some sketches i did today to remember my grandpa. it’s been one year today since we lost him <3

I'm really sorry to ask, because the topic obviously makes you uncomfortable and I don't want you to be, but I don't know what blankshipping is??? I also never figured out what proshipping is, and have been too embarrassed to ask...

You’re fine, mate! Nothing to apologize for, though I appreciate your consideration.

Proshipping is usually described as people who don’t mind/support any type of pairings/ships, which tends to sound like a good thing. However, this means that they turn a blind eye to/like stuff like incest, adult/minor ships, and other content of the like, usually darker topics and pairings.

Blankshipping is the name used for the romantic pairing of Ingo and Emmet, who are twin brothers.

I’m not one to tell others what to ship, and some may have reasons for making that content that isn’t just for enjoyment — frankly, that’s none of my business. However, I do believe in curating my online experience and following (as much as I can), and I don’t want to see any of that kinda stuff or interact with people who like it, so I’m respectfully asking for those that like that content to please block me or let me know so I can block them.

let me take it all away (wip)

You’ve heard of He Would Not Fucking Say That. Now get ready for: He Would Not Fuck Like That

Anyways, I cannot fucking understate the psychic damage that is done by transitioning as a trans- masc while being a person of color.

People already didn’t listen to my opinion and boundaries before my voice and body started passing as somewhat male. But as I’ve started to pass, more and more often, my voice and opinions and boundaries are not only ignored; I’m treated as hyper-aggressive/hostile/mean, inagreeable, and stubborn.

Even by my loved ones and friends, they way they treat the words that come out of my mouth or words through text has changed.

When I cannot say “What you said/did hurt me and I need you to own up to that in some actually active way, or at least apologize.”without invoking white tears - when I cannot get upset over boundary crossing and being ignored without invoking anger about my “attitude”… How am I meant to exist safely?

While I am glad people are beginning to acknowledge what intrusive thoughts really are I never see anyone discussing how it isn't JUST intrusive thoughts you can get, either. You can also get intrusive feelings and physical sensations that can range from making you mildly uncomfortable or worried to absolutely terrified about what this may mean for you. You can get unwanted urges that come suddenly and make you so fucking scared that you don't really know yourself like you think you do, or that you're going to lose control, or whatever else your fucked up brain can come up with. You can get unwanted physical arousal from something you're not attracted to. Like. groinal responses and arousal non-concordance have got to be the two worst fucking things to experience if your OCD focuses on sexual themes, i'm not even joking. And I wish more people in online spaces acknowledged that unwanted/intrusive physical responses are also a thing that can happen, and is just as terrifying as getting an unwanted image or thought in your head, and also means just as little about a person's actual desires or feelings as a thought does.

poll for my dimension 20 fans okay. obviously i cant include every season as an option so pls use tags for other answers and details BUT....

thinking about sitting on my butch’s lap clad in nothing but panties and a t-shirt, maybe even their t-shirt. im kissing their neck, arms draped loosely over their shoulders. we’re passing a joint back and forth, low music playing in the background and fairy lights illuminating the space around us. your lips tease across my neck while i take a hit before pulling your head up to mine. i kiss your lips and blow a little bit of the smoke into your mouth. moments later, the roles reverse and my mouth is on your neck, nipping at your warm skin. you pull me up to your face, the soft touch of your lips melting my lips open, ready to shotgun your hit from the joint. the smoke flows into my waiting mouth before our lips connect on your finished exhale. we kiss and kiss, forgetting about the joint momentarily as i start to grind against you. the feeling of your warm body and skin against mine is electrifying my senses, everything heightened because of the joint. i break away from you for a brief pause, holding the joint between my fingers and bringing it to your lips. “uh uh pretty boy, we have to finish this yeah? wouldn’t want to waste it…” a coy smile pulling at my lips. you inhale the smoke deeply before gripping my hair and bringing my mouth to yours again to shotgun yet another hit. “who says you call the shots, hm?” you say before capturing my mouth with yours again, rough and urgent. i try to keep control, grinding deliberately on your thigh now. your one hand find my hips, rocking me back and forth, while the other brings the joint up to my lips. i inhale, holding it for a minute while i discard the end of it. your eyes lock into mine, my hips move rhythmically against yours, as i shotgun my hit to you. you inhale deeply before closing the small distance between us, kissing me. next thing i know, you’re slipping me off your lap and onto my back on the couch, the night only beginning

okay my darlings, you know what time it is…..SURPRISE SONG GAME TIME!!! except this time it’s extra super duper special because this post is actually queued because today is MY SHOW 🤭🫶 aka it’s atlanta n3 therefore i am BEGGING you to manifest the absolute best of your best picks and leave them in the tags or replies for me to see later and then give you an internet smooch if you win 💗 HAPPY GUESSING

i’m going to guess my absolute dream combo of hey stephen and dorothea

I don't use Facebook for anything except keeping in contact with our ferret breeder, who I've been talking to again to get (hopefully) another couple kits this summer. I also don't keep in contact with anyone I went to high school with--people who make up the majority of my FB friendlist.

So, in opening FB for the first time in years, I was extremely amused to find that a solid 1/4 of the people I liked enough to friend them on FB have come out as some flavor of trans. Some I suspected, some were a complete surprise. But they all look so happy now, and I'm so happy for them. <3

I need to get that man pregnant

makes my blorbos just like me for real

surely i have posted this before but i really wish there was a spider-free cut of the gamechanger survivor episodes!! ur girl has severe phobias and can't watch them <3

I didn't know how exactly to make one of these so I just picked my favorites from each month :3 there were some months I didn't really do a lot (and some where I did a ton) and that made this really hard, so I picked some honorable mentions too haha

Also, since I think it was a neat side-by-side...

I did that redraw of Ralsei from A Heart, Frozen in Time, and putting it side by side with how I drew it a little over a year ago, I felt a huge sense of accomplishment. I drew it twice last year; the one on the left was the final version, and the one on the right was my first overly-ambitious attempt

And cut to now...

Looking back on it, I completely messed up the hat the second time around (wrong color, no ear covers), but I guess that's what happens when you try to do something from memory instead of pulling up a reference haha.

Regardless, I see where I need to improve still, but I'm still very proud of how far I've come in just a year. This new one didn't take me nearly as long, and I'm light-years more confident with my work than I used to be. I'm more comfortable with rendering in color (although, the rendering in this one is very light), and I hit my primary goal for the year: anatomy (he has elbows in the right place now! and shoulders!! woah!!!)

Going into the next semester, I'll be taking a figure drawing class, so I'll keep working on anatomy. Because of that, I think I want to shift my focus towards thinking more about color going forward. Gonna try and push myself to make my color schemes a bit more thought out, since that's a huge aspect of composition building (which I also need to work on). This is a personal goal, so I don't know how crazy I'll go with it, but it'll be something I try to be more mindful about.

Anyway, that's my all for my wall of self reflection, so with that all said...

Happy New Year everyone :D 🎉🎉🎉

swore i didnt have any pics of me as a kid but somehow found this hiding in an old jacket that doesnt even fit anymore and thought id show tideblr

look its me age like 9 with the family shrimp chowder and my ass is NOT holding him very securely