Fear & Hunger meets American McGee's Alice anyone?

Assorted FFVI headcanons bc these blorbos live in my head rent free: Setzer edition

- Hair is often tangled from the wind

- Burns easily so his elaborate outfit is partially sun protection, partially because it's cold af in the sky

- Likes rabbits

- Also likes birds (envies them a little for being able to fly whenever they want, though)

- Drinks bougie coffee and wine

- Earned his wealth through unnaturally good luck

- Doesn't actually cheat when he's gambling, is often accused of doing so

- Descendant of the magi but has no idea (come on there's no other explanation for slot)

- Pansexual (please you cannot tell me this man is straight the queer energy is palpable)

- Big fuckin nerd when it comes to technology, especially anything flight related

- Best friends (with benefits) with Edgar bc they bond over their mutual love of machines

- Secretly very self-conscious, would rather die than admit it, the nonchalant act is a ruse

- Also secretly very lonely but he’s isolating himself on purpose to avoid being hurt again if they die (before he meets the returners, then he has lots of people to care about and is like “oh no”) 

Oh, the stupid noble sacrifice to try to protect the person you love from the dangers of your past because you know that the one most dangerous person you've ever known will be after him as long as you care about him so you can't care about him without risking his life and you can't risk his life.

Tew promised to always protect Guy but the only way he knows how to protect him right now is to convince Kenji he doesn't love him so Kenji will leave him alone and that's the only protection he knows how to give now.

I love this tiny idiot so much because he's hurting Guy in a desperate effort to save him not understanding that Guy doesn't want to be saved if it means being saved without him.

(And contrasting that with Boss caring for Kenji because he has nothing left and no reason to stay away from him. It's about being driven into the worst place in your life because you know your love can't be enough for the one person it was always meant for.)

lmao I found a relic of my old joanna design with emo hair (that's how her grandkids got it) but it only exists in cat form

art block has been mean to me lately but here’s a beej

I forgot to post the catboy sigma photo I made for the wonderful @diagonal-queen !!! She is such a beautiful angel and we are lucky she graces us with her existence 😌💕

Going on a very long car journey tomorrow and may write more Doctor Who fan fiction if I get bored. Any ideas?

🔮Crystal Bruno🔮& his pissed off sisters

Searching for a Miracle still has me in a choke-hold

@sokkas-first-fangirl

we went to a place for breakfast and we were in line to see how long the wait would be bc it was very crowded, but the woman in line in front of us had a daddy long leg on her back so i was like "excuse me, you have a spider on you. i can get it if you want?" and she did so i took it outside. but my spouse came out to say the wait was like an hour so we just left. so essentially i walked into this restaurant, took a spider off of some stranger, and disappeared

Honestly just feel like I keep taking steps backwards everyday and I hate I’ve become this person who’s still mourning his last relationship even though it was more than 9 months ago and I’ve tried everything to move on and forget about that part of my life. And everyone in my life is doing great and doing big things (which I’m so happy for) but I’m here living back with my mom and with a whisper of a livable wage job just doing the same thing every single day in a state/society that is constantly trying kill me with an incurable disease that decides to send me into a bedridden state several times a month, and I’m just tired and numb.

Very curious about what my fellow arospecs opinions on valentines day are

f's in the chat for all the people like me who slept through the ghildo drop and are now ghildoless. australian timezone curse of ra etc

007 Fest Scavenger Hunt #12: Here's a little known thing about Bond: he loves writing reviews (on Goodreads, on Amazon products, restaurants, etc). Write his most scathing review of the worst book/product he's ever had the misfortune to lay his eyes on. This can be a real book/product/service, or completely made up.

If you haven't yet enjoyed what real life events this fake review is based on, let me point you to the reviews of the Haribo gummy bears-turned-laxatives on Amazon. It's a delight.

CW: lots of mental illness stuff below (I'm okay, my brain is just very fast and full of bees)

It's funny how I went from, "Yeah, obviously 🙄" (expressed more politely) when someone very kindly suggested that I might be bipolar to, "... oh my God."

Like, specifically this is about the hypergraphia. I have been writing and re-writing thousands upon thousands of words a day for close to a week.

It doesn't seem like, clinically speaking, a huge amount from my completed word counts that I've been recording, but I cannot stress enough how long I have been spending editing and re-wording the things I am "working" on. It feels so important and I can't make myself stop editing and re-editing the same 300-400 words for five hour stretches minimum. It's kind of a problem!

I think it was the fact that this person made the parallel between how I'd been Posting™ a lot more often on Dreamwidth*, and the way I was expressing myself, and pressured speech, because like... I do that too, but I write a lot more than I talk out loud even at the best of times and it never really occurred to me that various symptoms that are typically expressed through speech might have analogous writing related symptoms. I mean! To be clear, I didn't think it was Fine Actually that I was so laser focused to the point of letting myself be in pain from needing to eat and go to the bathroom for hours because I couldn't tear myself away from the thing I was writing, but I thought of it as being more an "inappropriately fixated on a task" thing rather than as something related to speech or communciation. My knowledge of psychological and psychiatric terminology is deep rather than broad and I don't want to confidently state that I'm experiencing a particular symptom that I haven't fully understood the definition of, but like... yeah.

I'm also getting really caught up on expressing what I'm trying to say in a way that can't be twisted by bad actors (who are apparently all fucking djinn or something, because instead of just treating me badly they ironically do exactly what I've said they can do) or misunderstood. This is not a new problem either. Relatively recently I got caught in a loop of trying to explain what I meant by something to my sister and she said, "You know I'm not actually trying my best to cancel you?" And that's the thing! I keep acting like everyone I talk to is waiting to jump on the slightest ambiguous or poorly considered wording that could be interpreted as me saying something different to what I am trying to convey. And they categorically are not! I'm not a big enough deal on the internet to have people plotting my downfall!

But anyway. Apparently hypomania typically only lasts about a week for most people and it's been at least five days now. So like 🤞😬🤞

*Part of it is figuring out how to do stuff in HTML. I'm finding that sometimes when I'm getting really stressed and upset, figuring out how to do, Idk, anchor links or embedding an image that's also a link, or even just doing a Lot of random angled brackets shit calms me down again, or at least refocuses my attention. So, um, HTML as a compulsion maybe? Fun. Even my mental illness is nerdy though, how embarrassing.

3, 11, 21, 29 :3

3. What ideas come from when you were little

lately? like... ALL of them. I feel like working with mixed reality really brings my childhood imagination to life - giant dragon friend that hangs out in my living room, a glowing tree that give you gifts, portals into magical worlds... everything's just been 100% childlike imagination lately and I love it

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

usually lo-fi, synthwave, electronic, uhhhh...... various indie rock etc. I'm not very picky and just need background noise basically

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

all of them!! abstract, sculpture, found object, cutesy cartoon... I just love all art in all its forms!!!!!!

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

this one's a hard one because 1) I haven't been into that much media lately and 2) I feel like everything I ever experience inspires me in some way or another - especially so if it's something I really enjoy