can't recall if it was here or tiktok, but the prompt was oldest meme you reference and i don't know that it qualifies as a meme when only 3 people used it on the regular but i still use k-razy because of this comic from may 4, 2000
going through my ao3 bookmarks to download stuff because I realized I didn't have anything on this phone for downtimes and good grief, it's an embarrassment of riches. could spend a good long time rereading all of them
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And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound
It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you
You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town
And I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
(And maybe I don't quite know what to say)
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying
but the you is me and the me is me. can I get back to the person who was able to connect with other humans, and wanted to, and felt those feelings
supernatural s15e8 our father, who aren't in heaven (w. eugenie ross-leming, brad buckner)
full on snorted when adam showed up in the recap
EILEEN
Hey! Were you tailing me?
SAM
You could have left a note.
EILEEN
You're worried about me.
SAM
You- You think I'm being overprotective?
EILEEN
A little bit.
this all continues to feel completely out of left field. on a show that has had the number of episodes to develop a love interest, to plonk one down in the last season without any buildup prior to 3 years ago and that was very slight... is she just gonna live at the bunker? she did have a whole ass life outside of them. argh. i'm annoyed with myself being annoyed with this situation when i really liked eileen but this plotline is making me so grumpy
i was rereading a few posts from s12-13 because i referenced them or whatever and i actually still was occasionally enthusiastic and fond and i feel like now i'm just bitter and complaining nonstop
SAM
So, he has an Achilles heel.
DEAN
Well, I'm saying he has a weak spot.
oh come on eugenie and brad, dean would know this
edited to add, thank you superwiki! (fucking bullshit, writers)
When Sam uses the phrase "Achilles heel", Dean responds as if he is unaware of its meaning (it refers to a person's point of vulnerability). However, Dean has used the term himself at least once himself, most notably in 5.04 The End: Dean: Long story. The point is... maybe we are each other's Achilles heel. Maybe they'll find a way to use us against each other, I don't know. I just know we're all we've got. More than that. We keep each other human. Dean also knew what it meant when Sam used the phrase in relation to Veritas in 6.06 You Can't Handle the Truth. Dean uses the phrase himself when arguing with Samuel Campbell about demon deals in 6.10 Caged Heat.
grinding my teeth at the quirky music for cas trying to get donatello, and then the music while they all overact staring at him while he's transcribing the demon tablet. i don't know why this season feels so much worse to me. it's like there was less editing or something. slap it on the screen and call it a day
if eileen has been working the god problem with sam, why isn't she in on this confab with donatello and cas
CASTIEL
Are we seriously talking about going to hell to try to speak to Michael? Michael, who is in the Cage, and insane?
SAM
Yeah, and who told us that?
DEAN
Lucifer. And Chuck. Now, I trust them as far as I can throw them. But, Cas, if you wanna stay here, why don't you stay here?
sure, why not! also dim memory of, if chuck busted open the gates of hell and let everyone out, did that not include the cage. don't even care enough to look up when that happened 🥴
not even a catch you on the flipside to eileen. she just gets to lurk in the background and watch them go. also i know i tend to space out on castiel's stuff because i lose track of anything that's not in every episode but was there any indication before about this whole losing powers business before 15x03? urgh
ROWENA
He won't be in the Cage. Every door here was flung wide when Chuck opened the fissure. Your archangel could be anywhere in hell, or out of hell, for that matter.
patting myself on the back for making the right deduction :p
sleepy rumpled puppy vibes
ROWENA
What am I picking up from you two? A wee tiff? Tell your Auntie Rowena.
DEAN
It's fine. Don't worry about it.
CASTIEL
It's fine.
ROWENA
Boys? Fix it. I don't have many regrets, but the few I do still haunt me. Making Napoleon so short was just bitchy. Telling Mick Jagger he had no future when I dumped him. And, well, everything with dear Fergus. Then one day, you die, you go to hell, they make you queen, and you can't make it right. So fix it!
in the past, they'd have conflicts that i thought were pretty significant but the whole "family gets a clean slate, all is forgiven thing forever and ever amen" would wipe out whatever it was, but i guess this time we're gonna make more of a Deal out of them working out their problem. which is what, blaming cas for soulless!jack killing mary?
lol ok
ADAM
So, what about you? You gonna go back to heaven?
MICHAEL
Uh, I don't know. My brothers are dead. My father never returned. In so many ways, I'm alone.
ADAM
Yeah. Same here. It's not like I have family waiting to see me.
MICHAEL
You have the Winchesters, your brothers.
ADAM
I met them once. And they let me rot in hell.
MICHAEL
Family.
ADAM
Family sucks.
glad they're chummy i guess? and it's true. thinnest plot device of a character that got forgotten immediately
DEAN
Yeah. Eileen did good, right? Getting us back from hell. She doing okay?
SAM
Yeah. I guess.
DEAN
You guess?
SAM
If she needs something from me, she'll tell me. We have an agreement.
DEAN
You have an agreement? That's adorable.
Look, man, I didn't want to say anything, okay, 'cause I was kind of in in a bad place, and, uh, yeah, I didn't want to jinx it or whatever, but, you know, I tried the family thing, right?
SAM
Yeah, me too. And that's not for us.
DEAN
No, not really. But I'm just saying if it was to work, Eileen, you know, she gets it. She gets us. She gets the life. She's hot.
SAM
Dean. I mean, I'm not even-
DEAN
Look, all I'm saying is you- you could do worse, okay? And she could certainly do better. Like, so much better. I'm happy for you, Sammy.
i hate that this is upsetting me. i try to be pretty objective while watching but dean giving his blessing to go do the family thing with eileen is freaking me out
all right so michael just super-smited lilith i guess? okie doke.
sure!
MICHAEL
Sam. You look well. Last time I saw you in the Cage…
which brings up the point that if sam remembers anything of the cage then he presumably would have a pretty good idea of what michael was like then, at least. but it's like he's a blank slate
DEAN
Wait, Mic- Michael lets you talk? I mean, he lets you be?
ADAM
Uh, yeah. In the Cage, we came to an agreement. We only had each other.
not to bring up the time passage in hell equations but :p also what was it like when lucifer was still stuck there with them? he was in there topside-wise what, 6 years? and 4 years it was just the two of them
DEAN
No, he won't. Because Paradise is boring, and your dad he's just looking to be entertained. Which means we're his puppets. All of us, especially you.
MICHAEL
I won't hear this. You're lying. I don't know what your agenda is, but you're lying.
i mean, angels don't have free will anyway, isn't that kind of the point?
MICHAEL
Yes! It would. It would mean that I doubt him. The good son, the favorite, doubts his father.
ADAM
You still care about that? After he left you in the Cage?
and there's the kicker. good job, adam
SUE
The vamps have stopped moving just outside Omaha. They'll start setting up a nest. We need to move on them before they get their defenses in place. Can you help?
EILEEN
I...
SUE
What?! Do you have to ask for permission?
EILEEN
Send me the directions.
SUE
I just texted them to you. [SUE GASPS] Son of a bitch!
SAM
Hey.
EILEEN
I was talking to a friend. She's working a vamp case. She's in trouble.
SAM
Okay. Let's go.
why does this feel like we're getting set up for eileen to die (again)
lol castiel had to get into a little tussle with michael so he could show him the chuck-is-an-asshole recap via magic brain fingers
well. i didn't see eileen's buddy being actually chuck coming
cackled. michael can snap a nexus to purgatory!
to get, *checks notes* leviathan nectar for the spell to lock chuck in the cage or whatever. sure, why not
ah, i see in the deleted scene there is actually some interaction with eileen before popping down to hell
EILEEN
Rugaru blood.
SAM signs and mouths "Thank you" and takes the bottle from her, adding it to the compounding bowl before turning back to EILEEN.
SAM
Uhm, I hope my room wasn't too bad.
EILEEN
It was. But I don't know, kind of cool you have all that spell stuff under your bed. Most guys just have porn.
DEAN looks slightly offended and confused. He raises his hand to get EILEEN'S attention and mouths "He has porn."
EILEEN (whispering)
I know.
DEAN
It means I got to... I got to get out of here, okay? I just... I got to... I'm gonna take a drive, clear my head.
SAM
Alone?
DEAN
Yeah, you know, you and Eileen, you guys are having fun. I don't want to spoil that, you know?
SAM
Yeah, go, go. Clear your head. Eileen and I have stuff to do.
DEAN
Yeah, I'll bet you do. Yeah? Hmm?
SAM
It's not like that. I-I-I meant looking for Chuck and Lilith
and...
DEAN
Sure. Got it. Um, okay, but if, uh, things go your way, just make sure you put the sock on the door so I know.
throwing a love interest at sam real fast out of the blue and i'm like hey wait slow down what now? and i mean, we're not completely blindsided, they set up the flirty thing between them before she died and all. but having her pop back up, sam turned into a witchy genius and finished rowena's spell licketysplit, magicked up her a fresh body and now they're getting drunk at night and making hangover breakfasts in the bunker in the morning. that's a lot. and dean bolting out of there too to stay busy and let them be alone. anyway, solo hunt and lying about it, that always goes well
i dunno, man. i'm having a hard time believing dean would be okay with dumping his cell off no questions asked just walking into this bar
i don't think i'm in the right mindset to watch dean flirting and gallivanting living his swayze road house dreams
next day, not sure it's improved (i've been sick [stomach variety] coming up on a week, i am so tired of this) but maybe i can get it done anyway.
i gather this dude christian kane must be a music friend too since i guess they have a bandmate in common, steve carlson? i tried to watch leverage but it didn't grab me, i think it made it through a season or so? and funnily enough, the music kind of put me off 🥴 the cheesiest of heist music
i watched the trailer for road house from 1989 (because apparently there's a new road house (2024) with gyllenhall) and wow. something about bouncing people in pleated pants. i probably would have enjoyed it when i was teenager but i think i need the modern sensibilities of the remake if i'm gonna enjoy a big ridiculous action movie that focuses on just punching the shit out of each other :p
the tone of this scene where sam's about to kiss eileen is just weird. the music is kind of.. mushy wistful, like the mushy music theme but different. and there's a lot of awkward exchanging of looks. and then sam gets clued in what eileen's talking about. i'm just really not picking up what they're putting down. but get a big dramatic interruption with cas popping back in.
also fucking netflix and its caption placement is consistently awful.
CASTIEL
Good. I've been thinking about that gun, the, uh... the Equalizer? When you shot God, it fired a piece of your soul.
his SOUL. sure. SURE
DEAN
Man, so I don't think I've seen you since Sammy was in college.
gotta tally up all the hunters they mentioned he worked with while sam was in college. think richie too? sure there's others
from 3x04 sin city
SAM
Not too bad. How do you two know each other?
DEAN
You were in school.
RICHIE
It was that succubus, in Canarsie right?
CASTIEL
No, but I am sure I can't heal the wound. Maybe I can probe it.
SAM
Probe it?
CASTIEL
Study it, see if it can lead us to Chuck.
jamming his fist into sam's chest rooting around for his non-existent soul, sucking the leftover angel grace out of his neck with a needle, what's a little probing of a soul wound from god
DEAN
Okay. One, three bottles of Jaeger is nobody's friend, and "B," they were twins.
may have just yelled, BRO! DAMNIT! lol i thought we were done with the 1, B (A, 2) thing that drives me up a WALL whenever it comes up because i can't find the paul reiser mad about you reference to him doing it despite being quite sure that he used it a lot in that show
LEE
Whoa, no, they were not twins. They were triplets, uh, and we split them up fair and square.
dean and dudes and triplets.
from 10x01 black
DEAN
Okay, see, the deal was we howl at the moon -- no time stamp, no expiration date.
CROWLEY
We've howled. We've bayed. We've done extraordinary things to triplets, all of which have been massively entertaining. I will treasure our Flickr albums forever. But now it's time for us to accept what we are and go back to work.
--
DEAN
Trust me, uh, bigger doesn't always equal better. Besides, who's gonna look out after the little guy? God certainly isn't.
LEE
Damn, brother, that's dark.
DEAN
Yeah, it's been a rough, uh... it's been a rough decade, Lee.
understatement of the century
(wiki)
The band at Swayze's Bar is a band made up of the Supernatural crew called The Impalas that has played together for many years. Here they are called "The Texas Impalas" and are made up of Perry Battista, Tracy Dunlop, Dave Webb, Cam Beck, and Chris Glynn Jones.
that's neat. i'm glad at least we got some dean singing that wasn't intentionally cringey. i feel like this episode is fan service, but dean/jensen is the main fan in question lol
SERGEI
Small thing.
CASTIEL
What is it?
SERGEI
Sam is... dying.
of course he is! he's almost dead or actually dead CONSTANTLY. jesus.
and dean's buddy acting shifty, of course. also rolling my eyes that they had this friend insist that the car was raptured based on no info
SERGEI
Ah, well, there you go. Most wounds want to be healed, to be whole. But this, this wound is different. It goes down to his very soul. But also out into the world. From what I can tell, his soul, it's connected to something or someone somewhere. Except, as you probed deeper, you forced the soul to stretch from Sam's body to...
EILEEN
Where?
SERGEI
I don't know. But now it's like a rubber band. If it is stretched too far, too long, pop, it snaps, and Sam dies.
LOL sure. they've destroyed my suspension of disbelief i just can't haha and castiel's face made me laugh
and now cas just had supposedly bobby?? watching this rando's niece so he could threaten with killing her to get what he wants? sure!
LEE
Well, not the old me, anyway. I wasn't kidding about Arizona. What that thing did to that family, those kids, it stuck in my head. If evil like that exists in the world, then guys like you and me, we ain't ever gonna win. The best we can do is just have a little fun. The last Hunt I did, the one right around here, I found something.
very logical and sense-making
LEE
You don't, Dean? I am you. I'm just you that woke up and saw that the world was broken.
DEAN
Then you fix it. You don't walk away. You fight for it.
dean-o gets to remember the lesson that he does actually care and is willing to fight even if it's unclear what's god pulling strings vs his distinct choice
LEE
Why do you care so much, Dean?
DEAN
Because someone has to.
LEE
Well, then... I'm glad it was you.
uh huh. insert another eyeroll lol. ugh. i'm being an asshole but they lost me :p
SAM
Dean, Chuck is weak. I think we can beat him. I think we can beat God.
okie doke. team free will whatever dot whatever, back at it
ok wait i saw my friend’s ao3 page the other day and they had like a thousand bookmarks and i have… like thirty. so im curious now please tell me how many ao3 bookmarks u have in tags