#they’re so bittersweet
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Nene’s Dead Corpse and her ghost bf
randomly made a crap ton more sense to me
why?
fricking school (screw school I hate you (no not rly I’m just stressed))
Anyway I’m a biomed class where unit 1 is studying medical investigations forensic science style
and one of the things is like, what happens to a person after the body has been dead for a while (post mortem or sum, see im learning :D)
Things like algor mortis, livor mortis, I’ve heard of. In fact I’ve even studied the clouding of the corneas before, but it never got to me till today
maybe it’s cause I cannot for the life of me study forensics without my wild imagination giving me nightmares or just panicking when I’m alone but aNyWays
I tend to imagine characters associated with death in these scenarios so I don’t lose it in class💀
*cough* Nene *cough cough*
So as I was taking notes on the slideshow, some of the images of clouded corneas reminded me strangely of something familiar, but at that point I couldn’t tell. There’s something haunting about the eyes (or maybe it’s just my over-analytical brain loving small details like this) they’re GORGEOUS
LIKE
IDK THEYRE PRETTY
Maybe it’s ‘cause the true color of the iris is completely visible in all its glory, without the pupil obscuring it
(something like this?? A little vivid tho lol)
but like
there’s no
life
no reflection, no emotion…nothing (which is so hauntingly beautiful leave me alone I’m a sucker for this now)
it’s literally just an eye with nothing but color
and then it hit me…it’s exactly the look Nene had when Mirai fast-forwarded her time
you can see in the image it’s just her plain magenta eyes with a fuzzy de-saturated blob in the center…aka clouded corneas
And that honestly made me realize that in this scene she’s not—she’s not even unconscious
No she’s literally, physiologically dead
THAT IS A CORPSE HE IS HOLDING
she is literally a dead body this hits me so hard😭😭
and I can imagine algor mortis kicked in by then, her body was probably cold to the touch
so imagine how he felt, and I’m aware people have analyzed his emotions but just think about it
he’s always seen her so full of life and hope, and now all he has left is an empty shell of her, cold and dead with no life left inside
…just like him
the more I think about it Hanako is just an animated corpse
he has no reflection in his eyes most of the time because he is ✨dead✨
I mean Mei, Mitsuba, and Hanako don’t have a little white reflection dot like Nene and Kou
Or maybe I’m overthinking it and Nene’s eyes are just super reflective
even for someone who presumably took his own life, he probably never saw tsukasa’s body start postmortem and actually feel dead bc it looked extremely bloody ngl (I’m guessing he killed himself right after 💔)
and now he’s holding someone he cares about like this for the first time and I’ll bet that scarred him
and he figured out that never, never ever did he ever want to see his sweet assistant like this again, lifeless in his arms
and so after that, cue Hanako in his villain era who basically became a yandere the entire picture perfect lmao
and he was unbelievably adamant about it too
I mean honestly if I held anybody I knew lifeless like that I’d be scarred for life and crying for days
seeing the light drained from someone’s eyes is so interestingly sad to me
Look at the difference:
Happy
vs Sad/Determined
vs Depressed (ig??)
vs Dead
She still has so much emotion in her eyes
and then d e a d
literally looks like a porcelain doll
wait she looks so pale in the last image compared to the others now that I think about it
I love aidairo’s eye for detail it’s so fun to figure out
Well anyways thanks for coming to my Ted Talk essay atp-
IT’S PAST 1 AM AND I SHOULD BE STUDYING FOR SAID BIOMED CLASS AND HERE I AN GOING ON A TANGENT ABOUT A FICTIONAL CHARACTER’S EYES
send help
anyways excuse me while I grab a box of strawberries to munch on and cry my eyes out all over my homework before I sleep-
#hananene#tbhk#jshk#hanako kun#toilet bound hanako-kun#yashiro nene#tbhk manga spoilers#aidairo#my ramblings#my rambles#i literally have to wake up in 3 hours what am I doing#Yknow screw school Hananene is more important#i love angst#they’re so bittersweet#and beautiful
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— you would end your pain?
#it's extremely bittersweet that juan was the only one in the family who felt cesare's constant pain#it's why he was glad to found something to relate to with his brother and even smiling with relief#the idea that juan finding solace in the fact that he could empathize with cesare as he endured pain all the time as well hits so hard#but of course for different reasons but if only juan knew that cesare lusted over being a soldier badly that he'd even kill for it#david: “juan’s attempt at relieving pain is through closeness and hugging and love...#...while cesare’s attempt to relieve his pain is through murder and fratricide...#...when he forgives cesare at the end saying how they’re brothers and wants to be together. i think that’s genuine.”#juan borgia#cesare borgia#the borgias#theborgiasedit#david oakes#juan and cesare#perioddramaedit#dailyworldcinema#userperioddrama#tvarchive#cinemapix#filmgifs#by jen
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That one Trent Alexander-Arnold edit ✨
#trent alexander arnold#liverpool fc#tew good#my favorite edit ever#they ate so hard with this#the way some people can comment ‘from sprinkler splashes’ and everyone knows what/who they’re talking about#it’s bittersweet#dcrwins put their whole livussy in this#also this has been in my drafts for a minute now and I meant to post it after Fulham match but I forgot
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“I’m sorry, but I don’t like you like that”
He doesn’t know what hurts more, this or the memories of ‘our love is bullshit, you’re bullshit’ in his ears as he ignores the burn of his eyes. Ignores the stares and the silence.
He faintly wonders if maybe this is a curse, if he’s destined to be alone and that everyone he’ll ever love just can’t love him back.
Maybe it really is him?
Before anything else is said, he leaves. He doesn’t hear the shouts, doesn’t hear the apologies or the waits. Can’t handle being there anymore.
His eyes are burning, his heart is gone and he’s done.
Hawkins is a curse, all it holds for him is hurt and pain. He needs to leave, needs to be away. Wants to leave, wants to be away.
He feels the hand of someone on his arm and he doesn’t remember stopping, blinks hard to see past the tears. It takes only a few minutes to find Robin standing there, also with tears in her eyes. Her mouth is moving but his ears aren’t working, still buzzing with “I don’t like you like that” and a faint “you’re bullshit” ringing along side it.
Shaking his head, shutting his eyes tight. He leans his head against her shoulder and shakes, cries and feels her pull him close. Holds him tight and he curls his arms around her, trying to stop the tears and sobs.
“Oh, Stevie, I’m so fucking sorry. I’m here, I know it hurts.”
He clutches her tight and he sobs. This isn’t how this was supposed to go. He could’ve sworn- he really thought- really thought this was it. This was it, he thought he had a chance. Really.
This wasn’t supposed to happen.
“It’ll be okay, I swear. You’ll find someone, someone who loves you just as much as you love them. And I love you so much, Stevie. You are everything to me and you deserve it”
He shakes his head, it’s not true. He did find someone and they tore his heart out and called it bullshit and stomped all over it. He found another and they picked his broken heart up and decided to toy with it before ripping it to shreds with a simple “I don’t like you like that” and it’s so, it’s so juvenile.
“Yeah, yeah it is. And you know what? Fuck him, fuck him and everything about it. You can do so much better, I swear. Okay? Do you hear me, Steve? Do you?”
That’s when it slams into him, he was speaking out loud in between sobs and Robin was speaking to him. He nods and thinks hard at what she said, “I can’t Robs, I can’t do this anymore” he whispers and maybe even whimpers a bit, “I- It hurts so fucking much, I can’t be here anymore”
She pulls away and cups his face, his vision is still blurry but he can see that her face is red with tears too, “then we leave, we’ll leave. Okay? We can go anywhere. We can- we can just say fuck Hawkins and find something new- something bright and colorful. Find somewhere, where you can shine”
He can’t help but choke on a laugh and a sob, tries to shake his head. Stopped only because Robin holds him still, “We- I can’t do that to you-“
“You aren’t, Steve. I’m doing this for you.” She smiles and pulls his head closer to place a kiss to his forehead, “All this town has given you is pain and heartbreak, I’m calling it. We’re leaving”
“Isn’t that just- just running away?”
She shakes her head and pulls him close into a hug, “Even if it is, you deserve to run. We’ll pack up all of our things, either say goodbye or don’t, but we’re leaving. I can’t stand around and watch you break again. I can’t let you stick around longing and hoping that maybe fucking Eddie Munson decides to change his mind. I will not let him break you again”
There’s nothing he can say to that, he just hides his face in her shoulder. Holding onto her to keep himself from falling even more apart, listening to her hum and sway him to help him calm down. To stop from breaking even further, she whispers and promises him that she’s here. She’s not going anywhere.
And he believes her. She is his soulmate but he’s still hurting. He doesn’t know when it will stop, if they leave tomorrow it’ll still be broken. He’ll still faintly hear the “I don’t like you like that” mixed in with “you’re bullshit” in the back of his head. Doesn’t know if when he’ll not hear those phrases, doesn’t know if he’ll ever get their faces out of his head when they said it out either.
It hurts and his heart is in shreds. Being held together by his soulmate and maybe with her it’ll be protected.
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I’m sorry 🥲
#not steddie but also not not steddie#steve harrington angst#Steve Harrington fic#stranger things fic#platonic stobin#it’s alllll angst when it comes to steddie in this#Robin is the best person for Steve in this#I’m totally sorry for putting you through it with steve 🥲#they aren’t running away they’re just going on adventures together#I made myself cry with this too so#nburkhardt writes#angst#but also some comfort?#bittersweet ending
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The grief Sonic must’ve felt the first time he saw the yellow spots appearing in baby Tails’ brown fur.
Like, “hey, the kid is growing up”, but “oh, my kid is growing up”
#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#sonic and tails#unbreakable bond#they are cosmic truth#they’re brothers your honor#baby tails#baby miles tails prower#like he must’ve felt so proud because YEAH THE KID IS GROWING UP#but also HE WONT BE THIS LITTLE ANYMORE#he will no longer be a baby#and that’s bittersweet kinda#like#damn time does fly and the kit grew up way too fast#ouchie#overgrown this is your fault this is because of how you’ve been drawing baby tails recently#thank you overgrown i owe you my life#also I know it’s no longer Wednesday but#wholesome sonic and tails wednesday
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Finding out I was aromantic was fine. It was the fact that characters who I closely connect to and relate to often have these defining moments with romance and or romantic partnership that I will never fully grasp. That’s what hurts.
#lgbtq+#trans#lgbt#vent#aromantic#aromanticism#aroace#oriented aroace#I understand i do not have to watch these shows and simply could not do so#but#they’re really good#it’s just very bittersweet for me I’m very romance positive#I wish I could understand#this isn’t an entitlement towards having a show cater to me but more just a feeling I believe is okay to have and express#in the same way these shows are okay to exist#I’m glad they exist#I just gotta feel my feelings you know?
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The way they expected me to focus or care about anything that was happening on screen after Izzy died like bitch give me time to process
#I know they wanted to tie as many plot lines as possible in case there’s no s3 (doubt)#but like COME ON#I was half present for black Pete and Lucius’ wedding cause come on i love them#but it still felt so soon and bittersweet#like we know they’re engaged we didn’t neeed to see a rushed wedding#that could’ve been a whole episode like calypso’s birthday !!! funny wedding shenanigans come on#and like I was supposed to be focused at all on Stede and Ed playing house all of a sudden off the ship ??? no#sorry#ofmd#ofmd spoilers#Izzy hands#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SEE THRU MY TEARS#ITS LIKE CURTAINS OVER MY EYES
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Listening to The Amelia Project in 2017: Oh haha what a fun take on an office comedy! A death faking business, this is hilarious!
Listening to the Amelia Project in 2023: Death is inescapable, we will always leave behind those we love and be left behind, we do the best with the time we have and it is never enough, our stories will always outlive us so long as there is someone to tell them after we cannot
#I’m fuckin#I just#and it was a GRADUAL transition!#it wasn’t a fun sitcom with a hard transition into heartbreaking drama it naturally evolved!#don’t get me wrong it’s still very funny!!#but in a very bittersweet way#I’ve been describing season 5 as the hospice season#I feel like a CNA at a hospice home care listening to one of my patients tell me all their stories#and it’s great because have you ever really sat down with someone who KNOWS they’re dying and they tell you their whole life?#from the most traumatic experiences imaginable to the happiest days of their lives??#what the FUCK Amelia Project how did you get that so right??#how did you capture that unique feeling that privileged moment of listening to someone’s story while they’re on their death bed?#IN ONE SHOW???#im gonna cry#the amelia project
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Vincent and Lovely 🤝 Avior and Starlight
Having the most bittersweet relationships on the channel
#I wanted to include Anton and his listener but they’re not even bittersweet#they’re just bitter#Lovely was so happy with their electro powers I get sad when I know what’s gonna happen#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redacted vincent#redacted lovely#redacted avior#redacted starlight#redacted sovereign state
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If you are the tiktok that came on my FYP that said “what if Jatp ended like this?” And had the Stand Tall performance of them bowing and disappearing and Julie going home to an empty garage and then the credits queuing- You are responsible for my eyes watering.
I will say though, that tiktok has made me even more thankful for the ending that we do have like as much as it sucks to have that cliffhanger of an ending… …Julie still has her boys with her and I just think that’s really beautiful 🥺
#IM SORRY I SAW A JATP TIKTOK AND I GOT SENTIMENTAL#they still a band at the end of the day so the way that that is what we do have it’s really nice#it’s a bittersweet ending I’ll say it again but they are all still a found family and with each other and I think no ending could be better#we are incredibly lucky in a way with the ending that we do have bc that crossing over fic that’s your fav could indeed be cannon#cannonly speaking Julie and her boys never crossed over and they’re still with her and that is such a sweet ending to have#jatp#julie and the phantoms#jatp netflix#julie jatp#jatp julie
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It's so bittersweet that Juan was the only one who felt Cesare's constant pain, and he was glad he found something to relate to with his brother, with a relieved smile. He found solace in the fact that he could empathize with him as he endured pain all the time as well, albeit for different reasons. I wonder if he ever knew whether Cesare's suffering stemmed from being trapped in a cardinal's robe and not having a career as a soldier. Also, you can see the frustration and conflict on Cesare's face, as if he doesn't want to kill his brother but he has to since Juan became a liability and would eventually bring the family down with him, especially after Juan's descent into addiction, illness, and madness. Cesare is driven by the desire to preserve the family and because he wanted Juan's undeserved position as a Gonfaloniere. All in all, these two tormented brothers were trapped in their father's vicious cycle of favoritism and ambitions, which caused the tragic ending of their brotherhood when they could have been brothers in arms.
#francois: “[cesare] didn’t want to talk anymore because he knew juan could change his mind. It was hard for cesare to kill his brother.”#david: “juan apologizes to his brother and gives his heart to him and he still gets stabbed and thrown off a bridge.”#the way juan looks at cesare in the 3rd gif and the s7th...he loves him so much i'm jumping off the balcony actually#the bittersweetness was overshadowed by tragedy after cesare murdered him#rodrigo borgia when i catch you for fucking up your sons' lives#“you would end your pain?” “yes."#david: “juan’s attempt at relieving pain is through closeness and hugging and love...#...cesare’s attempt to relieve pain is through murder and fratricide...#...when he forgives cesare at the end saying how they’re brothers and wants to be together. i think that’s genuine.”#anyway i miss them#juan borgia#david oakes#francois arnaud#cesare borgia#the borgias#juan and cesare#tvedit#perioddramaedit#dailytvfilmgifs#by jen
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wip wednesday :D
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have a depressing oddly interpreted take on the taint affecting alistair and rowena 😘
The taint came for his hands first.
A side effect of days spent clutching a sword and shield no doubt. His veins went fast, running black and blue overnight. He didn't like looking at them, but Rowena traced them over every night. Hardened bones were next. Protruding metacarpals and thinned knuckles and a noticeable creak in the mornings. Then the pain began. The ache. Days where his joints stiffened to stone, where a grasp clenched too tight refused to come undone, where splaying fingers to their fullest extent proved too much.
Rowena often caught him staring at his hands in the corner of her eye. Busy hands, curious hands, hands made to fidget and gesture and move above all else, now immobile. His worry token went untouched for months, as did many of the things he loved to hold. Flowers in the garden. The mabari's paws. Rowena.
There was a time when Alistair couldn't keep his hands off of her. Affection of the physical kind was a bright and shiny concept and it took time for him to adjust. Rowena could touch him anywhere, after all. It came easy to her, the affection, the initiation. His cheek, his chin, his collarbone--anywhere would do. Eventually, he came to reciprocate. Tentatively at first, as if asking for permission, but confidence came with the security of her affection. Touch became a comfort. A hand around her waist, on her jaw, in her hair. Anywhere would do.
It couldn't have been more different now. He shied away when she reached for his arm to hold, twitched when she kissed his neck in the mornings. Evening baths became sparser until they no longer existed at all, and this Rowena could hardly bear--facing this truth that the old rituals had died, so she clung to the last of them.
No amount of massage relieved the pain, but Rowena would be damned if she didn't try. Nightly, he let her take his hands in her own.
It was a relief each time to see that despite the Taint, Alistair's hands were still his own, broad and square-fingered and devastatingly gentle. Calloused on the underside and scarred by his earliest days with a blade, too young and eager to know any better. And those nights by the firelight, nights where she took his palm in her hands and massaged the ache away, she could see that Alistair's hands were still freckled, just barely. The sun could still shine on him and leave honeyed kisses against his skin and this was one thing the taint could never take. No darkspawn could take the sun.
The night she realized this, she wept silently. She'd stopped him before he could speak, pressed his freckled hand to her cheek before he could pull away, and whispered, "Bathe with me."
Months later, the taint came for her.
For Rowena, it was her vision and it was swift. [reduntant fix this queen lol]
#in my universe the taint wastes away the physical thing you rely on the most#eventually everything is corrupted but it's always your most used ability first#so chronic pain takes alistair's hands and near blindness comes for rowena#spoiler alert unless in da4 they somehow resolve the cure for the calling rowena dies first <3 teehee#SO anyways alistair becomes a lil distant not because he's like. being cold with her. but because like#the insecurity of touch returned. the hesitation. asking if this is okay because of the unspoken recognition that the end is on its way#and he really doesn't know how to deal with that. never knew how to prepare for that#when he cups her face and sees the darkened veins on his wrists and all he can think of is how they can't have this for much longer#that's just!! a lot to handle!! and he needs the reassurance but doesn't know how to communicate it because he lost the ability to ask#aka touch#the bathing part is especially difficult bc ofc evidence of the taint's corruption had spread beyond his hands atp#and he'd have to bare his whole body in front of her and that's like. so vulnerable. when ur dealing w all that#this is probably rlly obvious but sjhdjhfhdjfhjd#i like having aging being a significantly important thing in alistair and rowena’s relationship#the tragedy of it all#how gaining weight and wrinkles is so bittersweet#because on one hand they’re growing old together and god can u believe they made it here#but on the other it’s the telltale sign the calling is nearing and it’s just like#okay how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left.#how can we enjoy what we have when we want so much more. gray hair and children and arthritis. we’re so weary and we’re so young.#tag game#writing*#x: a soft epilogue#ch: rowena cousland
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ok. ONE THING. i’ll post ONE ‘specific’ thing.
in the beginning when rick and morty cuddle up together. that shit broke me.
such an important moment.
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IVE BEEN WAITING TIL YOU MAYBE WERE GONNA WRITE TOKYO REVENGERS!!!! they have so many characters i thought you’d do so much justice :3333. the kazutora piece is by far my favorite <333333. i cant wait to see what you do with the haitanis!!!!
OH HEHE HI ANON!! <33 aw thank you so much!!!! i’m really happy to hear that you enjoyed my lil kazutora piece!! (´∀｀)♡ i can’t wait to write more for tokrev!!! i have like three different haitani oneshots in the works (but they’re all set within the same AU) n a bunch of other lil pieces hehehe c: my favourite characters are:
rindou (!!!!!), ran, mikey (!!!), shinichiro, mitsuya, kokonoi, kakucho, takeomi, sanzu, kazutora (!!!), wakasa, hanma, and shion
so those are the characters u can expect to potentially see writing for / those are the characters i’d like to talk about and write about the most!!! <3
#I LOVE THE HAITANIS SOOOOOOOOO MUCH ITS UNBELIEVABLE#they’re so wicked interesting!!!!!#rly rly rly in love with their character dynamic <333#have also fallen head over heels for mikey; bonten mikey specifically#he is so messed up and sick i absolutely love him#kazutora is quickly becoming a comfort character because his whole story is so bittersweet#(we reject the ‘canon’ ending here on inkykeiji dot tumblr dot com)#but yeah!!!!#thank you for letting me know ur thoughts anon i rly appreciate it!! <33#i’m soooo glad u liked it!!!!! (*/ω＼*)#have a fab saturday n enjoy ur weekend!!!#inky.bb#clari gets mail#inky.tr
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Hey so um. That was a Lot. I don’t think I have coherent thoughts yet but this sure is a Lot
#iz reads rote#fool’s fate#beloved 😭😭😭#fitz saved him and I am emotional#like it’s happy but also so painful and there’s so much trauma and things will never be the same but they’re alive#happy isn’t even the right word like this is triumphant and bittersweet but not happy#when fitz called him Beloved and he flinched and said not to use that name because she had used it while torturing him? OW#also fitz getting his memories back and seeing the beauty of life again? crying#(of course the fool had to kiss him for that to happen)#(not even surprised)#can’t believe fitz literally reversed death with the wit and the power of gay love#you guys were not exaggerating about this book
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the doctors in the house!
#they’re so cute#also he has new swords! bittersweet#because his old ones were broken#but they were given to him by splinter and he’s had them for so long#season 5 ep 2#tmnt#tmnt 2012#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt leonardo#tmnt michelangelo#tmnt donatello
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