when I just remembered how excited I was for blades of light and shadow 2 and have no idea what’s going on in the choices fandom anymore

one of these nights

"Were you even listening? How many reports, Ikora? How many times did I tell you what I saw?"

The best part of Will saying he wants forever with Mike so blatantly is that he isn't the one who brought it up, Mike was. In an act of projection he asks "What did you think? That we'd actually get to be together forever? When we're both boys?" and will says yes. He says yes, and Mike immediately regrets it.

“mikes finding himself” –Finn Wolfhard

wdym by that 🤨 because 85% of his scenes are with will and

[TENDER, EMOTIONAL MUSIC]

Also btw, there *are* different levels of fandom. You can just... watch a thing for fun with your brain mostly turned off and just absorb the plot as it happens without thinking. You can focus on only one plot and then be bored when your favorite character leaves the screen. You can just coast through a story and pick up only what the creators obviously wanted you to pick up and nothing else. You can notice the foreshadowing. You can notice the musical themes. You can notice the faces the background characters are making. You can overanalyze every second of the show and make predictions.

And none of those paths make anyone a bad fan? Or a bad consumer of stories? Because we pay attention to the stories that matter to us in ways that excite us?

I find that as a creator, I'm just thrilled when one person gets it. I create things assuming that most people won't pick up the very specific thing I put down. And that's not because I created it badly, but because people are so subjective. We all interact with stories with our own perspectives and talents and experiences. It's a good thing, that I might draw a sunrise and give it to someone who thinks it's a sunset, but it's still beautiful.

And quite frankly, I'm always so intrigued by the ideas people take away from my work that I never even thought of. The ideas that make so much sense, I really could have created it exactly for that reason, but I didn't. Someone took my work and gave it new meaning and then told me what that meaning was and it made me love my creation even more.

And I think we underestimate how often that happens with professional storytellers too. Alex Hirsch, who created Gravity Falls, often would read fan theories of his own story, that he himself admitted made a lot of sense even though he didn't think of it.

Idk, I just think everyone needs to calm down sometimes about What The Creator Intended or What This Scene Actually Means or What This Character Is Supposed To Teach Us. The intention is not the beginning or the end of all the beautiful things that can come from an art, stop limiting it by being so certain you're the only one who can be right. And don't be quick to blame someone else for not seeing what you saw.

st twitter is mean but st instagram is just flat out stupid

In the ST universe what roles would the party take on in minecraft? I know Dustin is making red stone rail systems and Max is teaching El to grief houses

THIS IS SUCH A CUTE QUESTION el and will are very much "oh my god i found a flower field" and will building in said flower field while literally all el does is try and pick every type of flower until max is like hey follow me and they steal all of mikes (2) diamonds and iron. mike and lucas always try to beat the ender dragon but one of them is always too afraid ("we have to be more prepared") to go to the nether/end (hell, even caves) so they just kind of mine around (barely) and ward off max. dustin is absolutely making rail systems to curate their own village and trying to get a villager to trade a book of mending and has will help him build structures so its not just shitty oak wood (lets be honest its dirt) houses. maybe sometimes they make little parkour maps to try and beat and they just end up fucking around and killing each other. mike goes to see what wills building and is like "heyyyy you want me to get u supplies 🥺 owo" and no matter how far along or how many supplies he has he always says yes and its Disgusting. also dustin is always bitching at mike and lucas to beat the game so he can get an elytra and theyre always like YOU DO IT THEN and hes like OKAY then steps one foot into a nether portal and immediately dies and never returns. lucas is subjected to protecting dustins cat from max. he fails. chaos. i could go on and on. they all go to find the ender portal and fail so miserably and start fighting and then will is just like "teehee i found it! :D" everytime el wants to try and make something shes like "i have. no supplies :(" and max is like sweetie thats what mike and lucas' chests are for <3 lucas is convinced herobrine is actually real. el learns theres pandas and makes it her sole mission to find one heading out with no food or bed or weapons or. dustin gives el creative mode (he owns the server) lucas makes dustin do the red stone armor stand dance thing and stands up irl copying it THE LIST GOES ON OK IM DONE wait will makes a joke that a villager is his boyfriend and mike immediately: "Send Me Your Coords" then goes there just to kill it

alright. which one of you idiots did this.

because

bravo.

Me when i opened the AO3 Will/Gareth tag to read once again the only 6 fanfics we had for 3rd time to realize it grown to 41 stories:

idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?

this user feels some kind of way about my pinned post, which i've adapted over years on this blog in response to how people interact with me and my original content. here's another part of my pinned post, which this user replied on:

Blogs I block on sight: underage, no age, likes only, lurkers, spam likes without reblogging anything, no content on blog, not currently active, new blogs, people from other platforms, people with r/196, tirffs with iv> and ∆ and ∆⊝ and |⃤⃝ and other signifiers in their description, ALL conservatives and discourse blogs. i'm not here to change your mind. dni if your heart and mind are filled with hatred and negativity. ⛔️

"where reposts go to die" is another signal to look out for from people who choose to spread hatred and negativity.

in case you missed my other post about the recent signifiers i've seen from similar hateful accounts... which is likely what caused this interaction here. tldr, bolo: 🎧🦢🌿🎀🤍🐇

again, if you can't be bothered to read my entire pinned post, or feel some way about it reading like an instruction manual, then just block me and close the page. Do NOT: like, reblog, reply, dm, ask, or follow me if you cannot abide by the simple instructions detailing my consent and personal boundaries on my own personal blog.

🚨 CONSERVATIVE ALERT 🚨

abuser: vnknowv

Happy Birthday, Rasputin!!

I keep seeing @aemiron-main & co's post about the connections between the Creels and the Wheelers and one of these days we're gonna have to have a long and detailed talk about how that plays into this Prisoners analysis I'm doing--

--because if I don't talk to someone about the fact that the primary antagonist in that movie (the movie the Duffers based their whole pitch on) is trying to get back at humanity for the things that were taken from them (a child) and how she mirrors Henry in 2.5M ways and is named (I kid you not) Holly I'm gonna lose my mind

I've tentatively tried but I don't think I'm going to be able to write the proper full Matt and Karen story I kinda want but then I remember, hey, I love rambling on tumblr about stories i desperately need but am struggling to put into proper writing words so like,

I'm just thinking of post S3, Karen slowly learning to enjoy peace, and reflect and learn to live with her past better, and of course that ties well to rebuilding her friendship with Matt now that they both know each other more, because he's struggling with stuff as well, and so they're both in each other's orbit and Foggy doesn't seem to be able to stop trying to give them occasions to be alone together with a wink that says 'i know what's going on here' and eventually it gets so much that Karen is like "oh my god Foggy I love you but please stop"

because she assumes that Foggy, in his genuine happiness to have, well, happiness back in his life - his friends, the firm, a clear purpose, is sort of trying to rebuild a past himself that was never quite right: that is, Matt and Karen in dopey love with each other. And while Karen can't deny that she used to have feelings for Matt, she's more than okay with being his friend now, and actually she's pretty sure if Matt and her fell in love with each other it would.. not end well.

and of course the discussion would sort of culminate in a moment of Karen going "wait." because they're joking about being Matt's romantic interest and it just. clicks, for her, that this is something Foggy's been thinking about. That this is something Foggy is thinking about, right now, with a gentle edge of denial and bittersweetness, and she goes "oh my god"

because All the while this was happening Matt and Karen were trying to be extra good and supportive to Foggy because Foggy and Marci broke up, and so Karen repeats "oh my god" and Foggy is like "nope. nope, whatever you're thinking, page, you're wrong --" but he looks a little panicked, now, and she's like "how LONG?" and Foggy is like "I am NOT answering that." and she's like "Foggy. Come on." and he's like "I don't know! I don't know? Few weeks maybe?" and Karen is like "Few weeks? Are you kidding me?" "Or maybe always!" Foggy says, waving his arms around. "I don't know, but I realized a few weeks ago. Maybe. If there was anything to realize. Which there isn't. You hear me, Karen? Nothing is happening here. There is no crisis of feelings or, actually, sexuality, for Foggy Nelson, happening, right now. None whatsoever."

"Oh my god," Karen says, again. "Oh my god."

(Of course, Karen being Karen, she ends up prying towards Matt. She feels utterly foolish and ridiculous, having never considered it - well, she did, she supposes, like, in the first couple of weeks of them all together, but then Matt and Foggy kept being so -- so hetero and, she assumed, she guesses, and to be fair, apparently, it WAS what was happening back then, for Foggy at least, just two bros being dudes, or whatever, but now, with all the new context--)

(Matt looks like a deer in the headlights when they finally talk about it. He laughs it off, at first, like she's being absurd, but oh, she knows Matt Murdock's tricks now, he can't FOOL HER anymore, and so she goes /oh my god/ and Matt is like "don't tell him. I don't -- I just got him back, Karen, It's not worth, it's not worth ruining that--" so painfully earnest and quiet and sad and resigned, and she's like "how..how long, matt?" and he's like "It's not -- it's not like there was, a, a big moment or anything. I just. I've always loved him.")

Karen Page decides she is most absolutely ensuring those two get together by the end of the year. It works. btw.

i just had this horrible realization that one day, stranger things will end, the show will die down, and that that means that byler fics on ao3 are gonna die down too

like, obviously- fandoms come and go, and that’s normal. but every fandom i’ve joined has changed a part of me, and ao3/fanfiction has always been my way of expressing that

i read fics when i’m upset, when i’m bored, when i’m happy, when i’m hyperfixated on something. it’s a part of my routine. i write fics to be creative, to let out emotions, to talk myself through ideas, to try new things. i use fics to connect with friends

and every time a fandom dies down, when fics stop being uploaded, it feels like that part of my life died down too

right now, i could probably bring up stranger things to most people and they’d at least have something to say. but in 20 years, who knows if people are still gonna wanna talk about it with me. it doesn’t take long for a topic to go from relevant to annoying when people think you’re stuck in the past

i’ve been part of so many dead fandoms, or shows with practically no one talking about them. and it feels so lonely. something i’m watching could change my life, make me question everything and reevaluate the way i see the world. and there’s all these characters that i love, and no one is talking about them. i go on ao3 and there’ nothing. i’m on my own

some of the fandoms i used to be really interested in, like percy jackson, are still around. i can go back to it any time i want, and it’s still there. the people come and go, as always, but the heart of it is still alive. it never left, and neither have i, and all i have to do is open ao3 or go on tumblr

but for other fandoms, like this one taiwanese drama i watched in grade 8 with my best friend on an illegal streaming website- there’s no fandom for it. the show’s hype lasted about 2 months, people talked about it, and then moved on with their lives. but i’m still here. i’m still thinking about it, and sometimes it feels like i’m the only one still thinking about it. if i want to talk about theories i have, i can’t, because there’s no one to listen. there’s no fandom. there’s nothing on ao3. there’s barely anything on tumblr, apart from a few short posts made in, like, 2015. the only thing i can do is go back and watch the show, or talk about it with my grade 8 friend, because she’s the only person that i have. and even she doesn’t talk about it much, if at all, because she’s moved on like everyone else

and i’m scared of that happening with stranger things. if everyone moves on, i’ll have to move on too, because being all alone in a fandom feels so much worse than leaving it behind

i don’t think stranger things is gonna go away completely, because of how big it is. but it’s definitely gonna be a change when the show ends, and i don’t know what to expect. i don’t know what to prepare for

stranger things honestly changed my life, and as weird as it feels to say it, so did byler. both the show, but also byler, allowed me to see a part of myself on a screen, and made me rethink everything. even when the show ends, i’ll still have the perspective change it gave me, and i’ll still see world differently. i will always be carrying the show with me wherever i go

so the thought of everyone else moving on is terrifying