-first day in the Devildom-

Diavolo: Welcome to our exchange program!

MC: am I being kidnapped?

Diavolo: Not at all,we are just inviting you to our exchange program between demons,angels and humans. *whispering* and the ghost of a dead angel...

MC: what?

Diavolo: I SAID WELCOME-

Obey me related questions #3

Would you rather have your MC as an immortal sorcerer, or die and become an angel/demon?

Lucifer and Diavolo... What's up with those two??

Do you pronounce it dee-ah-vo-lo or d-iya-volo?

Just for fun 😊. Want to see your opinions.

sorry but the fact that light is 18 and L is 24, that light is imprisoned and powerless and L is illegally, unethically powerful, that light is a “good boy” and L is fucking sketchy, that light is super pretty and L is in-universe gross,

all that combined with the fact that light is bonkers crazy horny about the idea of murdering L is just. really fucking hot. so sorry

ok so, astarion girlie u say? tell us abt ur hcs for “missing scenes” between ur tav/urge and ur astarion.l. how they cared for each other on the road n in baldurs gate…. n if u think they had a lil date in baldurs gate, where would they go, etc!

Oh boy, do I ever have a lot of missing scene ideas! (Low key upset that they took out so many Early Access scenes that some of my hcs are based on, but oh well.)

Under a cut, because I ramble. Long, indulgent head-canon post ahoy.

So, to start with, my Astarion-mancer is Velassa, a half-elf noble who gave up her status to become a cleric of Ilmater. This immediately puts her and Astarion at odds -- Velassa's duty as a cleric is literally to stop and help anyone and everyone who needs it, and is a follower of the literal god of altruistic martyrs. It's practically her religious duty to get herself killed helping others, even for those who don't deserve it.

Astarion hates that so much, especially after he catches feelings. He would 100% confront her about it. They really should have had an argument about it -- how can she throw herself away, he needs her, "don't do this to me" sort of stuff. He's also absolutely the sort to hit below the belt -- why didn't your god help me, if He's so compassionate? He's a hypocrite, just like the rest of the gods, letting mortals do all the work and then taking the credit for it. And so on. It would be a good tie to the "bear blood" scene, where Tav can warn him against the corruption of power, especially when he says that "heroes" are a part of the problem.

Of course, an argument like that can't just happen and then be forgotten. I do think Astarion would feel bad about it, even as he tries to convince himself he has nothing to feel bad about. But you can't love a devout follower of a god without coming to terms with their faith. I'm not sure Astarion will ever forgive the gods, but I do think he'd eventually realize that Velassa became a follower of Ilmater because she was already compassionate. She didn't change herself to please a god, but followed a god who told her that she was already good for being who she was. He can respect that, even if he does still think the gods are hypocrites.

For her part, I think Velassa would understand that Astarion says cruel things as a defense mechanism. That doesn't make it hurt any less, but she gets it. She forgives him, but definitely gives him a stern talking to about better ways to deal with emotional pain. She is kind, sweet and altruistic, but she's not weak or emotionally-fragile. She follows He Who Endures, and you don't develop endurance by shrinking from pain, whether it's physical or emotional. She may be a bleeding-heart altruist but she's also a medic used to keeping pragmatic in volatile situations--she's dealt with people lashing out at her for trying to help, and takes no nonsense.

I also think, at some point, Astarion would decide that he's going to stick around and just stab the shit out of anyone who tries to take advantage of her kindness. He can't talk her out of it. She's firm in her convictions. So if she's so set on this self-sacrifice stuff, well, he'll just have to get in the way and make sure she survives it. The gods have already forsaken him, and her god can't be mad at her if he's the one doing the stabbing, right?

I see that playing out as a reminder to her about how easily he was able to get a knife to her throat, and she should keep him around to make sure no one else gets the chance. He won't stop her from helping others (because he can't), but if they try to cut her throat for it, why should he let that happen? He'll still complain about it, of course, in part just because I think he enjoys being bitchy, but he does mean to keep her safe regardless.

I also really think they (and all the romances, tbh) should have a scene for if they wear the matching warding bond rings. I think it would really freak Astarion out that someone is willing to literally take damage meant for him. It would scare him to think about (what if Cazador found out and tortured him to her death?), but also why would anyone be willing to do that for him?

I think he would initially refuse to wear the ring, and even after confessing his feelings, would rather wear the ring that absorbs the damage than the one that protects from the damage. Part of that is a desire for agency and autonomy, but also, I think even he realizes he's better at handling physical pain over emotional pain.

I think caring for others (in his own way) comes way before he's truly comfortable being cared for. He tries so hard to distance himself from others' pain because caring is what's hurt him the most in the past. Part of his growth is realizing both that it's okay to care and be cared for. Some part of his mind still keeps screaming that no one helps others without expecting something in return, and if you don't know the price, you can't prepare yourself for it. Getting over that mental hurdle is a long, slow process.

As to taking care of each other, the obvious thing Velassa does is let him feed from her, making sure he's not hungry. As a healer, she knows how badly starvation affects someone. In return, I imagine Astarion being fussy about making sure she's eating enough, keeping hydrated, not pushing herself too hard, and being a nuisance if she tries to push through it anyway. All for "practical" reasons, of course, not because he's worried or anything. (He's worried.)

Velassa, of course, is careful about monitoring herself for blood loss and its effects. That said, she's also Ilmatari, so in a certain sense, she overrelies on her own endurance. She can push herself farther and sacrifice more of herself than most, thanks to her god. Astarion sees that as reckless, though, and it irks him that she's so cavalier about her own health. So what if she can handle it? She shouldn't have to!

I think they should have included a scene where if you offer him blood, say, three times in a row, he declines the next time. Tasty as blood is, it takes time to replenish. The "bloodless" condition is literally someone suffering noticeable effects of blood loss. You can't just keep losing that much blood every night without it becoming dangerous. Even factoring in that blood seems to "intoxicate" him, he's pragmatic enough to realize (feelings aside) it would be a bad thing for him if she became too weak to function.

Beyond the obvious, though, one thing I head-canon is that Astarion starts to learn a lot about herbalism and plants. Velassa, as a life cleric of Ilmater, is trained in herbalism and is constantly collecting medicinal ingredients. Astarion starts out quite the city-dweller, but he has sharp eyes. I think he'd pick it up quickly. They're walking along and Astarion spots some rare plant, points it out to her. Despite himself, he starts learning about how to make medicines to the point that he scoffs at the prices merchants charge for things like healing potions. "Tell me you're joking. All our cleric needs to create these is three flowers and a mushroom you can find literally anywhere. Please." 🙄 And then everyone gives him crap about "our" cleric, Shadowheart pretending to be offended.

I really think there should have been a lot more friendly teasing of the ROs in this game. You cannot tell me that this group would not be (lovingly) roasting the shit out of each other, especially the two idiots in love.

I also think Astarion starts teaching Velassa about how to pick locks, disarm traps and recognize thieves' cant. "You don't have to steal to know how to pick a lock. What if you get locked up somewhere and need to escape? Are you going to pray the lock open?" (She might.) Velassa doesn't have great dexterity, but she is intelligent and perceptive, so I think she'd start to get the hang of it. "And who'd expect a cleric to know thieves' cant? You can listen in and learn all sorts of things with no one the wiser." That stuff is all still in his wheelhouse, but it's a handy skill to have in a pinch. In my playthrough at the goblin camp, Velassa freed Liam from the torture rack by picking the lock on the first try, and I imagine Astarion was sooo proud.

For a date, I think despite appearances, Astarion would like something low-key. He's tired of always having to put on a performance. For all he talks up enjoying it, hedonism and debauchery are old hat after two hundred years of being forced into it. I see him wanting something like going to some secluded place and star-gaze, just talking and watching the sun rise together. Safe, contemplative, no need for pretense. Something genuine, real.

The graveyard scene is sort of in that vein, but the focus is different. There he's recognizing that he's finally, actually free of Cazador, that he has a future. He's relieved, triumphant, ready to start reclaiming himself, starting with sex if possible. He hasn't yet had time to start thinking about the future or who he is now. But after that? After he's had time to start coming to grips with it?

It would make him nervous as hell. Sex is (comparatively) easy, but intimacy? Being vulnerable, not just for a moment before he puts the walls back up, but for a lifetime? He's on new ground for the first time in 200 years. To be seen, to be actually known, and to know someone else -- that's something he craves, and fears.

It's never really occurred to him because Astarion's not a naturally introspective person, but I think after Cazador's dealt with, he has a real "what now?" moment. All he's ever dreamed about was freedom. The future is a blank, and he doesn't even know himself well enough to really know what he wants. But now, there's this person by his side, someone he cares about, and he realizes just how little he actually knows about her. Now he wants to know everything.

Outside the whole tadpole thing, and her basically becoming the leader of their merry band of misfits, who is she? He doesn't understand her, despite being around her for so long. How is she like this? Why? What drives her to go so far for his sake, when he knows he doesn't deserve it? And she is so confident in who she is and her convictions.

I can see him asking lots of questions, in part because he's looking for guidance to figure himself out, but also because he's never really had a chance to care about anyone else. He's desperate, afraid, because now he's had a taste of happiness. Part of him still expects it to be ripped away. He wants reassurance that it's safe to care. Not because he thinks she'll reject him, but all he knows is the role of "sexy, cynical vampire". But if she believes he can be more than that, well, maybe he can be.

I also wish we were able to include our Tavs' family in-game. I'd have loved the opportunity to have Velassa introduce Astarion to her (noble) family. Her father would definitely be making Astarion sweat bullets, not least because Velassa's (retired assassin) father used to be her mother's bodyguard. 😁 History repeating, and all that.

I also think that, even after he starts becoming more genuine, he's still going to be a snarky bitch. Humor is a coping mechanism, but it's one of the healthiest. Velassa may be a sweet, kind-hearted healer, but she also has a streak of dark humor. You don't become a healer without seeing horrible things, and gallows humor is par for the course. It shocks people who don't know her well. Astarion thinks it's hilarious to see this ball of sunshine drop this incredibly dark joke and everyone around go 😱 I also think he enjoys making off-color jokes and making her laugh at inappropriate moments. Small victories.

thinking about the different ways the gang were messed with and bullied in highschool depending on their outward coping skills and it makes me so saddd. joyces was more physically punishing and purposeful humiliation, spiders in hands nd curled fists when she didn't respond like a normal person should. but she's also not stupid and would draw attention away from mac when he'd get into trouble. mac probably got into a lot of fights in school especially to prove himself and his fragile masculinity and sense of identity. but his wasn't the same Kind of bullying as joyce i think. i think it was in middle school when they were bonded at the hip, but he's something else now. i think its not unlike in the gang gets whacked where he thinks he's part of the gang and theyre laughing about killing him later. he'd do anything to prove himself as cool including hurting people he actually cares about but they're just toying with him like a pet. i think he'd accidentally get dennis into trouble with him due to their whole thing. im not as much a dengirl so i dont know how true this is going t be character wise? but he was never Actually popular despite his idea of himself so im not quite sure where he fits in with everything. hes rich and got invited to parties but i dont think many people were actually friends with him, if not hated him. they kept him around more for personal stake than genuine care, and it didn't matter anyway when at the end of it all the golden god went underneath the bleachers with the other two no matter what. the three of them are so tied together in their lives despite their best efforts and i just Think about it a lot

When IA was released, there was a common misconception that her age was 15. This is likely due to a misunderstanding of the paragraph written on her voice provider Lia, who debuted at age 15.

(source: Vocaloid Wiki)

one thing i like about vocal synths is that you can skip most of the canon vs fanon and characterizations discourse because 9 times out of 10 there's no canon in the first place. well i dont think hed say that but i can see why you would have a nice day

when people oppose a fan headcanon with "but in the show it's not like that!" Exactly! That is the whole point of a headcanon! So it's different than in the canon. So it's actually FUN

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Happy blorbo blursday again!!! :D

How would your OCs do in a group project? How cooperative would they be and who would have what tasks?

I love this question, this should be on character development questionnaires.

Hhamath: He's quiet, doesn't like to offer up his ideas in case people don't like them. He'll happily just let everyone decide what the project is going to look like and the layout of the trifold, and then he'll do his share of the research and drafting. He also knows calligraphy, so instead of printing the project out, everyone gives him their share of the project and he wing-hand-writes all of the text. Everyone gets bonus points for style.

Athetæm: If everyone else on the project is a peer or friend, he will shamelessly sit back and do jack shit. He gets snacks and looks pretty, and that's the extent of his contribution. He has the brains and the eye to contribute, but he'd rather gab and hang out.

Fethu: She's the boss. Before the group is even finished forming, she knows who's doing what. Delegation and accountability are her domains, even while she's doing her own share of the research and drafting.

Meva: She's drawing all of the pretty pictures and cutting out all of the colored paper flowers. When it comes to crafts, there's no one better. She'd crochet a lace border for the trifold if there were time. As it is, she sets to work making sure her group's project pops on the table.

Lutem: She passes off the intellectual work because she's not confident she can do it, and instead focuses on helping everyone with their various assignments. Rides to someone else's house or another trip to the craft store? Need food for a late night session? Gotta get something off the classroom printer? She's your girl.

Ræs: He's picking up Athetæm's and Lutem's slack and taking extra work from Meva. Out loud, he sounds disgruntled about it, but he's never wanted to work so hard on anything in his life. He's blowing the lion's share of the research and drafting out of the water, and he's gonna argue with Fethu when she tries to tell him he's missing the point of the assignment. After they share words, the two come to an agreement.

Overall grade: A++

Shryth: She's not totally sure what's going on in any given moment. She does the work that's handed to her and then… sets it back on the table? She missed the discussion. It's kind of hard for her to stay focused in class. But she'll take everything where it needs to go.

Ohrik: He's doing all of the research and drafting. He's good at it, so he may as well. He doesn't really care; he'll just do all of the work and let everyone else put their names on it.

Shohm: She's gonna make this presentation shine. She's gotten a lot of craft materials, and she has the trifold at her house pretty much the entire time. It's all she wants to do in her free time, really. She never gets the chance to just be creative in class.

Ia: She's just gonna do all of the work. It isn't really like anybody else can make a good presentation. It's fine. She doesn't care. At least this way it'll get done fast and then she won't have to get everybody to work.

Syfreth: He keeps trying to figure out what he's supposed to be doing. Nobody will give him any work to do. So he ends up sitting in the corner and reading a book between looking up for a chance to actually help.

Toler: He makes cootie catchers and paper footballs out of Shohm's fancy paper. She doesn't mind it, and she helps him come up with some of the stuff in the cootie catcher. He hasn't looked at the assignment even once.

The day before, when Shohm finally brings the trifold back into class, Ia and Ohrik almost throttle each other over whose version of the project goes up. They end up rewriting the whole thing the night before. It barely fits into the blank spaces Shohm has left between the paper scenery and glitter borders.

Overall grade: B+

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some vocaloid doodles!!!!

(fukase, gumi, big al/sweet ann, meiko/kaito/gakupo, ia and seeu!)

*garrus voice* damn whore

ᵠᵘᶦᶜᵏ ᵠᵘᵉˢᵗᶦᵒⁿ ʷʰʸ ᵈᵒᵉˢⁿ’ᵗ ᵛᵉᶜᵗᵒʳ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ᵇᶦ ʳᵒᵐᵃⁿᶜᵉˀˀ ᶦ’ᵈ ᵉᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ˢʰᶦᵗ ʷᶦᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵠᵘᵉˢᵗᶦᵒⁿˢᵎ

thinking about.... retconning the main class' xompanion lineup for my legacy that has major connections to kotor characters. 👀

maybe balance them up like a full raid group.

what if i change my url to rumiwakasa? what then?

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