If you're going to be "transRAMCOA", I'm going to demand that you start by paying reparations to all the real survivors out there.

My therapy with a DID and RAMCOA specialist (very hard to find, btw) costs me almost $7000 a year. Let's start there, shall we? That's almost $600 a month. Just on therapy. That I am incredibly lucky to have access to. Most survivors are shit out of luck and have to try to heal without a specialist.

I've lost untold amounts (hundreds of thousands at least) in lost income opportunities because of how disabling being a survivor is. I can't work a regular full time job and will probably never be able to. I've been "working" (read: pimped out by my own parents) since I was a little kid but the skills of a child sex worker aren't exactly transferable to the normie world, y'know?

I get by with a lot of help from some understanding roommates and friends that I'm lucky, VERY lucky, to have. This is to say nothing about the *quality* of that life (not great) beyond what capitalism or money cares about, because of course I'm constantly Experiencing Symptoms. On account of all of the trauma.

I can't even go to the bathroom like a normal person because of how much the constant rape fucked everything up downstairs. There is no fixing this. I will deal with many of the medical and mental complications for the rest of my life and this is just one of them. (Does it still sound like a fun thing to roleplay?)

The first ~20 years of my life were a living hell beyond what most of you can even imagine. My life is also statistically likely to be much shorter than the average person's. What kind of price can I even put on all those lost years? I can't. But you could pay me enough to not have to work for all the years remaining to me. If you want to pay me, say.... $100k a year for the rest of my life so that I can live what little is left to me in peace, then I would be happy to consider you an honorary RAMCOA survivor. I'll even write you a nice little certificate you can frame. I'll give you regular updates on how my therapy is going, so you can (sort of, not really though, you could never understand if you haven't lived it) experience this mAgIcAL hEaLiNg jOuRneY vicariously through me.

Go on, then. You want to be us so bad? Find a REAL survivor, and pay up. Otherwise get the fuck out of my community and stay out. Surviving RAMCOA is not a fun little identity label for you to play around with, it's REAL shit that ruins the lives of REAL people every day. I live with this, EVERY day. It's not a fun little game I can stop when I get tired of playing. This is my LIFE.

So pay up, or fuck off.

— ✧ Trans-Alpha Program

Definition: Trans-Alpha Program is a subset of transprogrammed where one wishes to go through, or internally believes they were meant to go through, alpha programming in terms of RAMCOA.

ᶻz ⨟ Alpha Program : this is a base program, one of the very first implemented. it is designed to train the victim's mind to accept every order given by handlers willingly.

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Created by : flag was created by @transramcoa & term was created by @\transhcdid , this is a recoin!

Requested by : anon

Date : 04 / 08 / 2024

✦ ︵ blog information ! <3 dni anti-radqueer

transramcoa culture is going through the ramcoa tag on the daily to make yourself dissociate to make it feel more real

Transramcoa culture is...

Dear "transRAMCOA" freaks and their supporters:

Our experiences aren't yours to claim. Claiming experiences that don't belong to you trivializes the suffering of actual survivors. If you actually understood what this was, you wouldn't want it. You wouldn't have lasted a day in our shoes. Shame on you for participating in this. Go get a real hobby and get the fuck out of my tags.

Also, you now owe $500 to every survivor who's had to witness your bullshit. Pay up or die <3

TransHarmed OC~

Welcome Delilah to the family! She's a transfemboy, transtrender (Gender identity), pansexual biromantic transharmed! She uses she/her pronouns!

She's transdeath / transdead, desires to be in an abusive relationship and oppressed by some form of religion, and is 22 years old!

She wears makeup that looks like bruises and cuts, and works as a banker! She's normally only on phone calls all day, so she can look however she pleases!

She is currently looking for a partner through rq sites, and strives to be a perfect victim!

Her parents learned about her transids and she was cut off by her family, which was both upsetting and euphoric for her, as she now relies on her friends online!

Maybe she'll meet her one true abuser someday!

Tw syscourse heavy, transRAMCOA & RAMCOA mentions, transCSA mentions, transProgrammer/transProgrammed mentions. Again HEAVY syscourse. Not happy about all of this so it’ll probably come out strong (I don’t mean it strongly just in annoyance).

Every time I pop up and just look through Tumblr, the horror stories of endos and whatever other non-traumatized “system” really irks me. That and these “transRAMCOA” assholes.

The endos first. All endos want to say is that they’re invalid to claim they have a trauma disorder without trauma. That literally goes against itself in a single statement. “I have a trauma disorder but I have no trauma.” You are quite literally contradicting yourself in the same sentence.

“But what if they don’t remember their trauma?!” If they aren’t sure of being plural and won’t do genuine research and say, “hey, my symptoms line up with this and I realize that this term isn’t what I am” then that’s a big iffy. I know some people always want anti endos to be “endo neutral” but nah. Fuck that. I’ve seen so many other blogs comment about how endogenics send them anonymous asks to say rude and mean things completely.

“But why do you believe those?” Because the ones that aren’t truly being victimized will always go and hound someone’s ass because they’ve been called out. I’ve never seen one person that was truly dealing with OSDDID comment to someone else wanting them to go harm themselves because they got called fake and invalid, I’ve seen a majority breakdown. Ourselves included.

I’m surprised with my standing about not receiving any anonymous messages telling us things, but I feel like the last time we said anything about it, we did say we’d post the ask any way and just mock. Hell, we enjoy vicious mockery (heavy D&D need).

But on the topic of transRAMCOA, transProgrammer, transProgrammed, transCSA.

All of you are twats. Complete and utter assholes. And I’ll stand by that. True survivors have a very little space to be able to go to and to find a community. And I thought here would be fine but no.

You REALLY don’t want genuine torture to happen to you. I don’t want to get into the parts of it that we can comment on. But what the fuck? Why must all of you say shit like “I want this to happen to me!” “I want to do this to people!” “I want to be this!” “I should have experienced this!”

What does that do to genuine survivors? Endogenics and their supporters are already making it hard for genuine systems to get a diagnosis and not a lot of licensed professionals are following the dissociative disorders due to TikTok trends. What do you think you’re all doing to genuine RAMCOA/OEA survivors? You’re taking away the little things we genuinely have and that’s messed the fuck up.

No one should have to go through shit like that, let alone children. It’s completely and utterly mad that adults and children want to wish this something like that happened. And if you’re a minor, please stay safe. Stop saying shit like that before you genuinely do get hurt because it will happen. The internet is fucking crazy. It’s not a bad thing to practice internet safety before it’s too late.

I know we spill our guts here on this blog but I’d rather someone be able to relate to the things I spew than have to out themselves and have a target on their back.

But this whole tirade of bullshit like this (it is bullshit), I can’t support anyone who says something like that.

Sure, they might not remember their trauma, but they’re associating with a term against our dni. And I won’t support them with that term anywhere.

That’s just our thoughts on the matter. And I’m not happy about the things I’ve seen recently. Stop being jealous and romanticizing someone else’s trauma. It’s disgusting.

Ramcoa / sorta romanticizing my own trauma under cut

It's the hours of wanting to get a friend who I can explain what I know of my programming to so they can (with safewords n shit) work on reinforcing it or just mess with it like yes please I can even mess with your programs if you have them and want me to ⁉️ like it's literally bestie behavior ⁉️⁉️

•This Lute supports Radqueers and transdeities•

Sup! You've probably seen me in asks with the sign off tag of Lute🗡️. Well that's me alright, I'm here to post about things, mostly about the fult around my headmate or even about fults and transdeities in general but I'll post other things as well.

I'm a fictive in a transpluralgenic(first host was transplural, I've no complaints though obviously) system, so my time here will vary a lot. I use she/they pronouns, my orientation shall remain unknown by those that aren't in the system.

My asks are open, and if you're a transdeity in need of comfort and support, let me know and I'll drop in your inbox(on anon, because I have to send asks via another headmates blog which is what I and other headmates like and follow from henceforth anon and they don't know there are some of us that are RQ) or DMs with some positivity! As helping transdeities is my goal while here. Those that aren't transdeities are welcome here as well and free to do the same for positivity!

No DNI because we know antis don't really care if they're on someone's DNI list. If you got questions feel free to ask.

I identified as transtrauma for a year or more before finding out about my ramcoa history.

I tried to transition, I tried to make my trauma worst by seeking out groomers. I made flags and terms, I found community saying I had ramcoa trauma. Until I found out that I did.

I don’t care about things like transage or transspevies at all. But it is wrong to identify as things that hurt and kill people, or at least severely diminish people’s quality of life. Identifying as having trauma that you don’t have, disorders/disabilities you don’t have, etc hurts people. It bleeds into those peoples safe spaces. It makes an aesthetic out of their pain.

It isn’t like terf or transmed ideology. Gender is something that is inherently a social construct. Not being able to walk without a wheelchair isn’t, being abused and having ptsd isn’t.

if ur gonna try and convert me to being an anti at least make ur story hot like the others??? jeez this one is just kinda pathetic

my brain has straight-up invented a trauma response today. i can't be touched without warning, if someone's around i need to know where they are, and i haven't been hungry all day. i genuinely don't know if i started the kettle or not, but i must have, because it was hot when i poured it into my cup. when i was about to ask my sibling to get up, instead of "hey could you tell me to go make my tea" what almost came out of my mouth was "hey can you snap two times" and then i just sat there with my mouth open for a second. sibling put on a belt that was laying on the couch and i couldn't take my eyes off it until it was hidden by her shirt again.

i'm not gonna say this feels like conditioning but,, you know the deathgrippers in httyd? whatever was up with them is currently up with me

transslashprogrammed culture is reading through the programs list and it feeling familiar. (to the tune of the beginning of Verse 1 of never gonna give you up) Somethings wrong i can feel it

Transslashprogrammed culture is...

Tw for vent + programming talk

Its becoming overwhelming with how often we’ve been experiencing our programs being struck up recently.

In light of stress, things have been going downhill and it feels like the progress we’ve made is pretty good but it’s still being drug back

Our beta and epsilon programs keep been triggered and we don’t know what’s triggering g them anymore

I don’t know if it’s something physical, someone in-sys (higher suspicions of this one and I can’t tell who), or if there’s something g else going on

It’s causing me so many issues

We want to run and hide and we’re non-verbal but wanting to breakdown at the same time and yet there’s nothing we can do in the back of a car

I hate this I hate this I hate this

Make it stop

And it all reminds us of what we’ve been through and we want to go back so badly but I don’t at the same time, I want it to stop, it feels like this is going to tear our relationships apart and I’m so tired

I don’t know what to do anymore

I’m so tired

we've been seeing transramcoa shit and we need to make a public vent about it so people who identify as transramcoa or are considering it won't.

major tw. this goes into detail about csa, deeply.

ok so, im the host. i never knew i went through ramcoa until about a couple years ago, even with clues and shit. i only found out after i met someone else who did and i could relate to their story. so i did research on ramcoa and yep, i fit it in just about every way possible. i literally checked off every box on some list of signs youre a ramcoa survivor. then i realized... i had been programmed for whatever reaction the handler wanted, whatever they wanted me to do, i felt like i was a game and they were the player. i was always told "youre so naive and dumb" and finding out i was a ramcoa survivor made me feel even more naive and dumb. like i was to blame. i felt like if i wasnt so naive and dumb, i wouldnt have been programmed. and the more i found out about ramcoa, the more i discovered the programmed alters. and thats when the persecutory voice in my head got worse. i felt like i was faking ramcoa, faking DID and faking trauma entirely. i felt like i wanted it to be cool or as an excuse for me being "born broken and worthless" with all my trauma responses i didnt even remember the trauma to have. my mental health tanked severely. i was covered in cuts, suicidal, attempted many times, and was reaching out for validation in places i shouldnt have. i drove friends away who couldnt deal with my constant heavy venting. i felt like i was faking or had too much baggage to deserve a friend. i felt like i deserved ramcoa when i believed it happened to me. i became more insecure about my body (this went with the denial- id think i was too ugly to be sex trafficked and i thought i made it all up to be "cool" and "not a virgin" since the body is disabled and cant really have sex) and more hypersexual than ever. when i found out i survived ramcoa, i either felt like it didn't really happen to me and like i was faking or i deserved it when i thought it happened. most of the time i thought it didnt, because your brain doesnt want you to know you have that trauma especially if you have DID. your brain doesnt even want you to know you have DID. if you are a real ramcoa survivor you will feel severe denial it happened and... broken for no reason. like you never went through anything severe so why are you this way? then you deal with the realization it happened and you feel used, dirty, dumb, like a game or a robot, not a real human. trust me, you dont want to be a ramcoa survivor. is that not enough for you? well heres more on how the sex trafficking affected my body and relationships...

i was hypersexual ever since i can remember. i was a three year old child and acting out sexual touching with dolls and imaginary friends. i was only three years old and had shame that i did it, even though nobody knew i did it. i was so developmentally disabled i couldnt put real sentences together or communicate, yet i felt shame for sexually touching dolls and imaginary friends. living my life not knowing i was sexually abused and asked how i discovered my sexuality, i answered with "ive always liked girls sexually ever since i could remember" and had to have it pointed out to me thats not normal and its a sign of sexual abuse. i always thought it was a normal kid thing to be sexual that little. wanting answers as to who violated me when i was so little, i asked the people who lived with me at the time who answered with "maybe it was your step grandfather. you were never alone alone with him so it had to have been brief touches that were a second" when im alone in almost all my memories from when i was little. after getting told "well its maaayyybe him but it cooouuuld be your cousin since she sexually abused you when you were older" and relying completely on external validation to validate what was on my inside, i flip flopped around with it and some people thought my inconsistency about trauma was me lying when i truly didnt know what happened. i lost friends and was doubted by people when i was desperately seeking validation. now to what it did to my body...

i have bladder issues from being sexually touched causing me to have utis. i have uti like pain almost every time i pee. ive been raped with plastic (almost sharp) objects and feel sharp pains in my somatic flashbacks to being raped. i will literally be doing nothing and boom, i feel a sharp pain down there. my vagina rejects tampons or really anything that goes inside it. i feel like someone stuck something up my ass every time i get done taking a shit. i have sudden nausea that doesnt feel like it belongs to me out of nowhere. i have been fucked so much my body is fucked up too. i want hugs, i love affection and it makes me feel important and safe, but i feel like my body is too violated to be loved and i get anyone who touches me dirty and they should feel ashamed for hugging me and i should feel ashamed for letting them.

you don't want this severe mental pain. you dont wanna be like me. you don't want this life. and if you do, you're fucking sick. fuck you.

Part two of unhinged bullshit radqueers have said LETS FUCKING GOOOO

Tw: radqueers having the audacity™, trafficking, pedophilia, ted bundy mentions, ramcoa mentions

"You're a freak for not having any empathy!!"

(directed at me bc I said I have no empathy due to autism)

"I wish I was trafficked"

(Keep Yourself Safe)

(pt: Keep Yourself Safe /end pt)

"My F/O is Ted Bundy"

(we got a murderer sympathizer yall‼️)

"Im transOMAP"

(omap basically means maps who have offended)

"I'm transtransgender!"

(im ashamed to have ever shared a community with these fuckers)

"Im transginger!"

(Ok ed sheeran)

"I'm transRAMCOA"

(if I said what I want to say, I would be banned)

"People who are anti-contact are worse than puritans!!!"

"Anti-contact people should die"

"Children can consent!!"

(yawn, boring, we've heard and debunked that before)

"MAPs and Pedophiles aren't the same"

(Nurse! a patient escaped!)

hello, people! im kinda new on this community and i wanted to make my very own blog, so here is my presentation!

name is razor, full name is razor blade hun (made up last name bc yeah)

pronouns are he/it

gender i think masc? orientation is completely gay

soo this is my transharmed (actually transeverity ig?) blog! i will share my thoughts and maybe some fantasies idk

i have kind of an objectum attraction to razor blades, they are just so-- idkkk just pretty and sharp jzhjsnsz-

idk if im like transramcoa? but im defenitly transeverity for: sh, abuse and grooming- maybe some biasto, necro and sh paras and i think that would be it

maybe i'll make a rentry or smth bc carrds look too complex to me-

blog tags below cut!

important.rzr : important posts, just like this one

speaking.rzr : just speaking, random opinions

anon/pos.rzr : answering cool anons!

anon/neu.rzr : answering neutral anons!

anon/neg.rzr : answering negative/rude anons.

reblog.rzr : reblogging!

vent.rzr : venting (probably has the tw's at the start of the post on the top)

maybe i'll add more sometime...

𝕴𝖓𝖙𝖗𝖔𝖉𝖚𝖈𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓

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: 𓆩𖤐𓆪 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬! ; ↩︎

(headmate masterlist)

if you want our sp or kord ask + be our friend

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: 𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 :

Hello hello .. we are a disorderedflux OSDD-1 (possibly 1a? If we specify) median system! Our head cnt. is about 100(+) & we are mixed origin + traumaendo (from what we know)

We collectively identify as a systemfluid man, pluralqueer, severiplural, and adufluid. There will always be the headmates name and pronouns above, however if you are unsure what prns to use for whatever reason then please use he/him & masculine terms on us! Do NOT use they/them on us even if it’s plural.

Feel free to ask questions!

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: 𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 :

This blog is not focused on anything particular, just a place for our system members to post! There may be source content, rambles, identity related stuff, plural content, and more.

We do not have a DNI list besides if you don’t like us or anything we post then just don’t interact. We will block and hate or harassment on this blog.

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꒰ tag list & byi & specific accs below cut !! ꒱

: 𝐁𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭 (𝐁𝐘𝐈) :

• We support every system, no matter their origin, structure, disorder, etc.

• People in our system may have different stances regarding certain identities/labels such as radqueer, shipcourse, contradictory labels, contact stances, etc. Some of us may be pro, neu, unlabeled, or anti.

This means you might see posts from multiple stances. Don’t be alarmed lmao.

˚₊‧꒰ა ♱ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

: 𝐒𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬! :

Ciel’s blog :: @transramcoa (tw)

Homestuck fictive’s :: @dirkzcest

Zip’s blog :: @zipstuck

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