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pompompurin1028 · 8 months

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i think this question has been asked before and a veryy basic one lol but as a literature major you are, what are your favorite books? i am curious to know

This is a hard question because firstly, I hadn’t really read for pleasure in quite a bit so orz (I literally just didn't read except for my summer classes for the summer :')). So there are many books I want to read but hadn't read yet orz (there is also a reason why there is so little prose fiction🥲)

Also I have some books that I enjoy analyzing but like not reading as much or it's a mixture of both. I'll try to expand on them if I can, and split them into categories since some of the books I also really enjoy slip into philosophy/theory.

Here are works I enjoyed!

Works of Prose Fiction:

The Picture of Dorian Gray and "The Portrait of Mr W.H" by Oscar Wilde - I love Wilde, I've read him for both leisure and courses, he's great 10/10 would recommend

The Setting Sun, Otogizoshi, "Blue Bamboo" by Dazai Osamu

Frankenstein by Mary Shelly

"The Metamorphosis" by Franz Kafka

Poetry (this long list is actually kinda funny because I enjoy poetry more when I am lectured on it than reading on my own):

"The Rape of the Lock" by Alexander Pope - there isn't actually rape in it I want to preface that😭 honestly I didn't expect myself to like it as much as I did when I had to read it for class but I did. Despite the title, it's funny and it's satire. It's a long poem that takes conventions from the epic poem like Paradise Lost. It can also be read critically if you analyze it more from a feminist reading. Written in heroic couplets to be exact, flows great on the tongue, I recommend an audiobook

"Paradise Lost" by John Milton - I think it's a fascinating work to analyze, I didn't enjoy reading it as much when I did do it, I felt like an audio book would have helped but it is the first English epic poem, deals with ideas of the philosophical problem of evil and I think the most interesting part is that there are camps of different readings to Paradise Lost namely: Satanist and anti-satanist lol. I feel like Milton is more anti-santanist imo and reading but it's just fun XD. Also I really liked this paper on Eve and it shaped my reading of the work too: https://www.jstor.org/stable/26303763?typeAccessWorkflow=login

"A Valediction: Forbidden Mourning" by John Donne - one of my favourite love poems orz. John Donne is difficult to read, he wants to show his intelligence through his works and is part of the metaphysical poets but this poem struck to me and I'm just mmm. I also want to read more Donne but I hadn’t yet.

"Two Loves" by Lord Alfred Douglas - if you're a fan of Wilde you need to know Lord Alfred Douglas, another poem that really stuck with me

Sonnets 15, 130 by William Shakespeare

"Sir Gawain and the Green Knight" - when doing Medieval Romances, this poem really stuck to me, it has so many interesting elements and it felt different in comparison to the other ones I have read, and was fun to analyze! Apparently they released a movie on it 2 years ago called The Green Knight, I can't tell if it is good or not because I hadn’t watched it

"Sonnets from the Portuguese" by Elizabeth Browning - love poems she wrote to her husband :(

"Lines Composed a Few Miles above Tintern Abbey", "Resolution and Independence" by William Wordsworth

"The Prelude" also by William Wordsworth - I found it a difficult read, it took me a few reads to understand what's going on and I was reading excerpts but I find it fascinating to analyze, especially in terms of the problem of identity and how he tries to reconcile with the events of the French Revolution through nature (honestly I feel like Tintwrn Abbey does it too but this is more interesting to analyze for me)

"Elegy written in a country churchyard" by Thomas Gray - interesting to analyze in that it's in a transitional period between the Romantic and the Neoclassical (Enlightenment period) and it combines elements typically associated with both

"Poppies in July" by Sylvia Plath - a depressing poem but... I liked it a lot, it is very interesting to analyze

Plays (Plays are actually my least favorite genre I'm sorry, I don't know why I can't get into plays as much as other genres even if it involves analysis but there were ones I did enjoy):

Medea by Euripides

The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde

Doctor Faustus by Christopher Marlowe

Non-fiction/ Theory/ Philosophy:

"You'll never believe what happened" by Thomas king - this really struck me when I first read it but I can't recall why and at one point I wanted to find more of his works

"Truth and Lying in the Non-moral sense" by Nietzsche - I do quite enjoy Nietzsche ngl, I especially am interested in his ideas on aesthetics, I really really want to read more of him in my free time. I also was really fascinated by the parts of his The Birth of Tragedy that I did read

"The Decay of Lying" by Oscar Wilde - speaking of Nietzsche I have to mention Wilde because this essay actually reminded me the Nietzsche essay I wrote above

Frames of War: When is Life Grievable, The Force of Nonviolence: An Ethico-Political Bind, "Giving an Account on Oneself" by Judith Butler - I think Butler has fascinating ideas on nonviolence, grievability and identity, whether one agrees with it or not is another thing, I personally enjoy Butler though, I'm hoping to read Gender Trouble when I can (I hadn’t finished the first two books either but I have read parts of them and discussed them in class orz)

Utopia by Thomas Moore - makes you question whether the Utopia described is actually a Utopia or not, and ofc the origin of the genre

The Wretched of the Earth by Franz Fanon (also hadn't finished but I want to read more orz)

De Profundis by Oscar Wilde

I also am quite interested in the idea of the sublime by Edmund Burke but I hadn’t been able to dive deep into it yet :(

Also I like reading Dazai-sensei's personal essays I don't have a term for it in English :(, I don't see them in English translations though which is actually really sad

#this was a longer list than I expected orz #but yeah a lot of these are actually stuff I enjoyed / kinda enjoyed from classes mostly I want to read more on my own time but yeah...#it's hard #asks 💌#Lovely Anon❤️

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eggofritts · 1 year

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POST CON MERCH UPDATE (ONLINE STORE!!)

After recovering from Sacanime, I am gearing up to open the online shop for leftover stock on January 20th! I will have merch of Destiny 2, The Locked Tomb series, One Piece, FFXIV, and more! I’ll show the merch as the week rolls out so pls do come and check out my goodies and my friends Genshin Impact and FFXIV goodies as well.

Quite a few listings are low stock since it’s post-Sacanime so I suggest buying them sooner than later. The restock will happen, but it may take longer than expected since I have school fees and other things to pay for orz

I’m very excited!! My friends and I worked hard on merch that we think would be fun and cute! So please do come support our passionate endeavors!

#my merch

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just-another-self-shipper · 2 years

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Hey!! 💐, 💖, 🌈, 🏙 for Alex! >:3

I'm putting it under a read more because it got longer than expected orz

Okay, so for this bouquet I went with the list from the second source. I'll list them alphabetically with the meanings in parentheses

Almond (promise)

Amaryllis (pride)

Aster (symbol of love, trusting)

Balsam (ardent love)

Bellflower (unwavering love) seeing a pattern?

Bluebell (loyalty, constancy)

Borage (courage)

Bouvardia (enthusiasm)

Brugmansia (vivacity, vibrancy, health)

Calla lily (magnificence and beauty)

Celandine (joys to come)

Chrysanthemum, general (fidelity, optimism, joy, long life)

Chrysanthemum, red (love)

Chrysanthemum, white (truth, loyal love)

Clove (undying love)

Dahlia (elegance and dignity)

Dill (passion)

Edelweiss (devotion, courage)

Elderflower (compassion)

Geranium (determination)

Gladiolus (strength of character, honor, conviction)

Gorse (love in all seasons)

Heliotrope (devotion)

Honeysuckle (devoted affection, bonds of love)

Mallow (consumed by love)

Mignonette (worth)

Oak leaf (strength)

Primrose (eternal love)

Protea (courage, daring, resourcefulness)

Rose, coral or orange (desire, passion)

Rose, red (true love)

Speedwell (kindness, loyalty, protection)

Stock (a happy life, bonds of affection)

Tulip, black (power, strength, supreme elegance)

Tulip, orange (understanding, appreciation, truest love)

Tulip, red (undying love, passion, perfect love)

The tulips are all variegated (when they're striped with different colors) which means beautiful eyes

Ylang-ylang (never-ending love)

We'll pick wildflowers for each other and make flower crowns 🥰

A little bit overcast, but still warm. I don't really like bright sunlight lol We'll go out and just walk around town, window shopping mostly.

We like to go window shopping, but we'll probably stop somewhere to eat first.

Thanks for the ask, @aphoenixshadow ^^

#ask game #💪: strong arm stronger heart

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veliseraptor · 2 years

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mostly just for my own reference re: fics I want to try to focus on right now

the fair and the brave and the good must die: Has a loose outline and direction, maybe 50-75% finished? the 75% is optimistic

anything but blood: come on Lise it’s just straight up whump and arguments about moral dilemmas, this should be easy

the best all lack conviction: wildcard!!! for the Dragon Age Fenders fic that’s been kicking around on my hard drive for forever

Pygmalion: wildcard 2!!! for Doctrine of Labyrinths dark fic, because it turns out I still like what I have here and as long as I can figure out the scope of this thing I should be able to write it even if writing Felix voice with Lower City cant is harder than I expected orz

et ipsi sunt jacula: I feel like I should make “finishing this fic before May” a legit goal because I just learned that the original inspiration is from approx May 2019, I’m so sorry @sugarbabywenkexing

the more ambitious/longer term projects I still want to keep on my radar

Walking Far From Home: technically I have another chapter to post, not sure why I decided I have to wait to post chapters until the next one is done considering it’s not like it changes anything about the wait time between ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Now if only I can overcome my whiny feelings about this one.

this world is gonna break your heart: Lise, you said you wanted to finish this fic this year, but that unfortunately means you’re going to have to do the work on it. am beginning to wonder if part of my problem is that my initial thoughts about direction aren’t quite working as far as what the relationship here is going to look at and maybe this isn’t a fic with sex in it actually

addendum: at the point where a priorities list includes seven different projects is it really a priorities list anymore or has it reached a length where that’s meaningless? asking for a friend

#confessions of a frustrated writer #my work motivation is. quite low right now #important text posts #of course all of this might get derailed by the aforementioned self indulgent not to be posted nonsense #who knows!!!!

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hopeassassin · 3 years

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Rally’s Scribbles in the Work

So after that lovely anon blew my mind away with their kind words and wonderful support, and because I keep telling you guys about my writing plans without actually giving you even a teensy little detail, I have decided to stop being coy and actually likely get your hopes up a bit by dilvulging small details and bits of plots of what is currently going on in my G-Drive.

This will be a brief recount of what I have currently baking in the AoMomo oven, so let’s dive right into it! Please note that the numbers are in no particular order - I just keep revisiting each of these stories and writing a bit more to them whenever I feel like it. So there’s no ranking and no importance, just a number to keep proper count.

1. “Knight of Renown” Dragons and Knighthood AU, based on that one AoMomo pic with Momo ithe Knight and Dragon Aomine that I reblogged a while back and I actually let me imagination go a bit too much in the tags. I ended up actually rather enjoying the premise I set up in the tags so I actually started writing that one out! Completion rate at about: 5%? I’d say? Less? :D

2. AoMomo Music AU - a dearly beloved project that I am pouring a lot of love and attentioin to. That’s why it’s coming along super slow. It’s been in the making since November and I chewed it and mulled through it so thoroughly that I’ve grinded to a halt with it. Intending for there to be 2 chapters, and I am at about 25-30% of chapter 1 currently ready currently. At the pace I’m going, it might be another full year before you actually get to see this bad boy up, but when you do, I’m sure you’ll see all the care and effort that went into making it perfect. Honestly, no joke here, I am intending for this to be one of my rare masterpieces in this tag. So I’m not gonna rush it!

3. AoMomo Car Accident AU where Daiki barely manages to save Satsuki from being run over by a hit-and-run and ends up being the one run over instead. This was my first piece of writing after coming back to AoMomo last summer and yet completion rate is a sad thing. I want it to be flawless, a perfectly agonizing, thrilling type of torturous read that gives you a great sense of relief by the end of it. Needless to say, the clusterfuck of negative feelings is a bit difficult to hold onto for a prolonged period of time and the work is coming along slowly. Planned at about 5 chapters, I have 2 complete ones and the 3rd one is at about ... 30%? Hopefully before this year’s whumptober, we’ll have a finished piece!

4. AoMomo bond character study, which went in a direction I did NOT expect nor intend. It was suppsoed to be an idea that you will see also listed below. But I started this one from their early childhood and somehow, instead of focusing on the kids and their bond and their weird interactions with each other and their first moments of realizing they are of opposite genders, it turned into something much too fun to let go of and the ideas for scenes just kept piling. It’s going to be a long one, very explorative and very in-depth character study on the bond between these two and how it changed over the years, and their first encounters with their sexuality inbetween (because that was really the main idea that I started with... xDDD;;;) Currently at 1 chapter complete, chapter 2 somewhere around 50-60% completion, and at least 6-7 chapters to come after that, soooo.... :’DDDD YEAH. THIS ONE AIN’T SEEING THE LIGHT OF DAY ANYTIME SOON.

5. AoMomo deciding to practice stuff on each other, because I am a sucker for this trope.THIS will be what the idea under previous number 4 was SUPPOSED to be like, but it instead spun out of control. So this one, under number 5, is going to be the smutty, idiots bumbling through physicality to discover that they actually have serious feelings for each other kind of piece. Chapters are planned at about at least 6-7 or so, but not my usual monstrocities! :D First we start with practice kissing, and we move our way up from there!

6. “The Evil of Humanity” AU - a dystopian futuristic kinda mecha AU, sort of an amalgamation of some of my favourite anime in the genre - a bit of NGE, a bit of Gurren-Lagann, a lot of Darling in the Franxx rewrite and improvement, in distinctly AoMomo colors. I poured a lot of thought and love into initial outline of main moments for this one, and I really hope to make it an epic, thrilling action/adventure with a big dash of romance kind of read! Chapters currently not even planned properly, because I need to sit down and consider this seriously. It will definitely be more than 10-15 though, and they will be my usual chapter lengths so.... likely no time soon. :D

7. Aomine Fanclub - I got a plot bunny some time ago and I shared it here and my friends were spurring me on with it, so I started trying it out a little more. I’ve written out like... maybe 30% of this one as well, but need to re-read and reconceptualize to get it back on track. The issue with this one is that I’m not really sure where I want to take it, thus it’s on the back burner at the moment.

8. KagaKuro AoMomo double-date kind of story, where Aomine is asking some curious questions of Taiga about going to America and pondering if any of his immediate friends know what Satsuki wants to do with her life. I’m really invested in this one but haven’t started properly writing it out yet beyond just sketching out the idea so I don’t forget it. (I’d say 1% complete here.) Really looking forward to using the idea of Kagami being super impressed with AoMomo perfect sync when playing as a team in arcade games!

9.Laws of Attraction Chapter 2 - You might be surprised at this, but I’m actually super invested in this one. Likely the reason why I am delaying so much working on it - I feel like all my great scene ideas are just too chaotic and I have a hard time starting the chapter flowing properly. I had like 4-5 false starts already and I’m feeling a bit skittish with picking it up. But I have such AMAZING concepts on where to take it after it revvs up the engine, so... Maybe sometime this year! Completion rate: 0% written, but at least about 30% ideas built up for the installment!

10. AoMomo college rooming together story - sort of an expansion on my fill for one of the prompts way back those years ago in AoMomo week. I really dig the concept and the trope of sharing spaces with someone you consider nothing more than a friend and then gradually learning to appreciate each other for something so much more. I am definitely doing this one some day, but not anytime soon, likely.

11. A random idea bit me the other day (read: a month ago) and I actually wrote out like... maybe 25% of it already as well. A random comment from Wakamatsu miffs Satsuki but then she realizes why he’s asking dumb questions and she comes to realize that something is wrong with the equation: either Dai-chan likes someone really close to them and she hasn’t realized, which is unlikely, or Dai-chan likes HER and is super blase about it in a way that betrays his feelings not at all, which is even more unlikely. Being a curious individual, she sets out to find which it is! Some hilarity should ensue but mostly just some mess-with-Dai-chan fun!

12. Touou summer training camp at the sea - progress is practically 0, I wanted to write a summery piece and set my mind on this, but nothing beyond has come to me, so I’m not forcing it.

13. AoMomo cultural festival fic in second year of high school (meaning something approx end of Oct -> beginning of Nov.) with Daiki being in a distinctly Haruhu Suzumiya role at that festival (has anyone even seen this anime? I adored that episode to freaking bits, man, it’s engraved upon my soul) and singing Billy Idol’s “Rebel Yell” and one more song just like Haruhi did. And Satsuki just beholding the phenomenon he becomes in no time flat while he lays bare his passion for life for all the student body to see. Shippiness will happen in private afterwards!

14. You Can Leave Your Hat On Chapter 2 - Probably like 2-3 years ago while I was still in the damn woodwork and wrestling with real life and adulting being crap, I remembered this AU premise and I got super hyped on the idea of Club Owner Dai-chan being a flirt with innocent Satsuki who got dragged to his joined and fell in love at first sight with his shenanigans. I’ve already played around for like 7k words with the second chapter of this but I’m still not where I want to be at, so it will take a while longer to flesh it out.

15. Idol Worship - a story that I promised my mate aricana some 6 years ago the premise for which I am super hyped for but not quite engaging with it yet. The idea was that Momoi finally starts gettiing the dates she has been pesting Kuroko for for years, and Daiki feeling terrible about beholding that, whilst Kise is being pestered by Horikita Mai for a date and instead ditches her with Daiki because he knows his former Teikou classmate is a huge fan of her. Mai-chan isn’t particularly happy but somehow ends up enjoying her time with Daiki and starts considering actually pursuing him instead of Kise when she sees what an interesting soul he is, with the torch that he’s carrying for some girl in his life he doesn’t really talk about but is evident from the little things he drops off as hits. AoMomo shenanigans will start to ensue properly when Satsuki realizes that Daiki is actually having a close female friend who is not her but is Horikita Mai instead, Dai-chan’s perfect woman, practically. She doesn’t take well to the news and has to grapple with why that is! And what to do with these newfound frustrating emotions!

16. Obstruction of Justice Chapter 3 - MAYBE SOME DAY, I WILL GET TO WRITING THIS. Last summer I inteded to do just that but instead, Wild Side of Justice was born. And it became a spin off of sorts on its own. ORZ. I WILL FINISH THIS SOME DAY, I do have some plans for it and I do have the desire to pursue them. I just need to be in the right headspace for it ahsjkfhkjaf

17. A PWP story of Kagami arriving early for a practice match at Touou and somehow walking in on AoMomo getting busy with each other in very unexpected and explicit ways that Kagami did not see headed his way. Because, we need more PWP in this fandom, honestly.

18. And since we DO need more PWP, recently when checking the 30 lemons community on LJ (shut up, I’m not ancient, YOU’RE ANCIENT) I was wondering how exactly a smut plot around the “Taken by the Faceless Stranger” could work for Aomomo and I came up with this Masquerade ball that they end up both attending because of their friends and meeting each other and hitting off fantastically just chatting the night and then banging in a niche in the long castle-like premise of the ball. :’DDDD Cuz it’s me and if I don’t have something like that in the works, you know i’m likely sick.

ALL OF THESE I am planning on eventually finishing one day. ONE DAY!

For now they are in various states of completion and in various stages of being cared for and improved on with more ideas added and fleshed out.

I am not joking when I say I am very invested in this fandom. I just have difficulty getting to writing out these ideas when I spend like 60% of my free time playing my mobile games. :D

So there you have it. I didn’t want to say anything about these because 1) I don’t want to get your hopes up. You Can Leave Your Hat On 2, for one, has been in the making for 3 years, very on-again-off-again kind of way, and I just... can’t do that to you guys. I have decided against posting any incomplete fics so I don’t torture you guys and my muse doesn’t abandom me forever for them. So when something is complete, it gets posted promptly for your viewing pleasure!

And 2) If I divulge too much of the story, I feel like my hype of it may disappear completely. Ehh, my muse is a willful creature, what can I tell you...

So let’s hope at least SOME of these get to see the light of day soon!

#my scribbles #here you have it #a rather complete list of incomplete AoMomo stuff I'd say #Rally's works in the making #tagged as:#AoMomo #because it's all AoMomo #sorry for spamming the main tag with nonsense #Kuroko no Basuke #will I ever finish any and all of these?#here's to hoping!#a little bit insider info from the kitchen #fanfiction #writing

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pumpkinpaix · 4 years

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Hello! and PSA

*waves* hi everyone! so uh, I’ve kind of had a bit of a surge in followers recently, and I thought I would make a bit of a PSA/intro post with a bit more targeted info than my about page.

anyways, I’m cyan! statistically speaking, you are probably here for one of the following reasons:

my fic

my meta

my gifs

my translation

all of the above

this is pretty much an mdzs blog on main these days, but I also rb a lot of other misc things because I have never been good at keeping my interests separate. it’s also my personal blog, so expect some of that? i am very all or nothing ahaha. my opinions change very quickly as I process new information, so like, something I said last week or yesterday might be different now! I’ve seen several people going through some of my older posts, and I’m just like oh dear, I said a lot of things six months ago that I no longer vibe with. /o\ please keep that in mind as you go diving in my blog!

i don’t have a BYF or DNI policy, but I reserve the right to block anyone for any reason because this is a personal blog first and foremost, and I do need to be better about setting my boundaries and curating my own online space! on that same token, you are free to follow, unfollow, block, whatever, even if we’re mutuals. <3

you’re free to come talk to me in my inbox or dms, but please be aware that there’s a very high chance I will never get back to you /o\ it isn’t personal!! I am just very mentally ill and have many difficulties with keeping up social interactions or talking to people.

in the interest of trying to be more open about myself, my brain, and what that means for me in an online/fandom space, I’m gonna do a boatload of mental health talk under the cut (or, if you’re looking at this on my blog proper or somewhere where the cut doesn’t display, it starts right after this paragraph), including mentions of self-harm/thoughts of specific self-harm etc, just so you are warned! I’ve been thinking recently that it’s good to try and take steps towards being more open about my issues, both for my own sake and others’. It’s long, because one of the fun things about my mental illness is that I am hyperverbal ahahaha (if that... wasn’t already obvious orz)

so if you’ve read pfmmpd, you can kind of get a sense of what I’m working with. a lot of how i wrote lwj was drawn directly from shit happening in my own brain, but like? dial that up from the specific issues that lwj had in that fic and apply it unilaterally across the board to almost anything you can think of.

I hesitate to describe my OCD as debilitating, but only because my specific cocktail of compulsions and anxieties and triggers push me to be hyperachieving and hyperfunctional. I consider myself pretty fortunate (?) in that regard. on paper, you could never tell how absolutely batshit my internal landscape is! which is very good for me practically in that I can hold down a job, keep scholarships, graduate with honors, have good prospects for my future, hold onto relationships (usually yikes) etc. but the fact of the matter is, I’m like. oh boy.

to give you a peek, here’s a non-exhaustive list of things that have triggered me to varying degrees of severity within the last like, week or so:

my dog

a chinese folk song

my mother reading a chinese haiku to me written by a young gay man

a chinese reader of my fic lovingly and gently giving me a history lesson on china and on mdzs while praising me

stepping on a piece of snow that didn’t collapse in the precise way i expected it to

writing meta

reading meta

ruminating on my triggers (honestly, I played myself)

seeing a twitter thread going around tumblr with decent information but the OP is someone who was exceedingly cruel to a good friend of mine

visiting my grandmother’s grave

deciding to visit my grandmother’s grave

discussing the concept of cuddling my partner whom i love and have been with for four years

self-harming (truly the height of irony, being triggered into self-harm and then getting triggered by the result of the self-harm hahahahahaha)

dropping off a package

trying to explain queer-coding to my parents

talking about stressors in my life related to covid19

having a very pleasant conversation with a person i admire

editing my translation

the fact that the “close” button on my accessibility sidebar on the translation website is the wrong color

choosing between eating all the shiitake mushrooms in my soup and purposefully giving myself a bad reaction or throwing one out and wasting food

thinking about playing a fun game with my partner and a mutual friend

my mom asking me to take a photo of some tea for her

my mom asking my opinion on a photo she was photoshopping

animal crossing

writing this fucking post HAHAHAHA

like!! it goes on!! endlessly! obviously, these triggers are not simply “bad” things. the chinese folk song and the haiku were both really beautiful and i love them! but I did spend a good amount of time curled up on my floor in the dark sobbing as i played the song on repeat. the haiku was one of the last straws that ended up with me screaming and crying and hurting myself. the snow??? like wtf the snow thing. I stepped on the snow and it felt wrong and my brain just started screaming SMASH YOUR KNEECAP. ???? (I didn’t, for the record, and I would never.) I love my partner very much! I love my friends very much, and my mother, and my grandmother etc. my triggers are infinite, unpredictable, and bizarre.

I’m saying all of this because I want to be clear that MDZS/CQL fandom specifically triggers me on a daily basis, sometimes very very badly. this is just a fact! it is no one’s fault! I have decided it is worth it for me to stay anyways. it is impossible for me to request people tag for certain things because I myself have no idea what my triggers are until I encounter them. It’s like a fun mystery boss encounter! sometimes it’s low level and i’m well-equipped to handle it. other times it’s a one-hit KO. We just don’t know! there are lots of very cool content creators in this fandom that I can’t follow because it would make my dash that much more high stakes. the original source canon material triggers me! all the events leading up to Lotus Cove massacre? I was shaking at work for three hours after consuming it for the first time.

Meta specifically is something I know a lot of people like me for, but it’s 100% the most triggering activity I participate in for this fandom. like, that suibian meta post I wrote that’s currently going around? Probably took me four or five hours of concentrated effort to write because I was compulsively panicking and rewriting and editing and panicking more and qualifying and editing and qualifying some more and then debating whether I should post it or not and then fighting with myself about my wording and then immediately regretting it and then every time someone commented on it (regardless of positive or negative!) my anxiety spiked. I started a reply to a response on that post and had to stop after a few minutes because I was already starting to trigger myself over it.

this is actually a pretty good outcome when it comes to meta! I recognized that I was hurting myself before I got any further, and I only spent like, five hours on it! it was good exposure therapy for me! the bad outcome is. well. bad, as you might imagine lmao.

I like writing meta. I like talking to people about it too! I like participating in fandom, I like writing, I like translating, I like all of these things. they’re just also really hard for me! there’s a couple meta requests sitting in my inbox right now that I want to get to, but it might take me like. a long time because of. you know! *gestures* Everything takes me a long time. that first chapter of the translation took me literally five months from beginning the project to posting a final edited version. It’s just over 1k words. D8

I try really hard to be chill and kind in public and I largely think I succeed on the kind part (I hope!). If you thought I had even an ounce of chill before this, perhaps I have disabused of that notion entirely now lmao. I’m not saying this for pity, but like? just so we all know what we’re dealing with here. I don’t want anyone to get hurt when I don’t engage with them or feel snubbed if I never reply to them. and also like, hey, if someone relates it’s like hooray, high fave, solidarity! we’re not alone in this world! or maybe this will help someone understand OCD a little better! I don’t know. I hope this post is a positive thing. BUT! I’ve spent three hours on it already, and i’m definitely starting to compulsively spiral, so instead of going back and editing it over and over, I’m just going to post it. thank you everyone for your understanding! I hope you enjoy your time on my blog! (*´▽`*)

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venus-says · 4 years

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Kamen Rider Movie Wars #1-#6

So... what is all this stuff?

When I decided on starting my Kamen Rider watch I was determined to watch as much as I could, everything seemed okay but there was always a huge problem: the movies.

I didn't know where to look at for information so most of my research was done in the Wikia and if you visit the Kamen Rider Wikia you'll see that the way they list the movies IS CONFUSING AS HELL so I set my mind in watching only the stand-alone movies and any extra released after the show ended that wasn't part of any crossover project.

I decided to do this way to try to avoid spoilers of the previous series that I haven't watched, not necessarily because I didn't want to know what exactly happened in those series, but because I didn't want to have a certain impression of a Rider before I could watch their own show and don't be so judgemental about it before actually knowing that character and the set of extras that'll orbit around it.

But then we cut to 4 months later and I'm watching a video on youtube about W and they comment about how in the crossover movie they explain the events of Beginning Night and I go "shit, these movies DO have necessary information, I think I'll need to watch them orz", so here I am.

Before I go talking about these movies let me just say I think they're all pretty stupid. Like, even calling them movies is a low move, they're extended episodes of each series that converge on an awful CGI battle scene at the end, it's not a lot of fun considering the thing that sells the movie usually don't last longer than 30 minutes. I think the thing that just really pisses me off is how they aren't very considerate of people who didn't watch these movies and they'll usually bring up in the show events that only happened in the movie to the show itself, don't explain them, and expect that the audience will already know what the things they're referencing means. I know it seems like a dumb complain since I'm watching these seasons after they aired so I can watch the movies in the proper time if I want to, the thing is I shouldn't need to watch a movie to understand a thing that happened in the show, the movies should be extra material. And I'm not saying these movies shouldn't be canon, but they shouldn't be integrated with the main continuity in a way that would exclude people who didn't get the opportunity to watch said movies to understand them.

But that's enough for my rant let's get to these movies.

Movie War 2010

So, for the original Movie Wars, I watched only the W's portion, I didn't watch either the Decade part or the conclusion because of the reasons I mentioned up there.

This movie was more or less just a huge flashback, this is also the movie that pisses me off the most because it introduced Skull and the Lost Driver that are things that would become key elements not just for the show but also for their movie and well I already made a huge paragraph about this issue so I won't repeat myself.

I honestly don't remember much about it, but as many problems as I have with this whole set up, I enjoyed this movie. Huge part of it was because Skull was there and he's cool as heck, I'll admit, but I had fun. Though nothing will change my mind that this should've happened in the show not isolated in a movie.

Movie War Core

The next one in line is Movie War Core, I had more fun with this one but this was still pretty bad.

W's portion of it was pretty decent, seeing more of Skull was great, and it was also nice seeing what would lead up to the events in the Accel movie. My biggest problem here is that Akiko never seemed so against the Kamen Rider before so it seemed a little off that she would freak out like that only now, but oh well, it was still nice seeing Skull, I wish we had a movie exclusive to him he's so cool he deserves it (I know it's probably late for me to ask for this, just let me leave XD).

Sadly from that moment on the movie got really boring. I wasn't interested in the attempt of reviving Nobunaga plot, I feel like things were happening way too fast in that, and also Kamen Rider Core was just awful as a final villain, I hated that.

Movie War Megamax

The Fourze x OOO movie is probably my least favorite of the bunch. I really didn't buy that thing of a Kamen Rider from the future coming out of a black hole after meteors were falling, the implication that the medals weren't destroyed in OOO's final battle kinda weakens the ending of the series and the fact they didn't explain Ankh being back just shows how this plot wasn't very well thought. Also, the Kamen Rider from the future coming back at the end just to give OOO the Super TaToBa medals was very dumb, that form also doesn't look good either.

And the Fourze portion was awful because they decide to "give" Gentarou a "girlfriend" and that was just the most stupid plot EVER. They gave the girl a rider form but even that they screwed up, it still baffles me they made the girl attack with her butt. I know this is a show that has primarily boys in mind but you don't have to make every female character like that, especially in a live-action where real people have to act that with their bodies.

Gosh, I hate this movie so much.

Movie War Ultimatum

The next movie wasn't as bad, it was just way longer than it should've been. I watched the director's cut and that is almost two hours, that's absurdly long for a movie where not a whole lot happens. This movie was also pretty weird to watch because they did a whole bunch of homages to older tokusatsu, and while having those didn't make the movie any less good or bad it was still off, you could tell those weren't creatures that originated in this world/franchise. I also wasn't really here for this time travel concept, especially in here it was done in a very messy way, it wasn't cute.

But you know, for the part while I was still paying attention I enjoyed it. The Fourze cast is way more bearable when they're not stupid teenagers, seeing them as adults was quite fun, I like how it started like an actual action movie with Ryusei and that girl from the Fourze movie doing some spy work, and I also like to see that he and the goth girl still have their thing. Gentarou as a teacher looked like a mess, but I like that they put him to be a teacher, it makes a good amount of sense for his character. The students were also a bit interesting so watching Fourze was actually fun for me for the first time! But once again Fourze was there being nasty and doing a whole bunch of close-ups in the girls' tights during the fighting while one of those two was supposed to be a teenager in school and that's just gross. Nadeshiko also comes back for this afterward and ew the butt attacks came back, she even jumped at a monster once where it looked like she was reverse cowgirling him and that was very uncomfortable to watch.

The Wizard portion was quite decent as well, I like the concept of the "farm of monsters", I wish they had used more of these smart ideas in the actual show, Poitrine was fun and I like the reveal that in the end, she was actually the Donut Shop keeper, but I think this portion was longer than it needed to be, especially considering they don't do much. But I guess this is the best way to describe this movie. The joint part was pretty bland, but I like that they had a good amount of out of suit fighting, that kept my attention for a while.

Fateful Sengoku Movie Battle

This was an odd one, kinda like Core this one had a decent first portion and a meh one for the current season but overall it was still pretty bland. It was good seeing an actual epilogue for Wizard, I wanna complain about jetpacking in this plot because Haruto was in Brazil for some reason and then in the next scene he was in Japan again, but he has a teleport spell so I can't call them out. But it sure was funny to see they randomly put a Rider on Brazil for the second time in this movie series. The thing of using a 3D pen to make another Koyomi and make her the villain was a fun twist, but I feel like it wasn't used at its fullest.

The Gaim portion was just awful, I didn't care for this parallel world where they revived a Sengoku battle, I feel like this is one of the things that works better with people who actually have knowledge of Japanese History, but I believe that even if you have knowledge this would still such because we're in those Gaim early days where the characters aren't very likable yet so it's really not enjoyable to watch.

This movie also introduced crossover power-ups and Holy Jesus, this is probably one of the worst ideas this franchise has ever made because none of them look good. And speaking of things that don't look good, they ruined a very good design Bujin Gaim had going on for it in order to make him this weird CGI flower thing that doesn't look good, neither intimidating, it was just awful.

Movie War Full Throttle

Last in the list is the Gaim x Drive movie and while this isn't the movie I disliked the most, this is the movie I less cared about, this is the movie I less remember about, which is weird because I watched it twice. I think my problem comes from the villains for this movie, I didn't buy the idea of this apparently alien race defeating an actual space god and capturing another one, I also didn't care for their designs they were pretty bland. But this movie gave Gaim an actual closure so I guess it wasn't so bad. The Drive portion was weird because it seemed very disconnected from the plot. I like this story and I like Lupin's design, but this should've been, if not an actual episode, a TV special, especially considering they give Krim's backstory about how he ended up being in the belt and nothing can change my mind that this should've been explained in the actual show.

Ironically enough, the part of the movie I remember the most is when Gaim and Drive use each other's powers and they get in those awful crossover forms. Again, this idea was a mistake, Drive's hat looks like a fucking trash can lid, it's awful.

Just like these movies. I had fun at moments, but I'm not gonna lie, I wish I could have those hours back, these movies aren't good, they completely drained my energy. I think I'm gonna wrap up for now, what are your thoughts on the movie wars, let me know in the comments. I'm gonna try to be happy again now. I'll see you guys tomorrow for the second Drive review.

#Kamen Rider W #Kamen Rider OOO #Kamen Rider Fourze #Kamen Rider Wizard #Kamen Rider Gaim #Kamen Rider Drive #kamen rider

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sweetcatmintea · 5 years

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The Passion Shop

Flash fiction Friday! I cannot believe how tired I am right now XD I had some fun with imagery in this one :3 I hope you find what you’re looking for at this shop! Feedback is appreciated!

As always, the biggest of thanks to @cawolters for organising the event and to @bookenders for hosting this week!

Prompt: Shelf Life

Words: 1375 (orz)

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It took you longer than you’d like to admit to find the narrow wooden door nestled between two much larger red brick buildings. You’ve never been good at navigating but this time you have the benefit of inexperience to blame. You’re nervous. It’s understandable. This is the start of something new – a frightening concept on its own – made more so by the gravity of your upcoming decision. In another realm, you’re in front of a small tea shop. The kind that’s just always been there, smelling of old books and lavender, with floating dust glittering in dim lights. You fidget at the copper knob, seizing it only to release it again, brushing invisible faults off your clothes. Take a deep breath. Open the door.

The noise behind you vanishes, the streets muted in this space. It is no the tea shop of the other realm you enter. It’s bright, painted with glass, prisms casting rainbows wherever they see fit. It conjures images of greenhouses of magic in your mind. A fair way to describe what you’re seeing. There’s a feint twinkling you can’t place, echoing alongside a pleasant hum. Shapes of light line every surface. Rows and rows of flickers held safe within clear cake stands on airy shelves. Some move in calm orbits, path clear and predictable. Others dart sporadically within their confines. Occasionally you hear quiet plinks of energetic lights bouncing off their glass homes. The longer you stare, the more you begin to differentiate between the lights. Some glow vigorously, some faintly, some with tinted hues, some shifting in colour. Each a little different from the last.

A tall woman waits behind the counter at the end of the shop. Though she stands still, she does so with an inescapable grace. Mint and cream robes tumble around her, curling on the floor like a Luna moth’s tail. You cannot say with confidence that there are not moth wings tangled in the silk. She catches your eye, smiling warmly, politely ignoring your momentary lapse in manners. She understands your awe.

Take your hat off already!

You snatch it from your head, bobbing awkwardly, half an apology, half a greeting. You want to say something, but you stumble over yourself in your fluster. There is a strong sense of being in the wrong place, like a child who has wondered into a queen’s court. That is not the case. Remember, you are supposed to be here.

“Please, there is no need for such formality,” she laughs “I am happy to see you Little Guardian.” She beckons you closer. “You are very welcome here.” Her voice is so kind, so accepting, you feel compelled to cry. You aren’t sure why.

“You flatter me as ever, Sweet Narrator. I am happy to hear from you as well.”

Oh! T-Thank you, Lady Keeper. It is an honour. I’d bow were I capable.

“I trust you’re being kind to our Little Guardian? It’s their first day isn’t it? You will help them flourish, won’t you?”

Of course I will. You won’t be disappointed in me.

“I never am.”

She chuckles again, smiling behind her fingertips. You inch forward, peering into the dome in front of the Lady Keeper. You want to see the light. Somehow, it’s not all that surprising to see a fish no bigger than your palm, circling the air. Not well versed in aquatic life, you hazard a guess that it’s a kind of flying fish. A good guess. The lady Keeper lifts the dome, fabric slipping from around her arm, revealing many delicate golden bracelets resting around her skin. The fish darts out, nearly blinding you as it investigates your face before returning to circle the Lady. It twirled around her, weaving itself through her long satiny hair as she spoke.

“Do you know why you’re here?”

You do know why but don’t really understand why. You say as much. You feel foolish but it is ungrounded.

She nods along to your words, familiar with the story. “These,” gesturing to the fish, “are mortal passions. Each person has one. They grow and evolve, as you would expect them to, helping mortals to become their best selves, their happiest selves. They are such wonderful things, but they can’t survive on their own. Passion needs to be nurtured to fruition. You must tend to it, feed it, and, sometimes, contain it until the person is ready for it.” She cups the fish, trapping it in her hands. “Passion can run amuck it you let it. Let it burn too bright too soon and it’ll go out.” The light emanating between her fingers pulses as the fish circles. “But if you treat it properly…” Released once more, the fish speeds around the room, glowing a hundred colours at once. “It can become something else.” She fixes her attention back at you. “As a Guardian, it is your duty to pick a passion. Follow it to its person and help them grow. Do you understand now?”

You nod dumbly. Information and doubt swirls through your mind. You thought you’d be helping stop a distracted person walking into traffic, not caring for the basis of their fulfilment. It is too much for you. What if you messed up?”

You are prone to worry, aren’t you? In honesty, you wouldn’t have been accepted as a Guardian if you weren’t capable. Besides, you don’t do all that much. Your charge has the lions’ share of the work. You need only nudge them on occasion.

“Do you know which you will pick?” The Lady is patient as you try to make up your mind. You really don’t know. She points to the slow orbiting one you noticed earlier. “A passion like this is a good start. It’s simple but rewarding. This one belongs to a person who’s happiness revolves around family. They want to have a large one. It’s a nice desire, don’t you think?” She glides to another, a sporadic one. “This one is popular. The passion of a person already set to succeed. It still takes quite a lot of hard work, mind you, but they already have a good foundation to work with. They aren’t without their draws. They can be fickle and prone to temptation. These poor mortals are more likely to suffer quite the self-destructive personalities.” Another fish. “This one, well this one’s my favourite kind.” Her finger traces the glass fondly. You struggle to see why. This fish is dull, barely glowing and just a single colour. “This is an unlikely passion. A pipe dream, in colloquial terms. An artist, an author, an astronaut from poverty. Passions for something more than they’re allowed to dream of. Passions for the dreamers.” A sort of sadness tinged her voice. “They have a short shelf life. As their person gets older, the fear starts to dim them. Fear of failure fed by parents pulling them out of the clouds, disillusion from teachers and poorly chosen role models, hopelessness of being ignored. They burn out so easily.” She looks up at you, eyes glittering through long lashes with an emotion you can’t name, contagiously twitching in your chest as well. “But if you can nurture them, remind their person how much they love them, they can grow into something … beautiful.”

You know you should pick the reliable and accomplishable passion as your first. With so much riding on your abilities, you should leave the difficult ones to the professionals. You watch the fish swimming around and around. You swear it dims a little more with each lap. You ask what passion the fish holds.

You feel like you’ve asked the right question when she smiles at you. “This one is a creator. They want to be a poet.”

That’s the one you want. You don’t know anything about poetry, you’ve read maybe five poems in your life, but you want to help this passion grow. You can’t watch it die out. She releases it. The fish is much faster than you expect, zooming around your wrists, circling back and forth from the door. A delicate golden ring appears on your arm.

“It looks like you’ve been accepted. Congratulations! That passion is eager, you’d better run Little Guardian! Good luck!”

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lee-luca · 5 years

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I read your ZhuiYi fic and it makes me wonder if it’s omegaverse. Not that I mind or anything, it’s just I see this everywhere lol. It’s so cute. Also, no hate, I just don’t get why some people ship LSZ and JL. Aren’t they like cousins? LSZ is LWJ and WWX adopted son and JL is JC and WWX nephew. It’ll be very weird if WWX was JL father-in-law if he is JL uncle at the same time. By the way I’m all about ZHUIYI!!!

Regarding LSZ/JL, even though I don’t really ship them, I’m not squicky about them either. They’re just…there, I guess. A popular ship that I can’t get into for some reason. I suspect LSZ/JL are so popular because they’re the main junior characters–they have significantly more of a backstory than anybody else (we don’t even know how old LJY is orz) so it might be easier to write about them. And it wasn’t like anybody knew they were kinda-sorta cousins in the beginning since LSZ’s relationship to WWX wasn’t revealed until much later. Even then, they weren’t raised together, so I doubt they’d really think of each other as cousins, and WWX (who has always considered himself JL’s uncle and LSZ’s kind-of-parent) might be the only one who would find the situation awkward.

(Anyway, I think the ship gained ground in the English fandom because it was first popular in the Chinese fandom. While I’m not an expert on Chinese culture, from what I’ve seen on Twitter about how some straight Chinese men thought WWX and JYL would get together in CQL, it seems like adopted children aren’t really considered part of the family, which may explain why Madam Jin was so against JYL being alone with WWX at Baifeng. So if we consider all that, LSZ, who is the adopted son of an adopted son, might be a perfectly reasonable partner for JL in (ancient?) Chinese culture.)

I’m leaving the logistics of conception up to the reader to decide. How A-Yu was conceived wasn’t really important to the fic, and I didn’t want to get into all the other common sources of conflicts in omegaverse (e.g. heats, scenting, hierarchy, etc.) because at heart this fic is about emotions and I didn’t want to detract from it. If this were omegaverse…it’d be a much longer fic lol because there’d be a lot of worldbuilding to set up. If you’re interested in how the fic might change (or what questions need to be answered) if it was explicitly set in omegaverse, I’ve listed some bullet points under the cut.

1) Is everybody’s secondary gender common knowledge? Does LSZ know LJY is an omega? Does LJY himself know he’s an omega? What are LSZ and JL’s secondary genders? Do their secondary genders affect LSZ&LJY and LSZ&JL’s relationships? How does this affect LSZ/JL and LSZ/LJY’s compatibility?

- I’d probably work under the assumption that everyone knows everyone’s secondary genders unless they’re being deliberately suppressed. I don’t actually know how ABO would work in GuSu, because it feels like omegas would be educated separately from alphas the way female cultivators are separate from the male cultivators. In which case…would LJY and LSZ manage to preserve their friendship through this separation after they present (assuming LSZ is an alpha)? Their genders alone would prime everybody around them who’s seen their close friendship to assume that they’d get together once they’re of an age to actually be interested in relationships, which itself might influence LSZ to see LJY as a potential partner earlier. In which case…this fic would not exist since they’d be happily together since they were teenagers and I’m sorry JL but you don’t get the chance to kiss LSZ in this AU lol

- What would JL’s secondary gender even be?? Honestly I could see him as any of them, and it would probably barely change the plot. LSZ/JL as an A/A pairing? Good for them, showing the finger to gender norms. It’d have the same problems as a non-omegaverse M/M pairing in that males (like alphas) cannot conceive and are expected to be able to lead their sects, probably frowned upon due to the impossibility of conceiving children and also female cultivators all China over will be weeping that two eligible bachelors have taken each other off the market. LSZ/JL as an A/B pairing? Similar to A/A, honestly. A/O? If JGY was alive he’d be scheming to marry JL off to GuSu, so he could be the undisputed leader of the Jin sect, and everybody would probably have been undermining JL’s ability to be a sect leader since the day he presented, which is…well, actually I don’t really know. I have my own ideas of how this might affect their relationship, but I suspect that you can find more varied opinions by looking up LSZ/JL ABO fics.

- If LSZ is a beta…idk man I doubt it’d do much for the plot, honestly, since betas are almost like normal people and all that’s different in this universe would be LSZ having to deal with is LJY’s omega nature.

2) Is this a typical omegaverse where omegas are considered…well, mostly just breeding cows?

- God I hope not. I want LJY to be able to cultivate. If this is how omegas are viewed, then LJY would probably be an extremely frustrated ball of energy, and there’d be a lot more self-doubt in the fic, including LJY wondering if LSZ even likes omegas (if JL was an alpha or a beta in this AU).

3) Heats. How common are LJY’s heats? Does LSZ help him through them, does LJY deal with them on his own, or does he just use suppressants all those years?

- Assuming that LSZ and LJY did not get together despite being very close A/O friends, and assuming that LSZ still managed to like JL, does LSZ try to help LJY through his heats? Does LJY let him? If suppressants are available, LJY would probably just stay on them throughout the entire marriage, and if they failed he might force LSZ to take A-Yu somewhere far from their home while he deals with it himself. I doubt LSZ would try very hard to help with them, given that he’d either be (1) still hung up over JL in the first year and (2) worried that LJY wouldn’t want to be touched by him in the second and third years.

4) Scenting, marking, and bonding.

- Scenting won’t really be a huge part of the fic plot-wise, I guess, but it would add another layer of “things LJY wishes LSZ did out of love”. He’d be happy to have LSZ’s scent on him (assuming that bonded/marked/married omegas are expected to be marked to as not to attract the attention of other alphas), but he wouldn’t dare to scent LSZ back. And A-Yu would be a wonderful mix of LJY and LSZ’s scents (and A-Yu’s own scent), but it’d just make LJY think about what he’s missing out on.

- Does LSZ mark LJY when they slept together the first time? Does LJY stop him? Who knows. Honestly, it could go either way, and both ways would hurt. Option (A): no marking, no bonding, would result in a marriage that is purely contractual, the way it already is in the fic, but with LJY feeling that this marriage is nothing like what he wants in more ways than just LSZ not loving him. Where is the comfort of having a mark and knowing that your partner wants everyone to know you’re together? Where is the comfort of having a bond and knowing that your partner has willingly bound themselves to you for life? Option (B): marked and bonded. LJY would learn that being marked and bonded means absolutely nothing if LSZ’s heart is not in it. It’s just like a brand, like a mark of possession, except that the owner doesn’t even want to look at what he possesses. Marked and bonded, the feeling of being unwanted is even stronger.

- Okay, but happy ending: after they talk it out, LSZ might scent LJY and ask to be scented back right before they fall asleep, so that they’d sleep as completely mutually scented family for once. And when they exchange ribbons (on their fourth anniversary), they finally mark and bond like they mean it (or, if they’ve already been marked and bonded, they go through the motions again and LJY revels in knowing that it finally means what it wants it to mean).

As you can see…a lot of questions need to be answered, and I didn’t want to dedicate an entire chapter to setting the scene so I just…left this to the reader’s imagination haha

#Better Late Than Never #BLTN #omegaverse BLTN #Anonymous #ask #BLTN AU

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katherine-rambles · 5 years

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i’ve had the weirdest month and IN PARTICULAR a giant weird last two days.... with both very good and very bad. so!

i’m tired out in like a. wow all that happened?? in only 72 hours???? sort of way

i’m not even sure i can list it all again but. just to go over the last month or so, briefly:

got out of depression and every normal day feels like 3 days, so i have no idea what time/date it is ever.

new meds

I AM SLEEPING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON thanks to new meds and???? it’s weird but great?????

coded for the first time in five years and made a full medical history for myself and my own records, visually (to be transcribed later)

spending money on household items just to Refresh things that needed refreshing and whatnot. A Lot of money b/c it’s hard to only let myself buy some things, and opening the floodgates makes it hard to close them, so also many impulse purchases. shoes, undershirts, household things that just make life easier, etc

my boss is letting me dress fancifully at work

i bought my first chewie pendant and also a magic wand which i love

got sick

my bird died (;n;) and i stayed up all weekend long with friends

my grandma finally sold her house and is moving up, so my dad is gone to help her with that

got my first official corset!

i had one of the BEST SHOPPING TRIPS OF MY LIFE (literally, top 2!)

i learned that a pair of friends that hadn’t talked in 3 years were Actively Sabotaged by a shitty third party who was jealous??? and we are all like.... what the fuck???? about it??????

i’ve been hanging out with friends a lot more

i got to go to a cellphone repair training at work

i bought a furby to deal with the pet feels

i bought a ton of shit for my furby

my furby starts malfunctioning

new meds.... again

i have the worst day at work in a year (to the day, actually; b/c fb showed me a pic from a day ago that was a similarly terrible situation!)

i’m so keyed up from that bad day at work i end up not going to sleep

the next day i hang out at the mall anD GET A STALKER.... i go home safe and hang out with friends afterwards but OMG scary shit

then i go home and oversleep and almost am late to my Hair Appointment to Dye My Hair -- and THAT runs two hours longer than expected

THEN i go w/ my friend to get my TATTOO that i LOVE

and now it’s now..... and i’m exhausted from everything, but coming up in the next few weeks:

my grandma’s moving up, so i’ll probably be helping out with that

i have to finish a few projects on deadlines and WANT to work on a billion more

my birthday is happening (quarter century, yo!) around which i’ve scheduled a smorgasborg of seeing friends and visiting people

international tabletop game day

going on a three day camping trip w my friends

plus months-ahead plans to go to cons w/ people and shit and like.... i’m SO BUSY in a Good way but also recently in a WEIRD way!!! aaahh!!!

and like. i’m excited for it all, it’s just.... so much..... and i’m gonna be so tired when the summer’s out....... orz

#text #present #curiosity #happy #gentle mental

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wingroad · 6 years

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end of year review fic meme

under a cut bc long af

Chronological breakdown:

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· September

· October

Blind Fate 02/10 | kagakuro | PG | 4k+ | au | Kagami and Kuroko get set up for a blind date, but it doesn't go according to plan, except it does. Heartthrob 10/10 | kagakuro | PG | 3k+ | Kuroko is a real heartthrob. The sword and the stone 12/10 | kagakuro | PG | 2k+ | au | Kagami and Kuroko travel together and find themselves in a...situation. Interesting times 22/10 | kagakuro | PG-13 | 1k+ | au | Tetsuya is in an impossible position and Kagami only makes it worse by trying to make it better.

· November

· December

Overall Thoughts:

most productive months: March, April

least productive months: September, November

ofc this counts the number of fics posted. I only posted one fic in Novenber which was supposed to go for the kagakuro au month but I am terrible and didn’t make it. orz

full fics: 15

drabbles/ficlets: 40

I wanna thank @steffelchen for being a total sweetheart and drawing me wonderful fanart for my fics this past year and for leaving long and detailed comments.

Thank you for all the people I wrote fic for <3 It means a lot to me that you liked my writing.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?

Hard to say since I haven’t counted last years’ writing and forgive me but I don’t feel like doing it anyway lmao. I think I wrote a bit less. I definitely did not wrote all the fics I planned and predictably I started new wips heh and some shorter pieces gave me ideas for more longer fics/snippet fics.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?

Uh, none? I wrote 99% kagakuro and 1% was aomomo lol. I DID have a brief moment when I wanted to write for the mentalist bc I finished the series finally, but somehow…it never happened. Meh

What’s your own favorite story of the year?

From full/longer fics: the aomomo one sentence fics definitely.

From short drabbles: Sharing is caring

Did you take any writing risks this year?

I guess. I wrote a bit more angst and some not really fluffy and shippy pieces, which were still concerning pairings I liked so…yeah.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year? Eeeh, I wanna write more in general, I wanna write my other knb ships, I wanna write more gen and maybe try writing other fandoms I am in forever. That’s all.

From my past year of writing, what was…

My best story of this year:

You tell me lol. I have no idea.

My most popular story of this year:

That’s kind of hard to say bc the most traction get my drabbles/ficlets bc I write them most frequent, but it’s hard to tell which of those got the most traction in 2017. Going by the amunts of notes on tumblr would be the valentine’s day ficlet Is it? which gets 49 notes. Also it’s such a random fics lol.

The second one is Hush (you pervs. But also really??? That fic? Lmao)

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: THE FICS I STRUGGLED WITH THE MOST:

What’s mine is yours

People Like us

Most fun story to write:

The Aomomo one sentence fics.

Story with the single sexiest moment: lmao. Considering I only wrote one smut…but I liked the uh ‘sex’ scene in People like us.

Most “holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: n/a

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: n/a

Hardest story to write:

People Like us. I…sort of lost the drive in the middle bc I started to think about the subject matter more than I should and bc it was taking soooo looong.

Also Hush because I realized as always I just can’t write porn lol

Biggest disappointment:

What’s mine is yours. I really liked writing it, and It was kind of a big project yet it just seemed not many people cared : (

Biggest surprise: Dunno

Most unintentionally telling story: idk

Highlights + Wrap-up: Favourite Opening Lines (3):

1. Kagami thinks he’s got this. He can keep his calm even when he’s buzzing around in his seat for the past three hours of the delay, but then he sees him and he loses it.

2. Kagami stared at the simple bento box held out to him and then at Kuroko.

3. After turning thirty, Daiki noticed that there were a lot more things which were pissing him off about the world, but one thing which was at the top of the list was spending ~quality~ time with Tetsu-kun and Kagamin as Satsuki still insisted on calling them.

Favourite Closing Lines (4):

1. Whatever, he had a few months to make the best damn vanilla shake in the world.

2. "Hey." Taiga said and brushed the last stray tears from his eyes.

"Yes?"

"Let's get a kid."

The brilliant smile was all he need as an answer.

3. Yes, parents should get involved. He didn’t care anymore that their daughter didn’t express almost any personal interest in basketball, but hey at least she was doing something sport related, right?

Just…did it really have to be baseball?

4. "Let's go." He said and pulled Tetsuya down under water with him, where they both explored the secrets of the deep blue sea.

Favorite 5 Line(s) from Anywhere:

1. The only thing which was missing was a kiss." Tatsuya mused and then looked at Kagami.

"Or did you? Kiss I mean."

"No!" Kagami yelled scandalized, finally out of his daze. His face felt like it was on fire.

2. And despite the edge of the table digging uncomfortably into his stomach it was the first kiss in a long while which made Tetsuya’s heart flutter instead of making his stomach sink.

3. Satsuki knew that Aomine was fast, but it was still incredible how he bolted when the light changed from red to green.

4. “Daiki.” She only ever used his full name when she thought he was exceptionally annoying or stupid. “I’m pregnant. You can’t be more girly than that.”

5. “It seems that Kagami-kun is having improper thoughts.” Kuroko said lips nibbling on his sweet treat. “And in public.” He added as if he was disappointed but it was obvious he was making fun of him.

#my stuff #my post #fic talk #other stuff #masterlist

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sugamacchiato · 6 years

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more of the same

Pairing: Yoongi/Jin

Summary: A snapshot of the beggining of Yoongi and Seokjin’s relationship.

Word count: 2,169

Genre: Prequel/College!AU

Warnings: none?

a/n: this was originally written to go in part 3 of two lefts don’t make a right...but three do (which you can find here here & here) but I didn’t think it fit so I cut it orz but i loved this scene so much I couldn’t delete it so, yeah, I made it the prequel. It’s has some rough edges and is a little choppy at the end but I oddly think it turned out okay.

Half the world didn’t think Yoongi and Seokjin would make it past six months of dating. “Seokjin’s a bossy spitfire and Yoongi’s a grumpy perfectionist, how long do you think before they’ll be at each other’s throats?” the couple would hear them whisper behind their backs. It bothered Yoongi but Seokjin was oddly unaffected by it. Yoongi hated he was so insecure but Seokjin would never make him feel less. “I like you,” Seokjin would declare. “I know you’re a good guy so who cares what they think?” It didn’t really matter that Yoongi sometimes had trouble expressing his feelings properly since Seokjin never expected him to. Seokjin always seemed to recognize how Yoongi felt anyway and never asked anything from him. He was also overly forward and bold in letting Yoongi know how much he liked him so Yoongi’s doubts were always easily chased away despite the annoying gossip.

Truthfully, through those basic descriptions people saw them as it was understandable why they didn’t think Yoongi and Seokjin would work. Even at face value they made little sense. Seokjin was tall, handsome, with twinkles in his eyes while Yoongi was small and always looked perpetually unimpressed. Even Yoongi’s first impression of Seokjin hadn’t been the most favorable. They had met at Yoongi’s freshman orientation. Seokjin was the upperclassman that had been assigned to Yoongi’s tour group and even though he never spoke to Seokjin directly, Yoongi did walk away slightly vexed from the elder’s obnoxious laugh.

Yoongi later learned to find Seokjin’s ridiculous sense of humor charming (though even to this day he rarely admits it out loud) but that first day Yoongi found it difficult to not roll his eyes or groan periodically as Seokjin led the group on a tour of the campus and seemed physically unable to pass up the opportunity to make some joke or pun of the names of buildings. Despite earning only meager half-laughs from the unimpressed freshman Seokjin didn’t let that discourage him and even if half the time it was just him manically laughing at his own jokes he didn’t let up once. Yoongi admits, he was impressed with his shamelessness but it still didn’t mean the elder wasn’t annoying.

After that first day Yoongi would see Seokjin around campus every so often but other than a quick double take, because let’s be honest—Seokjin is hot as fuck, Yoongi just kept walking by. It wasn’t until the following year that Seokjin TA’ed Yoongi’s intro to marketing class that they actually started talking. Unfortunately for Yoongi (or so he thought at the time) Seokjin had taken an extra liking to picking on him and randomly calling on him to participate. Seokjin wasn’t a dick about singling him out exactly. Yoongi knew he was pushing him more because Yoongi offered a lot of relevant discourse to whatever topic they were on, but as a general rule Yoongi prefered to just keep his head down and do his work in class.

Seokjin is an unabashed flirt by nature and Yoongi refused to accept that no matter how different the demeanor of Seokjin’s flirting with him in comparison to the rest of the students, Seokjin was trying to tell him anything. Yoongi was mortified when he finally realized he had a crush on the guy.

He had made the mistake of arriving early to class one day (Yoongi has always refused to admit he was already smitten by that point but that’s another story) and got stuck with Seokjin alone for a good 15 minutes. They had drafts of a project to turn in so Yoongi didn’t really think much when Seokjin suggested he look over Yoongi’s draft before class. However, Yoongi in no way expected Seokjin to awkwardly hover next to his desk as he read Yoongi’s work and then lean over next to him, arm-to-arm, to make notes and suggestions. The other side of his desk was closed off and Yoongi swore Seokjin leaned in when Yoongi tried to put distance between them. Yoongi was trapped. He sat there helplessly knowing he could do nothing to stop the blush he felt creeping up his neck. Yoongi still has no memory of what the hell Seokjin even said to him because he was so hyper aware of every shift in Seokjin’s arm against his. It also didn’t help that Yoongi got super weird and refused to look over at Seokjin every time he turned his head to make eye contact. Yoongi could hear the smile on his face and it irritated him but he didn’t trust himself to not say something embarrassing. Seokjin has somehow always had the ability to render Yoongi completely stupid, a skill that he abuses even after so many years.

Yoongi hated how he was almost disappointed when Seokjin finally put an appropriate amount of distance between them as soon as other students started filtering into the classroom but he knew he was so screwed. Yoongi can only assume he looked as flustered as he felt the entire hour because Seokjin did him the favor of not making him join that day’s discussion.

After that Yoongi never arrived early again and was always the first one to bolt out the door as soon as the hour was up. Seokjin would still pick on Yoongi to participate and Yoongi did the best he could to brush off suggestive comments and ignore pointed stares because he didn’t trust his judgement since there was a high probability he was just being delusional.

On the last day of the semester Seokjin asked Yoongi to stay behind to talk to him. Yoongi still laughs because he remembers praying to every star in the galaxy for the floor to open up and swallow him whole. No matter how much he begged his heart to please please please slow down, he felt it speed up even more as he helplessly watched the rest of his classmates leave the room.

At the time Yoongi was way too smitten so he felt like he was on pins and needles when Seokjin sat down in the desk in front of his, facing Yoongi. Looking back Yoongi thinks the whole thing was rather sleazy and often makes fun of Seokjin for having preyed on a sweet, innocent underclassmen (“Innocent? Pfft! Yah! Min Yoongi, stop telling lies! You were far from innocent!” he always protests).

Seokjin was anything but subtle in his confession. “I like you Min Yoongi,” he had said so matter-of-factly that Yoongi didn’t quite compute that it was an actual confession he was receiving. “Now that I’m not your teacher anymore there is nothing stopping me from asking you out. So… do you want to go out with me?”

Blinking awkwardly at Seokjin as he sat there expectantly waiting for Yoongi’s answer definitely wasn’t one of Min Yoongi’s smoothest moments. It was likely only about a minute he sat there gaping but it felt much longer. Yoongi later learned that Seokjin had been holding his breath and that despite his confident attitude he was still nervous.

“Umm,” Yoongi started, thoughts still racing through his head and unsure of what he wanted to say. Well he wanted to say yes but his mouth betrayed him. “Why?”

Of all the possible reactions Seokjin could have given he pouted. Seokjin pouted! Bottom lip jutted out and puppy dog eyes glistening. Yoongi expected him to say something along the line of “why not?” as in, “why not? I have nothing better to do” or “why not? I have nothing to lose,” but Seokjin surprised him.

“You’re cute,” he started, he was looking directly at Yoongi which made him squirm a little. “And I think you’re sweet. I bullied you all semester and you never waivered. You’re smart. I never caught you off guard with any question. You carry yourself with a sort of harsh vibe but one little knock and that facade comes falling down and you turn into a pink bumbling mess. You pout when you talk and honestly I find that so adorable I can’t stand it.” Yoongi felt his heart in his throat but Seokjin was smiling. “And if I’m being totally honest here I’ve had a mini crush on you since orientation last year. I thought you were hot.”

“You remember that?” Yoongi asked, surprised he found his voice.

“Yeah, I do. You stood in the back and were annoyed with all my jokes,” he says with a small laugh. “After that I’d see you around campus and stared at you until you were out of sight. All my friends made so much fun of me for my crush on you. I wanted to ask you out before but I didn’t think you liked me… or possibly even remembered me.”

Yoongi really didn’t want to believe what he was hearing was true, he wanted so bad to think Seokjin was lying. How could someone like Seokjin have a crush on someone like Yoongi? But there was something that didn’t let Yoongi be his usual destructive self and made him accept what he was hearing was actually how Seokjin felt. Seokjin was being so real with him and even though he appeared confident there was still that little bit of hesitation that drove Yoongi kind of mad.

“When I saw your name on the class list I kinda had a panic attack. I wasn’t totally sure it was you since, who knows, there may have been another Min Yoongi. But it was you and… yeah. You know the rest.”

“You picked on me for the whole semester because you liked me?” Yoongi asks, finally a little more relaxed. “Isn’t that a little… grade school?”

Seokjin smiled again. Yoongi decides right then and there he likes pulling smiles out of Seokjin. “Hey! It wasn’t just because of that,” he protested. “Well, maybe at first I picked on you because I just wanted to hear you talk and, okay yeah, I was being a bit creepy because I wanted to hear your voice but then after I realized you had a lot of good opinions that I felt would make the class better. So, yeah… I picked on you.”

Yoongi’s ears were burning. Not only did Seokjin just admit he liked Yoongi’s voice, but he smiling even wider and Yoongi felt like swooning. But he still had to keep some semblance of composure.

“So what do you say?” Seokjin says after a moment. “Do you want to go out with me? It’s not just me right? I wasn’t sure at first but I think you might like me too… so what do you say?”

Seokjin had his heart on his sleeve and Yoongi never expected such a confession. He was at a loss for words but there was a telltale feeling in his gut.

“Yeah. Yeah I’d like that.” Yoongi’s really proud that his voice didn’t stutter because his heart was pounding a thousand beats a minute. “I like you a lot too.” He hadn’t given his mouth permission to say that last bit, it had just slipped out, but he’s glad it did because Seokjin’s looking at him with that annoying glimmer in his eye that Yoongi still pretends to be annoyed at. Looking back, the moment Yoongi remembers most is the one right after Yoongi had accepted to go out with him. It was like Yoongi had handed him the world and Yoongi was sure there was no one more beautiful. Yoongi’s pretty sure that’s the moment he fell in love with Seokjin. He didn’t realize it until much later when Seokjin was dropping him off at his dorm, they had just gone to see a weird French film Seokjin insisted on. Even though Yoongi had dozed off through parts of the first half, the second half was really quite good so coming back they were both in a really good mood. It wasn’t until they were at Yoongi’s door that Yoongi realized he really didn’t want Seokjin to go. Not just leave him that night, he wanted to be around Seokjin all the time. Yoongi invited him into his dorm and before the night was over Yoongi inadvertently blurted out that they should live together next semester. The rest of their story was history.

They had been together for 12 years that year. Most couples had ups and downs, but contrary to what everyone had told them they had made it. They’ve lived in a blissful sort of harmony that Yoongi never really imagined he’d have,

Yoongi was shy which made him hard to get to know. He had some rough edges that most people didn’t bother looking past so he was constantly being misjudged. Seokjin always had a way of not just seeing past all of that but also making Yoongi feel more at home than with anyone or anywhere else. He’s not sure what their future holds for them… but if it’s more of what they’ve already had for so long, Yoongi can’t wait for it.

#yoonjin #yoongi #suga #seokjin #jin #bts #bts fanfiction #mywritinglol

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neorukixart · 7 years

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yeah, I’m using that Saitou again ‘cuz I basically feel the same tonight :3c Still got lots of requests to do~~ sadly I started my semester last week and this is consuming my free time already orz so it might take me longer than expected and Dioptase might be on hiatus for a bit, meanwhile enjoy my old art or take a look at my tag list and about me pages, also I might do smol updates at my new art twitter account at hellzfakinaway Thanks for your patience UwU

#le me just talking shit #today I went to a museum and the whole night I spend it watching stuff in netflix #such as voltron the old voltron little witch academia and SS The legend of sanctuary #and I remembered that I have this big ass crush on milo she's so beautiful #she might as well be a CGI Maki #kay bye #*runz*

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sweetcatmintea · 5 years

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A Stranger’s Stress

Flash fiction Friday! :D Remember way back when I said A Stranger’s Kindness was a stand alone? And then went and made a bunch of discount continuations? We’re at it again folks! I hope you enjoy another day with the stranger and the kid (and aren’t getting sick of them yet <u<;;)! Feedback is appreciated ^u^

Thanks again for organising and hosting @cawolters!

Prompt: We Are Not Alone

Words: 1499 orz

Previous parts: 1, 2, 3

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Sometimes you have a bad day. Just a heaping pile of unwanted events. You get up, three new rejection letters. You boil the kettle and the milk’s gone bad even though you know you only bought it last week. Your awful bitter coffee spills down your shirt – your favourite, naturally – after you trip over a toy that you specifically remember having asked the night before that it be put away. There’s a notice that the rates are going up again and now the window’s broken thanks to a bored kid losing control of a ball. Thoughts nag at you that the kid should be in school or something. You know this but you don’t know it it’s safe yet and you haven’t worked out a cover for why you have a kid who, for some reason, has missed a lot of class time. No pressure but if you botch up, it’s yours and the kid’s necks on the chopping block but how are you supposed to be able to work that out and maintain your late grandmother’s cottage and look after Sudden Child and find a job and those rejection letters aren’t going to read themselves and that takes time. You know, just your run of the mill stuff. It might just be me. It seems unlikely that these experiences are universally shared. Although, I am sure that a lot of people have been in a similar situation as me now, kneeling over broken glass, duct taping it out of the carpet. I guess you can say I’ve been a little … tense lately.

The kid’s settled in well. His nightmares haven’t been so bad since we put up those stars. He’s really taken to gardening as well which, I’ll never admit out loud, is somewhat touching. We haven’t heard anything from his folks or the police. It should be singing and smooth sailing, but I feel paranoid. Like disaster is looming over us while we carry on, oblivious. There’s no way it was that easy. It’s in every story. The instant the villains..? heroes..? Characters, breath a sigh of relief, crunch! Beartrap. I’m serious about schooling as well. I’ve got to sort it out, I want to, bit damn if it’s not nauseating to think he might be recognised.

“I’m really sorry.” He’s not as whistley now his front teeth have grown back in. Unfortunate buck teeth until the rest of him catches up. He’s been hovering – figuratively, those wings are still too small to be more than decoration yet – the entire time I’ve been cleaning. Of course I’m not letting a seven year old pick up glass. How stupid do you think I am?

“I know. It’s fine.” I think I’ve got all the pieces. Another tape canvas to be sure.

“I tried to stop it, but it was too fast.” His fingers worry the fraying hem of his shirt. I’ll have to get him new clothes again soon. More money.

“Look kid, accidents happen. It sucks that the window broke, but no one was hurt. That’s what matters. Now you know to be more careful next time. You can help me put the new panes in when I get them. Fair?”

He nods eagerly, brightening despite my frank tone. At least he’s gotten used to that.

I get up, bones creaking in protest. I feel old. Tired. It was lucky I didn’t break my ankle on that damn toy. Kid follows me to the kitchen. Might as well get a start on lunch. Paper catches my eye when I get the bread from the pantry. The calendar month is wrong already. Where has all the time gone?

“Could you fix the calendar?” Probably better to get that sorted before I forget again.

“Yep!” He’s as zealous as ever. Why do kids love doing all those little mundane things? Y’know, pushing crossing buttons, taking tickets from the deli dispenser, pulling sticky note sheets off, that sort of thing. Weird little goblins.

“Guess what!”

“What?”

“It’s my birthday month!” He thrashes his tail, nearly sending the trashcan flying in his excitement.

Already? I don’t let my hands slow. One small act of keeping it together. My mind races on. Stars above. The window wasn’t enough? I have to get him something, obviously, kids deserve birthday presents. And a cake. Would he want a party? How am I supposed to facilitate a party of one?? I’ll run out of money soon. I thought this would be a whole ‘new leaf’ situation. But if I keep getting rejections, I’m going to have to start stealing again. At least it’ll get those guys off my back. What about giving the kid a decent role model? I can’t give him much, but I thought I could do that for him. If I go back to my expertise and get caught, that’s it. All anyone will hear is that some crazed thief kidnapped a little boy. He’ll get shoved straight back into their hands no questions. A pat on the back to his rescuers and I rot. I can’t let that happen. I’m trapped. I’ve never been trapped before. Not like this.

He’s still waiting for a response. The enthusiasm draining from him the longer I delay.

“You… You’re not cancelling my birthday, right? I’m really, reaalllyyy sorry about the window..”

“ENOUGH ABOUT THE DAMN WINDOW!” I regret it immediately. He cowers, stumbling over apologies.

A second to breath.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have yelled at you.” This time, I do stop. Giving him my full attention, crouching to look him in the eye. “I’m not mad about the window. I told you, it’s fine. I was… feeling stressed and snapped. It was wrong for me to take out my feelings on you. Can you forgive me?”

He pauses. This is not something he’s gotten used to. I wonder how many time’s he’s been given an apology. He considers my words, then nods.

“I forgive you.”

“Thank you.” I finish up the sandwiches. “What do you want for your birthday?”

“Um!” Another pause. Faux thought. He already knows what he wants. “Can we go fishing? I’ve always wanted to try!”

“Fishing?” That wasn’t what I expected.

“Yeah! You know, on a boat, catching fish with strings! You’ve got a boat, right?”

“What? Why do you think I have a boat?”

“Well, you do live near the water and, you know, you kinda have lots of things that maybe you shouldn’t have…” Not wanting to commit to the accusation, he trailed off, twiddling his thumbs.

“Do you think I’ve stolen a boat?”

“Mayybee…”

“Do you know how hard that would be? You can’t just decide to acquire a boat for the fun of it. You have to sell those things.”

“Is that a no..?”

I sigh. I don’t fish but it is his birthday. “I’ll see what I can do. No promises but I’ll try.”

“Really!?” Stars, his eyes shone. “Thank you!” He launched a hug at me. Kids.

“Okay. That’s enough. Take your lunch and off with you. Go do whatever it is gremlins do. I’ve got a call to make.”

He gave a final squeeze before running off, giggling. I flip open my phone, plugging in the one person who may be able to help. She answers on the third ring.

“Hey Grace, it’s me.”

Quiet laughter. “I know who you are dummy. Caller ID.”

“Right. Uh, you remember Grandpa’s old boat?”

“The one Gran left me? Yeah. Hard to forget when I can see it now.”

“How would you feel about going fishing with me and someone?”

“You hate fishing.” There’s a note of accusation in her voice. I hope this is the right decision.

“I do. It’s cruel and unnecessary. But that’s a rant for another day. See, there’s this kid…”

“What kid? Why do you know a kid?” She doesn’t leave room for an answer, barrelling on. “Wait! I swear to god, if you tell me you stole a kid –“

“First of all, there are a lot of unfair accusations going around today. Second, I’m deeply offended that you think the only way I’d know a kid is through dishonest means. Third, you’re right, I did.”

“What the actual – actually, never mind. Two minutes then I’m calling the cops.

“The long and short, he’s Tainted and his parents were pretty much torturing him. I’m trying to help him, I swear.”

Grace was silent for a long moment. We’ve had our differences. Bridges a patchwork of scorches and repairs. I don’t know how she will respond but I hope she can at least sympathise. She was always the one to bring home injured animals when we were young. If she wants to cut ties after this, that’s fair. As long as she doesn’t rat me out, it’ll be okay. Finally, she sighs.

“That sounds like the sort of dumb thing you would do. Alright. What can I do to help?”

I guess we aren’t as alone as I thought.

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Tag list

@cawolters, @inkovert, @snobbysnekboi, @kainablue, and @i-rove-rock-n-roll

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Sorry if this one isn’t at my usual quality. My brain’s kinda fried today :T Hopefully things’ll be running smoothly again next week ^u^

#writing #Flash Fiction Friday #fff21 #my story #original story #short story #slice of life #writblr #A Stranger's collection

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anacchi24 · 7 years

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1, 2, 3, 6, 9, 11!

Thanks for sending an ask! I’m gonna cut this because this got much longer than I had expected XD

1. What is your favorite color to work with?

Black, white, grey. Coloring is my archenemy :’)

2. Who is your favorite character to draw?

For now, it’s Misono and Licht! Although, I tend to always draw my favorites from the series I’m currently into (I loved Midorin and Takao when I was in KnB hell and also Isogai-kun, Karma and Gakushuu when I was in AssClass hell) xD

3. What song(s) do you listen to when you do art?

It’s usually either nothing or the character song of the character I’m drawing of, if they have a chara song :3

6. Tag your favorite artists/inspirations!

Welp, this is gonna be a long list, but here we go~

Favorites: @hitsukarukiru a.k.a. Swiper //shot xD @shinyeu @papillonprisme @nijiro-no @moencabbage @lenamira13 @ploshun and lastly, @shokurare on Pixiv! (I don’t talk to some people I tagged in this section, but their arts are wonderful so I just had to mention them) xD Oh, and also all the mangakas of my favorite mangas xD

Inspirations: (this section’s gonna be a bit longer)

- You, @catslab! You inspire me to be more productive and like my own art better! Also, to be more creative with ideas, especially clothes designs. You always give so much thoughts in each of them and it’s really amazing! :3

- Next is @petrichor-note! She inspires me to practice more xD I still remember her feedbacks very well and yeah, it’s just really nice to get some motivations and feednacks from a fellow artist who are more experienced than me :D

- The third one is @reimeijennoir! Pretty much the same reason as petrichor, but she also inspires me to be more productive! I mean, she posts fanarts/doodle almost daily that it’s kinda weird for me to go into the Servamp tag without seeing a new artwork from her. She’s just so dedicated lololol

- And the next one’s @lia-snow! Her works are pretty much how I discovered the Servamp fandom on tumblr. She really inspires me to put some efforts in my projects (’cause you can only wonder how much time she spent on making those beautiful arts, especially the doujins) hahaha xD

- After this is @xchibikai! She inspires me to find my own art style and while I haven’t exactly accomplished that, I’m having fun in the progress! Her art style are quite simple, but they are so nice, cute and distinct! :D

- Last, but certainly not least, @crazyanime3! xD She inspires me to actually try and work on my ideas just like how she did with her wonderful AUs, especially the Age AU. Also, coloring goals. Heavens know that coloring is my archenemy and her coloring style is so vibrant and bold and is just really really nice to look at xD

Honorable mentions: (people whose arts I’ve seen are great, but I haven’t seen enough of their works orz) @crows-with-keys @cryeden @rabbaniworld @appendorange @faecakes

9. What drawing program do you use?

Digitally, I only use Picsart since I draw from my phone xD I tried using Photoshop before but it’s a bit confusing lololol

11. Warm or cool colors?

Neither //shot// Seriously though, I suck at coloring and I don’t even know the difference xD

#trashy answers #thanks for asking!

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Can I challenge you with Pearl Attaway and Evie Frye, prompt 1 or 5? But have fun writing all that you write!

I have you listed as “etherians” in my list for some reason. I knew it was wrong but I couldn’t figure out how. orz

Hopefully you enjoy this! I honestly have never written Pearl Attaway before, haha...

5. Character A and Character B are co-workers, but they barely know each other. But they both have to work through the holidays.

Evie had argued with her brother about working on Christmas, ("It's Christmas, Evie! You're supposed to spend time with family, not work!"). Spending the holidays with her family was important but they had to be practical about this: she was being paid double on holidays and they were saving up to buy a place of their own.

Like many things, they hadn't been able to reach an agreement (it was a fact of life that, on most points, Evie and Jacob would never be able to reach an agreement), but there was no stoppinmg Evie from going when she had already agreed just as there was no stopping Jacob from being sour about it.

"You could stop looking at your work like you want to set it on fire, dear."

Evie straightened, tried to hastily put on a professional face. "I'm sorry. I was just--"

The woman (Pearl Attaway, Evie dug the the name out of the dredges of her memory) tutted at her. "Oh, it doesn't bother me, really. I have some papers here that need to be sorted and filed."

Evie nodded and held out a hand to take the work she was being handed, "I'll get right on it, Ms. Attaway."

"Good."

~ + ~

Evie always brought her own lunch because it was the cheaper alternative. She didn't expect the break room to have people (since they were an office population of only two and the chances that they'd be taking a break at the exact same moment seemed unlikely), but there was Pearl Attaway, sitting at one of the tables sipping a beverage whose idenity was easy to decuce from the smell of coffee in the room.

"Hello." Evie greeted to be polite.

"Hello, dear. Coffee?"

Evie shook her head and sat down, "no, thank you." She sat at another table but Pearl laughed at her.

"Come sit with me. I promise, I don't bite." She even pulled out the chair beside her and who was Evie to refuse?

They sat together, quietly conducting their own businesses (which, for Evie, happened to be eating her sandwich). Pearl paused reading the report in her hand occasionally to sip her coffee.

Evie was reaching for the second half of her sandwich when Pearl said, "I wonder, what circumstances forced you to work this time of year? Not that I'm complaining, I appreciate the company but it seems like a young thing like you would have other plans."

"I do have plans." Evie shrugged, "for them to pan out I'll need money and I get paid double on holidays." She frowned because she had made a similar argument to Jacob and it had not been well-received. "We must all make sacrifices from time to time."

"Well said." Pearl put the papers she had been reading down. "Sometimes, 'time is money' is more than a metaphor and we must all be willing to sacrifice a bit."

Evie didn't think it was good to say, "if only I could convince my brother that." so she kept it to herself.

"What about you, Ms. Attaway?"

"Oh, I have plans as well. I want to start my own business. Not one day," She said and her smile was confident like a wolf that was close to getting its prey, "but soon. For that reason alone I had to turn down an invitation to spend Christmas at my cousin's request." She leaned in and Evie found herself doing the same, "he is a bit soft when it comes to me and it's a great disappointment that I refused, but I cannot reschedule my life and plans for him." Then she sat back straight and took another sip of her coffee.

Evie nodded because it was true and she felt less lonely to know that someone else understood.

"So," Pearl started when Evie had taken another bite of her sandwich, "what's your big plan, Ms. Frye?"

More than the question itself, it was the fact that Pearl was referring to her by name that surprised her (she wasn't aware Pearl Attaway knew her name). She swallowed her bite of sandwich before she said, "my brother and I are trying to buy a place for ourselves."

"Oh, do tell." She leaned in, lacing her fingers together to rest her chin on top. "House or condo?"

"A condo seems more realistic and practical." Or, Evie thought it was more realistic. Jacob wanted a house with a backyard ("Dream a bit, Evie. Imagine it. A big tree in the backyard, maybe a pool? Just imagine it, Evie."). Their compromise on that was to get a condo for now. If they ever manage to afford a house they could sell it or rent it out.

(Sometimes they manage to work things out, the two of them.)

"Condos are nice." Pearl said, "but it's nice to own a piece of land and there's something...charming about houses."

"Maybe." Evie's answer was diplomatic and, she thought, not at all interesting, but Pearl smiled at her.

"Well, I won't keep you from your lunch any longer. Do tell me when you are done with the work I gave you."

"I will, Ms. Attaway."

"Please, call me Pearl. I insist."

"Yes, M--I mean. Pearl. I'll try to remember that."

That same wolfish smile. "Oh, I'm sure you will, Evie."

#12 days of christmas requests #things i write #epherians #an answering orange

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