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yvtro · 1 year

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the reason for which jason struggles with forgiving bruce specifically is because bruce is the only person he ever had so much hope in. the only person he came to truly rely on.

he has a huge heart. he forgave his parents for not being perfect and neglecting him, he forgave two-face for killing his father (and said he pitied him, even), his last act was a self-sacrificial attempt to save a woman who set him up for torture and death. he can justify nearly every offence toward himself, because he feels for people so deeply.

but perhaps part of the reason for which it came so easily to him was also that he never expected these people to do any better. he was a parentified child, and he grew up watching his neighbours slipping into the life of crime due to the flawed system. he understood survival, self-preservation, and despair. he was not always alone, he might have been loved, yet he could not rely on "charity." everyone had their own burdens. so jay, 12, already had a deep conviction that he could not be a priority for anyone, and in his books, that was okay. he still believed in the world as a whole. he just wasn't sure if anyone in this world could genuinely care for him.

and then bruce came into his life, challenging this idea. bruce chose him. bruce spent years gaining his trust, dedicated so much of his time to training him. bruce, who patiently worked through his insecurities with him in the field, who looked out for him. bruce, with whom jay spent most of his time, his world being so narrow, everything concentrating on the joy of being robin. bruce, who made him feel so protected when out fighting criminals, that jay's reaction to getting snatched and tied up the scarecrow was merely saying: batman will put you away!

and by the age of 15, jay is open to being loved and cared for. in fact, jason can't imagine not having someone to lean on anymore, to the point where a single doubt that bruce expresses leaves him petrified. maybe he never realised that he could be so greedy before, that he could crave safety so much. but that fear of losing the thing he never even suspected he could have until a couple of years before – this is what now leads him to that warehouse in ethiopia.

and even after all of that, this implicit trust is not gone. fresh out of soil, jay's first thought is that of his dad. but to discover that the world he came back into feels so unsafe, that he is so alone, makes him feel betrayed. because there was a time when bruce made him believe that he was his priority. that he was loved. that he was special. bruce was one single person in his life that he grew to have expectations of. and where is bruce now? of course he doesn't know jason is alive, but where is bruce now? why does it seem like that love never really mattered? where is bruce now?

there is, of course, a part of him that is so quick to forgive, or rather a part that doesn't even think there's any blame. but he also had expectations, expectations of no one else, expectations that his father worked so hard for. and bruce taught him how to ask for things.

so he will ask. just this once.

#jason after he experienced being loved and protected once: i can never live without this again #maybe it's less of 'just him' <- the joker and more of 'just you' <- bruce (were supposed to truly care for me)#also #you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth.#i'm normal!#jason todd #jay meta #dc comics #red hood #wretched mirrors

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firebucks · 2 years

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Q . ) HOW DO YOU NEED TO BE TOUCHED?

A . ) FERVENTLY. you crave a hug that cracks your ribs... the feeling of your wandering soul being crushed back into the bones that can't seem to hold it. you need a hand gripping yours so tightly you almost fear it may leave a bruise, a reminder that you are here. and that you are not alone.

tagged by: my sweetheart , @51163 tagging: @dispatchr / @ceremonially, @rottedoll, @str4nd, @wyhlds, @desafia, @batfall, @ltdice, @dinopunching, @scribde, @gunbash + you !

#bless you for this <3 #ii. dash games ‚ you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth.

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loveoaths · 2 years

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TAG & VERSE DROP: HOSHIGAKI SHIZUMA.

VERSE ONE.

verse: once, the world asked for your favorite feeling. you said hunger. ( new era ) / / shizuma, son of the mizukage, kenjutsu instructor, leader of the nascent seven swordsmen, thorn in the heel of progress. generally refers to his activities with the seven unless one of the following arc tags below is added. age: 16-18 generally

arc one: you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth. ( childhood ) / / encompasses his childhood and early youth. age: 0 - 14

arc two: be like the fox who makes more tracks than necessary, some in the wrong direction. practice resurrection. ( incarcerated ) / / after taking the blame for the seven’s actions, shizuma is imprisoned following the failed insurrection and placed under surveillance. the village plans to rehabilitate him. shizuma plans a jailbreak – and starts reading strange pamphlets about this thing called jashinism… age: 21+

arc three: one day i will touch the world with bare hands even if it burns ( jashinist ) / / shizuma has escaped prison and is currently courting two powers for his own interests: the primordial god jashin and his ancestress yuki tsukimono. age: 25+

VERSE TWO.

verse: the boy forgives the bull that gored him. we heal whether we want to or not. ( rehabilitation au | sharkfinx ) / / still under state surveillance, shizuma is released several days a week on parole to work at his uncle grandpa kisame’s ( @sharkfinx ) shop. is he changing, or is he scheming? you’ll never know. age: 20+

SPECIFIC SHIPS.

ship: since we’re bound to be something, why not together. ( shizubu | bredfaith ) / / with @bredfaith

GENERAL TAGS.

dynamic: shizuma and buntan. dynamic: shizuma and kagura. dynamic: shizuma and the seven. aesthetic: shizuma. persona: shizuma. anthem: shizuma.

#verse: once the world asked for your favorite feeling. you said hunger. ( new era )#arc one: you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth. ( childhood )#arc two: be like the fox who makes more tracks than necessary some in the wrong direction. practice resurrection. ( incarcerated )#arc three: one day i will touch the world with bare hands even if it burns ( jashinist )#verse: the boy forgives the bull that gored him. we heal whether we want to or not. ( rehabilitation au | sharkfinx )#ship: since we’re bound to be something why not together. ( shizubu | bredfaith )#dynamic: shizuma and buntan.#dynamic: shizuma and kagura.#dynamic: shizuma and the seven.#aesthetic: shizuma.#persona: shizuma.#anthem: shizuma.#tag drop.#i hate tags fr #tag drop: shizuma.

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knightinspicyarmor · 5 months

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Mature themes will be present | 18+ only | TAG: #—× spicy content.

blogs: @knightinsourarmor ( Multimuse ), @deibreak ( Todoroki Shoto ), @naitfall ( Levi Ackerman )

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moved--knightinspicyarmor · 6 months

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Mature themes will be present | 18+ only | TAG: #—× spicy content.

blogs: @knightinsourarmor ( Multimuse ), @deibreak ( Todoroki Shoto ), @naitfall ( Levi Ackerman )

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metamorphesque · 2 years

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― Speeches for Dr Frankenstein, Margaret Atwood

[text ID: you dangle on the leash / of your own longing; your / need grows teeth]

#margaret atwood #speeches for dr Frankenstein #quotes #poem #poetry #literature #dark academia #longing #yearning #classic literature #chaotic academia

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asoftepiloguemylove · 1 year

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"You can love a monster, it can even love you back, but that doesn't change its nature."

unknown / Mitski Cop Car / Catherynne M. Valente The Bread We Eat in Dreams / Jonny Bolduc Harsh Light / Margaret Atwood / Sylvia Plath Poem for a Birthday: Who / Anne Sexton Hansel and Gretel "The Complete Poems of Anne Sexton" / @/thymoss (tumblr) / unknown

i. unknown [ "I tip my head like a dog at the window. The outside world is so interesting, and I am not a part of it; I'm just witnessing." ]

ii. Mitski Cop Car [ "I get mean when I'm nervous like a bad dog / I get mean when I'm nervous like a bad dog ]

iii. Catherynne M. Valente The Bread We Eat in Dreams [ "I said: I could be a wolf for you. I could put my teeth on your throat. I could growl. I could eat you whole. I could wait for you in the dark. I could howl against your hair. ]

iv. Jonny Bolduc Harsh Light [ medical diagram of a dog. "Let the harsh light warm you / Let the harsh wind carry you away ]

v. Margaret Atwood [ "you dangle on the leash of your own longing; / your need grows teeth ]

vi. Sylvia Plath Poem for a Birthday: Who [ "Eaten or rotten. I am all mouth." ]

vii. Anne Sexton Hansel and Gretel [ I want to bite, / I want to chew, / I will eat you up. ]

viii. @/thymoss (tumblr) [ sketch of an animal with teeth surrounding the outside of its snout pointing away from it. "I will remove my teeth, for I want to remain kind despite my anger" ]

ix. unknown [ "I love you like a rotten dog, / I love you like my canines are falling out of my gums / Like a monster, like a beast / Like something not worth loving back" ]

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vilebird · 26 days

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BOTH TOO MUCH AND NOT ENOUGH

1) "I have been found wanting, Natalie thought; I have made myself unacceptable and am not worthy." - hangsaman, by shirley jackson

2) text: "meat must be beaten brutal into tenderness, that any body softens with violence, she grinds salt into the carcass, like a wound, a memory". image: a carcass of beef, cleaned, with the ribs on prominent display, painted in oils and rendered in thick strokes of red, orange, tan and white, on a plain dark red background. the text is cutouts on top, dark red text on light tan. - Family Portrait as Unfinished Meal, by Torrin A. Greathouse and Le Bœuf by Chaim Soutine. collage put together by @invisiblemonstrosity

3) a pale hand crushing ripe red strawberries, green leaves still attached, on a plain white background. - apparently by ouiloved on flickr, but they seem to have deleted.

4) bust photo of a tan person with a spotlight on them outside in the dark, head turned down, shoulder length messy wet black hair obscuring their face. their hand is raised to their chest and they are wearing a white tank top. fake blood is splattered and wiped around their chest and mouth. - i can't actually find this one all my attempts lead back to unsourced tumblr posts if you know where its from. help me

5: "You have no one who has any sort of consideration for you. You have had patience and endurance, and what have they done for you? Half-killed you." - carlyle’s house and other sketches, by virginia woolf

6: "try your whole life to be righteous and be good, wind up on your own floor, choking on blood" - sept 15th 1983, by the mountain goats

7: "such a waste of a girl, such rumination. i am obsessive. i contain nothing but the replay. i am blood and blood and replay. i am please don't go." - i put the coffin out to sea, by lisa marie basile

8: an image of a partially bald baby bird begging for food, drawn in the desaturated greens and black of a trailcam, on top, the text reads "i am asking you for something i need", on bottom, the text reads "why is it so hard to give it to me?" - trailcam baby, by @quezify

9: "was i raised without love? / or was i born unloveable?" - @psychwarded

10: "I, in my corner, with my monstrous needs." - As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh, susan sontag

11: "oh, i know that i'm not whole, and sometimes feel the flies swarming, like much of me is rotten." - roadkill ode, chad abushanab

12: a photo of a cut tree where much of the centre is rotted from fungus, accompanied by the text: "heart rot in pine. heart rot is the softening of a pine trees resinous heartwood, caused by an in-dwelling fungus. not all pines have it, but those that do make the excavation of a tree-hole next cavity easier for the red-cockaded woodpecker."

13: "rot made a home inside my body." - i know it's from "bloat" but cant find the authors name again. i think it starts with a c?

14: photo of an abandoned house in shades of brown and beige and orange, the walls are wet and scuffed and the drywall has been torn open in places, exposing the old lath. - abandoned, by @jaggedplains

15: photo of a mouldy strawberry, fading from bright red to grey-green fluff - Strawberry Gray Mold disease stock photo, by MediaProduction on gettyimages

16: "you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they're gonna find out" - tumblr post by @twoheadedfawnn

17: "we are meat, we are potential carcasses,' he once said. 'if i go into a butcher's shop i always think it is surprising that i wasn't there instead of the animal." - francis bacon

18: "you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth." - speeches for dr frankenstein, by margaret atwood

19: photo of a python hanging off a roof coiled around a black and white bird, poised to eat it - i heard some noise on the roof this morning, by candycane7 on reddit

20: "all that matters is that you want to hurt me. all that matters is that you want me." - when rome falls, by yves olade

21: "god told me i was forgiven and then he split me open" - god is made of hunger and i am made of dreams, by katie maria

22: "but this is not about love. once a pig is hung and cut straight, cut from rectum to neck, step inside her death like it is a room: that is how to touch her now. the lord said, you must not eat their meat or touch their carcasses. then came the end of the rib." - oh let's just be hogs, by gregory emilio

23: photo of a strawberry cut in half with its leaves attached. it is bright red, steel knife wet. the background is bright white and plain. - cut strawberry by liz west on flickr

24: photo of a handmade cloth sculpture of a dead autopsied pigeon, red zipper like an incision opening to its empty red interior, small cloth and thread organs arranged around it. - pandora: city pigeon, by jessica bartram

25: '"u need a therapist" actually i need to be euthanized' - tumblr post by deactivated user @122mg

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chappelroans · 9 months

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"doctor, my shadow shivering on the table, you dangle on the leash of your own longing: your need grows teeth. you sliced me loose and said it was Creation. i could feel the knife. now, you would like to heal that chasm in your side, but i recede. i prowl. i will not come when you call."

— speeches for dr. frankenstein, margaret atwood (for @pirncessleia)

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creacherkeeper · 9 months

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~ portrait of a jackrabbit

{margaret atwood / @fairycosmos / no, august greenwood / still life with trophies of the hunt, pierre dupuise / neverafter, brennan lee mulligan / the dead father, donald barthelme / @creacherkeeper / hare vs rabbit, @gallusrostromegalus & @cherryistired / yves olade / @tyaz}

[ID: 10 images of text and 2 artworks collected in a litstack 1: you dangle on the leash / of your own longing; / your need grows teeth. 2: a tumblr post by fairycosmos that reads: i would describe myself as fun and light hearted and unburdened. please ignore the blood in my mouth 3: Attention's a drug that I can't get enough of / I tell myself taking the blame / And they walk away with a new pair of hands / And I walk away bearing their shame 4: (animal death cw) a detailed, realistic painting of the results of a hunt. there are multiple birds, including a quail, a dove, and a duck, lying on a cracked wooden table that's been draped over with red cloth. in between and beneath the birds, lying with its head hanging over the edge of the table, is a rabbit 5: Everyone you ever knew who told you that they would keep you safe as long as you behaved were already hurting you. Live your life without apology, little girl. It is never wrong to tell the truth about what you are. 6: He is mad about being small when you were big, but no, that's not it, he is mad about being helpless when you were powerful, but no, not that either, he is mad about being contingent when you were necessary, not quite it, he is insane because when he loved you, you didn't notice. 7: "Do you know where we're heading, Brandi with an I?" A short hum. "No. Wherever's safe." "Safe from what?" She held her knees a little tighter. "Everyone." 8: text on top of a drawing. the text reads, in italics with bullet points: - everyone freezes - you're considering your odds against roughly 200lbs of Suspiciously Humanoid Hare - and they're considering their odds against you the image is cropped from a larger comic, showing brown and white jackrabbits with large, glowing red eyes standing upright and visible in a circle of a flashlight's light 9: I know all the / ways already that love can be the wound, 10: Tell me that you chose me. / That you love me. / That you crave the dark. 11: a tumblr post by tyaz that reads: What do you mean killing isn't an act of devotion end ID]

#litstack #web weaving #quote collection #the last brandi litstack was Fun and yall know i could not stand for that for long #she is a silly rabbit but she is also so deeply fucked up so. litstack !!2!!#harrowing edition!!!!!#sorry 2 everyone but also no im not godbless #brandi losttownship #lost township

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saintaemond · 9 months

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