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maxverstappendefender · 2 months

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Hi I was wondering if u can make an imagine with max verstappen where the reader is an athlete also (tennis player please 😮‍💨😮‍💨😭😭🥹🥹) and she is also from Netherlands

her and max were like in the same school or neighbors or even Victoria’s friend and her and max used to be dating since they were young teenagers but they broke up because of their careers (more like she broke up with him lol🤭) and they meet again at a gala or a wedding when they are at the top of their game her being world no.1 and many grand slams winner and him being world champion and then they have a confrontation with a lot of angst and yelling and max being heartbroken 💔💔🤌🏻🤌🏻

other part to this request: "Also about the max and athlete reader like if u can make it inspired by “call out my name” by The Weeknd 🥲"

a/n: this is such a good idea, i love some good angst. i made it a smau and also written parts (more towards the hend). i don't know much about tennis but i tried. the google translate dutch is probably bad but that's fine. hopefully i did your idea justice <3

warnings: profanity (?), alcohol

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The Dutch Athletes

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yourusername and that's a wrap on the lovely game of tennis, back to training for next season :)

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user PROUD TO BE DUTCH BC OF THIS LADY AND THIS LADY ONLY

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landonorris you're serving! (do you get it? im so funny)

-> yourusername ty lan (the tennis jokes are never funny)

-> landonorris not even a pity laugh.

user i see a certain someone hiding in the likes

-> user 🤺🤺🤺 be gone sir

victoriaverstappen cannot wait to see you next week!

-> yourusername i miss my favourite dutch person

-> user max is punching the wall rn

user wait, im new. why is everyone hating on max verstappen here?

-> user y/n dated him a while back but they ended it in 2021 for reasons no one knows. lots of speculation but they never confirmed or denied anything. he still has loads of pictures of them on his insta but she deleted hers, probs wasn't a mutual breakup in that case. she's still good friends with lando, charles, and max's sister!

-> user he probably cheated or something

-> user they both seem happy so we shouldn't make assumptions :)

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y/nmaxupdates still no new content of our favs together so we are doing a little throwback thursday to one of y/n's posts from 2015 (she has removed the post).

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yourusername vegas baby! vv thankful lando is okay. congrats on the podium charlie!

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charles_leclerc You say congrats but you wear a McLaren hat

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user max being cropped out has me CACKLING

user we were so so close to some y/nmax snippet by her posting him but she fucking cropped him out

landonorris i'm so mad i crashed, my helmet was so sick for this race. do you think i can wear it to the clubs tonight?

-> yourusername lando istg if you wear your damn helmet anywhere tonight. you are supposed to be staying at the hotel with me anyways?

-> landonorris i don't see a doctor that will stop me from leaving. but my helmet looked sick right?

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landonorris we literally spent like 3 days together before the race and you still chose that ugly picture

danielricciardo VEGAS BABYYY. tonight we party.

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yourusername 'VEGAS BABYYY. tonight we party.' ~daniel ricciardo (and don't worry, i didn't let lando leave the hotel looking like that)

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it had been a wonderful night so far. lando couldn't drink due to the drugs the doctors gave him so you didn't drink either out of solidarity. lando had gone off to do lando things, probably finding a way to the dj booth or socializing with whoever he can. you were just sat at this couch in the vip area. you were talking to charles for a while before he went off to do celebratory shots. you were so tired from the timezone difference, vegas compared to the netherlands was messing with your system. you had your head leaned back against the couch, your eyes were just looking at some of the drivers having a lot of fun and celebrating in one of the best party cities in the world.

you felt someone sit down next to you on the couch. you didn't know who it was at first but you quickly smelt the cologne and knew. max. you two hadn't really spoken since 2021, when you ended it. it wasn't the prettiest of breakups but we were both stupid kids and in love back then. you both should've known it wouldn't work out. you tried, though. you tried with every single thing you had in you but at the end of the day, fate would always be stronger.

"hey, y/n. haven't seen you in awhile," max finally said, breaking the silence. he sort of had seen you though, on instagram. had he missed you? every fucking day. you broke up with him though, and you seemed happier. if you were happy, he would accept that.

"sure," was all you said. that was your telltale sign that you did not want to talk. but let's be honest, max verstappen not having a conversation when he wants to sounded impossible. he wanted to fix things, he wanted to fix it all. why wouldn't you let him? "any chance we can talk?" he asked you. he wouldn't really take no for an answer. he would just talk to you while you listened, but even that would be stretching it.

you stood up from the couch, careful to not look at him. if you looked at him, you would be a goner and would do just about anything he asked you to. you were a strong person except when it came to max. "see you around," you muttered to him before leaving the vip area. you would infact not be seeing him around, not if you can avoid it. maybe not drinking was a bad idea. you had spotted lando who was busy chatting away to someone. "fuck," you whispered under your breath, realizing that the person who you had to make sure got home safely was still having a good night. you wouldn't want to cut his night short, especially when his night started bad with the race.

you felt some hands wrap around your waist and before you could protest, these hands were pushing you out this door to the club's back alley. you knew those hands though. you knew them all too well. "max, what the hell?!" you shouted at him as you felt the cool night air hit your face. it felt better than how being inside that club felt.

he knew this was probably too far. but when has 'too far' ever stopped him. he was so done with this all. 2 years of not having more than 10 words shared between you two. you two used to talk every single day, where did it all go wrong? he knew this one was his fault. he was the one who had lost you, all for racing. he gave up you for racing. he was a royal idiot for that. "i am so done with you not even talking to me!" he shouted to you. he was thanking god that you two were in an alley and not somewhere public for this.

"i don't want to talk to you," you said to him. not many people held their ground against max, but you always did. you never wanted to talk to him again, not since your breakup. you were happy and had a great life, you didn't need the mess that was max verstappen. "you never do!" he said back. that was true and you both knew it.

"you're right! i never do! because you fucked up," you shouted to him, putting your finger straight to his chest. the breakup was infact not mutual like the media made it seem. you two broke up because you were trying to support him in racing while still building a life in tennis for yourself. you could see the stress eating away at max that year and he still wouldn't let you help. even if it was help from afar. you tried to be there. he didn't even try to be there for you and your goals either.

"i know i did. believe me, i know i fucked it up," he said to you. there had been quite a few sleepless nights where his brain just wouldn't turn off. he had only been thinking about you. tonight was just his breaking point. he was done acting like he hadn't been thinking about you.

there was a moment of silence as we just looked at eachother. we had grown up a lot since we last got close like this. "so then why? just why?" you pleaded to him to just give him a real answer. 2021 had been a hard year for him and you knew that. but you were his girlfriend. you were meant to be there and help him but he wouldn't let you. he pushed you away at any chance he got. then you were alone. it was an endless cycle of you trying to help max with his stress, him pushing you away, and then you also getting lost to your own stress.

he put his hands on either side of your face. he knew he couldn't give you the answer he had given you when you asked this question 2 years ago. he couldn't say "just a tough year" because although that was a part of it, it wasn't the entire truth. and you deserved the truth. "i pushed you away before you could push me away," he said to you as he looked into your eyes. he felt like an idiot for saying that but it was the whole truth.

you gave him a slightly confused look. that had been a different answer than what you got 2 years ago. how could he even think you would push him away? you loved him so much and you had for years. you would have clung to him, even in death. "if i wouldn't have won in 2021, there was that thought that you would be gone," he admitted.

"i wouldn't have left. i wouldn't have ever done that," you quickly said. you had to say that really quickly before he spoke again. clearly your words took him aback a little. he really felt stupid for ever thinking that you would leave, let alone leave simply because he won a championship. mentally, you said 'fuck it', and just kissed him. you pulled away for a second to whisper, "je bent een idioot, max verstappen (you are an idiot, max verstappen)". then you kissed him again.

he smiled in the kiss, his hands in your hair and yours in his. your words were true, he was an idiot. he would probably have to kiss you a million times to make up for him pushing you away. and that was a price he was willing to pay. he felt you pull away and as desperately as he wanted to pull you back into him, he knew you had some more words to say.

you pulled away. "but you left. you left when it got hard and i will never put myself in that position ever again," you said to him. your lips stung with how much desire you had for max. but you had to make smart decisions, you could not get hurt again. and deep down, you knew he would leave if it got hard again. him leaving again would hurt too much. you had a good life now, he had a good life now.

he felt his heart shatter at your words. but he knew you were right that he had left when it got hard. he had taken the coward's way out. he wanted you to be happy and you seemed so happy with your life now. he couldn't take that from you. he nodded his pain away and spoke softly to you, "i hope you have nothing but happiness in life". then he walked away. he walked away but this time for your sake. he knew you wouldn't walk away from him so he walked away from you. he really did hope you had nothing but happiness in life. he could hear all about your happiness from the bits that victoria shared with him.

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y/nmaxupdates NEW CONTENT!! I REPEAT NEW CONTENT OF MAX AND Y/N!! that kiss?? oh we are SO back.

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bcofl0ve · 21 days

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I'm new here so sorry if you've talked about it before, but what's the tea between Austin and Olivia deJonge? a while ago I heard someone say that they had something during the filming of Elvis but that they are no longer close and don't follow each other on Instagram. they also said that Austin was unfaithful to Vanessa with her, but tbh I don't give these rumors about celebrities cheating much credibility unless they are 100% confirmed 😅 thanks!!

oh, my sweet summer child…*pats your head*. this has become a veryyy contentious topic on my blog so i don’t talk about it much anymore but since you’re a new fan looking for info, as was i once, i will do one Final brain dump about it.

he still follows her and her finstas that i don’t think she uses anymore lol, but yes olivia unfollowed him in september. something that is funny (at least to me) within the context that said unfollow was when she went out with sophie turner and taylor swift. like…what did blondie say that pushed you ever the edge girl LOL. then little miss instagram anxiety unfollowed 100 random accounts the next day trying to pretend it wasn’t selective.

this is also a little contentious because there isn’t proof proof in the form of like kissing photos or something (just beach pap photos from nov 2020 where they aren’t touching each other haha). but in my humble opinion they were involved during filming.

timeline gets a little messy at the start, but i do think re: some late december early january gossip about him being seen with olivia that austin and v were broken up a hot minute before it came out publicly on jan 14th 2020 so 🤷🏼‍♀️. don’t think it was some big affair. they were def broken up before jan 2nd, a day that will leave in infamy lmfao. olivia posted a photo in austin’s shirt, which v fans clocked immediately bc he’d wore in it on vacation with v. and this was jan 2nd, two weeks before the breakup went public. i wasn’t in the fandom for this, but as ive been told it was a real mess. olivia went private briefly, deleted the pics, asked the society fans to take the photos down and it was the beginning of instagram becoming the seemingly anxiety inducing thing for that that it is now.

(ex: after the oscars last year she posted some elvis filming throwbacks on her story as a nice little end of the era thing. one of her and austin she wrote ‘so proud 🥀 @austinbutler’ on. she then deleted that story, reposted it, deleted it again, and reposted it without the text.)

and i mean yeah- big (probably intentional) goof on her part with the shirt thing. but idk. she was 21 at the time, and i’m willing to give 21 year olds a little girl what are you doing grace.

whatever happened between her and austin, the most she’s done re ‘shade’ is liking a comment someone left on her page saying she deserved better when he was seen with lily rose and something got sent to deuxmoi that said he’d cheated on her (imo he didn’t. she was just hurt bc seeing him move on stung, or maybe the door that should have been fully shut wasn’t. lily was august 2021, he left australia march 2021)- and hanging out with v a handful of times mid 2022 (though she herself never posted about it, it was either other people or paps).

a lot of people on here reallyyyy don’t like her, but i’m a fan so that’s my girl. i have a real big soft spot for her, and a while ago when a friend of mine in the fandom at the time told me ‘oh the internet wasn’t nice to her at all’ in the months after the shirt debacle it really hurt my heart.

even with a little smidgeee of shade as explained above ^ i think she’s handled whatever maybe not so positive feelings she has towards him reasonably. they seemed to get a long just fine and happy during elvis press- esp so in toronto which my fav interviews of the two of them are from bc that press tour stop was just them and baz. she’s never said a negative world about him publicly, and i doubt she ever will. the most candid she’s ever been about elvis filming was an interview earlier this year where she said she did ‘a lot of growing up on that job’ and that she sees her life as before and after elvis. i think that’s the most “deep” she’ll ever go down that road, at least for a long while.

between her unfollowing him in sept, turning off her tagged photos in feburary. and recently deleting a comment v left on a post of hers within 30 seconds (i presume bc she knew just like we did that v was doing that for drama/attention, it was right after austin’s esquire interview where he briefly, respectfully talked about her), i think she’s genuinely trying to move on with her life. which can be hard! i never get over anyone! and if my personal read is right that she was a mix between a rebound and the priscilla to his elvis when he was really living in that man’s head that’s even more of an idk…niche heartbreak to have to wrestle with? whether the other party actually did anything wrong or not. i don’t think austin did anything to her or broke her heart with any malicious intent at all. none of the olivia/austin stuff changes how i see him as a fan. he’s a complex human, olivia is a complex human. that’s the gist.

#sorry for the essay LOL #lots of thoughts #lots of lore

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tzthrowbacks · 1 month

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How about march 9th?

btw i found another way of searching for a tagged post, on desktop you can use :

"blog name.tumblr.com/archive/tagged/the tag you're searching for"

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electricbluebutterflies · 23 days

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weird question but i basically went through the entire leto/jessica tag in a 2 day fever dream spiral after seeing dune 2 last month & i commented on absolutely nothing... if one were to go back through and read stuff in an actually coherent manner/leave comments, where should i start with your stuff? <3

Lol, how do I sort 300k worth of fic... let's do this with commentary!! I do have other stuff but we're ignoring some of it!

never listen but i see it with my eyes closed is the fever-dream of a canon-divergent fix-it fic I wrote (mostly) in December 2021 / my life was Actively On Fire at the time and it shows. First thing I wrote for the babes and I do side-eye some of my characterization choices in hindsight but... they were new to me and I was trying. Only longfic I've ever managed to finish.

one bright moment is all i ask is a throwback to a fic format that was popular circa like 2016 and one of the most fun little things I've written. (As you will see, everything is my favorite.)

shoot for the memory so you can forget me is a missing scene that can be blamed on a few things, but mostly the fact that that was the moment when I became Insufferable in a relatively packed movie theater. (There is Lore related to how this fandom spiral happened to me and it comes up kinda frequently...)

take his body as a relic to be canonized - the summary I posted on ao3 for this is "last thoughts of a dying man" and it is EXACTLY what it says on the tin. I broke my informal personal rule against writing death scenes for this one and I think I hit the fucked-up gorgeousness of it.

nothing in the world - the knife-kink fic, another thing that haunts me forever. There's a little context that I think is in the notes, but it's very... not the kind of content I usually write and I do love it.

give you my wild - the rituals fic, take 2. The original version of that concept was courtesy of an ex who I broke up with BECAUSE of this spiral (long story); this, written about a year later, is a softer version and twice as long.

prompt-comps, in order: i hope my love was someone else's solid ground, i never fall outside of love, i'd live and die for moments that we stole, sit awake until the wild feelings leave you (current / active one). This is where most of my fic HAPPENS / I like doing prompts that people send me, there's something about the responsiveness that works well for my process. I format them in sets of 50 for housekeeping purposes. Mostly canon'verse, occasional modern AU / me kicking myself for not writing as much modern AU as I want, "moments that we stole" has a few segments of a different canon-divergent AU that I need to do more with...

pillars - my new favorite and I'm not saying anything about it beyond that I wrote something I have spent two and a half years avoiding and it only broke me once.

#ebf talks fic

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hopetorun · 6 months

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tagged by @bropunzeling and @postoperation 💕

Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason.

first fic (on ao3): perspective, a star wars (legends) eu rarepair fic that i wrote for yuletide in 2011 that honestly was like pulling teeth at the time and i don’t think i’ve ever reread. i crossposted and then deleted some social network fic but i honestly don’t remember if i ever backdated any of it correctly anyway so this is probably the first one regardless since i got an ao3 specifically to participate in yuletide in 2011

last fic: make a better mistake, the brady/quinn home by now timestamp i put on here the other day. i don’t have much to say about this really except that it was fun to write out one of the bits of their backstory, which i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about

fic for a fandom/ship i only wrote once: don’t read the last page, broadchurch pornography i wrote in the year of someone’s lord 2021 after rewatching because my mom hadn’t seen it and wanted to. i wrote so much het porn in 2021 and yet i still can barely bring myself to write any of the common slang terms for vagina 💀

favorite fic in the fandom/ship with the most works: well in the summer of 2012 i was possessed by demons and wrote two then-avengers/now-mcu fics but i can’t say i like either of them. i guess i think this one is better, if pressed. honestly i don't feel a need to delete them but i am glad that no one ever seems to read them lol

fic i wish more people read: the sky is big enough, which i feel like i've said before! i really like how it came together but dropping 15k unannounced and unheralded on a medium-sized fandom and peacing out isn't exactly the best way to attract readers 😂 at least it exists for me to pretend is part of the game of thrones canon

fic you agonized over the most: this is kind of a toss-up. on the one hand, it took me the better part of six months to write preference, which clocks in at a not actually all that long 37k, because for mysterious reasons it was just a really slow story for me to pick through and i had to put a lot of thought into what i could do with each scene since the structure (which i imposed on myself btw. i made this problem) is so limiting. on the other hand the actual writing sessions for home by now were easy and productive but the story took ten whole entire months of my life, a major characterization revision just under halfway through, and a major pacing evening-out three quarters of the way through. both involved a lot of crying about whether the story was actually good.

fic that sprang fully formed from my mind without any effort: okay this is a throwback and also such a rarepair as in the only fic in the tag but years ago i wrote jt compher/his college teammate kevin lohan and it was just such an enjoyable story to write because i had a clear vision of the arc and it came together neatly and the non-linear structure meant i got to play with some fun juxtaposition. anyway: instructions for dancing

a story i'm proud of: this is not the end. was this a ridiculous thing to write in any year, much less the year 2020? sure. but write it i did, and it was the first novel-length story i ever successfully wrote, much less completed and edited and posted. and i think it's a nice story! proud of myself for getting over the long story hump and proud of myself for doing it while also doing graduate school. and proud of myself for finding something to do with my time so that my entire life didn't just become work and grad school in 2020.

#i'm not tagging anyone bc idr who's already been tagged but if you feel moved you can pretend i tagged you #my fic

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colorguardsweetheartblurrsgirl · 1 year

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Hey Guess What???

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It's my BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!

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Here's My GIFT TO YOU GUYS!!! Open Up and see

Decided it's also you know what day it is (internallly "HUmp"... wait that was yesterday :'D lol. had to jest) Throwback Thursday today!

Original Comic Cover Concept From 2021 (has since changed slightly)

Now Because it's Throwback Thursday, and since I've changed the comic from it's original concept... I just really wanted to give you guys something more on my birthday. So I thought I'd share as my present to you guys something...

I've dragged out posting this (to go with another work) for WWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY TOO LONG... It's about time it had it's DAY IN THE SUN so to speak ;)... I still will use this to a degree, but character designs I decided to go with a slightly different but also in strange way similar direction.

Though I had planned an extra special mini comic. I've put it on hold due to losing some documents I had saved for it...

I hope everyone enjoys, Take Care & Have a wonderful day!!!

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k-d-t-art · 1 year

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YOOOO 2021 THROWBACK

found this in my archives and realized I never posted this ANYWHERE

surprisingly it's not so bad for 2021 lol

#frankie shale #old art #original art #artses and fartses

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mzshko · 1 year

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I posted 482 times in 2022

That's 325 more posts than 2021!

85 posts created (18%)

397 posts reblogged (82%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@suzy-queued

@energievie

@galladrabbles

@gallawitchxx

@look-i-love-u

I tagged 349 of my posts in 2022

Only 28% of my posts had no tags

#galladrabbles - 50 posts

#gallavich fic - 39 posts

#gallavich fanfiction - 38 posts

#galladrabble - 36 posts

#about me - 24 posts

#gallavich - 22 posts

#love this - 21 posts

#100 words at a time - 16 posts

#100 words - 14 posts

#tag game - 11 posts

Longest Tag: 96 characters

#i love tami confirming ian’s gay and confirming there’s fear in messing up a gay dude’s hair lol

My Top Posts in 2022:

@gallacrafts | Theme 13: Throwback | Stargazer Lilies, Motherfucker

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@gallacrafts I Season 4 | Just Want Everyone Here to Know I’m Fuckin’ Gay

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@gallacrafts Made a thing. Hope you all like!

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Fuckin’ Gallagher | 9x6 Deleted Scene: Mickey In Mexico

@gallacrafts

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My #1 post of 2022

Thanks to @gallacrafts for organizing. Happy husbands stargazing and sharing a smoke. My beloveds.

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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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reikunrei · 1 year

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1, 19, and 23!

Do you prefer traditional drawing, or digital?

i think it depends on what i'm doing!! when i'm just doing fanart or want to draw something quickly and casually, digital is my favorite way to go! it's easier to fix mistakes and takes a lot less brain power in that regard. when i want to do something a little more involved, like a life study, then i prefer traditional. specifically i love using colored pencils. i love blending and layering the colors to make NEW colors, and i feel like i can really get into a drawing and stick with it for days on end (throwback to my main BFA piece of a family of mule deer that i spent upwards of 50 hours on lol)

19. What is the most difficult thing for you to draw?

hmmmmm i think for me right now, it's human likenesses. i feel pretty confident in drawing people generally, like i feel mostly confident in basic anatomy and i can spit out a coherent semi-realistic human form without using a reference, but i still find it really hard to make a drawing look like a specific person. especially because i really enjoy going the realistic route rather than something more stylised

23. Do you draw more fanart, or more original art?

as of late, it's been more fanart! i would love to do more original stuff, but the original stuff i wanna do is like what i did in school where i go to a natural history museum, post up in front of the taxidermy, and sit there the entire day without moving lol. BUT i do not have the time for that at the moment, sadly!

this also blurs the lines a bit, but throughout 2021/half of 2022, i did furry commissions on twitter, and i feel like that's sort of a blurred line between original work and fanart, because it's original in the sense that the character/sona is an original creation, BUT is it fanart if it's not my own character?? i'll let the jury decide

Artist Asks!

#tysm!!!! i love talking about art hehehehehe #ask

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killemwithkawaii · 1 year

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Goretober 2022 'The Staycation 🏡💙' Post-Event Reflection

Some thoughts about how the event went, now that it's concluded, so I can look back and reference them next year ✅

Positives:

>Introductions to the Mitchs: I was SO HAPPY to FINALLY be able to share all of my selfinsert characters with you guys!! I’ve been slowly developing them and their stories ever since ‘KEWKs Kidnapping,’ but wanted to come up with an interesting way to reveal all of them to you. I’ve wanted to, but held back on making art and fics about them because I wanted to save all of it for The Staycation event. Now that the event is concluded and they’ve all been introduced, I’ll be able to freely talk about and draw them as much as I like! I can already tell they have a few fans, (particularly Mitch(2)/ coworker!Mitch, who just so happens to be my favorite one! c:) so please feel free to ask about them/ their AUs if you’d like to. I may hold mini events where I RP as them and L.S.S. during their original timelines, but for now, I’d like to finally make character sheets for them and maybe write fics for their original AUs :D

>Trying new things: I took this event as an opportunity to try out some different artistic mediums that I don’t usually dabble in- pencil (my go-to before I started drawing digitally), pen/marker, collage, pixel art/ simple animation, digital but with simple lineart and a new brush, and I even threw a poem in there! It was a ton of fun to experiment with all of these, and I found that I really enjoyed all of them and would like to mess around with them more in the future. I particularly liked making the pixel art for videogame!Mitch and the collages for dealer!Mitch, and am very happy I finally figured out how to make simple animated gifs out of my art c:

>Story building: I had SO MUCH fun creating the story for this event, dropping hints to the ending, including throwbacks/references to past goretober events and sprinkling in easter eggs in the art and writing, especially all the references to food/eating, rabbits, and wolves/dogs! (tbh for a minute there, I was worried I was making things too obvious lol) I’ll have to make an ‘in case you missed it’ post pointing out some things that people haven’t mentioned yet…~

>Productivity: I succeeded in creating a total of 41 pieces of art and wrote at least 100 pages of story for this event, with about 90% of it created between October 1st and November 1st! Not too shabby, if I do say so myself UwU Doing this event always shows me that I’m capable of doing way more than I give myself credit for, and while that rapid pace is not at all sustainable long-term, I’m still very proud that I was able to pull off what I did in that short amount of time! It also gets me into the practice of drawing and writing much faster in general, which means my general art and writing will turn out quicker, too (good news for you guys, now that I’m back to my usual shenanigans~)

>Better self-care: While I did not succeed in avoiding all the pitfalls I fell into during the 2021 ‘The Do-Over’ goretober event, I still did a better job at caring for myself during this years event than the last. I managed to make time for a little socializing, did not lose as much weight over the course of the month as I did last year, and managed to avoid having a major breakdown due to the workload (still had a little cry toward the end, but it lasted like 5 minutes so I just consider it business as usual lol).

Negatives:

>Planning does not equal preparing: I did a lot of planning for this event- tons of spreadsheets, notes, ideas and a rough outline for each chapter- but I quickly learned that planning is not a substitute for preparing. I thought it would be much easier to write in real-time this year with so much to pull from in my back pocket, but I still ended up writing and drawing for at least 3-8+ hours every day during the event and often stayed up past 4am to finish the content for each day. Even with all that work, I was unable to fit in A LOT of what I wanted to include, simply because there was not enough time to create it from scratch.

Out of all the ficlets posted during the event, the only ones that were prewritten were the finalized day zero fic, the rough drafts for Penpal, Coworker, and Neighbors original introductions, and the draft for Penpals original death, and out of all the art posted, only the intro pics for Mitch 1-5 were completed before the 1st . Everything else was created within a few days of being posted, usually the same day. So, it’s safe to say at least 90% of this event, written and drawn, was improv and was therefore not the quality I wanted for it to be, despite all the effort I put into it.

>Things not going as intended: Despite having so much planned before October, having preset points for the appearances and deaths of each S/I and a definite ending in mind, the inbetween parts went VERY differently than what I’d set out to make them, simply because I had nothing concrete actually written for them and got new ideas mid-event. Still, I hope each chapter is enjoyable for what they turned out to be! (I may end up writing a fic version of this event that goes how I originally intended, or how I wish they turned out after-the-fact…)

>Human limitations: Despite telling myself not to do what I did last year, the pace I set was incredibly demanding, and after putting in so much work for the whole month, I was completely exhausted by the 31st. That day, I was feeling very sick and was having trouble thinking straight, but because it was pretty much the final day of the event and I’d come so far, I wanted to post something and get it over with. The writing posted on that day is not at all what I wanted it to be- it was, after all, supposed to be the climax of the story, but it fell completely flat and I am very, very disappointed with it. I intend to go back and edit it when I’m feeling up to it, but for now, I’m still recovering and trying not to beat myself up over it too bad…

>Lack of interaction: First off, I am incredibly grateful to those of you who sent in asks during The Staycation, with a special shout-out to @meadow-hearthfire and @stormcellarwitch! Your asks played a MAJOR part in the story and really helped to move it along and spark inspiration for me. Thank you so, so, SO much for your participation!! I really hope you enjoyed the ride, and that you’ll join me for next years goretober event as well :D

That being said, I was disheartened by the general lack of interaction during the event, especially after I was told there were a number of people that were excited to participate. I had more asks than I could handle last year and about half the number of followers that I do now, so I was anticipating a big turn-out and am wondering why that didn’t happen. (What made it more confusing was that I actually gained quite a few followers during the event, when I’d expected to lose a bunch due to the shift in content! But otherwise, there was very little activity in my feed…) I do realize I’m not owed interaction from any of you, and that my goretober events are very self-indulgent and different from my usual stuff, but I would still very much appreciate some constructive input as to why people were not interacting as I’d hoped and what I can do next year to motivate participation:

Was it boring? Too repetitive? Too confusing or involved? TL;DR? Were you disappointed because it wasn’t what you expected it to be? Were you confused as to how you could interact, what you were supposed to do, or assume you could not participate for some reason? Did you enjoy and follow the event, but just didn’t feel like participating in it? Are my goretober events just not your thing, and you were simply waiting for when the blog went back to the usual vibe? Or, were you just busy with life and didn’t have time to participate this year?

Thank you in advance for your input! It’ll be very helpful to me so I can make next year as entertaining and fun as possible for you guys and for myself ^^

Notes to Self for 2023 (that may be useful anyone that wants to do an event like this themselves):

>PREPARE: You DO NOT want this to take over your whole life for the entire month or be unsatisfied with the results because it’s rushed!! Make a goal to have AT LEAST 50% of the writing and art done (ESPECIALLY THE FINALE) before October 1st, and have an outline written for the rest. It is WAY easier to edit things a little during the event than to make it all from scratch the same day you post it!!

>Stick with the plan: Throwing in some things on impulse is fun, but taking a hard left out of nowhere just makes it so you have to improvise even more afterwards. Make a flowchart if choices made by the audience can affect the story progress so that you can stay on track and still get to where you need to go in the end.

>Be interactive, but independent: Include audience participation when/if it's offered, but do not depend on it, because it may not be there when you need it.

>Be clear: Set guidelines for participation, what the event is about, and make a masterlist/ guide for past events and the AUs within them so newcomers can get up-to-speed with the story so far

>Do some refreshing: Reread your own writing and take notes so you actually remember your own story. It will spark new ideas and help keep things consistent! Also, edit things that are not congruent and fix any plot holes you find.

>Remember this story is for you!: Just because people aren’t participating doesn’t mean your story isn’t worth creating and putting out there. Make it because you love it, and if people like it, that’s great! If not, you have a whole story custom tailored to your tastes, and that’s awesome, too ^^

Thanks for reading! I’m looking forward to getting back to business as usual on the blog and to thoroughly planning AND preparing for next years goretober event. Until then, I hope you all enjoyed this years event and had a great Halloween~ 🤗🎃💖

#k.e.w.k. speaks #the staycation 🏡💙

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💜🐻To our dearest Tae Tae,💜

Are you keeping warm today? I hope you can feel a lot of warmth today as we will all be sending a ton of it during this winter season. 😊 Shall we go into this 1....2.....3...... 🎉HAPPY 28TH/ 29TH VIRTHDAY! 🎉 I know I am early but I wanted to greet you to end the New Year and wish you all a Happy New year. HEHE I love that each year I get to end my last letter with you as your birthday is the last one of the year. You are the beginning to our ends and that is quite special. 😁

For today, I will do my best to make this short just like all your mini lives this past year lol let's see how well I can do to keep this short and simple for you. Well, thank you for being born and choosing to be a part of Bangtan and ARMY, my love. You are loved dearly and have been even if in the past it didn't seem that way. Just know that there was even one person looking after you and loving you from afar. Never change the tenderness and beauty of the way you are and choose to be for us as that is love itself. I think that we don't realize that we do a disservice to the universe when we choose to be anything but the true nature of who we were created and born to be. I love it when you can be who you are, truly. Every moment you made us laugh or even smile, I just know the universe felt so delighted that a new flower bloomed somewhere around the world because of you. 🌼

Now, I am all soft, but I like to think that way. I think everyone deserves to be told that hehe I just thought of it just now, but I wish to say it to everybody for your birthday, Tae. 💜At some point when someone delighted the world with a smile, warmth, laughter, and even love by being who they are, a flower bloomed in their honor because the universe wants to show us that there is beauty in who we are, and we can't be like anybody else. I think it is no wonder that there are billions of flowers everywhere around the world. There is many who are sharing the beauty of who they are, and you are one of those people. hehe

Taehyung-ah and I say this in the videos too, but I do wish to thank all the people who have been surrounding you and taking care of you thus far. From your parents, family, friends, ARMY, and even the BTS Crew and Tae Crew, I am grateful they have been taking care of you well. 🙏 We love you, dearly.

I wish you a happy V DAY! I hope you can enjoy my gift in my own way in videos lol But, I hope you see and receive ARMYs gifts well. I will do my best to listen to "wherever u r" hehe FIGHTING UMI! FIGHTING TAE! 💜It already sounds so cute just like Jiminie's Closer Than This. Thank you for loving us. We will wait for you all to come back so we can return the love back in person. 🥰 Bye bye! Also, ARMY AND BANGTAN HAVE A NICE HAPPY NEW YEAR! LET'S GO!!!! FIGHTING, MY LOVES!!!💪

With love,

Your Jennifer 🍉✌️🐰🍉

I went back to my hard drive and I found the one I lost and instead of posting new photos lol I have been a homebody this year, so I didn't even go outside these days, I found photos from 2021. It is going to be Thursday and looking into the past here is throwback photos from two years ago from your birthday on December 30, 2021. This was when you inspired me and TATA to dive more into jazz. ENJOY. hehe The bleached hair lol Happy VIRTHDAY! ✌️

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Oh no I didn’t remember your URL at all, haha. I was trying to remember, but I couldn’t. I just remembered having an alt account and logged in.

Wow that’s so cute and wholesome! I’m so happy you found a healthy relationship! And they’re totally right, you shouldn’t rush yourself. You may feel alright, but it usually takes longer to heal. If you hurt yourself again before it heals, you’ll be much worse and can’t do shit, so be careful. Sometimes, you just gotta treat yourself as if you’d treat a child.

Yeah the music question is difficult, I should have made it easier! That album for that Lorde song is so comforting. It’s so light, sunny, and peaceful. I remember when it came out, it was so polarizing, but I liked it. Cults is such a throwback, I didn’t even realize they made new music. I used to listen to music from their first two albums a lot. When I read into the With My Eyes Closed lyrics, to me it’s about being scared of your future or outcome and it’s staring right back at you. So you close your eyes to keep it a surprise or having to stare at it back. I think it’s also about working hard to achieve a goal in your life, and wondering if it’s worth it or if it’s what you really wanted. I think the last lyric means it most likely was worth it. But that’s just my interpretation!

If I had to answer the question, I’d probably do two songs too. In the first half I’d choose Rock Music by Shlohmo. That album pretty much predicted COVID and gives off world ending, apocalyptic L.A. feelings. The latter half, I’d choose Movement 6 from the album Promises. It’s my favorite album as of recently and reminds me of 2021 and onward.

I share a similar view as you. I used to plan my future a lot and have these expectations for myself, but I discovered that just leads to disappointment (but I guess it depends on the person). For me, life isn’t just a moving goal post. I think it’s better to be living in the present. I think it’s still okay to set loose goals and a direction for yourself, but I don’t believe in a strict stairway to success.

Anyway, that’s super cool that you plan to go to Shanghai! I think knowing a different language is a superpower, it grants you a new perspective of the world. So I’m totally for it and cheering you on. There are so many cultures and communities to discover around the world. I’m trying to learn a new language, and I read a lot about theories in learning new languages, so if you need any pointers in developing your Chinese let me know.

Honestly, I shouldn’t have thrown that question in there. My memory is a blur too, so I share the same sentiment. I just remember wholesome feelings of sharing each others perspectives in life.

I guess I asked that question because I have identity issues or I’m just existential. I feel as if my whole life, my personality has been in pleasing others and making sure everyone’s happy, to the point where I don’t really know how to be myself. I end up having too many hobbies or interests and it leads to feeling like I’m not good at anything. I just feel like I don’t have an identity. I wish I “had it together”, where I know what I want to do and I know what I want to stand for, and I knew what opinions I had for something. But I feel like I’m always in the gray, I’m always an “I guess” person, never decisive, and always basing my decisions on pleasing others. Not sure if you get me. When I was reading the past posts, my assumption is that I was wondering if I was “pleasing” you, if I was responding “correctly”, when in reality, I’m just wondering if I’m “being myself” or not. I feel like my personality back then wasn’t real and it was just mental illness in control lol. Ever since I stabilized my mental health, I really don’t know how to be myself, or what it’s like to experience being normal lol. I’m always inspired by artists, and wish I had some form of identity. Back then it was so easy to express myself, but now that I’ve changed so much, I feel it’s so hard to express myself and give a fuck about anything. I guess I have no one to please but myself now, and I don’t know how to please myself because I don’t even know myself lmao. It must be confusing but I hope that makes some sense! Also, not expecting an answer or anything, I’m just ranting at this point, haha.

Also, I don't expect you to respond to everything, this is getting super long! Unless you like these long back and forths, then go crazy haha.

Yea I love both lorde and cults. I'm very loyal to my nostalgia lol. I saw cults in concert though and it was really bad. The band was great but the singer was really pitchy. I needed some space from their music after that since it was so disappointing.. but yea, love their recorded music. I think your interpretation is interesting.

I like the songs you chose.

I'm working on the moving goal post thing. I always tell people to stay present but that's because I have such a hard time enjoying the process. I'm so goal-oriented, always have been. It's not sustainable and leads to burnout.

What language are you learning? I'm interested to hear more about these language-learning theories. Don't think I'm very familiar with the topic.

I think there is a lot of value in being in the grey. Nothing in life is black and white anyway, objective truth doesn't exist, and good and bad are just concepts. I have a lot of interests too, and there seems to be an expectation to master something and have a niche because of marketability and capitalism. But your many interests do make up who you are, and you don't have to pigeon hole yourself into one thing.

The phrase is, "jack of all trades, master of none, but better that than a master of one."

Not knowing who you want to be is an opportunity for you to explore and find out. I have a friend who has never been in a relationship and she just started dating maybe two years ago. I remember her asking me what to look for in a partner cuz she didn't know what she liked. But there was no advice I could give except to fuck around and find out. The only way to know is through doing. And what you don't want/who you aren't is just as important as you are too! It's honestly a really exciting position to be in.

Also, I just wanna say, people are always changing. It's not like you know who you are and then you stay that person forever anyway. Imo learning about yourself is the key to confidence and self-assuredness. I think people are always constantly learning about themselves because if you aren't changing, you aren't growing, and that's the worst thing you can do.

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