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I have never nerded out so much in my life. I am currently sitting in a 700 year old Scottish castle, in the library, where the books are all at least 100 years old. The ancient clock on the mantlepiece over the fireplace just chimed quarter past the hour and the atmosphere is thick with history.
I should return to the sitting room across the landing past the grand staircase and reception, where my mum is waiting for me, having drinks before we are escorted down to the dungeon for a traditional Scottish a la carte dinner. Yes. The dungeon. Its now a luxury restaurant. But they kept the original Walls, archways, and a suit of armour.
What even is this place? Who knew that castles could be converted into hotels? That our twin bed suite still retains the original stone walls from the 13th century build. This place is beautiful and seeped in history and I am in heaven. I want to live here. I never want to leave.
Tomorrow I get to meet the falcons and owls and other birds of prey they keep in the grounds. This place is a fairytale come true.
Happy birthday to me :D
#personal#history#scottish castles#if you ever get the chance#yes you can indeed stay in castles nowadays#what better way to preserve them?#dark academia tiktokers could never even dream of this place#lmao
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Just rewatched DFF ep 9 and I really do think this show is so beautifully meticulously artistically written, with themes and layers and so much thoughtful care. I trust wherever it leads, even if it doesn't lead to the places I want most in my heart (PerthNon vs. PheeTan revenge teams at crosshairs, culminating in a heartfelt brotherly reunion, lol if playfully grudging at how much they fucked up each other's plans despite having the same goals, and a Non who has moved on with someone who has life experiences similar enough to his to actually understand him, listen to him, and trust him. But most importantly A HEARTFELT BROTHERLY REUNION).
It's just always fun to watch a show where you can expect to be surprised, you can expect to be angry at the characters, you can expect to not get what you want, and you can still expect to appreciate the writing and enjoy the experience. Love to let the story seduce me you see
#btw im not knocking phee for not understanding or trusting non he is a realistic teenage boy#but i am not expecting the narrative to have him confront his inadequacies as wannabe superboyfriend#like he may confront them with jin but i don't think he's going to really get the scope of them with non#thusly i don't want him to choose non out of obligation or guilt i want non to have his own very alive life without him#phee hurts me the most because he's probably the character i relate to most. for better or worse....#but!!! the real point of this post is that i trust the writing and i trust the show#it doesn't have to go in any direction i predict for me to be satisfied and mesmerized#i hope non is alive thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sob sob sob#i hope non and new survive together sob sob sob#they make me SO SAD i can't cope#everything new's parents kept from him 'for his own good' to preserve his golden boy future#at cost to him and his relationship with them and his relationship with his brother#there is no way he would have let them continue needlessly sending $$ for two years straight if he knew what a hardship it was#which means he had no idea what it took to support him in england while non was at home being blamed for his family's money problems#new carried his family's expectations on his shoulders and strove and strove and strove the way his parents wanted#and utterly failed his brother in the process#then strove and strove to make that right#and utterly failed his parents#non carried his family's disappointments and strove and strove to find anything to live for outside of them#and found only more isolation and horror#but his brother actually loves him so much#i need him and non to get their hug#but if he dies heroically hallucinating the hug#or any other possible writing choice#i trust! i do trust!! i will appreciate the writing#i'll sob my eyes out. and want fixit fic. and appreciate the writing#dff#dead friend forever#dff spoilers#prathipsits
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went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share
+ more thoughts and old yyh art below
(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)
something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah
but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)
i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun
however i did transcribe the notes i left:
7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show
8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy
7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3
1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it
[+ this drawing]:
anyway. forever fornever. if you even care
#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore#skrunkart#yyh#yu yu hakusho#you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate.#ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done#also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way#ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back#to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous#and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se#like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol#some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth#there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader#no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too#part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so#well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented'#stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D#ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd#probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah
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I don’t think there’s anything wrong with enjoying particular types of art more than others, but the knee jerk disdain people have towards modern art is disappointing…
I think u have to be ok with not connecting to everything that u see. That’s just fine. Art is like food and there’s going to be some stuff that just doesn’t work for u regardless of if it’s objectively well done or not. There’s a flavour of anti-intellectualism and inferiority complex that seems to accompany ppls hatred of modern art, this discomfort that they “don’t get it” when that’s like. Actually fine. Some stuff u will appreciate once u learn context and others, regardless… u just won’t! I still hate beans & legumes
That being said I also have friends who would rather order the same mac & cheese at a restaurant every single time than risk getting something they won’t enjoy — or won’t enjoy as much. But art costs u very little to try in comparison, so why not try it?
#the other part is stuff like rothkos just works way better in person than on a screen. True of all art but especially true of these big#pieces with such delicately crafted sensory experiences. Also if art makes u uncomf or disdainful that’s also an elicited reaction.#Why do u feel that way? What cultural reasons might cause u to think of it that way? anyways everybody should read blue period.#I personally don’t think there’s rlly anything different between “low art” or “high art”. Ppl get insecure abt what they rlly like or#something and it bleeds into this ‘us’ vs ‘them’ mentality… it’s true we should ask who’s art is curated and preserved and for what reasons#but like. Humanity is humanity. It’s up to you if you want to listen. I just think it’s a shame to turn away before u give it a chance#That being said I’m still a basic Impressionism bitch. Show me a pretty oil painting landscape and I go nuts.#bytebun rambles#I am just talking. Whatever#U can know art history and read badly translated yaoi webnovels. Multiplicity.#to delete
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shanny image for sizing. new funny spacebug idea for alamanni its dedicated to the preservation of the memory of every world it visits and roots itself down to take in every sensation of a location for a couple years b4 shifting to a new place to begin anew. the tubes are like mouths that can taste+smell and it subsists off of subterranean critters that get caught up in its '''roots'''
#alamanni info#it releases sleep-spores whenevere smth tries to attack it and has been slowly picking its way across the countryside for the past two--#--hundred years or so. it isnt a threat to the villages near its grounds and is instead regarded as a bit of a fun interest. maybe some--#--worship element to that relationship as well ? idk#might give it more tentacles up top so ppl can grab onto them and dance around it a la the maypole dance if going w that idea#it is a historian primarily it mourns each world that will ultimately be lost to the Rot and does its best to preserve their memories in--#--what little ways it has. mmmmaybe its got trinkets from those past worlds tied around it when it formed particularly close bonds to those#--near its rooting grounds thaat would be fun. ppl sent to sleep by its spores dream of its recollections of the past#will draw this thing better than this loose sketch. think it plays a bit of a role in janes breaking away from his black+white good+evil--#--perception of the Strange
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I think the problem is that when something stops existing, you can't truly impress what it was like or how meaningful it was onto the people who come after
#dont take this post in like a personal way btw im fine#im just thinking about how like#i can DESCRIBE what certain internet things and certain childhood things were like to kids way younger than me#but i can't beam that experience into their brains#and the things that are lost that are really important like#they can never know what its like to exist in that version of the world#not to idolize the past before im thinking more about stuff like#the way the internet is slowly bleeding out its sense of freedom#or the way neighborhoods where you can interact with the people around you safely as a kid are becoming even LESS common#and that becomes more of a problem when you're trying to preserve things#or stop things from getting even worse#bc ppl dont like. EMOTIONALLY know that things used to be better at some point#they might be aware of it but they are not motivated to change it by an acute awareness of a loss#but rather by just a general sense that the things that are ''normal'' to them are wrong#and i have that too. i know there are things from before my time that should be preserved#but i have no emotional awareness of them#thats just kind of sad
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having multiple chronic illnesses and adhd makes it hard for me to finish shit ever so have this pile of idea doodles for neytiri angst stuff
#avatar 2009#avatar (2009)#james cameron's avatar#neytiri#atwow#twow#avatar the way of water#atwow fanart#have u ever felt the kind of pain and rage that makes u feel like you'll never sleep peacefully#have u ever felt like you can't have peace if they do#you want to bleed them dry of every drop the bled out of you#that rage is blinding#it's a hungering void#it's what lets you survive and preserve yourself#but it makes you cruel#trying to figure out neytiri's character better#i think that rage is smth she lives with
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sometimes i look back at my past and just cringe so hard because good will has never stopped me from making mistakes and being stupid. like i try to so hard to be kind and helpful and try and be a good force in the world but also like… do damage control on my every action? not step on toes, not say stupid things, not embarrass myself. like this primal battle of a terror of not being likable but my deeply human flawed natured when you just… be stupid. and I always eventually do, i jump to conclusions or say things without having all the knowledge or jump the gun on something when i should have waited or just do something that i dont know better on because im young and still haven’t experienced so much ?? thinking im smart enough to overcome things alone rather than ask for help. and only with the clarity of time can I see my mistakes and learn from them. and i do try very hard to self improve, i am extremely aware of all the tiny missteps i have made in my life and it’s hard to not live in regret, because there’s always the chance I’m going to fuck up again or I already have and it’ll only be a matter of time to look back and regret once again. like i want to genuinely be better, but how to not beat yourself up over it all in your own self evaluation? it’s not a kind perspective, and excuses are unacceptable. just like slap the shit out of myself until i’m actually better. until i stop fucking up. and it’s hard to not live like that and see it that way, wishing you could bubblewrap yourself until you hit some kind of wisdom quota. or go live in a cave until you are some perfect person and everyone will only know your best self so you can hate your younger self and their choices in private. the thought of people knowing me is harrowing because they seem me for what i am and not all i could be? how will they know im better now, or at least trying to be. will they continue to live in that reality of when i was selfish or ignorant or unfunny and unlikable or a know-it-all or unstable and obsessive and all of it. all of it.
forgiving yourself is a challenge
(tw in the tags for talks of suicide)
#i desperately strive for a form of ultimate self control where i am aware and deliberate with my very thoughts and actions at all times#can you tell i overthink things to the point of paranoia?#at least if im in complete control of myself i can blame no one but myself for my mistakes#and that means i can fix myself because i broke myself in the first place#and my fucking perspectives being distorted from mental illness is so terrifying because in the moment it is always#‘i know what im doing im in control’#but then i get out of it and i get better and i realize i was so out of control#lead by emotion and an addiction to validation and putting myself in harms way because i lose all sense of self preservation#i was thinking earlier like#if one day sometimes takes my every mistake and compiles them and shares them with the world ill do my very best to apologize and explain#and then like k-ll myself#dead serious this was my conclusion#and im just thinking is this really control? like is this a mentally healthy totally unobscured undistorted conclusion?#i dont think i could live with myself if everyone knew how much of a failure i am#but control over my life is the ultimate act of control of the self isnt it#of course i would be dead by now if i wasnt so much of a coward#i dont think this obsession with self control is healthy especially with how aware i am of how out of control my mental illness makes me#i know i am inherently flawed creature but i dont know how to except that if i cant reach some form of homeostasis of regulation#then i just want to give up#i refuse to leave a negative mark on the world and if my presence does more harm than good i would remove myself entirely#god ive been off my meds for over a week now??? im getting so paranoid im thinking so much i feel like i need to take my skin off#i hate everything that i am#because i am capable of being greater than i am and i keep failing myself#i want to erase the memory of me from everyones minds#actually bpd#idk if bpd has anything to do with this but hey i do have it
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i think i might genuinely be a genius for using "gordon" "freeman" to refer to different aspects of gordon and using "gordon freeman" to refer when the two aspects are functioning in tandem i feel so smart for it, i hope it comes across as impactful and clear for readers as i hope lol
#the descision was inspired by reading so many diff fics where authkrs use either name and how jt changes how u#i terpeet the character and vice versa#so i wanted to use both becuz i like both super serious hardened freem@ns and softer kinder gordos#so i decided id try to represent both and becuz im a lil fucken goblin its done in one of the angstiest ways possible lol#it also allows me to have a i ternal monilogue that contradicts the enternal actions becuz its one part of gorson winning out over the othe#but not in a these are two seperate people#but in a one is his default personal state the other is a impersonal persona shaped by nescessity trauma and other influence used to#protect his own psyche#but it is kinda maladaptive and neither are good at careing for the self in the long run but is better at immediate sutvival but they also#lack self preservation becuz of the outside influence of being needed by others to save them#its complicated#i love coming uo with ways to reconsile the many different interpretations of gordon i have and making my own fucked up guy#oh god im so excited to finally show anybody this fic#cuz im thinkjng once i get sum people to beta read it i guess is what it is?? ill post it on a03#and its great cuz the way ive co structed it is that since its bases on the interior and exterior face thing of how people interact with#the world i can still use it for prerescas just how the personas act is different and they combine and shift and change#doubt ill ever write all that tho but its solidfying in ny brain and i can see it so clearly#iwillspeakincessantly
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man I’m so happy for the interview fans. I’m happy to be watching this excellent show. I’m glad so much was changed and it all works. I love when there are drastic improvements on original works and revamped (HA!) adaptations find and emphasize the good parts of the story while confronting and handling the flaws. and when they still manage to be cohesive works on their own. delicious
#I've never read the og books but now I kind of want to just to compare them...I love adaptations I love seeing what's changed#and what's kept in and how the messages and themes and characters are altered or preserved#they didn't just do a colorblind retelling they actually adressed race#and in making louis and lestat explicitly gay they also take on confronting#quite directly the implications of tellng this story about their relationship#like daniel said...it's kind of awkward to tell this story about being preyed upon by a gay man and equating vampirism to being gay#which is really interesting in a way I'm guessing the og books weren't AND it maintains tone and keeps the viewer from being confused#bc it didn't just reach in and change one or two things this is a whole story with a cohesive theme#it makes sense#it's an excellemt adaptation. so far#this is something persuasion (2022) utterly failed at#and something I think cql could have definitely done a little better on...there were some very confusing lines that I think could have#been changed or omitte#wot was a decent adaptation just not a very good show lmao.#cor.txt
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part of my job as archivist for a LGBTQ center involves working with an interviewing elder queers, and the disconnect between our generation and theirs is so upsettingly palpable. so many young queers think that elders aren't up-to-date on identity politics and are "set in their ways" when it comes to understanding the nuances of gender and sexuality, but that is so incredibly far from the truth.
if anything, the real problem is in the reverse. young queers aren't giving the time of day to our elders and its only alienating all of us from our shared history. just about every elder I've spoken to is doing their best to understand how our identity politics have evolved and is actively supportive of our generation adding our language and experiences to our sprawling rainbow tapestry.
there is also this strange idea that elder queers no longer contribute to that tapestry, that their time is gone and its only the youth making progress. but again, that prevailing idea is just alienating our generations from one another. most elders I've spoken to are extremely active in the community and work hard to do what they can to preserve our histories and assist in current activism.
the fact of the matter is that we are losing our elders, both to time and estrangement, and it is critical that we make conscious efforts to bridge the gap before its too late.
TLDR: We have to do better when it comes to including queer elders in our current activism. They are our history, they are our family, and we need to give them the same love they give to us.
#lgbtq#queer#pride#idk what to actually tag this but. yeah#thoughts from the archivist's desk#im digitizing interviews from 2004 and.. ough#ok to rb#my stuff
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The day you noticed Lucifer was using his wings to court you.
☆彡 In birds, there is a great variety of nuptial displays at the time of courtship, especially in species that have melodious songs or show very striking plumage.
Little did you know, this would include angels or the king of hell himself.
☆ English isn't my first language. Sorry in advance.
☆ The reader is g/n; no pronouns or y/n are used.
You were always fond of birds, and you dedicated much of your life to helping preserve endangered species. You studied them, spent countless hours learning about the hundreds of species, a lot of diets and their behaviors.
This didn’t seem to stop once you found yourself in Hell; in fact, once you discovered there were a bunch of sinners with bird-like features, you just seemed content to be there.
When you arrived at the Hazbin hotel, you claimed one of the spare rooms as your personal studio, and after what you have called "the toughest battle in your life," you convinced Alastor to let you have a camera "as long as you never get that frivolous technology box near me."
Husk had to ask you not so politely to stop when you first met. Before you could even take his hand, you had started to ask questions about their wings; sometimes you even wrote on an oh-so-worn notebook of yours; it became a common topic of discussion between the two of you. When you forget he has work to do and start to take multiple pictures of his wings and even try to take one of his wings when he is not looking, Angel starts to think that your bartender friend is about to lose it, and you will end with a scratch or two.
Besides that, one could say that your presence in the hotel was appreciated; you could be found watching some funny shows on TV with Angel and never saying no to Vaggie when she asked for a favor. Soon, you started to feel part of the hotel, and the rest of the staff agreed with that.
☆◦ •◦☆
Lucifer was nothing like any man you had met in life or hell; he was, to put it simply, an awkward guy, always so silly yet so elegant. He had managed to get you longing for his presence more often than you would like to admit.
You are not sure how you and Lucifer became friends, but having a shared interest in ducks seemed to help. You gave him all kinds of facts about them, and he would step by your room every so often to show you the new rubber duck he was working on. Not that you're complaining, but one of his ducks set your courtains on fire on an occasion.
Charlie says that she is proud of his "social advances,” as she used to call your interactions. Seeing him out of his office more often and having an actual conversation with someone seems to make the princess happy and less worried about her father, and if that someone turns out to be you, it is so much better!
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The first time you noticed this weird behavior of his was the day you two met. You couldn’t help but mention, after his bickering with Alastor over who was Charlie’s father figure, that you found his wings precious. Lucifer, being the prideful man he is, wasted no time on extending his wings only for your delight, a smirk on his face as he saw your eyes wide admiring that part of him; they were so magnificent, you could swear they were shining in the light of the room, and you'd die to see if the feathers were as soft as they seemed.
Just a simple touch, please.
Before returning his wings to their place, there was a flutter of his wings, so slow that there was no way someone could notice.
But you weren't just someone; you knew it. What a coincidence! You could recap an article about some birds courtship.
The second time you saw it, you were in your room minding your own business. He came to you with a smile, but your eyes were looking past him, his wings on full display as he greeted you. There, his wings started flutter again, now lasting more than the last time. Now there is no way it was just a coincidence. “My eyes are up here, darling,” he said, that smirk on his face turning into a pout as you were not paying him enough attention. You just shake your head, focus on the man before you, returning your full attention to him, and the pout on his lips dissapears immediately as your eyes are on him.
☆◦ •◦☆
You are getting crazy; every time you get a glimpse of him, you find his wings moving in an oh-so-familiar way that you could swear it was a courtship dance, every time bolder than before.
That is when you decided to confront him, getting just a chuckle from him. It made you think maybe it was just your imagination, and you finally lost your mind.
While sitting on the hotel balcony, Lucifer was telling you one of his ideas for this new rubber duck. He said it would be the best one he would work on so far, even though you doubted that. Then you stopped listening, your eyes fixated on his wings. Every time he looked at you, they would flutter not so subtly, distracting you from everything around you. Your head rested on your palm, almost feeling bad for not listening to his rambling.
"Luci, you're courting me." It was supposed to be a question, but by the way the king of hell stopped his rambling and, looking at you with wide eyes, you found that maybe it was not.
"And what would make you think that?" He said mocking you, he also rested his head in one of their hands.
"Your wings, the way you move them," you pointed to his wings; they stopped his movements when you mentioned it; he just chuckled, then started to laugh. Was he laughing at you? It made you want to hide yourself from him; was it your imagination? No way.
"So you finally notice," he then said. Once his laugh was gone, he adjusted himself on his seat. Now, with both of his hands holding his face and looking at you with a smirk, his wings started to flutter once more. "I thought it would take you less time, may I be honest"
"Actually, I noticed it long ago; I thought it was just my—" You felt the air leaving your lungs once he got on his feet and moved closer to you. "...Just my imagination." You were not strange to his proximity, but this time he just looked so imponent, wings on full display and fluttering around. Now it was definitely a courtship dance, and you were on the receiving end.
"Now, what do you think?" He hovered over you who still sitting, a hand resting on the back of your seat, taking one of your hands on his and kissing your knuckles. The kiss lasted longer than you thought was the average time for one, and even then he didn’t let go of your hand. "Was my dance enough to impress you, darling?" Now, looking into his eyes, you could only see adoration, awaiting your response.
You couldn't speak; you can't imagine the king of hell pulling up something like this for you.
"My dear, please talk to me," he pleaded, a sigh leaving his lips as he hid his face in the crook of your neck. You could feel his warm breath in your skin, burning like hellfire.
"It was," you said, Lucifer now turning his face to look at you. You took his face in your hands and moved him closer, he gave you an inquisitive look but with no intention to move from your touch. "I should have mentioned it earlier; it was quite impressive." You smiled, and he did the same.
Now, how long you two kissed, you also don't remember; what you remember, however, is how he held you against him as if you were just about to disappear right then, and that when you finally got to touch his wings, you were proved wrong.
His feathers were much softer than you have imagined.
This idea came to me yesterday when my dad showed me a reel of a lady bird who epically ignored the male who was dancing to her, I felt so bad and immediately thought about Lucifer.
Likes and reblogs are appreciated 💞
#hazbin hotel#lucifer x reader#lucifer morningstar x reader#hazbin hotel x reader#Why did this took me so long?#nicolines
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Ignoring situations involving doxxing (which are more serious but also less common and easier to protect yourself from), the main goal of sustained harassment on here is to get you to delete your blog. You can probably keep most of your friends by adding them on discord or whatever, but the underlying logic in these cases is "you are a person who exists on the same part of the internet I use, and I want that to stop."
I reject the idea that moderation will ever be a solution to this problem, at least not without creating new, worse problems. But tumblr can and should provide users better tools for defending themselves.
Let's talk about tumblr's private blog feature. You can password-protect a blog, so that users have to enter the password before being able to see and interact with your posts. This is barely a step above deleting your blog.
You need to manually share this password with everyone you want to have access to the blog, which does not scale to a following in the thousands. You need to hope that no one ever leaks the password to your harassers, in which case your only recourse is to change the password and manually reshare it, again. This is a Bad System.
What does a good system look like? Consider twitter's private account feature. All your followers are preserved, but future followers have to ask to follow your blog. If you block a follower, they can't just create a new account and dodge the block - they're locked out. You keep your blog, you keep your following, you keep your friends, and no one outside your bubble can touch you.
There are still downsides here compared to not being harassed at all - people who don't already follow you can't see your posts - but it gives you a way to turn off the harassment spigot that can be easily reversed if/when your harassers get bored.
Combine this with a feature ideally for both private and public blogs (allowing only people you follow to reblog or reply) and I think the situation on this site improves a lot.
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We (somewhat rightly) mock the 2000's era fansub translation notes for their otaku fixations and privileging of trivia over the media, but they should be understood as serving their purpose for a bit of a different era in the anime fandom. Take this classic:
Like, its so obvious, right? Just say "pervert", you don't need the note! Which is true, for like a 'normie' audience member who just wants to watch A TV Show - but no one watching, uh *quick google* "Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne" in 1999 is that person. The audience is weebs, and for them the fact that show is Japanese is a huge selling point. They want it to feel as 'anime' as possible; and in the west language was one of the core signifiers of anime-ness. 2004 con-goers calling their friends "-kun" and throwing in "nani?" into conversations was the way this was done, and alongside that a lexicon of western anime fandom terminology was born. Seeing "ecchi" on the screen is, to this person, a better viewing experience - it enhances their connection to otaku identity the show is providing, and reinforces their shared cultural lexicon (Ecchi is now a term one 'expects' anime fans to know - a truth that translator notes like this simultaneously created and reflected).
But of course your audiences have different levels of otaku-dom, and so you can't just say 'ecchi' and call it a day - so for those who are only Level 2 on their anime journey, you give them a translation note. Most of the translation notes of the era are like this - terms the fansubber thought the audience might know well enough that they would understand it and want that pure Japanese cultural experience, but that not all of them would know, so you have to hedge. The Lucky Star one I posted is a great example of that:
Its Lucky Star, the otaku-crown of anime! You desperately want the core text to preserve as much anime vocab as possible, to give off that feeling, but you can't assume everyone knows what a GALGE is - doing both is the only way to solve that dilemma.
This is often a good guideline when looking at old memetically bad fansubs by the way:
This isn't real, no fansub had this - it was a meme that was posted on a wiki forum in 2007. Which makes sense, right? "Plan" isn't a Japanese cultural or otaku term, so there is no reason not to translate it, it doesn't deepen the ~otaku connection~.
Which, I know, I'm explaining the joke right now, but over time I think many have grown to believe that this (and others like it) is a real fansub, and that these sort of arbitrary untranslations just peppered fansub works of the time? It happened, sure, but they would be equally mocked back then as missteps - or were jokes themselves. Some groups even had a reputation for inserting jokes into their works, imo Commie Subs was most notable for this; part of the competitive & casual environment of the time. But they weren't serious, they are not examples of "bad fansubs" in the same way.
This all faded for a bunch of reasons - primarily that the market for anime expanded dramatically. First, that lead to professionally released translations by centralized agencies that had universal standards for their subs and accountability to the original creators of the show. Second, the far larger audience is far less invested in anime-as-identity; they like it, but its not special the way its special when you are a bullied internet recluse in 2004. They just want to watch the show, and would find "caring" about translation nuances to be cringe. And since these centralized agencies release their product infinitely faster and more accessibly than fansubs ever did, their copies now dominate the space (including being the versions ripped to all illegal streaming sites), so fansubs died.
Though not totally - a lot of those fansub groups are still around! Commie Subs is still kicking for example. They either do the weird nuance stuff, or fansub unreleased-in-the-west old or niche anime, or even have pivoted to non-anime Japanese content that never gets international release. But they used to be the taste-makers of the community; now they are the fringe devotees in a culture that has moved beyond them. So fansubs remain something of a joke of the 90's and 2000's in the eyes of the anime culture of today, in a way that maybe they don't deserve.
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i don’t think i’ve rewatched atla since becoming a committed pacifist and i just finished what was probably my tenth rewatch and i have never loved aang more. i've seen it so many times but i still came away with a new appreciation for the way the end of the story was handled. aang is the only survivor of a genocide and he is clinging to the last remnants of his culture and religion, and everyone is telling him the only way to save the world is to kill the dictator whose regime is responsible for the genocide, but to do so would abandon the deeply held beliefs of his people. if aang goes against his beliefs and kills ozai, his people's way of life dies completely and sozin wins.
aang knows it would be wrong but he can't see another way out so he prays for an answer, and the universe hears him and the spirits send out the lion turtle, and the creator answers him. and here's the thing that i never put together before today: aang would not have been able to energybend ozai if he had given in and wanted to kill him. the lion turtle tells aang that only the incorruptible can bend another’s energy, or else they will become corrupted themselves. and i think that aang, because of his love for the fire nation as he had once known it, was never corrupted by personal hatred for the fire lord or the fire nation. he was able to expertly hold two conflicting beliefs in harmony better than any adult could, the belief that ozai is a horrible person and the world would be better off without him and that he's still a human being with a life that is sacred.
and i don't think it's a matter of selfishness like some people make it out to be. aang is not some immature little kid who doesn't want to kill because killing is for bad guys. he's an incredibly wise and spiritual person who was shaped by airbender beliefs and upholds airbender beliefs, and he can see beyond the scope of this war. the balance of the world depends on the existence of the four nations, and aang does not just represent the air nomads, he IS the air nomads. he's all that's left.
despite many people’s interpretation of the four past avatars’ advice, none of the past avatars outright tell him to kill ozai. they tell him to be decisive, to bring justice, to be proactive, to be sacrificial. but none of them tells him definitively to kill him. he doesn't disobey or ignore their advice, he follows their ancient wisdom while still staying true to his beliefs. yangchen actually comes the closest to outright telling him to kill ozai (even more than kiyoshi, surprisingly) but what she fails to account for is that aang is not just the avatar, he is the last airbender, and being the last airbender is far greater a burden than being the avatar. no matter what happens, once he dies, there will always be another avatar. but if he is not careful to preserve the airbender way of life, there will be no more airbenders. yangchen could sacrifice her air nomad way of life for the sake of her duty to the world because there were thousands of other air nomads to continue their traditions. aang has no such privilege.
and it's not that he doesn't want to kill, it's that he actually doesn't think he can do it -- both that he won't be able to emotionally bring himself to kili someone, and, prodigy that he is, he doesn't have the raw bending skill to overcome a comet-powered master firebender. and then it turns from 'i don't think i can do it' into ‘i can’t do it.’ and when the avatar state gives him enough power to actually do it, he changes the answer to ‘i won’t do it.’ he overcomes all the combined power of his past lives to say no, i have found another answer and i will remain incorruptible. to kill is to maintain the power struggle of the fire nation and to reject air nomad wisdom and without airbenders the world CANNOT be brought into balance.
the only thing ozai cares about is power, and that's what the entire fight with ozai is about, physically and ideologically, because ozai only sees power in terms of force, fear, threats, and violence. to ozai, aang (and his entire people) are weak and undeserving of life because they are largely pacifists, but he fails to see the magnificent power that the airbenders do hold, spiritual wisdom and mastery of the self and contentment and joy and harmony and a deep understanding of the world that a man like ozai could never obtain. to kill ozai would ratify ozai’s worldview that power as he defines it is the most important pursuit in the world and the only way to assert one's right to be in the world is to be cruel and violent like him. i think to ozai, becoming powerless might be worse than being dead. he wants power, or he wants death, and aang gives him neither. it upends everything he believed in. aang, the avatar, but more importantly, the last airbender, armed by his past lives' power and his people's love and the spirit world's blessing and the lion turtle's omniscience (and toph's mastery of true sight through neutral jing), ends the war 100 years to the day after the air nomad genocide, in the way that his people taught him, with power that goes beyond force and violence, with spiritual wisdom, with an incorruptible soul, with mercy -- mercy that is not weakness, mercy that brings justice.
#they just don't make kids cartoons like they used to!!!!#also zuko said 'love and peace' in his coronation speech. i am squinting at bryan and mike. is that what it think it is#atla#aang#meta
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Do people judge a book by its cover? They absolutely do. They take one look at this, and they either often instantly hate it or love it.
Talking about how things should be is just yelling into the void. There is just reality. And this is the reality of being a self-published indie author.
People make complete conclusions based off of incomplete information. In this case, my book, there are no adults pressuring the boy into getting any surgery. There's no mention of surgery at all even. This person is thinking of a children's book written by a very popular political figure.
Some people have had the courtesy to ask me if it's like that book. It's not at all. It's not even political. It's a story told from the perspective of a kid who grows up knowing they are very different and yet can tell no one about it. Even saying a word about it would bring all of his deepest and darkest fears into reality.
The challenge was to make the story as dark and scary as I could without ever going too far for a children's book. There are already some scary children's books and movies out there that prove what's possible, and I worked with my illustrator, Marta, to push it as far as we could go. There's one page we had to re-do almost completely because even I said that's a bit much.
But I'm very happy with the final result because we also got to do so many fun and colorful pages like this.
There will be plenty more drive-by reviews as the book continues to grow and grow. They take one look and see a soapbox to express all of their disappointments and frustrations in life.
I think they might be scared of the book. The world they grew up in is slowly fading away day by day, and it's all they have come to know. They've been around for so long that everything has become a bore to them, and the only remaining pleasure is to escape into the past in order to better preserve it. I can oddly relate, actually.
So the book is on Amazon, and you can watch the whole thing for free on YouTube as well. If you get the chance, let me know what you think. Literally, watching it for free and then giving it a simple rating on Amazon is the best way to support the book. But I also love waking up to reviews like this every day.
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