self-pity and anxiety and avoidance of anything scary or challenging. I know I have a whole life ahead of me, but when you're down there it's hard to imagine any future where you aren't. I know what I wanna do, I know exactly what it is that I want to do. I know exactly what I wanna say. But I don't feel strong enough. Everything just makes me anxious. Feels like that's all there is to me now, all that's left. I still have some people in my life, I know I'm not completely alone. But I just know there's something missing, a huge gap in my heart that I yearn so deeply to get back. I want to try, but I can't get out of my own way.

Loki Season 2 Thoughts

Watched the new Loki episode. I dont really know what's happening this season lol. I mean, I understand from like… a purely mechanical standpoint whats happening. I kinda get what the characters are objectively hoping to accomplish, but there are so many things happening all at once and so many things changing every second it's a little overwhelming to actually keep up with what I'm looking at and I have no clue where any of this is going. And I can't really grasp what the emotional throughline of this season is. I'm not sure it even has one. There's the moment at the end of the episode when Victor Timely pleads his case to Sylvie and she decides to spare him, and that felt like something. But everything else is a blur to me.

I'm still enjoying the show almost purely because of the production value, the way this season is directed and how much i enjoy all the performances (and especially the Loki/Mobius dynamic), but I havent found myself really emotionally invested in any of it so far. Nothing has topped the season premiere for me yet. That episode was just so damn good, but even then it felt like the season didn't quite have a direction set in yet and the following episodes still don't feel like they've set a proper course for the story. Even just trying to describe these issues is difficult because my brain is overwhelmed with everything going on and not in a good way. And then the end of the episode adds yet another new thing! Enough, guys!

It's nice how everytime a new Spider-Man movie comes out I just remember how much I frickin love Spider-Man. I saw Across the Spider-Verse twice in theaters, I've been reading a buncha Spidey comics, I've really been in the mood to rewatch Spider-Man Homecoming again. Just the best mood to be in really.

Sentimental Summertime Mullings

Every summer, me and my family travel west to my great grandma and great grandpa's old house which my grandma and her siblings still own. It's out in the mountains, by the sea in a real small town. There isn't really any dedicated internet set up there either since no one really lives there anymore. It might be the time of year I look forward to the most. It's a nice place to spend time with my parents, siblings, grandma, my uncles, aunts, cousins, etc without worrying about work or whatever. Even some more distant family that I only really see when we're there. We go fishing, we go on hikes, we play cards, it's just the lovliest place I can think of. But one of my favorite things about being there is the opportunity to reconnect with some hobbies that I've fallen away from a bit at home.

Since there isn't really any dedicated internet there, I'm forced to unplug a bit and do something other than watch YouTube videos. At home that kinda became the default for me, even if I wanted to do something else. So being there, in that house is where I think my love of video games really formed. When we weren't on the trampoline or going out on hikes, me and the other kids would be on our DSes playing games day and night. Pokemon, Mario Kart, Mario Party, the frickin minigames in New Super Mario Bros and Mario 64 DS (lots of Mario), even making and downloading Flipnotes while it was still alive. Life truly couldn't get any better than that for little me. Those times are some of my most cherished childhood memories, yearly traditions that I always looked forward to so much. But of course, none of us stopped aging (as much as I would've liked that), and as everyone got older, people had other things they wanted to do, other places they wanted to visit, or just generally less interest in spending so much time playing on our old little DSes.

I wasn't hanging out with my second-cousins every year anymore, and for the last few years I haven't really been able to play video games on my own at home. I couldn't just sit down and play a Pokemon game anymore when it was so connected to that place and those memories I couldn't relive again. It just made me sad. It still makes me sad. But this year… I dunno. I feel like more than ever I've found it within myself to accept those times as just memories. Memories that I still hold very dear, but memories nonetheless. I'm standing in this house and I don't feel depressed that things changed. I'm playing some Pikmin, I'm reading a whole bunch of comics, I'm going on hikes and going fishing with the family members who are still visiting. Doing all this stuff that I liked to do and not feeling chained to the fact that I'm not following all our yearly traditions exactly as they were. Part of me just feels more at peace finally.

It's not the same as when I was a kid, the house isn't as stuffed with family as it was back then and I still miss it being that way, but maybe I'm finally moving on a bit. Accepting that it's ok for this place and my new memories there to change, and that I can still enjoy those hobbies that I loved so much as a kid. I can still enjoy Pokemon even if my second-cousin who knew everything about it and lended me some of his isn't here as much anymore. I can just enjoy the stuff I like because I like it and I wanna keep doing it as I move into new and scary phases of my life. My love of these things definitely stemmed from this house and the family I spent time with there, but it doesn't have to end there, stuck in this house forever. Still, if they do come visit again while I'm here and feel like playing some Mario Party, I'll be more than happy to bring that dusty old cartridge out. I always bring it with me.

Reflecting on MCU Phase 4

Now that we've entered the new year and are closing in on phase 5 of the MCU, I just started thinking about phase 4 and the response to it. I've seen some people say that the response to it was so divisive because the new movies and shows were more niché or were taking bigger swings than the previous phases, and I dunno if I entirely buy that.

Now I myself didn't really dislike phase 4 or anything. I don't think there was a single project that I outwardly disliked, but there was this persistant feeling of… sloppiness? I'm not sure what else I could call it. Sloppy effects work, sloppy visuals, sloppy writing, more than ever I started to feel that these projects definitely needed more time in the oven. Before phase 4, Marvel Studios produced at most 3 movies a year, and even there we could see parts of the movies that were more rushed than others, but with phase 4 we saw the release of 5 shows and and 4 movies in 2021, followed by 3 shows, 3 movies and 2 specials in 2022. That's a lot of content in just 2 years, and I think they were starting to stretch themselves more than ever with that. The shows in particular have that sloppy feel, maybe because of the unusual development timeline, how fast they're making them and the fact that they aren't really hiring actual showrunners.

There's also been thing that I've felt looming over all the new releases. Phase 4 has in a way been a time of experimenting for Marvel Studios. Dipping their toes into new concepts and genres. But as nice as that sounds on paper, in execution I just get the sense that they were never able to truly commit to these new ideas. It's like they're scared of going too far and so by the end we're usually back to regular Marvel fare.

I dunno if I'm making any of my points very clear here, but at the end of the day I think whenever people start getting defensive about movies or shows they like they come to conclusion about their detractors that can be unfounded or silly or exaggerated, and I think that has been the case for some people with phase 4. I still think there's been a lot of good out of it though. Delving into stuff like martial arts, horror, sitcoms etc is a good way to keep the universe fresh even if they aren't all homeruns, and we're getting more diversity in the leading roles than we've had before (only took them like 13 years). I'm still optimistic about the future of the MCU, and I hope they learn from some of their missteps in the last two years.

"I love him more than anything he could do wrong."

God that hit me like a brick (no pun intended). What a finale, and what a fucking season!! I have to wait until 2024 for more of this?? I'm staying alive for the next two years purely for Andor season 2.

finale predictions

JESSE. JESSE YOU WORTHLESS IMBECILE. STOP POURING OIL ON YOURSELF JESSE. YOU CAN’T FLY IN THE RAIN BECAUSE YOU COVERED YOURSELF IN OIL JESSE. IT’S SCIENTIFICALLY IMPOS-

- Season 26, Episode 5, ‘Stairway to heaven’

you probably havent heard of the music i listen to. its pretty indie. real deepcuts.

the worst part of having severe anxiety is that i cant go out dressed as a cool alternative girl without fear of god’s judgement and death

i like how one of anxiety’s main features is convincing my body and brain that im about to fall down and straight up die right on the spot

listening to this before bed to calm down my anxiety

hey did you know the andor finale is next week? have you watched andor? you should really watch andor. why havent you watched andor? the finale is on wednesday, you still have time to catch up and watch the andor finale with all of us andor watchers. it’s a good show. you should watch it. watch andor.

my one rule now that im on tumblr is that if anyone disagrees with me about anything i will freak the fuck out and scream and remove them from the internet. this is your only warning.

I'm freed from Twitter, here's the Spider-Man No Way Home review I wrote when it first came out. It's so stupidly long.

I don't really know what started my love for Spider-Man. I can't even remember where I first learned about him, it just feels like he's always been a part of my life. I watched the cartoons, all the movies, I got any game I saw with Spider-Man on it at the store, I had a Spider-Girl toy that I thought was just Spider-Man, but it was actually Mayday Parker the whole time and I didn't notice. Point is, I really love this character and it feels like I always have. As a fan I also like to find the positives in all of his movies, even if I greatly dislike them. All that is to say that I am incredibly biased, this movie means a lot to me and I don't think any other singular character could give me the kinda experience I got from this film (except maybe a Star Wars movie). I absolutely loved it. Even as "pandering" as it might seem with how much of it is about bringing things over from previous incarnations of the character that people feel really nostalgic for, I think No Way Home uses those elements to really great effect. It's clever, it says something about the core of Peter Parker, and it teaches this younger Peter a lot. It's hilarious, it's painful, it's exciting, and it feels so… sincere. (I'm gonna be using that word a lot).

It's kinda hard to hold it in for too long, so I just have to get it out. There's three Spider-Men in this movie, the big three live-action Spideys finally coming together. Holy shit. Tobey and Andrew jump straight from the worlds of Sam Raimi and Mark Webb into the MCU, bringing their own flavors and personalities, but still feeling like they've grown since we last saw them. Tobey is of course older, a bit wiser, and pretty mellowed out, polite and quite positive. Andrew is still bitter from what happened with Gwen and admits he let his anger get to him more after that event, but here he still brings a lot of love, charm, fun and sarcasm into the movie. They really shine once they enter the scene, and it doesn't feel like they're purely here to get paid.

Andrew's line before the final battle, saying he always wanted brothers, really stood out to me personally. It made me smile so hard. I don't think it was meant to invoke this specifically, but it reminded me of Peter's clones in the comics, Ben Reilly and Kaine, who sorta become Peter's brothers. And I think that kind of brotherly dynamic was the perfect way to pull this off. I was very skeptical of the idea to bring the three Spideys together when the initial rumors started to circulate, thinking that it wouldn't work as well as Into the Spider-Verse did with all of its distinct Spiders. Since then I’ve warmed up to the idea, and my god seeing it for myself was truly magic. The banter between the three Peters in this movie really gives that brotherly vibe. There's such a sincere love that develops between them in the short time they have together as they bond over shared traumas and desires and weird experiences as superheroes. Tobey and Andrew have felt all the same things that Tom is feeling during their first meeting, soon after Aunt May's death, and they serve more of a purpose in the film by helping him through it, and not just being there to fight in the finale. I also love the moment where Andrew calls himself lame after Tobey and Tom talk about how they've fought aliens, and Tobey backs up and repeats to him that he's not lame, he's amazing, even trying to get Andrew to say it to himself. They're all so supportive of each other, it's really great. And their last hug made my heart absolutely flutter. It's just so… sincere!! And sweet! I feel like there aren't enough hugs in superhero movies. They're brothers, they love each other, and it feels like they were destined to be brought together one day. It's beautiful. Their brotherly bond makes me wanna see them stay together forever, but of course Tobey and Andrew must return to their lives. If they all come back in Across/Beyond the Spider-Verse, I will cry.

Speaking of Into the Spider-Verse, it is certaintly easy to compare this movie to that as another multiversal Spider-Man film. They do share that aspect, but they are so completely different that I can't really compare them. Into the Spider-Verse was an origin story for Miles Morales, while also being all about the Spider-Man identity as a whole and what it stands for, the idea that anyone can be Spider-Man. It's why Miles was such an effective protagonist for that story. No Way Home shrinks that lens and focuses soley Peter Parker (three of him even!), and the kind of struggles that often define his career. It's not exactly an origin story in the same way, but a continuation of a character we've already seen plenty of times. It's about his on-screen legacy and all the things that bring these three distinct adaptations together, while pushing our newest and youngest iteration to his absolute limits and beyond. The movie does a lot of work to "fix" some of the issues people have expressed about Tom's version of the character, but to me it never actively feels like that's what it's doing. It feels like a natural progression for him, and a transition into a newer, darker and more mature stage in his life as he enters adulthood and takes on new responsibilities. While none of us have faced circumstances as fantastical as Peter does in this movie, the ending gives off a feeling I can relate to. When you enter that next stage in life, like leaving high school to go to college or get a job, you often drift apart from people who were once so close to you. It hurts, and for someone like me it's difficult to let people go, but it's a part of growing up. You grow away from people, and that's natural as sad as it might sound. That's not exactly what happens here, there are supernatural causes for Peter drifting away from Ned and MJ, but it invokes that feeling which grounds it in reality for me. And even then, there's still hope left for a future rekindling of these relationships if you look closely and see the Black Dahlia necklace Peter bought for MJ in Far From Home still hanging around her neck. You can drift apart from people, but you might still find them again further down the road. For now though, Peter has been given a fresh start, a fresh suit and a new apartment where he can start to rebuild his life, and continue being Spider-Man. Even after all the pain it's brought him, he can never forget the lessons taught by his family, his mentors, and his brothers. As long as he wields great power, he must always be responsible with it, and by the end he's given a second chance to take on that responsibility and take on his duties while protecting the people he loves the most.. The events that lead down this path started in Far From Home when he forgot that lesson, and this movie guarantees that it'll stay forever. He feels like a truly tragic character now, which is made so painful because they've actively made him so likable and charming and adorable in all his previous appearences. We met him in such a young and innocent state, and Tom's Peter has been defined by that innocence and optimism much more than Tobey and Andrew ever were, so seeing where this movie leads him just pains the soul. But it's good! As much as I think people exaggerate how miserable Peter's life should be, tragedy has always been a part of it, and I think this movie does that very well while not letting it make the whole thing a downer of an experience. It's still so fun and exciting, while giving all the tragic beats the room they need to breath. It's a delicate balance that I think is handled with a lot of care, more than many other MCU films.

The first bit of the movie has the same kinda tone as Homecoming and Far From Home which eventually takes a turn into darkness and tragedy, but again it doesn't feel like total whiplash, it feels like a transition. The movie takes all the neccessary steps to get us from that John Hughes fun to the darker new reality. I think in addition to the classic "great power" mantra, the ending embodies an important line from Spider-Man 2 said by Aunt May, and that Peter repeats to Doc Ock. "Sometimes to do what's right we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams". I'm honestly surprised that wasn't one of the lines they referenced since it is so applicable, but either way I think it's fitting that the words of two Aunt Mays feel so central to this movie's ultimate conclusion.

Going back to Into the Spider-Verse, another thing that seperates these two is No Way Home's focus on Spidey baddies of the past. ITSV certaintly attempts to give Kingpin a sympathic backstory and motivation for doing what he's doing and is otherwise jam-packed with classic Spidey foes, but it still isn't really about the villains in the same way No Way Home is. This movie is all about saving them, redeeming them, and getting them home. It's like a twist on ITSV's plot to get all the Spideys home, with NWH adding an extra layer to that. One of the biggest conflicts in the movie is the disagreement between Doctor Strange and Spider-Man on how to handle them. Spider-Man desperately wants to cure them and send them home safely and alive, while Strange is rigid in his belif that their only destiny is to die. It's such a smart and Spider-Man-y way to deal with this multiverse drama. I don't think anyone watching the ending of Far From Home expected it to lead to this sorta multiversal madness, but they really make it work anyway.

And as we're talking about villains… Green Goblin. Holy shit. He's not really in that much of the movie, but he is a god damn demon in the time he has. Breaking the mask early on was a smart idea I feel, as it opens Willem Dafoe up to really shine even brighter than previously as Green Goblin, letting us see every bonkers expression on his beautiful face. When Goblin takes over he becomes so insanely sinister, in a way that only Willem could pull off this well, and it is so god damn entertaining. He's clearly having a great time playing the role, and it's really makes him stand out among other MCU villains (besides the fact that he's literally from another franchise). I think he's the perfect villain for this movie. He's the perfect challenge for Peter's desire to save the villains since the Goblin persona is so cruel, and evil, and heartless. Doc Ock, Electro and Lizard aren't exactly the nicest guys when they're in villain mode and they're quite resistant to the idea of being "cured", but they're nothing compared to the pure evil that Norman's alter ego showcases. It really adds to the feeling that the whole world is against Peter. Strange, the general public, the media, and even the people he's trying to save with Goblin going as far as killing our dear Aunt May. And it makes Peter really doubt his whole mission in the movie, and the wise words of his aunt. Goblin doesn't wanna just kill Spider-Man, he wants to twist him. He wants to push him over the edge, just like he tried to in his original appearence, and he gets even closer to that goal in this movie leading to one of my favorite moments of the film. After Spidey and Goblin's raw final brawl, Peter is ready to just murder him with his own glider, way more directly than when Tobey just dodged out of the way. And right at the last second, Tobey catches it. No dialogue, no music, just a knowing look from Tobey to Tom, as Tom's Peter relents and lowers the glider. Tobey saves Tom from completing his dark path, and makes up for one of his biggest regrets by saving Norman and allowing a new timeline to be created without the fallout between Peter and Harry. It's such a great moment, Tobey's eyes alone manage to say so much. Absolutely powerful.

The previous two Spidey movies have had very strong villains in my opinion, soaring a lot higher than many of the other boring grey villains in the rest of the MCU. Michael Keaton's Vulture has personally been my favorite since Homecoming came out, and Jake Gyllenhaal's Mysterio was insanely entertaining in Far From Home once the twist happens, with his presence looming over this film as his final illusion lays ruin upon Peter’s life. I was very much looking forward to another new baddie in this one before we started hearing about all the old ones coming back, which felt a little disappointing at the time. But as much as I would've liked to see Kraven or Michael Mando's Scorpion finally enter the picture, I was still very happy to see how the returning foes were handled here. Films like Spider-Man 3 and The Amazing Spider-Man 2 have often been criticized for having too many villains to deal with at once, and it very much was a worry that this movie would face that same problem tenfold. We now have 5 villains in one movie, more than the two other movies I just mentioned, but No Way Home manages to pull it off incredibly well. That might in part have something to do with them all being returning villains of course, we've met these guys before and we know their history so they don't need to dedicate as much time to setting them up, but it could still easily feel very crowded anyway. But as I said before, the villains are a major focus of this film and I think that's the key that really makes it work. It's all centered around them, it's all about the debate on what to do with them and if their fates are truly sealed. They're all shown to not be truly rotten to their cores, there are people underneath those scales and lightning bolts and sand particles that deserve redemption and a second chance at life. It's kinda beautiful in a way, atleast to me. I love a good save the villains plot, and it's part of what makes this movie feel so… quintessentially Spider-Man. I think it's also part of what makes this movie feel so sincere to me. Despite the high drama and tragic tone it doesn't feel pessimistic, atleast not to me. There's a fight for hope happening. Peter is going way out of his way to rescue these guys and get them home safely, fueled by the words from his aunt, when he could so easily just do as Strange tells him and solve the problem for himself way quicker. I really think it's something beautiful.

I just have to take one paragraph to talk about the death of Aunt May. This isn't the first time I've had to see her die, but I cried just as much this time. I don't know how to even begin to describe my feeling about it. I really love Aunt May, every iteration of her brings something new to the table, but she is still always so warm and morally strong. As important as Uncle Ben is to Peter going down the path to becoming Spider-Man, it's Aunt May who consistantly takes the role of being Peter's northstar. And while she hasn't had a big role in the previous two MCU films, she is incredibly important in No Way Home. More than ever, she is Peter's moral compass and her teachings drive Peter for the rest of the movie and changes his life forever. If he is to truly become Spider-Man, he has to come to the terms with the fact that his powers give him a responsibility to do good by other people, and to do that he has to make some sacrifices. He can't have it both ways, if he wants to clean up his mess he has to give up some of the things he wants the most. That doesn't have to mean absolutely no one can ever know he's Spider-Man, but it does mean that he can't shift his responsibilities onto others like he tried to do with Mysterio. He can't be wreckless, and that is what I think is the most important lesson from May's death. God I cried so hard.

I think No Way Home might have my favorite performance of Spider-Man that anyone has given on the big screen. Tom Holland hits every beat perfectly. He's always been incredibly charming in the role, and I think he's always put in a good performance in the moments that have required him to get serious and sad and scared, but as this script turns the drama up to 11 he keeps up with it all the way. He's goofy and mischievous, he's furious and sad, he's scared and unsure, he capture so many sides of Spider-Man so, so well, I absolutely love watching him. Tom Holland's version of Spider-Man has been deeply personal for me. When Spider-Man Homecoming came out I was the exact same age as Peter was in the movie, which strengthened my connection to him and his daily struggles even more, and quickly made it my favorite Spider-Man movie. And now here we are, at the end of the trilogy, and I am once again in a similar place to Peter as I prepare myself to move on to the next stage of my life, which is one of the reasons this movie once again feels as personal as Homecoming did all those years ago. The tone is entirely different from where the trilogy started, but there are so many heart breaking connections back to the beginning and overall I think this is an amazing trilogy capper. It's been a wild ride for MCU Spider-Man, in his own movies and beyond, and after No Way Home I can say with more confidence than ever that he is my favorite Spider-Man of all time.

I can't keep rambling on, and I can't touch on every single moment I loved and every character that I adored, so I think I have to just end it here. Overall… god I wish I didn't have to wait so long to see this after everyone else was storming the theaters, but I am so happy it's finally in my brain. I adore this movie, I absolutely love it. It's kinda hard for me to not place it as my number 1 Spidey movie and MCU movie. Is it recency bias? Did the nostalgia bait get me? I don't know, and I do not care. This is everything I could've wanted it to be and so much more. It's everything I love about this character, everything I love about the MCU's incarnation of him and it ends with so much room for future stories from new creators. I can't wait to watch this over and over again in the future. I should've edited this down, but fuck it. You can't control me and I can't control my emotions. So with that, I'm just going to list a couple short bullet points of stuff I liked.

MJ absorbing Peter's optimism as his mind is shrouded in darkness is such a beautiful thing, it makes their relationship feel even stronger and their goodbye even more heartbreaking. I cried so god damn much. Also, I love Ned. Whenever a fun and goofy supporting character makes you cry, that shit is POWERFUL. AND THIS IS THE SECOND TIME HE'S DONE IT! FIRST IN ENDGAME, NOW AT THE END OF NO WAY HOME! And then they show how Peter kept his Lego Palpatine, the first thing we saw of Ned in Homecoming. God, my heart is just broken.

Michael Giacchino is a god amongst men, and he steps up his game tenfold from his previous two Spider-Scores which were already excellent on their own. What an absolute fucking genius.

The apartment fight between Spidey and Goblin is amazing, and that is all I have to say about it.

And with all that, I think I've said enough. This movie is great, and they should PUT SPOT IN THE NEXT ONE, THANK YOU AND GOOD NIGHT!!

maybe i should take advantage of having so many more characters to work with than on twitter and just post some of my long ass letterboxd reviews. that’d be funny.

it's as shrimple as that