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The Art of Waiting

"A prelude spin-off for an upcoming fic"

warnings: afab!reader, angst? comfort? fluff? i dont know how to categorize this

A Sugawara Koshi x reader one shot or maybe not

a/n: ehem hope you all like this, you be the judgeーis this fluff or angst?

Daichi is clueless, and irritating, and pushy, andーbam! Koshi stubbed his pinky toe at the side of his bed. He doubled over in his bed through the pain coursing through his leg, it's tearing him up.

"DAICHI YOU IDIOOOOT!!"

"KEEP IT DOWN!"

His dorm-neighbor yelled back through the walls. He bit his lip as he soothed the pain and cursing his bestfriend in his mind, killing him as he did. His eyes might lasered a hole at the wall he's facing in the intense imagination he's having.

He rubbed his eyes in his knees in hopes of curbing the pain and irritation he's feeling since he got Daichi's text that morning.

"Just meet her, okay. If it doesn't work, then no biggie. You have to date around, Suga."

Like hell! You have to date around Suga, he is even SOOO dense with Yui's feelings, how fucking of an idiot is he to say that to him! And Asahiーthe innocent and timid Asahiーeven supported thisーUgh!

"Well, we're not getting any younger, Suga. Just give it a try."

"Fuck it!" He rashly got on his feet andーbam! "MOTHERFUCKER!!"

"SUGAWARA!"

He groaned a loud apology and got on the showers through the pain in his pinky toe. He has to get over this quickly. He has to get back to Karasuno the day after to see her. It's their usual weekend routine. No one's gonna ruin it. Not even this blind date he's having in an hour.

Your eyes rounded with your lips when you got a text from Daichi about a blind date with his friend, Sugawara Koshi. You knew of him, trailing with Daichi whenever vacants were on, you sneaking glances on him as he walks by you in certain places around the campus. This is not even a blind date for you. He is your crush. And Daichi is clueless, much to your amusement.

You squealed and hid your face with your pillow, thinking of this unearthly chance you got, thanking Daichi and the heavens for it. You stared at his text one more time and got all smiles again.

"His name is Sugawara Koshi, Y/n. He's outgoing, you'll like him. Go have a blind date with him, okay? I'll be grateful if this works out, two of my unacquainted friends getting to know each other."

Yes, Daichi. Yes. And I'll be forever and ever be grateful to you if this works out., you thought as you buried your face again in your pillow squealing again.

Three hours still to go but you decided to start picking whichever cute clothes you would wear to impress Koshi. Time to get that man of your dreams.

It was a cloudy 4pm afternoon and the spring air gets chilly in your lungs. You love the feeling. Spring is blooming from winter, and this is spring for you. You excitedly got into this cafe near the campus and saw him on the edge, sitting, fiddling on his phone as he stares outside.

You can die right then and there at his side-profile, you can't wipe the smile off your face as you walk to the table he's in. He spotted you when you're three steps in. He flashed a grin and stood up, offering an "Hi. You look cute." You can die already at the compliment.

"Hi. Thanks. I'm Y/n. You must be Sugawara Koshi?" Act innocent, check!

He nodded, still grinning at you. "Yes. C'mon, sit."

You sat across him and stared at him for a brief second before grinning back at him. "Well, um.. Daichi.." You trailed, lost for words at this event. Oh my God, I love you Daichi!

"Yep. Daichi is our mutual friend." He rubbed the back of his neck and ruffled his hair as he goes. "He can be pushy sometimes. I'm sorry."

"No, no. It's okay. I also wanted to meet new people around the circle." He nodded, dimples forming in his lower cheeks you wanted to poke them. But behave, you.

Both of you ordered some snacks as you both shared some infos and cues you got. No matter how shallow, you're exhilerated on getting to even speak with him, much more on getting to know him. He was what you expected, and as what Daichi said, outgoing. And all smiles. And funny. And charming, and so so adorable. His smiles never left his lips as he talks, asking you questions about your college experience and course. You answered diligently, joking through to which he throws a joke back to make you both laugh.

It was wonderful. It was candid.

Till it dropped, all at once.

You saw his grinning and enjoying expression dropped as a jingle sounded through the cafe. His eyes were not on you but on someone farther back. His eyes, not blinking, you became curious. You turned around and found a couple so familiar. They both didn't notice you and Koshi as they made their way to the other edge of the cafe. That was when you faced Koshi. His eyes are still on them, more specifically, to the golden haired girlーlady.

"Sugawara? Are you okay?" His eyes achingly slow to meet yours, blinking harshly. He found his composure a couple of seconds later and cleared his throat, avoiding your eyes. "Yes. I'm sorry. I was justー"

"Do you know Tsukishima Ran, andー"

His gaze fell so harshly on you again, "You know herーI mean, them?"

"Y-yeah. I'm blockmates with that man with her a year ago. I told you I'm an engineering student."

"Oh." And lingering silence. All the excitement you felt flew out of the spring afternoon outside. You're not dumb at what Koshi's showing you right now. His fleeting gazes at the other edge of the cafe and distracted answers that were once not before the couple walked in.

You gulped a hard lump. "Shall we call it a day? I still have papers due tomorrow. I'm sorry."

"I wanna walk you back to your dorm Y/n." Your brows shot up at his sincere tone. His eyes, pleading. "But can we wait for them to leave first? IーI can help with your papers if this favor goes too late."

Pleading not for you. But you have to show him mercy. He's still your crush, and a budding love at that. You can feel he's in a tight spot right now and who are you to deny your help to him.

It was not so long when the couple left the cafe without even noticing Koshi's there and eyeing them.

You stood silently with Koshi and he walked you back to your dorm as he promised, not sparing a talk, or even an explanation. Do you even deserve an explanation? You just got to know the man. But you swore you won't let this chance go by.

"Can I get your number, Sugawara? Daichi might push us for seconds to his delight." You smiled at him, surprisingly genuine given the atmosphere.

He stuttered and got jumpy as he fished out his phone from his pocket. "Can I have yours too?" You knew he saw how your eyes glittered on him as he asked that so his adorable grin was showcased again in front of you.

You bit your lip as you exchanged numbers with him and waved him goodbye.

Koshi was slumped infront of his desk that morning, phone on top of his desk, buzzing and buzzing as the GC kept on with the convo. He closed his eyes and let out a shaky breath, pinching the root of his nose. His classes will start in two hours and he's still not prepared for the day. He can't bring himself to move. That image from yesterday afternoon was still in his mind. He swallowed hard.

A knock, no, slaps on his door were heard moments after. He rolled his eyes knowing who it is. The culprit.

"You look dead." Koshi left the door open for Daichi to enter, Asahi surprisingly following him.

"How was it?" Asahi was the one who asked. The it was probably the blind date happened with you but his mind somehow stuttered.

"She's cool."

They came asking for more questions and he knows it's not what they came for. He sighed as the suspected topic started. He kept drumming his fingers on the armrest of his chair. He smiled through their words of affirmation for the couple, how they were happy.

They're not aware of Koshi's feelings. Of course. He never shown it to anyone. Maybe he did but was too subtle to notice.

The second dateーnot a blind date anymore!ーwas when this event came a month later. It's not a date actually, he said, but he was taking you as his date. You said yes then and there, eyes sparkling and excitement were washing over you. His usual grin was pasted in his face once again. He was thankful you agreed witn the set-up because he doesn't know who to take. And he can't show up alone, not whenーhe closed his eyes to shut his thoughts down.

And he has to try it for you. But he can't be an asshole. Never. Never in a million years. Not to you.

"You're beautiful, Y/n." He was dashing in his two-piece gray and black suit, matching your gray dress.

"You're dashing too, Mr. Sugawara." You took his hand as you stepped out of the car and walked to the venue with him.

"C'mon. You can call me Suga." He grinned at you that made you fell harder, you blushed hard. By now, he might've known you have a crush on him way before the blind date. Daichi has no intentions of leaving that part unknown to Koshi when you shared it with him after the first date.

The reception went on and renowned singers were in the pavillion to sing songs for the newly wedded coupleーthe couple you saw at that fated cafe. The others were already in the center of the reception and slow-dancing to the songs.

You were enjoying your eyes to the familiar faces you've somehow seen in the university or those volleyball league matches you watched in interest of Koshi's you're desperately adapting. You also found some friends from your block that's mutual friends with the groom. And it all happened suddenly. Koshi stood up and offered his hand to you, prompting you to take it with his usual grin you really love.

"Yesss~" Daichi was musing across the table at his friend's gestures. "That's it, Suga! That's it!", and there goes Asahi too.

But your focus is on Koshi, and how he ignored the cheers of his friends from the table and from the nearby one. His eyes were focused on his hand offered to you across the noise all over him. You smiled and took it, to which his eyes fluttered to you apologetically. You grinned at him reassuringly and you let him take you to dance to the next song the singers prepared.

Koshi was nervous. He don't know how to open this up to you, or is it even the right time to do this? He took a shaky breath and grinned as he exhales, basking in your unsuspecting beauty as you both sway to the song. Your eyes were on him, and still grinning. He can't let that grin disappear. But maybe he can. His lashes fluttered fast at the pending words he's about to say.

"Y/n. We might not talk after this but you deserve all my honesty." You waited for him to continue, still staring and swaying. All of the people were blurring around you, auto-focusing on Koshi.

"It's her." And you knew what he meant. Your grin turned to smile as he continues. "I don't want to be in a relationship where it's still her that's all I think about. I have.. to heal first. By myself." There's a sad and conflicted glint in his eyes and you took it to heart, rubbing his shoulder for him to continue.

"I don't want you to wait for me." You stuttered in your sways and steps til you come to a halt. He stopped with you, rubbing miniscule strokes on your waist where his hands are. "You can mingle and date around." You gulped and took it in, deep breaths and you swayed again with the song. He thankfully obliged. The last thing you both want is attention.

"I can't promise anything, but Iーwhen I'm done healing, I'll come look for you again. I wanted for this to work. You came in a bad time for me, y'know. But I don't want to cage you. You have your freedom. I won't.. do that to you. IーY/n, Iー"

"Okay, Suga." You peeked at his lowered head, lifting his chin up with your delicate touch. "Okay." You grinned at him and touched his cheek to which he held it and rubbed his cheek against, glazing eyes on you.

But you never came in the wrong time, it was just right. You both know it. He's just too decent to say it. All that happened in your life and his led to this moment. You never regretted coming to that cafe, never regretted you asked for his number. Never regretted saying yes to him asking if he can take you to the wedding. You never regretted anything. And he's glad to know you won't judge him, that you'll be there waiting even if he doesn't want you to wait. Heartwarming. It already healed a portion of him. A couple more to go.

You both blushed hard at your own realizations and the song clearly mirrored your moment with him, you have to speak to the singer after to know the title so maybe you can download it and listen to it until the time is right. Until Sugawara Koshi's ready for you.

Reblogs and interactions are appreciated. Theories will be entertained. Cassie 2023.

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