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#this is a callout for middle school me
axolotlclown · 19 days
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some of yall are saying shit like "i dont like rap its all about violence, sex, drugs, and money" and then ill open your blog to see a twenty one pilots stan
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any 'wait for it' girlies out there? nice nice just wanted to drop by and let you know that you are mentally unwell!! me too :) we can unpack why you latched onto those lyrics as a kid together <3
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onlyplatonicirl · 14 days
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OHHH EEMM GEEENYERRR A PROSHIPPER??? OMG OH NOOOUEEESS. GRODYYYYY EEUUGGHHH SORRY I ONLY ENGAGE WITH ✨GOOD CHRISTAN NORMAL CONTENT✨ AND YET ACTIVELY SEEK OUT PEOPLE WHO DON'T AGREE WITH MEEEE. YUUUCCK (this is what I think aggressive anti's sound like. Bro I'm so sorry you gotta put up with absolute bullshit 💀the whole argument is stupid. The "if you're not with us, you're with them" mentality makes it hard to get any compromising done when literally nobody listens to each other. Vastly infuriating.)
I KNOW RIGHT ITS SOOOO STUPID YEURGH
“Hey guys due to personal reasons I don’t label myself or participate in this discourse so please leave me out of it because all I want to do is write my fanfic and have fun with friends.”
“Ok we are labeling you as A NEUTRAL (basically just a SECRET PROSHIPPER) and you are GETTING PUT ON OUR CALLOUT BLOG!!!!!! GUYS BEWARE THIS GUY SHE PICKED HER NOSE YESTERDAY!!!!!!!”
Me when I’m in a being really weird and not knowing how to just leave other people alone competition and my opponent is all the guys who think this is somehow the correct course of action
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bitchthefuck1 · 2 years
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Alex Stern is Rory Deveaux if she had way less privilege and started seeing ghosts younger, and Darlington is Stephen Dene if he had less childhood trauma
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spectrophobias · 2 years
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psa if ur seriously pressed about someone writing a fictional character on tumblr u need to get a fucking life and do some soul searching on why u think everyone else needs to cater to you and the way you think things should be written and spoken about
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elliesonlyhoe · 2 months
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Loser!ellie headcannons .ᐟ ⭐
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A/N .ᐟ First set of hcs..😭 lmk if y'all want a pt. 2
Loser! Ellie who lowkey has a collection of plushies that all have names, ages, and probably birthdays (specifically dinosaur ones)
Loser! Ellie Who could not flirt for shit the first few months you guys were dating.. But you on the other hand? Always trying to mess with the poor girl until she's a flustered mess.
Loser! Ellie Who had been too much of a pussy to ask you out for the longest time, just for you to already know she liked you.
Loser! Ellie Who still can't look you in the eyes without getting nervous.
You were sitting in the living room beside Ellie talking to her about how one of your coworkers had pissed you off today while Ellie was looking anywhere but you. “Els? Are you listening?..” You said, tapping your preoccupied girlfriend on the shoulder in order to get her attention.
 “I- I am…” Ellie mumbled, still looking away, the tips of her ears a bright shade of scarlet. You looked at Ellie noticing what was going on, you chuckled to yourself quietly “That's unfortunate.. My own girlfriend, the love of my life, doesn't even want to look at me? How upsetting..” You tease, as Ellie turns to look over at you, her cheeks a bright shade of red “I never said that!” She replies quickly before looking away once again “You're just.. so fuckin’ perfect..” Her own words cause her to be even more embarrassed prior to how much she was before. You try to hold in your giggles as you pull your girlfriend closer to you “I love you s'much, you know that?” you say in between your uncontrollable giggles “ I love you too..” she mutters back “And don't be a dick. Stop fuckin’ laughing at me” She adds before resting her head on your shoulder. You continue to giggle, which makes Ellie start giggling too. 
After a few moments of you two continuously laughing your asses off, you pressed a soft kiss on Ellies forehead. “Now, Tell me about your day, love.” You smile as Ellie begins to give you a rundown about everything she had done that day.
Loser! Ellie who has a separate sketchbook to fill with small doodles of dinosaurs, planets, and occasionally drawings of you.
Loser! Ellie who never fucking sleeps, like this girl will be up til’ late at night doing lord knows what.
Loser! Ellie who hates when you beat her at any game, girl will start making up the most random excuses as to why she lost, sometimes if you tease her about losing she even goes to the extent of giving you the silent treatment
Loser! Ellie who loves spooning (defo calls big spoon before you guys are even ready to head to bed, yet still ends up being little spoon sometimes.)
Loser! Ellie who acts like it's the end of the world when she accidentally interrupts you while you're speaking. Like I'm talking non-stop apologizing and always arguing with you on whether she should continue what she was saying or if you should finish speaking (you always find a way to win the argument nonetheless)
Loser! Ellie who has the humor of a middle school boy.
Loser! Ellie who probably eats lunchables 4/7 days of the week.
“Els, there's leftovers in the fridge if you're hungry!” you callout before walking into the kitchen to see your girlfriend standing there like she got caught red handed, holding a half eaten pizza lunchable in her hand
“I'm not even surprised.” You say arms crossed, shaking your head slightly  
“What?! They're good!” Your girlfriend argues back, taking another bite of her mini pizza 
“Okay Els.” you chuckle, rolling your eyes playfully
“Hey! Don't roll your eyes at me..” Ellie scoffs “Don't knock it til' you try it.”
Loser! Ellie who has a backpack filled with space and dinosaur themed pins (also probably pins with corny ass memes on them.)
Loser! Ellie who either can't accept a compliment, or gets abnormally flustered by your compliments. (It all depends on the day tbh😭🙏)
Loser! Ellie who ADORES taking walks with you near lakes, creeks, and ponds. 
A/N .ᐟ I love Loser!ellie so much omdysss🙏❤
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AITA for telling a school counselor about what my friend does online?
I (F minor) am in middle school. I have a group of friends, about 8 people, but this is about one girl in specific we can call Annie. All of us are mutuals on tumblr, twitter, etc. and we have a discord server too.
All of us are into a lot of the same things, like art, anime, video games, and have a lot of the same hobbies. Most of us also struggle with mental health stuff like anxiety and/or depression so we regularly talk to our school counselor (F, Idk how old she is).
Anyways, we're all really close and we get along really well for the most part, but lately Annie has been doing stuff that really bothers and worries us.
She's VERY into internet discourse. Has 10 paragraph long DNI page, is constantly starting fights with other people, etc. She usually argues about stuff like LGBT+ rights, womens rights, etc. but also a LOT of fandom discourse which is my biggest concern.
A lot of my other friends reblog/retweet stuff like anime gifs, fanart, memes, etc. but pretty much every post I see from Annie is her fighting with someone over shipping or something like that.
A lot of the posts are basically:
Her talking about how disgusting a certain ship or character is
How everyone who likes that specific thing is a degenerate, or freak, or pedo or groomer.
How if you like problematic ships you need to get a therapist, or you deserve to be hurt. Once I saw her arguing with someone who said they write certain stuff due to trauma and she said "You don't have trauma, you're either lying or you actually liked it and that's why you write such disgusting nasty shit"
Fighting with random people and accusing them of being a predator or a pedo
Breaking her own DNI (which says adults, proshitters, etc. DNI) and then getting mad at the other person for responding
It's really upsetting to see because she does this CONSTANTLY. She never seems to use tumblr/twitter to do things she actually likes. I never see her reblog gifs or memes or just silly lighthearted posts about stuff she enjoys.
It's especially upsetting because we're minors and she TELLS PEOPLE THAT. Like she's arguging with people that she thinks are pedos or child predators, while openly telling people her actual age. To me that's like covering yourself in bloody steaks and then jumping into water full of sharks.
I was really starting to get concerned because even in our private discord server she's always talking about how much she hates these people or whatever and how they should die, a lot of the time she says things like "they should get the wall" or "I hope their nasty fanfics happen to them irl that would teach them lol" and it really freaks me out.
She also talks about seeing the "child porn" that these people make which as far as I'm aware is drawings of characters but it still freaks me out how open and calm she is about looking at what she THINKS is child porn. I asked her if it's child porn why is it being linked in callout posts for other people (including minors!) to see and not being reported to the FBI but she just gets mad and changes the subject.
Me and our other friends have mentioned before that we don't like hearing about this kind of stuff but then she just gets mad and goes offline or gives us the silent treatment at school.
A month or so ago I got so fed up and upset, that I took a bunch of screenshots of her tumblr account and discord messages. One thing to note is that her username is VERY specific.
It's a combination of her first and last name and her birth year. Most people will not know that, but if you know her name and birthday, it's easy to tell it's her. She also goes by her real name online which I also screenshotted as proof it's her.
I brought all this to the school counselor, and I told her how worried I was about Annie, and how I think she's doing something really unsafe. Not only is she confronting people she thinks are child predators/groomers, she's telling people they deserve to get hurt in really awful ways, and looking at porn and I don't think this is good for her mental health.
The counselor at first was like "Idk are you SURE it's her? It could be anyone online!" But I insisted that it was and explained the username thing and that this was our private discord server so obviously I know it's her.
She thanked me for letting her know and told me I was being a good friend and then we talked about how I was doing, and then I left. I kind of forgot about it until a week later.
Annie wasn't online at all and I was kind of worried, but then I saw her on Monday at school. I was with our other friends and we called out her name so she would see us and come over and she LOST IT. She started screaming at us and telling us how awful we were, and how we ruined her life.
Idk what exactly happened, but apparently the counselor talked to her and her parents got involved? Her parents now monitor her internet usage, they have child safety stuff on the browsers, and she's only allowed on certain websites for doing research for school, or watching videos on youtube on their account so they can see what videos she's watching, or playing games on steam.
She said that her parents are also putting her in therapy once a week now (with an actual therapist, not the counselor) and she's only allowed to go out with an adult chaperone (either her older sister or one of her parents).
But... None of our friends know it was me who told the counselor. Annie has other friends besides us, so they're also "suspects" for being the snitch. It seems like half of our friends are relieved that Annie is kept away from that kind of stuff and the other half are mad at whoever the snitch is for ratting Annie out and resulting in her having less privacy/freedom.
At first I was happy that Annie was getting help and being kept away from this but now I feel really conflicted. I feel so disgusting talking to her and our other friends and pretending nothing happened, knowing that I was the one who told the counselor.
Annie still talks to us but she's a lot less open. We still have our discord server but apparently her parents will read through the messages to make sure she's not talking about anything bad and that she's only talking to us and not strangers.
What are these acronyms?
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damnfandomproblems · 13 days
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Fandom Problem #4919:
Who creates a callout for someone with a wiki as a source. You know, the wiki anyone can edit? It was about fictional characters so it was never anything serious but there was this part that I find really funny where they say that they ship this character with another character, both ocs of the person being called out. And the guy who wrote the callout is like, this character is said to be still in middle school and this one is said to "look like a young adult" so it must be adult/minor. The look like a young adult part is from the wiki. To be honest, they could pass as a high schooler to me but it's an anime character and you know how that is. And this isn't a chronological story so we don't even know what their age gap is if they even have one. They don't even interact. The guy just said they shipped them almost 10 years ago and now someone is having aneurysm over it. I don't think this person even know anything beyond extreme surface level stuff about the creator because literally almost every point is from the wiki.
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manias-wordcount · 16 days
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THIS HAS BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR MONTHS
Getting mishima off in secret right in front of his beloved phantom thrives? 100/10
Head in the Game (Yuuki Mishima x Reader)
𝗔/𝗡: 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝘃𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗵𝗮𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗠𝗘!!! 𝘀𝗼 𝗴𝗹𝗮𝗱 𝗶 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝗶 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝘆𝗽𝗲𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗽𝘁𝘀! 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗲𝗻𝗷𝗼𝘆
𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚!! 𝘀𝗺𝘂𝘁, 𝗼𝗿𝗮𝗹 𝘀𝗲𝘅 (𝗺 𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗲𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴), 𝘀𝗲𝗺𝗶 "𝗽𝘂𝗯𝗹𝗶𝗰" 𝘀𝗲𝘅
𝙒𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚? ⇒ 𝙈𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩
𝙟𝙤𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙧?
𝙗𝙪𝙮 𝙢𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙤𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙚?
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For the longest time, Yuuki didn’t understand why you enjoyed just watching him play video games with his friends so much. 
  He figured that after the second or third time of you coming over and laying on his bed, listening to him play some console game online in his dorm with Akira and Ryuji, you’d get bored. You’d run out of things to scroll through on your phone. You’d run out of things to read while he’s facing the boring parts. You’d get tired of listening to him yell callouts to Akira or get annoyed that all he can seem to do is yell insults back at Ryuji. It had to happen. It had to happen eventually.
  Yet you never did. He always expected that at some point, you’d try to drag him off his games and force him to take you out. Admittedly, he doesn’t do as often as he should- he knows. But you’re usually so content just watching and listening to him play. You offer up your own little comments that his friends can hear over the phone. You ask his friends questions about what he was like in high school. And you always seem to giggle and pull a face at the thought of him being shy or nervous. ‘That’s not the Yuuki I know,’ You would tell them. And it’s true. He’s been more confident since graduating high school. His confidence is what landed him you, after all.
   But you would still laugh when Ryuji would share an embarrassing story or two. And you nearly beg Akira to talk about the Old Yuuki - even if they were all in the middle of a match. The point is, you liked this. You liked sitting in his apartment with him, engaging with his old friends, and watching him get his ass kicked in fighting games. You liked these little moments, even when the focus wasn’t on you. In fact, you seemed to like it more when he’d play something with his friends, and he’d have to force his attention off of you. And for that, he couldn’t be more grateful.
  Because knowing where he came from, he would have never dreamed of finding a girlfriend who loved him so much that she’d be willing to do just about anything for him.
  Including sucking him off while he’s playing games with his friends.
  Right now is no different. It’s just another hot, sticky summer night in the middle of the week. You had already slipped your arms out of the straps of your tank top, letting your boobs flow freely as you sit up on your knees. Your lips are wrapped around the head of his cock, and your tongue flicks against it all too eagerly. He wants to ask you to take your shorts off. He wants to ask you to sit on his lap instead and just hold him while he ruts into you as much as he desires. But your tongue moves so quick and so skillfully in moments like these that he can’t say or do or even pay attention to anything.
  Even the match he’s currently about to lose.
  “Where are you?” Akira’s voice comes over his headphones almost too suddenly, and Yuuki curses under his breath as he’s forced to take his attention off of you. You have the audacity to look up at him with big, round, and innocent eyes as if you’re not the reason why he’s so off today. But he doesn’t have time to deal with you. Not if you could help it, at least.
  “P-patio,” He stammers his location out before taking a look around. A second later, he catches his mistake. But by that point, someone had just peaked the corner and started shooting at him. He curses again and returns the fire with his pistol as you decide that’s the perfect opportunity to open your mouth wide and slip his dick further down your throat- distracting him further. “No- wait. Estates! I meant Estates.”
  His fingers fly over the buttons of his controller as his character ducks behind a wall. He takes a large sum of damage before he even realizes it, but you’re so busy bobbing your head up and down and up and down that he can’t even think about aiming. His fingers inch to reach out to you. To push you away because he’s growing sensitive? To pull you in because he loves the feeling of your throat closing around him? He doesn’t know.
  But what he does know is that you’re the reason why he just lost a shoot-off and died just now. Worst of all, though? It happened just in time for Ryuji to walk in and take the guy out with one clean shot. 
  “Dude, booo.” Immediately, Ryuji starts to complain the second it happens. The annoyance isn’t well hidden at all. But it’s not like he should have expected anything differently when he plays with these guys. Especially not on the days you start to get bold like this. “You fucking suck today.” 
  Go figure.
  Part of him wants to immediately bite back at the guy- knowing that it was only last week that the blonde’s kill-death ratio was looking pretty similar to his right now. But the other part of him is more preoccupied with dropping his controller to the side of his chair and tangling his hands through your hair, finally deciding that he wants you to take him deeper. You take it in stride. Just a quick, cute little look as your eyes flicker up towards him, and it’s back to letting your licks stretch around his shaft and breathing through your nose as he slides in almost too easily.
  “Yeah, you sick or something?” He vaguely hears Akira call over the microphone, and he manages to muster up some kind of response to the question that seems to be enough for everyone at the moment. Ryuji follows it up by mouthing him off- talking about his performance over the past couple of games. But Yuuki is just a little too preoccupied slowly timing his thrusts with your own movements to offer any real quip back. 
  But that doesn’t really matter. The game is just that- a game. And he talks to his friends often enough that he knows they’ll understand. Maybe Ryuji might even be a little jealous if he tells the truth about why he’s playing so poorly today. But he’s not really thinking about that. He’s not really thinking about anything.
  Anything except you, of course. And just how good, sweet, and all too fucking sexy of a girlfriend you are. For being so accepting of his gaming habits. For being so accepting of his friends. For being so kind and loving and patient with him. But most of all?
  For giving head so great that he starts to forget about every single thing that isn’t you.
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frenzyarts · 1 year
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Frenzy callout post (real!!!)
FURRY (bestiality?)
KNOWS what HETALIA is probably
Favorite Homestuck character is ERIDAN who's an allegory for OBAMA who's a WAR CRIMINAL
Plays MINECRAFT and TERRARIA (colonizer mindset)
Has SEEN A PENIS once (couldn't confirm but huge if true)
NAUUURRR 😂😭 also the FURRY (bestiality?) is sending me agdjfhkshfkkdhd
Unfortunately I do know what Hetalia is, it was my first anime back in middle school 😅
Also how dare you insinuate I’ve seen a penis😤 It’s disgusting… disgusting that you think I’ve only seen one!! I’ve seen several penises (badum tshh 🥁)
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sprintingnight · 3 months
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fake asota d&d post simulator
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🐈 bloomingflowers Follow
yeah okay i feel like everyone's overreacting over the blood in the hallways. missing students aren't exactly a problem, people drop out of school all the time. it's literally not a big deal
🎵 snakefreak Follow
didn't you get a callout post a few months ago for getting caught eating a human arm in the girls bathroom
🎵 snakefreak Follow
whof the fuck is knoucking at my dorm room entrance in the middle of the night .
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🐕 chickengirl Follow
excuse my language but i don't know how the FUCK to get out of this ice maze???????? any experts know what to do when your head starts spinning and you cant see right??? i think the reflections did some shit to me
⚔️ knightonpatrol23 Follow
op have you considered looking up the effects of low iron
🐕 chickengirl Follow
hold on i will in a second there's this weird crunching noise in the room ahead
🐕 chickengirl Follow
by the blight and the bane this can't be happening
#THE FUCKING MAYOR??? #hen.txt
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☘️ liadons Follow
does anyone know the best fertilizer for my venus flytrap? im not too sure how to keep its roots healthy while also giving it the flies it needs.
🐈 bloomingflowers Follow
where is my rock rael
☘️ liadons Follow
what the fuck? how did you find my tumblr?
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give it to me rael
🐈 notheath Follow
give it to me rael
☘️ liadons Follow
please stop harassing me. this prank isn't funny. im going to report you to staff.
🐈 notheath Follow
how resistant are you to fire attacks
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☀️ evvyblackbloom Follow
Hello, students of Alamaz. I know we're concerned about the rampant disappearances, and reports of some of our students coming back to school covered in blood, but there's absolutely nothing to worry about. Please remain calm during your stay here and make sure to lock your dorm rooms if you feel the need to.
☘️ liadons Follow
hey op arent you the one with the corpse pile in her basement
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i have access to your student files, home address, family information, and authority over your brother, rael liadon
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EXCUSE ME
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🐈 bloomingflowers Follow
hey guys sorry abt the absence i was in jail for a bit :/
📚 bookworm87 Follow
how the fuck do you land yourself in jail????? arent you like. your bio says youre 16, what the hell did you do?
☘️ liadons Follow
dont ask stupid questions
🐕 chickengirl Follow
dont ask stupid questions
🎵 snakefreak Follow
dont ask stupid questions
#eboblogs #i hope nobody notices when bookworm87 mysteriously stops posting
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🐕 chickengirl Follow
that girl down by the interrogation station was pretty nice, i wonder if i can get in contact with her again :)
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:/
🎵 snakefreak Follow
im sorry catboy did you think i was the only one to get my crush swept away by some fucking golden retriever girl. the reckoning is upon you and if you think youll be spared its not going to happen.
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please get off my post
#hen.txt #i swear i need to like block these two off my blog or something #every time there's a blow up in my notifs #it's always them.
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☀️ evvyblackbloom Follow
im so hungry i could eat a
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well
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i shant say
📚 studentswag Follow
um. my classmate went missing about an hour or two before this was posted
#....this cannot be connected i think im going insane
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📚 studentswag Follow
alright this needs to be settled
#if youre already initiated you cant vote #your bias will show lmao #looking at a certain student whos name starts with d #and ends with aemus
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🌕 mooncrying Follow
i miss my home so fucking much. why couldnt things have stayed the same? why couldnt i be happy? it cant end like this for me.
🐈 bloomingflowers Follow
have you considered getting used to it
🌕 mooncrying Follow
I WATCHED YOU KILL MY DAD
#im so FUCKING SICK OF TABAXI!!!!!!!!! #ESPECIALLY THIS ONE!! #why are we giving heath a platform like #i know its "funny" to "observe him in his enclosure" #but hes gone TOO FAR!!
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crayonpac · 7 months
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Long time, no post.
If you're here, and I have no idea why you would be, you've probably read something bad about me from when I was in middle/high school years ago that my stalker or groomer and their friends posted on a callout blog that has genuinely ruined my life.
A few things first.
Don't call me Tr!ckster or T%ny. I consider both of those deadnames.
Please don't use they/them for me. My only pronouns systemwide are it/its. Please don't call me a person, call me a thing. If you can't do that you don't get to talk about me.
Most of the people I was friends with during the events of the callout, like @raystarkitty , I have cut ties with.
For the love of god, please don't reupload or edit any pictures or gifs of my dog or pictures of my face.
I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm not innocent, because as someone who had a chance to grow up a little I realized that I did hurt quite a few people.
To those people, I am genuinely sorry and if you want an apology this inbox will be open for a bit if you'd like to ask for one. I am not going to message anyone spontaneously because I want to respect boundaries. There are also some people I will never apologize to.
I also realized a lot of people who were and weren't involved were totally weird about me being an edgelord about all this. A lot of people who were involved or wanted to see The Drama™ were generally cruel and really fucking racist towards me.
I get that some of the things I actually did, like bothering a few people who genuinely didn't deserve it, was wrong, but there was no reason to edit my skin white or go to where I used to live and go to school and take photos looking inside the windows of my bedroom at the time, and posting my number on here and kiwifarms.
There's a lot more things that have happened, including several people trying (and succeeding) to contact my abusive family or call CPS on a friend of mine because I said "hi" to their kid on call every once and awhile, or purposefully using my very much real schizophrenia and OCD against me regarding numbers and false doomsdays and using my very obscure trigger and CSA trauma against me.
That was fucking weird to do to someone who was barely out of high school.
I could sit here and talk about how the blog came up with a mirad of false accusations, like the many involving me abusing my 13yo ESA or me sexually assaulting people, some I haven't met IRL ever, or how I am allegedly faking my disability despite there being recorded proof of me being a victim of police brutality.
The entirety of @herocallout and @stationarchive was a smear campaign that never attempted to do research into what accusations were true, and which weren't. They wanted quantity over quality in regards to testimonials.
Because, yes. The abusive woman who raised me DID know about the blog, and submit to it, and check it frequently. My college at the time has pulled me in for questioning about posts about I'm apparently a nazi despite converting to Judaism. This very much had an impact on my offline life and still does.
I'm not saying any of my actions were okay, especially the ones I actually committed. I am quite literally not the person I was when the events of that blog unfolded (because we're a system and that alter was integrated with therapy). I'm also not going to say that I'm the only victim.
Hopefully the few people that were involved that shouldn't have been have moved on and gotten better and I apologize again for my actions. I can't change the past, but I hope you can recover.
I'm not going to link my other socials because I don't want to be harassed. Have a good one, I guess.
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autisticandroids · 9 months
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tw mentions of transphobia homophobia racism and bullying, here's my ramble
what if i cant make amends? i made amends before, i fucked up with the person again, i fucked up , badly, i acted bigotted and i regret it now, for real this time. and i decided at that time to cut that person off from my life. simply because keeping that cycle of "im sorry, i fuck up again" was unhealthy. i think that making amends with people is needed if and only if the person comes to you for explanation - and apologies.
i think about bojack horseman's apologies episode - but he ended up hurting everyone. it's not because he simply didnt mean it - but also because he showed up, impromptuly, in the life of people he hurt and didn't want to hear about him, ever.
now to say i fucked up as badly as him - but the guilt i feel is there, and this impresion of "what the fuck are you doing back in my life, go away' the people we hurt in the past have - is real.
the internet crowd also - wouldn't be happy about making a donation to a cause. for example - imagine you used to act transphobic or homophobic or racist, and you decide to make a donation to an association. no matter the amount, people will say "you're just performing" or "what, only x dollars? arent you (job)?"
that's why attonement feels impossible, no matter what you do, it's not possible to feel 100 percents healed from the past, because you never will.
voicing your regrets, striving for the best, treating the next people better, being kinder isn't ignoring closure from the past.it's quite moving on from it. i know pretty much so many people who told me they wouldn't want to deal with me again because of views i had, actions i made in the past. with those situations, how am i supposed to "atone for my sins" where i must respect the boundaries those people set, aka "get out from my life"? i can only carry regret in me.
it's good to note that i made those awful life choices when i was between age 17 and 19, i have identity disturbance problems and acted like a sponge to bad influences. getting cancelled is something i fear but that i'd honestly roll with "yeah that just happened, i'm sorry for everything" which is honestly the bare minimum - but at the same time, you can never ever appease everyone.
i remember once someone who bullied me apologized to me, i felt nothing. so when someone fucks up badly, making amends is useless, it's just self serving, because what tells that the victim will actually accept your apology? what if it sinks them down further?
i don't know how comfortable i am answering this ask. it asks me to solve a problem that i'm not really qualified to solve, or frankly able to solve with the information you've given me. i am just a rando on the internet and you should not be treating me as an authority figure.
that said, you are clearly in the middle of the kind of anxious death spiral that is both destructive to yourself and useless for any kind of self-improvement, so... my attempt is under the cut.
i mean, you have to seriously consider whether an attempt to apologize will do anything for the other person - maybe it will, maybe it won't, that's on a case by case basis. i'm not the person to ask about that. i do think in most cases that a properly non-self-centered apology probably won't hurt. but that's just my opinion, i'm not god. it's something you have to decide for yourself. i don't peddle redemption arcs.
but primarily like. the thing you need to do is learn your lesson and then Move On Dot Org. don't wallow, just learn, accept, and live with. it actually doesn't benefit anyone for you to hurt yourself.
now, obviously, there are some things you can do which i think should bar you from being or having certain types of authority.
for a rather small, petty example, i can think of one person i know who was a bully in high school and deeply regretted it, but then got deeply into the "callout witch hunt" side of tumblr social justice and replicated their old bullying behaviors pretty closely, but this time just in a way where they could have it fit with their code of ethics. so like, "i believe i have the right to decide who should be harassed over a callout" is a kind of authority to grant yourself, and i am kind of ambivalent on anyone having that authority, but also specifically That person should not have had it, because they just used it to satisfy their desire to put other people down in a "more ethical" way.
so like. it is more effective to strip yourself of certain types of authority than to punish yourself. if you don't have the right to decide whether people deserve cruelty, you cannot be cruel to them. but this is not a punishment, it's simply a loss of certain privileges.
and things like "being happy," "having friends," "having a nice time playing video games" are all rights you shouldn't have taken away as a result of past behavior. but "presenting yourself as an authority on a topic," "being involved with one specific person," and "making money off your reputation online" are all privileges you might potentially want to strip yourself of if your past behavior showed that you can't be trusted with them. again, this is not a punishment, and is not intended to induce misery - it is simply a reasonable precaution.
and also, with respect to being cancelled or not - do not worry about this. that doesn't really have anything to do with you. get thicker skin. if someone tries to cancel you and they are more popular than you, you will be cancelled. if they are less popular than you, they will be cancelled. whether a cancellation is successful is purely a product of social power and is unrelated to morals. my recommendation is to make peace with the fact that if you live your life in public people will sometimes hate you. this is their problem, but also it's their right. you can't stop them and i would go so far as to say you shouldn't try. they can't do anything to you unless they doxx you, which probably won't happen unless you're really famous. or they can take your internet income stream away if you have one. the best way to defend against this is to have a real job.
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spxcemuses · 11 months
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RULES.
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Age: I am a legal adult (22) and I RP with people who are 18 and older due to darker themes explored directly or indirectly on this blog, no exceptions.
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General: This blog is semi-selective, which means I am more open to mutuals and people I know. We don't have to be mutuals to write together, though. I have the right to not accept every RP. I may take a while to follow you back. Reblog memes/gif sets/etc. from the source instead of me please; I don't practice "reblog karma". Will block bots, minors, and non-RP blogs.
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hegrowth · 3 months
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every once in awhile this comes up and I'm like. in a weird place of talking about it because I don't want sympathy, I literally just want people to know.
tw for suicide mention, bullying and harassment
I started roleplaying when I was in middle school, and in high school I started getting harassed by a person in the rpc. they bullied me, harassed me, got their friends to harass me. they stalked me across multiple blogs, talked shit about me openly on the dash, and in general were happy to tell lies about things I was doing or had said. I did not know this person. I don't recall having ever actually spoken to or written with them. and my apparent offense to them was "misinformation", in that I was writing a muse with dissociative identity disorder, which they were adamant I was misrepresenting because it was supposed to be identified as multiple personality disorder. both they and their friends sent me hate, both on and off anon, and told me to unalive myself multiple times over this. I eventually did attempt to do so. I never received apologies from them or their minions, but was later told I was not the first nor the last person in the rpc they had done this to. to this day I do not remember the names or urls of those that bullied me, but I will always remember the name of the individual that was responsible for all the hurt I experienced.
so yeah. that's why I don't do callouts. that's why I ask for proof when people make claims about other people. and granted, I don't have any now to support this story, but I'm not trying to villainize this person. I don't know if they're still in the rpc, still on tumblr. if we may have crossed path since then. I don't really care. the point is I don't send hate. I don't vague blog about people. I don't reblog petty callouts. I don't take peoples word blindly even if I trust and care about them. I don't pick sides without knowing what's going on with each side. I refuse to perpetuate the shitty behaviors that enabled what happened to me, that's the facts. and if that makes you upset then my blog is not the space for you. and don't you ever accuse me of things I have experienced myself and would never wish on another person.
honestly, my memory is so fucked these days talking about it is like... it's a whole life away. it's been almost ten years, at least. I was really young then. I was really impressionable. I had just moved and was lonely in high school. what happened to me fucked me up and impacted how I have lived since then. and it's impacted how I have behaved in and interacted with the online space, tumblr especially.
so yeah. there's puffins tragic backstory unlocked. if you have questions I'll do my best to answer them, but honestly my memory is shot. I don't know if my blogs from back then still exist, or if I can even remember the urls... I've honestly blocked that period of my time in the tumblr rpc out of my memory lmao but I can try to look.
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hana-akari · 9 months
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I hate this shit. Every time I look at anything One Piece related, the 4Kids rap haunts me. The rap is haunting my dreams at this point.
Tumblr plz. This is hell. My personal hell is my brain replaying that rap over and over in my head. Sobssss. I also fuckin hate Buggy the Clown. In middle school, I had a friend that had a crush on him. And she would write fanfics of her oc being buggy boned by the clown and I had to be subjected to them. She read every single one to me and it was torture. We're still friends but I will never let her forget her cringe crimes.
Because of her, I have to live with the knowledge that Buggy can detach his weener and throw it around. Yes, that was a plot point in one of her fics too.
Before someone crashes in and makes a callout like "UM Punky I'm a clown fucker and you're kinkshaming me!" I don't care if you want to buggy bone a clown. The point is I am haunted by 4Kids rap and my bestie's terrible fanfics.
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