#i don’t know why I still have the app on my phone tbh
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when I just remembered how excited I was for blades of light and shadow 2 and have no idea what’s going on in the choices fandom anymore
#blades of light and shadow#seriously are we ever getting a second one#it’s been almost three years#I’m an entirely different person now#i don’t know why I still have the app on my phone tbh#haven’t played it in so long#I think I stopped right after open heart finished#opening the app now is like entering a new city#what am I doing I don’t know any of these books#who are these strangers on the page#strange to think at one point this app was my entire life#it was all I thought about#I can’t even remember how old I was when I started playing it. 20?? I can’t remember
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— enhypen when they marry a fan on live to make their s/o jealous !
idol!enhypen x reader, established relationship au, fluff & no warnings.
hi guys! hope you enjoy my first work <3
♫ sunshine girl by jakob
𖠗 이희승 | lee heeseung.
oh gosh
definitely would tease you but at the same time shower you in affection bc he just finds it so so cute that you’re jealous over something like this AAAAA
you’d probably be sitting in the corner of the room while he was on live, reading comments.
at first, even, you’d probably be studying rather than paying that much attention to your boyfriend
but your ears perk up at your boyfriend reading a rather concerning comment
“heeseung will you marry me for ten seconds?”
he lets out a giggle.
and slightly glances at your expression where you’re sitting with a raised brow.
he smiles back at the camera and starts counting down from ten.
you would have scoffed if not for the fear that the fans would hear
as soon as the live ended, you look at him with straight face
“what is it, love?” you almost throw your notepad at the smirk on his lips
“love?” you question. “shouldn’t you be calling your wife that?”
he’d probably walk over to you and wrap his arms around your crossed arms and place a kiss on your forehead :(
“i divorced them bc of how cute you are”
𖠗 박종성 | park jongseong.
i don’t think jay would ever think to do something like this to his beloved himself
he was on live with jungwon and niki who read the comment “jay hyung, a fan asked if you’d marry them for ten seconds”
jay would be hesitant but after seeing a playful expression on his two younger members faces, something irked him to play along
he knew you were at home watching so he suddenly thought about how fun it would be
“sure!” he smiles and counts down from ten.
now, when he gets home he expects to be questioned on why on earth he would agree to that
but instead
hes punished with silent treatment
oh boy does he work for you to give him attention
“y/n, it wasn’t even me! jungwon and niki read it out! if i saw it i wouldn’t have even read it!”
can’t sleep if you don’t talk to him
if you talk to him but you’re still evidently mad, hes gonna cling onto you like a koala when he sleeps
meaning you’re stuck there until you show him some love bc hes never gonna do smth like this again
will probably tell of jungwon and niki for no reason 😭
𖠗 심재윤 | sim jaeyun.
sigh
the type to say “10 seconds?? i’ll marry you for way longer” with a wink or something
or even something like “you only wanna marry me for 10 seconds? that’s a shame, i won’t even be able to give u what u deserve”
deadass would say smth cheesy you can’t fight me on this one and it would be merely for the reason that he knows you’re eventually gonna see it even if you arent rn
and that’s exactly what happens
you probably won’t have seen it for like the first day but since you’re so obsessed with your bf, you follow his name hashtag on like every social media platform
so when a certain video in particular is trending on every single one of those apps, you know it’s bad. you know who you’re dating after all
at this point, jake doesn’t even remember what he said so when you angrily go over to his dorms, phone in hand and ready to scold him, he’s like “when did i even do that?” which only makes you more mad
then when he realises omg he gets so excited like “AAA i’ve been waiting for this”
and then just smothers you in kisses and hugs bc you’re too adorable and no one else compares
*crying* but so are you bc you’re wondering how many more fans he’s gonna flirt with for the rest of your lives together
𖠗 박성훈 | park sunghoon.
this mf omggggg
would def do it with the hopes that you’ll just be so cute with him afterwards so he could just tease you
and tbf that’s what he ends up getting so for him it’s like a success
not only would he agree to marrying them but tbh i think sunghoon would do a bit more
like hugging the camera, bragging about his looks knowing the fans would comment all sorts of things etc
he would just do the most for no reason.
“aww is my baby jealous over a ten second relationship with a fan who i’ve never met? that’s so cute” *cheek pinch*
you’d whack away his hand and pout
“that’s all it took for you to marry someone else :(”
he laughs at all your responses but part of him actually feels bad
he gives you a bit of secret reassurance like before you go to sleep, he’ll cuddle you a bit tighter and say sweet things to you
“you’re so perfect, baby, i’m so lucky to have you.” “i don’t know what i’d do without you, my cute baby”
lots of cheek kisses and pinches
LORDDDD 🙏
soft hoon unleashes in the night
in the day he goes back to “which fan should i let have me for today” to which you throw a pillow at him for
#enhypen#enha scenarios#enhypen heeseung#enhypen jay#enhypen jake#enhypen sunghoon#lee heeseung#jay park#jake sim#park sunghoon#enha fics#enhypen imagines#enhypen reactions#enhypen fluff#enha fluff#enha drabbles#enha imagines#heeseung imagines#jay park imagines#jake sim imagines#park sunghoon imagines#sunghoon imagines
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𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎..? #2 ⋆ Charles Leclerc
pairing: charles leclerc x reader
summary: in which the reader does not recognise the famous Monegasque Formula 1 driver; the very same one that was about to change her perspective on the sport and also her life.
— you can read part 1 & 3 here! : #1 #3
A/N: thank you for all the love on part 1! here’s a part 2!! tbh I got carried away… let me know if i should do a part 3? 🤭
— Warning(s): poorly translated french.
"Will there be a next time?"
You were sitting on the balcony, enjoying the Monaco sun with a book in hand and a cup of ice cold sparkling water on the table.
“Ding!” Your phone rings but you ignored it.
“Ding! Ding! Ding!” Your phone goes off like crazy.
You huffed and place your book down, wondering who the hell would be spamming you at this time of day. It was literally 9 in the morning.
charles_leclerc started following you.
charles_leclerc liked your story.
charles_leclerc liked your post.
charles_leclerc liked your post.
Your eyes widened. You blinked a few times to make sure this was real. Why.. and how the hell did he find your Instagram account?
“Em!” You called out. No response.
“Emma! EMMA!”
“WHAT!” She finally responds and you see her head peek through her room door.
You walked over to her and said nothing, instead just showing her the notification. Her mouth went agape and you could see her jaw almost physically touch the floor.
“Wh-what are you waiting for? Follow him back!”
“What?! Why? I don’t even like F1!”
“Doesn’t matter! He’s hot. J-just do it!”
“Okay okay!”
You decided to follow him back and quickly exit the app, locking your phone.
Your phone dings once again.
charles_leclerc sent you a message.
Shit shit shit!
You gasped.
“Emma. He. Sent. Me. A. DM!”
Emma gasps in response. She quickly rushes over to your side. She couldn’t believe her eyes.
“Oh. My. God.”
Silence falls between the two of you as you both stood frozen in the living room trying to process the fact that the Charles Marc Hervé Perceval Leclerc just sent you a DM.
“Well reply him then! Good god.”
“Last time I was this nervous was when I kissed Andre.”
Emma whips her head towards you, “Wh- you kissed Andre?! When?! How come I don’t know about that?” She shakes her head, “Eh! That’s not the point. Ch-Charles! Reply him!”
You quickly type out a response.
You bite your fingernails out of nervousness waiting for his reply.
“Ding!” Goes your phone.
He sure is a fast replier.
You continued texting him. Long story short, he’s asking you out for brunch. You told Emma about your plans and she jumps with joy, clapping her hands in excitement.
“Ooh someone’s going on a date with Lord Percevallll,” She teases.
“It’s not a date Emma!”
“Mmhmm. Sure.” She smirks at you as she walks away.
You rolled your eyes in response.
You looked at the time, luckily you still had a few hours to prepare before meeting him. And like you always do, you went to the balcony to continue reading your book.
You tried your best to read, but you just couldn’t. You were nervous to say the least, about meeting a very famous Formula 1 driver. God, everyone here adores him. He is everyone’s favourite. Even the goddamn Prince loves him…
You decided to take and a nap, hoping it would help you to relax and not think about it too much. So, you did just that.
Your sleep got disturbed to the sound of Emma calling and shaking you vigorously.
“Wake up! Y/N! WAKE UP!”
“What!”
“Did you forget about brunch? Hurry up and get your ass ready!” She says as she tosses you your towel. You looked at your phone. 1:10pm.
“Merde! I’m late!” You quickly got off your bed and headed straight for the shower.
You got dressed in a simple tank top with high waisted jeans, sprayed on some perfume and accessorised with a necklace and a few rings. You put on your shoes and quickly left the house.
“Have fun! And don’t forget to use protection!” Emma shouts as she closes the door behind her.
You quietly laughed to yourself. It’s just brunch, nothing else.
As soon as you exit your building, you were greeted by a familiar figure. He was standing next to his car, leaning on it. The both of you exchanged smiles as soon as you made eye contact with one another.
Charles was wearing a black tee with light wash jeans.
“So sorry I’m late! I took a nap and ended up oversleeping I-“
He cuts you off. “Mon amour, it’s okay. You’re here now. More than happy to see you.”
Does he call every girl he meets mon amour?
You blush at the nickname. Why were you blushing? God help me please.
You sighed in relief, “Thank you for waiting.”
He smiles softly, “Brunch?”
“Brunch.” You smiled back at him.
He brought you to L’Intempo, which was situated in a hotel by the sea. Of course, he requested for the outdoor seating.
Whilst waiting for your food to be ready, you chit chatted with him. He told you all about his life, how he got into F1 and his career.
“I’ve talked so much about myself. Now you!”
“I just recently moved to Monaco. It’s always been the country of my dreams so I decided to study here! I’m studying Neurosciences in Paris, so it’s nearby!”
“Neuroscience? Like… you study brains?”
You chuckled, “Kinda.. but not really. Ah well, you get the idea. Brains.”
He laughs, “Brains.” The both of you laugh. “Why didn’t you just stay in Paris? Everyone wants to go to Paris.”
“Monaco is smaller. And everyone here is crazy rich so who knows, I might end up marrying a rich man. Won’t have to work so hard, y’know.” You joked.
He laughs again, “Really? Who told you that? Google?”
You nodded and he laughs again, “Yeah, who knows. You may be right.” He smiles.
Your food finally came. You took a pic before eating.
@yourusername posted on their story.
Charles offered you to taste some of his food and even fed you some, and you did the same.
The air was filled with your chatter and laughter and soon enough everything was just background noise.
It felt like you’ve been friends with Charles for so long; conversations flowed easily and there was no awkwardness between the two of you.
After brunch however, he decided to drive you around Monaco since you’ve never properly seen the city. He even drove on the F1 track; the chicanes and road markings were still fairly visible.
You sat quietly in the car, admiring the views of the city. It was one thing to explore Monaco with Emma, but with Charles? It was different; he grew up here so he knew spots tourists didn’t know.
Last but not least, he brought you to the Prince of Monaco’s automobile collection. You wondered why he was so eager to show you a collection that wasn’t his but as soon as you entered the building you understood why. There were many cars, but one car stood out in particular.
You shot him a look. “Ah so this is why you were so excited to bring me here?”
He smiles, “Yes! Look, it’s my car.” He gleams with excitement. “I had my first victory and pole position with this!” He explains. Although you had zero interest in Formula 1, hearing his excitement when he was explaining to you about his car was heartwarming. And so, you listened despite not knowing anything about F1.
You smiled as he was explaining, it was cute. You’ve never seen someone so proud of their achievements.
“That’s so cool! So you gave it to the Prince?”
He nods. “I know it’s in good hands so I’m okay with that.”
It was around 630ish when the “date” (can you call it that?) was over. He drops you off in front of your apartment building. When you wanted to exit the car, you realised Charles was rushing over to your side to open the door for you.
“When you’re with me you don’t open doors! I’ll do it.”He says and you laugh at his antics.
He even walked you to your door.
“I’m kinda sad this is over.” He says.
“Well… me too. I had fun.” You smiled.
He smiles back, “Moi aussi. me too. He pauses. “Y aura-t-il une prochaine fois? Will there be a next time?” He asks.
“Why? Voulez vous qu’il y ait une prochaine fois? Do you want there to be a next time? ”
“Oui. Yes." He shyly admits.
“D’accord. Okay. I’ll see you next time then, Lord Perceval.” You teased him with the nickname. “Text me when you’re homed?”
He chuckles. “D’accord.” He walks off and you take out your keys to unlock the front door, but suddenly you were stopped halfway.
“Here,” He passes you his phone, it was opened to his number pad. “I almost forgot.”
You laughed and keyed in your number. “Ok, I’ll go now.” He waves goodbye and leaves.
You entered your apartment to be greeted by Emma cooking dinner.
“Wow finally. Thought you’d never come home! So, how’s the date?”
“It’s not a date!” You exclaimed.
Emma laughs at your reaction, “Okay, how’s brunch that went on for 5 hours?” She corrects herself.
“Good, we-“ You were interrupted by your phone ringing. It was an unknown number. You answered it, only to be greeted by a familiar voice.
“Hello, it’s Charles. I’m on my way home.”
You chuckled, “Hello, Charles. Are you driving and calling me at the same time?”
“Ye- No! I’m… not.” He lies. “Okay, I am. I just wanted to hear your voice, that’s all.”
You blushed, “Charles… it’s dangerous! Just call me when you’re home okay?”
You hear him giggle, “Okay mon amour. I’ll call you in 10.”
“I’ll be waiting for you,” The line ends.
“I’ll be waiting for youuu,” Emma mocks you, and you cringed, covering your face, asking her to stop. She just replies with laughter. “Glad you had fun with Mr F1 driver. Your wag era is coming soon I can smell it!” She jokes.
“Oh god,” You laughed, walking away to the bathroom to take a shower.
#charles leclerc x reader#f1 x you#f1 imagines#charles leclerc x y/n#charles leclerc imagine#charles leclerc#deltaromeo3#aya2#and you are..? 2
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okay, i promised an explanation and i won’t go into too many details because honestly i’m still kind of a mess and there’s a lot we don’t know yet and everything but-- 2 weeks ago out of nowhere, in the middle of the night at 6am cops showed up at our home and raided our apartment and stuck around up until 2pm just making a mess of the whole place and taking photos and whatever, they broke the downstairs front door (which we now have to pay to replace off our own money), made an absolute mess of every room in the apartment, took every electronic device except our phones (and that’s only because i started crying about having all my healthcare info on an app and how i was going to lose all my appointments, and i think they felt bad for us?) and detained my father. they have barely given us information on what he’s accused of, they’re still nowhere near investigating those devices they took so they won’t give them back to us, and we have no freaking idea if or when my dad is coming back, because again, they’re not giving us a lot of information. on top of that my dad is pretty old, he's 65, he was supposed to have surgery this month because he can’t see very well from one eye (his workplace was paying for it) and he kinda can’t hear very well from one ear too, even though he refuses to accept it, and he’s been on anxiety medication for a while, so i’m kind of scared of what will happen to him without actual medical care or a nice place to sleep every night?? i don’t know. i truly don't.
now, this as you can imagine is traumatizing enough as it was, and it continues to be, but on top of that my dad was pretty much the only person with a stable job and a concistent income in this family, so now that he’s detained and we literally have no idea when he’ll come back, me and my mom got basically left in the dark. and even if he comes back, like, i don’t know, next week? i’m pretty sure he’ll get fired because he’s been missing work for 2 weeks now. i have some money that i saved from the stuff you guys send me, my mom has some money she makes, but it’s... obviously not enough, and this is a really stressful situation to be in, obviously, i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemies tbh.
so... i don’t know. i can’t promise i’ll post anything new because i’m limited to mobile for god knows how long, that’s why i’ve been reposting stuff. and if you want to help, if you enjoy the blog, if you have anything to spare, that would really be helpful. i know this sounds insane what happened, and trust me it still doesn’t feel real sometimes?? like i’m going to wake up and it'll be a bad dream? i don’t know. as always, since i’m from latin america, anything helps. literally even the smallest amount of money helps. sorry this post is so long and so trauma dump-y, but i said i’d explain and i need help more than ever, this blog is basically the only semi-stable thing i have income wise. if anyone wants me to tag this with any trigger warning specifically, let me know, i wouldn’t know what to tag this myself.
anyway, i have my kofi account that i link in every post i make here: https://ko-fi.com/fashionrunways and my redbubble account: https://www.redbubble.com/people/dinah-lance/shop if you’d want to buy something instead. and as always thanks for loving this blog and for always helping us, i know it doesn't seem like it matters sometimes, but it does to me 💖
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Innocent?
Warning- smut, handjob, fingering, cam
MDNI!
Not proofread so don’t mind any mistakes plz
Summary: you thought going through your innocent best friends phone was a good idea.
A/n: this is my first time writing smut so have mercy on me lol. But I hope you enjoy the story.
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You were sitting on seungmins couch watching a baseball game with him. That one of the few things you guys have in common. Seungmin and you kept yelling at the tv when your team was losing or not moving fast enough.
“ bro I don’t know what is going on with them today” you sigh
“ I agree they acting like this game isn’t getting into the championship.”
“ well I can see that they are gonna lose this game so I mine as well take a quick shower so we can cuddle together” seungmin said excitedly.
He hugged you and went his room to take his shower. You heard the shower turn on and gate when you knew he was in the shower.
You turned to the left and saw his phone. That’s when you got the idea to go through his phone.
‘What could he possibly have on his phone he is so innocent’ you thought.
Luckily for you knew his passcode, that’s how close you guys were to each other.
You first went to his camera Roll which was nothing but pictures of cute dogs ‘look at him having pictures of his family’, him, you, family,and his friends.
Then you got the idea to go to screen time because that shows what he apps mostly goes on.
You were surprised when you saw ONLY FANS ON his most used app.
‘ OH MY GOD WHY DOES HE HAVE ONLY FANS’ you thought.
You took a breather to calm down your heart. ‘ maybe he watches it’ you thought quickly.
You pressed on the app and went to the home center. ( I don’t know how only fans works tbh so I don’t know how to explain the layout lol)
That’s when you saw videos of a boy with his dick out. ‘ omg I didn’t know seungmin was into this type of stuff’ you screamed your head.
You clicked on the video and heard moans not just any moans SEUNMIN’S MOANS.
‘ oh my god seungmin makes porn videos!’ That’s when you heard the water stop. You swiped up and closed out the app.
You were in shock but you had to act normal so he didn’t ask you any questions.
You heard the door open and heard footsteps coming toward the couch. “So did they win y/ninne”. You didn’t respond bc you were still thinking about his only fan’s account and his duck that you saw by accident. It didn’t make it any better that seungmin put his cute ass face in yours to get your attention. “Y/n, did they win?” Seungmin asked again. “ No, they suck”
“ weeelll we can watch a drama and cuddle” he said
“ yeah sure” you said quietly.
Seungmin was a little confused on why your mood changed but he didn’t question you.
You guys spooned and watched ____ together. You felt like you were gonna die of if you didn’t tell him what you saw and also you couldn’t stop thinking about dick up under you.
“ Seungmin I saw your only fans video because I went through your phone don’t be mad at me” you said very quickly.
Seungmin sat up looked you and you did the same.
“ y- you did what” he says embarrassed
“ you heard me min and I said don’t be mad” you say quietly.
“ y/n I’m not mad at you I’m just surprised” he assured you.
“ okay that’s good” you say relived.
“ do you have any questions” he teased while crawling his fingers on your body.
You turned red and did the same to him.
“ what made you do it?” You asked him.
“I needed some extra money for like my college tuition so I thought why not only fans. I was like I’m making money and …..pleasuring myself. So why not.” He replied
“ respectable” you say.
“ can I help you make one?” you say out the blue.
Seungmin thought you were joking until he saw how serious you were.
“ your down for that” he asked you In surprise.
“ yeah why not we could do one right now if you want?” You asked
“ are you really okay with this y/n” he questions.
“ you sound like your the one that doesn’t want to do it and if you don’t I’m fine with it” you say.
“No it’s not that of course I want to do it I’m just making sure you want to do it that’s all”
“ so where do you do it?” You ask.
“ in my bedroom” he replies
“ so what are you waiting for”
You and seungmin walk to his room. You were little anxious to do it but you low key wanted to hear seungmins moans again.
When y’all got in the bed you waiting for seungmin to do his little set up.
Seungmin put his phone on a tripod so it can get a good angle of his crotch area. Your heart was beating so fast right now that you were actually in the moment of doing this to him.
Without warning he took off his pants and was just there in his underwear.
You were staring at him and he was staring at you.
Y’all both said “can I ki—”
Next thing you knew it your lips was on his and you guys were kissing like it was the end of the world. You noticed how his lips were so soft how you imagined and how he tasted liked the candy he had earlier.
Seungmin suddenly pulled away and said “ you know how long I have been waiting for this to happen y/n”.
“ me neither min, your stupid ass never took the hints I gave you” you laugh.
“ I knew you would be flirting but I just thought you were playing with me” he shyly.
“ Minnie I would never play with you, your literally boyfriend coded” you assured him.
You were sitting in his lap with your little black shorts and your oversized sweater. You decided to take it off since you were getting all hot from kissing seungmin. While you were taking off your sweater you flashed seungmin on purpose.
“Y/n you accidentally showed your tits” he said shyly.
“ I know” you said while putting your lips back on his.
You started to grind him which caused him to moan so you took that opportunity to slip your tongue in. Seungmin was practically falling apart under you at this point and you weren’t even doing much.
This time you pulled away and asked him “ Min have you done this before”
“ no” he replies shyly but put his lips on yours so you don’t ask anymore questions.
You feel him get hard so you ask him “ should we start now?”
“Yeah”
“ I’ll start the video when your ready min”
You were behind his phone to get ready to start the video. You then saw his dick sprink free from his underwear. When you saw it you were surprised it was like the prettiest dick you have ever seen, it was a perfect one in other words. You were staring and seungmin caught you.
“ you like what you see?” he laughed
“ yeah infact I do” you tell him.
“You can start recording now y/ninne”
“ kk”
You start recording and starting to feel excited. You climb the bed to get to him. You look at him for confirmation to start and He nodded for you to start.
You wrapped your hand around his veins cock and started pumping up and down slowly.
“ fuck baby” seungmin whined.
You started to get wet by him saying that to you like that. You add another hand to rub his slit. This time seungmin whimpered really loud. That made your stomach turn. What you really wanted to do is push him down and ride him forever but you couldn’t cause this stupid video y’all were recording.
At this point your underwear was practically damp. You craved more of his moans so you pumped your hands faster. he let out the most vocal moan ever. You looked at him and saw his face get red and you slightly laughed which caused you to go slow. But that caused seungmin to whine. You went back to the pace.
You saw seungmin bucking his hip up so that let you knew he was close. So you went squeezed tighter and payed more attention to circled his slit. He let out a whimper and came all over your hands.
You looked at him and saw him looking practically fucked out. You stopped recording and went to the bathroom to wash your hands. You looked at your face in the mirror and then took tissue to clean up seungmin and the mess made.
You saw seungmin still sitting there with his white shirt.
“ y/n I just posted the video” he told you.
“ do you have a lot of fans on the app min” you ask him.
“ yeah you could say I get like 100k a month” he says shyly.
“ well I’m gonna clean you up now min” you saw while getting your tissues ready. You drag the tissue up and down his veiny cock to clean the cum up off of him. He breathes heavy when he feels you clean him up.
When you finally finished cleaning up him up he was hard again.
“ do you wanna make another video?” You ask him.
“ no y/ninne I wanna make you feel good this time don’t worry about me” he replied softly.
“ min you don’t have-“ you were cut off by seungmin saying “ I want to do it and plus I can practically smell you” He says. You hide your face in your hand because your body literally told on you but you wanted to be touched anyway.
“ if you insist, but first put on a show or something I hate the quiet ” you say.
Seungmin was quick grabbed the remote and put a random show on. While he did this you took your black shorts off but kept your underwear on.
“I’ll guide you since never done this before, okay”
“ okay y/ninne”
You grabbed his fingers (specifically his index finger and middle finger) and put them on your clit. You moaned at the contact from it.
“ y/ninnie your really wet is this normal?” He questions in concern. You laugh at this ‘ he acts like he’s all innocent’ you thought.
“ yes it’s normal, it just shows that you turned me on” you tell him. He nods.
You take his fingers and rub them in circles on your clit.
“ min you can continue doing this motion it feels nice” you tell him.
You were never the vocal type when getting pleasure so if it felt good you would just make low moans. While Seungmin played with your clit you sent often low moans.
Suddenly Seungmin stops and asks “ y/n am I not doing good job I can do better just tell me what to do” he says in a panicky tone.
“No your doing fine I’m just not a very vocal person don’t worry” you tell him.
“ well can you make noise for me please.” he whines.
“ sure, just for you” you told him.
End
#bang chan#hyunjin#lee felix series#felix angst#changbin#lee know#stray kids jisung#stray kids#jeongin#txt#seungmin smut#seungmin#seungmin fluff#skz smut
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Chocolate and Cuddles
Hi everyone! Here is a very cute piece I wrote while I was on my period and I was suffering a lot because of it so… needed some cute fluff to make myself feel better.
So here comes a very silly cute piece. You’re welcome. Tell me if you like it!
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Pairing: Ben Barnes x Reader
Warnings: too fluffy
Summary: You’re on your period, and having a rough day. Luckily, your boyfriend is here to help.
Word Count: 1500
At long last you’re home!
You throw your shoes across the hall of your home, and leave your jacket to lie on the ground when it falls down from the coat rack. You’re too tired to pick it up. Anyway, it doesn’t sound like a good idea to bend over; right now, your head spins too much for that.
Your home is quiet, it’s still early. Ben is busy rehearsing for a role, you don’t expect him to come home soon.
You heave a sigh as you grab some heating pads in one of the cupboards in your kitchen. You pick up your warmest blanket too, some medication and a bit of water, and you finally let yourself fall down on your couch. You turn on the tv, not caring about what’s on the screen. You settle more comfortably, reaching for your phone to scroll on your social media while you press the hot pad against your lower stomach. The heat soothes the pain a little bit, but you still feel terrible. When you start feeling dizzy again, you lie down on the sofa, hoping the wave of nausea will pass soon.
Your period are nasty this month, you’re not sure why. You’re a few days late, because of stress, you guess it must be the reason behind it. No matter why though, all you know is that you’re going to have a rough week…
Luckily, it’s Friday, you can spend the weekend resting. You know Ben has planned to go on a hike on Sunday, but he’ll have to go without you, because given how your legs are shaking right now, you’re not even certain to be able to get up from your couch at all.
A notification appears on the top of the screen on your phone, and you can’t refrain a smile as you read Ben’s name.
You open the app and read his short text.
We’ve just finished rehearsing, and might go for a drink in a pub nearby. Don’t wait for me to eat dinner.
You wait for a moment, noticing that Ben is still writing another text.
How has your day been, my darling?
You smile at the pet name, but bit your lip as you hesitate. You don’t want him to worry about you, he seems to be having a nice time with his colleagues. But then again, you can’t lie to him. And it always feels good to complain about your period, so…
Have fun with your colleagues! But if you get drunk on Tequila without me I’ll be upset!
You add a crazy emoji before pressing on the send button. You start a second text right away.
Tbh, I’m on my period, and I am not having fun at all right now. I’ll be fine, though.
You only have to wait for a minute to get a response.
Are you very sick? Bad month?
You nod your head as you give him a positive answer. You’re surprised by the next text though.
Don’t cook dinner, I’ll get you something on my way home.
You send him a couple of red hearts and kissing emojis as a response, sighing in contentment.
Your boyfriend truly is the best…
You’ve started to doze off, but can’t properly fall asleep because of your painful stomach. You’re exhausted though… You reckon that you could use some rest.
You’re surprised when you recognize the sound of keys unlocking the front door. You open your eyes again, but the light coming in from the window in your living room is still bright, barely golden at all. You check the time on your phone. It’s barely seven… Ben should be in a pub right now…
You sit up, peering over the edge of the sofa to look at the newcomer. But indeed, it is your boyfriend who is walking inside the room. He’s carrying a large pizza box and a paper bag that seems full of items, considering the way he holds it against his chest. He shoots you a bright smile as he sees you.
“Hello, darling! How are you feeling?” he asks, dropping the pizza box and the bag on the counter separating your living room and your kitchen.
“Hi. Hmm… I’m not great, honestly,” you admit, your voice weaker than usual. “But I thought you were going to the pub…”
“You’re sick, of course I didn’t go,” he interrupts you, shaking his head as if you’re being the silliest person on Earth.
He finally walks around the sofa to give you a tender kiss. You instantly feel a little less terrible.
“You look very tired,” he states, taking your face in his hands and running his thumbs across the dark marks under your eyes.
“I feel like shit,” you confirmed, pouting.
He notices the bump of the heating pad under the blanket, and frowns.
“That bad?” he asks, knowing you generally manage without using these. It’s a sign your period are rough this month.
“Yeah… They’re mean this month. More than usual.”
He kisses your temple, rubbing soothingly your back for a moment, before standing straighter again.
“Well, good thing that I bought you everything you’ll need then.”
“You did? What did you get?” you ask, half-amused and half-surprised.
He walks back to the counter, and opens the brown bag full of groceries he’s bought for you.
“I’ve got some… painkillers, ice cream, your favourite chocolate…”
As he lists every item, he takes them out of the bag and sets them down on the counter to show you everything.
Meanwhile, you are trying to hide the fact that you’re on the verge of tears.
Bloody period making you emotional all the bloody time…
“I also got you some extra pads, ‘cause I wasn’t sure whether or not you had enough.”
You recognise the hygienic products you always use, and you fall in love a little bit more with Ben, if that is even possible, for knowing such a detail about you.
“I got you crisps, your favourite candies… and some more of your favourite chocolate. And obviously some pizza for dinner.”
He shoots you a smile.
“Do you need anything else, my darling?”
You shake your head, trying to hide how touched you are by his behaviour.
“No, that’s pretty perfect.”
“Do you want me to run you a bath? It might help with the pain.”
But you shake your head.
“No, thank you. I’m good on the sofa.”
“Cuddles?”
You grin, nodding and extending your open arms in a grabbing gesture. He chuckles, hurrying to settle on the couch with you. He lets you lie down on his chest, holding you close. When the heating pad on your stomach starts slipping down as you move to get comfortable, he grabs it before it would fall, places it back at the perfect spot, and holds it there. You smile tenderly at him, intertwining your fingers together above the warm surface.
“Thank you for taking such good care of me, honey” you whisper, turning your head enough to kiss his jaw.
“No need to thank me for that, darling. It’s the least I can do.”
“But you should have gone with your colleagues…”
“Absolutely not, what are you talking about? You’re feeling sick, you need me here. Besides, I know you. You’re extra-cuddly on your period.”
You laugh, letting him kiss your forehead several times.
“I can hardly deny that.”
He hums in appreciation against your skin.
“It’s alright, you’re not feeling well. You need comfort right now. I would be a very shitty boyfriend if I didn’t take care of you,” he adds, his thumb tenderly rubbing the back of your hand.
“You’re the best. I love you,” you whisper into his neck, making goosebumps spread across his skin.
“I love you too.”
“How was your day, honey?”
He kisses you before answering your question, and you spend a rather long while like this, lying together on the sofa and chatting about your day.
Later on, you have dinner together, and you’re not surprised that Ben has bought your favourite pizza for tonight. He keeps on rubbing the small of your back while you talk and laugh throughout the meal, the gesture gentle and soothing, but he also does this because he knows the spot gets painful during your period. You feel your muscles relaxing under his touch, the pain subsiding a little bit, and you’re grateful for it. But then, you’re grateful for everything he’s doing tonight…
You end the evening cuddling on the sofa, under three blankets, heating pads on your stomach and eating chocolate and candies all evening while watching some stupid rom-com on TV. And all the while you can tell that Ben is being extra tender with you, telling you he loves you even more than he usually does, kissing you all the time. He tries to make you laugh to raise your spirit, and it works.
And if it’s not enough to make your period disappear, he sure is helping you feeling better.
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niyaaaa do u have any tips for people who wanna get into fic writing? 👀
i don’t really get how the whole posting format for fics works on here tbh 😭 and like your info area it’s so cool
YEAH OFC!! btw dm me your username so i can follow and support you <3
tip 1- the posting format isnt that hard to get used to actually its just you create a tumblr text post and then copy and paste your fic onto it, add the tags and stuff then post it. if you want to add banners, headers and stuff to make it look better then go ahead, just add images to the text post
tip 2- the info area is the same as above, just add pictures of your choice etc to the text post, add your information, name, age, fav things etc and then to link posts to your post, highlight where u want the link to go, then copy the link of the post u want linked then press the hyperlink that looks like two chains linked together when you highlight the text if that makes sense? sounds like a lot but its rlly not i promise haha
tip 3- always type your fics on other apps like word or google docs since they have an auto save feature!! i dont reccomend typing your fics on tumblr since one if the app crashes, it doesn't automatically save your work so everything you wrote will get deleted (some versions of tumblr do have autosave, my laptop has it but my phone and iPad doesn't, so i dont rely on it)
tip 4- idk if you want tips on actual fic writing or just how to get your fics onto tumblr but ill help you with that anyway. with me when i write fics i always imagine it out in my head. theres some of my fics where i just went with the flow and wrote wgatever came to mind and those are the fics i hate the most because they dont rlly make sense to me. theyre always so random and it just seems rushed and bad.
i picture my fics like a scene in my head and whatever i want the character to do, think, say or feel i write that shit down asap. i use other online sources to help get more descriptive like the emotion theasurus <- honestly one of my favourite things to use ever, they have so much body language to use for every emotion in the damn book
dialogue is also something i find difficult. i've improved i personally feel like but its still hard for me especially if im writing a new character. i never want to make the character seem OOC so i do lots of research before hand. i normally use the wiki to read up on a characters personality.
for example i'll use ran for this since he's like 99% of my account lmao. in the wiki, he's described as "naturally whimsical toward others which makes him inscrutable" though ran doesnt have many scenes in the manga (which i hate bc i love him sm) its impossible to actually write him down to a tee so i use that naturally whimsical description to make him playful, charismatic, carefree etc, going off what little information i have with him.
getting a characters personality down is what can make or break a dialogue. for me when im reading a fic of a character and their dialogue is so OOC it puts me off and i dont even wanna read. so i apply my same fic icks to myself and think if I don't like seeing this and that in a fic, why would I incorporate those in my fics and have ppl get put off it if they have the same fic icks as me?
hope that makes sense!!
tip 5- dont rush yourself at all. i used to rush a few of my fics and i just ended up hating it so much after and fought bck the urge to delete them so many times but then i'd see people's comments and realise i was being too harsh on myself. i'd keep them up but i'd just hate seeing them get attention.
rushing only makes you hate your work and the quality of your work will decline if you are not in the right headspace.
thats also why i have the don't rush me thing in my rules because not only is it annoying to see people constantly asking for updates, it also makes me mad because i know i'll just put out a piece of garbage if i did rush.
also another tip don't give yourself deadlines!! if you know your writing consistency can be a little sloppy, don't tell your followers that you're going to upload every so and so day. if something happens and you miss the deadline, you'll feel bad and rush something out and most times out of ten, a rushed fic doesn't do well. so take your time and don't rush.
tip 6- dont listen to what other people say or feel obligated to write something you don't wanna. establish your boundaries!! for example, from day one i started this blog i said im accepting requests but i will not write anything to do with non-con, incest or minors. i made sure that was out there so i wouldn't feel uncomforable writing anything i wasn't comfy with.
there are people on this app that may like your writing and request you to write something for them. you are not obligated to write anything for anyone! don't feel like you have to just because they asked nicely.
if you want to accept requests you can im not saying you shouldn't, im saying don't feel like you have to. you always have a choice. its your blog.
tip 7- remember this isn't a job. you're allowed to take breaks, allowed to have a personal life. don't feel like you need to be updating every day. i used to think i was obligated to be uploading consistently at least every week because i was obsesssed with engagement and seeing peoples comments and was scared if i took a break ppl will unfollow. now i honestly don't care. i'm not active as much as i used to because of school and that's fine! if ppl want to leave, let them. don't feel like you're forced to keep being active in order to keep your follower count stable.
tip 8- this app can get really toxic sometimes. luckily enough i've only had one toxic anon in my inbox and i've been on this app for a year. some people have so many, some ppl get harrassed etc. if that happens to you just be prepared since there's no actual way to find out who's behind anons. you can turn off your anon options which means if ppl want to inbox you something then their account will be showing. some people arent comfortable with that and that's fine! i keep mine on because i want people to feel comfortable on my page.
just remember though if you ever feel like this app is getting overwhelming take breaks! for the sake of your mental health take breaks. i know so many writers on here that took breaks and came back healthier and stronger.
i feel like this tip goes for social media in general. as much as i love social media im aware how unhealthy it is. breaks are so important for you. remember that.
i can't think of anymore tips right now but if i have some more i will edit the post and add it on.
if u have anymore questions about the tumblr posting format dm me and ill help you out :))
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hi.
well… after being stalked and harassed for the past couple of months, i am finally back!! stay tuned lol i got some fics lined up for y’all 😁
anyway if you read that first line and thought to yourself “WTF?!?”, here is the full story for my curious readers (just a warning, it’s long and i rant a lot):
a couple of months ago, i started getting tagged by random accs on tiktok and insta that posted vids accusing me of the most random and heinous shit. honestly, it just baffled me the first time i saw them bc they made absolutely no sense whatsoever.
when the first ones popped up, i just blocked them thinking it was a random troll and went on with my life.
but then i kept getting spammed by other accs with new posts where they not only involved me but also my friends, and accused us as a friend group of being horrible ppl.
i had enough (i can’t even remember how many accs i blocked) and deleted ALL my social media apps for a while (i.e. more than a couple of months, oops) and basically isolated myself from ppl so that i could focus on other things to distract me (i ended up making daily exercise a habit so ig that’s one good thing that’s come out of this lol, i also rewatched all the marvel movies in timeline order hehe). i wish i continued writing so i could’ve at least had more content to share by now, but i was feeling so negative and pissed that i couldn’t even bring myself to write anything (i even uninstalled notion from my phone and that’s where i keep all my drafts and fic ideas)
i only found out the full situation less than a week ago when i reinstalled tiktok bc i missed it, only to find more burner accs harassing me. i finally had enough so i reinstalled insta to rant about it on my spam acc for my friends to see and to my surprise a couple of them knew who it was and explained the whole situation to me.
it was my first time interacting with ppl outside of my family in months lol, when i tell y’all i isolated myself i really did mean it 🙃 my irl friends didn’t even know anything out of the ordinary was happening bc i’m notorious in my friend group for going off the grid for months at a time bc of how bad my mental health gets sometimes, they know to just let me be and let me deal with it alone bc they understand that’s how i work best. (they won’t see this bc they don’t know this tumblr exists but i wanna apologise to my dear friends for my disappearing acts, my bad, i love y’all for being so understanding and still being my friend after all this time 🫶🏼)
anyway, it turns out the culprit was this guy that my friend had rejected previously and he’s so bitter and hateful that he decided to harass me bc he knew i was one of her bffs (the ppl he targeted were the ones in her closest friend group which included me)
but here’s the kicker: I’VE ONLY TALKED TO THIS GUY TWICE!! AND EACH TIME WE TALKED FOR LESS THAN 5 MINS ABOUT IRRELEVANT SHIT!!! WHY AM I INVOLVED?? YOU DON’T KNOW ME!!!!
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when my friend found out she was so surprised and appalled that he was harassing me too, bc him, my friend, and the other ppl he targeted all go to the same college together (and i’m the only one in the friend group that goes to a different college, so to reiterate once again: this guy barely knows me! the last time we spoke was at my friends bday party 3 years ago!! he’s literally insane!)
she knew he was harassing my other friends since they’re all in the same school and know him in person, she didn’t think i would be involved too and i couldn’t believe i was.
anyway, i just wanted to rant about this whole thing bc i’m having a hard time processing it tbh. i hope that guy rots in hell and also finds a job there bc he was acting hella unemployed like who has time for this? he made me feel so confused and paranoid for weeks and i hope he gets all the karma he deserves in the universe.
y’all wanna know something funny tho? i started writing a changmin stalker fic in june, way before this whole situation happened. life imitates art ig 🤪 anyway i finally finished it and i’m gonna release that fic next after i fine tune it, at least now it’ll be somewhat realistic lmaoooo
#cupid speaks#literally the most ridiculous thing that’s ever happened to me#i went from having the most fun time in 🇵🇭 only to come back to this#i should’ve stayed at my grandma’s house that had no wifi for the rest of the summer instead 😒#anyways i’m going to sleep i’ll check back in the morning
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Jen’s Dating Chronicles: Installment the First
He was my first match on Tinder. I told him that. I said "Congratulations, you're my first match on Tinder. That might mean you're special or it might not. Idk. I haven't met you yet. Hi."
Did I tell you this shit was gonna be awkward? It's hella so.
Anyway, he comes back with something I don't remember but we chatted on the app for a bit and had a good vibe and we exchange numbers and it's still a good vibe. I was nursing a hangover on that particular day when we first connected so going out to get a drink was the last fucking thing I wanted to do.
See, there's this thing that happens when you get older (gather 'round). You drink, like, not an inordinate amount, but a goodly amount of alcohol. And then you need like three days to recover. And it sucks because you didn't even get drunk. It almost feels like a waste of alcohol. But I digress.
So actually we ended up texting for about a week. Because we would make plans and then something would happen on his end or mine and we couldn't make it happen. I dressed for two dates that didn't happen.
Didn't happen date the first, he had a meeting with his band (of course he's in a band because I live in Nashville and everybody's in a fucking band) and was gonna text me after. He did not text me after.
Well, not until the next day. He texts me the next day and says that he and his dog got sprayed by a skunk. I'm like okey dokey. I mean, I wouldn't want to touch my phone if I'd gotten sprayed by a skunk either. The last thing I'd be thinking about would be notifying some chick I haven't even met yet that we're not gonna get a drink tonight. Also the first flake = 100% pass in my book. I'm a kind and caring individual.
So then we're gonna meet up for a drink again. This is the first one I actually got ready for, so date the second, but ready the first. He was gonna text me. And then he didn't. And then he didn't some more. I knew he had a thing to do after work and I figured he'd probably eat after that so around 8:30 p.m. I texted him, "What's the story, morning glory?" (Which, for you kids, is an Oasis reference.)
Crickets.
The next day, I texted, "damn. Knew I shouldn't have dropped that Oasis reference." (For you kids: Oasis is a problematic reference to drop for Gen Xers. A lot of us hate them.)
THREE DAYS LATER, he texts me and says he got sick. Horribly sick like he was dying. He apologized and asked for another shot. I gave him one. I said, "tbh I figured you were just another flaky musician" and he said, "I can't deny that lol." So we make plans to go out Friday night. (For you kids: musicians are flaky. So are writers. So are all creatives. If you understand, you give them a pass. If you don't, you don't. Simple as.)
Friday afternoon, he texts me. He wants to postpone until Saturday night because he has a video shoot in the morning that he just found out about. He needs to be up and fresh and rested and "on" for that. I get it. It's fine, we're fine.
But we're still texting, right? So I might've sent him a few teaser pics and whatnot. I mean, I got ready for a date, right? Why not show him what he didn't miss out on at all? (For you pervs: No nudes. I sent him no nudes.)
So somehow the idea gets floated that he could just come over to my place. And I mention I have the place to myself for the night. And he goes "wait. You don't live alone now?" Nope, sure don't.
So y'all know I'm stupid honest, right? So I go "No, I live with my ex. We're platonic roommates."
He goes "Nope. This is exactly the kind of drama I wanted to avoid. I'm sorry, Jen, you're cool, but I can't do this."
I said okay and wished him well. Actually, I said, "I appreciate your honesty. Be well."
Inside, I'm going, "What drama?! Dude, if there were drama I wouldn't be here! I'm here because there's not drama. We're cool. We had a convo last week about me giving a dude a blow job and it was totally cool. We're fucking friends, dude."
But whatever. I should've just told him I had a roommate and not mentioned the history but if I did that, I would've been lying, right? Like, if he'd found out later, it would've been a big thing. Monogamous people are deeply weird. No offense if you're monogamous, but, like, just because somebody slept with somebody in the past doesn't mean they still want to, and it also doesn't mean that they don't still have value. Relationships evolve, mi amigo.
But wait! This story isn't done. Because he texted me the next day to tell me he couldn't stop thinking about me. He asked if I wanted to hook up. I told him I needed to think about it and then let him sit for about four hours before I went back and told him nah I'm good.
Spoiler alert: I didn't need to think about it. He'd already flaked out on me twice. The one time he makes an assertive decision and sets a boundary, he comes back? That's not a sign of a healthy relationship in the future, my friends. Regardless of whether I agree with his boundary, his boundary was his and I respected it. Someone who's willing to forsake their own boundaries to get their dick wet is not someone I want to be with.
Thus ends the first installment of Jen's Dating Chronicles. Be well.
©2023 by Jennifer R.R. Mueller
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So, tumblr is now my only social media (unless you count YouTube, I guess) I’m getting rid of a ton of things. I’m just so exhausted with constantly being marketed at all the time.
I’ve deleted many apps and their corresponding accounts. I’ve unsubscribed from many YouTube channels (they were nice enough for content creators, but ultimately were trying to get me to buy more stuff and they had to go)
I’ve sorted through my closet and pulled out everything I’ve been convinced that I need but don’t want (I’ll be selling whatever Plato’s closet will take so that I can purchase items I need and will actually wear. Anything they won’t take is still in good shape and has a lot of use left in them, so I will get connected with a mutual aid group in order to make sure someone that will wear those items receives them.)
I need to work on unsubscribing from like 500 email lists and deleting useless emails. I think that will be the most difficult task, tbh.
I’ve deleted mobile games, news apps, and unsubscribed from services. I’ve even deleted the Google app from my phone.
I have cleaned out my fridge, cabinets, and kitchen.
I’ve declutterred my makeup, skincare, and hair care items.
I’m finally becoming free. It’s really nice. I know that this may seem like the sort of thing people do before they commit suicide, but I assure everyone that I’m working hard to live for real. I just feel like being inundated with advertising and constantly distracted by my phone is preventing me from truly living and enjoying my life. I’ve wasted so much time on fake bullshit when I could have been reading, making art, crafting, gaming, singing, roller skating, trying new recipes, writing, playing board games or TCGs or Tabletop games, learning languages, lifting weights so I’m strong enough to punch nazis in the face, or anything really.
All of that being said, tumblr is the one social media where I’ve found my people, which is why it’s staying in my life. I don’t get stuck on here for countless hours against my will, no one on here makes me hate myself, the only ads I get are like that old lady with a sword a few months back and currently some monopoly game app. I’m constantly inspired by people on here. Y’all are all so different from me, but at the exact same time so similar to me as well.
#living life#irl#ready to do all the things#anti capitalism#positive changes#tumblr is the best#only social media necessary is tumblr#all the other social medias can fuck off#thanks for inspiring me to live instead of brainwashing me into a fake life
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Kardeşlerim Ep 57
So 3 months have passed, first thing Omer did in the morning was go for a swim and that was so adorable. It's also Emel's first day at school. Omer wants to organize a party to celebrate the start of the school year. I love that Omer is embracing his new lifestyle because they went through hell, so yes he deserves it but stealing those watched was not cool !
Sengul sent Aybike and Oglucan to her native town/village during summer so they won't notice that she is pregnant. Sengul didn't tell them that she is pregnant yet but she will later when Aybike finds the ultrasound image. When they saw her belly, they asked her if she gained weight and she said no she still weighs/looks the same.
Akif is selling rocks now and telling people that these rocks can bring them luck/good things. He is still scamming people even after he lost all his fortune. He ran from the police because he didn't have a permit to sell at that area.
Doruk and Berk arrived first to the school.
Doruk said later that he and Berk spent the summer with their moms.
Aybike and Oglucan came to school.
Berk hugged Aybike so tight.
Aybike: "Calm down"
Berk: "Calm down ?? We didn't see each other for 90 days ! look I am not saying 90 hours but 90 days ! of course I am going to hug you, of course I am going to breathe you in"
Aybike: "Okay but you know I don't like this, did you forget?"
Berk: "Ah that's right ! I haven't forgotten !"
Then he looked at her
Berk: "Why did you do to yourself this summer? It's like you became more scary"
Aybike: "Thank you"
Berk: "You're welcome! Thank you!"
Oglucan:" Look, these two are crazy ! I still don't understand their relationship"
Doruk: "Never mind ! They understand each other, that's enough"
Then Asiye and Omer came with their limousine. Omer hugged Oglucan, Aybike AND BERK. Berk called him "Omerim" which means my Omer/dear Omer in this case. OmBer starting the season strong ❤️️
Tolga and his, I can't believe I am saying this, sister also came to school and saw the limousine. Omer told Ismail that they'll take a taxi and Leyla told them to take a helicopter back home instead. She was trying to make fun of them. God ! She is so ANOOYING just liker her brother 😩 Oglucan's reaction when he heard her call Tolga "brother" was so funny 😂
Oglucan wants to find love now. He said that he was running around helping people back at the village all summer like an angle without wings because he wanted to collect good karma 😂
Beside Leyla, Afra joined the class. She is Gunul's daughter. She was living in Germany but of course no one knows she's Gunul's daughter yet.
Omer sent a message to one of the school's Whats app groups inviting everyone to his party. Of course Tolga received the message since he was also in the group. Oglucan was pissed that Tolga also received the invitation. He almost fainted
Oglucan: "He really made a stupid mistake ! "
Tolga:"Don't be sad Ogi ! we'll party together. In the end, it's rude not to respond to an invitation, right?"
Then he stood up and looked at Aybike.
Tolga: "I mean I know an etiquette rule like that exists !"
Lmao look who's talking about etiquette ! I can't with this man !
Aybike: "Yes it does"
Tolga: "Okay then we'll party together"
Then he winked at her 😷
Berk: "Did this guy just wink at you? "
Aybike: "No, I didn't notice it"
Berk: "He is doing that just to get on my nerves ! He knows that he was invited by mistake but he said:"It'S oKaY i WiLl CoMe" "
I think Aybike liked his reaction 😂
Oglucan bumped into Afra when he was leaving the classroom and it was love at first sight ! I don't how he falls in love so quickly 😂
I like Afra tbh. She dragged Tolga when he tried to make fun of her for living abroad and unlike her mother she seems nice. Oglucan told her that she can sit beside him because the seat next to him is empty and pushed Omer to the side 😂
After class ended, Berk went outside and sat there alone. Aybike came to see him.
Aybike: "Berk? What's wrong? You left running with the phone in your hand as soon as the class ended. Did you receive some bad news?"
Berk: "No, something bad happened but it's not something new"
Aybike: "What do you mean?"
Berk: "I am very forgetful ! I always mix up special days and birthdays"
I wonder if this is a hint that he's going to lose his memory after he hit his head 🤔
Aybike: "I've never seen you forget a special day and you even remembers my birthday better than me"
I guess this means that Aybike celebrated her 18th birthday and we didn't get to see it...
Berk: "Because I set an alarm for everything ! I save every special day and set a reminder. Just now, the phone reminded me of my dad's birthday, it's today. And there is a note "Don't buy a gift because there is a big possibility that you guys won't meet" it's obvious that I wrote that when I was angry"
Aybike: "Of course you got upset when you saw that! You're right !"
Berk: "Even if we couldn't meet, even if he didn't pay attention to me, knowing that I had a father somewhere was different. He would come running if something bad happened to me, I am sure of that"
Well at least he knows that he cared about him. This reminds me of when he got arrested in S1 and even though Resul was not there he did everything to help him.
Berk: "Anyway, I won't bother you with this. I noticed that I missed my dad and I got sad. It will pass"
Berk: "I am lucky to have you! I am lucky that you understand me ! Thank you"
Aybike: "Always"
Then he kissed her hand 🥺
After getting kicked out of the hostel, Akif went to Suzan's house but he also got kicked out from there. He went to Nebehat's house. Nebehat's neighbors were planning to rent their house but the couple renting it went to her house instead and Akif was there. He wanted to scam them and take their money but Nebehat came in time and stopped him She said she was going to call the police but Akif reminded her that he saved her when she murdered Resul. Nebahat said that she did it to protect him. Doruk heard everything and he was shocked. He said that he can't look at Berk and Ayla's face while knowing everything about Resul's murder. Nebahat begged him not to tell Berk because Ayla will definitely throw her in prison. Doruk agreed not to tell Berk.
Berk was crying in his room while looking at his pictures with his dad. I am not sure if he was holding his phone or his dad's phone.
His mom came to check on him. She saw him crying. Ayla said that she also misses Resul. He was her first love. This is why I get pissed off everytime I remember how they treated Resul's character. They could've wrote a plot for him and Ayla but no they had to write a cheap plot for him with Suzan. Berk called Doruk because he wanted to hang out with him. I love that he saved him as "Berko 👑". Berk noticed immediately that there was something wrong with Doruk's voice. Doruk said that he was sick and Berk said that he could bring him medications if he wants but Doruk said that he already took some.
It's party day, everyone came including Tolga and his sister. He directly went to talk to Aybike as the creep he is. Apparently he follows her on Instagram. I know
they say “social media” but they mainly mean Instagram. Aybike shared post asking her followers which dress should she wear. There was a black dress and I guess the dress she was wearing at the party. I would've loved to see the black dress, I am sure it was better than the one she was wearing. Anyway, Tolga said that she should've wore the black dress because the color black suits her better. Aybike said that she wore that dress because everyone voted for it. Tolga said that she should stop caring about people's opinions and do whatever she wants. I know damn well he meant Berk here. Aybike said that everytime she posts a poll people chose her least favorite option and thought maybe they were trying to make her look ugly. Tolga said (wait for it) maybe they can't handle her beauty. At this point, I think I almost smashed my laptop. This scene was so creepy and so uncomfortable to watch. I think she should start carrying pepper spray with her or maybe a knife or a taser.
Tolga: "If it was up to me, the post with the bun hairstyle you shared in summer was better than braids"
Omg he has been stalking her on IG since summer !! He remembers all the of her posts??
Aybike agreed. Apparently she likes that hairstyle, I also think she looks cute with a bun 🥰
Then Berk came.
Berk: "What are you talking about ?"
Aybike: "I share pictures and I ask which one is better. That's what we're talking about"
Berk to Tolga: "What does this has to do with you"
Tolga: "nothing, it has nothing to do with me. I just share my opinion like any other normal person"
Berk: "Wait a minute, why does it concern you what my girlfriend chooses? What's it to you?"
Aybike: "Berk, I ask all my followers about that"
Berk: "Don't follow her ! Don't reply to her posts ! I don't want this guy to follow you Aybike ! I don't want it, okay?"
Here is Tolga's plan. While Berk loses his mind, he wants to look like a chill, non-violent person so Berk's behavior looks bad compared to his. I mean, we watched him set a building on fire who is he trying to fool ?
Tolga: "Maybe you should leave this to Aybike so she can decide on her own, no?"
Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you feminist Tolga ! #IStandWithHer !
Berk: "Look don't make me lose my mind, I will destroy you here ! I am telling you don't follow her, okay?"
Aybike: "Berk stop !"
Tolga: "Look I promised Omer that I won't cause any problems here. Calm down so your girlfriend won't remember what kind of person you are, okay? I am sorry Aybike" and then he left.
Aybike: "What are you doing? have you lost your mind?"
Berk: "Do you talk with him on social media?"
Aybike: "I am sorry?"
Berk: "Do you talk with him?"
Aybike: "He commented on my posts and he liked my pictures, in the past, I mean he did this during summer"
Berk: "So he did this during summer? Wow Aybike ! Wow"
Aybike: "Have you lost your mind? I shared my posts with everyone, he commented on them and everyone can see that. It’s not a secret! Why were you surprised? "
Berk: "Because I didn't know Aybike ! I didn't know that my girlfriend was communicating with that psychopath"
Aybike: "Then you should've opened your eyes and paid more attention to what I post"
Berk: "Oh so I am the one at fault here? Is that so Aybike? Bravo Aybike! Bravo!"
Then Berk left.
This was such a stupid fight and the scene with Tolga was so GROSS 😷
This is what Tolga does everytime he gets obsessed with a girl. He tries to show her that they have so many things in common. He tries to act like a gentlemen
and a pacifist but what's going to happen when he doesn't get what he wants from Aybike? Remember how he locked Cemile up in the apartment because she wanted to leave him? He will show his true self once he understand that he doesn't stand a chance with Aybike.
By the way, Berk was not jealous ! He called him "a psychopath" ! He was genuinely concerned but I wish he showed it in a different way ! It's not Aybike's fault here ! I love how everyone on twitter watched the fight and were like "OKAY NOW KISS"
Berk was sitting alone. Doruk asked Berk what's wrong and Berk told him about Tolga. Doruk told him to calm down. Berk said that when it comes to his father, mother, his girlfriend and Doruk, he loses his mind. Doruk told him not to do anything since they were at a party and Berk said that he's not going to but they won't be able to break him and Tolga up when he catches him at school. Doruk wanted to leave and Berk asked him what's wrong because he's been avoiding him for days now. Berk told him that he is the only man he trusts after his dad. When I heard this I knew shit was going to hit the fan in a couple of seconds. Berk said that if he did something to break his heart, he should tell him and he'll apologize. Berk said that he loves him so much and called him brother. At this point, Doruk couldn't handle it anymore and told him everything. Berk lost it and told him that his parents will tell the police what they know. I don't know what he was planning to do. I thought he was going to drag Doruk to the police station but he said that Doruk and his parents will tell him everything about his dad's murder. I assume he was dragging Doruk so they can go together to the Atakul's house and talk about this then go to the police. Doruk kept on saying that it was an accident. His mom did not kill Resul. Idk if he really believes that or if he's lying to protect his mom but if Nebehat did not hit Resul on his head, he would be alive today.
Omer came and asked them if they both have lost their minds. Berk was about to tell him about everything but Doruk punched him and Berk fell into the pool. Doruk kept on calling him as if he was going to pop up from under water and say “JK”. I don't know what kind of reaction Doruk expected from Berk after he told him how his dad died. Of course he was going to be pissed.
They didn't show much in the teaser about what happened with Berk. Omer got him out of the pool and Doruk said that this happened because of him. I know that they started filming ep 59 yesterday so I am not sure if they are going to film hospital scenes for Berk. Berk will probably lose his memory but maybe not all of it. Just what happened with Doruk before he fell into the pool because there is no way Berk is going to stay silent knowing everything about his dad's murder.
We will see Omer's father in the next episode. He kicked the Eren siblings from Sevgi's house. Two new actors joined the cast as students at Attaman school, one of them or both of them might be Omer's siblings.
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Im honestly not even excited for tonight based off of what ive heard already. Im more ready for grey’s cause Addison. Lol. I will be making gifs while watching to occupy myself. Nonetheless… here we go..
I really need this detective and bell to date. Pls.
Oky WHY do they continually let victims families/civilians out in the field with them?! Like this is not okay… this is not ideal, this is not legal…
“do you think we can trust him to do this?” THANK YOU AYANNA. God.
Genuinely surprised they didn’t have the building fully surrounded wtf? Like yeah the boys got there eventually but woof.
Me chanting: flirt! Flirt! Flirt! Flirt! At the queers.
Ayanna: eye fucks her
Me: YAAS.
Okay, that’s a win for this episode that’s all I care about lol
Ah yes… dorm life… because eli who canologically should be like 14 is in college…
Moving on!
Tbh based on the promo I am kinda interested in mothership tonight, lets see how that goes lol.
Okay… so the promo had me thinking that Nolan would be a major witness and sam was running point on the case the whole time so im kinda bummed.
I was distracted actually watching and also gaffing but I have 2 notes:
-hugh dancy was WAY off his eyeline mark on his “its my decision sam!” line
-loved the way sam continually called Nolan out this episode. Loved that.
Okay… Churlish *doesn’t drink* but she thinks it’s a good idea to go UC on a roofie case? Wtf girl?!
Really?! REALLY?! They had to make these fucking sleezeballs Canadian!? Fuck you.
The EXACT same moment this pricks cl phone buzzed “redhead” my phone went off with a tinder notification.. I think that’s a sign from hell… defs not opening that app
Why is her water in a plastic cup? Like, I get that we have plastic glassware at my bar but it’s not like, plastic solo cups, theyre plastic cups that look just like our glass ones and you cant tell til you pick them up.
“you don’t have to say everything you think…” LOL.
This is like, a full personal opinion, but I don’t like them wearing their badges around their necks, when they’re on the belt’s it just looks better, they don’t get in the way, but that may just be me.
Okay, again, I get the loyalty and not liking all of your coworkers (beeeelieve me there) but like, there’s a time and a place, you can still be professional and courteous while absolutely hating someone lol. These guys are all being ridiculously immature about it. (also its weird Velasco & muncy are still allowed to be partners???)
Churlish is really out there what? Trying to tie muncy to this case or shit? Again, I understand if it maybe came up a little LATER in the case but for right now you’re just going to check out that bartender, talk to him, get his story. If something doesn’t line up THEN you’d go through his socials…
Man churlish is TINY isn’t she??
Man, they are pushing veluncy way too hard for me right now. Even if it’s just friends, there’s so many looks between them and this is considering they haven’t spoken in a week or whatever? Can we pls not do this.
Churlish really went and baited herself without clearing it with anyone AND making it look like muncy was trying to set her up…
“youre saying this was her idea?” MUNCY WHAT DID CHRULISH JUST FUCKING SAY IN THE VAN?
“you slid into her dms!?” muncy’s SO fucking angry, her little hand?! HAHAHA
Man if olivia felt like she was babysitting *before* she must absolutely hate this shit now. Like…as someone who is a manager and the team used to all be in their 30’s and very unproblematic, staying in their own lanes and now my team has babies on it, it’s annoying af.
The way Bruno had that work conversation while looking like he was flirting was some *prime* acting.
There’s only 15 mins of this left… is it a two parter?
Ok so the drug is in the salt?
The black shirt grace has on looks exactly like one molly has lol
Not surprised there’s a girl involved in this to get them outta the bathrooms
Ah… the limes.. okay…good to know nothing can be trusted in bars. (although… bartender pro tip… don’t ever put the fruit into your drinks or into your mouth. A very large amount of hands touch those fruits, and who tf knows the last time they’re washed, they’re constantly touching dirty dishes, money, debit cards, etc AND a large number of places probably don’t wash their fruits…)
Aside from giving teddy her pic for bait HOW WAS SHE RECKLESS?? SHE DIDN’T FUCKING DRINK! How was she supposed to know it was the limes???
But also yeah, she does have to be there for the right reasons and work with the team otherwise it aint gonna work.
This episode was… I dunno man the vibes are off. That’s all I got.
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Sooo Thursday she had a dinner in Fresno to celebrate her coworkers birthday. During it she texted asking if I wanted to see her. I told her I did.
I saw her and we talked. She told me she hung out with someone… but she didn’t kiss them. And the reason she couldn’t is because of me. she actually was supposed to go see someone else after her dinner, but she canceled on them to see me.
We talked about everything but when I left she told me she didn’t want to see me again.
She called me on her drive home and we were still talking. I still have her heart and that’s the reason she hasn’t truly done anything with people.
It seemed like we were doing better…
I get to lunch, grab my stuff and go to my car. I turn the ignition on and call her. When she answered she told me something along the lines of “nows not a good time to talk. You shouldn’t talk to me” I asked and she told me I’ve been lying to her and that she’s really hurt. I spent my lunch break trying to know what I did, and eventually she told me. Apparently, she created a brand new Her profile, through Facebook. THE ONLY THING I COULD POSSIBLY THINK OF, IS IF IT SAID I WAS ONLINE BC OF FACEBOOK SINCE IG IS PAIRED WITH FB AND I KEEP MY FB LOGGED INTO MY PHONE. Im like that doesn’t even make any sense. Why would a brand new account suggest me of all people, and tell you I was online. I literally got out of work, put my stuff in my car, and called you. She told me later that this is what happened. She goes on, it shows me and says I’m online so she blocked me. A minute later, i call her.
Tbh I have no idea why that even happened. I haven’t had the her app in a while. The day after I started talking to her, I didn’t use the app anymore. It was on my phone but I had no intention of ever using it again. I went on once to see when we had first started talking to each other. One time she told me like “hey you do you but I’m deactivating my account on Her”. She asked me about still having it one time and I told her I don’t use it. You’re right, why do I even have it? It’s just wasting space on my phone. I deleted it in front of her, apparently. That’s what she reminded me of.
Honest to God, I haven’t touched that app since. I don’t have it on my phone, I have the texts of the two times it sent me a verification code to even go on. When I made the account and then yesterday. I know that I haven’t been on the app. I screen recorded showing her me searching it on my phone and not having it. I told her like I can call you and share my screen and literally show you… Then I screen recorded me going to the App Store, redownloading it, signing in, showed her my last message and you can see there’s unopened ones above it. I sign out and delete the app again in the video. I sent it to her. I called her when I got off. She’s hurt. She doesn’t trust me. I tried to explain to her. Like it’s frustrating to know because she told me I was going to come back but there’s zero chance. Like you ended it officially. And that’s the thing because I know 100% that I’m not lying to her, I never have. I may not always be the best at understanding or communicating but who I am as a person is someone who’s genuine and honest and integrity matters a lot for me. I would never cheat or lie because that’s not who I am and I told her literally God as my witness hand on a Bible like I didn’t do anything and I haven’t been lying to you. But she is very certain that she knows what she saw and that was me with an online bubble when she first went on the app. I’m like that makes no sense. I’m literally at work, I don’t have the app. How could I possibly be online? I told her you know me better than that. You know that all I’ve done is fight for you and love you. I would never. She told me she’s going to block me and delete me from everything. I kept her on the phone, but eventually I was like I know in my heart and to God that I didn’t do that and it really sucks that you’re hurt by something that isn’t true and you are going to believe the lie. I love you and I’m here (something.. I forget). That I hope one day she truly knows the truth. Something. She was going to hang up so I said what I said and I hung up and we haven’t really spoken much since.
I started driving to you, and about an hour in she sent me a song and idk exactly what she meant by it if she meant anything but I just started crying. She messaged me around 11pm but I hadn’t seen it and she said she’s so hurt. That’s the thing like she gets mad and she’ll push me out but I see her heart too. she’s not over us either and it really sucks to know where we are and how we feel but to let something that’s not real affect everything. I said what I could i showed her everything and it’s up to her with what she does with that. I don’t want to hurt her. I didn’t do anything, but she believes that I did and it’s a shame.
I messaged her this morning like 1:30 like I can’t sleep and she said she couldn’t either. We were texting and I told her Like I wish I could I could hold my baby but she’s not mine anymore. She responded this morning saying she’s still here.
I don’t know. Last night is the first time I was truly like it’s on her. Because literally there’s nothing I can do. I can pray she knows the truth, pray for things. but it’s not in my control and if I’ve genuinely lost her it’s nothing I can do. Like I even told her I can sleep at night knowing that I didn’t lie to you. I kept repeating myself but it’s like if you’re going to walk away for good, I think you should at least walk away because of the truth. It’s dumb that something like that would jeapordize everything. I understand where she’s coming from. She has had people lie to her, chest on her. But not everyone is the same. I’ve had people do it to me too and I would never. I hate that. I get that she would think I’m online. I get how it could hurt someone but the sucky thing is that it’s not the truth. I would say like you know me better then that. She would say I thought I did. Anything I said it was like “I thought so” thought I loved her. Thought she could trust me. Etc.
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life is a funny funny thing.
im 23 now, and i didn’t need to bother with reading my previous posts on here to know that i’m absolutely not the same person. hell, i’ve changed since my last post, only nearly a year ago.
but what i will say is though, in my last post, i said i was more secure and in tune with myself, not worried about people’s opinions of me and that i removed people and things that doesn’t serve me. out of these three points, only one stands true now.
i do love and respect myself, yes. i have now learnt to comfortably be by myself, fill my time with me-things, i love working on myself, etc. but i'm still figuring myself out, and there are still parts of me i want to kill, all the time. i can't say that i unconditionally love myself, but i know i'm getting there. not that it really matters, the world’s about to end lol.
i have gotten better at walking away from people and situations that don’t serve me. i'm not a pro or anything, but i’ve gotten significantly better. i suppose that comes with ✨maturity✨. but it also comes with practice. SO MUCH practice.
and for this, you need to make mistakes. it will be really frustrating, because you’ll beat yourself up for supposedly learning the lesson, but making the same mistake over and over again. but schools do this, don’t they? they test you on the same material over and over again so that they can be sure of what you know. that’s kinda how i think the universe works. everything that comes to you is a test (as much as i dislike viewing every person and situation as a test, this is the stance i hold at the moment), and sometimes there is solace in knowing that you’re going to come out it with new wisdom, no matter the outcome.
(side note: why do boys say stuff like “i'm not looking for a girlfriend” and then proceed to do boyfriend things? i've encountered these boys more than i would like to admit, and it's the exact same thing. they do cute things, admit to doing it, and then in the same breath say, “i'm not looking for a relationship.”
stay safe out there y’all, they do be playing games.
and boys. do you even hear yourself? it’s embarrassing.)
now, the thing that i haven’t been able to figure out is how to not care about people’s opinions of me. i have been so obsessed with my “come back” and what i should look like, what i should do to my eyelashes and eyebrows and lips and what dress i should get and should i get a lighting for the pictures and when i should post it and who do i want seeing my stuff and its SO exhausting.
i willingly haven’t spoken to any of my irl friends (or acquaintances, i don’t really have friends) for ages, because i'm hoping to erase any lingering memory of me from people’s minds, so that this ‘come-back’ is worth it. so that any perception and assumption of me will disappear, and i will have more control of my image. crazy.
i think i’ve taken a tiny step back from this since i committed to not going back to socials (for the 5th time probs lol) for a good while, so it’s been better.
(but i still haven’t made contact with my people i know irl. i just find more peace in that. like i want them to think i’ve disappeared, or better yet, died. morbid, i know.)
i’ve been reading a hell lot more and the only thing i use my phone now is for HelloTalk, a language app (i'm learning french) which is more like discord tbh. they have voice rooms. you meet new people on there all the time. its fun.
there was a really interesting tiktok video i saved a while ago, that i came across recently. basically it said that people who tend to control their perceptions of other people, have been controlled as a kid, by parents, teachers, authority figures, etc. and i think this rings true for me. and it’s ringing very loudly.
we live in a world where hot girls = big ass big tits false lashes big lips long hair. as we all know, this is very damaging. now we all wanna be “baddies” and influencers and be seductive (oh the whole dark femininity thing. i'm sucked into it) and know how to manipulate men and how to be maneaters and how to have a fox eye (now claimed siren eyes) and what perfume you should wear and that perfumes are to be discovered not announced. and you HAVE to be a leo or an aquarius because those are hot zodiacs. cancers? eh.
like, these are great tips. really. but it's so bad. you now want to be the center of attention, “main character”, and if you’re not, well then i guess bad luck to you because you’ll never find a man.
and let me not get started on andrew tate. i feel deep in my heart that the boys we know are about to get worse.
and i use “boys” on purpose.
anyways, since i deleted socials, i dont know whats going on out there, so i don't really have a point of reference to compare myself with. i haven't watched a show/movie in weeks (intentionally), and i’ve only started listening to music after a week of hiatus (intentionally). i also intentionally choose not to look at my reflection, unless necessary. all this so that i can ‘cleanse my palate’ and be comfortable with my being instead of my vessel.
i mean listen, im hot. i'm actually pretty and this has been validated by people (it doesn't have to be, thats my whole point, but hey. can't help it). i don't doubt it.
but i also find myself taking a million selfies, or staring at my desk mirror instead of doing work, because subconsciously i’m comparing myself to those other figures on the internet who are being praised by everyone in their comment sections. my eyes wander for any flaw on my face so that i can work on it and look perfect at any given moment. it’s really hard to catch this behaviour and take extreme steps to fix it.
and my extreme step was to rid myself of all kinds of media. i pulled out all my old books from my cupboard and started reading them instead. i’ve now finished 5 books since then, making it a total of 7 books this year. i’m now on my 8th.
granted ive been getting distracted on hellotalk a lot recently, but this will not be a problem anymore.
anyways, all this is to say, that we’re hardwired to care about what people think of us. you wouldn’t go into a job interview looking like you just got out of bed. you wouldn’t go on a date without choosing just the right dress, and you wouldn’t go to a funeral wearing your favourite cosplay (unless it’s somehow appropriate for the occasion).
everyone claims to be themselves, and encourages everyone else to do the same, but i really think that this is not possible to achieve until we all choose to disconnect from the internet, even for a little while, accepting all that you are, and then putting yourself back on the scene, this time beaming a bit brighter, standing a little taller, and living a little prouder.
FOMO is real, so this isn’t for the weak-hearted. but so far, i’ve been loving the quiet life. it’s given me more insight into my mind, especially when there’s nothing to distract me from listening to it. i’ve been more present. (like the other day, i painted the sunrise as i was watching it. i needed to take a picture of it and continue using that as reference bc i decided to do this last minute and got the timing wrong, but it was something i wanted to do for a long time and i did it, and it felt great. the painting looks great too.)
but at the same time, recently i’ve been a bit more self-destructive. not because of disconnecting, but because since i got really engrossed in the hellotalk voicerooms, i’ve been conscious once again about who i am and how i want to portray myself. in this case, everytime i shared more than i hoped to, or spoke in a higher pitch than intended, i would quite literally punish myself for it.
and that’s the other thing. progress is not linear. healing is not linear. it fluctuates, and that can be hard to cope with. because you want to see results, and you want to see it quickly. everytime you falter, you feel demotivated to keep going, and then you just quit. but since when do birds just fly in a straight upward line? since when do planes fly that way? they all eventually get to their destinations, right? (well, almost all the time. oof.)
thing is, if you don’t notice the ups and downs, you’re probably not progressing much at all.
i’ve obv got a lot to learn. about myself, about myself in relation to the world, and... well i guess that’s about it.
i hope the world doesn’t end soon. as much as i think about dying, i also think about how lucky i am to have the experience of living.
earth is the only planet in our solar system that can form and develop life.
not only do you know this, you get to experience this.
not only do you get to experience this, you ARE the experience.
sometimes you gotta remind yourself, it's not that deep. other times, you gotta remind yourself, life is a long-lasting love story with yourself.
no matter what, you are the main character. nothing can take away from that fact. you are in a movie. hell, you’re probs in a simulation and someone/thing is watching your life with so much intent, anticipation and excitement. show em. romanticize the shit out of your life. that’s why you get to experience it.
make mistakes. cry. laugh. live. be passionate. shout. fuck. love. hurt. heal. hate. be proud. be great. win. lose. dream. fight.
it’s good for the plot.
this is a long post, but i like that every year i randomly remember about my tumblr account and create a new post. it’s nice.
Love, G xxx
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so ive posted a couple of fanfics already about this, but let me introduce you to my miraculous ladybug x persona au!
first things first, what ive already covered! so when they’re 7, Marinette, Nino, and Kim break away from the field-trip group and end up in Paris’s version of Mementos, and a shadow attack leads to Kim awakening Ardent, his persona.
after this, and numerous groundings, scoldings, and lectures from various parties, the trio then proves they learned NOTHING and continues to go exploring in the secret catacombs using the mysterious and kinda spooky app that appeared on their phones. this is how Marinette and Nino got Odette and Orpheus accordingly.
they don’t actually do much with these powers? it’s mainly just a cool make believe thing, with the occasional encounter with ‘living ghosts’ (the human shadows) that they talk to and help out. or have their persona’s (”we’re not calling them Stands, Kim!”) beat up if they get aggressive.
fast forward like 6 years to canon and the trio is freaking out. or, Nino is freaking out because Kim’s being targetted by a giant rock golem who used to be Ivan, Marinette’s not picking up, and the app they normally use to enter the Catacombs is updating.
the gist of this au, is that having a persona is a double edged sword. it allows normal people to fight akuma’s within the metaverse, and weaken the butterfly’s hold on the person, but also, if you have a persona your akuma is far more difficult to fight.
there’s a lot of stuff i haven’t really figured out, and some i haven’t concretely set up, but i do have all the initial persona’s for the crew! note, all persona’s were chosen from random sources, their only ‘theme’ being how they relate to the characters (even if it only makes sense to me)
Marinette Dupain-Cheng & Odette
Skills are focused on Ice & Healing. She’ll later gain Bless once her Ultimate is unlocked.
Odette is the protagonist of the ballet Swan Lake, and I felt the stories could line up. The curse of akumatization by the evil sorcerer Hawkmoth, Prince Adrien who the Black Swan Lila tries to steal away.
okay so this one may heavily depend on my persona headcanon that Lila seems to boast a lot of things that have been done by Marinette or are related to Marinette (knowingly or unknowingly) in canon.
Don’t worry about how Swan Lake so commonly ends in tragedy, I swear that’s not relevant.
Another skill Odette has is that she can be used to create a rudimentary shadow radar in a still patch of water. Yes Marinette’s clumsiness makes this difficult.
Nino Lahiffe & Orpheus
Orpheus has the element of Zio, plus some useful buff/status causing moves. He’s specifically built for long fights, with high defence, health, stall moves, and Dia. i do not remember why.
As for why Orpheus was chosen, I feel it an accurate representation about the lengths Nino would go for love, and lose because of it.
Okay so maybe it was partially inspired by the ultimatums I see in salt fics between him and Alya.
Kim Chiến Lê & Ardent
The Physical Force of the team. As in he uses both Physical attacks and Force/Wind attacks. That was a bad pun, sorry.
So Ardent is actually the Beast’s name from the 1947 version of Beauty and the Beast, which is probably well known to most of you. The fairy tale, not like, the 1947 version.
But, uhh, I mean the Beast was cursed by an enchantress due to his bad actions, and acts like a huge jerk, and, well, we’ve seen Kim and how he acts. Even in this AU, while I think he’d be less overtly mean, he’s still insensitive and makes wrong decisions that hurt people.
Alya Cesaire & Virgil
Fire and ailments are Virgil’s bread and butter. Yes that ailment is brainwash, gotta show she has the power of the press after all.
No this is not Virgil DMC (could you imagine), this is Virgil from Dante’s Inferno. tbh I kinda chose this based off reading the wikipedia page and lining up character roles and it’s really shakey and could probably be better, but I don’t know what else to use for her.
Alya joins after accidentally getting awakened during Lady Wifi by Nino and Kim defeating her shadow form. Funnily enough, I have a super solid idea of what Alya does in the story, how she’s introduced, and how she reacts to certain scenarios, yet absolutely 0 solid idea’s for her personas.
Virgil also has the ability to catalogue shadow weaknesses/profiles in his book, which takes the place of the notebook Mari, Nino, and Kim were using before.
Max Kante & Menvra
Max is the teams navigator and their guy in the chair, except he is also in the catacombs along them.
Obviosuly he wouldn’t be like Fuuka, inside an orb at the entrance of the dungeon, but I don’t think he’d be quite Futaba floating around in his persona. Somewhere inbetween, Rise and Futaba, I think.
Menvra is a Etruscan goddess, representing war, art, wisdom, and medicine/health. This is one of the more classic persona figures (they say, like Orpheus isn’t Nino’s) and yes, I am very shakey on this much like Alya’s. The difference is, Max is not a hugely developed character so I have limited traits to choose from as opposed to Alya where I have conflicting traits to choose from. I am, however, 100% sure of his Ultimate Persona.
I’m honestly debating whether Max joins up during Startrain, where the limited space causes him to accidentally get dragged into the Metaverse and subsequently awakened, or Robustus because the Metaverse app won’t run.
Kagami Tsurugi & Kaguya
I am, first and foremost, weak to girls with swords. And have once again (once again, they say, not having written the previous thing they are referencing) made Kagami just a. Powerhouse.
She’s got the Almighty skills, alongside Nuclear, and is a one woman army.
I really associated the themes of Kaguya attracting suitors, what with Kagami’s purpose basically just being a faux-love interest, and the punishment of material attachments. Listen, I will be the first to admit that a lot of these persona’s are just, I feel the vibes and they match. There is no rational or explainable reasoning for these, it just fits.
Also fun fact, the feather cloak Kaguya wears is burnt when she’s first summoned. Like, pre-burnt. This is story relevant.
Kagami herself joins the group after Ikari Gozen. Ladybug gives her an piece of paper in exchange for the Dragon Miraculous. Said paper has the meet up location and time fo the next Catacombs excursion.
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