10th day - "skyscraper"/11th "DragonSlay" (scene 1)
――I can't leave Saber alone.
Rider is gone, and the book that holds Shinji's Command Spells has burned.
Shinji doesn't have a Servant anymore, and he has lost his Command Spells as well.
I can call the match settled.
So the priority right now is Saber…!
"Saber…!"
I run to her.
The golden sword isn't in her hands anymore.
It has disappeared and only Saber herself remains, but――
"Huh…?"
Saber doesn't look well at all.
She has sweat on her brow, and her breathing is weak yet irregular as if she has a fever.
"…No way. Hey Saber――what's wrong?"
I call out to her timidly, but she doesn't answer.
…She's unconscious.
"――Sa… ber…?"
I touch her forehead.
"Ow…!"
I automatically pull my hand back.
I-It's unusually hot.
If this is a fever, she's over forty degrees…!
"Saber! Hey, are you all right…!?"
Even when I call out to her, her only reply is heavy breathing.
"―――!"
I don't know what the hell's going on.
I don't know, but I'm sure we can't just stay here like this.
"I'm going to take you home…! If you want to object, do it later…!"
I pick Saber up.
…She's light.
She was light before, but she's lighter now.
No, more than that, she's…
"…She's warm. She's alive."
Saber is still Saber.
I'm angry at myself for hesitating.
…Damn it, so what if she's a hero?
No matter who Saber is, she's here right now and she's warm.
How stupid of me to think there's a wall between us in spite of that.
"――I'm going home right away. Stay still until then, Saber…!"
I run, still holding Saber in my arms.
There's no feeling of victory.
All I feel is Saber in my arms, breathing painfully.
"I'm done.
I let her sleep in the Japanese-style room, but I don't think she'll wake up any time soon."
"…Sorry, you really helped me out.
There's nothing I could have done to treat Saber."
"…Well, I just removed her armor and helped her relax, so you don't need to thank me. Saber won't get well, and I haven't done anything."
…But still, having Tohsaka around helped.
She was the one that yelled at me when I came home in a panic about what to do.
She worked out Saber's situation and advised me to take her armor off and let her sleep.
It's been an hour since then.
Somehow communicating with the unconscious Saber, Tohsaka took her armor off.
"So, what happened?
I thought you went out looking for Shinji, and Saber was like that. I can tell that something happened, but can you explain the details?"
"――"
I hesitate.
…Saber's Noble Phantasm.
I should avoid revealing her true name.
It's not something I can reveal by my judgment alone…
"…Rider was defeated. Shinji retired, losing his Command Spell. But Saber used her Noble Phantasm and collapsed after using it."
"…Hmm. Saber's Noble Phantasm, huh…?"
Tohsaka falls into a meaningful silence.
She's Tohsaka, so she should be able to tell that it was no ordinary matter.
"Well, I won't ask you for details. You guys are in no condition for that sort of a thing."
"…? What do you mean we're in no condition?"
"It's just like I said. …You should know vaguely by now that Saber will disappear like this."
"What――?"
Calmly.
Tohsaka mentions the result I have avoided thinking about.
"…Disappear… you mean, Saber will disappear?"
"Of course. Saber's magical energy is almost empty. I don't know what kind of a Noble Phantasm Saber used, but it must have consumed a lot of magical energy.
Saber has used up most of the magical energy in her.[l]
She's in pain because she's trying to keep herself from disappearing."
"She's going to disappear because she doesn't have magical energy…? Are you saying she's going to disappear even though she wasn't injured?"
"Yes. Depletion of magical energy is a more serious problem than external damage for a Servant.
It's the magical energy that gives the spiritual Servants form. She will just disappear if it runs out."
"…Well, Masters transmit their magical energy to their Servant so that doesn't happen, but you can't do that, right?
So Saber has to fight using her own magical energy. It's over once that runs out. I told you this right at the beginning."
――That's…
…Certainly what Saber told me.
"――But she was fine until now. Saber said she'll be all right if she slept――"
"That was because Saber's magical energy capacity was extraordinary.
…Yeah, Saber certainly has some magical energy left in her.
I think she should be able to recover enough magical energy to preserve herself."
"But that's it. Saber will end up fighting in the situation she's in right now.
It would be absurd to use the Noble Phantasm that put her in this state to begin with. Saber will definitely disappear if she uses it again."
"…She'll disappear if she uses her Noble Phantasm again…"
No, first of all, I can't let her fight in this state.
I don't want to see her slumped over in pain again.
"Do you understand now? There are only two ways to heal a Servant who ran out of magical energy.
To have the Master replenish the magical energy, or to have the Servant collect magical energy herself."
…To have a Servant collect magical energy herself.
…That would mean killing innocent people like Rider did.
"…That's impossible. Saber won't do that. She said herself that she wouldn't do such a thing."
"I would think so. Saber would probably choose to disappear if she had to sacrifice innocent people.
So there's only one other possibility. If you don't want Saber to disappear, you'll have to offer her your magical energy."
"That's――something I would have done already if I could.
But I don't know any way to give Saber magical energy. Unfortunately, I can't do everything like you can."
"…Of course. We wouldn't make it even if I taught you how to share magical energy. It would take you about a year to learn since you're not suitable as a magus, and you wouldn't be able to use it even if you learned it.
…Well, a path should have been connected at the summoning, so there might be other measures――"
Tohsaka ponders.
But it's only for a moment.
Tohsaka looks at me with an expression suppressing her emotions.
"Look. If you want to save Saber, all you can do is to make her attack people and absorb their souls.
I think you already know this."
"―――――"
That's the most realistic measure.
But that means――
"Saber will of course object to it.
But if you let things be, Saber will disappear and you will be targeted by the other Masters."
"―――――"
Saber will disappear…?
I can't even imagine such a thing.
I still feel her body heat in my hands which were carrying her.
"Then there's only one answer.
――Use your Command Spell, Emiya-kun. You should be able to avoid the worst case scenario with that."
That means…
…Ordering Saber to kill innocent people.
"―――――"
I can't say anything.
I resent what Tohsaka is saying, but at the same time, another part of me recognizes that this is the only solution.
"I'll let you decide. Saber will calm down if she sleeps, but her limit is still near.
If you're going to make a decision, make one by the next time we get attacked."
Tohsaka leaves the living room.
…I can't even look up… I can only listen to Tohsaka's departing footsteps.
Arturia.
The girl who had just finished her rite of passage would be known by that name from that day on.
It was a time of chaos and war.
It began with the demise of an empire.
An empire believed to be indestructible was only awaiting its destruction at the hands of invading barbarians.
To prepare for the war against these barbarians, the empire deprived this island country of any military forces.
That was the beginning.
Once her country lost the empire's protection, it could not escape becoming independent and it broke into smaller countries in no time.
The barbarian invasions.
Self-destructive strife between clans.
A long period of war, that would later be called "the Dark Ages".
She was born into this period as the heir to the throne.
It was a long period of chaos.
The king believed the magus's prophecy and yearned for the birth of his appointed successor.
But the child that was born was not the one the king desired.
The child was not a boy.
Even if the child was fated to become a king, he could not make a child that was not a boy his successor.
The girl was entrusted to the king's vassals and was raised as a child of a mere knight.
The king fell into despair, but the magus was delighted.
The sex of the one who would become king had never mattered.
He was confident that the fact of the girl being separated from the castle until the day of the prophecy was proof that she would become king.
The girl grew up as the successor under the simple and wise old knight.
The old knight did not really believe the magus's prophecy.
He just felt the same air from the girl as he did from his king, so he felt that he must raise her as a knight, and he wished her to grow.
But the knight did not even have to wish for such a thing, as the girl trained day after day to become stronger than anyone.
If only a king can save a ruined country headed for death…
The girl swore to bear a sword for that reason alone, without ever being told so.
So, the day of the prophecy arrived.
Knights and lords from around the country gathered to be selected as the king.
Every one of them expected the selection to be through jousting if the most superior one was to become a king.
But the only thing prepared at the place of selection was a naked sword stuck in a stone.
On the hilt of the sword was a golden inscription.
"Whosoe'er pulleth out this sword of this stone is rightwise King born of England―――"
Many knights grabbed the sword, following that command.
But no one was able to pull the sword out, and the knights began the expected method of selection by jousting.
As the girl was only an apprentice, she was not qualified to joust.
The girl neared the deserted stone of selection and reached out for the sword without hesitation.
"No, no. You should think things through before you take that."
When she turned around, before her was the most feared magus in the country.
The magus said…
That she would no longer be human once she took ahold of the sword.
The girl only responded with a nod.
Becoming a king means no longer being human.
She was prepared for that ever since she was born.
In short, a king is someone who kills everyone to protect everyone.
The young girl thought about it every night and shuddered until morning came.
No day passed that she did not fear that fact.
But the girl said that it would end this day.
The sword was pulled out as if it were only natural to do so, and the place was filled with light.
―――In that instant, she became something not human.
The king's gender does not matter.
No one will care about the king's appearance or even notice it if the king acts like a king.
Even if anybody noticed that the king was female, there would be no problem if she was a good king.
Perhaps because of the sword's magic, the girl's growth stopped at that time as well.
Many knights feared it as ominous, but most of them praised their master's immortality as divine.
―――And thus.
The time of the king who would become a legend started.
The battles of the new king were indeed the acts of a god of war.
The king always led from the front.
No enemies could stand in her way.
Arturia, the god of war.
There was no defeat for a body admired as a dragon in human form.
For ten years and twelve battles, she knew only victory.
Those were the days she ran through as the king.
She never turned back and was never disgraced.
She was raised as the king and fulfilled her obligations as the king.
Is that why I saw such a figure?
Her soul must still be on the battlefield.
Before daybreak.
Resting her body in the wind under the indigo blue sky, she just gazes into the distance.
The sky is high, and the clouds are flowing fast.
Under the clear air, she is looking at the great army she must face with her sword in hand.
―――That figure is burned in and will not go away.
She and her sword are one.
The sword from the stone that chose the king.
I think the brilliance of the sword that selected her fate is also her brilliance.
But I wonder in the dream.
That sword is different from the one she had.
It is similar, but different.
The one she used last night is different from this sword.
…So.
How did she lose such a fine sword…?
When I wake up, I'm in my room.
It's light outside.
I guess I fell asleep after coming back to my room, unable to make a decision.
"…That… dream…"
It was a strange dream.
Events I shouldn't know about, things I don't know about Saber.
Is it possible for me to dream about them?
"…But that sword was certainly different from the one Saber had…."
I vaguely think.
Saber's true identity that was hidden.
…To be honest, I still can't accept who she is.
Saber is just Saber.
I can't change my attitude just because I know who she was before, and I don't think Saber would want that either.
"…But it suited her."
The sword from yesterday suited her, but the sword in my dream also suited her.
No, you could say I was fascinated.
With yesterday's sword and the sword in my dream… it seems I fall for swords easily.
I also thought Lancer's lance was beautiful when I saw it, but my interest in swords is exceptional.
It seems Emiya Shirou is easily attracted to swords.
"Well… it's not like that only just started."
I take a deep breath and reach up to my sweaty face.
"…But it sure is hot."
I wipe the sweat off my forehead.
Even though it's winter, my body is burning.
It feels like my blood is getting hotter, and I feel restless.
"…I wonder why… ever since I saw Saber's sword…"
…My body has been strangely hot.
The hand that bears the Command Spell is hot as if it's holding a pocket heater.
"…It's like that time Tohsaka made me swallow that jewel… like it's itchy, or it makes me want to run around."
I take a deep breath to try to calm myself.
"…I guess Saber's still asleep…"
Saber has not woken up even once since last night.
But it still seems she's getting better.
Her breathing is calm now and there's no sign she is gasping in pain.
Saber is sleeping peacefully.
This is an everyday morning scene.
"―――Maybe if…"
If I let her sleep like this, she might get back to normal.
Then there'll be no need to have her kill people.
Then, just like now, Saber will be with me and――
"――How selfish of me――!"
I hit the wall.
I'm so weak it makes me sick.
"――It's my fault Saber's in this state.
Who am I to say――"
…I get up, trying not to make a sound.
I don't know when Saber will wake up.
But I have to make a decision before she does.
Tohsaka must still be asleep.
There's no energy in the house, and it feels like it's abandoned.
No, I'm just depressed.
I can't decide, so I'm wandering around in a gray state, and that causes the world to be vague.
"…?"
I hear something cut through the air.
"Again… it's from the yard, but that――
I remember that sound.
…Yeah.
I don't feel like cooking breakfast right now, so I'll take a walk and check it out.
It's much colder than usual outside.
It must be really cold if my burning body feels it.
It's so cold that it might snow.
"…It's from the shed area."
The sound is coming periodically.
I cross the yard, breathing out white puffs.
He's there in front of the shed.
…I guess I kind of knew he would be here, so I wasn't surprised.
He must have been shooting arrows until now.
He lowers his bow in displeasure as soon as he sees me.
"That's dangerous. Don't shoot bows in someone else's house. What are you going to do if you hit someone?"
"I would not have to do anything as I am not using any arrows. One cannot be hit by something that is not fired."
"……"
He doesn't need to tell me that.
The sound was Archer's bow string cutting through the air.
I don't know why, but Archer isn't using any arrows, but only pulling his bow.
"…That's a good bow. I wasn't convinced until now, but you really are an Archer."
"Well. I'm not an archer like the ones you know, so I would not be able to answer you even if you asked me about archery.
Your arrows are shot to target yourself, while my arrows are shot to hit an enemy. The archer you have in mind must be the kind that respects manners and politeness."
He curls his lips offensively.
As I thought, I can't get along with him.
"I don't intend to ask you about archery.
I was just wondering what you were doing."
"As you can see, I am merely checking my condition.
The wound Saber gave me has healed. I cannot stay on watch forever."
"――――"
…I see.
He's healed now. Then that means Tohsaka should return to the war.
I turn away.
Since Tohsaka and Archer are rejoining the battle, I must make a decision.
I have to think seriously somewhere I can be alone.
"―――There is a concept called 'follow-through'."
"Huh?"
"The time you have after you take your shot.
I believe that is the only thing common to your archery and mine."
"…What? You don't have to tell me about the eight stages of shooting."
"Just listen. They say the body stays there naturally after you shoot a bow. I heard that you call it follow-through."
"……"
Certainly, there are eight movements in archery called the eight stages of shooting.
The last one, the follow through, is the state that comes after shooting an arrow, but――
"…Yeah. So what about it?"
"I am talking about your mental preparation. Follow through is not intended to ascertain if the arrow has hit the target.
An arrow has hit the target even before it is released. The archer lets the arrow go according to that image.
So there is no need to check if the arrow has hit or not.
Because if you think the arrow will hit, it will hit the target, and if you do not, the arrow will not hit."
"――That's not true. There are shots that won't hit no matter how much you think they will. Everyone would hit the target every time if all you have to do is to think about hitting it."
"Is that so? Well, you hit the target every time."
"What――"
His statement makes my heart jump.
That's certainly――
"Well, I do not care about that. There is only one thing I want to tell you. Follow through is not intended to ascertain if you have hit the target or not. What happens to the released arrow is obvious.
So follow through is a preparation to accept that result, is it not?"
"――I know. So you're saying I should be able to see through this thing until the end, right?"
"Exactly. I heard about Saber's situation. You should have known from the beginning that she would end up like this. She will disappear in time if she fights without a magical energy supply.
That fact was already determined. So――"
…All that's left is to accept the result.
Is he saying that no matter what happens to Saber because of my decisions, all I can do is see through what happens?
"―――――"
I turn my back to Archer.
I will leave this guy once and for all.
"…Oh, and one more thing. I will tell you since you don't seem to know."
I hear a voice behind me.
"Saber should have known she would disappear if she used her Noble Phantasm. She probably did not intend to use her Noble Phantasm until the very end."
The usual offensive tone isn't present in his voice.
"There is only one reason she used her Noble Phantasm in spite of that.
She chose to protect you over her own existence.
Never forget that."
His voice holds only honest sincerity.
The park is empty as usual.
Maybe it helps that it's colder today than usual.
There is no one around and it looks like I'm the only one out at this time.
"―――――"
I sit on the bench sluggishly.
I came to a deserted place as I wished to.
Now that I'm here, I must decide what to do.
There are no choices that allow me to postpone the problem.
If I am to end the Holy Grail War by defeating other Masters, I need Saber to stay.
No, even without that, I don't want her to disappear.
But that means…
Having Saber attack people, like Rider did.
"――!"
There's no way I can do that.
Making Saber do such a thing would be like telling her to die.
First of all, Saber would surely refuse.
――But.
When I hang my head, I see my left hand.
I have two Command Spells left.
If I use one, I can force Saber to follow my command.
"―――――"
I bite my lip and discard the ridiculous thought.
I don't know how long I remained slumped on this bench.
But just as my fingers start to tremble from the cold…
"Oh!
I thought you were gone already, but you're here!"
I'm suddenly called.
"Aha, it is you. Hello, Shirou. You have a serious expression. What's wrong?"
"Ilya…? You're here by yourself again?"
It's dangerous, you never know when the other Masters――"
As I start to say that, I'm amazed at my stupidity.
Ilya is a Master too.
I shouldn't be worrying about this, and anyway, aren't we enemies?
"…Sorry. I can't afford to talk to you right now. We were lucky to see each other, but I can't talk with you. It's going to get cold today, so you should go home."
Sitting down on the bench, I dismiss Ilya.
…There are things I need to talk to her about, but I have my hands full with Saber right now.
"―――――"
…?
What's going on?
Ilya doesn't say anything and she just stares at me as if I'm a stranger.
"…Ilya…?
No, I'm not trying to be mean to you. I'm really busy right now, and――"
"I know. Saber's going to disappear, right?
And you're wondering what to do."
Suddenly.
The girl in front of me says this coldly as if she is someone else.
"Ilya…?"
"It's stupid to worry about such things. That's why you let Rider's Master escape. All you have to do with the loser is to kill them."
I move my legs.
I know it's bad to stay sitting down, so I put my power in them to stand up.
――But.
My body does not move as if entranced by Ilya.
"Ilya, how――do you know about that?"
"I don't even need to tell you, right? I was at that building last night too.
Well, I could only watch from inside the building."
"――!"
I try to move my arms and legs, but they won't move at all.
No, it feels like they're stiffening the more I put power into them.
――It's those eyes.
Looking into Ilya's red eyes is making my body go numb and――
"Oh, you're bound already?
You know you don't have any protection, right? I thought it would be easy to capture you if you're alone, but you're so cute falling for it this easily."
"Ilya, yo… u――"
"It's useless, Onii-chan. You won't be able to move now.
You won't even be able to speak soon, but you don't need to worry.
――I didn't come here today to talk either.
Murderous intent mixes into Ilya's gaze.
This is the same Ilya as that night, when she was the Master of Berserker.
"Guh…! Are you going to kill me here…!?"
Gritting my teeth, I gather all my strength.
But I can't even twitch my fingers.
Every nerve in my body is wrapped by Ilya's stare.
"Yup. Because it doesn't matter if you're a Master anymore, right? You'll be on your own once Saber disappears, so I can't let you be a Master.
Once your means of fighting is gone, I can kill you easily."
Ilya raises her hand.
Her white slender fingers touch my chest.
"I'm glad I found you before anyone else killed you.
So, good night, Onii-chan. Saber's going to disappear anyway, so it should be a relief if it happens faster, right?"
My vision fades.
Sensation in my limbs is already gone, and now my vision is gone as well.
…How long has it been since I fell into this darkness?
While I wonder whether or not I'm dead, my consciousness fades away.
…My body is burning.
Even though my consciousness is deep in the darkness, my burning body is appealing that it is alive.
――I see. I guess I'm alive, then.
But even if that's the case, that's only for the moment.
Ilya said it too.
――Once your means of fighting is gone, I can kill you easily――
…She's right.
I can't fight at all without Saber.
The Holy Grail War is a battle between Servants.
I cannot possibly match one of those Servants.
That fact has been proven many times already.
It was a merciless beating.
As Saber said, my battle against a Servant is to survive.
I couldn't even do that.
I was cut all over my body, and on top of that, thrown to the ground from a third floor window.
I only survived because of an abnormality in my body that I don't even understand.
That fact is so vexing that it makes me mad.
I could not stop the disaster occurring around me just because the one in front of me was unbeatable.
Even though I chose to fight,
I chose to fight as a Master to stop people getting hurt, but I could not protect them.
――It pisses me off.
The superhero I've admired since childhood always has to win or it's meaningless.
…My body is burning.
My whole body is demanding that I must win.
But I don't have any means of winning nor a way to fight.
How would I be able to fight?
I don't have the skills to fight alongside Saber without being a burden to her.
――That is a mistake as well. Emiya Shirou is not fit for fighting.
Because your fight is supposed to be a mental fight,
A fight with your own self――
Suddenly.
I remember the back of the man who said those words.
――Emiya Shirou has no chance of winning if it comes down to fighting.
None of your skills
Will be of any use against a Servant――
I know.
I realize that more than ever now.
――In that case, at least imagine it.
If it is an opponent you cannot match in real life, beat it in your imagination.
If you cannot beat it yourself, imagine something that you could beat it with.
…He doesn't need to tell me something I already know.
If I am going to win, it'll only be in my head.
But what could I win with?
I can't imagine myself beating a Servant.
I can't handily deceive myself, and an image created by deceiving myself will be full of flaws.
There's no way I would be able to match a Servant, a first-class illusion, with such a third rate image.
――So.
What will I be able to beat?
And what will I beat it with?
I am searching for the answer to that question――
――searching for the answer even now.
A golden sword.
It's a sword for her alone.
I don't want it myself.
It's just beautiful.
I just want to hold it in my hands, if it's permitted.
…Geez, it's a bad habit for an amateur magus.
Since all I can do is examine the contents, I see such dreams unsuitable for my position.
But――if this is a dream, I should be allowed to at least think about it.
First, I assume the basic structure and reproduce the composing material.
…Oh, the basic form from when I use the strengthening magic isn't enough as I thought.
Strengthening is changing something that's already there, so it's meaningless with something that isn't there at all.
So if I am to remember that sword, I have to put more effort into it.
――It's well before the basics.
It's the process full of waste that I came up with before Kiritsugu taught me how to use the strengthening magic.
Um, it was――how was it supposed to take shape…?
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………When I come to, I'm in a ridiculous place.
"――What is this place――?"
This isn't just some place I've never seen before.
It has a bed with a gorgeous canopy, and a long carpet that makes it look like you could sink to your ankles.
A stone fireplace that is not just decorative, but actually functional.
The patterns on the wall aren't just wallpaper as they are actually engraved.
I'm used to mansions like Shinji's house, but this is on a different level.
…It's embarrassing to say, but this is like a castle you'd read about in fairy tales.
"…!"
My mind almost falls unconscious.
My body is strangely heavy.
Is my blood circulating poorly? I feel like I'll fall asleep again if I let my guard down.
"――Umm… What happened?"
I try to remember with my hazy mind.
I… oh yeah, I was bound by Ilya and lost consciousness.
"…So I'm caught by Ilya, huh?"
No one is in the room.
My body feels heavy, but it seems I could at least raise my arm――
"Whoa, I'm tied up――!?"
My dazed mind instantly awakens.
Realizing the danger I'm in, I study my situation first.
"…I'm sitting in a chair and my hands are behind my back… handcuffs… no, they're just tied with rope."
I'm not in the worst condition, but it makes no difference to the fact that I cannot move.
My body is still numb, and I can't even get up with my hands tied.
"…How long has it been…? Clock… no, I don't see one as I expected."
There is no clock in the room.
The window is… behind me.
I turn around as much as I can, but the curtain is draped over it and I can't quite tell what's outside.
But the sun has already set outside.
I met Ilya in the morning, so that means at least half a day has passed.
"……"
I can't be doing this now.
I don't know where I am, but I have to go home to Saber as quickly as I can.
…Saber is weakening.
I can't trouble her by letting her know I've been kidnapped.
"Mn――!"
I pull at my hands.
Even if I am to run away, I have to do something about the rope tied behind my back first――
"…!?"
The door opens.
I release my power at the same moment as she walks in.
"Oh, you're finally awake! Good morning, Onii-chan. How are you feeling?"
Ilya is acting totally different from before.
Her cold eyes are gone and the Ilya before me is the white girl who was talking to me in that park the other day.
"Hm? What's wrong? You don't seem energetic. Does your body still not move? …That's odd, you should be able to talk by now."
She looks at me, tilting her head.
…It looks like she's just worried about me.
"…I'm fine. I can talk and my head's clear enough to know that I've been captured."
I glare at Ilya.
"What, are you dissatisfied? We usually put our captured enemies in the dungeon.
But I felt bad about doing that to you, so I brought you into my room as a special exception."
Ilya looks displeased.
I don't know if I should be thankful or not.
…But anyway, I'm starting to understand the situation I'm in.
"…I get the situation. I'm captured and this is your place, right?"
I say so sharply, killing my emotions.
As long as I don't know the full details of the situation, I should listen for now.
"That's right. I told you before that I live in a castle in the forest.
"This is a castle in a big forest, and there's nothing around here. It takes a few hours by car to get to the town you live in. Nobody will come to save you, nor will there be any nuisances."
"――I see.
I get that, but why did you do it?
If you wanted to kill me, you could have done so at the park."
"Why? I don't intend to kill you, Shirou. You're mine. I'll kill the other Masters, but you're special.
That's why I locked you up here, so there won't be any interruptions."
"――!"
I automatically lean back.
Ilya puts her face close to mine as if not caring about my feelings.
"H-Hey, Ilya…!"
I know it's indiscreet, but my heart's beating fast from the weight of Ilya on my legs.
Even though she's not heavy, she feels so alive that I can't think straight――
"Yeah, like I thought, Shirou is special.
…Hey, do you want to become my Servant? If you're going to be my Servant, I won't have to kill you. All you have to do is nod, and I can spare you."
She says so in a fawning voice.
This is nothing half-hearted.
Ilya's words are so pure that I won't be able to take it back if I nod.
…And if I do betray her, all her purity would probably turn into hatred.
With Ilya so close to me, my confused mind freezes.
This isn't just that she likes me.
Ilya's question is asking me if I want to live or die.
"You don't even need to think about it, right? You don't have Saber already. You don't have any way to fight.
So it'll be useless to stay as a Master now."
"――No. Saber hasn't disappeared yet. I won't let that happen."
"Oh yeah? But she'll be killed easily in her condition.
It's fine, you can just stay here. If you're going to stay here forever, I'll protect you forever too."
Ilya snuggles up to me.
I don't even have the freedom to push her away.
…I don't know what will happen if I disobey her.
But I still can't nod to Ilya's words.
"…I can't. Get off of me, Ilya. No matter what you say, I…"
Ilya puts her finger up to my mouth.
The girl smiles and looks up at my bewildered face.
"Geez, you don't get it, do you?
Look, you're just a bird in a cage right now. It's my decision if you live or not, so you shouldn't say anything to make me mad.
…I've waited for 10 years. It's too boring just to kill you here, right?"
"Wha――――?"
Her voice sounds like a girl who wants a toy.
I gasp, sensing a cruelty that sends a chill up my spine.
"This is your last chance, Onii-chan. I'll ask you one more time."
She looks up at me, full of hope.
"Shirou――be mine."
Ilya says so as if allowing no refusal.
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