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puppyeared · 6 months
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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kevindavidday · 13 days
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i was re-re-re-reading lessons in cartography by profenity (as one does) and i was hit with such an insane affection for andreil suddenly like i was 16 reading the same two people fall for each other and thinking yeah that sure is love and almost a decade later my thoughts haven't changed at all? cause ykw that™ sure is love
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melon-official · 1 month
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She wails as though a part of her has died.
oh man. i picked up the sidestory to @just-a-carrot's five-arc horror epic a couple days ago and i'm so glad i did. i'll probably be talking nonstop and/or drawing about it for days
there's a handful of whiteboard doodles with other characters under the cut, but rly i just wanted to pay a homage to the scene that hit me the hardest... enjoy
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arttrampbelle · 1 month
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Shang tsung doesn't need to be a "good guy" to be sympathetic or do nice or "good" deeds.
Y'all should understand that not everyone needs to be a hero to be redeemed.
That's some bullshit propaganda that y'all tend to fall for.
It's like that feeling of "if you pray to jesus,all you're sins in OUR eyes will be forgiven" type indoctrinated shit. Like no shade thrown,even as someone who is spiritual myself. I find people thinking that a villain in a story should become a hero in order to be redeemed,kinda suspicious.
Shang tsung,to me,has ALWAYS BEEN NUANCED. And already had benevolent qualities and traits. Y'all just only see one damn part of it because the writers suck at showing them properly.
Not to mention if a character isn't obnoxiously nice or mean,y'all don't pay attention to them.
It's like most of mk fans I've noticed,at least as of late. Feels like I'm talking to 3yr olds in media literacy.
So no. Shang tsung needs to be a NEUTRAL CHARACTER. not good,not evil,just self serving and even quite helpful as a tournament master as he is supposed to fucking be.
He is supposed to be that "keep your friends close,keep you enemies closer" type. He is the "the enemy of my enemies are my friends" type. He's scary intelligent,cunning,a master martial artist,a brilliant alchemist,and one badass mofo you do not wanna cross.
But most of all,he is courteous,a gracious host on his island,and his punishments are as great as his rewards. He does keep his end of the bargain,but he also gets compensation.
If anything you need to worry about earthrealms warriors more than him. Half of them now(due to piss poor writing) are hiding behind heroic deeds and false statements of peace yet they have unclean hands too.
With Shang tsung you know what you are dealing with,it's on the table. If you cant read the obvious,you are indeed a foolish one.
No matter what iteration of shang tsung you have. One thing is clear,made clear,and that is when you deal with him. You deal with the devil so to speak.
So if you're not smart nor prepared. That's on your ass honey. Not his. Do not blame him for your stupidity.
But if you know how to play the game,play chess with the serpent. And know these archetypes. Then you may have a better shot. But that's all on you.
Either way,in your favor or not. Do not blame him for telling you exactly what is needed to be said,not what you wanna hear. Honeyed words or not,there's always a sliver of truth and bitter pill of truth in his words. And he's good at making either people hate his guts or bow and worship him.
THAT IS WHY HE'S DANGEROUS. not because of magic,or experiments and other trival bullshit.
Nah.
It's because shang tsung is good at talking. Good at trades and making you believe whatever is what he wants you to see.
Even if it may go against him. He wants you to fuck up,get angry at him,attack,be unbalanced,so he can fuck your shit right up!
Holy shit this mans whole ass moveset is zoning and keeping you in a certain place in the stage even!
It's part of his whole damb character.
I could go on and on. But do not blame to serpent for telling you information for questions you ask him. You're the one who chose to bite his apple of enlightenment and knowledge so to speak.
Which is why the gods,titans,etc want these kombatants,warriors to be stupid. So they are easy to control,to get what they want.
Like it's glaringly obvious that mortal kombats story has these type of tropes and symbolism in it. But people are too blind,for various reasons. To see it.
I could get deep. It's a videogame,i know. It is what it is.
But the more i look at mk12/mk1 shang tsung. The more i feel its a missed opportunity to showcase these themes better for him.
Like holy shit dude. Shang tsung pointing out the hypocrisy of the gods. And whispers in our earthrealm warriors ears. And maybe convincing a few to join his side. Or even better. Our heroes,kung lao and mortal raiden to question liu kang and not blindly follow like fucking idiots. Sure just trust this dude right? Bruh.
Shang tsung is the only one with a brain once again. And i hate them making everyone else so stupid to make him seem better in the shithole plot of theirs. If you can call it a plot.
It burns me,that it's a waste of potential.
But i digress.
Anyways. Shang tsung,way more than an evil conjurer of tricks my dudes. Waaaaaay fucking more.
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hooned · 4 months
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i can’t believe i took these photos oh my god i luckily had a great view of the entire concert and wow, again, had thee absolute time of my life. ❤️‍🩹 enhypen, you will always be loved by me.
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cupophrogs · 10 months
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@dxkjf I’m sorry but Loona and Ami would be besties tbh (extrovert and the introvert she adopted lmao)
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Full page :DD
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[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.
#Then there's also a part of me that's like “does anyone even care at this point? haven't I already talked about them too much?”#but I have seen many a take that irk me...#and perhaps at the center of it all nagging at me is that persistent conflation of love and pride#Less about that in Normal's mind so much as in Will's and the fandom's 🤔#Also that reoccurring issue of the fandom going ''Normal thinks this therefore it is The Truth'' though I believe I've discussed this befor#And... Hooks Will could have grabbed onto but didn't... Quite a few of those...#And the double standard/negativity bias in fandom of ignoring that Sparrow says both that he loves and likes Normal while doodlerized#But not treating those with the same legitimacy we do the pride thing. And ignoring Sparrow's demonstrations of love and change...#And what the love wolf scene actually implies about Sparrow (as I see it) with his own explanation of the pride thing in mind#But also!!! Also on Norm's epilogue and how despite everything taken at face value (i.e. no teen talk influence) I don't actually hate it#and I think it's plenty salvageable#And gah also that like *regardless* of how things turn out with Normal and his dad-#Well I haven't listened to much of the teen talk just the directly Sparrow-relevant clips#so I don't know quite how cynical Will is or isn't about Normal's future#But like. UGH. What I'm trying to say is even if things didn't find resolution vis-a-vis his dad#(which tbh I could go either way on- it's the meta misinterpretations of Sparrow that Bother me not so much Normal's)#(Well that's complicated. Again it comes back to the love vs. pride thing gosh this is so vague of me lol)#With all the positive influences in his life (and just the fact that life is long? and therapy is a thing?) I just don't see Normal-#being Miserable for the rest of his life. Like. I mean I won't elaborate here really but damn it no he can absolutely turn out alright stil#blugh#BUT YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN THAT'S A LOT OF STUFF AND THAT'S ONLY VAGUE RAMBLINGS ABOUT *SOME* OF IT#Like I'm proud of a lot of my essay posts (which I'm hoping to eventually compile in a masterpost eventually actually) but they take a whil#And if my heart wants to do other things... Ah idk...#ANYWAYS a vent to vent a vent to vent
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boltgunkiller-archive · 4 months
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i find it damn near impossible to get mad at santana’s behavior in 3x06 and 3x07 because i genuinely do think she had the right to be lashing out at everybody. sue me idk
#idgaf if she was mean to kurt and blaine when they were “trying to help” in IKAG#they were the first performance & santana was put under the spotlight by the guy who fully outed her to the ENTIRE STATE OF OHIO & now she#-was expected to be just happy and jolly about some bullshit lady music week to celebrate women as if that has anything to do with wtf just#-happened to her by finn’s hands & of course she was upset because she was only back in the new directions because finn basically#-blackmailed her into rejoining like hello!!! so of course she was snippy with them… and tbh i don’t even think she was being that mean.#i think she’d have reason to be even MEANER actually. that reaction of hers was completely reasonable. and honestly it must’ve hurt seeing#-two people who are meant to Get what it’s like.. participate in that? especially when the last thing she wants is her sexuality that she’s#-still very insecure with Being broadcasted. to the whole damn club. it’s already about to be shown to all of ohio with names addresses#-details about her whole personal life etc like she really didn’t need that spotlight right then she needed to have space and love and#-support… none of which she got.#also the glee writers tend to make a character do a bad thing and then have another character do an INFINITELY WORSE THING#and then they’re like “oh but. the first character was being so mean. this absolutely deplorable and wayyyy too far reaction is definitely#-justified now because that was just so mean of the first character ugh!” and basically spins what happened into showing the first characte#-as the most evil person alive??? as if that’s even remotely true.??? and yes this is about santana cause they do this w her#and quinn. a LOTTTT. like a LOT. rn i’m talking ab santana though so i won’t cover quinn sorry fabrayers… one day!#like yes santana was being mean sure whatever. but finn didn’t have an excuse IDGAF what the hell anybody says about the body shaming stuff#it was mean. yes that’s true. but i don’t think you understand how different those two things are#they’re both bad but the outing is infinitely more despicable and personal and filled with malice and it’s so much more endangering in a wa#-that can’t even be compared to the dangers of body shaming you know. like they’re completely different and the outing thing is just too#-personal and Wrong like. idk. just get that through ur head they’re both so different and finn went way too far and personal. he could’ve#-just mocked her looks if he really wanted to get back at her. mocked ANYTHING else. but he chose the worst thing you could do to somebody#who is scared and in the closet and hurting#also yes santana’s written to be rude a lot of the time but her degree of rudeness in those episodes was Overplayed and def not in characte#like it didn’t feel much like santana’s brand of meanness it was 100% the writers trying to justify finn more because they continued to#-paint finn as the good guy who chose the high road… when that couldn’t be further from the truth thanks. he didn’t choose the high road he#-completely blackmailed santana and used her to make him look good basically. so you can’t change my mind on that Def being a writer issue#and just them Hating Women. especially santana. thanks.#also this is all coming from somebody who loves finn. so. 🤣#i fuckingggg hate seeing people say santana was mean and had no right to be doing all of that in those eps.. BITCH YES SHE DID#like in other eps sure (<- nuanced topic/take) but this one? No. she was justified IDGAF. should’ve been meaner
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joyflameball · 5 months
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I’d like you hear your rant on the encore cuz my feelings on it are mixed
I'm really, really conflicted on Encore, because like. There's a lot of stuff that I like about it. I like the insight into Charlie and Maxwell's relationship. I like seeing the eighth William Carter puzzle animated. I like Wilson (the survivor who knows maxwell best) realizing something's not right at the end. I like seeing the other survivors worried about Maxwell. I like Maxwell having to confront his past.
And I don't hate Maxwell being a double agent. I don't hate Maxwell going bad again for a bit. It makes sense for Maxwell's character. He absolutely has guilt over what he did to Charlie. He hurt her deeply, got her killed, and is the main reason she was transformed into the Night Monster.
And hell, I'm not against there being a double agent! I'm not against showing Maxwell's guilt! I'm not even against Maxwell going antagonist again at some point! I'm not against Charlie being manipulative! I'm not against a lot of the individual choices in Encore!
I just... don't like how it all came together. And my main complaint is that I really dislike what this did for Charlie's character.
Because like. Okay. Charlie hates Maxwell. In the game files, there used to be these quotes from her showing her resentment towards him. "Pride... Arrogance... Conceit... / This was your fault... / You did this..." And in her play, Maxwell is cast as a cruel monstrous tyrant hoarding magic for himself. She despises him for what he did to her, for dragging her into the Constant, for ripping her away from her home, her life, her family.
So here's my question. why in fuck's name is she dropping all that hate to team up with Maxwell again?
And like- you can say she's just using him to get to the team and get them out of her way, just using him as a double agent for now. You can argue that. Okay. Yeah. She's being clever and manipulative to get a double agent in the team.
But if that's the intention, it fails, because she's... really not being clever at all. Maxwell is literally the only one with a checkered history with the survivors, the one who dragged most of them here. He literally put Wilson through horrible trials and Wilson tried to beat him up for it. He is literally the least trustworthy of everyone there.
If Charlie made her choice of a double agent out of pure calculated logic and not out of an emotional place, then this is just bad writing. Because they'd have been trying to make her smart, when Maxwell is literally the stupidest fucking choice possible. Wilson immediately realized some shit was up with him. It's not clever of her, it's just. GIRL WHAT???
Okay, but you could also argue that her emotions towards Maxwell are clouding her judgement, because she's got conflicted feelings towards him. After all, she's implied to have been in love with him at some point. She loved him once, but at the same time she resents him for what he did.
Which, yes, that is also interesting and wonderful and I wish that was actually explored. Because from what I've seen, Charlie goes from "I fucking hate Maxwell so much I hate him I hate him he DID this to me he got me KILLED" to "Hey Maxy <3 Quit the survivors :3 Join my emo band :3"
Her being conflicted about Maxwell is never shown. We've never seen a moment from her where she's torn between love and hate for him. The closest we see is when she appears to him in Encore, and her face goes from this furious glare to a calm smile. That's it. That's all we've got. She doesn't even appear conflicted when putting the Maxwell chesspiece on the board, she just grins evilly. We see no conflict behind her, no depth. Just her being an evil queen.
(This is also a problem I have with base adventure mode, that Maxwell has no depth until the final chapter, and up to then is just a pure evil overlord tormenting you, making Maxwell's depth in Checkmate feel kinda out of nowhere, OSP has a video where she covers this problem for a minute, but we're not talking about that. What we're talking about right now is Charlie.)
In my mind, at least how I'm reading it, it feels like this choice wasn't really made considering Charlie's character, it was just made considering Maxwell's. Because it makes perfect sense for Maxwell to join her, but not much sense for Charlie to offer him to join.
Which isn't how you do character shit. If you want one character to offer another a choice, you need to consider if it makes sense for both parties.
To be completely honest, this writing choice flattened Charlie down for me, from "ruler of the Constant who despises the man who put her here and has this deep, painful love for her sister" to "evil manipulative queen."
I don't like it. I don't like what it did for her. Charlie I'm so sorry Encore did that to you you deserve so much better
Overly Sarcastic Productions has a video on plot twists where she lays out her criteria for what she considers a bad twist. One of them was "The plot without the twist would be more interesting."
And to be honest, that's how I feel about Encore. You could do so many more interesting things in the story without Encore. I feel like you could explore Maxwell's guilt further without the twist, and it'd feel more interesting. You could show Maxwell trying to fully gain the survivors' trust, since ya know, he dragged them all into the Constant (and for several of them, it was when they were emotionally vulnerable), and it would be far more effective without Encore.
And you still do everything good Encore does, just different, and better.
Showing Maxwell's guilt: You could do that in a myriad of different ways. And they HAVE done it well so far! His quote for the Codex Umbra in base game fills me with this deep, intense sense of grief! And you could do it more!!
And hell, his quotes about the Comedy and Tragedy statues have a far more interesting insight than Encore- "She's still in there somewhere. I know it." and "Her tragedy does not define her."
That's far more interesting to me! He wants to find some way to bring Charlie back to how she was, and he can't!! The Charlie he knew is gone!! Have him pursue the fruitless endeavor of trying to save the person Charlie was despite that girl being dead because he killed her!! Please!! God!! Explore that!! That's incredibly interesting!!
Showing Charlie and Maxwell's relationship: Buddy this could be done in so many different ways. Hell, it could be done in a way similar to Encore, minus the "Quit the survivors join my emo band" part.
If done right, it could reinforce Charlie's hate for him (which has been a consistent trait). If she showed Maxwell all their memories together, and showed him what happened to her afterwards, to hurt him for hurting her. To effectively tell him This is what you did to me. You hurt me. And I will never forgive you.
Because like. Yes Charlie has become more powerful than she could've ever dreamed. Yes Charlie is now queen of an entire world.
But shockingly enough, dying and being turned into a shadow demon and having the compulsion to murder anyone who steps into the darkness is traumatic.
Maxwell ruined her life. Maxwell pulled her into the Constant and got her killed. Charlie should have gotten a normal life on Earth with her sister, and had a normal job and normal hobbies as a normal girl. None of this ever should have happened. She became powerful, yeah, but at a horrifying price. Like bitch I'm arguably more mature about setting boundaries while still being a good friend after my trauma, doesn't mean it's good that it happened!!
(yeah thinking about it, this is another thing i really fucking dislike abt encore. that she's coming across as kinda grateful to max for. you know. getting her killed. maybe i'm reading too much into it and that 100% wasn't the intention, i'm not accusing klei of anything there, but. that's honestly just kinda weird and slimy to me like in what world)
Have Maxwell confront his past: See above, but also you don't even necessarily need Charlie for this. A fact Klei is shamefully neglecting storywise is that Wendy is Maxwell's fucking niece. She's the daughter of Maxwell's fucking brother, who he hasn't seen in ages.
That could be another confronting-his-past moment for him, and something incredibly interesting to explore! Because Wendy's the last piece of Jack that Maxwell has left- and arguably, the last piece of William Carter he has left. And Maxwell is an uncle Wendy never knew who vanished when she was like two, and the last surviving family member she has right now.
Would she latch onto him, having lost everyone else in her family and not wanting to lose him too? Would Maxwell try to bond with her now that he knows she's the last piece of his brother he has, or would he try his best not to, since she also serves as his last connection to the man he was before? Would Maxwell even tell Wendy once he realized? How would their dynamic be altered? How the fuck would Maxwell feel learning that he dragged his own niece into the Constant when she was in that desperation to get her sister back? Good god, can you imagine the emotional baggage there that could be unpacked?
Klei PLEASE give me Maxwell and Wendy interactions!! PLEASE!!! I'M STARVED OF ALL THE INTERESTING FAMILY INTERACTIONS BETWEEN YOUR GUYES!! EXPAND ON THE INTERESTING ELEMENTS YOU'VE INTRODUCED PLEASEEEEEE I'M BEGGING YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
The Compendium desc for this short implies Maxwell may have joined her out of at least a little power hunger: YOU CAN HAVE THAT HAPPEN WITHOUT CHARLIE. DST has introduced a myriad of different ancient powers to tap into. Maxwell being tempted by one of those could be done!
And it could be more interesting too- showing how he really doesn't want to be powerless, like he was before he had the Codex. He needs power, he needs to be The Amazing Maxwell. He can't ever be powerless, like the man he was before. That's something that hasn't been explored with Max, but could be! And this could be strengthened if like, he was losing touch with the Codex, and felt a sort of panic about it.
Maxwell going evil again: See above!! Maxwell being like "HEY GUYS I GOT THIS COOL POWER" and everyone being like "MAXWELL FOR FUCK'S SAKE WE KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME YOU GOT AHOLD OF ANCIENT POWERS" and Maxwell being like "OKAY FUCK YOU ALL, I'M NOT GONNA BE POWERLESS LIKE EVER AGAIN" that would work!!! It would work!!!
Double agent storyline: Okay. I am gonna do a whole ramble about this. Because I think Charlie having one of the survivors working for her would be a cool plot point. Charlie having someone on the inside so she could spy on them more effectively, that would be cool! And it makes sense, since they're trying to do a whole chessmaster thing with her, and having someone on the inside would help her a lot!
But it shouldn't have been Maxwell. And I've explained in depth why.
It should have been Winona.
Now, this is partially a me thing, because I find Winona and Charlie's relationship far more fascinating than Maxwell and Charlie's, and I think Winona and Charlie's relationship has been shamefully underexplored. Klei you bastards you're neglecting all the interesting stuff and instead either introducing more interesting stuff or making cute shit
But like- Think about it! It absolutely makes sense for Winona's character, first of all- she searched over ten years for Charlie, she would do anything for her sister. And from what we have seen, she's fairly selfless- she singlehandedly repaired the portal to save Wagstaff, and she immediately moved to save her coworker in her short.
So having her betray the team because of her intense love for her sister would be so incredibly interesting! It would show that yes, she is selfless, she wants to help her friends. But she wants to help her family more. If she has to choose between the survivors she's known for some number of months, and the sister she searched for over a decade to find, she will choose her sister. In a heartbeat.
It would hammer in that at the end of the day, Winona would do absolutely anything to help and protect and be with her sister, including backstabbing her friends. Because she loves her sister, loves her so much it hurts. She just got her back, only to discover she'd been turned into a shadowy monster. She can't lose her again. She can't. Never again. No matter the cost.
(Her triumphant skin having the rose on the back hurts me personally btw and could serve as foreshadowing since no other triumphant skin has a rose on it. you get me)
And to me, it makes more sense for Charlie as well! She does love her sister, she loves her a lot! Her quotes in the game files about Winona are painful! And one of those quotes is "I should like to speak, face to face." So there'd be a level of foreshadowing for it- and best of all, it's not super dramatic foreshadowing, it's that type of foreshadowing that hits more on a second viewing.
Charlie wanting to ally herself with her sister again would be so interesting. She hasn't seen her sister in god knows how long- decades, centuries. And she's so different, she's changed so much. Charlie's different too- they're effectively strangers to each other. And her sister, who was always a bit overprotective with her, loves her still, after however long it's been. Despite what she is now.
So Charlie could want to bond with her sister again, to become sisters again, and figure, hey, why not kill two birds with one stone? Get a double agent, and be able to talk with your sister again. She gets her sister back. At last. And they both have to learn who the other is now.
And if ya wanna show the new Queen Charlie having a manipulative streak, you could still have that with Winona! And in my opinion, it would hurt more! Because this is one of the first times Winona's seen Charlie in years! And it would also make things more complicated on Charlie's side- despite the fact that she does love Winona deeply, she is still manipulating her, because love and manipulation aren't mutually exclusive. You could ask why is she manipulating her sister, and there could be an incredibly interesting answer to that, while still being like Don't Fucking Manipulate Your Sister.
This would also strengthen Charlie's chessmaster vibe, since- picking MAXWELL as her double agent is fucking stupid of her, pretty much everyone has SOME distrust/annoyance towards him, EXCEPT WES. So like. Yeah no shit someone noticed right away Max was acting off and had a creepy rose on his lapel
But Winona? That would be far smarter of Charlie in-universe. Everyone on the team at least likes Winona. She's one of their friends. She builds machines to help them. WX trusts her enough to let her repair them. So Charlie picking Winona as her double agent would be smarter of her, since not many would suspect Winona.
Except maybe Maxwell, the only other person who's had as much experience being around Charlie as Winona has. Which- more interesting stuff! You could use that to like, see how much the team trust Maxwell at this point. We've pretty much only seen him team up with Wilson at this point.
You could show him trying to team up with someone else to figure out why Winona's acting weird. Illustrate how the team are starting to fully trust him, and what he's doing to make up for his Crimes. Show him teaming up with his literal fucking niece. Show him teaming up with Willow, who we KNOW once worked for him. Hell, show him teaming up with Wilson again, to show how their friendship has grown since Cyclum! That could help bring Wilson back into focus as the protagonist, and actually give him more depth through his friendship with The Guy Who Tried To Feed Him To Hounds. god wilson needs depth so bad him being just silly makes him work fine enough but goddddd
This brings up- another reason I feel it'd work more for Winona over Maxwell is like. We all know Maxwell is gonna go good again. Like that's fairly obvious, at least to me. I highly doubt DST is gonna make him evil again permanently. Like yeah you get that sinking sense of dread as he takes the rose and becomes a shadowy chess piece on her board, but like. That is in no way gonna be permanent and we all know it.
But if Winona was the one betraying the team, there would be a lot more uncertainty about it! Like- think about it! Winona feels far more like she'd fully switch allegiance and become an antagonist, at least to me! She has more reason to! She JUST got her sister back, she ain't letting her go! It feels more tense and heartwrenching, at least to me, that Winona would become an antagonist. MAXWELL'S ALREADY BEEN AN ANTAGONIST, WE'VE GOT THE ENTIRE BASE GAME FOR ALL THAT. LET WINONA HAVE HER TURN FOR CHRIST'S SAKE WE NEED MORE WOMEN'S WRONGS HERE
And if ya wanna have an emotional gutpunch through a betrayal, than tell me, what's stronger and more interesting: Maxwell falling back into old patterns and joining Charlie for a chance at redemption and power again, or Winona backstabbing the survivors out of the love that drove her to search for her sister for ten years? In my opinion, the second one wins. (And the first one could have elements of it executed in the second one.)
Like... there were so many other, better ways to achieve what Encore achieved. And it just annoys me. Encore had so much potential to be far far better, but it just feels weird as a plot development. There's so much I like, but what I don't like outweighs it for me. heartbreaking: piece of media you like made a plot decision that is so fucking stupid I should be allowed to write Don't Starve I'd do so much better than those cunts
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solomon-tozer · 1 year
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Select bits from Sir John's funeral that I just love...
So we have Crozier reading out the part about Jacob dreamed about a ladder, set upon the earth, "and the top of it reaching to the heavens"...
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...as we see Collins and Stanley, the two characters whose mental health is a defining part of their character arcs.
Then, "Behold the Lord stood above it and he said, 'I am with thee ...'" as the focus shifts to Goodsir.
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"'... and will keep thee in all places, wherever thou goest'".
Goodsir, who later questions "is God here?"
The following line and shot are "'for I will not leave thee'" as we see Jopson and Blanky.
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The two men Crozier left. Blanky knew Crozier was, just earlier that day, planning to leave them. Jopson likely knew, as it's remarked later that he knows everything, and perhaps he's the one who tidied away the unsealed letter and wax.
Then the Terror lieutenants, with MacDonald too. "And in Jacob's dream he saw the invisible world, companion to the known one we perceive."
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The men who were privy to Crozier's alcoholism, and were part of maintaining that separation between officers and men... but also Hickey and Irving 'perceived' Hickey's true nature.
So, of course, when we have: "So complete it would seem to leave no room for its invisible brother world" as we see Hickey...
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that otherness, that not belonging, keeping out of sight, experiencing thing in such a different way but no one notices or even thinks it's there...
And then going back to a shot of the men gathered at Sir John's funeral. "The departed..."
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"...who though cleaved from the frame that carried them yet live." They are all departed. Dead. Crozier is the only one who doesn't die, but he certainly doesn't 'stay' in the world he's expected to.
The contrast of the words of virtue and strength, from scripture and used to describe Sir John and saying he's "destined to reign with Christ forever", being heard as we see Hickey in Gibson's cabin.
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The white glove over the hand that will offer up Hickey's tongue, his left hand reverently touching the spot, the fact that, all that time later, Hickey has come to believe that he can be a new god and reign...
Finally, for this post, we have "and see His truth amongst us" as Hickey reads Crozier's resignation letter, discovering the truth of Crozier's actions.
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And not one of them is god, or has the truth. They are all in this terrible place where the sun has set, in this strange world they don't understand, in this "invisible world of spirits".
There's so much in this scene, so many links, that I just lose my mind every time.
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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months
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#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought#i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy#its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere#bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like#normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes#possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my#reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it#i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything#in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place#i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass#i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired#god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or#read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill#so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating#its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage#bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn#unrelated
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ssreeder · 3 months
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Hi pook 😢 ( sorry if u don’t like the nickname) but I’ve been reading your series and I am reading Into the Fire (chapter 8) and I’m just wondering why you made Sokka give in so easily when people tell him to control himself that’s not Zuko. Because I would imagine that he would be more stubborn and more focused on what he wants instead of being caring. Even though he’s a caring and kind person I feel like being in prison would make him more selfish and less understanding of other people if than makes sense 😭
Like it just aggravates me when I see Katara try to idk really baby him and control him a bit (not mentally) it just kind of annoys me. Because even though Sokka loves his Sister I feel like he shouldn’t listen to her for real.
But that’s just me because that’s my opinion coming from someone behind has anger issues/ gets angry easily 🤷‍♀️
I love love love this series btw!!!!
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I added your other ask too so I could respond to both! Hiiii hellooooo I don’t mind nicknames it’s actually nice because then I can keep anons apart haha
as for your comment about sokka I gotta say you’re probably the first person to tell me sokka isn’t angry enough haha. Which is fine because everyone’s allowed to have their own opinions, but my thoughts on LIAB angry sokka is his intelligence is often battling his emotions. I think sokka is smart enough to know he isn’t supposed to be lashing out at people the way he is or clinging to Zuko so tightly to where they both can’t breathe. i also think he is desperate to be back to his “old self” without actually wanting to be his old self. I do think he is fighting his path to healing every step of the way but even with all the time spent in prison he is still SOKKA. He cares for people he loves his family and he knows from watching his parents growing up what a healthy relationship looks like - his codependency to zuko is probably not it. I doubt it will change much, but when people tell him ‘you need to chill’ Sokka is very much like I FUCKING KNOW BUT I HAVE NO CHILL!!! NONE! ZERO CHILL.
but I can’t imagine sokka wanting to hurt anyone who doesn’t deserve it. Or fighting his friends and family to isolate himself anymore than he already is. I have learned that writing a more emotionally triggering fic does stir up emotions in people and causes them to project onto the characters a bit which is fine but everyone processing trauma differently. & sokka is doing it his own way just like zuko is.
Also…. This is a fanfic and I don’t know if people wanna read sokka being a raging asshole for 50k… so some of the realism in healing gets lost to word count because unfortunately I can’t spend years and 1000k helping these boys overcome their trauma so some of it has to be rushed a little for word count / plot purposes haha.
Liiiiiiisten here pooki-anon you come yell at me anytime about liab I’ll be right here to soak up every word! Thanks for the ask I’m glad you’re enjoying the series!!
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themyscirah · 19 days
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This is technically a Diana's age poll but I framed it partially around Julia's rescue because that's the event I need to contextualize and whether or not Diana is a thing yet is p important for my purposes. I would keep the Pérez run and postcrisis continuity in mind when answering this bc that's when this is relevant but I'd keep in mind that even though Diana is very young there (like early 20s) we don't know I don't think if she ages differently as a child (esp as a themysciran AND being made from clay) and in some versions she is older than she looks and was made earlier
Edit: I accidentally logic-ed this out in the tags lol 🤦‍♀️but feel free to still vote however you want. Going to publish this anyway bc I think I made some good points later in my tags
#blah#the 45 years is a guesstimation of julias age w her being in her late 40s#bc she has a middle school aged daughter which would make you lean a bit younger but shes also highly respected prof at harvard (is she the#dept head? i think so. and has a career that would suggest older. and shes also drawn middle aged so 🤷‍♀️#i would say late 40s early 50s for her honestly. but i moved it down a lil bit bc of vanessas age#wait shit i may have contradicted logic here bc wasnt the diana trevor stuff supposed to have happened before dianas birth. and that was#wwii. which would be btwn 42 and 45 years. BC PÉREZ!TREVOR IS OLD I FORGOT THAT#okay so actually there still could be a question of what happened first the timeline would just be much shorter#but then wouldnt julias family be boating during wwii? that makes no sense#im definitely thinkimg too hard about this probably. logically it would make the most sense if diana was like 20smth in reality. but thats#its own basket of worms honestly. like what do you mean hippolyta only had like 20 yrs w her daughter out of a lifespan of thousands of#years. what do you MEAN she became champion and ambassador so young like#like also thats the point though. she had to wear a mask in the challenge for a reason. her inexperience with men is what makes her the kind#of ambassador they need. and her youth and relation to hippolyta and role as the baby of the amazons is one of the things that makes her#ambassadorship SO important is bc she fulfills that role in an ancient sense. where it would be a sign of great trust and respect to send#someone close to the crown as an envoy bc it shows you mean business and arent going to reneg on whatever the deal is. bc if you do they#shoot the messenger#god anyways i very much answered my own question here in the tags like 100%. esp in regards to the pérez canon bc he very much laid this out#and i was trying to weasel my way out of it. only that didnt work and the decisions he made he made for a reason and they have huge#narrative importance. damn. okay then#i always write the shittiest posts and the best tags and then have to keep the post to keep the tags#i rlly need to make these tags posts ugh. anyways keeping this up bc of my tags abt diana and ambassadorship#also sidenote I LOVE HIPPOLYTA#just though id mention that. i love how much shes motivated by love and i also love when she makes fucked up decisions bc of that and has to#live with them. woman of all time FOR REALS#god this is making me want to reread historia again lol bc its the one ww comic i own. also its fire. and hippolyta gets to make shitty#decisions motivated by emotion and live w the consequences. and the comic is actually good unlike when that happened in the messner-loebs#run. which was the other instance of that ive read rlly. 10000% sure there are others but i havent fully gotten there yet.#i mean ive read other comics where she makes painful decisions thats like her whole deal but there are different vibes to those than the two#i mentioned. like the exile thing in ww year 1 or rlly anytime she has to send diana away
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chappellrroan · 3 months
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it's almost like if i dont let the whole world know about my new hyperfixtation i will burst into flames
#preacher's daughter both family tree songs#how she says in family tree “heaven hath no fury like a woman scorned and baby hell don't scare me i've been times before”#and western nights “i would hold the gun if you asked me to but if you love me like you say you do will you ask me to?”#the whole house in nebraska song UGH#the outro of hard times i am tired of you still tied to me bleeding whenever you want too tired to move to tired to leave#american teenager gracie's cover i love you so so so so much i do it for daddy and i do it for dale i am doing what i want DAMN i am doing#it well#ptolemaea that stop scream i am the face of love's rage blessed be the daughters of cain bound to suffering eternal through sins of their#fathers commited long before their conception that whole outro in general#i tried to be good am i no good? am i no good? am i no good?....i just wanted to be yours? am i yours? am i yours?...if i am turning in you#stomach and making you feel sick am i making you feel sick? am i making you feel sick? am i making you feel sick? is just SO AGH#also god loves you but not enough to save you I FORGIVE IT ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO ME#we know how it goes the more it hurts the less it shows but i feel like they all know and that's why i can never come back home and i spent#my life watching it go by from the sidelines and god i have tried but i think it's about time i put up a fight#and the instrumental songs their production is so so good#anyways yeah now i feel better if anyone is reading till here go listen to it thanks <3#it's great for people with family issues#v.txt
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lesbiansanemi · 14 days
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I don’t often think I’m upset at not having a good relationship with my parents but sometimes it really fucking hits me that I don’t have a good mom I don’t have a dad I’ll never experience having a good parent and someone I can lean on like that and I get… really upset
#I have this coworker who is about my mom’s age#I love her and she’s a wonderful person and she’s such a good parent to her kids#her autistic queer kids and she fights for them and defends them all the time#she values their interests and does things they love with them and supports their choices and jusy#ugh#today she gave me a hug because ‘it’s really seemed like I wasn’t doing okay’#and ‘I’ve been dealing with a lot of hard things and big life changes which she knows is really hard’#and I kinda teared up#my own parents don’t even know about everything that has happened with my roommate or the friends I’ve lost this year#I don’t tell them. and I could but it wouldn’t matter#my mother wouldn’t care. she definitely wouldn’t sympathize or give me a hug over it#she wouldn’t comfort me#my dad my try but he lives thousands of miles away#and I love my dad but I didn’t get to know him until I was 17#I don’t think he’s really like… a dad you know?#he’s more like some weird friend or MAYBE an uncle than anything#which is fine! I think it’s really the best we can do and like I said I do love him and I know he loves me#but it’s still… different than a parent you know?#and sometimes I just ache knowing I don’t get parents…#I don’t get that relationship that so many ppl have that’s so important to them#and it just doesn’t feel fair and makes me feel really sad#I’m glad I’m as independent as I am but even that doesn’t feel fair#I’ve lived on my own since I was 17…. I never should have had to do that anyways….#and I just feel sad because I got a hug from my coworker that made me want to sob#because it’s like damn… is this a teeny tiny taste of what having an actual good mom is like?#I missed out on so much….#kaz rambles
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peapod20001 · 5 months
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Y’all don’t understand how much I love how Steve looks
He has spectator shoes. I fucking love spectator shoes
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