Tell Me You Love Me

Pairings: Jisung/Everyone, Hyunjin/Changbin, Chang/Minho, Jisung/Felix

Tags: Runaway!Jisung, Found Family, Mental Instability, PTSD, Past Abuse, littlespace, little!Jisung, Dissociation, College AU, Implied Non-Con

Rating: Mature

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“Hey, wake up. Are you okay? What’s your name?”

The eyes of the young man, who lay on the icy concrete, were slowly blinking open and closed.

“Can you hear me?”

He nodded slowly and tried to sit up.

“Let’s get you inside, come on. I’ll help you warm up.”

Inside was dark, though warm. Glasses clinked and people talked lowly. A door opened for them and bulky arms carried the dead weight through another doorway into a small alcove.

“Stay here, I’ll get you something to drink.”

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ao3

I’ve always hated having my name or a nickname in my bio bc i dont wanna use my name but i have no idea what i would want ppl to call me bc crybaby is not the vibe. I just like demi’s song cry baby bc it’s the best song on the tmylm album. I wish I had like another name to use. I feel weird using another name though. And i dont wanna use my middle name. I feel like i’ll still go by my name, but the ppl that need to know it already know it so idk. Idk.

random thoughts about tell me that you love me, episode twelve

(the rest is under the cut because i'm worried about your eyes having to read ALL OF THAT and this post might contain spoilers)

Not even two minutes into the episode and a lot has already happened. Mo eun was adopted. I did not expect that. At all!

When the mom said "I don't want our daughter to become a child too mature for her age to open up to her mom" I had to take a moment because that hit close to home. I'm sure it has happened to way too many children but when something traumatic (no matter what it is) happens, children have a tendency to keep things to themselves. It's like they "magically" become adults and they want to protect those around them by not sharing what's bothering them. I haven't read any study on this topic so please take what I'm saying with a grain of salt (I'm only talking from experience) but children have this kind of sixth sense where they know when something extremely serious is happening so they begin acting like adults when it shouldn't be the case. The need to protect those around them is even bigger when it involves their family. A child doesn't want their mom and dad to be sad so they'll try their best to protect them even though they (the kid) shouldn't do that. I'm having a hard time trying to explain this because my emotions are getting the best of me as I'm writing this. I got emotional watching this drama, but that sentence alone has unlocked something deep in me 💔

I'm just confused as to why do hun would admit to stalking seo kyung and burning the college building just like that. He might have heard the mysterious woman say it was him on the phone but those are just rumors. As far as we know, the real culprit hasn't been arrested? Idk man I'm just meh about this revelation. It feels rushed...

Do hun judging seo kyung for still having feelings for jin woo when he's the one who has stalked his crush and burnt a building because of her. He should look at himself in the mirror before making such comments about others.

Seeing the scene of seo kyung being stalked made me think back on her and jin woo's breakup. When she got home after finding she was actually being stalked, her first instinct was to call jin woo to be reassured. But then, she realised she wouldn't be able to hear his voice (because he's deaf). It's moments like these that must have been the cause of their breakup. Of course, she'd want to be reassured by her boyfriend when such a traumatic event happens. Hearing his voice would have helped a lot. But mostly, being able to vent or cry (whether on the phone or face to face) must have been the best solution to appease her heart. Unfortunately, she couldn't do any of that with jin woo. While it could be weird to some people that she'd break up with him because of his disability (she has a deaf father so she should know what a relationship with someone that is deaf is like), I can kind of understand why she did it. She was still young at the time (early 20s I assume) and I think her enthusiasm and him (maybe?) being her first love, seo kyung let her heart make the decision of being in a relationship with jin woo. It's only several months later that the more rational part of her took over and made her realise what a relationship with a deaf man entails. I think it's important to see that even though someone is related to a disabled person, that doesn't mean said someone will understand everything about their disabled partner and things will flow easily. Even though two people have the same disability that doesn't mean the disability will have the same impact on them. There are varying degrees of disability (if I can call it that). What I'm trying to say is sure seo kyung has "some experience" with deaf people because of her father but that doesn't mean the relationship with jin woo was easy, far from that. When feelings are involved, everything gets even more complicated. Anyway, I'll stop here because I'm only eight minutes into the episodes lol

Linking to the previous comment I made, we see mo eun facing the same struggle as seo kyung. She's having a hard time communicating with him because of his disability. She's going through stuff yet she can't directly tell him because she has to think about it and then start to sign to him or text him. It can feel lonely because she's living something while he has no idea what's happening. I wonder how she'll handle that obstacle. We've obviously seen how seo kyung decided to end things between her and jin woo. I don't want that to happen to the main couple but I can't help but wonder what the consequences of that will be. It's a lot to carry on one's shoulder. Mo eun is learning things about jin woo's past from other people. Things that are serious. Up until now she's always let him talk about himself at HIS own pace, she never pushed him to admit stuff. But now I feel like she might try and push him a bit more because there's a lot of stuff she doesn't know about.

On a side note, ji yu and ki hyun are such great friends. They're there for mo eun and jin woo no matter what. I'm glad they have amazing support.

I did not expect this episode to make me so emotional. I need to lie down and digest everything that happened.

I'll give it a 9/10

ROCKVATO!!!!

There's always some kind of trouble with me

Okay okay, hear me out, can you make a part 2 of tell me you love me but instead of in Armin’s car it’s in jean and the readers apartment and jean doesn’t know what happened so they haven’t broke up

but while jean goes out of does something the reader and armin get a bit silly together

I just need some kind of part 2 it was so good please

— [🪐] ·˚ ༘ ✎ 𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞

MDNI | a.arlert x fem!reader

𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘺 :: basically a part 2 to this story. you should def go check it out ;)

𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨(𝘴) :: fem reader, cheating, mentions of sexting & nudes, petnames/mean names, armin gets a little mean (hehe), unprotected sex, spanking, overstim (you really gotta squint), let me know if i missed anything

𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 :: RAHHH. i’m so glad you requested a part 2 to tmylm. one of my favorite stories i’ve written for sure 🤭💕 - if the buildup feels rushed it’s probably because i was so tired of it and i wanted to be done with it 😭

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the night that you and armin hooked up in the back off his car had been eating away at you ever since it had happened. you swore up and down that you’d break up with jean. he was a good boyfriend and a good person in general. he didn’t deserve to have his girlfriend cheat on him with his best friend.

the only issue was the fact that you never had any time to break it off with him. you weren’t going to do it over text, no. you weren’t that heartless. however, was cheating worse or better than breaking up with your boyfriend of two years over text?

you and jean had messed around a few times after hooking up with armin. the only issue with that? you nearly moaned armin’s name on accident, more than once. now that would have been a disaster. what made it worse was the fact that jean couldn’t make you cum. not like armin could anyways. many times you just faked your orgasm, opting to finish later when you could whimper armin’s name while you pathetically fucked your fingers.

night after night, you lusted after armin. you would stay up texting him while jean’s arm was slung loosely around your hips. his “who are you texting” questions were always shrugged off. you always lied, saying it was mikasa or your group chat with the girls. he didn’t need to know that you were sexting his best friend behind his back.

your wish to see armin again finally came true when jean told you that he had invited armin over for a movie night. you nearly fell off the couch in excitement. “really?!” you said almost too excitedly. “mhm..” your boyfriend nodded his head, continuing to scroll on his phone.

you were giddy with delight as you quickly rushed to text armin.

see you soon 💕

it wasn’t long before you saw the familiar three dots, letting you know that armin was responding.

yeah. see you soon, cutie 😘

it wasn’t long before armin was knocking on your apartment door. “i’ve got it!” scurrying over, you flung the door open, a wide smile on your face. “armin! so good to see you!” you feigned innocence, acting like you hadn’t been fingering yourself to the naughty pictures he’d been sending you.

“hi y/n. it’s good to see you too.” the blonde innocently leaned down to hug you, groping your ass in the process. a small gasp escaped your lips, but you made sure it was quiet enough that jean wouldn’t hear.

“armin!” your boyfriend emerged from your shared bedroom. stepping away from the blonde, you allowed him and jean to hug before they started talking. following them towards your living room, you sat down on the chair while they sat on the couch together.

it was a struggle to not just stare at armin. all you could imagine was his beautiful blonde locks glued to his forehead. his fingers gripping your hips. his cum leaking out of your sopping cunt. his moans. his pants. his whines. him. all you could think of was him.

about halfway through the movie jean’s phone rang. “shit, i gotta take this. it’s eren.” getting up, the male rushed into your shared bedroom so he could answer his other friend.

you and armin made eye contact, small blushes covering both of your faces. “i haven’t stopped thinking about that night..” you finally admitted after a while. armin couldn’t help but smirk, nodding his head. “me either, darling.”

it wasn’t long before jean was coming out of your bedroom. “hey guys, eren needs me to run over to his place. something’s going on.” looking at jean, you blinked. “is he okay? do me and armin need to come too?” shaking his head, jean motioned towards the tv. “just keep watching the movie. i’ll be back soon.”

your boyfriend walked over and placed a chaste kiss to your forehead before waving goodbye to armin and walking out. when he was gone, you and armin made eye contact again.

should you..? it seemed like both of you were thinking the same thing because it wasn’t long before both of you were standing, moving towards one another, and kissing each other passionately.

it wasn’t long before you found yourself in your bedroom, both yours and armin’s clothes discarded on the floor. “face down, ass up.” armin commanded. you eagerly did as he told you, shaking your bare ass in his face. he let out a grunt before spanking the soft flesh. it jiggled underneath his palm, making him smirk.

“god, you’re kind of a dirty little slut, aren’t you..” he teased. you felt the mattress dip under armin’s weight. his fingers immediately found your waist, squeezing gently. “‘m gonna fuck you so good, baby. my cock’s been missin ya, you know.” he groaned.

it wasn’t long before he was sinking himself inside of you. “oh yeah. fuck, you’re so goddamn tight.” he hissed, immediately starting to rock his hips into yours. your eyes rolled into the back of your head as his delicious cock filled you up.

your fingers gripped your bedsheets as you moaned. “can’t believe you’re letting me fuck you on the bed you share with your boyfriend. do you have any shame?” his tone was condescending as he bullied your insides with his dick. “hm? do you feel any shame that you’re about to get fucking bred on your boyfriend’s bed?”

armin was still mean as ever. but, like always, you weren’t complaining. his rough words were turning you on as he gently tugged on your hair. the action forced your head up. your eyes immediately locking onto the picture that sat on the nightstand next to jean’s side of the bed.

a picture of the two of you.

being the oh so observant boy he was, armin immediately knew what you were looking at. “aw, how cute,” he chuckled. “staring at a picture of your boyfriend while his best friend fucks you like the pathetic little puppyslut you are.” you whimpered helplessly, making him laugh. “aw, little puppy is whimperin’” he teased.

“keep looking at it. keep looking at the picture while i rearrange your guts, pretty thing.” you struggled to keep your eyes open as his thrusts got harsher.

“oh fuck. i missed your sloppy cunt. i missed the way it squeezed me, oh shit.” he groaned, tossing his head back. “your cunt still knows who it belongs to. tell me, has jean made you cum since you’ve fucked me? or have you had to fake it?” it was almost like armin knew how pathetic and helpless you were for him.

“f-fake it..” you whined helplessly as your fingertips gripped the bedsheets even tighter. “yeah, that’s what i thought.” he chuckled before spanking your ass. he gave a few more thrusts before pulling out. “hey-“ armin didn’t give you a chance to complain.

flipping you over, he pushed you on your back so he could look at you. slipping himself back in, he immediately started pounding into you with reckless abandon. the noises were lewd and the air smelled like sex.

“m-min! min, min, min..” you mindlessly babbled as he leaned down to sink his teeth into your neck. “yeah, that’s right. call daddy’s name like the good little girl you are. let jean know who owns you.” he whispered in your ear.

“c-cumming!” you gasp before releasing all over him, whimpers and moans escaping you as your high flooded through your system. he chuckled, pressing a kiss to your sweaty cheek. “that’s right. cream all over your daddy’s thick cock.”

your eyes rolled into the back of your head as he continued to pound you. “i-i love you..” you whined. “i love you. i love you. i love you!” those three words rolled off your lips as your legs began to shake. “a-armin, i love you!”

armin groaned as he sank his fingers into the soft flesh of your hips. “aw, you love me?” he chuckled. he was slowly nearing his own release, beads of sweat perspiring off his forehead. nodding your head, you panted loudly. “love you s’much!” you squealed.

armin chuckled before leaning down to capture your lips in a sloppy kiss. “i’m gonna cum, sweetheart. i’m gonna fucking cum inside your tight little hole and it’s gonna leak out and make a mess all over your bedsheets.” he kissed you again and again as you panted against his lips.

“o-oh fuck, min!” your fingernails dug into his shoulders as his hips stuttered. it wasn’t long before he was spilling into you, making your eyes roll back yet again. “o-oh fuck..” you whisper as his high slowly came to an end.

panting, armin pressed a sweet kiss to your forehead. “you did so good, sweetheart. so, so good.” his words were sweet as he brushed some of your hair off of your sweaty forehead. the sight above you was a sight to behold. armin’s golden locks were plastered to his forehead, just like they were in his car.

after a few minutes, armin started moving his hips against yours yet again. “let’s make a mess, shall we? i’ll make sure jean knows that i can make his girlfriend cum more than he can.” he chuckled deviously. through your somewhat fucked out haze, you managed to speak.

“i-i really do l-love you armin..”

“aw, i know you love me.”

Me watching the 1st episode of TMYLM: Talented, brilliant, incredible, show stopping, spectacular, never done before.

5 minutes later after reading a spoiler about the original: What in the actual f*ck?????

yes, all these titles are from the same artist and yes, they are all different songs and yes, I am going to add links for once because he's so lovely and makes awesome music.

Get Me High

Take Me

Darling, You're a Star

Sexdreamsuperstar

TMYLM

OKAY SO IM RESENDING THIS JAY BAE 🤭

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i was wondering if you wanted me to tag you in my next story. it’s a sequel it tmylm (tell me you love me) which i tagged you. i just wanted to ask because i didn’t know if you wanted to be tagged or not 😭

anyways. i hope you’re having a lovely day AND you’re taking care of yourself 💕💕

KOOTIE PIE !! sure thing awww i'd love to be tagged 👍

im doing ok today just demolishing some buttermint sweets and doing calculus integrals aaaalllllllll daayyyyyyyyyyy 🥲 when rlly i just wanna peek into my drafts eheheh

and the weather sucks!! i want more hot days :(((

hope ur loving ur day tho sugarpie

Happy #WorldBookDay 📕

“Stone brings you to the heart of true love and the lengths we’ll go to preserve it.”

Kindle Book Awards 2023 Literary Fiction winner (TMYLM)

Living Now 2022 Romance Fiction Gold medal winner (Hey Jude)

IAN’s 2020 Women’s Fiction Book of the Year Winner (Whispers on a String)

In honor of grammy noms coming sometime this week, I’d like to once again say…

FUCK THE GRAMMYS!!!

(If you’d like to read my rant about the grammys snubbing demi lovato, along with an unintentional tangent that came from my ranting where i analyze demi’s confident, tell me you love me, dancing with the devil… the art of starting over, and holy fvck eras, that’s below here lol.)

It has honestly lost all its credibility for me since Demi Lovato wasn’t nominated for pop vocal album for Tell Me You Love Me, OR for a best performance for Anyone. Not to mention, the amount of hype and build up they created around Demi all those years only to snub them TWICE. Like I’m sorry but Demi is one of the very few actual vocalists left in this day and age, and is someone who actually cares about music, how it’s made, and is genuine about why it’s being made.

The HOLY FVCK album is in the top 3 of their discography and it was barred from promotion FOUR (4) DAYS after its release. Physical copies of the album were literally banned from being sold in stores in the UK. Demi said in an interview that they knew HF wouldn’t be a mainstream success. They don’t make music for the money, fame, or commercial reasons. They almost DIED, they have no time for the insincere bs that comes with promoting music or selling your brand as an artist. They’re simply making music to make music because they are talented and have a gift that needs to be shared. Notice how most of the grammy noms are songs and albums that have been the most commercially successful? Yeah, Demi doesn’t fit that mold and I’m glad they don’t. I’d rather have a “flop” album that was made with genuine feelings and heart than a grammy winning album that was made to get on the charts.

Demi has said that confident was their attempt to get a grammy nom and sure enough, that’s the one album of theirs that got a grammy nomination. It wasn’t fully genuine, and while being a lovatic during the confident era was one of the most fun and memorable times of my life, and the album is without a doubt INCREDIBLE, it’s extremely noticeable that it wasn’t as Demi as an album like HOLY FVCK. What I mean by “Demi” is that there’s a certain… metaphorical wall between the music they’re putting out and the listener. With Confident, while I love the album with all my heart and listened to it nonstop until TMYLM came out, there’s a palpable separation between the art, the artist, and the listener. When I think about the Confident era, it just feels like Demi was so disconnected from the music. Yeah, they were SUPER active with the fans on social media, but when you look back, you can see what was promo and what wasn’t. We recently learned the kind of stuff they don’t like doing, like going to red carpets and the Future Now Tour outfits, which makes the disconnect more obvious. Plus, now that it’s been a few years, along with taking into account the things Demi’s said about their previous albums and their respective eras, it’s easier to see the degrees of separation that existed.

With TMYLM, of course Sorry Not Sorry had a lot of commercial success, and the documentary Simply Complicated coincided with the album’s release. It was an incredibly effective tactic created by Demi’s (old) (and awful) team, I won’t lie. And with this era, we also saw a more vulnerable Demi. They’d split from Wilmer in 2016. It made for an emotional life on the Future Now Tour, (a joint tour with nick jonas set up by demi’s management. It was basically the Confident album tour.) and TMYLM was the product of it. So to recap, Demi relapsed with their ED after their breakup with Wilmer, was on tour with Nick Jonas who she had unreciprocated feelings for, and she began dating again. They were connected to Bomba, Luke Rockhold, Neymar Jr., Lauren “Kittenz” Abedini, Kehlani, and of course was famously caught setting the perfect thirst trap for Mr. Henry Cavill. (Although I personally don’t believe Demi dated Neymar or Kehlani. Neymar was a not-so-sneaky link. As for Kehlani, they were just on tour together and shared a kiss. Maybe they hooked up tho.) All of this struggle and romance allowed for some really intense songwriting. That’s why we have so many scrapped songs from the TMYLM era. (Also bc it is believed that it was going to be a living album that had droplets during and after the TMYLM tour, but that didn’t happen bc they relapsed with alcohol & substances.) Anyway, from the album AND the discarded masterpieces, it’s obvious that Demi was feeling A LOT of strong feelings. Navigating loss, rejection, casual sex, new love, relapsing, being controlled, etc. It allowed that wall between a masterfully calculated, commercially successful album and its listeners/enjoyers to fall. While it still isn’t akin to watching Demi write a song in front of you, it’s definitely a glimpse into what their life was like during 2016-2017. At the start of tour, you can tell the wall goes back up a little bc it has to be promoted and the show has to be captivating so that people show up bc these days, talent isn’t enough to be successful, and everyone knows Demi has more than enough talent. But the wall comes back down as they get more comfortable, but it goes back up once April hits, when Demi starts the European leg of the TMYLM Tour. It’s there where they relapsed with alcohol, which led to them eventually relapsing with drugs. People had assumptions, especially when they wore sunglasses to that one show, but it wasn’t until June that Demi revealed they were no longer sober, and even then, it seemed like it was only alcohol that Demi had picked up again. I don’t remember when they relapsed with drugs, but I do think it was a bit after, like after Demi left Europe. I think it might’ve been in May when Demi picked drugs up again. Anyway that’s not the importance of any of this. I kinda got sidetracked. Whatever. Anyway, tmylm was more genuine than confident but the pressure for the album to be successful was what created that separation that can still be felt there.

With dwtdtaoso, you can feel a lot of authenticity within the album itself. Not just the songs, but just like the stops in between the songs and just holding the physical album. But again, there was the pressure of a comeback album, a new manager, a sense of having to prove that they were back and better than before. The album was also made and came out during covid so that messed EVERYTHING up. Literally 2020 was set to be demi’s year with the success of Anyone at the Grammys, the acclaim of their national anthem at the Super Bowl, and a clean slate to start this new chapter, it was looking so great. Then the buzz single I Love Me came out and it wasn’t exactly what fans were expecting, but we supported it like crazy and it’s honestly a cute bop in my eyes and for Demi, someone who was healing and getting back on their feet, it was fitting for them. Anyway, then covid and m*x happened so the soulful, petty, r&b-influenced, and collaboration-heavy album was scrapped. Or maybe, it was scrapped after Commander In Chief. Idk. Anyway, we got Demi’s droplet era in lieu of an album, with collabs up the wazoo. I can’t speak on how genuine this era was bc Demi wasn’t even Demi during the droplet era. They were still figuring out their sobriety, they were dating and engaged to a psychopath, they were in their activist era on social media, and they were struggling with their ED. Anyway, go to 2021 with the alphabet album and i love it. I love that album so much, and even tho demi has said it felt like they were making the album for everyone else to show they were okay, it still was very genuine bc all the songs can be connected to parts of demi’s life. Anyone was written 4 days before the od, dwtd is obviously about addiction and relapsing, icu was about the aftermath and how it affected their sister, taoso was about starting over and not letting a partner define them, lonely people was about the bittnerness that comes after a breakup and trying to turn it into something positive, twydlam is about demi’s ed and how being in a relationship can trigger than, especially bc it was rumored that wilmer would try not to be seen with demi when they were heavier, and it made them feel like crap and question everything ofc, melon cake is word for word about their ed experience with their old manager, mhln was written by ariana and since she and demi are friends, she knew it was fitting for demi’s situation with maxipad, wops actually had lyrics leaked somehow in 2020 so we knew it was coming and demi was basically reflecting on how they lost sight of what really matters bc of being a celebrity, their sobriety, etc. carefully is literally about learning to trust someone and letting someone into your life after being hurt in the past, tkolia is about demi’s journey of acceptance with their sexuality and imagining themself with someone new and what they would preface their relationship with, easy is about losing a lover and trying to mourn, 15 minutes is a genius song about maxipad and how he overstayed his welcome in demi’s heart and took them for granted and how he’s going back to the streets where he belongs. mgamb is about surrounding yourself with good friends after a breakup bc nobody understands you better than your besties so focus on the fun and friendship. California sober is about being california sober and that is what demi tried doing. Mad world is a cover about how society is fucked up and the world makes you feel like you’re doing everything wrong and it feels like you’re in a spinning state that you cant escape and everyone’s watching you try to get out and criticizing you for not being able to navigate it all at the snap of your fingers. Butterfly is about demi’s birth father and how they learned to accept his passing and their strained relationship. Good place is about being in a good place even if it took a lot of bad times in bad places to get there. It all ties into what demi was going through during their hiatus and up until the release of the album.

Holy Fvck is what I consider to be their most genuine album bc it’s honestly the first time we’re given a glimpse into Demi’s anger. It also talks about grief, being in the public eye, and addressing and/or overcoming trauma. If you know enough about Demi, you can connect each song to a theme in Demi’s life that explains what the song is about, just like I did for dwtdtaoso. I’m tired so maybe I’ll edit this post and add that in at some point, but I also feel like if you get it you get it and if you feel unsure about any of it, you dont get it. And that’s ok. But i love holy fvck and i love being able to scream it in the car when im feeling intense feelings and dont really want to cry about them. So i just belt it out to demi’s music