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thechaoscryptid · 9 months

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. spread the self-love ❤

Thanks for thinking of me, nonnie 🥰 This was actually a lot harder than I thought it was going to be, picking 5?? It was a good excercise in remembering I actually do like a lot of my past catalogue lmfao

The summaries got kinda long and I also wanted to do a little commentary on each so I'm gonna put the full post under a cut but the short list is:

Singularity (Shigadabi)

i've looked for love in every stranger (to get to you) (Sylvix)

Hello, My Name Is Human (Odazai)

Divinity (Matchablossom)

Blur (Sheith)

Singularity | ShigaDabi | General

Alpha Arietis dies in a brilliant storm, spraying billions of years’ worth of accumulated gas and matter through the cosmos as it collapses in on itself. Great fingers of dust reach toward the endless abyss, and cradled in the palm of the cooling nebula, a godling sleeps. His heart is white-hot and aching, all the pain of his progenitor’s end pulsing through him as he curls in on himself. The gazes of the other gods weigh heavily on him as the universe swims into focus. Their whispers ripple across galaxies to wash over his still-tender form, awakening in him an anger that beams into the darkness as his eyes open, twin crimson spheres cutting through the endless night.

This was such a fun style experiment!! I wrote it for a zine and it was by far the shortest fic bc I decided to go with the dialogue-less option; it felt better suited to the space vibe.

I looked up so many astronomy facts for this too, which was fun bc I'm a bit of a space bitch (even though I probably fucked it all up for the ~narrative~ lmao). Did you know! Beta Capricorni, one of the stars in Capricorn (Dabi's sign and mine - we share a birthday, and it is my favorite BNHA factoid), is commonly known as Dabih, derived from an Arabic legend saying Beta Capricorni and Alpha Capricorni, aka Algedi, were "the lucky stars of a slaughterer."

I really really want to dive further into the concept of gods being birthed from dying stars at some point - there's so much I didn't get to in this fic just bc of limits and themes and such, but I think it's fucking cool even if it's not popular.

i've looked for love in every stranger (to get to you) | Sylvix | Explicit

“Yeah. Listen, Fe, I’m sor—” “Don’t,” Felix says. When Sylvain opens his mouth to protest, Felix cuts him off. “Seriously, don’t. I don’t want your apologies.” Sylvain arches a brow. “I just want you—” (And oh, those words on their own are nearly enough to unwind that barbed wire, but somehow it hurts worse knowing it’s not what Felix really means.) “—to be better.” Felix takes a deep breath, turns to the kitchen counter, and fiddles for a second too long with the tabs on the pizza boxes. “I hate watching you hurt yourself.”

Man, where do I start with this one. I picked at this fic for over a year and a half before deciding to finish it for a bang, and I'm so happy about how it turned out. One theme that shows up a lot in my writing is "love is an action and a choice," and I think this fic showcases that beautifully.

Sylvain's so fucked up here and I love him so much. This timestamp from the middle of a breakdown and subsequent guilt about said breakdown just...really hits home. And Felix being there - CHOOSING to remain there - through that one and all previous ones? clenches fist They're in love, your honor.

I just think it's important to show that being kind of a shitty person doesn't preclude you from being loved, nor should it.

Hello, My Name Is Human | Odazai | Mature

“No need for sorry,” Oda says, the words automatic. “That’s not your place.” It’s the wrong thing to say, comes out nothing like he’d intended. Dazai flinches as though he’s been shot, curling up into himself and away from Oda before scrambling to his feet. There’s no easy grace in his movements today, only a quick, jerky retreat before Oda comes to his senses and darts after him. He wraps a hand around Dazai’s forearm to tug him back, and there’s nothing but rawness in Dazai’s eye when he turns around. “Let me go,” he says icily. “It’s not your place.” “Dazai.” “Fuck off,” Dazai mutters, shrugging Oda’s hand away. “I’ll go die alone, then. In my place.” “Hey,” Oda says, soft as anything as Dazai’s turned half away. He holds his palms out, the same way he would for a stray or lost child. Dazai takes a shuddering breath. “I’m sorry,” he continues. “Your place-” “An executive doesn’t have a place,” Dazai says. “A weapon doesn’t need one.”

This was the spiritual precursor to in the morning i'll be with you, and upon rereading, I realized I wrote pretty much the same fic twice 😅 There's just something that hits EVERY time about softness in the face of bluntness about doing and wanting terrible things. I chose this one instead of in the morning because of one of the places the two fics diverge, actually.

In this fic, Oda actually says "I love you" to Dazai and Dazai does not take it well, and it feels important to me that not every I love you is received with an equally passionate "omg I love you too." But like I said for the Sylvix above, it's also important that it's expressed, even if it hurts or isn't received or reciprocated.

Divinity | MatchaBlossom | Explicit

“I don’t need anyone,” Kaoru whispers. He’s always been good at making bad decisions when it comes to Kojiro; this is another in a long line of failures and he’s not willing to admit yet that maybe Adam fucked him up past the point of no return. “It’s fine,” he mumbles when he hears Kojiro shifting. He’s too afraid to watch him walk away. “You can just go.” And instead of leaving, Kojiro shuffles forward and hugs him. Kaoru is surrounded by impossibly gentle arms and the scent of pine, and though he’s used to the latter, he hasn’t been touched like this in a long, long time. “I’m not going to go,” Kojiro says softly. His face is buried in Kaoru’s shoulder, lips warm where they brush across his skin. “I’d say sorry, but I’m not, Kaoru. I don’t want to.”

God this fic actually kickstarted my writing motor after being really burnt out and plateaued on skill for a while. While it's not my most technically skilled fic (I don't think any on this list are, tbh?), it was fun to write and it's still fun to read.

I loved being able to take a softer turn with Kaoru's anxiety as opposed to some of the harder mental health issues I'm used to expressing in my writing. And Matchablossom were really just out there on screen being Like That at all moments, huh? Their dynamic is just such a joy to play with, whether it's softer like this or harder like some of my other SK8 fics.

Blur | Sheith | Mature

“Everything I’ve done, everything I’ve made of myself, and it still isn’t enough. You know they always said shoot for the stars? I didn’t just shoot, Shiro, I helped save those stars. Where is there to go from there? There’s no coming back down to Earth after you’ve seen realities collapse around you. There’s no normal.” “It doesn’t need to be normal,” Shiro says. “I WANT normal!” Keith’s chest heaves, throat raw with the force of his insistence as his truth is birthed into the world. Twenty-five years’ worth of longing shake themselves loose from inside him and when they bleed out, so does his energy. He sinks to his knees, shaking as he repeats the words again and again. “I want normal. I want to be normal, Shiro, why can’t I be normal?”

This fic is just 9k of me bleeding my truth onto the screen, I'll be real (it should also be stated my self-destructive behaviors aren't physically harmful, that's artistic license). It hurt to write and it hurts to reread bc not much has changed in the years since I wrote it, but it's good, and I stand by the rawness of the narration. Dealing with a personality disorder and suicidal ideation (especially unmedicated and without therapy - bitches be rawdogging reality and I'm bitches) fucking blows. It's exhausting, and it makes you feel inhuman.

This scene especially knocked a few realizations loose for me, bc I don't remember writing it; my head just shut off, and then I looked at the page and went "ah. Oh dear. This feels like something I need to unpack, huh." And here we are, several years later, still unpacking lmao

#asks answered #anonymous #my writing #self rec #shigadabi #sylvix #odazai #matchablossom #sheith

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justfor2am · 1 year

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(wana start this off by saying no pressure to reply to this esp if ur still feeling like shit!! im just very excited so i wana share it LMAO)

so i!!! have started!!! to crochet again!!!!!! lil context ive been crocheting on n off since i was like? 8 probs but ive never been able to stick w it or even finish a project or anything.. until like?? sometime in the middle of last week i got the random urge to crochet?? so i dug thru all my shit but i couldn't find a single crochet hook HOWEVER my best friend was so very kind and gave me one of its extras :3

this has now kinda .spiraled into smt that might kinda fuck me up LMAO so i started one of those lil cat beanies for the friend that gave me a crochet hook last night n i finished it this morning ..ive never finished a project before howd i do it in less than 24 hours? actually its probs bc i put on mumbos s7 n now i refuse to watch it unless im crocheting

^ heres them in the beanie Btw kinda shit angle but i didn't take a pic of it before i gave them it (also cinnamoroll 4 privacy)

i also started my own beanie?? sometime last week maybe like friday or smt idr but its coming along!! tho bc i didnt look up a tutorial i just did shit by memory n accidentally made it single crochet so its taking SO much longer than my friend's

this obvs isnt the whole thing but im too lazy to take a pic of it all LMAO but!! this is mine

i also have two other yarns i wana make beanies out of for myself n one to make for another friend ANDDDDD the friend im planning to make a beanie for (but have not yet) bought me a new hook + two new skeins today⁉️

i have absolutely no idea what to make w them tbh. thinking of making a scarf + bag out of the thick one but idk ab the other??? anyways im SO excited i haven't had a hobby like this since early 2020 when i spent hours every day making 3d kandi cuffs this is incredible

goddamnit now i wana make kandi .also i started another pokemon game my friend's roommate let me borrow his copy of pokemon sword (MY FRIEND ALSO LET ME BORROW ITS COPY OF ANIMAL CROSSING OHH HOW IVE MISSED IT when ive not been crocheting ive been playing that its been so fun)

HELLO I LIVE KNITTING IS SO FUCKING SWAG

ALSO I AM AWARE KNITTING AND CROCHETING ARE NOT THE SAME; CROCHETING IS ALSO INCREDIBLY FUCKING SWAG

sorry i'm excited i can hear out my left ear again

also hell yeah to hermitcraft + crocheting, it feels like one of those hobbies that if u have adhd you gotta do/watch something along with it in order to focus, like i write to music but i can't write without it

hmmmmmmmmmmm what are things u could make from yarn uhhhhhhhhhhh gloves? fingerless gloves? idk but i like fingerless gloves, i "made" myself a pair by cutting all the finger tips off some shitty old ones (i get cold easy and this keeps my old man joints from shattering lmao)

waough animal crossing, idk how friend codes or any of that works but like if u would like to swap codes that would be swag i think 👉👈

#justfor2am #justfor2talks #or like discord idk i just like chatting yanno

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xxlovelynovaxx · 9 months

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kinda wild that you make an agreeable post that may or may not have been worded perfectly (i did only skim it so yknow i cant really say if it was worded well or not) about how we need to agree mental issues can be disabling and someone just missed the entire point. if you did word something badly they couldve just been nice about it lmao? you shouldnt have to disclose your other disabilities to prove youre Disabled Enough, wasnt that the whole point of the post???? it wasnt about how disabling it all is, its just the fact that its disabling???? this is baffling. i hope youve blocked them

I have blocked her, yeah.

And like honestly, it may have been worded badly, but she showed that the whole point is that they don't think neurodivergence CAN cause your physical body to be literally incapable of movement, as just one example.

Yes, obviously by different mechanisms. The brain not sending the signal down the synapses because the brain cannot IS slightly different than the brain not sending the signal down the synapses because the synapses can't take it the whole way.

But I can't overcome that brain issue any more than anyone can overcome that body issue.

I'm pretty sure paralysis was the only issue I mentioned that I don't have direct experience with, too. I mostly compared my disabilities. I also never said they were the same, just, y'know, that they can be equally disabling? Which was the whole point!

Like I totally would have understood "hey yeah, those can both be very disabling, but the differences are still important, especially in terms of medical stuff. They can sometimes require different accommodations outside of that too and that's still important to take into account".

I would have replied "oh, yeah, I never meant to imply they were the exact same, just that they can both be super disabling, I'm sorry about that. Please note what they said above about the differences and like, let's actually open a conversation about this!"

Idk, I'm just beyond done with this. Being accused of ableism by people actively being ableist...

Edited because an anon called me out on some shitty phrasing (which can be seen on their anon. I usually leave this stuff up when apologizing for accountability but felt this warranted taking down). Again, I appreciate them doing so, and am sorry for my reactionary words that were rude and uncalled for.

#edited for pronouns #let me know if I missed one

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oraclekleo · 2 years

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The aries and capricorn combination + mars in cancer and gemini venus make a difficult chart tbh (not necessarily negative i personally like difficult charts i think they make strong individuals)

first of all you are THE Aries ♈️ lol

sun+moon+mercury

that capricorn stellium be fighting for his life lmao aries wants to have fun and be reckless and capricorn just wants to have everything under control and be responsible, that combo make you very stubborn once you make up your mind about something you're most likely not changing your mind. you may struggle with complex emotions because you feel everything and feel very instense, emotions may hit you so hard all at once because that aries moon makes you feel everything so intense and that cancer mars be holding grudges for life.

you're always fun to be around very energetic and playful, very loving individual. its easy to annoy you since you have so much aries influence but hard to make you mad once you're angry may god have mercy on the person that made you get angry because you won't lmao

aries moon+venus in gemini+cancer mars

you're type are bad boysss someone difficult to handle and people who are a challenge, you just won't be attracted to someone who you can easily handle that would be boring, cancer mars makes you want to be protective over those who you love and needs to have emotional depth and gemini venus makes everything feel fun, light and easy. it would be fun to fall in love with you because you would never let the relationship get boring, falling in love with you feels like falling in love for the first time. also you tend to attract younger people or get along with them because you are childlike at heart (not inmature but childlike) your communication is honest, you don't beat around the bush (some people may get butthurt by this) you have leader quality and are intense with the topics that are of your interest once they are no longer that interesting anymore you just focus on something else, on the better side you are very quick doing everything and can convince anyone of anything. you make a good debater (also you may not like when someone forgets to reply to you or leaves you on read). the capricorn north node makes your life mission to balance your home life with your work life, you were born to in charge of your life.

kleo idk your rising sign so this may be kinda inaccurate the rising sign haves a heavy influence on the birthchart.

also i'm so sorry for my shitty english

Ahh! This is so fun!

Thank you so much for taking the time to do this. It's very kind of you. 💖

It's true that I have that conflict inside - I want to be completely free and at the same time I need everything in order. It's actually happening a lot in my life. 😂 One example - When I set up some routine, I have no problem following it, like when I decide that every morning after breakfast I will take my vitamins for healthy hair (my hair is sh*tty), I will follow the routine diligently as long as it's a part of my morning routine (get up, yoga, daily card, breakfast, THE VITAMINS, dog walk, shower, etc.), but if the whole string is broken, when I have a vacation and don't have to get up from bed and stay in there and just watch TV in the morning instead of launching and hitting all those actions, I will forget to take the vitamins, even when I do have a breakfast eventually. 🤣 I want to be free but I actually need order to do things properly. 😂

I only have like one emotion left but yeah, I feel that one intensely. Unfortunately it's anger. 🤣 And yeah... I do hold grudges for life. I never forget. I might forgive on occassions but I never forget and the trust once broken will never be restored. 🤭

Yes! I feel very easily annoyed or irritated but I don't easily get furious. Which is lucky because when I do get furious, it's like several catastrophic movies combined. 😂

🤭🤭🤭

Bad boys and difficult people are truly my type. What fun would it be to handle someone easy and perfect? No! Taming of the beast is what makes it attractive. 🤣 I'm very protective, though my loved ones wouldn't guess it as my protection is mainly me trying to make them more resistent and stronger so they are safe and sound in case I'm not around. Which many wouldn't call love. 😊

Well... Nobody else ever fell in love with me, only I did so I can only speak from my own experience, that it is truly fun. 😂 And yes, most of my friends are WAAAAYYYY younger than me, to the point I'm actually kinda worried but I simply get along with younger people well so there's no point in me banning myself from making younger friends. 😊 My childlike side is clearly visible, you should see my bedroom. During the last renovation (I have to highlight the fact that I was over 20 at that time) we made it pink. And I collect unicorns for the last 6 years or so - plushies, snowglobes, LED lights, various decorations. Unicorns everywhere! They just weren't around when I was a child so I'm making it up for myself now. 😂

It's true that I tend to leave things when they are no longer interesting for me. I have tried so many things over the years in search for something exciting. 🤭

And yes, I'm so quick to learn and do stuff. While others at work take their time and just stare at the screen, drink coffee, chat with coworkers and do practically anything to avoid a complicated problem, I dive into it instantly and won't stop until the issue is figured out and solved and ideally there's also a new process which will prevent it from happening again. 😂 I get irritated by slow people, as well. My sister is like that. She will say she's going somewhere but then she will stand in the hallway, talking and procrastinating for another 30 minutes until I yell at her to either go or stay but to bloody pick one of the options. She also can't perform multiple things at the same time, which drives me crazy. How can someone be unable to talk AND getting dressed at the same time? It's not rocket science. (Behold my irritation rising only typing about it 🤣)

I'm not gonna comment on the mention of being on read. My friends read this blog too and I don't want them to feel scared from now on. 🤣

Work-Life balance is my life mission. Due to special family circumstances I now work only 6 hours a day and mostly from home, which is great and I like it. There will come a time when I will have to level up to standard 8-hour shift and start going to the office one day, which I would like to postpone as much as I can. 😂 Or I will have to become self-employed and start a business of my own. 🤣

My rising sign is a mystery to me. I don't know the time of my birth. I'm suspecting early morning (due to the logic of how the Czech social security number is formed), something like 3-6 am maybe. Czeck birth certificates don't have time on them and my parents and grandma don't remember, obviously. They had more pressing things to deal with when I was born than to check their watch (like persuading the doctor that the fact that I was born with black hair already on my head isn't a reason to call exorcist 😂 Joking!).

Thank you once again for taking the time to give me this insight, it's highly appreciated! 😊💖💖💖

And the rest of you heard it - DON'T MAKE ME MAD! 🤣🤣

One more thing - I would also like to publicly thank to @jeff-satur-is-my-lesbian-prince who also gave me a birth chart analysis through private chat! Thank you so much! 💖💖💖👍

#oracle kleo

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maggiecheungs · 2 years

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ANOTHER GENJI FAN STOPPPPPP im so happy i thought there werent any. like i didnt read all 1300 pages of this mess to not have people to talk to about it. every day im like "you guys ukifune just threw herself in the fucking river" and everyones like "whatever"

hi!!! sorry for replying to this so late—to be perfectly honest, i’ve had a kinda shitty month, and i was actually holding onto this ask for a while because it made me so happy, which..... i have spent YEARS of my life trying to explain to people around me why a book from 1000 years ago fills me with so much excitment and love and joy, and they always think i'm insane lmao. but you. YOU GET IT.

i don't know what it is about the tale of genji that sinks its hooks into people--i don't know how, over a thousand years later, there are still readers meeting the characters for the first time and falling in love with them and losing their shit at the stuff they go through. every time i reread it, there are times when i have to hold my breath because these characters are so human it hurts.

and the book itself is just. it really is a masterpiece!! i'm often a little sceptical when people use the word to describe a literary work (it's become so watered-down it almost doens't mean anything anymore) but the tale of genji indisputably is. like i've said, the characters feel so real and human, and murasaki shikibu is ridiculously talented at creating their inner worlds, their loves and hates, their relationships and motivations and fears. she was writing first-class psychological fiction centuries before it was even 'invented'! she makes one of the simplest stories--the tale of a man who loves a woman (or women)--and turns it into something so masterful, so beautiful, so unique, and most of all so human that it has lasted for a thousand years.

so I guess what I'm trying to say is: there's something dizzyingly magical about reading a text that old. there's something indescribable about finding human connection in the pages of a book written by a women who died a millennium ago. this book has connected me to centuries of people who i have never met, to characters who never even existed, and to other people alive right now who have read the same words, and fallen in love in the same way that i have.

so: it's wonderful to meet another person who loves this book. i'm glad it gave you brainrot! and please feel free to come scream about ukifune throwing herself in a river literally any time :)

#ask response #tale of genji #books #magicdew #this book really does live in my head rent-free lmao

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ask-alphabetboyluvr · 15 days

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i know you mentioned not being offended, but you seemed pretty offended by the end of it 😂

my question was answered in the first few paras where you mentioned your real life doesn't resonate w what the plot of the book is, so i'm glad my question was answered

as for the rest of it, oof

like i don't remember saying that you shouldn't write something that deviates from my preferences, nor did i say i want the two in otte to have a happy ending and live happily ever after, my question was simply why write something that puts you through emotional hurt bc you know that would make it difficult for you to complete when people could potentially end up wanting more, which again, was answered, idk where you got the 'cookie cutter' ending idea from, because again, i never said anything about that, also bc otte doesn't even have an ending to begin with lmao

i never asked you to not write a fic that doesn't fit my standards nor was it an attempt at that bc i'm an avid reader of angst and would love an angsty ending if there's going to be one at all, all i was wondering about a complete book

half of your reply wasn't even what i was looking for?? it was simply unprovoked and hurt me a little because i try to put forth my question as respectfully as possible nor would i encourage you to stop writing bc i like your fics, i could expect a lil niceness too right? or does that irk you too 😂😭??

the hashtags apart from the first few paras were rude for no reason, especially when i made it clear i wasn't tting to be offensive and it never was my intention

thanks for answering i guess

also, another question, is there a posting schedule for the 'slut war' book? or would it be like bd?

i was annoyed, not offended!! and i've also slept on it so am a lot more chill about it now. you caught me at a bad time and that's on me, so I'm sorry for being a bit defensive with it all. if i'd have waited until this morning to answer it then yeah, you probably would have gotten a different answer.

that being said, tonally, your ask came across a bit rude to me--it questioned my motives in a way that I didn't really get, and made me feel like i was a bit stupid for publishing in the first place. it might just be your typical way of typing, but it's the kinda way i type when I'm fighting with someone lol, so it had my back up!! especially that final little lmao!!

you've also gotta bear in mind that I don't really have much of a presence on tumblr and that the otte was published 9 months ago, when my presence was even smaller. i really didn't/dont have reader expectations. it felt like you were calling me ingenuine and that's a shitty thing to be made to feel like!! especially when I've always been very open/honest with you guys about things!!

the story to me is done. it was never intended to be a fic!! or to have a resolution!! that's what I meant by people wanting a cookie cutter ending--you wanted something different to what was written. the ending is the ending.

i think i always strive to be kind, and I definitely wasn't trying to be unkind--but I'm also not a doormat and I do have feelings too, so even if you didn't intend for it to come across rudely, it kinda did and I responded accordingly.

the last thing i want is to leave a bitter taste in peoples mouths, though, so hopefully we can chalk this up to a misunderstanding/bad timing/me being a little reactive.

as for slut war--yes, it will be like bd!! I'm trying to commit to having the first 5 or 6 chapters ready for upload by the time bd is done so that we can have a steady couple of weeks of updates as we get into the story. it'll be shorter--a little over standard novel length, probably around 140k!

#in the wise words of hannah montana nobody's perfect!!#myself included #ask #otte #slutwar

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jeansyvesmoreau · 4 months

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hi! this is your secret santa from @ithinkheknowss Swiftie Secret Santa 2023!! i hope you are having a great day!! as for yesterday, YES I love good omens, I started the book last week but the audiobook on YouTube that I found wasn't finished so I'm only half way through! I'm excited for s3 too, and considering I'm going to college next fall, it will most definitely not be out till college lmao.

I love hunger games so much, I read them for the first time in like seventh grade and I've reread them twice in the last like 5 years since, the books are so much better than the movies, although I do love the movies.

I like sending them everyday, as long as that okay with you? I've never participated in anything like this is I've had a lot of fun!

Those are good picks, I've been rly wanting to watch dr who and Scott Pilgrim too! TBOSAS is SO GOOD, genuinely, like it's amazing, have you read the book? I watched free reign years ago when it first came out and now I see so many people watching it cause of Freddy and I'm like....

ANYWAY, as for today, I was wondering who are your favorite singers or bands? and what is one singer you hate?

✨❤️🎄

xoxo,

your secret santa

hiii sorry for the late reply today has just been kinda shitty (had a breakdown to wcs but hey) but thankfully it's pretty much over for me lmao. if you have spotify they have a full audiobook of good omens on there, it's where I listened to it!! it's even narrated by the cast of the show so that's even better

of course you can send them everyday, I loveee getting asks!! just don't feel overly pressured to, I don't want you to feel bad if you miss a day <3

I LOVED the tbosas book, I got it a few months after it first came out in 2020 and reread it a while ago, it really shows just how complex snow's character and inner monologue is and I find that sooooooo interesting, also yes I want to watch free rein just for the bit LMAO

hmmm other than taylor I also largely listen to gracie abrams, maisie peters, halsey, boygenius + their solo releases, fall out boy, olivia rodrigo, paramore, lorde and mcr, and as for an artist I hate the first name that comes to mind is k*nye west (for obvious reasons), what about you?

#anon asks #while i was gone i would have asked you*#🎄

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giannitaa · 4 months

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ASK: heyy!! can I request when jjk boys have a very understanding partner, like when they come home from work and they're just really tired and accidentally lashes out on their partner and then goes inside their room.

then a few moments later he comes out thinking their partner is angry, but their partner is just like, "oh don't worry about it, you were tired." so he's just like "don't ever let me speak to you like that ever again, okay? hit me if you have to."

hope you understood that, thank you 😭 and can you specifically put gojo in?

a/n: hey anon!! this is actually my first request ever😭 i'm kinda nervous lmao. i hope you like and i reached your expectations 😞. sorry if there's any misspelling or any preposition wrong, i HATE prepositions as a non-native english writer and i don't know how/when to put them.

characters: gojo satoru (i'm gonna do more by the next week, but now it's just gojo)

warnings: nothing, just satoru screams at you. fem!reader (i still don't know how to write for male!reader, sorry)

content: your boyfriend comes tired from their job and he is mean to you when he gets home (angst [if you are a little bit sensitive, like me]/comfort).

w/c: 0.5k (aprox)

GOJO SATORU

you are sitting on the couch reading a book, waiting patiently for your boyfriend. you had texted him "what do you want for dinner?" because you know that when he shows up he'll be tired, he will just want to shower, eat dinner and then go to sleep with you.

then you hear the sound of the door opening and keys being thrown at the furniture that's next to the entrance. he looks exhausted. by the look on he face you notice that he obviously needs to rest. you get up to hug him.

"heyy! you haven't replied to my text, so i haven't done anything. what do you want? i'm going to start cooking it right now." you say, while you take off his jacket.

"cook whatever you want. now please, shut up. jus' leave me alone, i'm going to shower. don't come."

"huh? are you okay 'toru? has anything happened today?"

"i said, don't talk!! i jus' need to be alone!!" he angrily says at you.

"okay then, go to shower. when you get back dinner's gonna' be ready"

he steps to your room furiously, and you hear him slamming the door. you sigh, knowing that probably he had an extremely rough day and he doesn't want to be with anyone. that's okay, that happens to you a lot of times, even though you don't react like this.

you open the fridge and grab some vegetables and meat. that's when you start hearing the sound of the water running down.

satoru feels his heart rip apart when he remembers how he treated you five minutes ago. you don't deserve it. you are probably the only person that treats him with love, appreciation.

he feels his eyes forming little tears, but he doesn't want to cry. the water helps his body relax and make his muscles being less hard. satoru gets out and he dries himself. he steps out of the room when he already got on his pajamas. whatever you were cookin smelt so good.

you feel an arm wrapping around your waist.

"'m sorry" you feel gojo say that in the crook of your neck.

"'s okay, i get it"

"i yelled at you. you're the most precious thing i have. i should not have done that." he kisses your hair, while he says repeatedly that he's sorry.

"the next time i appear like that, in that shitty mood, yell at me or get angry. you don't deserve this treatment"

"no. i will not do that. 'toru you have to understand that it is completely normal being stressed"

"that doesn't justify why i talked to you in that way"

"anyway, let's just eat dinner 'cause i'm starving"

"yeah, and then go to sleep. i need to rest immediately, and you need it too."

you smile because you know he is really sorry, even though it didn't bother you.

this is horrible, sorry anon😞

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euphoricfilter · 9 months

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About DTIK (sorry that I was late reading your reply), I think it's really good. Not sure about tumblr cuz it's not as convenient as ao3 in terms of searching and filtering fics. I checked your fic on ao3; maybe change your rating though cuz you put general audience with a smut tag😅. One of the good things about ao3 is the hits really, you can see how many people have clicked your fic. I find your TBAH and DTIK really unique because.. really, not many people write about those. 9 tails and 4 arms demon. And I think that many people post their fics on ao3 because you can just go crazy and write bizzare fics and most readers know that, especially with the extra warning if there's below 18 reader. I know I'm all talk cuz I don't reblog fics on tumblr, but I love to leave kudos and bookmarks to good fics on ao3. I'm sorry, reblogging just kinda takes effort (I don't like disorganization with the tags and I like to stay anonymous here); ao3 is kind of just one two clicks away. I hope you still enjoy writing it, because even if it's not on high demand, if you like it, I think you can finish it. I'm sorry if I cross the line. I just really wish you want to continue it

you’re okay my lovely!!

oh yeah, DTIK was the first fic i ever posted on ao3 so the tags and all that are probably wrong because i didn’t know how to use it LMAO

maybe if i ever repost DTIK id keep it on ao3, i guess it did okay on tumblr, but i find that readers on here mostly don’t like super long fics, or i just didn’t brand it right or maybe something else. tumblr is still a mystery i’ve not figured out quite yet

a lot of people said the same things about TBAH and DTIK when they were only 2 fics on this page 🫡 i used to be so happy having exclusively unique fics too :(( that would have been so fun if that had become my trademark as a writer but i guess it wasn’t meant to be

hmm maybe exclusively on ao3 is the way to go then, i used to read most of my fics from ao3 so i’m familiar with how easy the system is, and maybe then lack of interaction on tumblr won’t weigh me down and kinda make me push the series to the side

i’ve talked about this with someone before on here about his disorganized storing fics are. especially because reblogs help a lot, but then it kinda clogs your page up and likes are useless because now i just have fics i like laying in the depths of my liked tab and i doubt they’ll ever see the light of day again 🥲 i think i go through a crisis every other month at this point, wanting to just re-start my whole blog because it feels like a huge mess and i never know how to fix it.

honestly, the only reason i started posting on tumblr was because of the inbox. it felt like having the anon feature gave people like me, who don’t like being perceived a chance to communicate and i thought, if i posted on here then at least some people might come in my inbox and that would be cute and then we can vibe. everything else about this app is kinda shitty

you’re not crossing the line at all!! i think if anything you’ve helped me out!! i truly do love that series more than anything i’ve ever written, it’s just the lack of enthusiasm from other people kinda made me feel like i shouldn’t waste other peoples time by writing it, like why would they wanna see that on their dashboard, you know???

i said in the last ask, but i have part of the first chapter already rewritten, and obviously the rest of the series isn’t gonna be hard to catch up with in terms of rewriting, i’m not changing the plot. just adapting the style slightly

ahhh you know i used to be so excited for people to finally read the ending because i just knew that if people were invested in the series and they read the final chapter they’d be like ???? oh 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

thank you for lighting the spark of inspiration for me, and thank you for loving the series 🫂 it means the world to me that you like it and want to know what happens next 💞 i don’t think i’ve abandoned it quite yet and i’m sorry you’ve had to wait so long for any sort of update

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stress is deff a bitch but i feel like me and stress are the same now so🤡🤡

it's the 20th of august🤭 nooo that's a bit sad that u couldn't add urs but ur still a king for adding three birthdays in there🫡

WELL I HOPE THAT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN!!🤣 whaaattt that's such a long time oh my but the fact that u still had it is jaw dropping tbh

i don't understand why middle aged women have to be so rude sometimes☹️ wait i completely forgot that accents exist oh my god now thats even worse🥲 YEYY U SHOULD ARANGE ONE IN OCTOBER AS WELL COME TO THE 5SOS SHOW WITH ME/j (i'm heartbroken i have no one to go with so i probably can't attend) (i hope this doesn't break ur heart more cuz i saw ur posts about them sorry if it does☹️☹️hope i didn't cross a line with this joke☹️)

NOT TELLING ANYONE🫢 i look up to u for that cuz i'm still pretty much unable to do i suck💔 SO TRUE THE BEST DESCRIPTION I HEARD OF THEM JUST SOME GUYS!! i was so sad when yedam and mashiho left and i understand the soft spot he is such a lovely guy🥹 being a treasure stan is fun and a heartbreak but glad u admit now that ur a teume 🥲😌 ofc ofc we are sharing😵‍💫 HE IS SUCH A MENACE AND ITS SO FUNNY tbh he was the reason why i came back to tumblr cuz i wanted to see more content and things about him then i ran into the same problem as u that there are not that many writers in the fandom here tbh (or i just can't find them)💔 (sooo if u end up writing something for jihoon i will be waiting🫣)

IT SHOULDNT BREAK UR HEART IM SORRY IT WAS A CRY IN A POSITIVE WAY!!! i think it just means u portray emotions well (?) cuz every time there is a good sad scene in movies or books i just have to fight the tears back even when i was in a good mood before💔 AND THANK U FOR BEING AN AMAZING WRITER AND JUST BEING LOVELY AND READING MY LONG ASS REPLIES LMAO U ARE JUST TOO NICE OF A PERSON💖💕💝 (liebestraum anon💕)

omg 20th august is such a good bday to have im noting it down!!! 😌😌

IT IS the fic was originally supposed to be a part of collab but the writer deactivated and cancelled it but when i asked if i can keep the idea they were ok with it!! so yeah hopefully one day 💓

LOOK lets go to the concert together 😭😭 im like,, half serious and half joking 😭😭😭 i keep telling my mum about it and like the bus tickets to budapest are only 7€ and then i can find a cheap hotel and shit and i have money saved for the tickets 😭😭😭 like. budapest is objectively the closest stop to me ((even tho im still salty there is no vienna then i would go for sure) and i wanted to visit anyway 😌 but my mum doesnt wanna go w me and my dad doesnt either and i have no friends that would wanna go w me either and i am not allowed to go alone so. theres that 😭😭 i dont think ill get to go tbh im still kinda heartbroken but oh well its not the first time :// if i didnt live in such a shitty ass place this would all be easier 😭

girl i think its a miracle tbh but i got the names down. thanking my hyperfixation tendencies 💓💓💓 when i saw it i was so shocked tbh and now i keep getting sad mashidam edits on my tiktok fp and living through the pain LMAO. GIRL my crush on jihoon is getting out of control like genuinely what the fuck is happening to me- WHY IS TEUMEBLR SO DRY THO WHERE ARE THE FICS ??? i found like 3 fics and the rest are like 2 years old headcanon posts its such a struggle 😭😭 do i really have to do everything myself on this site.... (dont feed my delusions but give it a few months and if i dont fall out of them i can see myself creating a seperate treasure blog.....got a jihoon drabble idea the other day but. i will contain myself. so far he's the new main side character of the mark fic im writing 🥴)

awh you are too sweet 😭😭😭😭 thank u so so much !!!! this means the whole world to me 💓 once again was happy to hear from u, hope youre doing well ily xx

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

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hey I saw u that u watched demon slayer. Is it okay to request headcanons of Mikey, Draken, Baji, dating a male reader who fights kinda like a hashira with a sword and they look really badass fighting with a breathing style.

I wrote this while I was in "SPACE"...I'm not high but I feel high... LMAO so if this is a bit shitty, I'm sorry! but I tried my best! Hope you would like this one!

Water Hashira (Tokyo Revengers)

Genre: Headcanons

Pairings: Mikey, Draken, Baji x G/N S/O

P.S Characters are 18+

A/N: Giyuu is 18+ that's why characters have to be 18+ as well! that's all!!!

MANJIRO SANO (MIKEY)

Mikey met you through a friend of his, so basically he doesn't know what you do for work or what you do in general.

I see him as the type to be skeptical and oblivous about this type of stuff.

He would probably laugh at you the first time you told him but would be supporting you with what you do after you showed him.

"Mikey, I'm telling you...It's the truth!" You exclaimed as you followed your boyfriend walking around his room.

"I believe you, babe" He replied, you just rolled your eyes at him as he let out a small chuckle.

"Fine! won't believe me? I have a mission tonight, It will be located near Toman's meeting place. Go there or else we are done" You said proudly as you give him a giant challenging smiled, he just looked at you with a raised eyebrows; earning a chuckle from you.

"Yes, mikey...I'm serious! you keep on making fun of me" You exclaimed once more. Mikey just threw his up in defeat.

Night came...

You were waiting on him on one of the steps of Toman's meeting place, playing with the hilt of your sword.

A couple of minutes waiting...you finally heard his Bike's loud roaring through the silent night, you stood up as you saw him appear infront of you with a taiyaki in his mouth.

Walking towards you, he held the taiyaki in his hand and gave you a small peck on the lips.

The both of you walked up the stairs, as you both reached the top, you clenched your sword and started scanning the area to look for Mikey's Hiding spot.

"Mikey, go hide there..." You said as you pointed at a nearby bush, 10 inches away from where you both are standing.

When you saw him hide, slightly peaking; you took out your sword and to Mikey's surprise, IT WAS A REAL SWORD. Pressing the blade on your skin, you made a light cut on it and started blowing on the wound. Mikey was just staring at you, waiting for something to happen...then 5 men appeared, no...not men...Demons.

"A Hashira?!" A demon hissed, making you chuckle. Doing a stance you rushed towards the five demon, slashing your sword at them. At this point, Mikey can't believe his eyes; you were like dancing on top of a water and if you ever made a sound it will be over for you...That's how Mikey saw you right now.

The demons were now kneeling down on the floor, pointing your sword at them you breath deeply.

"Water Breathing Technique...5th Form: Blessed Rain Afther The Drought" You spoke, your blade slicing the heads off of the demons that was in front of you. After a few seconds standing there in pure silence, Mikey walked up to you with his hands in his pockets and a smile on his face.

You looked at him and gave him a soft smile, He hugged you and gave you a kiss one more time.

"I believe you now, Okay?" He said and you just nodded at him with an idiotic smile on your face.

After that little incident you two went to a convenience store and bought some snacks while you two head to his house to hang out, that night was crazy for him but atleast he believes you now.

KEN RYUGUJI (DRAKEN)

Draken is the serious type of person and I just know that if you ever told him about this, He would either believe you? or not believe you.

He never expected it at first nor did he expect you were a fighter, well he knows you carry a 'KENDO SWORD' around but he doesn't know. You just don't look like it.

After telling him, he would definitely be more protective of you.

You and Draken were hanging out in your apartment, you two haven't been able to see each other lately because of his busy schedule with Toman but you understand since you're also busy yourself with killing demons, which isn't actually normal.

"Babe..." Draken called out to you, you looked up at him from your phone.

"Yes?" You replied.

"Wanna go out and have a ride?" He asked, you nodded as you stood up to wear your jacket and grabbed your 'KENDO SWORD' that was wrapped with black cloth.

"Do you really need to bring your Kendo sword?" He asked again, looking at him you nodded once more and he just sighed as he grabbed his keys and walked past you to head to the door.

You were now walking alongside your boyfriend with chips in your hand as the both of you walked through the empty, It was silent...but the silence was now broken by a crow flying above you two, yelling...

"Demon! Y/N-san! Demon!" The crow cawed, Draken looked at you with a confused face but you were too busy unwrapping the black cloth on your sword, as you unwrapped the cloth Draken's eyes widen.

"A katana?!" He yelled asking you, you shushed him but it was too late. You heard loud groaning from behind you two, It was a demon.

You unscheathed your sword and stood infront of Draken, pointing the sword to the demon; This pissed the Demon making it jolt towards you.

"Y/N! Watch out!" You pushed Draken to the floor as you charged the demon, kicking it.

"Water Breathing Technique...4th Form: Striking tide!" You yelled as you breathed heavily as you moved swiftly towards the Demon and easily sliced it's head with you katana. It was silent once more...

Looking behind you, you saw your boyfriend looking at you with a confused look. Sitting infornt of him, you told him about your duty as a Hashira; he just gave you a smile and hugged you. He knows you can handle yourself, after that stunt? of course he would know you could take care of yourself but that doesn't mean he would not protect you anymore.

He believed you and trusts that you will take care of yourself... <3

BAJI KEISUKE

Baji is a sweet chaotic boy, I just know that he would believe you even if you sound crazy to him. Cause how can Demons be real?

Would definitely pester you about teaching him how to use your katana, once he found out about you being a hashira.

He will also be the type to playfully imitate you after you fight of demons if he is with you, basically hyping you up.

"Baby! teach me how to use your kendo sword~" Baji has been pestering you since he first saw that you owe a 'kendo sword'.

"Baji, No...You will just use it for chaos!" You scolded him which he just looks at you a scowl in his face, Baji continued on rubbing circles on your stomach as you were scrolling through your phone and that's when you heard flapping sounds.

Looking at your window, you saw the crow that was assigned to you to help you with reminding you about your missions.

"Y/N-san!" The crow cawed, Baji jolted up and so were you.

"B-Bird! talking!!" Baji freaked out, you placed your hand on his mouth to make him shut up. He looked at you with a gril to which you reply with a glare as well.

"Kanzaburo...What's wrong??" You asked your crow only for it to frantically flap it's wings.

"Demon! There is a demon in this area looking for a hashira!" The Crow replied as it started flapping away once more, standing up from the bed you grabbed your sword and unwrapped it from it's cloth only to reveal a Katana.

"A katana??! that was a katana?!?!" Baji exclaimed, you looked at him to which he shushed his mouth once more.

"Baji, go and lock the door and windows also turn off the lights. NOW!" You yelled at him, he doesn't know what was going on but he still followed what you told him. Once he was done, he went upstairs to you again---He was greeted by you sharpening your katana.

"Y/N...what's going on...?" Baji asked.

"I'll explain later just for now stay quiet..." Baji nodded and stayed quiet, The whole place was in pure silence but later the silence was broken by a loud crash on your roof. Grabbing your katana, you opened your window and jumped outside.

Baji peeked at you through the window but was later on greeted by a large thing that jumped from the to attack you.

"Y/N! watch out!" Baji yelled at you, you glared at him and started swinging your sword around at the demon. Baji stared in awe as he saw you move and slash around the demon, to him you look like as if you were dancing...Though it looked like as if it was a loud fight, it wasn't...It was quiet and that shocked Baji...Only the loud struggles of the demon can be heard.

You kicked the demon in the stomach, taking a deep breath; you tried to relax yourself as well as expanding your lungs.

"Water Breathing Technique...2nd form: Water wheel!" You spoke, aiming the blade to the demon's neck, you jumped did a cartwheel and slashed it's neck.

After slashing the demon you stayed there in silence as you watch the demon crumble into ashes, You felt a tight hug on your waist. It was Baji, hugging you.

"You were really cool, Baby!" He praised you as he made little kisses on top of your head, turning to look at him you gave him a peck in the lips.

"But that doesn't mean you ain't gonna explain me what the hell just happened..." He spoke once more, you rolled your eyes at him..

The night was occupied with you explaining about what you do and him just looking at you with an idiotic smile. It was scary but it was cool and he understands that you love doing what you do.

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #mikey x reader #draken x reader #baji x reader #anime #anime x reader #headcanon #kny hashira #babu

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sunnysunoo · 3 years

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Love Letters ; Sim Jake

Pairing: Jake X Reader

warnings: explicit language and cursing

word count: 3k words

genre: friends to lovers au! fluff with tiny pieces of crack lmao

Jake was always known for being this perfect guy in school. I mean, they're not wrong. They always described him as if he's this walking piece of art in the hallways. People would stop to just stare at him. You'd stare at him all day too, but you set priorities first: writing him love letters.

You're no Lara Jean, but I guess you can say that she's what inspired you to write Jake letters. Who needs Peter Kavinsky when Jake Shim exists anyways?

note: Not me completely disappearing off of tumblr for like months and then showing up again suddenly lol. I got really busy the past few months since I was completing requirements for school, and I really didn't have the motivation to do anything at the time so I took so time off to take care of myself first so I hope you understand :) But now since it's summer break, I am given at least 2 more months until I go back to school in August :)) Here's the long-awaited Jake imagine that I completely forgot about lmao hope you enjoy <3

P.S I finished writing this at 1:26 am so please excuse the really shitty plot and grammar ill rewrite it once i wake up

tag list: @cha-raena ( sorry for the rlly late post bestie )

Dear Jake, First of all, I will never call you Jaeyun because calling you by your English name makes me feel like I'm your friend. Calling you by your Korean name makes us feel like we're cold strangers to one another and I don't want that. I want us to be something more than that, but it's hard when you don't even know who I am. I'm surprised how you don't grow tired of me just dropping letters right into your locker every time you open it, and that's one of the things I love about you. You don't just throw away people's efforts and you treasure them with care. It makes my heart beat so fast as if I ran miles away from here.

We're already one year left until we graduate high school, and I don't want to end my high school years without you realizing my feelings for you. I know for sure that you would never reciprocate the feelings that I have towards you, so I want to treat this as closure in case we do forget about each other in the future. Yours truly,

Moon

"How is this person not over you? That's like the tenth one this month," Jay said, looking over Jake as he reads the letter from his secret admirer. Jake has always been receiving these letters from the same person everyday for the past four months. He's thankful for the letters because they definitely make his day better, knowing that there's someone out there who loves him as who he is regardless of looks. He's not gonna lie that these little notes and letters make his heart race too. "Do you have any plans with finding the person behind the letters?" Jay asked as he watches his best friend trying to hide the small smile that's been growing. No one really knows who this mysterious person is and why they decided to name themselves the moon, but we don't judge anyone in here. If they want to be the moon in their next life, then so be it. "I really want to find the person who's making these letters," Jake shoved the letter in his backpack, trying to not wrinkle it. "But I don't know where to start." "Who's finding who?" A voice popped suddenly beside the presence of the two boys. You leaned beside the locker beside Jake's, watching him as he grabs his books from his locker. "Did Moon drop your daily letter today again?" "They did as usual," Jake wasn't even surprised. He would expect the letters every time he enters the school in the morning. He would open his locker to see the usual small letter placed inside his locker. He usually arrives at seven or earlier, but he's surprised that he could never even catch a glance of this anonymous sender around the campus. "Should I go to school at five in the morning?" "Five in the morning? Isn't that a bit too early?" You questioned, followed by a shaky breath. "The school doesn't even open until six." "I could just walk to that nearby convenience store I always pass by to grab a coffee." He argues, closing his locker shut before walking towards his classroom.

You and Jay followed beside him, and you sneered under your breath, "You don't even wake up to your alarm clock."

"Why don't you even want me to go early anyway?" He glances as you try to give him an answer. But before you could say something, Jay replies first.

"You’re probably hiding something." He said. You rolled your eyes and narrowed your eyes at him. "You are so weird." You grunted, before walking ahead of them. You feel panicked because you were scared that you made yourself obvious to them.

You were inside your classroom sitting on your desk. There were only fifteen minutes left before lunch, but you had eaten your packed meal before instead of going to your school cafeteria. You were fidgeting in your place, conflicted about Jake finding his secret admirer, not knowing that it was you who's been sending him letters the past few months. You're not scared of him finding out that the letters were from you; that was the entire reason why you wrote him letters in the first place. You're scared of how he was gonna confront you about it. Would he like you back? Would he hate you? Would he avoid you?

Your mind was full of scenarios but you were suddenly brought back to reality when a hand planted itself on your desk. You look up and saw Jay standing in front of you, eating sushi with his other hand. His face kinda looks like he knows something, and it's freaking you out a bit.

"What?" You asked, suddenly flustered over how his eyes stared right into you. He took the seat in front of your desk and flipped it so it was facing you. He sat down and blurted the phrase that you were dreading to hear from anyone.

"So, you like Jake?"

You suddenly feel like punching him in the face with his sushi.

"What??" Your body felt like, and you were left a nervous mess. Your heart like it was going to pump right out of your chest any minute, and your hands started to sweat.

Jay's mouth formed into a smirk. He caught you. "Jake may be a bit oblivious, but I can totally see right through you."

“Haha...no you don’t,” You tried to deny, but it was all useless when his expression looked unconvinced.

“Oh yeah? Then why are you all red? You look like a bursting tomato.”

“You don’t know that," You leaned further into your seat, playing with the strings of your hoodie.

“C’mon Y/N, you’re not even trying. Just give up and admit it,” Jay was trying to help you confess your feelings for Jake. Frankly, he knew it was you sending him letters this whole time—how can Jake not see it?

With a heavy sigh, you slumped and laid your head on your desk, embarrassed. “Fine. I like him, okay? Are you happy now?”

The smirk on his face grew wider, feeling proud of himself. You are not dealing with his annoying crap this early in the morning. He grinned and munched on his half-eaten sushi. “I knew it.”

“Congratulations,” It was muffled because you hid your red face away from him. All that was on your mind now was how you could book yourself a flight all the way across the world.

“But seriously, since when did you have a crush on him?” You raised your head to face him, giving him a look that could kill, except Jay finds it entertaining rather than intimidating.

“I started having a crush on him when we were in fifth grade. It was at a friend's birthday party, and he saw me being all quiet and lonely. Honestly, I forgot who’s birthday that was.” You told him the very first time you had discovered feelings.

“He saw how sad I looked so he accompanied me the whole time. He was even trying to feel more included in the games and stuff.” You felt a smile ghosting on your lips as you can still vividly remember how you felt your heart tug the first time. “It was kinda like I fell in love at first sight.”

Jay faked a gag, so you lightly punched him in the shoulder. He may be a bit of an asshole, but he’s one the most caring and kind people you’ve ever met. It honestly felt good spilling out your feelings about Jake to him.

Speaking of, Jake was watching you two play around and laugh at Jay's little jokes from outside, and he felt something burning from inside him. Was it that he felt jealous of you and Jay?

No, he can’t be...right?

Maybe it was because of how he felt separated from you and Jay because of him being a separate class.

Yeah, maybe it's because of that.

Dear Jake,

I just had the most bizarre day today, and I felt like telling you about it.

It was chemistry period, and we had to be partnered with someone for a lab project. I ended up getting paired with Yeojin. We kinda created this unexpected friendship, which I love. We would crack jokes at each other, tell funny stories, it was so fun to be with her that we had completely forgotten about our project. So now, we both got a detention slip for making an accidental explosion.

How about you? How was your day? I hope it was just as fun as mine. If you feel like the day just wasn't as happy or you're feeling down, just now that it's okay to feel that way because days like these just lasts for 24 hours. It will be all over before you know it and you'll be greeted by another day. Maybe it will be different, and you would be all happy again just like how my day went. Maybe being with you would be my happiest day yet, and I couldn't wait for that day to come. See you soon :)

Love,

Moon

"Yeojin!" Jake called, seeing her walk down the opposite way. "Hey, mind if I ask you something?"

"Hey Jake," She greeted him with a smile. "Sure, go ahead."

"Could you perhaps give me any information about your partner in Chemistry?" He had hopes of getting any kind of description about his mysterious sender, but he was instead given a sad frown on Yeojin's face.

"Sorry Jake, but that person told me not to tell you about their information." She gave an apologetic smile. "I wish you all the best in finding them!"

Jake muttered a small "okay," and sighed before walking away, feeling defeated.

Yeojin knew that he was gonna ask about Moon the moment he called her from across the hall. She couldn't wait to tell you about this.

"Hey Y/N," A voice said from behind. You turned around to see Jake with his backup hung on his shoulder. He brought his hand up and raked his hair, and you felt your face grow red. Jake is like a gift from the gods. How can someone look so ethereal even if they're just standing there? You could stare at him all day. You couldn't even understand a thing he said until he started waving his hands in front of you.

"Hello?" You blinked multiple times as you were brought back out to reality. You saw Jake's face grow into concern. "Are you okay? spaced out."

"O-oh..No, I'm completely fine." You reassured him, feeling embarrassed. "What were you saying again?"

"I was asking you if you wanted to go to school with me early tomorrow."

Well, shit.

Your eyes started to go wide, and your hands started to go clammy.

"Tomorrow?" You repeated, voice trembling.

'Well, yeah." He pouted his lips, and you felt like melting into a small puddle in your place. Your heart started to pound heavily.

Oh my fucking god, he is so adorable.

"Okay, sure I can go with you tomorrow," You weakly smiled at him, slightly tense.

How we're you going to give him the letter now?

"Good Morning," Jake said as he watches you close the gates of your house. It was past five in the morning, and you were a mess.

"Morning," You replied back before running your fingers through your hair, getting rid of any flyaways.

As you started walking your way to the bus stop, Jake kept on glancing towards you from time to time. He knew you were pretty, but since when did you become really beautiful in his eyes?

The walk was pretty quiet, but it was a comfortable silence. For him, mostly.

Meanwhile, you couldn't stop freaking out. You had written a letter the night before, but you don't know how you were going to slip it into his locker without him taking notice. If he saw you, he would know.

"Are you sure you're okay? You've been like this since yesterday," Jake blurted. You looked at him before heaving a sigh.

"It's nothing," You mouthed, suddenly feeling anxious and gloomy.

"Something on your mind?"

"Something like that." It was hopeless. I guess he would have to miss this letter today. It was the first time you skipped a day, and you're feeling guilty that you would have to see Jake's face sadden that he wouldn't receive it today.

As you two stop at the bus stop, Jake looked slightly panicked as he was rummaging through the pockets of his blazer before looking through his bag. "Hey, do you have an extra pen? I left mine at home and I have a quiz today."

You snickered, "Out of all the days, Sim Jake. The same day you have a quiz is the same day you forget your pen."

"Very funny." He scoffed.

As you unzipped your bag to grab your pencil case, a folded piece of paper fell out without you realizing it. When Jake went to pick it up, he notices that it was folded the same way as the letters in his locker. It looked so identical.

Once you already got your pencil case out, you were about to hand it to him when you saw what he was holding that made your body freeze with your hand holding the case in the air.

"Why were one of my letters inside your bag?" He glanced at you, waiting for you to reply.

If you were freaking out before, this is a whole other thing. The thing that you were fearing the most is happening right before you.

"Maybe it fell into my bag yesterday..." You stammered, making up an excuse to look like it was an accident. You were tightly holding onto your pencil case, chanting many curse words in your head as you watch Jake unfold the letter.

"I don't think I've received this one yet," He said before he opened the letter and read it.

You watch as his expression formed into confusion as he reads through the paper. It only took a few moments before something in him clicked that it was you sending him the letters.

"Y/N," He began, and you started quivering in fear.

You should've known this would happen, but you didn't expect it to happen this sooner. In fact, you believed that this wouldn't happen at all. But it did.

"Let me explain," You eventually gave up and accepted fate and watch as your identity as "Moon" be revealed to your crush. You're now exposed so you didn't have any other choice but to explain everything. "Yes, I am Moon. I was the one writing you the letters that you've been getting in your locker."

Jake's face was unreadable. He looked bewildered and puzzled. He was trying to comprehend what was happening right now. All this time, it was you?

"I started crushing on you when we attended that birthday party before. I didn't want to confess my feelings for you because I was scared that you were going to harshly reject me, so I started writing down letters as a way to tell you how I feel about you without making you feel awkward around me." You continued, eyes suddenly taking an interest in your shoes. They were brand new too.

Jake was silent, and you felt your heart crack into pieces. You were mad at yourself for being so careless about it that he ended up finding out about you as his secret admirer. You wanted nothing else but to run back home, lock yourself in your room and cry with your sad playlist on loop.

You were expecting a harsh rejection coming from him, but what surprised was how he took dangerous steps towards you, minimizing the gap between you two. He placed his hand under your chin, forcing you to look up at him.

"I don't plan on rejecting you Y/N," You stare into his eyes as it reflects the sunlight of the early morning. "I'm actually happy that it was you."

You look at him, puzzled. He lowly chuckles under his breath before leaning over to place his lips against yours. It was a light, quick kiss, but it brought you feeling ecstatic. You've dreamed of this moment before, and now that it happened, you thanked your clumsiness.

As he pulled away, you were sure your face was a red mess.

"Thank you," His smile was as bright as the stars in the sky. It was the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. "Thank you for making me like I'm special to someone."

You felt flustered over his words. You were scared that he could hear the sound of your heart pounding loudly. The butterflies in your stomach were going wild, and you felt like this was all a dream.

"So, what am I to you now?" You broke into a smile as he grabs your hand, intertwining your fingers with his.

Jake acted as if he was thinking, "Hm..maybe my best friend still?"

He bursts into a fit of giggles as he sees your smile slowly disappear, replacing it with a look of disbelief. You removed your hand from his and walked at a faster pace away from him.

He ran to match your pace beside you before holding your hand again, "I'm sorry, I won't ever do that again. Is my girl mad at me?"

"Oh my god, it's only five-fifty, Jake." You too broke into laughter over his cheesiness, but your heart fluttered over the thought of Jake calling you his.

HERE’S A LITTLE BONUS! since I've made you guys wait for 4 months :(

"What the fuck?" Was the first thing You heard from Jay as you and Jake entered the classroom. All of your classmates were staring at your and his hands intertwined together.

Jay stood in front of you two, crossing his arms together. "Can one of you explain when this happened?" he motioned towards your linking hands. You and Jake smiled at each other before walking away, leaving Jay in a fit of joy, and confusion.

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golbrocklovely · 2 years

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Thoughts on Colby only/mostly replying to girls that are attractive? I've noticed this a lot. We've seen from the whole catfish thing that he gets closer and tries to respond to pretty girls, and I thought he would have learned as he did say it himself that it looks bad that he does that. But honestly two years later and he still thinks with his dick lmao

Pretty privilege is 100% real

i actually talked about this awhile ago, but i have a post in my drafts that i've never shared that is basically about this.

i wrote it on a day i wasn't feeling my best, which is probably why i haven't shared it. plus, i don't exactly love ragging on snc, unless it's roasting them for funsies lol

so... i've noticed this behavior since i got into the fandom back in 2018. it becomes very apparent how often colby (and sam too) posts fans that are skinny or very pretty or both.

and i think the thing that hurts the most about it is the fact that colby in particular has stated on multiple occasions that looks don't matter to him. while i think that sentiment is nice in theory, it's bullshit in practice. obviously, looks matter. you can't date someone you aren't attracted to. but, it was nice when i first got into the fandom to hear something like that from colby, who is conventionally attractive.

but the thing is, as i've gotten older and have started to love myself more, i realize that while it's disappointing that colby says one thing but doesn't really live up to it, i don't fully blame him.

the truth is we all have fatphobia. the society and culture we live in supports skinny bodies more than it does plus size. i don't blame or get angry at ppl who continue to think in that way, bc it's not worth being upset over. they probably don't even realize how often they have been told to dislike fat bodies. and at the end of the day, it's only about how i feel for my body that matters.

that being said, i would love to have a discussion with snc about this type of thing. i don't even think they realize that they do this type of stuff constantly and that fans (especially those that are plus size) notice it. how are they supposed to know that they are doing something like this? do they even know anyone that is plus size? i mean, really think about it. this type of discussion has probably never happened to them.

i know it might have been talked about a couple times on twitter or insta, but god even knows if they ever saw it.

most of the ppl they know are skinny and pretty. and not to mention, but bc they are influencers, they are surrounded by ppl who only care about looks bc that's how a lot of ppl make money. a lot of influencers get by with just their looks. that's why insta models are a thing.

but to relate it back to colby, again, i don't blame him for posting fans that he finds pretty, or that are conventionally attractive. they deserve to be recognized. but so do the rest of us.

it's a shitty situation. while i would love for him to post more plus size fans, i don't want him to do something like that just bc he was told to do it. i want him to genuinely do it. so, until he's made aware that this is something he is doing, i don't think things will change.

and as a side note, to anyone reading, just bc you don't get noticed doesn't mean you aren't attractive. fuck anyone that thinks you're unattractive. if that includes colby, or any influencer, then so be it.

you are more than your weight. and if ppl can't see that, they can suck a dick :)

sorry if this was all over the place. i'm kinda tired and have a lot of thoughts on this so... yeah lol

#ask #personal #colby brock #sam and colby

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meltedhorror · 3 years

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Hello! I hope this doesn’t come off as odd, but I just wanted to say that I’ve always enjoyed your art and style and have been around for a while :) I was a part of the LM3 fandom but never with the “in” crowd lmao, and that was where I met you. It’s awful seeing what’s been going on (I’ve just been reading up), and I’m so sorry you and so many others had to/ have to continue going through this. Just know that there are so many out there that still support you, even quietly. Keep doing what you do man :) love your work and I’m excited to see the rest of your comic!

Thank you, it means a lot ;;

I saw you sent this yesterday, but it felt like bad timing to reply and it's kinda shitty timing now too but oh well-

But yeah! I remember that! Kinda miss those days, but if it was now I'd probably done it a lot different lmfao

It kinda sucks though, all the shit that's happened since then has killed all the love I had for the fandom... I wanted to start drawing for it again, but then of course things have to spark up again, so I think I'll just give up at this point ngl-

I'm happy to hear you're enjoying the comic though!! I'm actually surprised there's this many people who like it so far haha ;u;

It really means a lot to hear this, so thank you <3

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hannie-dul-set · 3 years

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hi!!! <3 (before anything else, i'm in love wit u and i think u're such a wonderful writer and u truly are very lovely ugh) i am currently overwhelmed with feelings and emotions that is caused by you so i just cannot go without letting you know. a warning but this is gonna be so long yikes pls stay with me nsjs ENIWEY, i just read <an eye for an eye, a heart for a heart> and NDKSKSKSKS i dunno where to start i am sO OVERWHELMED!!! okok hoo ehem i was gonna go to bed and do my nightly ritual of reading fics to put me to sleep but i was also feeling too lazy to read so i looked for socmed fics and i remembered yours that i've been wanting to read for a long time but didn't cause the warnings scared me away lmao but i'm so glad i've finally come to read it bcs it's 4:24am in the morning rn and i have no regrets :D SOOOO when i tell you i did NOT FUCKING KNOW THAT I WAS IN FOR A RIDE HOLY SHIT NSJSJSJS my first impression of this fic is so far from what i experienced. first of all, i am down bad for the mc like i'm so in love with her🤧🤧🤧 istg you made her character an absolute sweetheart, always looking out and taking care of others. i can't tell you how many times my heart swelled with adoration, i was falling for her alongside with the boys nwjsjsje she's so full of love and a whole sunshine i swear i think i teared up somewhere in the middle of it all lol they better not hurt her😤 i don't think i'll be able to handle it nooo. although, i can't help but feel like there's this mysterious vibes to her cause all she's been about the whole time is other ppl but what about her?? what goes on in her life other than them? hmmm idk🤔

aND THE BOIS. THE BOOOIS. ngl when you said very flawed characters, i thought 00line was gonna be assholes the entire time and i mean they were, especially jeno but damn did they fold so fast against the mc hahahahaha i was kinda taken back😂 the interactions between them and the mc made me so giggly too like AAAAHHHH kinda wanna bang my head on a wall🦋😩💕 also, the first time they all got to meet her is just so well written and thought out like it feels natural to me hehe. moving on, so i know 00z characters are a bunch of red flags and they have their own reasons but considering it's a socmed fic i anticipated how you were going to show that, and oh my gosh, i just think you did it so well. i love how at first there were hints in the convos about their issues and obviously the priv accs too, but you made it known without feeling forced and how it fitted right in with the flow or pacing of the story, like it just slowly unravels. idk if i explained it properly idk idk but yeah, they're all so shitty but my heart ached once i realized why they act the way they are😭 my poor meow meows💔 (or atleast based on what i picked up) especially donghyuck nooOooO when he asked about zeus and hera, i was like ........o..H??? NSJSKSKSKS I AM BROKEN BUT HE'S STILL SHITTY UGH. and the date with jaemin????? he was shooked and it felt good lol also, it was hilarious when the mc messaged them all and they just all collectively panicked in their priv accs😂 i also really liked their friendship here too, the convos are pretty funny hahaha.

and then the mc's little family with jisung and chenle and mark aaaahhhhh, thought it was too adorable😩 like why is everyone so sweet and funny in this fic?? like i'm aware this has angst and drama but it's so soft nwjsis maybe i'm speaking too early and there's more to come but whatever hahahahaa. i just wanna say that i've never been so invested in a socmed fic before, i used to just speedread through others but yOURS i truly savoured and enjoyed every bit >< I LOVE IT AAAH. i look forward for what happens next but until then hohoho. AND YEAH ur one of my favs and i so love you, i've read some of your fics and am gonna read more. thank you for all of your beautiful works that vaguely, for some reason felt a lot of things but mostly felt home to me :(( (shoutout to ur araw-araw fic!!! will forever be special to me :"<) and lastly, i am so excited for your upcoming jaemin fic aaaah fightinggg💖😽

sorry, this was stupidly long lmao. i hope you're doing well and healthy, and happy and receiving lots of love!!!!! u3u

hooo.....oki....firstable......idk when this was send and what time it is there rn upon replying but gosh golly I HOPE YOU'VE FINALLY SLEPT??? pls i am wishing u the sweetest dreams :'>

when i said flawed characters, miss mc is also....very much included because HELLO HELLO MIC TEST HAHAHAH she's a sweetheart alright but all that meddling might bite back.....in the future HAGSVSJA oOPSIES

"my poor meowmeows" PLS 😭 i absolutely adore when these types of Men are just Absolutely Whipped u know. the more angsty and dramatic bits are def gonna come in the latter parts (whew..... sweatdrop......when am i gonna update this IDKK HAGS CNN AKA i'm sorry i hope u can forgive me :'>)

HOME!! yes omg that u so much for mentioning that bcs that's exactly!! the vibe that i'm trying to make in most, if not all, of my fics 😩 araw-araw is literally the epitome of that HAGSJSK it swells my heart with joy to just hear all of this omg i hope u know that you've just reminded me why i started writing in the first place :') thank you so so much and i am wishing you all the joy in the world ily <33

#HAGHSJA the upcoming jaem fic is def.....my best work yet.....maybe EEEEEE #im so happy with how all the characters are developing >< it's a very ambitious project definitely (esp the length HAHAHA but it's necessary #for the development)#i hope you'll enjoy this fic too :')#PLS THIS WILL BE IN MY BOOKMARKS TO READ WHEN IM IN A SLUMP I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT #feedback #bookmark #💌: 🥚anon

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