The feeling of hopelessness au (kny au)

beware of my grammar incorrections and spellings.. enjoy some angsty stuff and bits of badass zen shhdhd

•This au doesn't follow the og canon story, some have major story changes and some arcs are just kept there untouched.

•Zenitsu is suffering an unknown illness like a terminal illness and he kept it a secret from everyone, that includes the kamaboko gang and anyone else but ofc some knew it (that's shinobu and maybe inosuke and nezuko)

•Idk like how he got the illness from either a powerful demon art or he was born with it or when he got struck by lightning (which totally don't make any sense hshshs)

•yes, this au has TanZen and with lots angst but tan and zen aren't together yet and also never will be cuz y'know */coughs

major character death-

•Tanjiro is oblivious of his feelings for Zenitsu but he slowly realizes them and he keeps questioning what is this feeling.. As for zen, though he is more oblivious, he thinks tanjiro likes kanao (but nah a only as a friend lmao) and he just kept his feelings to himself..

•The timeline is very messy asf but it goes like this, nothing changes with s1 and Mugen train arc. All i can say is that zens illness gets worse throughout the arcs till the fight with muzan also like to add that he fought Kaigaku earlier in this au and his gramps is uhh ye not very alive…

•But zen died cause of his illness and his injuries from the demon and ofc he killed the demon (we stan badass zen)

I'll probably make more stuff for this au cuz yes-

Feel free to ask stuff but beware that sometimes I will not respond cuz idk what to say hshshsh

Anyways, adios-

just read the eulogy, henry.

Daydreaming about a howl’s moving castle hellsing au where Alucard has his big ass gothic castle, Integra ages beautifully and drags Alucard’s ass back to his room after his breakdown, Seras being Markl and having to hide her canons from Integra, baskerville as calcifier. Not sure who would be Walter or Pip, but I’m still drawing this.. some day… some time.

Some stuff for the next comic :D

catie hello :))) roman empire seb nando au?? saw the sketch you made during suzuka & would love to hear your thoughts!! <3

Aaaah Claire hello!!!! I think you're talking about this one, right?

I joked in the tags "Hadrian and Antonius who?????"so I guess that would be the basis??? Seb is a favorite lover of Fernando's and when he dies, Fernando deifies him 😥

This Seb is obv from a different au, but this would be how I'd vizualize them:

I'm so glad that I'm not the only one who sees Scourge as Optimus and Megatron's emo son. I'm even tempting to make an au out of it.

I mean, he has Optimus's spark energy, Megatron's spark energy, sounds kinda like Megatron, looks a lot like Optimus, and has an amazing color scheme.

To me he just... Is their emo son.

IN OTHER NEWS I have some angsty ideas for the pop star x pro athlete au.

favs from tge aggie tonight ‼️

forest gods au - charliedzilla

musical nerds - rain-writes-fics

everyone has an angsty ososan au right?? like, a lot of my ososan aus are just them being idiots as usual but in a different context, but i have this one,,, this one au where everything is horrible. i dunno, maybe ill post about these sometime, meanwhile i still gotta finish the creator curator-matsus.

remembering old fandoms and rps and aus i had and im realizing this isnt the first time an au version of frostbite interacted a lot with someone who at least in text had a quirk that does something to the letter s which is ironic considering their name

I have uuuuh, a Pixie Hollow au

Yes, Rex loses his wings in this one, i had to give up for the angst lmao. I'm going to elaborate about this whole thing under the readmore, beware a wall of text

In this au, all the clones are fairies. Jango's magic (the King of Pixie Hollow) is strong enough that all the fairies arriving share a face with him.

Rex is a water talent fairy, and he's the one in charge of the other water talents. Every leader needs to wear a flower skirt with tbe colors of the talent, so that's the why of Rex's wardrobe choices. He's the most powerful water fairy, but that also makes him cry a lot thanks to all the water inside of him

Now, about the mer incident: similarly to the Tinkerbell books, the mers of Never Land got angry at the fairies, which caused the water levels to rise. This is specially dangerous because rivers started to spill and Pixie Hollow is FULL of rivers. They can't get the mers to talk to them, and Jango can't find a way to make negotiations while the mers refuse to get near the surface. Rex takes a decision and, along a group of other water talents, decides to visit the witches or Never Land.

He makes a deal with the witch: he'll give up his wings in exchange of getting the ability to breath underwater. The witch proceeds to cut his wings down to his magic source (the reason why in this au a broken wing can eventually grow again) and gives him a potion, however, because he never specified, the potion given to him would only allow him to breath underwater for 2 hours. Rex lost his wings and the thing he exchanged them to.

Rex is able to calm the mers and things go back to normal. Of course, not having his wings brings a lot of accomodations to him, like changing his clothes to make up for the fact that he has to walk to most places, and dealing with the effects that a lack of wings leave: bad short-term memory, forgetfulness, chronic pain, tiredness, headaches, irritability. He eventually learns to live with all those things, but the lost of his wings never gets easier to accept

update

looking at so many bird pictures and writing 'dinosauria' a kajillion times has not cured me but it will get me through the night

and also i'm about ready to make a self-indulgent gravity falls au entirely based around birds so that's cool

if you haven't noticed already i really like birds. feathered beloveds

olive my mind has decided it will take me back to my tmr roots randomly last night so 🚀 with gally from the maze runner if you’re still accepting these

jen!!! hello friend!!! how are you?

(also, @heliads you asked for gally, too, so i’m tagging you <3)

GALLY in a MODERN, CELEBRITY, PR RELATIONSHIP! AU. now, this is one loaded™ au so stick with me, asdfghgfds. gally is a small time celebrity. correction: gally is the son of two famous actors who fell in love on set of an action film, and had an incredibly public romance. from very young, it was thought he would follow in his parent’s footsteps and become an actor as well - in fact, he even did a few acting jobs as a child and while he wasn’t exactly critically acclaimed, he was talented enough as paolo morelli in goncharov, and he was a child and so it was forgivable. when he was eleven, however, his parents famously sent him abroad, to go live with his grandparents in some rural town. he grew quite a bit in those 18 years, and now he’s a talented ufc figher (with a background in boxing, wresting. kockboxing, and taekwondo, though occasionally he’ll throw in some jiu-jitsu or muay thai. he has a wide range of fighting styles, alright?) who would really rather not have celebrity status at all because while it’s flattering that people cheer for him in the ring, he really would like to just,,,, walk around new york city like a normal human being every once in a while. you, on the other hand, are a somewhat up and coming actor, still diversifying your roles and trying to figure out where you belong. your career really shot off when you played a major character in game of thrones, and then later, a role in bridgerton. you’ve done other work before that - small time roles, nothing of note unless your a die hard fan that wishes to watch every piece of media you’ve ever acted in - but you were recently offered a role in a blockbuster of epic proportions, and you’re staking your entire career on it. the problem is, it’s not exactly a period piece or any kind of historical fantasy (of which you are most well known and popular)... it’s an apocalypse movie. a sort of revival of the genre amidst the influx of superhero movies, if you will. you auditioned and got the part, and so there’s no real worry over your ability to act the hell out of this film, but when it comes to convincing the public, something more has to be done. you’re not exactly well known for your fighting ability, after all. wait. fighting ability?? the director of the film is a bit on the young side, but she’s been friends with gally since his amateur acting days i mean they starred together in goncharov after all. gally begrudgingly sees her as a younger sister, so when she begs him on her hands and knees to come back to acting - just for a small role that involves a lot of stunts!!! - he can’t exactly say no. and so what if she forgot to mention that his character has a small, heavily implied yet next explicitly stated, romantic arc with you, the main character? it’s not like she purposefully left that out when attempting to convince him, haha. and so when you and gally first meet, he already has a bad taste in his mouth for this entire affair. really, he was the idiot for not reading about his character as thoroughly as he should, but that doesn’t change the fact that he officially hates this. any anyone taking part in it. and so...... you, too. and really, you are just a bit annoying in your Extreme Dedication to an acting job that probably won’t become that big a blockbuster, anyway. i mean, who wants apocalypse movies, anymore?? (mr. gally, sir, i think you are underestimating the found family dynamic) you both play your parts on camera well, but the dissent between you is starting early, and off camera, no one wants to be near the two of you. and so when your director sees you guys aren’t exactly... chummy with each other, she goes out of her way to send the two of you on Bonding Field Trips... that a desperate photographer notices and latches onto, immediately. the news breaks early the next day - is there a romance budding between hollywood’s newest actor and most forgotten star??? gally is allergic to press and so he doesn’t actually realize what’s happened until he’s been caught by paparazzi and he deigns to check the news. this reporter by the name of thomas,,,,,, he better watch his back, gally is not pleaased. and so when the both of you rush onto set that morning you’re both understandably upset - you have a partner!!! well,,, okay, maybe you have a crush on a fellow actor - but it was certainly progressing!!! it was going somewhere!!!! never mind if they still overlooked you for someone else, you were going to confess to them soon!!! how can you do that now??? and meanwhile gally is like!!!!! this goes against my loner status!!!! the ~bad boy~ appeal!!!! i already took a season off of fighting for this stupid movie, and now you’re ruining my image, too???? but that’s when the both of you are stunned. absolutely blindsighted. this is good pr for the movie, can’t you just pretend to be dating during the shooting process, press tour, and like four months after the release??? oh, someone is about to die on this set piece - we can call it an unfortunate accident, and the press from that will cover up this ridiculous dating scandal that will not ever, in a thousand years, under any circumstances happen— hard cut to you and gally planning your first ~undercover~ date. this is not going to well - of that, you are most certain. gally is the hardest person to get along with! nothing is ever good enough! he doesn’t even want to be here! he was born into the very profession you’ve been desperately chasing since you were old enough to realize the people on screen were actors and not just characters, and he mocks you for having any ambitions at all! at least you try things. at least you give them your all! what has gally done but squander his acting talent from the moment he arrived on set? well, did it ever occur to you that he hates show buisness? that he ran away from it for a very specific reason and never wanted to come back at all, but does so because he does have a heart, actually, and doesn’t want to see his old friend create something that’s a flop?? you know what? never mind. he’ll do whatever you want for these stupid dates. and he’ll be a good little puppet and smile at the cameras and everything. you just make the plans. he’ll wash his hands clean of any of it. if you hate him so much, the least he can do is let you choose what activities you have to grin and bear with him. and so you go on a date, and luckily, the press manages to miss the awkward moments. and then, sometime later, you go on a second. and at the end of that second date, the both of you get so drunk you’re actually laughing the whole way home. and maybe you don’t hate each other so much after all.... maybe you actually fall in love with this idiot - so much so that for a moment, you forget entirely how this relationship began in the first place. that is,,,,, until a Notoriously Hard-Ass Interviewer asks you about the pr relationship outright. after all, weren’t you seen trying to approach another actor, right around the time that the first images leaked? and so you admit when the first pictures leaked, you and gally weren’t dating - you were doing bonding activities so that your on-screen performance would seem more real. and then the rumors broke, and the two of you were a bit awkward about going to places together afterward, but you still did those bonding activities, and at some point, started to contact him outside of those events. you were given ufc tickets and wanted to go with someone who could explain what the hell was going on. you wanted to try out that new korean bbq place and wished to go with someone who would openly state his opinion on all of the food present, and eat it all with a smile anyway. you wanted to go to an amusement park with someone who was good at all the fair games and would insist on giving all the prizes to you. you wanted someone who would get incredibly competitive over inconsequential trivia when watching jeopardy on game night (he did grow up with his grandparents after all, and so game night was a very sacred occurrence, thank you very much). so you were interested in someone else when the rumors began. but when you started dating him - officially, that night when the both of you went to that release party for a fellow friend’s new movie - that was real. and so was everything after. but who knows? maybe gally was just treating you like some pr relationship. the reporters would have to ask him, next. and gally, who is in the car, commuting to an interview of his own yet watching this all take place live, swears viciously. you would do something like this. and despite himself, that’s why he loves you.

Going into ur Groundhog Day au tag at work was the worst idea because “but now when seb sees lewis in the paddock before the drivers’ parade, all he can think of are the sounds that lewis made while seb fucked him hard and unforgiving. sounds that lewis will never remember making.”?????? BESTIE WHAT 😭🫠 how am I supposed to function for the rest of the day??? Going to have to take a sick day because I had a heart attack over this!!! God it’s TOO GOOD, you’re a genius, you’re a visionary, I would pay good money to listen to u speak on them

anon this is SO late i'm so sorry but i had to ruminate on it... anyways let's goooo (also i've forgotten that line and i'm here again like . well that is sure something)

if this fic ever came into fruition it'd deal with the whole falling-from-grace-at-ferrari thing but it saddens and infuriates me like nothing else so. let's focus on lewis instead. but he is also connected to it...

i think i've mentioned it before that after a couple of loops, seb starts feeling lost and hopeless -- he's reliving the same nightmare of doing everything in his power and still it never being enough. it's a fitting metaphor of his last few years where he's been driving a car that falls short on the technical side, where he makes mistakes that cost him titles, where he has been taking the blame alone.

and lewis can feel the resignation rolling off him in waves, has felt it even before the race so he goes to see him. this is probably before they first sleep together. he goes to seb's hotel room and seb's slumped in a chair, picking at his nails, barely even looking up at lewis.

“i hate seeing you like this,” lewis blurts out, because he does. he misses the fire from seb's eyes.

 “like what?” seb asks, his voice exhausted.

“sad. defeated.”

and seb looks him directly in the eye and says, because he has been thinking about it for what would be weeks in normal circumstances, “our happiness is directly dependent on the other’s downfall, lewis.”

One Line One Fic

Rules: pick any 10 of your fics, scroll somewhere to the mid point, pick a line, and share it! Then tag 10 people.

Tagged by @captainjimothycarter thx <3​

1. I Feel Good (The X Files)

He was holding her close, whispering the lyrics into her ear. Squeezing her tighter, but still, lovingly he planted a kiss on her neck. Muffling the lyrics he was saying. 

2. The complication of getting a prescription refill (The X Files)

She turned to look at him, realizing he didn’t care she saw him shirtless. She shrugged saying ‘‘Well, yeah, I suspected it for a while now. I just figured you would tell me when you're ready. It didn’t feel right to ask. It’s not of my business, as long as you’re happy Mulder.’’ 

3. Jim The Fish (DW 11xRiver)

‘Sweety, you can’t just take a fish out of a pond and keep it.’ She looked at the poor creature who was clearly struggling. She gently took it from his hands and released it back into the water. The fish gladly swam away, but then returned holding his head out of the water. 

4. Take me as you found me or leave me to die (The X Files) (yes the title is super dramatic)

She knew the distance between them had been slowly growing to the size of a canyon. She hated having to push him away, but it seemed like her only option to keep herself from breaking her own heart. Like she was letting herself down slowly. 

5. He Chose Me (Steggy)

So he was surprised when she said his name. First, he was surprised she was still awake, they had been lying in bed for about half an hour. And then when the words registered in his brain, he wasn’t sure he heard her right 

6. Mulder's birthday gift (The X Files)

As per usual, when Emily spotted her parents from the playground, she ran to them and demanded a piggyback ride back to the car, which Mulder obliged. He helped her buckle up as Scully started the car. The drive home was pleasant, Emily recounted how she learned that a caterpillar could become a butterfly. And said they had to draw butterflies, so she had a new artwork for Mulder’s art gallery. 

7. Nobody warned you about me? (DW 11xRiver)

Finally, they saw it, the big blue box. Like a beacon in the sea of all the people. The Tardis was standing exactly where they left it. River thanked god it was because she was not ready to drag The Doctor around the town to look for his box. 

8. A Well-Devised Plan (The X Files)

Everything was going to perfectly until the was a knock at the door. 

9. White Christmas (Steggy)

One day he hoped to work up the courage to go up to her and tell her how he feels. But just because she doesn’t mind his staring, it doesn’t mean that she feels the same way. So for now he will be content with watching from afar. Admiring her determination, her strength, her heart, her soul, everything about her. 

10. Your smile fades in the summer (The X Files)

‘‘This is my sister I was telling you about, the smart one’’ Melissa started. ‘‘Dana, right? My name’s Fox Mulder, but everyone calls me, Mulder.’’ He put his hand out to her but she just stared at it.

Not tagging anyone but if you want to do it concider yourself tagged

had an accidental nap and decided to treat myself in this extremely warm weather to smirnoff ice in a PURPLE GLASS GOBLET 😌✨