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I JUST FINISHED EPISODE FIVE AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

GUESS WHAT'S PLAYING ON REPEAT IN MY HEAD!!! IT'S "YOU KISSED MY BOYFRIEND?" :'DDDD!!!

I HOPE Y'ALL ARE ENJOYING LAUGHING AT MY PAIN 😭😭😭 no genuinely I hope it helps soften this for you lol

I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine

Anyway 🤪✌️ let's get going :)

CARLOSSSSSS 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔!!!! I HATE TO BREAK IT TO YOU GUYS BUT NO ONE IS GOING THROUGH IT AS MUCH AS CARLOS EXCEPT MAYBE RICKY

YOU ALL JUST CAN'T MATCH UP

Anyway xD. I honestly felt SO bad for Carlos this episode. But you know what I didn't expect to come out of this storyline xd? The part of his conversation with Miss Jenn where they (the show) talked about the high standards for gay people in society, tied into Carlos's body and self esteem issues. Like?? Hello??? Honestly a slay?? I'm not gonna say it makes this WORTH IT, but still lol.

And, to be totally honest or a moment, the longer it goes on, the more okay I am with this storyline. Obviously I don't like "cheating gay" trope, but with Big Red explaining what happened I'm feeling a bit better about it. And I mean hey - it's angst. And also, it's a TV show, and people (especially tv characters lol) make mistakes. I'm not saying I've forgiven either of them yet lol, but I still love them.

Anyway! Back to my drama lol. Besides that serious stuff though Carlos and Miss Jenn's scene was HILARIOUS lol xD. Also, back on the serious stuff for a moment, I love how she acknowledged that it doesn't just go away, but promised to be there by his side through it :'). Beautiful <3.

Now. We'll be back to Carlos in a moment, because I'm gonna discuss Big Red and Ashlyn first lol.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I WAS S O HOPING HE WOULDN'T SAY IT!!! Our greatest fears came true y'all 😭. Also I gotta say I LOVE that Ashlyn was defending Carlos. But also, since she was, and not really defending herself, I think that was a pretty sure sign that it was over xD. They were great, and now, they've grown up, and changed, and they're different :'). Honestly that scene made me feel better about the whole thing than anything else. It honestly kind of mad me okay with the storyline lol? Like I said, I'm loving the angst, and honestly? I just don't enjoy disliking things. Is this how I wanted it to go down, for any of them? No. But it's what I have :). Anyway, HUAOFWIZMOFKAGSKNL I WAS DYING THROUGHOUT THAT ENTIRE SCENE!!! Y'all the liveblogging of panic that was being sent to my sibling 😭😭 xD.

But AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH ASHLYN COMING OUT!!!! :'DDDD. And finally (it's been one episode lol) an explanation on what happened 😭. Yeah honestly I feel like that's the best possible choice. My mans (as in men) just let the impulsive thoughts win 😌 /hj xDD. Or, the best possible option I guess, lol. Anyway, that honestly was the most beautiful breakup ever :'D. They just. . . genuinely were on the same page :'). Given that Redlyn's the last OG ship left (besides Seblos, but yk, they're B-U-R-N-T lol xD they better be fine though -.-), it does feel a bit bittersweet :'). Mostly bitter lol xd. I just- sighh. It's better this way for both of them, but I will miss them :'/. Ash is right - it really does feel like the end of an era x'd. Ahh, my babeys <3.

Goodbye and Rest in Peace, Redlyn <3. You were wonderful :').

Also at this time I'd like to once again bring up the fact that we were jokingly considering Big Rashlyn as the ship name LOL. Wayyy back in the day xD. Anyway lol.

Oh and also, I like that Big Red actually DID pick up on the Maddox and Ashlyn thing lol :'). Good for him xD. Also, it kinda shows again that he and Ash had changed really early on :( :').

Now, back to Carlos lol xd. Yeah, we're doing this part a bit chronologically since it involves all three of them and the background is important for both sides of it lol (Big Red and Ashlyn as one side because their scene was together lol). STOPPPP Caros wanting the international tea 😭😭💔 honey I'm so sorry but this meeting is about to crash and burn :'(( <33. And then I just- BIG RED!! THIS IS THE WORST THING YOU'VE DONE SO FAR!! WORSE THAN KISSING SEB!!! YOU TOLD CARLOS, NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT THE GOOD NEWS AND BAD NEWS PART, BY DOING A DOUBLE THUMB POINT!!!! Okay, maybe it's on equal footing with smiling while you told Ash xD, BUT STILL!!!! Y'all 😭. Seriously I rewatched that part like three times though. Just like, those 30 seconds of them talking. Carlos's HURT is just what gets to me 😭💔. The hurt and heartbreak and anger in his voice just K I L L E D M E!!! I'm not okay 😭😭😭❤️💔. But honestly I loved it lol xd because it was just SO. GOOD!! Also "I'm very fond of you" 😭😭😭😭 STOP. That whole line honestly - like I said, the whole conversation xdd 😭😭💔❤️. I love them so much and this hurts <33.

Also, I could insult Big Red by saying you don't have to worry about the self conscious side of it anymore Carlos, but I will not because that was a joke my brain made that I don't believe anyway xD. I mean, obviously Seb doesn't feel that way, but you know lol.

Anyway!! I am super stressed and not at all ready :')). Especially because the next episode started a little bit before I could pause it (and then the disney+ logo bit just. disappeared from the runtime lol) and I SAW THAT CARLOS'S SHIRT IS THE ONE HE HAS ON IN OVER AGAIN!!! LIKE I'M PRETTY SURE!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! It took me a minute of having it paused at the very beginning of the recap but then when I registered it I was like o.o xD. Anyway!

Going from those three into Ash, honeyyy 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔. Madison picking up 😭😭 :'(((. It's okay honey, I'm sure Maddox still likes you, it's probably a misunderstanding D':. Maybe they were breaking up and Maddox didn't answer because she was upset lol. Anyway xD! I felt so bad for her 😭😭. Also AAHHHH HER CLEANING OUT HER LOCKER HIGDKZOSMP 😭😭😭. Like of their pictures :'((. But I was also like xD "chill girl they're still your friends 😭 xD" lol. Maybe she left like one of Big Red so he's equal to her other friends xD. I justified she didn't have multiple of Maddox :((. But, anyway, ouch <3333.

AAAAAHHHHHHHH KOURTNEYYYY!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR HER :'DDDD. Obviously this whole thing is still scary, but she just seems genuinely happy here :'). I don't think we would've seen that if we watched her visit an Ivy League. And then the song being her sign 😭😭😭- stop, don't talk to me <33. It was perfect :')). And AAAHHHHHH IT WAS SO GOOD!!!!! GIRL YOU SLAYED S O H A R D :DDDD!!! WHOOOO ❤️❤️🤩🥰😍🥳🥳😭❤️❤️. Good crying lol <3. It was just amazing :'D. And again, I'm just so happy that she's happy 🥰. Obviously it's still scary, and anxiety-inducing, and weird, but I think she feels a tiny bit more confident in her journey now :'). And hopefully, she can enjoy the year a little bit more <3. Also, I love how surprised they all looked when she started singing xD. A very real reaction lol. And as they SHOULD, she is amazing :DDDD. I love her so much <3333.

AAAHHHHHH EJ!!!! HE'S HERE :DDDD!!! Well I mean, he's not here lol, he's there, but you know xD. HE'S ARRIVED ON THE SHOWWW!!! Lol xD. Anyway!! AAHHHH He's thriving so much :'D. And he's away from his dad :')). I'm honestly just so happy for him <333. Also, it seems like he may mayhaps (just go with it - lol call me ginain 1x05- anyway xD) have a thing going on with Val 👀👀? Good for you EJ :'D. I'm happy for you :') 🥰. He deserves this so much <333. Also, that SONG!!! IT WAS AMAZING 😭😭❤️❤️❤️. And AYYY they finally let Matt play guitar :D xD. I love him so much lol <3. EJ and Matt :).

RINA!! Okay so Ricky first, man was going through it 😭😭💔❤️. I definitely think he really needed that time with EJ <3. And honestly just, time away in general. But not alone :). But like, between seeing how EJ is flourishing (especially given what EJ said at the end), and being outside of everything and being able to look at it with an outside perspective (from himself and EJ), it was what he needed :'). Also that tough love was really what he needed 😭 xD. Seriously though, EJ saying basically that he would do anything for Gina, and the she deserves the best? 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔❤️❤️ Stop, I'm not okay <3333. But seriously, their conversation was just SO. GOOD. And the ACTING bro don't even get me started on how amazing everyone's acting has been 😭😭💔❤️. But Ricky crying? Dang that hit HARD!! And yeah, EJ said exactly what he needed to hear. A little comfort in the way of having faith of him, a little tough love, and just plain old love. He's finally starting to heal, to not run, and I just love that so much for him :')). I'm so happy for Ricky 😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥰 :')). He deserves this <3.

Also them hugging and saying I love you 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️. I can't dude I love them so much <333. They really are brothers :')).

Though I've gotta say that right after/during that I was like "and after you keep stealing his girlfriends too :')" AND THEN THEY BASICALLY SAID THAT SLFJGHDKGJLS XDD!! That part was amazing lol, on its own too xD. And also the guitar :'D. Lovely <333.

GINAAA!!! GIRL YOU WERE SLAYING SO HARD THIS EPISODE :DDD! GIRL SHE WAS SLAYING SO HARD THIS EPISODE :DDDD!!! Like all the filming?? YES girl go off :O :DD!! Although I am kinda like. "Bestie the rehearsal xD." still lol, but to be fair that still wouldn't have been enough xD. Anyway, I'm glad Mack got to have dinner with them and honestly just be kinda normal for a bit :). Like, him trying to pay? Nah, dude :). And hey, Gina's doing what she said :p. She's training him how to live life a bit :'D. Also Gina's mom liking him was sus 😭😭. I mean like, sus in a :'((( way because she likes him and would let Gina date him but that's just because he's successful DD':. And that's rude frankly :'((. I mean it's more than rude but still lol. And then YES Gina honestly ska <33 stad up to her :)). I know you love her but she ain't perfect and she needs to know what you have to say <3.

And then, that last scene (with Rina). AAAAHHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️. Y'all I was freaking out and then HE SAW MACK AND HE TURNED AWAY AND I WAS ABOUT TO LOSE MY MIND I SWEAR, BUT THEN AAAAAHHHHHHHHH GINA SAW HIM :DDDD!!! AND I WAS SCARED SHE WOULD BE TOO LATE BUT P H E W SHE WASN'T 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️🥰 :'DDD!!! AND AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH SHE TOLD HER MOM ABOUT THEM :'DDDD!!!!!! AND AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH WAS THAT SECOND CHANCE PLAYING??? BUT I JUST WPXIGUSNMOSMLOAUNPA AND THEN THE K I S S S S S!!!! Y'ALL THAT WAS SO GOOD 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️. AND IT WAS SO CINEMATIC!!! AAAHHHHHHH I JUST LOVED IT SO MUCH :'DDDDDD.

Also side note Ricky calling EJ 😭😭💔❤️ :')).

And then NOOOOOO THE SHOWWW 😭😭😭😭💔❤️❤️. Only Emmy and Miss Jenn being there :'((( 😭😭💔. I was hoping at least a few people would be :'(( but no D':. I mean I know they're all going tough it but 😭 DD':. Anyway that sucks really bad :((. Also what was the principal doing before he came in that he was so happy about lol. Anyway xD.

Accidentally am at the end of the episode and haven't done Miss Jenn yet (shhh might've forgotten xdd) SO here she is :D. Again her and Carlos's scenes were wonderful 😭😭😭❤️❤️. I just love her being there for him :'))). And him for her 🥰🥰. And you know what? We deserve this. We deserve sad Carlos who gets comfort 😤😤😌. Does it hurt? Yes xd. But it's GOOD 😭❤️❤️❤️ MH <333. Anyway xD. Poor Miss Jenn overall though :'((. Especially with the show 😭😭 DD':. I love her though <333

And poor Emmy too :'((. Honey's just trying her best <33. And I mean she literally came to this school for the musical and to be with them D':. Poor girl 😭😭❤️ <333. Plus Carlos said Seb was the only reliable theatre kid but now there's Emmy :'((( :'). She is, but no one else was there 😭💔. Anyway she's slaying as always :'( <333.

Oh also I forgot to mention it but 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 CARLOS SITTING IN THE STAIRWELL WITH IT RAINING LOOKING AT PICTURES OF SEB KILLED ME 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔❤️. Also the caption said something about "my favorite person" or something like that so ha I'm fine :'))). Heh :'))). Also, WE HAD NO IDEA HOW DEPRESSING THESE SCENES REALLY WERE 😭😭😭😭💔💔. Like from the promo pics xdd 😭😭. First Halloween now this 😭. Like this one looked sad unless you were like me and thought it as just his skater outfit for a second :')), but still it was WAY worse 😭😭😭💔 DD':. Anyway it killed me thank you :)) :')) :'(( <3333.

Maddox, Jet, Seb, and Nini - we miss you :')) ❤️😭💔❤️❤️🥰. I have no clue where Maddox and Jet were but you know xD.

This episode was so amazing. I loved it so much :'DD. Like, yes, it caused me immensely, immeasurable pain, but it was SO GOOD. The EMOTIONS this episode!! And every episode tbh lol. Like I said, I haven't mentioned it much as of yet, but the acting is absolutely PHENOMENAL!!! And just overall y'all I am so not okay with this show 😭😭😭❤️💔💔 xdd. Like, not okay over this show lol. Anyway xD. I'm so scared for the next episode, and the next few episodes. And I'm also SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Y'all I think we might get Over Again next episode :'D (nearly said week lol). That would heal my broken heart a bit <3.

Oh also, input on everything this far from my sibling through my updates (panicked texts): SEB WOULD NEVER THE WRITERS ARE WRONG. Summarized a bit, but it wasn't much longer than that lol. So yeah, that <3 xD. I agree but I'm still okay with the storyline lol. Again - I'm just enjoying what I've got :).

Anyway!! Yeah :)). Wonderful episode- OH YEAH!!! THE MUSIC WAS S O GOOD!!!! I know I talked about them individually but it was just AMAZING :'DDD!!! Both songs were so amazing, thank you very much for those 🥰🥰. I loved them :'D. And again, that Second Chance motif killed me <3.

But yeah!! I'm so nervous and so excited :))).

NOW IT'S TIME FOR EPISODE 6!!!!

Episode 207 spoilers below

I say this a lot but this episode was insane and is now my favourite.

WE GOT EJ

gotta love how dedicated he is to his extracurricular activities. water polo, class treasurer, AV club president-

I'm not a portwell shipper, but they have an amazing friendship dynamic, like can I get a bestie like EJ please?

Ricky lowkey looks like he's been crying all night-

can someone check up on this boy? please? Mike where are you buddy, your son needs help.

"It doesn't mean anything"

"It means so much to me"

omg soulmate things😍😍😍

uhhh since when are Ricky and EJ so close??? they're literally talking and laughing together what? when?

I'm not complaining, it's just surprising.

please sebby, I would love deh so much I can't even explain it.

also didn't they say that Ms Jenn has never seen deh?

*gasp* what if she's just pretending that they don't have the rights to it so they don't have to talk about her not seeing such a CLASSIC

hmmmmm ~thats suspicious, that's weird~

(what is happening to me rn-)

look at Kourtney goooo

designing costumes, being in the musical and being an assistant manager? I wish I could multitask like that

an elephant.

the way I already know something's gonna happen with Howie.... like their relationship can't move that fast, if the writers don't have plans to mess with them a bit.

OK GO WITH ME FOR A SEC: PICTURE SEB AND CARLOS, WITH SWITCHED PERSONALITIES.

anyways

why is Carlos so funny? who gave him the right to make me laugh so hard over a one liner that doesn't even make sense.

oo he has abs *Debby Ryan face*

PLEASE NOT THE BUTT PADS

hi yes, are you still trying to tell me EJ isn't bi after this episode?

WHY IS CASWEN SO CLOSE TODAY? THAT LOOK, I SAW THAT LOOK WHAT IS HAPPENING 😭

GINI INTERACTIONS TOO? WHAT IS GOING ON SOMEONE PLEASE SEND HELP???

@sunshine-julie-molina might need help too after that *waits patiently for them to scream at me in dms*

what the heck.

North high is a literal castle???

Get a room redlyn, y'all have been there for like 5 seconds omg

ah yes. sebby the silent voice of reason

um who's this dude? I don't like how he's looking at Gina-

keep walking sir

calm your man tits, you're not that hot 🙄

EXCUSE ME

CAN I GET YOUR SNAP?

BOY YOU CAN CATCH THESE HANDS

EJ BABY

"hey babe"

alright I'm gonna say it

i don't like how in this society men will only leave a girl alone when they have their partner right next to them. so screw you random north high jock. respect women and then we can talk.

right so... moving along

why is the back of EJ's shirt just yellow. idk why but I wasn't expecting that.

when your favourite trope is fake dating and this happens: 🤡

ANTOINE MY BOYYYY!!!!

oh look Ms Jenn's here too

aww Seb's "friendship" thing caught on a bit

what the heck?? I knew we hated Zach BUT HOW DARE HE

my new favourite thing: Antoine using English words without knowing what they mean.

"Fugly"

You go sebby, bop to the top🥰

please they had the right idea, dance-offs are stupid.

...

oh ok guess we're doing this now.

kill the beast? more like, kill the Lily *wheEze*

(please send help, I'm so sleep deprived rn)

in 10 years....

"mommy, how was I made?"

"it all started when we danced in your dad's office..."

but actually

WHY DO I FEEL SO WEIRD WATCHING THIS-

and here I thought Mike and Ms Jenn's flirting was bad.

Lily + Ricky = Licky

this is the only reason why they'd be terrible together /j

right so lily doesn't care about the rose song, but she memorized the lyrics? something tells me she stays up at night watching it and writing out one liners to bring people down.

yes "Diane", his accent is amazing but back off, he's mine😃🔪

TOM HOLLAND ON STILTS-

BETWEEN THIS, THE SHAWN MENDES LINE, AND THE HARRY STYLES THING-

they can't leave poor ricky alone omg😭😭

jealous big red is something I never knew I needed to see.

don't worry EJ, I like the mob song. just not whatever remix thing this was /hj

wow I wonder who the north high beast is😐

hehe Antoine looks so short next to Carlos and idk why

SEB IS SO CUTE WHEN HES TRYING TO BE TOUGH AHHH

Ashlyn's high note>>>>>>>>

how is it that every time I think that Ashlyn has shown her full talent, she continues to amaze me every single time.

Also, Ashlyn sang wondering, which was an alteration to the script? why wasn't that mentioned?

EJS FACE AT THAT LINE OMG

we only keep you around for sports analogies omg EJ, keep up

ZACH TOOK THE MASK?!?!?!?!??!😱😱😱😱😱😱

I'm so shocked /s

Alexa, set my alarm sound as EJ caswell saying "good morning east high"

seblos when the elephant sound came from the beast 🏃🏽‍♂️🏃🏼‍♂️

Did Kourtney never ask what school the guy she's dating goes to? like how would she not know?

Nini's reputation era

wait I mean Nina

y'all realize that she's actually done with Ricky rn? like totally cutting him out.

literally changing the name she's had for so long because it's the name Ricky gave to her-

anyways I can't really blame her, but can she at least try to understand Ricky a bit?

they both have totally different plans for the future so they need to ✨communicate✨

More Badlands headcanons: the prequel

I return from the grave to lay upon ye my newfound knowledge: so I was just doodling a sad bbh, then he started looking more like child bbh and it turned into a comic of Bad meeting the other three for the first time and eventually I came up with a sort of backstory for bbh and some initial bonding for the badlands LET'S GET INTO IT

(this is all /rp)

So life in the nether certainly wasn't easy and bad's childhood was definitely fucked up.

One day he had walked away for five minutes from home and returns to it being burnt down and his parents on the ground, stabbed to death.

Baby Bad did n ot have the same attire. His current scarf, he took it from his mom when she died, whilst the sword comes from his dad. That's why he never upgraded from a diamond sword to a netherite one.

Before they died, he had 3 halos, two disappeared after they did and one remained broken until he got over them passing away.

As a kid he had more devilish wings, which became normal angel/feathered wings a little after his parents' death. It had been said that his family had a toll on their heads and only once someone else's vengeance was completed (killing said family), his features would've gone back to the way his species used to be. He wasn't sure much had changed.

(Also sidenote, for once he's on the other side: literally every bad thing reminds him of his childhood in the nether so at least for the first few centuries he's always absolutely nice to people)

Then he goes wild with chaos when hes more comfy and has friends ♥

Once grown up and confident, despite everything he'd heard about the overworld, he decides to find a portal and cross it.

Of course, when he crosses, he is immediately met with three complete strangers staring right back at him, entirely different from what people had told him: there's a biped cat, a diamond person and a creeper hybrid, still staring and blinking at him, quite surprised.

The three immediately notice how he's immediately on the defensive, guarding instead of attacking them immediately

So they understand he doesn't mean bad and they also understand it's his first time out of the nether because of the way he needs to adjust to the sunlight which is the same skeppy had the first time out of the underground (he only ever lived in caves so underground, max/min y levels where u find diamonds.

They take o n e look at bad and go "holy shit. We need to adopt this guy quick"

Bonus: "okay. GOTTA protect this dude at a l l costs. He might be 3 meters tall demon, but he looks sad so he needs to be PROTECTED RIGHT NOW-"

Sam ant and skeppy are in fact together already which means they already are found family tm so they already got each other and helped each other in the past.

Hold the fuck up this is beautiful because. Creepers can spawn or stay in mines WHERE DIAMONDS ARE

creepers can be on the ground as well where CATS ARE BUT THEY'RE AFRAID OF CATS THIS IS ACTUALLY SO GOOD pardon my enthusiasm i had an epiphany

Hence their small backstory: Sam finds skeppy first, then he loses skeppy as the latter freaking bolts around in the overworld for the first time.

Skeppy finds ant and brings him to Sam and Sam is like Oh GOD PLEASE NONONO "Can we keep him" "NO." "Im right here" "he TALKS?"And transforms to his humanoid vers

Actually they keep Ant for a week before he speaks for real because skeppy wants to prank sam

One night a skelly shoots an arrow at ant and Sam has been protective over the two ever since (they are brothers your honor)

Sam stopped sizzling everytime ant is nearby ♡

Skeppy does not feel hot nor cold

He's simply an unbothered king about temperatures ♡

Thats why he wears a crop top anything for fashion,,,/hj (granted to u guys by the great @azaethal)

"We're in a snow biome at least pretend you're cold"" f a s h u n "

"Hey Sam do u think ants like. Constantly naked" "Skeppy it's Four IN THE MORNING. GO. TO sleep" "He has fur in his cat form I know but like. He's basically naked right" "For fucks sake-"

Lol get skepped

It's a blessing when they adopt bad in their friend group cause skeppy finally has a new victim and Sam and ant have some rest. Bad falls for every single prank of skeppy.

The moment skeppy finds out he doesn't swear it's over for you bitches

Then the next problem is when they get into fights and become petty and don't talk to each other like literal kids

Ant and Sam stand there like how does this diamond block fuckin have the guts to yell at a 9 feet tall demon what the f u ck

Is anyone going to make fun of this demon?? Bet. (courtesy of @azaethal)

And that's how our boys know. They just know bad and skeppy are gonna be loooong time friends

ONE DAY THEY'RE LIKE

"YO GUESS WHAT WE JUST DID SOMETHING S I C K"

"WE JUST LINKED OUR SOULS TOGETHER"

"What the ACTUAL F-"

They say it was just for the meme

Deep down they know it's because they got an unbreakable bond

When he joins his soul with skeppy's, the second halo comes back to him. The third will when he finds sapnap and decides to make him his son and take him away from there.

Don't have anything else yet but will add up as soon as I do owo

Are you perhaps “back on your todokami bullshit”? We see them on your blog ma’am but where are the hcs /hj

Ask and you shall receive, anon!! I haven’t ranted about these boys in so long I missed them 🥺

[Part 1] [Previous]

They begin training together after school not long after they become a couple. It started because they wanted to spend more time together and still needed to keep up with training, but it proved to help more than they originally anticipated because they both lack in hand-to-hand combat and rely more on using their quirks for hero work, so together they begin to slowly build up their combat abilities

Kaminari introduces Todoroki to his favorite cartoons since Todoroki didn’t get to have that kind of fun in his childhood. One of these shows is Avatar (naturally). This leads to Kami convincing Todo to test if he can merge his quirks to create water and “waterbend”. But you know how if you’re professionally stupid enough, you can manage to burn water? These fools find a way to burn ice… and half the training area

Kami has a tendency to lose focus during class and forget to take notes, something Todo quickly becomes aware of when they start studying together and Kami has no notes to aid him. Since then, Todo begins writing two sets of notes during class, one for himself in his usual note taking style (key points, things to know for exams, that sort of thing) and one for Kami where he goes more in depth on certain topics in case it was a lesson Kami didn’t manage to catch

Kami feels bad at first but since Todo insists it’s not a problem and doesn’t show any sign of stopping, he decides to pay Todo back by introducing him to his favorite cat cafe (where he may or may not be beloved by the owners and gets free admission/snacks). Now, at least once a week they go to study at the cafe with Todo’s in depth notes and warm pastries to fill their bellies. And some cuddly cats, can’t forget the cats

Whenever Kami uses his quirk, he gets temporary Lichtenberg figures, mostly across his hands and forearms. At first, Todo was concerned about them because he never payed enough attention to notice them before, but after learning they don’t hurt and disappear in a day or two, Todo will spend hours tracing the marks, fascinated by their beauty

Kaminari has a sensory processing disorder that makes him very under responsive to stimuli, specifically touch (he’s “hyposensitive”; possibly a side effect from his quirk, possibly related to his ADHD, possibly both). This means that he hates fleeting touches or accidentally brushing up against someone because the barely there feeling just lingers and makes him crave more physical contact

Todoroki learns this when he accidentally triggers his SPD to spike (they merely brushed fingers when Kami asked to borrow a pencil) and since Kami has been teaching him how to better read people’s body language he could tell Kami was distressed. After confronting Kami about it and learning what happened, every time they hold hands or cuddle afterwards Todo purposefully squeezes Kami’s hand or holds him just a little tighter and Kami loves him for it

Speaking of, they’re “conveying” love languages are polar opposites. Kami loves to verbalize his affection and tell his friends and family he loves them as often as he can. Inversely, Todo’s love language is through action, mainly because he’s not that great with words. He loves to gift his friends hero merch and random presents that simply reminded him of them

Coincidentally, their “receiving” love languages are also opposite, but x2 switcharoo. Kami feels most loved through small actions because too many times has someone joked around using words and made Kami feel confused and hurt, so getting books from Todoroki randomly always makes Kami’s heart flutter. Todo, on the other hand, has always been socially inept and bad at reading situations, so he prefers things being told to him in a direct and blunt manner

This also means Kami is 100% the one to drop the L word first, but he wasn’t the first to admit that love. Kami realizes just how much Todo loves him when he pulled an all nighter creating a study plan for a particularly difficult unit that Kami was struggling with in class and when Todo presented it to him the next day, Kami couldn’t help but let the L word slip

It makes me so sad seeing how the TodoKami tag used to be kinda active for such a rare pair a few years ago (before I discovered them/was involved in online fandom) and now it’s quite abandoned :(

Guess this just means I gotta fill the tag my damn self 😤

This is also probably my favorite headcanon post I’ve made about them so far

i was talking about abo dynamics with @givemeuniversalcrossovers earlier and like

cant get the thoughts out of my head so i guess i gotta write them down

i'm just sat here thinking about some sort of sudden heel turn into an abo world in arkham verse. like everything is normal then one day all of gotham wakes up with a second gender and oh boy if you thought the city was off the shits before you are NOT ready for abo gotham fulled by hormones and horny.

Jelly brain says "ok but what if all the gotham girls are alphas for a change" and like ok jelly brain interesting enough but where you going with this? "what about all ur favs as omegas regardless of personality" and hmm yes THAT i could get behind

obviously batman was my first thought. i have never read a fic where batman wasnt an alpha ( edit ive just read one of him as an omega it was just ok) but i kinda just want either beta or omega batman. like either hes nothing special which is a nice change or hes an omega and selina is his alpha. i do really love batcat and like. dom batman is boring as fuck, you know selina wears the pants and the strap in this relationship and im not taking critique on this right now.

then i was on riddlecat which lets be clear, selina is always the top in that relationship so no change there. but can you mcfuckin imagine eddie 40 year old virgin nigma, known prude and probable incel (/hj ) having his first heat??? he's so adamant hes not an omega even as he's sitting on the floor shaking and stinking of pheromones. he probably kidnaps some random alpha because he's decided theyre the best and he only wants the best but LOL they already have a mate so he's just lying on the floor legs spread for nothing maybe having a little cry because he's painfully hard and no one is there to help him.

SIDE NOTE BUT BETA BATMAN MEANS HE'S IMMUNE TO MOST OF THIS ALPHA OMEGA NONSENSE. >:D

while i was thinking about omega eddie i was also thinking "haha what if scarecrow was omega too haha" and like. this could be either really funny or really fucking boring because i can def see crane not being affected by heats like others, he just gives no fucks or his brain is messed up from all the fear toxin and he just doesnt react to chemicals like the others. BUT on the other hand, as i've mentioned i hate how composed scarecrow is in ak even when he's losing. i wana see him unravel and devolve into whatever whimpering mess he was at the end of ak all hopped up on fear toxin >:}c

i would go on about the others more but this is all i care about rn: harvey switches back and forth depending on who he's with, but alone he's a beta . Selina is an alpha and for pure bigdick energy everyone in gotham wants her, riddler especially, to pick them. Riddler doesnt even really like selina that much but you know she'd treat her omega right. personally i was still leaning towards her picking bruce but maybe she likes to fuck around with the other rogues when he's busy. i was going to say ivy is also an alpha but i think it might be fun to flip the script and have her completely immune to this, all of a sudden not be able to use pheromones to influence men . its just amusing to me to imagine her sitting on her little flower pouting like "well. shit. now what???" then she just goes back to giving harley kisses and harley has already had her fill of bonding with joker so shes more than happy for ivy to pick her regardless of what their hormones are telling them to do.

ALSO @givemeuniversalcrossovers has me thinking about our ocs. Clara and clario are omegas because she said so ( or gammas if i include them in this au) theyre vicious people but still subby . she also wants penguin to be an alpha genetically speaking but like. not as alpha as the rest, which i get but rules are rules and hes an alpha just as potent as the others.

ALSO ALSO she was watching this facebook ad for werewolves where it mentioned royal alphas ( or something) and she said shep is a royal alpha, creme de la creme sort of alpha which is fire and very sexy of her . im going to include selina in that because shep and selina are a top of the chain vibe but i cant think of anyone else who deserves that title

ok i think im done for now

Are you normal or do u sometimes go "IVE BEEN SCARED OF SLEEPING WITH THE LIGHTS ON(off? Idk its hard to decipher)"/lyrics -curious anon

me: oh boy, can't wait to try and make a tumblr blog! Before i do i should research it- *what in the hecking heck is an xkit*

djskdjsk i had no idea what an xkit was until yesterday and when i got it i got too confused and uninstalled it - dw curious anon i don’t use it either i just vibe and do whatever i guess. if you tag correctly and make good posts things should work out, can’t wait to see your acc around!

I got some sad-ist merch :DDD!!

yooo!! that’s so pog for you! it’s probably pretty comfy :D

me standing ominously in your askbox waiting to rec my fav fics:

fjsjdjsk i literally just finished passerine i still have 80 more (some of which are like 300k words long) on my to-read but uh if they have c!dream mischaracterized i’ll not be reading them anyways so it’s very hit-or-miss, will probably get through some of them quicker-

After many moons spent under the dsmp, seeing discourse and analysis alike, i have come to the conclusion i simply do not have the energy to care about any lore outside of c!tubbo and c!tommy's and will only defend them. And that is ok. It is ok to not watch or care about all dsmp or want to discourse about them or analyze. Idk man was thinking deep thoughts today

it’s ok to watch entertainment and enjoy it the way you want to! it’s great to want to enjoy or talk about your fav character!

the problems come up when you attack other people for their perspectives on the medium or spread misinformation about different characters based on only watching the perspective you like, but you know - if you’re not doing analysis, you really don’t need to look that deep into it.

it’s ok to just chill. your feelings about characters are valid! :D so yeah i agree with you! let people with different opinions exist if they’re also being respectful (e. g. tagging correctly).

Hey ik u worked with animgician's newest vid and i found a not-crit (i rlly think) little thought on it if u wanna see it

yoo feel free to send it in!!

No one: me: *shuffles around* wanna hear about my cool warden c!tommy au?

may i interest u in a little bit of my writing? If not that is ok i just wanna see if my writing is any good before working on a fic lol

Anyways if i am not in the askbox for a little it is because i am now writing a proper fic thing out. Wish me luck o7 -curious anon (i have three different lyrics i am going to be incorporating and a little analysis and just a smidgen of projection)

Ruby do u wanna read a little something i wrote? *does the little fingers thing* its really short just a headcanon with a little prose

i sure do! that sounds rlly cool - are you sure you don't wanna make a post about that on your own account though? i don't mind seeing it at all but i think the c!tommy tag would be able to appreciate that au better than my followers. you've gotta find the right target audience, y'know? /lh

though of course i'd love to see your writing, i'm sure it's great! looking forward to it :]

Ayo i remembered u talking about how punitive punishment doesn't work the other day so i want to discuss. What would u consider to be a fitting "punishment" for c!dream's canonic killing of mexican dream?/gen

i mean... we're not trying to - being against punitive justice is about the fact punishment is wrong, not just certain types of it. asking me what a "fitting punishment" would be is sort of very not getting the point.

hurting people further is not going to teach them anything and it’s not going to help anyone, why is it necessary?

so the answer is: none. he shouldn’t be punished, actually! he should learn on his own that what he did wasn’t right, and that’s about it. that’s the thing about transformative justice. him becoming a better person who Wouldn’t Do That again because it goes against who he is.

however, there’s also restorative justice, which is working to “make it up” to the victims. to which i propose; dream has the revival book and could literally bring him back once he is out of the prison. give him some powder maybe. md would probably be chill w/ that.

Yknow. In all my time in dsmpblr i can confidently say that the main differnece between c!dream apologist/enthusiants and c!wilbur/sam ones is that the c!wilbur/c!sam ones want their fav to have a breakdown and c!dream ones want theirs to get positive reinforcement /hj /lh

i’m pretty sure the sam and wil ones also want them to get better/get redeemed, at least deep down, but i get what you mean! you’re *glances at the 🟩⛏ gc where all we do 24/7 is write angst about c!dream being terribly hurt and then we cry about it* 100% correct. no angsters who like the pain here *nervously laughs* we all just want him to heal and be happy for the rest of his life with no heart-shattering breakdowns whatsoever! /s /lh

Hope ur having a great day m8 :]] -curious anon (also i have a new canon fact i wanna share. In quackity's alt lore stream yesterday he said (to the best of my memory) that "no law/juridsiction exists on the dream smp to prevent one from building anywhere" so i guess that clears up the big debate on wheather or not c!dream had a right to enforce rules (or basically the arguement that he owned the server by divine rule)

no i’m - i’m pretty sure that’s just how it works. dream still owns the smp, but he himself has said wayy back at the beginning “everyone can build and go wherever they want” and that was that. it was one of his rules on the smp, it was his main problem with l’manberg. being able to build anywhere were the rules that he “had the right” to enforce. and he did, not because he was a god, but because it was his smp, his home that he claimed for his friends. wouldn’t call it a big debate, it’s really that simple.

.AGONY. HURT EVEN. THIS IS HOW IT IS FOR CURIOUS ANON. I LAUGH, I CRY, I FIND AN ANIMATED GIF ON TWITTER THAT SQUEEZES MY C!TOMMY ENJOYER HEART INTO OBLIVION. (i am being dramatic btw for the funnies just so ya know) I AM NOT GOING TO FINANICALLY RECOVER FROM THIS. AAAAAAAAAAA UEEEEEEE

OK THAT FREAKING

O U C H-

also for the old phil ask. Hes a bad dad because of how he treated ghostbur. I will elaborate if u want

didn’t ghostbur just say “i’m not wilbur” and philza said “you’re not my son” and they went on with their day? weren’t they actually in agreement that he wasn’t the same as wil when he was alive? i don’t remember him really treating him badly tbh other than disowning him which seems fair to me, because ghostbur was a literal stranger to phil at that point?

wish you a nice day, curious anon! (i’ll be back on my essays and answering other asks now, so i might not reply right away :])

Hey guys its uhhh Saturday July 3rd 2021 9:53 a.m.

I literally got 1-2 hours of sleep •_• because I was up into the earliest hours of the morning talking to Jay and Ariel.

... Its homophobic that Jay was away /j :P and not in my room that night because... how do I say this without saying too much... he turns me on, simple. He's in LEDUC. DUDE. COME BACK I WANT TO FUCK YOU /HJ

I told him this before you guys, but my brain does this thing where it randomly sends me back to some memory and I have to live through the feelings yknow? And I twitch a bit. Well my brain has been sending me back to almost entirely memories of him now. And it's. Not even funny. My crush on him grows...

Oh well, I'm patient.

The forums last night were as usual, unhelpful. My dad looks at me as if I'm a tragedy, as if my skin is a crime scene, and we have a total of *drumroll* TWO COMMENTS! One of them was okay in helpfulness. They mostly just wanted to write about their tattoo cover up of their scars but. They were right about how you are the only person who gets to decide what you think about your scars.

If he thinks of me like that... doesnt mean I HAVE to think of my own self that same way.

So true.

Next person said maybe he doesnt think I'm damaged, maybe hes just gawking at the damage done to me?? And how he couldnt stop it?

And like isnt that the same thing honestly.

Oh hey, yeah I gotta tell you about TODAY. not yesterday or last night.

Well uhm I just woke up on my BEDFRAMELESS BED Cos they packed it and left me with the MATRESS xD (I wonder if this is their way of cockblocking me /j)

I got ready and uh I was told like, GET THE FUCK UP DUDE WE R GOING TO THE LAKE RIGHT FUCKING NOWWW

So I'm rushing 2 get ready... well not really rushing. I don't rush. I was getting ready. I go to brush my hair and theres NO BRUSH. ITS BEEN PACKED???? WHAT???

I did my best with what I had on hand and then we left

I'm in the car with my friend and annoying ass sister right now and I got music on

We got Tim Hortons (muffin + ice capp) for breakfast (already over my cal limit... •_• as if that's getting followed nowadays)

lol I dont usually eat breakfast tho so I'll try to skip lunch or have a light lunch, so it doesn't mess me up.

Right now as we are driving to the lake... it's mostly canola fields. Theres lots of canola grown where I'm from lol, just drive a little bit out and you'll see the fields and fields of bright yellow like millions of little highlighters sticking up from the grass. I cant make them out individually though... still waiting on those contact lenses.

Again, I'm patient.

I don't think we're super far out... I mean theres still lots of cars, signs, farms, roadside ads, trees, uh, shrubs, and if we WERE further out the land would be more bare... #grassland #praries #Alberta

Also the sun just makes everyhting look more alive.

Oh NOO IM DESCRIBING THE SCENERY... boring!

Idk. There isn't much to discuss, I'm just listening to music because I'm content with just that. If I come up with anything funny/Insightful(?) I'm gonna make a twitter draft.

10:17 a.m, signing off temporarily,

Judas/Jude Shepard.

4:25 p.m.

We got to the lake, talked, got ice cream, talked, went in the #water... lake stuff.

My friend was gushing over this guy and like...  DILF. IF YOU SAW HIM... xD of course I'm just looking though. He just had big pecs which is attractive to me, and the overall build with these broad shoulders XD.

Tbh? I know me and Jay are TECHNICALLY not dating, but I feel like I'm dedicated to him. That's probably because of my crush on him but oh well.

I just keep thinking horny thoughts it's a plague within my brainnnnn and I know its his fault

I did end up asking him but by then he had already logged off so.... he'll respond soon and I gotta be ready. It appears that my mom is signing up for a Christian dating app... we'll see how that goes.

As for Jay's responding, I'll just tell him nevermind.

Anwyays we are headed back, possibly to the bookstore, possibly home.

I KNOW I talk a lot about the same things but that's because I'm infatuated with them.

I'm infatuated with... him.

I think of him in my mind and bam instant horny

I'll try to think of soemthing else,,, this is. Uh. Inconvenient right now.

I'll keep updating you though lol.

Hope I'm not annoying talking about Jay all the time.

I AM doing other stuff, I have a life. I just... I guess I unintentionally highlight certain parts a lot.

11:55 p.m.

IM EXHAUSTED GODDAMNIT MY DAD WAS MAD AT me...

... I wanted to ask to go to my friends house tommorowbut my dad is pissed at me for... closing my door??? dude omg hes like “what were you doing for two hours with the door closed” uhm reading? on my phone? jacking off? im a normal person lol. i said reading and on my phone which IS true and he said”sure...” all  sarcastic WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY?? YEAH I JACKED OFF???? stfu

hes not even mad at me hes mad cos my mom is goign on a date lolDONT TAKE IT OUT ON ME STFU

I'm dead.

So I didnt ask cos I was scared shitless lmaooo but I have an appointment anwyays so it works out.

I just read a bunch of this comic called outcast. That's it really. Now I'm gonna sleep after I post to twitter a bit...

ALSO I asked Jay finally about uh. Yeah. Scarring. and he said beauty is in the eye of the beholder. He said I was hot but then he said that on the other hand it feels weird when he runs his hands over them, but in general, he loves me.

So he said "I don't care if you have scars or not, you're still you"

I love him honestly hes so supportive.

I admit I'm a bit sad thinking they feel weird but honestly? Yeah. They do. I felt up my leg where the scars are to check and it feels like hard ribs/ridges to the touch of a hand but he still thinks I'm pretty so I'm not gonna let the scars get me down. Cos I'm still me. It's just scars. Doesn't affect anything.

:,)

Also erin found a hagstone!!!

Gn,

Jude Shepard

Uhh i got one idea! You are good friends with Taeyong and you got into really bad fight (like reader doing something with other guy and Taeyong gets jealous) and then Boom Taeyong confesses. Sorry if these sounds messy but i’m just a sucker for angst with fluff ending :P

I’m all about the fluff haha! lets go! It’s kinda long haha sorry I was in the moment.

*DISCLAIMER* there’s drinking, drunk people, vomit and anger. please drink responsibly, DON’T DRINK AND DRIVE!

Taeyong, Y/N and their best friends Doyoung and Hyunjin were all getting ready to head out to a party. There was a party down at the dorms Hyunjin and Doyoung’s classmates stayed. They were all at y/n’s house getting ready...well more like she was getting ready.

Doyoung: y/n hurry up lets go! you always take forever!

Y/N: yeah yeah I’m coming! sheesh yall are so impatient!

y/n came out in something simple but yet cute enough to feel comfortable. y/n was wearing jean shorts with an oversized t-shirt tucked into the front, white white sneakers and her hair with brushed out curls.

Hyunjin: wow..

y/n: what are you gawking at?

Hyunjin: I’m not gonna lie you look hot!

Just after Hyunjin complimented y/n he felt a pillow hit him in the back of the head from across the room. Turning to see only Taeyong standing there with a glare in his eyes. Hyunjin and Doyoung knew Taeyong was madly in love with y/n and hated anytime any other guy would talk to her. He hated even when Hyunjin and Doyoung spoke to her even though they are all best friends.

Doyoung: finally sheesh lets get out of here! who’s driving?

y/n: ugh I guess I’ll drive because you all always end up drinking and I’m always stuck being the DD so I might as well volunteer now instead of later where I’m forced to drive.

As they all got into y/n car. Hyunjin sat in the front while Doyoung and Taeyong sat in the back. A conversation was going on in the back while there was an argument going on in the front. All Doyoung and Taeyong can hear is y/n and Hyunjin arguing on what song to play.

y/n: hey the driver gets to pick the music you punk ass!

Hyunjin: NO! It’s common sense that the passenger gets to pick the music! HELLO YOU’RE DRIVING!!

y/n: UGH YOU’RE SO ANNOYING WHY AM I FRIENDS WITH YOU?!

Hyunjin: because I’m perfect!

y/n just rolled her eyes and admitted defeat with him. Meanwhile in the back over the constant bickering of y/n and Hyunjin. Doyoung whispers to Taeyong..

DY: are you ok Tae? you seemed out of it today.

T: yeah I’m fine he says while glancing over at y/n.

DY: when are you going to tell y/n how you feel about her?

T: never...

DY: so you’re just never gonna say anything? 

T: i just don’t know how to tell her or when I should tell her....every time I try to I end up chickening out or I get interrupted by someone.

DY: well tonight is perfect..tell her at the party.

y/n noticed the chitter chatter in the back.

y/n: what the hell are you boys talking about back there?

D: nothing...just keep driving.

y/n: well excuse me for trying to be involved with yall.

They finally arrived at the party where they all headed inside. As they went in the party was already filled with so many people drinking, drunk people and dancing all over the place. y/n saw one of her classmates Jihyo drunk off her mind.

Jihyo: y/n! you made it! oh my god and you brought the 3 musketeers with you! hahaha!

HJ: .....hey Jihyo....where’s Johnny? Johnny was her boyfriend that always lost Jihyo when she drank.

J: he’s around here somewhere! yall don’t mind if I take y/n would you?! ok bye!!!

Once again y/n was ripped away from Taeyong who wanted a chance to sit and talk with her face to face. Everyone was having a great time, y/n dancing the night away with her friends as Taeyong watched from afar.

J: hey y/n! come have a drink with me!!!

y/n: no Jihyo. I’m the DD tonight...again.

J: ugh those damn guys never let you have your fun! come I want you to meet Johnny’s friends!

Taeyong watched as Jihyo dragged y/n across the room reaching to her bf Johnny and his friends.

J: hi babe!

as she tiptoed to her boyfriend to give him a peck on the cheek.

Johnny:....jihyo you are drunk again...

J: ...and? then you can just have your way with me again....

y/n: ....oh geez...hey johnny.

Johnny: hey y/n...oh this is my friend Jaehyun, he’s here visiting from Seoul.

y/n: hi I’m y/n.

Jae: nice to meet you.

They all were in the same spot talking stories and laughing. Taeyong across the room started to get irritated how y/n was smiling and having fun with another guy. She came with Taeyong, Doyoung and Hyunjin but is talking with someone else. It made him upset where he needed a drink.

DY: hey Tae what’s up? something happ---

Before Doyoung could finish his sentence he watched Taeyong gulp down 3 shots of tequila as if it was water to him.

DY: YAH YAH TAE SLOW DOWN!!! What’s gotten into you?!

T: she thinks she can just flirt with some guy in front of me like that?!

Doyoung confused and looking at the direction Taeyong was glaring at.

DY: y/n and Jaehyun?

T: you know him too?!

DY: yeah we went to school together for a little bit in Seoul until I moved back here. 

Moments later goes another shot down Taeyong’s throat.

DY: dude you need to slow down...you’re gonna blackout.

T: what does it matter anyway if I blackout or not....it’s not like y/n will care.

Hyunjin came and walked over to see what was going on with Doyoung and Taeyong.

HJ: what’s wrong with him.

Doyoung nodding in the direction y/n was standing.

HJ:....o--...oooh. oh shit...this can’t be good.

T: I’ma do something now! 

HJ: DUDE NO! YOU’RE DRUNK....SOBER UP BEFORE YOU TALK TO HER! OR YOU’LL REGRET EVERYTHING!

As Hyunjin and Doyoung held him back and pushing Taeyong back into a chair. The impact made the alcohol take in effect real quick and Taeyong became dizzy.

T: i think I need to throw up!

He gets up and sprints into the bathroom. Running passed y/n.

Johnny: that looked like Taeyong...is he ok?

y/n in her own conversation with Jaehyun and heard Taeyong’s name being mentioned.

y/n: HUH?! what?!

Johnny: yeah he just ran that way...

pointing in the direction Taeyong ran. y/n ran over to Doyoung and Hyunjin.

y/n: what happened to Taeyong?! is he ok?!

HJ: woah easy tiger...

y/n: where did he go?!

DY: he ran to the bathroom.

y/n: IS HE OK?! WHY AREN’T YOU HELPING HIM?!

HJ: he just had a little too much relax.

y/n: UGH THIS IS WHY I HATE LETTING YOU GUYS DRINK! 

y/n got so mad and ran off to find Taeyong. Running up and down the hall of the dorm looking for him and finally came to a room where he heard gagging noises. y/n whispers to herself “please let that be him and he’s ok” she peaked inside to see Taeyong with his head in the toilet letting everything he just drank come back up. She ran right to him and kneeling down next to him not even realizing she may have kneeled in some of the vomit he did when he missed the toilet. (lol sorry guys)

y/n: Tae are you ok?! oh my god!

she quickly grabs paper towel and texts Hyunjin to bring her water. Taeyong notices her presence and where she was kneeling.

T: y/n-- you’re kneeling in a bad spot right now.

y/n: never mind it’s fine. lets get you cleaned up and take you home.

T: no...lets stay and have fun.

y/n: you’re too drunk right now Tae.

Hyunjin came with a bottled water for her to give to Taeyong.

y/n: Hyunjin call Doyoung lets take him home. He’s gonna end up getting poisoned if he keeps drinking.

HY: yeah you’re right plus me and Doyoung gotta work in the morning anyway. 

He called Doyoung to help pick up Taeyong and bring him back to y/n’s car. They put him in the front seat where she can keep an eye on him. y/n laid him back a little bit so he can relax. Then reaches over to put a seat belt on him. Taeyong can smell her sweet perfume he had gotten her for her birthday recently, it smelled so perfect on her. Helping him sober a little bit. He can see the worried look on y/n’s face each time she glanced at him to see if he was ok. She end up dropping off Hyunjin and Doyoung off first.

DY: are you sure you’re gonna be ok taking him home? his roommate isn’t home this week and you’ll have to lug him up the stairs...

y/n: no I’ll just take him back to my house I’ll be fine.

HJ: ok please text us so we know you made it home.

y/n nodded and drove off. Moments later they arrive at her place. Walking over to Taeyong’s side and unbuckles his seatbelt. As she did what she could to lift him up. Grunting a little bit.

y/n: ...ok Tae I know you’re drunk right now but you’re gonna have to help me just a little bit. Lift yourself up to stand and you can rest your arm around my shoulder ok?

T:....o-ok.

He slowly gets up swinging his arm around y/n shoulder and she wraps both of her arms around his waist. Doing this gave him goosebumps up and down his spine feeling what it was like to be held by her. Step by step they got to the elevator of her apt building. Waiting as the elevator went up to the 6th floor where she lived.

y/n: ok Tae we are almost there hang on.

They got to her door as she reached for her keys while still holding Taeyong up with the other hand. She finally got the door opened looking around trying to figure out where to set him down. y/n decided her bed would be the best bet because the couch was going to be way too uncomfortable for him. Making their way to her room he can feel himself sober up little by little. He was strong enough to walk by himself.

T: I’m fine to walk by myself now.

y/n: are you sure? I’ll just hold you just in case.

T: ....but--I’m

y/n: not I don’t want you to fall and hurt yourself. stop being so stubborn.

She helped him sit on the side of her bed. She texted Hyunjin and Doyoung letting them know they got to her place safely. After setting down her phone y/n started to walk away after helping him sit down. He grabbed her wrist.

y/n: don’t worry Tae I’ll be right back. I’m just getting you water.

He lets go of her hand. Taeyong sitting on her bed thinking, is this the time to tell her? Maybe not because he was drunk and he didn’t want to say things he’ll regret. But it was driving him crazy he didn’t know what to do. A few mins later y/n comes back with a bowl of cold water and some aspirin for him to take. She hands it to him and down the aspirin goes. y/n sets the cup of water on the end table and grabbing a towel that was near her bed. 

y/n: here lay down.

T: I’m fine really. The water is hel--

y/n: ARGH! Will you just listen to me and lay down.

He admitted defeat and slowly laid down on her bed. Which gave him butterflies in the stomach because it was the bed she sleeps on every night by herself. Wishing that someday he can sleep next to her keeping her warm. He watched her as y/n soaked the towel in the bowl of water and ringing out the extra water making it only damp. She turns to him and starts dabbing it on his forehead and down the side of his face. 

y/n: why did you drink so much? you’re not iron man dummy.

Taeyong just smiled.

T: I was mad...so it just happened.

y/n: why were you mad?

T: I don’t want to talk about it...

y/n: you know you can tell me anything. but if you don’t want to talk about it I won’t force you...

She continued to dip the towel in the water and dabbed him with it. He could feel that he had gotten a lot sober than he was before. y/n noticed the water wasn’t cold anymore so she got up.

y/n: I’m going to go change the water and make you some soup. I’m sure that’ll help sobering you up. You can just sleep here tonight and I can sleep on the couch.

T: why this is your bed. you should sleep in it, I can just sleep on the couch.

y/n: why are you always so stubborn. you’re gonna get a headache if you don’t sleep comfortably. I’ll be right back you just rest.

She got up and he once again grabbed her wrist.

y/n: what’s wrong? you need to go to the bathroom?

T: no...

Taeyong sat up against the headboard of the bed. He took a deep breath in and out before he spoke.

T: I need to tell you something.

y/n: you ok?

T: It’s something I’ve been wanting to say for such a long time.

y/n: ...ok what’s up.

He took one more deep breath in and out.

T: I really like you y/n...

y/n sat there in shock at the words that was just thrown at her.

y/n: you’re drunk you’re not thinking straight.

T: no I’m not. Well I’m not completely sober, but I well aware to the fact I meant what I said. Y/n I like you...no I’m in love with you. Always have been since the first day I met you...

y/n:...why are you only telling me this now?

He just sat there staring at his lap fiddling with his fingers and not making eye contact with y/n.

T: I’ve been wanting to tell you for quite sometime now, but I could never do it. Every time I tried to I either chickened out or someone interrupted.

y/n: is that why you were so mad today?

T: no...my jealousy came over me and I couldn’t take it, that’s when I drank whatever was in front of me.

y/n: why were you jealous?

T: I hated seeing you talk to that guy...

y/n: what guy? Jaehyun?

T: yeah...I hate it when you talk to any guy really.

It became quiet for a few mins...then y/n let out a soft giggle.

T: what’s so funny?

y/n: you’re such a dummy.

T: huh?

Taeyong lifted his head to face y/n...y/n looked at him with a smile as she leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. Taeyong sat there frozen at his seat at what y/n just did. He thought to himself “did she just kiss me?!”

T: what was that for?

y/n then got shy and looked at her lap before she said....

y/n:...I like you too dork...no now I lied I love you. 

Taeyong couldn’t believe his ears, the girl he’s loved for so long loves him back.

T: you do?!

y/n:...I think I may have liked you longer than you think...

T: what do you mean.

y/n: remember when I was sitting by myself in the cafeteria because I was the new girl and you along with Hyunjin and Doyoung came and sat with me because you guys didn’t want me to feel lonely on my first day?

T: yeah....

y/n: that actually wasn’t the first time we met..

He began to become confused.

T: really?

y/n: the first time we met is when you came into the coffee shop I worked at and you were drenched because of the rain. but you didn’t care you because you told me it was because you caught your gf at the time cheating on you with her ex. when I brought you something warm to drink you just sat there watching the rain fall. 

y/n then looked down at her lap again as she continued.

y/n: I know it was a bad time to but that’s when I started to like you. Seeing you sad like that made my heart hurt, and I just wanted to hug you. But after that day I never saw you again. It wasn’t until you came and sat on my table. I fell harder for you because you were right in front of me, this time with a smile that always made my heart feel war--

Before y/n could finish her sentence Taeyong’s lips met hers. y/n could feel the butterflies in her stomach go crazy....she got to finally do what she’s been wanting to do since the first day she’s met him. 

T: When I saw you talking to Jaehyun and laughing I thought Iost you forever...

y/n: you wouldn’t have to worry about him at all....he has a girlfriend. and even if he didn’t my heart already belonged to someone else.

Taeyong leaned in again to give a soft kiss on her lips.

T: I love you so much y/n.

y/n: I love you too Tae.

He then scooted over on her bed and pulled her into his arms. Throwing the blanket over both of them. Her head resting on his chest and his arms wrapped around her. The heartbeat of his made y/n smile as hers beat at the same pace as his. She looked up at him and smiled as he kissed her on the forehead and one last time on her lips.

y/n: lets get some sleep you party animal.

A soft giggle came out of him as he squeezed her tighter. and said “I love you” once last time as they drifted off to sleep.

The Wedding Date (2)

Part 1

"I had no idea you been in attendance tonight." Ira said, voice completely different than it had been moments ago.

"Well, where my girl goes I tend to follow."

"You are aware this is her ex's wedding, right?" Ira asked him.

"I am. Should I have made her come alone? That wouldn't be very gentleman like of me would it?"

"No...I--i guess not."

It was quiet for a minute before you excused yourself, asking Hongjoong to come with you.

You pulled him out into the hallway before turning on him.

"Dude what the fuck. Are you really the founder of HJ?" You asked him.

"Yes...is that a problem?" He asked, confused at the turn of events

"No I'm just surprised is all. They probably think I'm a gold digger now!" You sighed. "Jon is the CEO of his company as well."

"Let them think what they want. I know you're not after me because of my money. You made a pseudo promise to jump me before you knew my job. I know it's not about the money and that is enough for me." Hongjoong told you seriously.

He'd purposefully left that part out until you'd known each other longer. He'd felt an instant connection with you and he knew he could get to know you better without his job hanging over his head.

"Oh my God. Did you think I called you out here to hook up?" You asked suddenly.

"Do you want the truth or..."

"Alright Casanova, save it " you laughed, putting your arm through his, pulling him towards the banquet hall.

"Wait." Hongjoong said suddenly, stopping you both where you were.

"You're really okay with my job?" He asked.

"Why would I not be? I'm self sufficient and I enjoy my work. If all I wanted was money, I'd have been the one at the alter today. Jon wanted me to quit my job and 'let him take care of me'. I noped out of that so fast. If anything I like it because it means your busy as well. You won't fight and cry every time I have an assignment." You told him.

"Are we still talking hypothetical or..." Hongjoong asked, not missing the wording of your statement.

"Oh...um yeah sure." You said, rushing back into the venue.

Hongjoong watched you scurry away, wide smile on his face.

~~~

Dinner was awkward to say the least. Ira kept glancing not so subtly at Hongjoong and kept asking business related questions. Hongjoong had to politely ask him to quit after a while.

After your plates had been cleared away, Hongjoong mumbled a quiet 'incoming' before you heard Jon's voice from behind you.

"Glad to see you could make it. I thought maybe you'd be off writing about koalas." Jon said, tone disdainful.

"Not quite. I leave on Monday for Australia. They're having horrible Wallaby problems. Gotta get to the bottom of it." You told him.

"Funny."

"Really? I wasn't even trying to be." He wondered if he hadn't realised you were serious.

"You should really settle down, Y/N. Globe trotting isn't really a good life choice for some one like yourself. You should get married and have kids, give your life meaning."

You were surprised when across the table, Ira suddenly stood up.

"Jon. I'd like you to meet Kim Hongjoong." He said, pointing to your date.

You didn't miss the way Ira nodded his head and Jon's widened.

"Mr. Kim. What a pleasure." Jon said, holding his hand out to a still seated Hongjoong.

Hongjoong stood up, but made no attempts to shake Jon's hand.

"Please, just Hongjoong. I'm clearly younger than you. The mister stuff makes me uncomfortable.

"Right of course. Had I known you'd been coming, I'd have placed you at a better table. I'd like to apologize for anything that's been said by my guests here."

"I mean...one of your guests did make a rather... inappropriate promise." Hongjoong said, pinching your back slightly.

"Hongjoong, I swear to God if you bring up one more time that I said I'd jump you before dinner, I'm gonna wring your neck." You said as you turned towards him.

"Funny. I never mentioned you or the sex, but thanks for the reminder."

"Y/n! You propositioned one of my guests? That's highly inappropriate." Jon said scandalized.

"What are you doing?" He asked, tone almost sad.

"Living my best life at the worst damn moments apparently." You said, shooting daggers at Hongjoong.

"I am so sorry about that." Jon told Hongjoong.

"I should be the one apologizing." Hongjoong said, tone turning sad.

"Whatever do you have to apologise for?" Jon asked him.

"It's been lovely, but I think I'm going to steal her away from here. Help her keep good on her promise."

Knowing Hongjoong was as ready as you were to leave, you choked down and laugh and turned towards him, face full of confusion.

"But dinner has already been served." You said, shooting him a sly wink.

"Well then, guess it's time for dessert." He said before pulling you away from the table.

"Congratulations on your wedding." You said, turning towards the quickly receeding table.

"I cannot believe Mr. Kim left with Y/n." Jon said, staring at your retreating figures.

Ira came to stand next to him.

"Don't be. They came together. I'd say from the looks of how they acted at dinner, they've been together quite a while. Probably close to marriage."

"Y/n would never get married." Jon said, unable to comprehend what he'd been told.

"I don't know. Put the right person at her side and anything is possible."

~~~

"I cannot believe you did that." You laughed as you got in the car.

"I couldn't take it anymore. They're horrible people! They should be proud of the work you do, not drag you down. I had to leave before I stuffed one of those horrendous dry chicken breasts down their throats."

"So your place or mine?" You asked him suddenly.

You couldn't suppress the giggle at the absolute shock on his face.

"Wait, seriously?" He asked.

"Absolutely. I thought maybe a couple drinks, a movie. Get to know you more. I guess if you're just looking for a one time thing, I understand that too. I just thought we'd see more of each other after this. Ya know...maybe even a real date."

"Drinks and a movie it is. We'll go to my place. I don't have a roommate." He laughed.

"Sorry there was no jumping before dinner." You laughed as you situated yourself in your seat.

"Don't be. The look on your ex's face when he thought I was stealing you away to defile you was definitely worth it."

"Good to know. But just so we're clear, I'll definitely be the one defiling you."

Hongjoong nearly ran you off the road in his surprise.

"God... it's just too easy." You laughed.

~~~

Prologue

A Manhattan Tale - Seonghwa (6)

Parts: 6 of ?

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Genre: Chef!Seonghwa, FormerDrugdealer!Seonghwa, FormerKingpin!Hongjoong, Bad boy/ Good Girl kinda??

Warnings: Love interest is a Black Female, Alcohol use, sexual intercourse, swearing, smut, oral (f receiving), unprotected sex (wrap your hard drive with antivirus always kids), squirting, slight degradation, Daddy kink, a little praise kink, cum eating (sorry), mentions of betrayal, Angst

Requested: yes

NOTE: This fic does NOT, in any way, shape, or form, portray the way I view any member of Ateez nor does it depict their true personalities or actions. This AU is just that. An AU. All family members are FICTIONAL.

Seonghwa and Zelie managed to make it to Applebee’s with no problem. Seonghwa was surprised how easy it felt talking to Zelie. He hadn’t felt this free talking to anyone else, not even Hongjoong. Whether it was at the restaurant or his local corner store, he always felt the need to be uptight; to keep his guard up. Zelie reminded him what it was like to feel youthful. To act his age.

“What are you thinking of getting?” Zelie asked as they waited for a table.

“We haven’t even gotten our menus yet.” Seonghwa laughed.

“So? It’s Applebee’s. Everyone knows the menu.” She shrugged.

“Valid point. I have been wanting to try the Quesadilla Burger. They have that Blue Long Island Iced Tea, too. I might get that.”

“You’re drinking at 2 in the afternoon?”

“Alcohol starts with AL. You know what else starts with AL? Always. As in, it’s ALWAYS time for alcohol.”

Zelie shook her head. “You’re really something else.”

The hostess reappeared, grabbing some menus. “Sorry for the wait! The table was a little dirty and we’re a little busy during lunchtime, so I just wiped it down myself. You can follow me.”

“You really didn’t have to do all that. We would’ve waited.” Zelie said.

“Well, not to sound creepy but I recognized both of you almost immediately. You’re the head chef of The Majestic Dragon downtown, right?” She asked Seonghwa.

“Uh, yeah. Yeah, that’s me.” He smiled.

“I admire you so much! I’ve been picking up shifts here to pay my way through culinary school, but I hope to work in a restaurant like yours someday. The way you worked your way up from the bottom to one of the city’s highest-ranked gives me hope for myself.” She beamed at the pair.

“Wow, thank you. I don’t think I’ve had anyone look up to me like that, but I really appreciate it. But of course, I’d be nowhere without everyone I work with. Chefs like Zelie are key to making sure my head doesn’t fall off. Everyone from the chefs to the dishwashers to the hostesses are essential to a restaurant. If I can give you any advice, it’s that.”

The girl nodded. “I’ll take that with me. Well, here’s your table, feel free to sit where you like. Here are the menus, and we have some new dishes so have a look at those as well and your server will be right over. Enjoy your meal!” She said, returning to her post at the front of the restaurant.

“I like her, she’s nice.”  Zelie smiled.

Seonghwa nodded. “It feels great that I can inspire someone like that. Do you know what you want?”

Zelie glanced at the menu. “I’m thinking of getting a burger, too.”

“Should we get two of my order then?”

“I don’t know if I wanna drink this early, though. Last time I drank, you found me wandering around the city and I got shot at.”

“Sounds to me like you need a good alcohol-related memory to override the last one. Where’s our server?”

Zelie laughed. “Such a bad influence.”

“Hello! My name is Timothy and I’ll be your server-”

Seonghwa’s face dropped. He knew that voice anywhere. He looked up from the table to meet Nunu’s pale stare.

“Timothy Claremont. It’s been a while.” Seonghwa responded coldly.

Timothy’s hands shook as he opened his notepad. “It has. What can I get you?”

“I’ll have the Quesadilla Burger and the Blue Long Island Iced Tea. She’ll have the same thing.”

“What are your sides?”

“I’ll have fries. Zelie? How about you?”

Zelie snapped out of the trance this tense interaction had her in. “I’ll have mashed potatoes.”

Timothy nodded. “I’ll bring that right out to you, okay?” He smiled at Zelie before practically running away.

“Is he part of the story you told me earlier? Looks like he seen a ghost.”

Seonghwa nodded. “He’s one of those details I spared you. We can talk about it later if you wanna know. Damn, we should’ve gotten appetizers, these boneless wings look gooood.” He brought the menu up to his face.

“We can order them when he brings our drinks.”

Seonghwa did just that, much to Timothy’s despair, who wanted to keep his interactions with the table to a minimum. The pair ate and drank; their alcohol level rising steadily.

“I want another drink.” Seonghwa said, scanning the room for Timothy.

“We should just go. We’re both already way too gone to drive.”

“You’re right. Plus, there’s alcohol at home. TIMOTHY! Check please! And make those desserts to go!”

Seonghwa paid as Zelie bagged up the desserts.

Timothy resurfaced with his debit card. “You don’t scare me anymore, you know.”

Seonghwa looked up. “The way that notepad was shaking earlier says otherwise.” He said, slurring his words a bit.

“Enjoy your restaurant while it lasts. One Eye’s gonna deal with you, your friend HJ, and the Missus over there. Next time the bullet won’t just graze her.”

Seonghwa’s eyes narrowed as he felt himself sobering up. “That’s a pretty incriminating statement. Sounds like a threat.”

Timothy stood up straight went Seonghwa closed the space between them. “It’s more of a promise. You think just because it’s been three years you’d gotten away with it? You have no idea what’s coming.”

“Actually, thanks to you, I now know it’s One-Eye who has it in for us. Soon I’ll find out why, and when I do, I’ll make sure you and your brother never target us again. We chose to leave you alone last time. This time, we won’t be so courteous. I may be out of the game, but I still know how to use a fucking gun. So, go ahead. Try me.” He pulled away, smiling. “Thanks for lunch, man. It was nice seeing you.” He said, backing away, leaving Timothy with a sour look on his face. He walked to the hostess stand, Zelie close behind him.

“Hey, you never told us your name.” He told the hostess, trying to mask the apparent anger in his voice.

“Oh! It’s Zina.” The girl smiled.

Seonghwa fished into his wallet, pulling out a business card. “You said you want to work in a restaurant like mine someday. Why wait?”

“Seriously?” She beamed.

Seonghwa shrugged. “I can always use an intern. Email me and we can arrange a meeting. Show me what you’re made of.”

She nodded frantically. “Thank you Chef Park! You won’t regret it!”

Seonghwa grabbed Zelie’s hand, leading her out of the establishment.

“That conversation with the waiter couldn’t have been good, judging by your face.” She said.

“I just found out who’s behind all this.” He said, calling Hongjoong. “HJ. Zelie and I are at the Applebee’s on Parkchester. I can’t drive. Can you and Santana get here? Alright. We’ll wait here.”

Hongjoong arrived at the restaurant 20 minutes later with Santana. Hongjoong got out of the car to drive Seonghwa’s. Santana had volunteered but Hongjoong refused to have her drive by herself.

Santana drove and conversed with Zelie the entire time, with Hongjoong driving closely behind. She double parks outside of Seonghwa’s building, getting out of the driver’s side to say bye to Zelie and let Hongjoong take over.

“I’m so glad there’s another girl now. For years, it was just me and all the boys. Then Soojin came, but she doesn’t really count. I have someone to talk to!” Santana said, hugging Zelie tightly.

“Well, I guess that settles it. You gotta marry her now, or Santana will kill you. And like I said before, if she gets mad, I’m letting her.” Hongjoong told Seonghwa.

“Very funny.” Seonghwa rolled his eyes.

“On a serious note. I know you like her. She likes you back. Lock her down. You’ve been a bachelor long enough.” Hongjoong dapped him up before walking back to the car.

“I saw Nunu at Applebee’s-” Seonghwa said, stopping when Hongjoong raised his hand.

“Whatever you have to tell me, it can wait. Enjoy the night with your lady.” He winked, causing Seonghwa to laugh.

“You too, man.” Seonghwa said.

“I’ll try.” Hongjoong opened his car door, and Santana’s boisterous voice came through. “What do you mean ‘can we stop for Mcflurries?’ You just had ice cream this morning!” Hongjoong sighed when she screamed again. “Okay, okay. I’ll get you the damn Mcflurries. Yes, I’ll get you apple pies too. Just stop screaming.” He got into the car, driving away.

Seonghwa and Zelie made it into the apartment, Zelie sitting on the couch.

“You should really get a better couch, you know.”

He sighed. “What’s wrong with my couch? I’ve had it for years. It goes where I go.”

“I can tell. It screams college guy. Not to mention it looks like something straight out of a porno.”

“It takes a true porn watcher to know that,” Seonghwa said, taking a bottle of Mango Ciroc.  

“I guess you caught me.” Zelie shrugged. “Do you seriously need that much alcohol? You live alone.” She peered at the cabinet full of various liquors.

“I’m not alone right now.” He said, sitting beside her and handing her a glass.

“So your bright idea is to get me drunk?” She asked, taking a sip.

“A little liquid courage will go a long way for both of us, don’t you think?” Seonghwa said.

“Well, what are you hoping will happen?” Zelie asked.

“If I told you my wish, it wouldn’t come true. I’ll tell you this, though. From the moment you handed me your application, you never left my mind. Whether I was here, with HJ, or at the damn supermarket, I thought of you constantly. The way you laugh when you think something’s funny, the way you scrunch your nose up when you’re draining noodles, the way you look off to the side, daydreaming and looking distant.”

“Aww.” Zelie blushed.

“The curve of that ass when you bend over to pick something up.”

“Why you gotta ruin it?” Zelie deadpanned.

Seonghwa laughed. “I never dared to tell you before because I’ve been alone for so long. I haven’t had someone since Breana’s crazy ass and I got complacent.”

“So you mean you haven’t…?” Zelie asked.

Seonghwa shook his head. “Not since Breana, no. I haven’t even had a booty call.”

“How do you manage?”

“There’s dozens of toys around here. If you run into any, I’m sorry.” He laughed.

“So, if you never told me before, why now?”

“I’ve gotten to know you. I realized you’re not like the other girls that have flirted with me before. You care about me as a person, not just some hot guy. When you asked me if I was okay, I realized it. I was cold and distant. I told you my story, what I’ve done. And you’re still here. You don’t know how much that means to me.”

Zelie leaned in, kissing him suddenly. “I’ll always be here, if you let me.”

Seonghwa nodded. “Do you want to be my girlfriend?”

Zelie laughed. “You sound so childlike.”

“I haven’t had to do this in years, okay? I’m a little rusty. Just tell me yes or no before I die of embarrassment.”

Zelie rolled her eyes. “So dramatic. Yes, Seonghwa. I’ll be your girlfriend.”

Good. Because now I can do this.” Seonghwa yanked her up by her thighs, walking her to the bed.

“I dropped the glass you ass! There’s shards everywhere!”

“Fuck the glass. It’s not important. I’ve imagined having you here so many times, and it’s finally happening. Nothing’s gonna stop me right now.”

“Let’s see if you can handle me.” Zelie smirked.

“Don’t underestimate me, baby. I’ve been out of commission for a GRIP.” Seonghwa kissed her passionately, laying her down on the bed. He groaned at the softness of her plump lips, indulging in the taste of her. Zelie’s hands found way under his shirt, running her hands up and down his broad back. There were some rough patches she was positive were scars, but the heat of the moment forbade her to ask. She tugged at the material, lifting it.

Seonghwa broke the kiss, pulling his shirt up and off his torso, tossing it to the floor. He grabbed the hem of Zelie’s shirt, discarding of that as well. He kissed across her jaw, down her neck, making a beeline for her breast. He expertly unclasped her bra, exposing her chocolate-colored nubs. He took one in his mouth, twisting the other with the pads of his fingers.

Zelie’s hands tangled into his hair. “Fuck, Seonghwa.” She arched her back at his tantalizing assault. He took his time giving the other nipple the same treatment. He kissed down her stomach, pausing at the hem of her pants. He unbuttoned them, pulling them down in a hastily manner, his arousal getting the most of him. He pulled her panties down, tossing those too. He marveled at the smoothness of her calves, caressing them as he lowered her head to kiss her thighs.

Zelie writhed under his touch. “Are you gonna tease me all night or what?”

Seonghwa smirked. “I’ve waited a long time for this. Excuse me for wanting it to last.”

“You don’t have to. You can get it whenever you want. It’s yours, remember?”

Seonghwa hummed in pleasure. “You have no idea how good it feels to hear that.” He blew on her pussy lightly, causing the girl to shudder. “I’m feeling really hungry, are you gonna feed me, Chef Carter?” He asked, centimeters away from the area she needed him most.

Zelie nodded, pushing his head further. “Fuck, yes.”

Seonghwa shook his head. “That’s not how you ask, baby. What’s my name?”

Zelie huffed, rolling her eyes.

Seonghwa backed away slightly. “If following instructions is too hard for you, we can always just stop.”

“Please,” Zelie panted, delirious with lust. “Please let me feed you, Daddy.”

Seonghwa smiled. “Good girl.” He said, his tongue licking languidly at her core. Zelie’s back arched, her head hitting the pillow as Seonghwa sucked tantalizingly on her clit. Seonghwa wrapped his right arm across her waist; his left arm forcing her legs apart. He quickly became addicted to her. Her taste, sweet as fresh, dark berries, and her scent, as heavenly as the feast of your dreams.

Zelie’s legs began to twitch sporadically, her eyes rolling to the back of her head. “Fuck, Daddy, just like that. I’m so close.”

“Yeah?” Seonghwa asked, sending vibrations straight up her core. “Come for Daddy, then.” He said, his lips trapping her clit in a tight lock.

Zelie’s back arched at an almost impossible angle, her chest heaving up and down as she screamed Seonghwa’s name.

She yelped as she felt a sting on her ass.

“What did you call me?” Seonghwa asked, his voice husky and his eyes low.

“I’m sorry Daddy, I didn’t mean to!”

“Turn around and bend over. Put your wrists together.” He ordered, reaching over into the nightstand, grabbing a red, silk tie. He wrapped it around her wrists tightly, forbidding any movement.

“Daddy, please! Don’t tie me up.” Zelie whined. “I won’t call you the wrong name again.”

“Quiet. You’re being a brat. Brats get punished.” He said, rummaging through the drawer. “Fuck. I don’t have a rubber.”

Zelie shook her head. “You don’t need it. I’m on the pill. I want to feel you, Daddy. Please let me feel you.” She mewled.

“Don’t worry, baby. Daddy’s gonna fill you up so well.” He said, his hard cock pressing gently at her entrance, marveling at the sight of her arousal from her previous orgasm dripped down her legs.

“Fuck, Daddy. You’re so big.” Zelie exclaimed as Seonghwa bottomed out deep inside her.

“So wet and so tight for me, baby. You feel so good.” He said, earning a moan from Zelie. “Does my baby like that? Do you like being told how tight and wet you feel?” He said, thrusting slowly.

Zelie nodded. “I want to know I’m making you feel good, Daddy.”

Her words fueled him to quicken his pace, his hips now slapping against her, creating a lewd rhythm that echoed throughout the room. “You know how many times I’ve dreamt of this? Having you bent over for me, screaming and whimpering for me. You prance around the kitchen like you fucking own the place. Always so in control, and I’ve wanted nothing more than to have you right there on the counter and fucking wreck you. What would all the other chefs think if they knew Zelie Carter, typically so in control, was in my bed being my little bitch?”

Zelie moaned in response, her legs trembling. She reached out for the pillow, biting it to stifle her moans.

Seonghwa ripped it out of reach. “Uh uh, baby. I wanna hear every little sound you make. I want everyone to hear how good I’m fucking you. Fuck, you’re clenching around me so well.” He growled, pounding into her at a rapid pace.

“Is it everything you dreamed of, Daddy?”  Zelie asked in a sultry tone.

“It’s even better, baby. So much better.”

“Fuck, Daddy, I’m gonna cum. Keep fucking me right there. Just like that! Yes!” She shouted, her entire body ablaze.

“Cum for me, baby. Cum for Daddy. I want to see you wrecked.”

Zelie’s body shook with pleasure as the feeling in her stomach took over. Her orgasm rushed from deep within to Seonghwa’s cock and onto the bed.

“Fuck, Daddy, that’s never happened before. Oh my God.” Zelie said, coming down from her high. She whined from overstimulation when Seonghwa’s thrusts failed to cease.

Seonghwa let out a guttural groan. “Just a little bit more, baby. I’m gonna cum.”

“I want you to cum in my mouth, Daddy. I want it deep down my throat.”

“Yeah? Come here then, hurry up.” He said, pulling out and jerking himself.

Zelie knelt in front of him, her mouth ajar.

“Open up, baby. Here it comes.” His eyes shut tight as ropes of thick white cum fell into Zelie’s mouth.

Seonghwa sat onto the bed with a loud thud. “Fuck.” He chuckled when Zelie opened her mouth again, all traces of cum now gone. “You’re so fucking dirty.” He said, kissing her.

“You love it, though.” She said. “Next time though, I wanna suck you off.”

“Don’t get me started again. You don’t look like you’ll handle another round.” Seonghwa warned, making Zelie laugh.

He got up lazily, grabbing the broom and the dustpan and sweeping away the glass. “It should be safe to walk now. The bathroom is the door on the left if you want to shower. You can use my towel.” He said.

Zelie nodded, getting up and headed to the bathroom.

Seonghwa sat down on the couch, hearing a squeal from the bathroom.

“Seonghwa, you motherfucker! There’s a fleshlight in the fucking shower caddy!”

Seonghwa laughed. “I told you already. They’re everywhere!” He said, laughing harder when the sex toy is hurled his way.

His wish had come true after all.

Stephie here! I got a little carried away with the smut lmfao i really dont know man. BUT next chapter is FOR SURE going to be regarding the threats. i pinky promise.

please rachel is cute!!!😭💕💞congrats on your freedom!!! i saw your text post about having to do some peer grading🥺it sounds tedious): and then people not doing it properly, gosh😤i hope you can get through them quickly n still have time to relax!💕but i’m glad next semester is gonna be full of fun classes, it’s what you deserve!!! i just know it’ll be one of your best semesters yet😌💕and graduating in april!!! omg :0 congrats!!! that’s such a huge accomplishment hehe. -🎁💫

mndjdj UR cute!! tho waking up at 2am to get to the airport aint it 😬✈️ hehe i finished the peergrade it went better than i thought im so dramatic nd mean 😭 (jk i was v nice imo) ur so sweet i dont deserve u 😭i hope 2020 is good for us both and we both have a good winter semester ❤️ (not sure yours is even called winter) scared for grad but also wouldnt be able to do another semester ahah 😥

do you plan on going to higher education or are ya just gonna chill for a bit?😌that’s true!!! almost halfway! and i’m done with my gen ed classes so now i just gotta focus on my major!!! i don’t really like the uni life so this extra year sounds like hell to me😭but i guess i should start trying to put myself out there more n make the best of my last years😭😔man😭well you tried your best rachel!!! n that’s all that matters😌💕-🎁💫

i applied for grad school! but we'll see how that goes 😣 ooh gen ed is the worst imo bc then u get the fun specialized stuff! 😊 oh noo why dont you like uni? 😔 but i hope you find smth to enjoy in the last years, thats when i started to really enjoy it anyways! 🥰

LITERALLY😭😭felix is just the softest n he’s so utterly sweet!!! he’s been making me go through it lately especially since he keeps on being the ultimate cutie and posting stuff of him being at the dog cafe🥺🤲🏼skz variety😚i saw that video where we get to see chan’s studio n he’s with bin n ji and gosh the tiny teasers we got other songs... omg😳💕i’ve been having levantar on repeat as well, i think she’s gonna dethrone i am who for me😳yeah i dance but i’m not good!!!-🎁💫

omg i KNOW rly goin thru it w felix lately 😭 the dog cafe bls mjsjjdd hes so cute 😭 omg i KNOW!! the seungbin duet bls.. for me.. release it 😭 all the songs sound so so lovely im excited for their future 🙇🏻‍♀️ omg levanter.. shes that gal taking over the world! aww its ok hehe if u have fun then thats all that matters ☺️ how did u get into it?

i used to dance when i was younger but i went through a i’m shy phase n gave it up🚶🏻‍♀️recently i’ve been trying to get back into tho!!! my only source of lessons atm is felix’s dance to😚honestly that’s so valid bc skz titles are always so so so good n leave you with vastly different feelings🥺🤲🏼who knows😭😭😭chan does n says the weirdest stuff sometimes but it’s okay he’s still a cutie🥺right!!! i’m really glad they got a win! they're accomplishing so much n i am so!!! proud😭💞-🎁💫

omg felix nd his dance lessons hes so awkward but endearing bro  is there any dances ur looking forward to learning or currently learning?  i agree skz kings of versatility! i know!! they did so much this yr good job skz ️

i wonder if they’re gonna do more stages n if there’s possible for them to get more wins... i think they’re done right? just fansigns left? hmmm. changbin always gotta play hard to get i guess😤and omg yeah i guess so!!! bc i’ve realized that i listen to mostly jype artists :0 sometimes jype is ya kno... Yeah but i can’t deny that i love most of their groups🏃🏻‍♀️-🎁💫

i think they r done! but im honestly so hazy on their schedule i just take what im given LOL 😭 i love looking at fantakens from their fansigns though i hope they have more! mjdjf mood about jype... but their groups.. pure nd good! not rly relates but did u ticket this past week for skz hehe?

i’d like to file a complaint… 😭😭😭hyunjin is just so powerful, i always think how lucky jinnie stans are bc he just loooooves spoiling stays😚💓ooo i’ve heard of victon but i’ve never watched their variety! there’s so many groups i want to eventually listen n learn about tho and victon is one of em!!! i watched a few eps of that mx variety where they’re with PUPPIES😭i still need to finish it but so far… jooheon can get it and by get it i mean n my heart😞🤲🏼-🎁💫

omg i KNOW hj be like bf vibes always spoiling... omg victon is the CUTEST and theyre always on vlive itll be my mission to get you into them! 😉 omg i havent seen the whole puppy one yet but theyre so pure nd cute! i also recommend mx ray hehe! and hes jooheon must be protected hes the sweetest bab!

oh my goodness please i’ve seen clips of that moment!!!! changbin looks ULTRA teeny tiny i couldn’t believe!!!! so much cuteness in such a tiny body😭💞right!!! i love their friendship so much i just love how attentive they are with each other n how they always play around too hehe, its adorable!!! i will never get over felix whipping out that damn egg, king of comedic timing!!! yes!!! chan n changbin!!💕chan is a mega libra n as a fellow libra i couldnt resist! n changbin is changbin🥺-🎁💫

hes the teeniest i always go back to him on the zipline hes my babyyy 😔❤️ he looks scary but hes. baby.. his muscles r made of love.. mjsjd i KNOW feliz out of nowhere: 🥚 cute.. changbin n chan r a good bias pair! just the sweetest

being a changbin stans can never catch a break bc binnie's whole existence is just utter cuteness most times i can’t handle it, i blame his mega leo energy😭i’m into mostly nintendo n indie games! also its super cheesy but i love chill games like farming games or animal crossing! you too rachel! get plenty of rest n omg i hope you enjoy your vacation!!! being at the beach is the best🥰💞gotta apply buckets of sunscreen then!!! i burn so easily too so i feel your pain😔-🎁💫

omg i KNOW bin is just the epitome of cuteness i never thought id ever stan the aegyo boy 😭 ooh! do u have a fav game? and i hear animal crossing is super fun nd i love chill games so not cheesy at all!! im sure when im back the first thing ill say is damn.. never seen my skin peel like That ⚠️

and no worries!!! please take your time n enjoy your vacation😚💞but goodness you’re so sweet! i’m glad i was able to finish the thing i made for You hehe, i’m excited for you to see!!!🥰💞its been lots of fun chatting!!! even tho i feel so bad for rambling on n on at times😭but i hope this week treats you well rachel n you have the loveliest n bestest holiday!!! -🎁💫

i decided not to bring my laptop this time so i wont be able to finish what i had in mind until january i hope u dont mind! but omg stoP u made me smth 😭 ive enjoyed talking to u sm too thank u for being the sweetest 🥰 i hope u enjoy the week as well and take lots of time to rest!

Vegas Weekend Recap

Jenny hit me up to go to Vegas bc she got left behind, but I was supposed to have an interview on Friday. It ended up getting cancelled, so I started to pack frantically. I was freaking out bc I was SO FAT and felt so rushed. We finally got on our merry way, made it to Vegas after a truly pain-inducing car ride, getting lost, not being able to find a parking garage. It sucked, but I kept my cool the entire time. We parked so far and had to walk for what felt like a mile to the hotel. When we got there, no one even opened the door bc they were all passed out from the pool party. I thought 2 of the guys were gay bc their eyebrows were done lolol. FF a bit and we all got dressed to go to Marquee. We took quite a few shots. All in all, it was a bust of a night bc I wasn’t feeling buzzed, and the girls wanted to go home. Oh well, at least I got 6 hours of sleep. I was exhausted, but I could’ve gone ham too. Drank a crap ton for the pool party the next day, but felt drunk off 6 shots bc I only have falafels in the morning!! Made it to the pool party, and Jas forgot her ID UGH. Jen and I weren’t abt to wait on her, so we grabbed our 2 free drinks and just sat and wait around. Also Jen was kinna a buzzkill bc she was sick and couldn’t drink and was sober. Anyway, pool party was fun, I didn’t even finish my drinks and was feeling so drunk. I think I danced with Knox and had to take care of him too, bc he wasn’t a functional human anymore. Saw Kevin which was kinna cool. Oliver Heldens was the DJ, and the music was really good. We got a really cool Ethiopian driver with whom I enjoyed conversing, but turns out he only did it to get a large tip, so FUCK YA, YA DOUCHE. Jenny was so done once she got home, she couldn’t get up anymore. We walked everywhere to find food, and she wasn’t feeling it/hungry at all, so she didn’t go out at night. I also matched with a Welsh dude from Tinder and I told him we were going out to Omnia. We got dressed and pregamed pretty hard. I drink too much. I ended up wearing Susy’s pretty friggin revealing black cropped/tie top with no bra, and I felt so naked, but looked hot so whatever. We had such an annoying taxi incident again after when a fucking driver kept going when we said wait, we’ll get out. We ended up running over to Omnia bc Susy’s guy was so close to the front of the line and there was so much miscommunication. That killed our vibes and my buzz so much. We were sweating, hot, and annoyed. Finally found the 3 guys, so I asked the bouncer from behind if we could go to the front to meet them. Then we go up, and this fucking LATINO BOUNCER ON A POWER TRIP tries to start something with us and telling us either the guys enter only or everyone goes back. You just cut. The guys were helping us and making up valid excuses. Then the bouncer is like you should have asked if you could cut. I was like BRUHHHH, I FUCKING ASKED THE BLACK ONE BACK THERE. JUST FUCKING HOLD UP A SECOND, ILL GET HIM PINCHE PENDEJO. Wtf, why is everyone trying to start a fight with us. NO ONE HAS GOOD VIBES!! We went in and it turns out they didn’t even have a table FUCK. We’re like well shit, we ain’t paying, so we ended up having to get the guest list pass after all, and it worked out thank god. They ditched the guys which was kinna sad, but not my problem. Anyway, we made it up 3 flights of stairs and he bought us a round of tequila shots. I downed it like a champ and didn’t cringe while the girls made the sour face. I was shocked myself. Jas and I left her bc Jas was like ok, I’m abt to show you a good time, I love Omnia. We took a lap around the tables and didn’t see anyone that looked like they were offering a spot. We made it to the bar and were like we don’t even have our IDs or cards to buy anything. I see this super slim and drunk hairy Italian eyeing Jas. She talks to him, he’s saying oh, you are so beautiful, are you from the heavens? Then I cut to the chase and say if you think she’s so beautiful, buy her a drink! He’s like sure, so I called out 3 TEQUILA SHOTS PLEASE. lmao. He was dressed super shitty, but I guess after that shot, I was feeling loose, so he started hitting on me and who am I to resist? We just danced with each other and we hooked up (fml). He’s not a bad kisser by any means, and we spent a lot of time with each other. I gave him a HJ on the dance floor, and he fingered me a little too heh. I took a couple of photos and he kept kissing me along the neck, which I really liked. I just like to be held/touched when I’m drunk, which he was doing. Also, my philosophy is you gotta find a guy to do shit with to pass the time with. Jas was with a creepy guy and wanted to go, so I was like whenever you want to peace, just lmk. We left to find Susy, and Jas swore she was on the terrace, when I was like SHE IS ON THE BOTTOM DANCE FLOOR!!! GIRL, U IS DRUNK. Anyway, we finally find her and yay happy times! Also, I think the Italian found me again, so I was like shit how??? Jas bounced bc she didn’t have a guy and wanted to get more drinks. Danced with the Italian all the while the Welsh guy is texting me asking where I am. I’m drunk, I’m dancing with a guy, and texting Welsh all at once. Idk where I was or how I got there, so it’s just a lot of back and forth (read Whatsapp, kinna funny). I had no clue where I was, only described the music. Finally, he said he was at the Hearts Club, and I looked around and was like wait I’m here too!!! I told him to wait in an obvious place, and I’d go find him. It’s 3 am. I walked to the bar and passed this guy along the rail, Idk what came over me, but when I passed the end of the rail, I turned back and shouted Tom??? He turned around, and I was so elated! I remember thinking, “Oh, he’s cute!” I think I hugged him. I’m not sure if I grabbed his hand, but we went to dance with Susy. Everything is super fuzzy here. I think we were just dancing casually when we were with Susy, and he was still holding his beer. He ended up taking me to the bar and we took a love shot together. It was by far one of hte worst shots ever. After I took it, I was gagging and screaming at the bartender can I get a lime????? Then after he saw my reaction, he gave me a cup of water and a glass of pineapple juice. SWEET ANGEL FROM HEAVEN, TYSM. You know nothing in Vegas is free, but he gave me all of that!! After this, Idk where he lead me, but I’m guessing it was the main stage. He grabbed my face to kiss me, and his lips were really similar to the Italian’s, almost same kissing style too, but he used significantly less tongue which I appreciated. The one thing abt his kissing is that he was a tease, so he pulled away after a while, when I just wanted to keep kissing. I left my phone in his shirt pocket so I could dance hands free. Idr when, but I heard Disarm You play, so I opened my eyes and looked up, and we were 10 feet away from Kaskade, which was a total moment for me!! I was having a freakout bc I love that song!! Kaskade was there!!! Wtf how???? He played Atmosphere and Eyes too, I was gonna cry!! I would turn around so we were back to front, so I could dance, but he just turned me around. Then I look at my phone and start seeing texts from an unknown number so I assumed it was Susy. She’s like where the fuck are you???? I texted her and told her to leave me. I was gonna leave with him tonight. I just needed them to open the door later. We clearly weren’t on the same schedules bc I meant open the door later as in the morning (possibly at night, idk I was drunk. Idk the time) She thought I wanted to leave immediately. She also thought I was already at the hotel, and I was like no wtf I’m still in Omnia where you left us. So I decided to regorup, I took him outside, and we found them (with other guys milking them for drinks JFC they’re good). They were so relieved haha. Jas also met him and she’s like so you’re from Wales? Do you speak Wale-ish? He said no, I speak Welsh, and she proceeded to ask him that 3x more SMFH. I think after talking, I said ok we’re gonna go use the RR. Went to use it and I just remember (all night tbh) me holding out my right hand, so he’d hold it and come with me. We come back and Susy is like NATALIE YOU NEED TO STOP DISAPPEARING LIKE THAT!! I was like what??? I told you I was gonna use the RR wtf. Anyway, we sat to the way right of them, and Idk what took over my brain, but after he sat down, I was like I’m going to sit on you, then I proceeded to wrap my arm around him. Clearly, wasn’t thinking Idk (?????) Some convo topics we had that I vaguely remember: I think I began with so you’re Welsh? He replied, How do you know that? I said well, you went to Cardiff...He’s like right. me: I know my geography, I’m not an idiot.  I asked for 2 cups of ice and was like how would you address a bartender in British? Mate?? He’s like mate or pal. I was like uhh, I would never say pal pero ok weirdo. I also was feeding him the pieces of ice, and some of them didn’t even make it in. lol Then he brought up the word randy, but Idr the context, probably talking abt himself. He’s like it means sexually aroused. I was like uh, def never heard that before.  I asked him to speak Welsh, and he’s like do you want to hear one of the hardest phrases? Sure. He said it and I couldn’t even tell where the syllables began and ended. I repeated it to him horrifically, and he just laughed. I couldn’t hear either and ofc I was drunk, so I was prolly slurring.  I asked him what his last name was (expecting a cool Welsh name): Jones. Your name is Tom Jones? You’re fucking kidding, right? That’s so classic British jfc. I couldn’t believe it. I probably laughed. He was 5′10-6′. He was muscular and fit like an American, which surprised me. He was wearing a t-shirt, Idk how he got into Omnia. He had really nice arms, which I kept feeling. He also smelled really nice, both of which I’m sure I told him. He’s super sweet, nice, relaxed, fun to be with, and supe gentlemanly. Didn’t go up my skirt at all on the dance floor. He went through my top sleeves a few times, and that’s it. I was surprised. I was like you can grab my boobs dude (in my head). It’s 5 am at this point, and everyone decides to leave. We also finally took our full length photos looking hella trashed. I grab Tom and we start walking to our hotel across the street, and I was like Tom I can’t walk anymore, can you give me a piggyback ride? He’s like ya sure, so he did, but she said your skirt’s gonna show. I was like Idc, I literally cannot walk anymore, so he tried to cover me. He would always be on the lookout behind and sideways, and whenever he saw someone he would spin so that my butt wasn’t facing them. His watch was also cutting into my left leg, so I was like ow, what is that? It’s hurting me. He put me down, took it off, then carried me again. That’s when I tried recording him, and he’s like if you record me, I’m putting you down. *hence the video. They got pizza, and I wasn’t even hungry. I was just so tired!! They all sat down to talk and we found Justin!!! Wtf!!!!! The feeling of being reunited is second to none haha! I sat next to Tom and was so tired, so I just wrapped my arm around his left and arm fell asleep on his shoulder. I really like to be held and hold people when I’m drunk -- something I’ve discovered. Susy was telling me to be careful with my top bc it was showing, but I could not care less. It was 5:35 ish at this point and I have no recollection abt getting back to the hotel, but I was still with Tom and we didn’t talk abt spending the night, but I guess it was expected. Jas was with her guy still, so I was like I guess I’m ok *shrugs* Jenny’s passed out on the bed, so I was like Jenny, go to the main bed. I told her a few times, and she was mumbling something back to me, but I didn’t hear. Then finally I was like, Jenny, there’s a guy! So she grabbed the blanket and hauled ass over there. I changed super quickly bc I was so uncomfortable and tired. I just gave him a HJ under the covers, and he was moaning so much, so I kept telling him Shhh. Sidenote: Jenny said she thought he was snoring so much, which is why I shushed him. LMAO. I also remember him adjusting the sheets and kissing me and I saw him smiling. So sweet. Anyway, after a bit of the HJ, my head met his dick, so I just gave him a BJ. It was super lite and before I saw it, I was like it doesn’t look that bad tbh. It also tasted really good and felt good too. I was trying to be so quiet, so I hardly did anything good. Then I told him to go down on me but either he was ignoring me or didn’t hear me. I asked him if he had a condom, and he didn’t. I think this is the point where I rolled over from exhaustion and bc we weren’t gonna have sex (!!! no condom!!!) Next thing I know, Im wakened up by this motion in my butthole/vagina area?? I was like is he fingering me...but it was really consistent, and I could start to feel the pressure. Then I thought omg is this anal? Then realized it was sex, and he was fucking me from behind. Then I was like but wait, he doesn’t even have a condom. It felt kinna good (idek, I was so sleepy) I was surprised he even got it in by himself. I could hear him moaning too, but I was in and out of slumber at this point. He was starting to go harder, so I could hear and feel the slaps really quickly. He repositioned himself and I think it fell out and he wasn’t getting a good angle anymore. He took it out, and I felt my vagina was a little wet, but I couldn’t tell if it was because I came or not. I don’t think he finished though. I fell asleep shortly after. Then I hear loud knocks on the door, and I was like who the fuck is that?? I was gonna open the door, looked under the blanket, and was like wtf I’m butt-naked, where are my shorts??? I just stayed under the sheets, but I also needed to pee, so I grabbed my green throw and wrapped it around me. I found my shorts and undies on the floor so I grabbed it and went into the RR right as Knox was leaving. He’s like, so who is that guy?? Why is his dick so small?? *makes the hook gesture with index finger* Can’t believe you settled for that, Natalie. Kept talking to me, ALL IN FRONT OF TOM (I just realized this rn, omg I’m mortified lololol) I was so embarassed bc he was not the first I wanted to talk to abt this, and I just met him a day ago. It was like a brother scolding sister talk. So funny but so awkward. I was putting on my undies and struggling so much. Tom was super cuddly. When I was cuddling him, he had one arm underneath me, and the other was one was holding my hand (not wrapped around him) on his chest. I remember being super tired, but liked the sensation of his hand and wanted to see if we were actually holding hands, so I moved it a bit. Whenever I turned around, he would always turn with me and cuddle me. He would slip his arm under my right arm and into my shirt. He just really liked the touch of skin. I also remember telling Knox to close the blinds, and he’s like OMG THERE ARE BUTTONS?? smfh. Anyway with the darkness, I think I gave him another HJ, but he didn’t finish. We fell back asleep.He tapped me ever so softly on my shoulder, and he said he was gonna go. I got up too and couldn’t find my sandals, so I went barefoot. He grabbed his shoes and we both left barefoot. He thought I was gonna leave him at the door, but I walked him all the way to the elevator. I asked him for the time while we were walking, but his phone was dead. When he left, Idk how he felt, but he grabbed my face to give me a peck. I am not a one peck girl, so I went back to kiss him twice more.  When everyone woke up in the morn, they were like NATALIE, WHAT HAPPENED GIRL????? Knox asked me for more details in the morn, and when I told him, he fist pounded me and said I like you!  It took me all morning to piece together what happened and looking through time stamps of convos bc I hardly remember anything. I don’t think I browned out, but I def don’t have full recollection. FML I didn’t mean/expect the night to turn out like this!! Omg, I’m a nice and normal person!! Also, I slept only 80 minutes that morning and I was suicidal all Sunday and I’m still freaking recovering from it. That was wild and ugh too much for my body to handle. 

In The Bronx- Hongjoong (2)

Part: 2 of (?)

Read Part 3 HERE!

Genre: Drugdealer!Hongjoong, Drugdealer! SeonghwaAU, Smut, Slight Angst, Eventual Fluff

Word Count: 2.7k

Requested: no

Warnings: MC is a black female, mentions of drugs, Use of guns and explicit language, Daddy kink, face sitting, unprotected sex (wrap your whopper before you top her), creampie, aggressive force, slight praise kink

NOTE: This fic does NOT, in any way, shape, or form, portray the way I view any member of Ateez nor does it depict their true personalities or actions. This AU is just that. An AU.

Night had fallen, and just like any other Hongjoong said goodnight to his brother and told him to make sure the door was locked on his way out. He walked to the train station, knowing Minjoon was watching from the window. He claimed he preferred to take the train to work rather than his car. Once he was out of view, he turned the corner and headed to the not-so abandoned warehouse down the road. There, Seonghwa waited for him. Together they entered the warehouse from the side door in the alley. From the outside, it just looked like an ordinary rundown building. On the inside, it was everything but. There were several stations, each equipped with an electric burner, Ziploc bags, pots, and everything else needed for successful packaging. There were already men hard at work at every station. Kilos and kilos of product were lined up against the walls, and there were lookouts posted at every entrance.

Hongjoong was greeted by workers as he passed each station, observing and inspecting for errors. One by one, he gave orders to each one.

“That one’s too full. It’s a dime bag, not a dollar.”

“Speed it up over here, we need at least 100 from this table by the end of the hour.”

“Did you let that powder dry before bagging it up? You got me in trouble last time.”

Hongjoong and Seonghwa headed to the office in the back. It wasn’t much, just an old desk and a few chairs. Hongjoong set his bag on the floor by the door and made his way to the desk, while Seonghwa sat in one of the chairs.

“Minjoon’s carrying that football team on his back, I see.” Seonghwa watched as Hongjoong retrieved some paperwork, presumably from vendors.

Hongjoong smiled. “That’s my boy.”

Seonghwa nodded. “Headed to college. You ready?”

“Damn right I am. The minute he sets up his dorm I’m getting myself out of this shit. You of all people know this ain’t for me.”

“And how exactly do you, the KINGPIN, plan to just waltz the fuck out of here?”

Hongjoong shrugged. “Guess you’ll just have to wait and see. Until then, we have a vendor that has yet to send us our supply. You know the drill.”

Seonghwa got up and lifted a large painting off the wall, revealing a safe. Opening it, he retrieved two guns, both fully loaded. He tossed one to Hongjoong before tucking the other in his waistband.

“Let’s roll.”

They alerted all the lookouts of their plans before hopping into one of the unmarked cars parked outback. They drove in silence to the next town over in search of the coca leaf supplier. They turned off their headlights as they pulled into the driveway.

“Remember, we’re just going in to have a conversation. No guns unless they turn on us first.” Hongjoong said, turning the car off.

Seonghwa nodded, hopping out the passenger seat. “Just talk. Got it.”

They made their way to the back of the house quietly, knowing the supplier tended to the plants in his backyard. Without a doubt, there he was, alongside his twin brother, harvesting the plants.

“I hope those are going towards our shipment, Nunu. Daedae, nice to see you here as well.” Hongjoong said, leaning against the fence. The brothers looked up, wide-eyed, before running into the house.

Hongjoong sighed. “See, this is what I was trying to avoid.” He said, hopping over the fence, Seonghwa right behind him.

Hongjoong knocked on the glass door. “Listen, guys. I’m not here to cause harm. You know that. Why would anyone wanna harm the Coca Twins? I just wanna know where my shipment is. It should’ve arrived last week. You think someone like Cutthroat from Harlem would let this shit slide for a week? Ray-Ray from Bed-Stuy would’ve been raided this place. I’m out here trying to be a hospitable motherfucker, and you run from me and close the door.” He said, in a deathly calm voice. “You wanna come open the door? Because I’m coming in one way or the other, but I’d you let me in yourself.”

When his words were met with silence, Hongjoong gave Seonghwa the signal and ran into the glass shoulder first. Seonghwa pulled his gun from his waistband, walking closely behind Hongjoong as the glass shattered.

“HJ, man, we just need a little more time. We backed up right now.” Nunu’s shaky voice said from behind the couch.

“Should’ve told me that before you took my money. You know who Paul J. Meyer, Nunu? How bout you Daedae?” He asked and continued when neither answered. “Paul J. Meyer is the pioneer of the self-improvement industry. Self-help books started with him. He has a say that goes ‘Communication- the human connection- is the key to personal and career success.’ Meaning, if you communicate, you’ll be successful. And if you don’t? You’ll end up behind a couch shaking and fearing for your life because a kingpin you tried to scam is standing in your living room.” Hongjoong laughed to himself.

“Bro, we just need more time to-” Daedae started.

“I’m not your fucking bro. In case you forgot, I’m HJ. That’s Dragon.” Hongjoong pointed to Seonghwa. “Fuck more time. I want my product now. Lord knows you already spent the money I gave you. It’s only fair isn’t it?” Hongjoong turned to see Nunu’s hand reaching under the couch. Within seconds, Hongjoong’s pistol was off his waist and pointed at Nunu. Immediately, there was a gun put at Hongjoong’s head by Daedae.

“You think you’re the only one that stays packin?” Daedae laughed, quickly silenced by the sound of Seonghwa’s gun being cocked by his ear.

“Maybe not, but we’re the only ones man enough to shoot.” Seonghwa said, his voice dangerously low.

“Here’s what’s gonna happen. Daedae’s bitch ass is gonna set the gun down and you’re both gonna sit on the couch, turn on the TV and watch it like nothing ever happened. While Dragon and I take the product you owe us. Easy, right? Just mind your neck, and you get to keep it. Comprende?”

Hongjoong didn’t wait for a response. Instead, he headed out after Seonghwa. They collected the plants from the garden and ran to the car, speeding out the driveway and down the block.

Upon their return to the warehouse, Hongjoong called over two of his best workers, Mitch and Carlos.

“Make sure these plants have space to grow and are taken care of. After that, hit the streets. There’s money to be made.”

“You got it, boss. Let’s go C.” Mitch said, already moving the plants near a window.

When everything was all set up, everyone except for the lookouts headed out to sell. Hongjoong knew he didn’t have to run the streets as kingpin, but he feels everyone should work all positions. On occasions, He and Seonghwa even worked as lookouts. He trained his crew to be well rounded.

They returned to the warehouse at dawn to package any product that wasn’t sold and store their earnings for the night.

“You did good tonight, guys. We made a lot. As usual, Seonghwa is my proxy for the weekend and will oversee any decisions in my place. Stay safe, and I will be back Monday.” Hongjoong said, walking down the street. It was Friday, meaning it would be difficult to hide his job with Minjoon heading out to parties and hangouts and popping up at different hours of the night.

Hongjoong stood at the train station, knowing Santana would pop up any minute to go to work.

Santana appeared about half an hour later, a smile on her face.

“You don’t have to wait for me all the time, you know. You barely sleep as it is.”

“I do sleep! I’m heading to sleep right now. And I doze off every now and again in the office.”

Santana shook her head. “You have to sleep more than that, baby.”

Hongjoong pulled her in by the waist. “Come over later, I’d sleep better with you there.” He pleaded.

She rolled her eyes. “I don’t wanna scar Minjoon anymore.”

“He’ll be okay. Plus, there’s this party in Bed-Stuy. Some football player’s parents are gone for the weekend. He’ll barely be there.”

Santana tapped her chin. “Hmmm, alright. I get off work early today, so I’ll just let myself in while you’re sleeping.”

“Day off AND early leave? I should become a fashion designer too.”

She giggled. “And design what? Crackhead chic?”

“Feens gotta dress too. Why you hatin’?”

She shook her head, walking up the steps. “You are something else. I’ll see you later.”

Hongjoong shamelessly watched her ascend. He admired the sway of her hips, the way her skirt hugged her waist just right. The rich, deep brown color of her legs

“Go get some sleep, you perv.” She shouted from the top, to which Hongjoong smirked before walking away. He walked up the block to his building, where Minjoon was already standing.

“What I told you bout standing around like that? 12 gon think you’re looking for trouble.”

“Good morning to you, too. I wasn’t standing for long. I just figured I’d stand outside so you could just hurry back. You have to rest.”

“You sound like Santana. Get in the car, snotface.”

Once he made it back from dropping Minjoon off, Hongjoong fell into the sectional couch face-first into a deep sleep. He slept for hours until he heard the door unlock. He knew Minjoon was leaving school straight to Brooklyn, so it was either Seonghwa looking for something or Santana. He smiled when he saw perfectly pedicured toes come into view, confirming it was the latter. He felt the couch shift at the far end, indicating she had sat down.

He outstretched his arms. “C’mere.”

She sucked her teeth. “Stay asleep. Imma sit here.”

“I woke up the minute you put the key in the lock. Come lay with me”

She crawled her way up his body, resting her head on his bare chest, his arms wrapping around her waist.

“I wanna spend more time with you, HJ.” She said, her voice barely a whisper.

“I know, I’m working on it.” He said.

“You’re too smart for this kingpin shit, HJ.”

“Stop it.”

“I’m serious.” She rested her chin on his chest to look at him. “You could’ve easily graduated high school, and yet, you scored the highest on the GED test. Don’t you wanna go back to school? Remember telling me how much you love music production? All those beats you showed me? The ones that you released under that alias? The ones that went VIRAL? You can go back to school and perfect your craft.”

Hongjoong looked down at her and sighed. “Minjoon first.”

“Why does either of you have to be first? You can both go to college. You can commute if you need to. Life isn’t always about sacrifice. Just think about it.

Hongjoong slid his hands from her waist to the curve of her ass. “Lemme see how I feel after I eat.”

“Eat what? I know your ass don’t cook.”

“I’m not hungry for food. Come sit on your throne, Queen.” Hongjoong reached up her skirt, pulling her panties down in one swift motion.

Santana flung them across the room, placing her legs on each side of his head. She lowered herself on his face as his arms snaked around her thighs, locking her in place. His tongue teased at her entrance, the sudden contact causing her hips to buck. Her eyes fluttered shut as Hongjoong flattened his tongue along her cunt, his tongue flicking at her clit.

“Fuck, HJ,” She moaned as he sucked on her clit, her voice shaky.

The lewd sounds emitting from Hongjoong’s mouth as he licked, sucked, and slurped on her pussy caused heat to creep onto her cheeks.

Santana gripped onto the couch tightly, her legs slowly giving out.

“Fuck, baby I’m so close.” She said, out of breath.

“Yeah?” Hongjoong asked underneath her. “Ride my face. Show me how much you wanna cum.”

Santana weaved her hands into his light brown as she rocked her hips back and forth against his tongue. Her breath hitched as she felt that familiar tightening in her stomach. Her body felt like it was on fire as she shook uncontrollably, screaming Hongjoong’s name. As she came down from her high, Hongjoong unbuckled his pants.

“You ready to ride something else?” Hongjoong smirked when Santana loosened her grip on his hair and face.

“I’m always ready, Daddy,” Santana answered, sliding down to pull his boxers off. She tossed them on the floor to join the rest of the clothes as she pulled off her skirt and tank top.

She positioned herself, placing her hands on Hongjoong’s stomach to level herself before sinking down. The pair both groaning once he was fully inside her. Santana took a moment to adjust before beginning to move, bouncing up and down.

“Shit, baby, you’re always so tight.” Hongjoong gritted his teeth, reaching up to hold onto her hips.

Santana immediately pushed his hands down, speeding up the pace. “Uh uh, lemme take care of you, Daddy.” He tossed his head back, moaning as she circled her hips.

Her pace increased dangerously, her eyes snapping shut in pleasure.

“Take it easy, baby,” Hongjoong said, which was drowned out by Santana’s moans.

“TANA, SLOW DOWN.” He screamed but to no avail.

Suddenly, he flipped her over, and she landed on her back, gasping and the sudden switch.

“You don’t play fair, babygirl. You know the rules. Ladies first.” He lifted her leg onto his shoulder, his hips snapping into hers mercilessly. The room was filled with sounds of skin slapping, groans, and heavy breathing.

“Shit. Oh my God!” Santana shouted, pulling away slightly.

“Where the fuck you think you going? Take this dick, it’s yours, baby.” He said, pulling her back. “You getting close, baby? I can feel you clenching. You feel so good, baby. So tight, so warm. Cum for me, baby. I wanna hear you scream my name one more time.”

That’s all it took for Santana to become undone. Her toes curled immediately as her back arched, screaming a chant of Hongjoong’s name, her legs trembling.

“Where you want my cum, baby? Anywhere you want.” Hongjoong asked, kissing her neck.

“Mmm, cum inside me.”

“Yeah, you want me to fill you up?” His thrusts became sloppy, indicating his orgasm fast approaching.

Santana nodded. “I want you deep inside me, baby.” She muttered, overwhelmed by overstimulation.

Hongjoong nestled his face into her neck as he came, filling her up with his white seed.

They stayed like that for a while, until Hongjoong stood up. “C’ mon, we gotta shower.”

Santana whined. “How do you STILL have so much energy?”

He shrugged, pulling her up. “It’s a blessing and a curse. C’mon stinky.”

 Around 10pm that night, the couple was awoken by a loud banging on the door. Santana jumped up, alarmed. She began to fidget in the oversized t-shirt she had on. Hongjoong pressed his pointer finger to his lips, creeping up to the door. Peering into the peephole, he internally cursed when he saw the black uniforms and gold badges. He took a deep breath, pulling his grey sweats up to his waist and opened the door.

“Hongjoong Kim?”

“Yeah, that’s me.”

Santana screamed as she witnessed her boyfriend is suddenly thrown to the ground and placed in handcuffs.

“What the fuck is wrong with you? What are you doing?” She shouted.

“Hongjoong Kim, you are under arrest for the attempted murder of Timothy and Clarence Claremont.”

“The Coca Twins? They’re lying! This has to be some type of mistake!” Tears stained Santana’s face.

“Baby, come here.” Hongjoong pleaded. “It’s okay. Don’t cry. Everything’s gonna be alright. Go to Seonghwa and find Minjoon. Stay together. It’s too dangerous. Tell Hwa what happened, and he’ll know what to do. Remember this phrase: Go back to when it all started, and that’s where your future begins.” He kissed her with all his might.

“Back where it all started, okay. Okay.” Santana nodded.

“Did you have an accomplice in this, Mr. Kim?”

“No. I acted alone. Just take me already. I’m not resisting.” And with that, the police dragged him away, nearly tearing his white wifebeater in the process.

And Santana was left standing in the doorway, feeling lost and empty.