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endgameinthenorth · 1 year

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What truly shocks me most is Greg's 180 shift around Tom. Gone are my doubts that Greg's merely putting up with Tom, not attracted to him or that Greg's actually straight. Amazingly, the more straight Greg tries to act the less I believe it.

I honest to God thought it would be more subtle in their shifted dynamics, but it's been a few months since the last episode and apparently Tom and Greg are occasionally out getting drinks together. Greg is being mentioned by Shiv like he's the other woman. Things have shifted more dramatically than I envisioned since we last saw them. I knew it was coming, it was teased in interviews that the power dynamic may be be shifting. Greg is going to be the one this season pushing Tom in the direction he wants.

We saw glimpses of it at the end of last season with Greg telling Tom to "prove it" when Tom said he fucks like a bullet train; Tom was out of his depth to respond. It was the most forthcoming and direct Greg had ever been in a scene. Almost like what he really wanted was shining through. We saw Greg casually call Tom, "Tommy" with a pat on the back just before he sold his soul to Tom. They seemed more at ease with one another, like Greg finally felt comfortable in his place at Tom's side.

And now the first thing we see of them this season is Greg greeting Tom by sliding up his body and in his personal space in every possible scene, whispering in his ear. He's more open, acting silly and smiling.

Bridget-Random-Fuck (who it sounds like didn't even make him cum) was just there by all appearances to get a jealous reaction out of Tom. She didn't have any status so it wasn't like he was climbing her on his way to a better conquest. She was another notch like the rest. So what's with all the posturing?

Last season, he speaks of falling head over heels for a woman and then has no true motivation and follow through. But he gushed to Tom all about her and got a visceral reaction out of him. Unfortunately Tom could not analyze his own emotions and deflected, stating Greg had ruined his mood but not knowing why.

In an interview with Nicholas Braun he hinted at Greg going to the "dark side" and how it was freeing for Greg to no longer feel restricted between what's right and wrong (gay dad causing you to repress?). By all appearances this so far has manifested as Greg being given permission to actually be more authentic with his feelings towards Tom. The women are just a necessary part and have an undercurrent of, "aren't I great - aren't you jealous?" He is in Tom's space, he wants Tom's approval. He wants Tom. He just needs to feel like he's allowed to... I imagine with the divorce eminent he feels closer to obtaining him. Perhaps Greg will be the unhinged one this season.

In season one when he asked if Tom was trying to seduce him and Tom said he was, that hair tuck bashful reaction? I don't think that was a coincidence — that was an intentional filming choice. Now I really truly see it.

#tomgreg #I'm spiraling #things will get more deranged #succession

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mrsquill · 7 months

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Ghost

Summary: Joel suffers a panic attack in Jackson after catching sight of a woman who looks like Sarah; something that both unsettles and comforts him in equal measure, and forces him to think about his choices. Based off the scene from the TLOU HBO show, episode 6.

Notes: Happy Birthday, Joel! My gift to him is putting him through pain, like always 🫶🏻 I have always wondered how that interaction in the show would affect him, so here it is. Special thanks to @tlouobsessed for sparking this idea and @macfrog for moral support 🤍

Warnings: Joel is sad. Mentions of death, blood and violence. Sorry if I forgot any! LMK 💘

Joel knew she wasn’t her. Of course he did. He felt it in his bones, the moment his vision focused as she turned around.

She wasn’t his baby girl, the one he held in the hospital on that blissful summer evening, thirty-four years ago. Seven pounds, eleven ounces. She wasn’t his daughter; soccer-mad and carefree, breeze blowing through her hair as she skipped off the porch, telling Joel she loved him in that teenage way she had.

She wasn’t Sarah, her body limp and still in his arms as he refused to let go, Tommy’s hand on his shoulder, telling him gently she’s gone, Joel. There’s nothin’ we can do.

The wave of panic passed; the clutches of dread around his heart subsiding. Joel was frightened. He couldn’t count how many times he’d lost control like that of late, fear bubbling over like a pot left to boil as he drew his jacket tighter around himself.

He wondered if it was his age; his life so ravaged by Cordyceps he would’ve forgotten his own goddamn birthday, if it hadn’t been so close to the day he lost Sarah, too. Twenty years, baby girl. It’s gone so fast.

Joel barely ever let himself dream, but he did then; Sarah, graduated, a lawyer or something. Big house, still in Austin, he’d hope. Kids of her own, if she wanted. Grandpa Joel. It wounded him so deeply, so viscerally, he was surprised nobody else in Jackson could see his blood dripping on the snow.

He knew she wasn’t her. He’d had one sliver of hope; a delusion, a thread so thin it snapped within seconds. Joel so desperately wanted to believe it was his daughter, to look into her eyes, hear her laughter. His Sarah, alive and standing there before him, singing Christmas songs like she always had done. He forgot sometimes that she’d been long dead; longer than she’d ever been alive.

He wondered if Tommy knew the woman he saw, if he’d ever thought the same, the striking resemblance catching him off guard. Joel chewed over the thought of his younger brother. Tommy, having a kid of his own.

He allowed himself to sink helplessly into self-pity as he walked away from the festive cheer, slush leaking through the holes in his boots.

The universe was laughing at him, surely, with the cruelty of it all. His brother tells him he’s gonna be a father, and Joel is confronted with his jealousy in physical form; the ghost of the girl who gave that role to him first.

Tommy’s words rattled around his head as ice wind whipped through him, footsteps trudging up the street. Just ‘cuz life stopped for you, doesn’t mean it has to stop for me. Joel found himself wanting to weep for the first time in years, the injustice of it all pricking his eyes incessantly.

He saw Sarah everywhere. In the vibrant deep orange of every sunset, in the innocence of the morning dew. Every butterfly that would hang around him on his trips through the forests with Tess, he knew it was her. Keeping him safe, letting him know she was with him, one step behind.

And then.. Ellie. Ellie, so far removed from Sarah but nudging into his heart all the same. Ellie. She’d killed for him, and he’d killed for her. Joel was scared of it; the scars that had taken two decades to try and heal over were bursting open again, emotions he didn’t recognise flowing freely from the wound. He knew in the depths of his heart he had the capacity to love her. But he couldn’t keep her safe; his strength had deserted him.

Joel had been so fucking sure her immunity wasn’t real. It couldn’t be. Ellie was just some kid, riding out her humanity for a little longer than most. That first night, he was so sure she’d twitch, start to convulse. A gunshot and it’d all have been over.

But Tess convinced him, and for Tess he’d stayed. How had that worked out for him? He’d lost his partner; the only person who’d remained constant at his side since the world fell to pieces. Joel had failed Tess, in spectacular style.

Tommy was only alive because he’d had the sense to ditch Joel. He wasn’t as razor sharp, as ruthless as he had been. He’d neglected the pain in his back since he’d hit forty, and the hearing in his right ear was never coming back. He was so fucking slow, his hunting abilities ruined beyond repair.

Ellie was next to die, he knew it. It had to be Tommy; Joel would have to ask him. Take her. The thought made him choke; reprimanding himself for growing so damn attached. It had to be done. No more blood on his hands, small bodies in his embrace.

Joel reached the street they’d be staying on. Untouched since ‘03, his brother said. He thought about who had lived here, how they’d died. He wondered if whatever ran through Ellie’s veins could be the solution, and how he couldn’t be the one to take her there. Her purpose was far more greater than his; this is where they parted ways.

Joel’s mind strayed to Sarah again, what she’d think of him, of Ellie, of the journey they’d gone on together. In his mind’s eye he could see them together, Sarah forever fourteen to him. Ellie would make her laugh, of course she would.

He cast his eyes skyward, dusk stretching over the mountain tops. I miss you, baby girl. God, I miss you so much. You’d love it here. Ellie had filled the dark void in Joel’s life like she’d been born to do it; her never-ending questions, jokes at his expense, seeing the world for the first time with wide, curious eyes. He wasn’t ready to give that up again. But he’d have to, for the hope of a better world. For Ellie. For Sarah.

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zeephyre · 10 months

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CR3 EPISODE 65 SPOILERS HOLY FUCK

IMOGEN AND LAUDNA KISSED?!!?!-72828_ LAURA BAILEY ALMOST GAVE ME A FUCKING HEART ATTACK LIKE OBVIOUSLY I COULD SENSE THE TENSION BETWEEN THEM THE WHOLE EPISODE AND I KNEW THAT AFTER SEPARATING THEIR RELATIONSHIP WOULD SHIFT BUT I WASN'T EXCEPTING THEM TO ACTUALLY KISS TONIGHT???#?1)£ I LITERALLY YELPED IN TERROR I THOUGHT I WAS HALLUCINATING IM SO GIDDY RIGHT NOW

god chetney totally clocked them, it's so funny bc they were NAWT subtle -- also, patê low-key exposing them and laudna very subtly (not) changing the subject... chef's kiss.

this episode????? was so good??? i am so happy that my hellians are back together??? i can barely focus rn so I'll try to remember all the good bits (which was the whole episode).

fcg and ashton -- im really glad ash specifically told fcg to hold onto the feelings they have for frida to give them smth to come home to, bc he's brought up how self destructive fcg can get bc they don't consider themself important. it was a very cute moment, and i almost cried bc i love ashton and... idk. he's not coping.

ashton gave me very manic energy this episode. a lot of emotional distress disguised as an epiphany, but that moment of them telling fcg that they can't afford to be useless explained every second of flustered panic.

(not to be that person but i uh...i am starting to ship milo and ashton. i liked it before but now i REALLY like it).

i need to know wtf talie and matt have cooked up those little bastards.

chetney getting caught in a trap almost immediately after ajit warned them to be careful or whatever was pretty funny. the whole time that was going down i kept thinking, "the world is ending. we have better shit to be thinking abt than this fr," and not in a bad way. it's just ??? bro who cares who hired you, we are BUSY. i knew chetney attacking that shop keeper was gonna bite him in the ass, and it honestly was hilarious.

i know it was just casual and also sort of a trick, but i loved fearne giving chet a little kiss. they are so real to me y'all don't understand.

i have a very complicated relationship with the matron, bc i love her aesthetic, love her vibe (tho i hate birds, but i love a raven motif), and i also will never forgive her for taking my skrunkly wunkle away from me. that shared vision between orym, chet and fearne was... fucking amazing. matt outdid himself this episode fr. it's probably one of my favourite scenes of this whole campaign.

speaking of which... VAX SCREAMING???? HE'S IN PAIN????????? LET MY BABY GIRL OUT????? I STARTED FUCKING BAWLING NO JOKE. The imagery was so visceral i felt sick to my stomach and i just started tearing up. ludinus your days are fucking numbered.

SPEAKING OF THAT WHITE HAIRED OLD BITCH. HE'S ON THE FAWKING MOON WITH LILIANA???? IRA IS ALSO ON THE MOON???? WITH A REILORA???? AND WE'RE DEFINITELY GOING TO THE MOON AT SOME POINT??????? I LOVE THIS CAMPAIGN RAHAHWHSHJSJ

:( still no caleb safety confirmation but i think he's fine guys what could have possibly gone wrong /s.

we're in zephrah 🥺 i knew the episode was about to end, and it was so damn beautiful, but i can't wait until thursday. we're gonna see kiki. we have to tell her abt vax, but i also don't want her to know that he's suffering.

is it thursday yet :(

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chat-rouge-et-bleu · 5 months

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i may have just spent a rather long while discussing the hollow and levis ending but i would like to make a more general review of the show scavengers reign. i chose to watch it because of a screenshot of a landscape scene i saw floating around on here and honestly screenshots don't do it justice. i don't think i have ever watched a show that has made me so physically uncomfortable and produce such a visceral reaction. multiple points throughout watching i found myself flinching and feeling sick and genuinely upset and that is amazing. somehow this animation managed to creep me out more than any live action i can think of.

my point being that this show managed to completely immerse me in the world and fully believe in the ecosystems i was being allowed to witness unfold. some of the creatures scared me, some made me laugh but every one i cared for in some way, was excited to be introduced to and often times truly upset to see hurt or have the narrative move away from

in terms of the characters, they were thought out and had strong motivation, they interacted believably and reacted to situations in ways that made sense and felt satisfying. their injuries were bad when they happened and the show didn't allow characters to survive situations simply because they wore plot armour but because of their intelligence. some of them died and there are strong implications that many of the other lost crew of the demeter *have* died and we are left to watch the few strong enough and smart enough to live to the point at which we join them. and even though one character that died came back, she came back in a way that was beautiful, thematically fitting and i didn't feel i was watching a contrived resurrection for emotional impact, i simply was emotionally impacted.

in short, go watch this show, have an awful time and witness some terrible imagery and then cry that a robot just got reanimated by bugs and then you'll understand how good it is

#scavengers reign #sr #scavengers reign spoilers

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beevean · 4 months

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Really enjoy reading your analyses of Netflixvania. Makes me feel like I'm not crazy for disliking the series, since it seems most people really like it. I'm not a huge Castlevania fan (I wasn't even aware of any Castlevania manga until I read your posts), but the fight with Dracula at the end of season 2 just felt really off to me. Like every single character came out of it ten times worse than when they started. So I'm curious, what do you think of how Dracula was defeated?

I'm glad you liked it! <3 And I completely understand. The show gets praised to high heavens from everyone, and while I can dismiss the occasional "god i want to smother myself in alucard's tiddies" post, the long articles gushing about the stellar animation and carefully woven characters leave me more at loss... And like I said, it's not even a matter of being a fan of the games, the writing itself is seriously flawed.

Anyway, the Dracula sequence has me conflicted.

Pros:

Dracula is appropriately shown to be an absolute beast in combat. Three against one can barely scratch the guy. And Godbrand says in an earlier episode that Dracula hasn't been feeding regularly, meaning he's also in a weakened state. It is, in theory, viscerally satisfying to see.

The animation finally reaches the standards that the general praise attributes to it. That is to say, it's really fucking cool. I appreciated the focus given to his giant Hellfire attack, since it's his most iconic one (although I don't think it should be touched with anything, but eh)

The "my boy" sequence is the most heartwrenching scene in the show, both because it's simply well written, because I like the poetry that a monster like Dracula can only be put down by his own human emotions, and because Graham McTavish's back must have hurt so bad, carrying the show like that. Seriously, he's leagues above every other voice actor.

Cons:

Dracula being an absolute beast only makes me angrier in retrospect because the rest of S2 painted him as a Depressed Old Man™ slumping in his chair and being too Tired to properly supervise the war he started. "Carmilla has made her move" no shit you absolute dumbass, you and your lackey Isaac allowed her to do so! You were aware that she was dangerous and you didn't care!! Where were you all this time!!!

(and don't give me "well drac doesn't lift his own ass until the very last possible moment in the games either, it's lore accurate". that is a sign of arrogance and power. like drac doesn't need to lift a finger to stop intruders in their tracks, his legions of hell can do all the work. only if you actually, physically reach him, then he starts to fight. In the show he was so apathetic, that I almost lowkey agree with Carmilla's frustrations... and that's the point. It was artificial conflict for the sake of propping this OC.)

Dracula no-selling every attack paints the heroes as weak. Especially Trevor, who after making such a scene of the Morning Star in a previous episode can only piss him off with it.

Trevor punching Dracula, and him recognizing him as a Belmont because of that. The sheer lack of respect towards Trevor as a character and the source material cannot be contained :^)

(and this is minor, but I don't like how Sypha is the one getting scarred by the encounter. Alucard also got scarred by his father way back at the beginning, as he loves to flaunt. Meaning, Trevor is the only one who wasn't impacted by him, which boggles my mind - the scars that game Trevor has on his face and chest aren't there for show! They mark him as the Legendary Belmont who first survived against the Dark Lord! Why do y'all hate this guy so much?)

Alucard steals the entire glory. In a vacuum, it makes sense because they have the closest, most interesting relationship. Lore wise, this should have been Trevor's moment and once again he gets deprived of it. The Belmonts just don't have a legacy in the show.

Overall, For Love is a very well written emotional payoff to a huge waste of time. I don't care that Alucard is setting to kill his father because we barely know how he feels about that. I don't care that Trevor is finally about to fulfill his own legacy because the show kept spitting on it. Sypha is just there to be OP I guess. Their entire "arc" in S2 was them getting cooped up in the Belmont Hold, and Alucard and Sypha having fun being the biggest dicks to Trevor. They didn't even train! The most they did was to conveniently find that the castle uses an engine to move.

dracula doesn't even turn into anything :< where's my giant goat/bat monster form :<

... so I have more negatives than positives lmao. I agree with your general assertion that everyone looks worse than they should. However, there are genuine aspects to praise. I guess the scene is beautiful if you're a fan of Dracula and Alucard, and really disappointing if you're a fan of Trevor :P

#anti netflixvania #also yay i'm very happy that you learned about the existence of the cod mangas <3

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an-abyss-of-stars · 1 year

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It's Visceral And It's Cruel: Possible Moment

Summary: Rhaena kissed Aemond earlier in the day, and this horny boy just can't stop thinking about it. Laying in bed replaying the moment, wishing he'd done more...a LOT more.

Warnings: Smut, just smutty smut for the point of smut!

P.S: This scene was just an idea i had floating around in my head for the actual fic I'm currently writing, which shares the same name "It's Visceral And It's Cruel". So consider this is a possible canon moment that MAY happen in that fic eventually!

Aemond had been lying awake in bed for nearly two hours now. His mind drowning in a whirlwind of emotions. Rhaena Targaryen plaguing him like no other ever had. It was torture, pure unadulterated torture. For, now, he knew exactly what he'd been missing.

It was infuriating in a way, all those waking hours spent fantasizing about how her lips would feel. And now that he'd experienced the real thing.

To be fair had kissed her before, two brief but heated moments nonetheless. She’d made them chaste affairs as if she felt guilty about her burgeoning feelings for him. But this most recent encounter. He was unwilling to let her escape him so easily, he had kept her locked against his hard body. He'd tasted her warm pliable mouth, his tongue lapping with hers in possessive heat. It hadn't lasted nearly long enough

And even after she’d left him panting and wanting for her, he still couldn’t help but realize his imagination had severely underestimated her. With just how incredibly plush her lips were, the way her soft body had slotted against his perfectly. That intoxicating lavender scent that followed her everywhere had become imprinted in his memory…and his clothes. Oh, how he still ached at the thought of her.

But now after the fact here he was mentally kicking himself for not doing more. For not groping her while he'd had the chance.

In all honesty, he'd squandered the perfect opportunity.

Gripping his sheets with a violent fury, wishing he had lifted her up against him and felt every inch of her. He should've carried her over to the chaise where he could undo the confines of her dress and reveal more of her silky smooth tawny skin. For he was so desperate to see her bared to him, to feel her writhe against him.

Groaning through his gritted teeth, he could see it so clearly. Tearing off her skirts so he could delve between thighs, draw her to the edge of insanity. Force her perfect court persona to fracture and tear as she screamed in pleasure for him and only him. He wanted to hear his name on her tongue as she moaned wantonly for him in the throws of passion.

He’d do more than simply fuck her, he could show her passion. Fucking was an art and he was certain he'd never felt more passionate then when he thought about fucking her.

He wanted to possess her, claim her, take her for his own. It was beyond unbearable now.

With gritted teeth, Aemond didn't need to glance down to know he felt impossibly hard. His cock tenting the black silk sheets that surrounded him. He might've tried to will his brain to stop thinking of her, eliminate the images and rest for once.

But somewhere over time, over the several moons she and her family had stayed here at the Keep…this had grown to become an impossible feat. His mind would never silence with it’s insistent thoughts of her.

A groan escaped him as he leaned his head back against the warmth of his pillow, his body was burning, sweat beading on his forehead. He hadn’t lifted a finger but he was on fire.

Aemond no longer wished to relieve himself in another poor excuse for a substitute, having dragged himself, annoyingly so, to the Street Of Silk on one too many occasions. Only to spill himself upon the back of some whore, someone he could imagine was the woman he craved. To then leave the experience disheartened and only half quenched and still wholly unsatisfied. And he was certainly tired of relieving himself with his own hand. For it no longer seemed to quiet his want or need for her.

Another groan ripped through his throat.

She should be the one to relieve him.

She was the obvious balm to his burning desires.

Rhaena Targaryen.

Just at the thought of her name, all he could picture was her beautiful face. Her lovely warm mouth lowering over his thick needy cock, taking him in full. An image that shifted to her sitting above him, her heavenly curvy body bare to him as she sunk herself down, her dripping wanting cunt taking in the large throbbing length of him. Slowly but surely she'd take him, all of him, he'd make sure of it.

Oh, how he'd shivered with want just at the thought.

Aemond wanted all of her, every inch of her, his to claim and take. He wanted to spill his seed within her and see her swollen with his child inside of her. He no longer cared who approved of their coupling, he just wanted Rhaena all to himself. He wanted to be able to refer to her as his, he wanted her to be his woman, his wife, his...all his. He never wanted to have to share her again.

Oh the Seven were cruel, how he could feel her so vividly in his mind, see her, hear her...only to face the reality that she was not here with him.

His groaning had paved way to an annoyed growl. His cock was weeping the more he thought of her and with that he knew he couldn't wait any longer.

Aemond was a man of action. He was a dragon. And if his uncle's words were to be believed, dragons take what they want.

He wanted Rhaena, so he would have her.

Smut is not my forte but i hope to get better at it. If anyone liked this, I have more! This is only the first quarter of the VERY LONG scene I wrote. I might post some more of it in between my actual updates to my main fic!

#rhaena x aemond #aemond x rhaena #rhaena targaryen #aemond targaryen #hotd fanfic #hotd fic #rhaemond #aemond smut

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sitp-recs · 4 months

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HP Rec Fest, Day 17

It’s sad hours at @hprecfest! Or is it 😏 I trust there will be enough heartbreaking recs to keep us occupied this Christmas and I’m curious to see everyone’s picks, but I’ve struggled a bit with today’s prompt because I rarely cry with fic. For some reason it’s easier to make me cry with a happy yet tenderly devastating ending (hello Far From the Tree, ty for forever ruining me 🥹) than with a tradicional h/c or MCD tag. Taking my personal experience into account, I’ve decided that it made more sense to rec happy fics that got me so emotional I had to take a break and have a little cry, instead of unhappy fics that left me miserable and in pain. I hope that’s okay and that my choice to go for “tears of joy” will still resonate with others!

Day 17) a fic that made me cry:

Drarry

Life goes not backward by @shealwaysreads (T, 9k)

Harry still isn’t used to gifts, but this one is different. A story of coming home, finding safe ground, and the wild courage of putting down roots. Leaving one life behind isn’t always a sacrifice, and sometimes the greatest good comes from embracing the people you love.

one of my go-to comfort reads, the nut baby fic (affectionate) holds a special place in my heart. I was going through a rough time when I first read it and the experience was as magical as the fae magic in it. this is a tender and beautiful portrayal of mature, patient, healing love; Harry and Draco share so much trust and mutual understanding it’s impossible not to feel moved by their journey. there’s intimacy and affection every step of the way and somehow Bella was able to tell the love story of a lifetime within 10k and without ever making it feel rushed, boring or forced. the moment they name the 🥜 baby will stay forever imprinted in my mind as one of the most poignant and beautiful scenes I’ve ever read in fic 🥹

Rare pair

Black Forest by @ruinsplume and @saintgarbanzo (Sirius/Harry/Remus, E, 12k)

In which Harry has a nightmare (or says he does), Remus wants no part in this (until he does), and Sirius enjoys being the most functional person in the room (for once).

okay so I lied because a very small portion of the tears I shed with this story were actually joyful; most of it was angsty af, full of grief and sorrow and love for Harry. I don’t normally read this triad and the hot tenderness of it felt like a punch to the solar plexus; I went for the smutty smut and stayed for the catharsis (a trademark of both authors I should say) and it was brutal, unexpected and satisfying all at once. Harry’s broken pov is visceral and heart-wrenching and beautifully constructed, but beyond all the hurt there’s so much comfort in knowing that Sirius and (eventually) Remus figure out exactly what he needs *cries* i just want Harry to feel seen, safe and loved and few fics convinced me that’s what he got. this is one of them. I am a slut for fics that convey complex, nuanced character studies through (hothothot) smut and this fic does it brilliantly, it’s so cathartic and moving. healing sex doesn’t get any better than this!

#hprecfest2023 #day 17 #a fic that made me cry

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bm-blog01 · 11 months

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Why Kanthony is Loved: Identifying

In the final instalment looking at all the reasons that Kanthony is loved the theme is identifying. Many eldest children, those that had suffered trauma, and those that had been parentified said that they identified with these aspects of Kate and Anthony.

However, from all the comments I received there was one that was so personal, and so emotional that I have decided to reproduce it in full below with the permission of the writer.

"I am in love with Kanthony for a lot of reasons. As other commenters may have said, when season 1 finished and I heard the next season was gonna follow Anthony's love journey, I was NOT here for it. I even debated whether or not to watch his season. But when the trailers dropped and I saw Simone was in it I got excited and decided to watch, going in still really disliking his character (not in a badly written character way, in a dislike for this actual person way). I'd heard book readers say they were really excited for his season, and I just didn't understand why (not read the books) so I wasn't expecting my mind to be changed. Little did I know that I was going to go on an enemies to lovers journey myself.

The thing that hooked me about both characters is that I saw myself so much in both of them. I'm an eldest daughter, with half-siblings, and was parentified from my pre-teen years without a father figure around. So I felt really called out by the show. Everything that other characters found annoying and maddening about Kate and Anthony was something I could see in myself (and I didn't like it). I didn't even need to try to empathise with them because I was them, and I felt like I understood their choices in the scenarios they found themselves in.

I immediately recognised their desires, fears, misbeliefs, and flaws so I felt like I was going through the story with them. I knew they would never voluntarily choose their own happiness with all the obstacles they put in their own way and without being called out. So the whole season just felt like a vicarious uphill climb and whenever there was added tension it felt physically unbearable to me.

The whole sibling thing... Surface Pressure from Encanto comes to mind. "Under the surface, I'm pretty sure I'm worthless if I can't be of service" "Who am I if I can't carry it all" "Give it to your sister, it doesn't hurt and see if she can handle every family burden, watch as she buckles and bends but never breaks" - I could basically quote the whole damn song for summing up the feelings and fears.

Of course I really have to give it up for both actors and their on screen chemistry. Every look, every movement, every breath was so believable. It was a truly natural performance (even the unnatural parts where they were obviously lying to themselves). It was in their eyes, micro facial expression, and timing. Every time I rewatched a scene I noticed so many new things. It was so human, it was so visceral - I felt like I was experiencing every emotion.

I became a true Kanthony stan/addict around a month ago, after a recent rewatch. I had also spent a long time pining and yearning for someone, to the point where it felt all consuming but I was being so stubborn and unwilling to be honest with myself/others. I was yearning on my first watch too, but this time the internal angst had reached a new level as I had had a significant 'aha' moment since the previous watch but somehow thought I could will it to pass. Knowing how much I; laugh in their presence, love fighting with them, want to touch their hand, want to smell them, dream of them, feel like my heart is pounding out of my chest whenever I become aware of them being near, and literally lose my breath if I look at them for longer than a quick glance. But the habit of not being 'allowed' to be 'selfish' had been too strong, afraid of hurting others, believing that your wants aren't important enough, so not wanting to be too close to them in case you reveal your feelings and they don't reciprocate, and hence the constant running away.

It was so satisfying (and kinda bittersweet) to see it all play out between Kanthony again and to literally see myself in every scene, see the potential future, being so happy and giddy for them, and know deep down that I was denying myself that same happiness. The whole season felt like a personal lesson to me that time. And the story/message the showrunners were telling was something that I felt was inevitable, but it also felt impossible for me. So I found myself obsessively rewatching every scene with my stomach in knots, looking for clues/signs to reconfirm what I already knew. I have never watched a show/movie so many times and I still haven't got tired of it yet. I still get mad at them like it's the first time watching those frustrating scenes.

It might sound silly to some but it really made me rethink my life and make strained steps to come out of my comfort zone. I've been talking to my person more and more (literally spent 5+ hours talking to them just in one day earlier this week) and I've stopped trying to run away. At this point they've admitted their feelings multiple times without actually saying those 3 words. So I just have to tell my Edwina the truth, and then I can do my Featherington Ball confession (I'm working on it lol the internal conflict is still extreme).

I recently got the audio book, so soon I'll know more about Book Kanthony. But Show Kanthony held a mirror up to each other, and then they held one up to me. They just kept giving me more 'aha' moments, and this time I couldn't ignore it."

On that note, I say thank you very much to the person who shared so much of themselves to say why they love Kanthony.

NB: Because this is someone else's story, and their words I am not going to enable the ability to reblog.

#Kanthony #bridgerton season 2 #Kate Sharma #Anthony Bridgerton

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I truly don't know where to begin.

So many things happened in this episode. So many feelings. Anger, Joy, Grief, Relief etc. Can't pinpoint a single thing at the moment. Still riding the emotions but I have to put it all here before it gets all jumbled out. I have to say Thank you to Fort and Peat for bringing the absolute best to the screen and giving life to Prapai and Sky and the relationship that is Prapaisky. It's been a real journey to watch their story unfold. They truly gave their all and nobody could have done it better. 🥹🥹

Now talking about the name that shall not be mentioned. HE DESERVES EVERYTHING WORSE THAT P'CHAI WILL BRING UPON HIM. I have never felt this visceral anger over a character. Everything about him gave me the absolute creeps. And every time he said Sky's name I was screaming at him to stop. He is a fucking monster and I want him to suffer for eternity in the deepest depths of hell.

The scene between Pai and Sky in the condo made me cry like UGLY CRY ON CRYING. God I have no words to describe how I feel. The way Pai handled the situation and Shouting at Sky to "Answer him" as a way to get him out of the space that Sky was trapped in, to begging Sky to feel something anything to cry I was beyond speechless. Pai crying for Sky. Feeling Sky's pain being there for Sky in every way he could, meant so much to me.

And later on at Pai's house when Sky said "I am a trash, I am damaged goods" I fully broke down. Every word felt like a stab to my soul that I need a week or more to recover from. And when Pai said " I won't make any promises, I won't make any vows but I will prove through my actions" I was laughing through my tears because this is it. This is what everyone wants because it's easier to make promises but so much harder to keep those promises through actions.

The strength in Sky being able to smile and open up after everything that happened is only something I can hope I have a smidge of. Sky my sweet sweet child you are the brightest soul the Galaxy has ever bestowed upon.

The sweet moments in between felt like a Balm to my already heavily wounded soul. It was everything I wanted and more. Thank you Prapai for loving My Sky with everything that you are.

Can't wait to see the special episode

#love in the air #prapaisky #prapai x sky #fortpeat #fort thitipong #lita cast #lita #lita spoilers #lita ep13

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was anybody else a teenager when Brokeback Mountain came out? god that movie's journey was an exhilarating and terrifying experience for me as a gay kid. i was 14 when it was released. it might as well have been the First Gay Movie Ever. i was obsessed with tracking its progress, from Focus Features optioning the script to Heath and Jake being cast, all the way through to the Oscars. i taped and rewatched the Logo promo special on it dozens of times as well as the Oprah special, and hid the tapes under my bed. i watched every single major awards show. i read commentators opining in award show editorials that the movie wasn't good and the only reason it was getting attention was because it was about gay cowboys. i swelled with pride and a bone-deep gratitude listening to Heath talk about the film and his character. that recent quote that goes around now from Jake reflecting that Heath wouldn't allow people to make fun of it or demean it in any way - I love to see it because he really was so bold and clear about it that I realized it even at 14 years old. he felt like a protector to me.

i realize now i was using it as a barometer to gauge the homophobia around me. i listened in like a fly on the wall whenever people around me talked about it. it was always jokingly and sometimes cruelly. there was a period of time at my school where boys were printing out the promo poster, cutting out photos of other classmates and pasting them onto Heath and Jake's face and then sticking them to lockers. the first time i saw one i was walking down the stairs and glanced up and saw it posted on a bulletin board. it felt like a slap to the face, completely out of nowhere. without even thinking i went from seeing it one fraction of a second to ripping it off the wall the next, and i balled it up and threw it in the trash. i did that with every one I saw (covertly, making a mental note of them during the day and using bathroom trips during classes to take them down).

when i went to see it in theaters (after school i bought a ticket for another movie bc i was underage and then slipped into the theater quietly) i was one of five people in the audience. two of them (a couple) ended up walking out after the sex scene. for the entire duration of the screening this teenage boy showed up every twenty-or-so minutes to pull the heavy entrance door open and then shove it shut, creating a huge cacophonous bang that scared me senseless the first time it happened. i was absolutely bowled over by the sex scene. i was bowled over by the intimacy of every scene between them. i didn't contextualize it at the time but it was because i had never, ever seen a piece of media that imbued a portrayal of affection, love, and desire between men with such sincerity and humanity. i swear it rewired my brain. i later bought the dvd from a knock-off dvd seller on the street in Manhattan for four dollars and hid that as well.

when Heath Ledger died i cried for two days straight, which I tried to hide unsuccessfully. for some reason the fact that I was crying over him made my step dad very angry and he harassed me about it and complained to my mom all day. i didn't pay any attention to him and continued to grieve the loss of someone that, as a kid, i felt had directly acknowledged my struggle with the shame and fear caused by my homosexuality, and facilitated bringing my identity into focus in a caring and deeply thoughtful way. brokeback mountain was an extraordinary experience for me because on one hand, it pulled out the ugliness and hate that existed in my environment, but on the other, it gifted me my first real feeling of being seen and understood. the memory of that experience is so strong and visceral to me still that I'm not able to watch the movie anymore without triggering waves of intense emotions, and because that overwhelms me, I don't watch the movie anymore. but i have so much affection for it. i am filled with affection for it.

#brokeback mountain #yo mismo #heath ledger

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coconutcordiale · 1 year

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Alright alright alright y'all I saw Devotion

This is not a glowing review of Glen nor this movie so if you don’t want to read that feel free to scroll.

I haven’t read the book, though the movie made me really want to! So that’s a positive for sure.

Also I know nothing about the Navy. Spoilers below the cut.

Disclaimer: I’m generally very critical of movies / tv, even ones I like, despite having zero real cinematic knowledge lol. My dad’s a producer so he and I love to pick apart movies and that habit has definitely made me hypercritical (as a frame of reference I have issues with TGM and New Girl too, two all time faves) so take my negative Nancy shit with a grain of salt please.

Things I liked in no particular order:

Jesse and Tom running the checklist just before Jesse crashes into the clearing

Every scene Christina Jackson was in - she was amazing

When the junior (I assume) sailors come out to watch Jesse’s carrier qualification - thought the reactions of the squadron were really interesting in this and overall a super emotional scene

The aerial scene in the beginning where Tom & Jesse fly by the lighthouse

Jonathan Majors. JONATHAN MAJORS, holy shit. He wowed me. Some scenes made me SO uncomfortable and I mean that in a good way (like him reciting things in the mirror) because he delivered them so viscerally without overplaying the character. His performance was incredibly balanced and overall outstanding imo. If it weren’t for him I likely would’ve hated this movie (sorry Glen)

The scene where the squadron is taking their flight gear before the funeral flight, thought this was cut beautifully with Daisy getting the news of Jesse's death

Glen’s my babygirl. He looks gorgeous in this movie. His facial expressions were generally great throughout. The first half of the movie I enjoyed him mostly (pretty much everything pre-Cannes). That’s kind of where my compliments end for him 🫣 I do not think this was his best performance by a long shot. Most of his line delivery fell flat for me.

That could’ve been because Jonathan Majors steals nearly every scene he’s in. It also could've been the writing, a lot of the dialogue felt very stilted and awkward, especially in emotionally heavy scenes on the carrier.

As a Glen fan, thought it was cute the girl Tom kissed in France was Gigi but most of the Cannes stuff was completely unnecessary. On the positive side there, the dynamic between Glen/Jonathan I thought was fairly likeable in the outdoor bar scene.

Joe Jonas was alright, my expectations were basically on the floor for him so he exceeded that, yay. There were scenes where I liked the CO and found his character engaging and then there were a couple towards the end where I thought he was awkward. I have nothing to say about the rest of the squadron, didn't dislike them or find them memorable.

My biggest gripe is that the pacing of this movie was ridiculous - it felt WAY longer than 2.3 hours. By the end I was beyond ready for it to be over. I probably would never be able to sit through this movie from beginning to end again which is unfortunate. The real bulk of the story is at the end but by the time it came around I was mentally done with the movie and thought a lot of the performances (especially glen’s) towards the end didn’t land. The timing of everything felt really off and although I thought the actor’s performances were generally stronger in the beginning, things took so long to get going that by the end I somewhat checked out.

Overall, loved Jonathan Majors and Christina Jackson. Adored their performances. Felt mostly neutral about everyone else. Extremely negative about the pacing.

Also I still think the world of Glen!!!! I completely understand how easy it is for me to criticize vs the constraints they actually worked with in making this! Sorry don't hate me for this :(

@wombtotombx & @fuckyeahhangman

#devotion #edited to clarify my thoughts because I reread it and realized what I was saying didn’t make sense

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just finished ch 7 and it’s 3am so my thoughts may not be intelligible But i just have to mention that with every new chapter (especially as things are picking up), i am just more and more amazed and impressed by the fact that all three of you are writing this story.

it was really clear to me from the beginning that you guys were super great with being cohesive, seamless, etc. between chapters despite having multiple authors. nothing’s ever felt disjointed or drastically different which is a feat in itself.

but i think what’s really been on my mind recently, especially with chapter six and chapter seven in mind, is that there’s actually SO much depth added from this being a collaboration.

i don’t want to assume anything of course, (all my knowledge comes from a little over a year and for one fandom so it’s small in scope) but the more i think about it, the more i’m just beyond impressed at how the events of each chapter seem to pair so well with their respective authors.

i don’t know if this makes any sense at all so i’m sorry if it doesn’t but. i guess i just mean that the range of emotions and experiences are just broadened so much by the “dividing and conquering” aspect. maybe i’m going insane i don’t know but?? there’s something about the stargazing, makeshift-sleeping-bag-cuddling, practical introspection at war with yearning, vibes of chapter seven that just has suni written all over it. and then to go back to chapter six with the excitement of the camp games, the thrill of the competition, the type of bright summer day that’s so visceral you might as well be there yourself just from reading about it?? andi 100%.

(and the same could be said for every chapter with all three of you it’s just that the most recent two have been set during very specific events haha)

again i am sorry if this does not make sense but i’m just trying to say that i can’t think of a more effective way to execute a collaboration; it’s cohesive and unified but you guys are all playing to your strengths so well. common girldummy w

hello!!!!! sorry for taking One Million Years to get to this ask but i wanted to answer this when i fully had the energy to respond to the whole thing bc it’s soooooooo thoughtful HELLO.

first of all i’m so happy you enjoyed! the response to ch07 has been amazing and seeing how much everyone has been loving wilderness week has been so nice, especially because it was such a change from the usual camp setting!!

SECOND, and the part of this ask that i have been rereading and fawning over ever since it came in, i loveeeee that observation so much 😭 i definitely definitely agree, and i hadn’t specifically thought of it this way before but you’re so right! i think it’s partially because we ended up with chapters that each of us had come up with a key idea/central scene for, so it makes sense that they would slowly start to incorporate tropes that each one of us is partial to! there’s a chapter coming up that has andi written allllllll over it lol and not to spoil ch09 (thea’s baby, as we all know) but from start to finish it is the epitome of Thea Wiseatom fr. collaborating is super cool because between three people, there’s usually always a fresh perspective/new way to write something so that it doesn’t get repetitive like it might with just the singular author’s pov, and i’m giggling and twirling my hair thinking about how our styles have been distinct enough for you to notice! genuinely one of my favorite type of comments to get so thank you!!

#again sorry we are taking a million years to clear out the ch07 asks #ask box should be open by the end of the day probs #asks #ch07 #THIS WAS SO SWEET #😭😭😭

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[LONGPOST] I just finished... Final Fantasy VII: Rebirth

I wanna write down all my thoughts before I delve into more in-depth online opinions. I'm writing this on the same day as having done the last two chapters of the game, so I may have not had time to process the story completely. However, I've been playing this game for the entire month and I got a lot to say. Obvious spoilers ahead, but I'll still try to keep some things vague enough.

Okay Square Enix, you win, I'll use photo mode

Graphics in video games are like how attractive a dessert looks, it doesn't dictate how it will taste, but it makes you want to try it. Rebirth feels like one of those games that is finally showing what the PS5 is capable of, with environments extremely rich in detail, superb lightning that's both colorful and conveys the right emotion for each scene, this is the prettiest Final Fantasy has ever looked, even compared to 16 which had some optimization issues and dull lightning in some areas, specially towards endgame. No single location in Rebirth feels half-baked, what used to be single screens and flat textures in the original have been completely re-imagined to have their own identity. I will talk about more about the open environments when I talk about gameplay and exploration.

Reliving the moments: Going above and beyond

The cutscene direction for this game is absolutely phenomenal, I love that they have amped up the campiness of the original 7, while also being faithful to the serious and emotional moments. What shines even more in Remake is the excellent writing when it comes to the characters, their performances are full of charisma, and it made it clear to me why the cast of seven ended up becoming so iconic to gaming as a whole. Every scene with these characters interacting, no matter if it was the dullest of sidequests, made everything entertaining. But the best part of Rebirth, like its predecessor, it's when it brings back the iconic moments we all wanted to see. The Junon Parade, Costa del Sol, Red XIII and Cosmo Canyon, Barret and Corel, and many more of these moments have barely altered from how they happened originally, reliving these moments feels like watching a high production TV Series based on a book you loved as a kid. If you love the original FFVII but have no intentions of playing the remake due to how things change, I at least recommend you look up the scenes that do stay faithful.

Some things left me wanting

Still, Rebirth only covers up to the end of Disc 1 section of the story, and has some blatant teases from trailers and the game itself that left me wanting. The Planet's weapons are mentioned and different versions appear, but there's no Diamond or Ruby weapon superboss yet. Both Cid and Vincent make their debuts near the final chapters, but are not playable for now, which left me a little disappointed. And this lets me segway perfectly into the other best part of Rebirth...

Can I just say I love the portraits in this game? Love me some PNGs

When I first played Part 1 of the Remake saga, I felt like I had no idea of what I was doing with the combat, I found the action-hybrid system too complicated and visually cluttered I felt like I was brute forcing every fight and not really enjoying myself. I finished the game and didn't come back to it until early this year where I decided to do Hard Mode for the Platinum, and this time I had a way better time, now understanding the combat system and each fight better. It makes for a flashy, semi tactical game with very visceral and satisfying animations, powers, character building thanks to materia, the importance of positioning, blocking, switching aggro, it felt like the realization of what games like FF12 and 13 aimed to be.

So imagine my surprise when Rebirth made it even better. Fundamentals are still the same, new skills were to be expected, but my favorite new addition are synergy skills. Not only do you get special commands you can perform with your partners in the party with extremely satisfying animations, you also have synergy real time action commands which reward you for being more reactive and agressive, now adding perfect blocks and counters, now every time you play with a different team composition you're gonna feel the difference of having Barret or Red or Yuffie as your partner, as you get access to different skills.

They also help you build ATB for characters not actively controlled at any given time, which is an excellent quality of life improvement. My only nitpick is that despite the menus allowing you to have 3 different party compositions and even allowing you to set the leader for each, Cloud is mandatory. Cloud is of course good at everything, so it's not the worst thing, but it does suck that I can't play as a team of Barret, Red, and Yuffie at any time in the open world. Though you can do that at virtual combat challenges or the colliseum. This feels like an oversight.

Fortunately, this meant I was playing around different characters all the time, because they're all great, and it feels super satisfying to set the right materia for each one according to what you envision them to be and complement their abbilities. Some are obvious: give Yuffie the steal materia, give Aerith healing materia. But who gets to be the mage, the debuffer, the buffer, the tank, that's up to you. I found Red XIII + Darkside materia works extremely well thanks to his Reaper Claw abbility and his health regeneration, sort of like a bestial Dark Knight, great crowd control and support all around. Cait Sith takes some work to get used to, and requires lots of setup, but his luck based gameplay can have some serious benefits, I'm sure he will come in handy in hard mode. Yuffie plays almost identically to her DLC, and she is excellent for handling boss fights with multiple parts or different weaknesses.

Exploring will either be fun or tedious, depends on who you ask

I feel like the other primary component of the gameplay, which is the exploration and traversal, will be a bit more divisive. It takes tropes from standard open world games like towers, points of interest, fast travel, loot locations, hunts, there is nothing new or original about it. However, that doesn't mean it can't be fun. Completing areas feels like I'm playing a collect-a-thon akin to Sonic Frontiers, where while it may not be the most exciting thing in the world, it is very relaxing for me, as I take in the sights and look for ways to get to new areas and find the next rare fiend. What I enjoy about the world design is that areas are not large, but are very packed and designed in such a way where you can't get everywhere by just looking at markers on the map, sometimes you do have to look for clues on the environment to get to where you need to, meaning you're looking at where you're going more than your tracker, which is great, but you still get the benefits of one. So it's a nice compromise, not as open ended as BoTW or Elden Ring, but not as braindead as a Ubisoft game. However, completing these areas can take a while, and if you're like me and plan to do all of them, don't be surprised when each area can take you up to 10 hours if you want to do everything.

"No seriously Cloud, I'm still waiting!" -Sephiroth, 100 hours into your game file

If you remember FF16 (I love that game too btw), you might remember how universally hated the sidequests were, not so much for their stories, but for their large amount and lack of variety. It seems like Rebirth is an active effort to avoid those same mistakes. Most sidequests in this game has you doing something different, have an entertaining story or character development attached to them, or even have you doing something dumb like bringing chickens back to their sweet innocent mother, or following an Ex Shinra employee in some brutal gold saucer challenges. I won't say every sidequest is a winner, at the end of the day, they're still busywork, and never will a game make you feel good saying "Congratulations on your progress, you have unlocked even more sidequests to do!". Still, I have to commend them, they do not bombard you with them, you can do a few at a time and be good for the next area, and the rewards allow your party to access more skills.

They have some of the most fun music too

The sidequest also introduce an excuse to have you do more of the minigames and take on their harder difficulties. And BOY did they add soooo many minigames, I could not believe I was encountering a new one what feels like every hour. There's something both horrifying and admirable about the devs commitment to bring back the spirit of a ps1 classic in this way. Have you noticed that triple AAA games basicly don't do minigames anymore? Yea fishing games are still around I guess, but Rebirth is not ashamed to harken to those videogamey roots and sheer goofiness. Red football, Fort Condor (love the reinterpretation), Super Dolphin Sunshine, and so many more. Enjoy youself with these minigames, and pick your least favorites too because there will be at least one that will make you want to break your controller. Contenders for me are Glide de Chocobo for it's terrible camera, and Gears & Gambits for having an overwhelming amount of Gambits for such a simple minigame (even FF12 had you start with a small amount). Still, there is more bad than good here. What I was not expecting was a brand new card game, akin to Triple Triad in 8 and 14: Queen's Blood.

*Insert Yugioh abridged reference here*

Not only did I not expect a new card game 2 hours into the game, I did not expect it to be so good, and have me thinking about different deck builds, deck synergy, strategies, and ways to one up your opponent with some smart plays. Queen's Blood is an extremely fun time sink and nice break from all the combat and normal exploration. It can be overwhelming at first, and having so many different cards with effects each is a hassle I've seen many not even wanting to bother with, finding some of its rules to be too confusing. I will say that if you're not constantly updating your deck with better cards you won't be making much progress, but you also won't know what cards are better if you don't play enough to get what your objective is, so it's best to start getting into it the sooner you start the game. Do make sure you take note of some of the later puzzles and challenges, as they can teach you strategies to make comebacks on hard duels.Screw the survival challenges, though.

But the journey isn't quite the same, after all

Perhaps the stuff I have the least things to say about, are the new elements to the story, which are more prevalent during the beginning and ending sequences of the game. I was honestly intrigued at the start, the tension and anxiety felt in this unknown timeline Zack has walked into, and the mystery surrounding the true fate of our protagonists, as it shows you bits and pieces of more information the further you progress, I was curious to where things were going. Unfortunately, the ending provided even more questions than answers, and I still feel like it's not as emotionally impactful as perhaps it intends to be, maybe due to the lack of clear information. I understand it wants to keep itself vague with the idea of multiple timelines and universes colliding, or what Sephirot's actual plan is. But it does make things like the Whispers feel even more pointless than when they showed up in Remake, but at least their presence has been reduced, as expected. Areas where changes to the story were most effective were when they were not pointed out to be a product of a split timeline, like the conclusion to the Junon festival, or the Gongaga reactor sections.

But of course, what most people were more curious about, was how was the ending going to change, we all knew it was going to be different no matter what. And while I feel like these convoluted elements do take off some of the emotion of the original scene, there is one element which does seem to align these new events with the emotions of the original: Cloud himself. For he experiences the events of the ending differently from the rest, and it's left unclear how reliable is his perspective. Add Sephiroth's manipulation of Cloud's emotions and he becomes this genuinely creepy and ruthless shell of himself. This new problem does not completely go away by the end, as Cloud is not fully aware of it yet. But with how the new version of the ending has unfolded, it left me with these feeling of doubt and... hollowness, confusion, not sure if to be sad, or hopeful. Which I feel is exactly how Cloud feels as well, as his human nature is questioned.

Despite thinking a faithful story remake would have been more satisfying, I can't deny these new events had me thinking about the story of FInal Fantasy 7 in ways I could connect emotionally to it even more. Perhaps, what this game truly achieved for me, is remind me just how much I love this franchise, for its extremely creative worlds and creatures, to its unique stories and unforgettable characters. Rebirth is a celebration of Final Fantasy, a joy to look and play, to relive and to guess. It's got one more part to prove if these changes to the narrative were really worth it, nonetheless. And honestly, I hope they don't keep relying on vagueness as much.

But when they are not being vague, I promise you, every moment, old or new, will feel exciting.

#final fantasy vii #ff7 rebirth #ff7 rebirth review #review #iranted #now when someone asks me what i thought about the game i can just copy paste this #no but wait then they would find my blog #i did not think this throuuuuuuuugh #i wonder if babyboi will want to ever do a final fantasy marathon with me hmmm i got so much to say about all games #i should also mention the towns in this game are WONDERFUL #and the gold saucer date had me internally sobbing

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supernatural s12e8 lotus (w. eugenie ross-leming, brad buckner)

i wanted to revisit that little lucifer!vince meltdown in 12x07 because i thought maybe i was too high to parse what was happening or something. i definitely misunderstood something, but the emotional content still doesn't make sense to me. anyway, details about partial confusion resolution

i didn't think anything was gonna top the leviathans in most loathed (but more in a boring way) villain but british men of letters are bringing the eye rolling heat.

CROWLEY Lucifer's not content with slutting it from one random vessel to the next. He's moving on to blue chips—celebrities, captains of industry. He just got a lot more dangerous. CASTIEL I agree with Agent Zappa. DEAN Oh, will you stop?

i laughed but like, it'd be more fun if cas was trying to rile him up instead of being in clueless robot mode. feels like we get a different cas every episode

there is something amusing about crossing this trope of the catholic church getting infiltrated by the devil and they try to exorcise him with the spn universe where lucifer and exorcism is all a very different kind of beast.

and now he's in the president, of course. they really have defanged lucifer. now he's getting the cartoon villain treatment too. mark played him on this edge of charisma and creepy and ... actually scary, in a way that he felt like a real, solid threat. who had done awful, awful things to our sam specifically, that left him deeply traumatized. anyway, it's not just switching actors, but this story they're wedging him into.

swift kick to the gut while i'm sitting here musing on a president leading a morning prayer that this aired in december 2016.

LUCIFER It's almost like I've never done that before.

???????

i also had a visceral hate of the rape references/"jokes" lucifer repeatedly made to sam (were they all hallucifer? imagine so) this makes ZERO sense. and also, what the fuck, is this a sitcom? oh the literal devil is feeling offkilter because he's just had sex for the first time teehee aww. WHAT

SAM Crowley, can we just get the damn news without the drama? CROWLEY Can I get you without the flannel? No. Still, I endure.

lol good one, crowley

look at me not overreacting about sam sneaking off to make an aborted phone call and trying to hide it. why the fuck is he calling the bad mol people though...???

having serious dick roman flashbacks with this lucifer plotline.

CASTIEL There's been a massive surge in celestial energy. A Nephilim is come into being. It's the offspring of an angel and a human. DEAN And that's big news? CASTIEL Yes, but the power to produce this is immense. It's much, much greater than a typical angel. SAM Lucifer. DEAN W— Lucifer? I didn't know he was dating.

again, are we in a sitcom? tone of the episode is really not meshing with the jokes they're going for, for me. is this gonna be the nephilim i've heard of?

SAM Do we have a plan? DEAN Impeach LOTUS and find Rosemary's Baby.

oh, silly me. i was thinking lotus the car brand, thought the episode might have some car-slant. lucifer of the united states 🥴

seeing them clearly in the car, outside, makes me realize just how much of the driving shown is at night (for production reasons, obviously)

required hair appreciation note. maybe i had to slog through some truly atrocious haircuts/styles and sideburns to fully appreciate getting here

god. i have such a kneejerk queasy reaction to take five by dave brubeck. my brief stint (during a really Bad Time in my life) at university i would kill time between classes at a place near this cd shop on campus. they played take five over and over and over and over. it's a great piece of music but it still immediately throws me back into this really miserable headspace.

that said, i do think it was used well in this scene. and that was a really good little action sequence, nice tight pacing. sam and dean's reaction to the explosion was really good and it felt like they were right there (and magically baby did not get damaged by the explosion right in her face). cas standing in front of it, unbothered, cliche but still fun. but then fucko had to start talking and i mentally checked out.

coulda had fucko drive up in a lotus but no, bentley 😔 probably harder to obtain a lotus in whatever, vancouver

hurray sam's furtive phone call to bad people already addressed in the same episode.

introducing all sorts of goofy ass weapons. sure, why not

is there a snappy name for this team-up?

CASTIEL The thing inside you, it's unholy. It's an abomination.

great. surely she's gonna want to keep the lucifer!baby then

the magical egg scene went on way too long. i guess it was supposed to be high stakes zapping lucifer back to the cage but god it's just all so not.

i really love how crowley's teleportation is silent, no vfx other than cutting so he's just gone. it's surprisingly effective. anyway, kind of hoping they can work out their problems. good pair

the whole dean being somewhat in awe that they got lucifer felt... i dunno. like ok so is this when we find out he didn't actually end up in the cage?

uh. why are dean and sam there just hanging out with the president? and getting arrested? what. great. my fave.

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 12x08 #sam's hair #spn clip #dave brubeck #kinda veered into #spnwhinge

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i was tagged by my movie bestie @garethsedwards and i'm REALLY excited to Write About Movies! film hoe mode activated.

rules: post 10 of your favorite comfort movies then tag 10 people.

CHUNGKING EXPRESS (1994): not my absolute favorite wong kar-wai, but definitely the one that feels most like home. i'm a city girl through and through, and deeply relate to the narrative's mournfulness over identity - its yearning to (re)gain a sense of personhood amid frayed connections and persistent loneliness. the feelings just fucking hit.

THE LORD OF THE RINGS (2001-2003): easiest answer for me to give, because these films made me a film hoe. it doesn't matter how many times i've watched the behind-the-scenes appendices for each movie - how much i've dispelled the ~fantasy for myself by reading up every factoid about production possible. for years, i return to middle-earth gladly.

SAW (2004): uh, this one is a comfort movie because i revisit it every single time i want to shut my brain off. the ending always gets me, man.

ZODIAC (2007): when i was a kid, i primarily watched crime dramas. but if i had to pick ONE to watch for the rest of my life, it would be this. like most of david fincher's movies, it's cut-and-dry until it's not - anticipatory without being unfulfillingly predictable. a simple kind of compelling. side note: it's also a film i show to my loved ones a ton.

THE AMAZING SPIDER-MAN (2012): maybe it's andrew garfield's aura, james horner's devastatingly emotive score, or peter parker's sheer earnestness. or maybe it's because marc webb directed all the my chemical romance music videos that raised me into the emo i am today. but i fucking love this movie and how it simply represents a very specific, nostalgic time in my life.

INTERSTELLAR (2014): sci-fi, my beloved! nolan, my other beloved! this is one of his most tender works - an emotional rollercoaster that starts and ends on the undeniable force that truly runs our universe - love. i'm left a puddle of jelly after every rewatch, and am thankful for it.

MISS STEVENS (2016): this is the timmy chalamet movie for me, although he's not the reason it's particularly comforting. rather, it talks about how being an adult after a certain age is daunting. whatever road maps that are left over from our more youthful years now seem smudged and the future is forever unclear. this film is about kindly and empathetically navigating that - the journey, not the destination - and i that, to me, is the very definition of being comforted.

FACES PLACES / VISAGES, VILLAGES (2017): part of agnes varda's sheer genius was always her ability to encapsulate snapshots of time while simultaneously creating timelessness in her films. she was always so viscerally present on the pulse point of whatever topic she wanted to unpack, and you feel held in each of her frames. faces places was the first of her movies for me, so it holds a special place in my heart.

UNICORN STORE (2017): every day i thank brie larson for making a film so unabashedly warm, sparkly, and vibrant. it's so healing for the inner child in me who felt forced to grow up too soon.

MIDSOMMAR (2019): this film is all about trauma and mental illness, which is extremely unnerving and confronting to watch. despite that, i experience such unadulterated catharsis whenever i put midsommar on. feeling seen and getting to unpack these issues safely within the confines of horror - that's everything to me.

tagging @satellitemp4 @zoewashburne @betharmon @riley-keoughs @whatelsecanwedonow @lovestream @buffystark @ellargent @dolanx @alechardison @captainbobbiedraper

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