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shallowseeker · 9 months

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Dean’s grief on speedrun

How long was Cas dead, anyway?

I think they reunited around day 18-24 days ish. The scripts give us some clues. (Based on this post)

==Dean is grieving hard==

He’s not in denial, like Sam seems to be -> “Is he really dead?” “You know he is.”

And because Dean now knows Chuck & Amara, he’s not getting stuck in bargaining stage (his usual MO). There is no door of hope to leave ajar after the cosmic consequences are rendered. (Not even the symbolic going-through-the-motions kind that he never intends to open again.)

No, this time, Dean’s in the throes of an incredibly frightening, paralyzing despair (images).

This is partially due to the fact that he saw it coming, and he fought so hard. He resolved to avoid the looming, cosmic consequences, to “not let Cas walk away, not again (script).” Dean made up his mind to act to protect the, “everything he’s ever wanted (script).”

And still, everything went so wrong.

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The grief, then, is different. It’s a despair born of crushed hopes and dreams. Not to mention, forgiveness and acceptance—as Dean got onboard to help Cas, regardless of his own misgivings, because Cas “had faith in the kid.”

After everyone dies, Dean pleads with God/Chuck. Chuck is the one who brought Cas back before and the only one who seems able to rebuild angels. He doesn’t answer.

Even though Dean had a special connection to Amara, the one who resurrected his burned-up, supposed-to-stay-dead mother, she doesn’t answer either.

This time, he knows they’re out there, perhaps even listening. And they’re not answering because Dean’s run out of free passes and miracles.

This time, that knowledge crushes him where he stands.

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DAY 1-2 (Lost and Found)

13x01 starts in the twilight hours after the big Lucifer fight.

Dean takes a shot at Jack, and Jack flees.

Heaven and Hell hunt them relentlessly.

They retrieve Jack from North Cove police station.

An angel stabs Jack in the chest with an angel blade, and he seems astonished to be “fine.”

Sam and Dean take time to grieve and scatter ashes.

The funeral occurs that evening, and they quickly get on the road.

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DAY 3 ish (The Rising Son)

In 13x02, they're still driving home from the funeral towards the bunker, "12 hours till we get home," and Sam convinces Dean to stop at a motel.

Addition: When they eat, Jack remarks that he's 3 days old. "3 days, 17 hours, and 42 minutes."

Over the course of this episode, per the script, 2 days pass.

They eat dinner, go to a tattoo parlor, meet up with Donatello, and stay overnight in the motel.

Heaven and Hell continue to hunt them relentlessly.

Sam, Dean, and Donatello debate nature vs nurture, with Dean and Donatello leaning towards nature.

Sam psycho-analyzes Dean and delivers euphemisms to Jack about Dean “wanting to protect everyone and getting his wires crossed,” but ultimately, he isn’t forthcoming to Jack about the reality of the situation. (That is, it was Lucifer that killed Cas, and Lucifer who pulled Mary into another world--that Dean's grieving!) These important details might've helped Jack to understand his situation with a lot more clarity and grace. This will cause Jack to cool towards Sam when Dean reveals the truth during an argument.

Demons find them the next morning.

In fact, Dean nearly dies against a common demon, getting cornered on a hotel bed, but he is saved at the last minute by Sam’s interference.

Jack, tricked by Asmodeus, nearly releases the Shadim.

They drive home.

Later, Jack freaks out about being impervious to stabbing. In his new bunker room, he laments, “What the hell am I? I can’t control… whatever this is. I will hurt someone.”

Dean tells him he will be Jack's executioner if Jack loses control.

At most, it's been only 5 days since everyone died.

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DAY 5 ish (Patience)

13x03 picks up mere hours after they get home, and it covers 5 days total. So, that brings us to a decently solid total of 10-ish days when this episode finishes.

Dean can't bear to be in the bunker with mission-mode Sam and Jack, so he takes off on a hunt.

Clearly in no shape to hunt, Dean dies at the hands of a wraith (and so does Jody). They are both saved by Patience’s interference.

Dean tells Patience there’s no joy in this life. Only pain and death.

Sam and Dean have a huge fight about Jack, during which Dean accidentally gives Jack context to the situation (re: Cas’s death, Mary’s plight). This causes Jack, already exhausted by Sam’s well-meaning training regimen, to cool towards Sam the next morning.

Cas appears to awaken in The Empty on day 9 or 10.

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DAY 10-11 ish (The Big Empty)

13x04 SEEMS like the very next morning, because Dean AND Jack are both still chilly towards Sam. The air is described as arctic, with Dean giving Sam a, "don't even try it, motherfucker," face. Jack accuses Sam of wanting to use him as an interdimensional can opener and "being just like Asmodeus," and Sam comes clean about the truth.

Sam pushes them all to go on a case together. Jack says he doesn’t want to go at first. Sam wants Jack to go with them for the express purpose of forcing Dean to be around him and warm up to him, which isn’t fair to Dean or Jack…not really.

This storyline covers the family therapy scene (great analysis), wherein an interesting attempt at therapy is made under dishonest constraints.

Dean, still clearly in no shape to hunt, is easily overtaken by the shifter and nearly dies. He is saved by Jack’s interference.

According to the script, 13x04 occurs over 4 days. Commentary//

That means that Dean thawed to Jack, after our total of a mere 14 days. By the end of this episode, they're on shaky terms, and by the beginning of 13x06, calling out to each other in a friendly manner, "How was the case?"

Jack "puts a dent in Dean's armor," per the script, even before he saves them with his powers. Dean is doing everything he can not to like Jack, and it’s clear from the script that he’s failing.

At the end of the episode, Dean tells Sam to absorb the weight of the hunting burden, because he’s got no hope left.

Cas appears to awaken in a field on day 14. Presumably, his ashes are in the middle of nowhere, and he starts walking.

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DAY 14-20 ish? (Advanced Thanatology)

Here’s where it gets foggier.

I can't tell exactly when 13x05 picks up with respect to the previous episode, but it seems like only a little bit of time has passed.

I would say a week at most has passed, but possibly as little as a day or two, and the case itself, per the script, covers another 4 days.

However, if Cas awoke in The Empty on day 10, and woke in the field around day 14, I think I favor a shorter timeline here with some of the “days” being overlapping back story from the case itself.

Anyway, Jack has been making his way through Sam's DVDs, "Red Sonja, Beast Master, Beast Master II." Commentary//

Sam does not intuit why Dean is up late at night/early twilight hours, making a PB & J (analysis).

Sam tries to remedy Dean’s overwhelming grief by pushing breakfast beer and strip clubs toward him. Alcohol to numb the pain + sexy stuff as a distraction. Now more than ever, Dean seems to perform those only for Sam’s benefit. (It seems Sam did not pay attention to Mia Vallens's therapy, except as a means to validate his own motives for trying to save Mary. Ouch! Poor Sam!)

Sam is not great with empathy here, bless my neuroatypical man-child. He’s dealing with a loss of his own, of course, and he’s been shown to be an impatient, mission-motivated griever (analysis).

Anyway, he’s completely at sea with Dean’s powerful grief, and he seems tragically unaware of Dean's close calls/being off his game over the course of the last few hunts.

Sam, perhaps understandably, wants Dean to be there for him n’ Jack, as caretaker and comrade, but Dean is too mentally wounded to bear the weight of that expectation. (Btw, I don’t think Sam really “gets” the Cas thing till 15x09 The Trap: Sam’s future is symbolized by Eileen-as-hope (analysis) and Sam realizes Dean’s future is built around Cas-as-foundation.) Dean dies...again//

Dean attempts suicide.

He tells Billie he doesn’t matter.

After he revives, Dean tells Sam, “No. Sam, I’m not okay. I’m pretty far from okay… And I would take the hit… And now Mom and Cas… And I – I don’t know. I don’t know.”

This is an elegant parallel to season 7’s grieving Dean, about his not being able to “shake” what happened with Cas, and admitting, “he doesn’t know why.” (Cas is different. Cas has always been different.) In season 7, he also says, “I’ll do what I can,” in response to Sam telling him to get his head in the game and stay alive. Cas is a core wound in both scenarios.

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==Death & resurrection==

So, that would bring our guesstimate to Cas reuniting with the boys around 20-24 days. So, at most a little over 3 weeks but possibly closer to 4, especially if the backstory timelines of actual “case days” overlap, like 13x05 potentially does.

I am reasonably certain Cas awakened in the field near day 14. I’d personally put the actual reunion at 18-20 ish days, and certainly not longer than a month. They reunite in early June, I think. Blackberries are a summer fruit, and there are wild blackberries in the field where Cas awakens.

Dean drives to Cas and meets up with him, "in the middle of nowhere," so it seems Cas's grave and subsequent walk to civilization was in quite a remote area.

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Going back through this, I was pretty astounded how Dean kept dying or nearly dying in those days following Cas’s death. He was definitely in no state to be hunting.

(images from CSN, SPN wiki, fangirlism.com)

#shal meta #dean/cas #tfw + grieving #dean + grief #spn season 13 #jack kline #the don't talk about cas sam wont' touch the cas thing with a ten-foot pole and i love that about him so much #saaaaam you are so focused on things that are ACTIONABLE like saving mom

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shallowstories · 1 year

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Fic snippet / rec

“Sam?” Jack calls out, skidding to a halt in the doorway. Miracle is standing on alert just outside of the entrance, barks when she sees Jack and squirms in her spot.

“Don’t look!” Sam shouts back, choking on smoke and desperately fanning the blackened bits of charcoal in the skillet with a towel. “Everything’s fine!”

blow out your candles (make a wish) by @saintedcastiel

Jack and Sam celebrate Jack's fourth birthday, six months after the loss of their family.

#sam + cooking #jack + birthday #the bunker kitchen #saintedcastiel tag #fic recs #tfw + grieving #sam in the kitchen will always have my favor

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mari-lair · 4 months

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First meeting

#tfw you keep meeting people grieving a stranger #and leorio's love is loud #ant gon au #hxh #hunter x hunter #leorio #gon freecss #tried something with the colors #a handful of people asked about apo's meeting with others outside killua and i am baby step figuring out #ant gon comic

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valerian-riverheart · 10 months

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So what I'm wondering is. Didn't we just. Kill Malistaire.

Like yeah defeat the bad guy and all but I was still in shock when after "defeating" him in dragonspyre he's now a ghost. He and Sylvia go to the afterlife or whatever and Cyrus and Ambrose are congratulating the Young Wizard while I'm still sitting here like "wait, i just KILLED him??"

Wizard101 is obviously a kids game but the fact it just omits the fact you Kill People And They Become Dead feels so much more messed up because huh??

#wizard101 #w101 #if they do acknowledge it later in the game i wouldnt know bc i havent got past zafaria yet like 8 years ago #im just. when do we kill someome and when is it just cartoonishly beating them up??#because there was that one quest in grizzleheim about felling a tree and you fight treant and the other treant was like #'its good hes gone now' like wdym. hes gone???#tfw you send a child to kill a grieving man

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impossible-rat-babies · 1 month

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🧍‍♂️🚶‍♂️anyway

#ew replay is going well #ffxiv #oc: eyrie kisne #x. ship in port #not to be like. a way about them but like #tfw you help your friend carry the bodies of two young parents #to a resting place in the knowledge that they know every step in thavnair has been a failure #their failure to protect ahewann and now he is greivously injured #their failure to protect a father and his young son #the failure to keep the people of palaka’s stand safe #especially coming off of garlemald and eyrie is truly still in the pits of that #EW is so much about the twists and turns of duty and responsibility and bearing the weight of such things #eyrie’s inability to save people turning to anger at their helplessness #things of light and hope feel so different when they cannot act upon such things #they are angry because they grieve and they grieve because of Hydaelyn’s love #endwalker spoilers

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pepprs · 10 months

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june 27th give it up for june 27th

#purrs #delete later #sure would be an INFINITELY more special and auspicious day if there wasn’t going to be • thunderstorms all day • a budget meeting • two #back to back orientations where i am going to have to take on 2X THE FACILITATION ROLESSSSS 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 bc we’re doing that now. LMFAOOOOOO #<- and by that i mean splitting up the facilitation so instead of 4 ppl shari ng responsibility for talking AND doing logistics there’s 2 #ppl talking and 2 ppl doing logistics. and mutuals need i remind you that facilitating this specific session requires being extremely high #energy and mobile and getting ppl ‘hyped’ and there are 383729473 reasons why that is difficult for me to do in front of 100+ new students #plus three cofacilirators i am scared of / intimidated by for various reasons. im going to be sick soooo genuinely. i HATE this 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#anyways yeah. today is my one year anniversary and also my first day as an fte so. 🫠 and one year ago today was pretty awful too like my #first day was actually extremely extremely bad and i cried like multiple times every day that week bc it kept getting worse so. love how #things have changed so substantially since then and the things that triggered me on that day aren’t an issue anymore <3 (they are very much #still an issue it’s just the specific people involved have changed bc half the ppl working here including one of my dearest closest #mentors who was deeply involved in that situation have left the university and now it is utterly unrecognizable and every day i wake up in #an alternate universe i know deep down i am not supposed to be in and yet im trapped in it irreversibly and this IS my universe now. lolll 🥰#)) also ik it’s stupid to still be grieving over this but like. the entire way it all went down + the fact that it even did in the first #place and the STAGGGERING consequences of it. are kind of insane. every new development makes me feel more and more like im living in a fake #reality and nothing that is happening is supposed to be happening and im dreaming it all but it’s a bad dream. and idk how to accept #that this is NOT. a dream and that what happened happened and now i have to live with it and stop curling in on myself like a prey animal an #and isolating myself from everyone i love and taking every single conceivable situation badly. like tfw da therapy isn’t working 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#anyways i need to go get ready and practice the fucking 16 page facilitation guide 🙄 see u on the other side lol

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gorey · 2 years

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Sigh im boo boo the fucking fool as always and they're making an effort and I am grateful but I'm so heartbroken and it'll never be right I just have to live with this

#tfw youre in love with an emotionally unavailable narcissist who is grieving their childhood best friend and lost love #and has no way to love you like they once did and youve burnt so many bridges being fucking insane #im gonna shrivel up and crawl into a hole #a #s

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datesleftaiba · 2 years

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y’know what I’m a sucker for? bittersweet adult relationships connected by hardship and a complicated past

#this is specifically about hitomi and renju #i wanna write something about them so badbut renju is such an ASSHOLE-#but yeah #tfw when your best friend hands you the keys to find your other dead best friends corpse so you can grieve her anytime #like the fact that renju was crying in his office. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #y'know. y'know what.#anyways this may also be about date and pewter after the anilliation endings

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runelocked · 4 months

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MAYBE HE DOESN’T HAVE HENRY. WILLIAM WOULD BE WILLING TO CONCEDE THIS. But, an unbidden thought reminds him: if he doesn’t have Henry, then who the hell does he have ? The idea of the answer being nobody leaves his mouth dry and cheeks white and bloodless, or maybe that’s the reminder of Elizabeth’s fate. “ Gone. Oh, she’s — gone, she’s dead and gone, my friend. ” Not permanent. Not permanent, and yet enough to snap him out of that delirium of a downwards spiral.

He spirals still now, of course. But there is no delirium, there is no manic energy to cover the guilt or grief. There is only his daughter’s face, cold and still in his mind, and Henry, just out of reach, not close enough, and William’s own mind, painfully silent for once. A harsh breath leaves his lungs, nostrils flaring as headache threatens to pound. Legs straightened unbearably, every muscle in his body alight with tugging, tumbling bitterness. You are the only one I have. So why won’t Henry hold him ? Comfort him in his grief ? Selfish to want his touch even now, but William doesn’t give a damn.

“ I can fix things, ” he tells Henry, tells himself, though to his own ear it has never sounded less convincing. Voice threatens to collapse in on itself, ringing too loud and insistent — near delusional — in the heavy air. Hastening to speak again, William adds, bitter laughter in his voice, a terrible mangled sound of ghoulish amusement: “ Not yet. Not yet I can’t. But I will fix things, Henry. ” Fix everything for everyone.

CONTINUED. / @muutos

#(( tfw ur bf starts acting distant after your atrocities 🙄 ))#(ii) man behind the slaughter — roleplay thread.#a; muutos #(xox) last man standing: william & henry.#(ui) original: lyssa.#tw child death #tw child loss #tw grief #tw grieving #tw mental instability #tw child murder

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shallowseeker · 7 months

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As a follow up to my previous message about Dean’s grief being colored through Sam’s vision, it’s striking in that *that’s* the full circle moment of the show the writers were leaning to. Sam was initially the viewers eyes into learning about the supernatural and the Winchester family. We learn they support their lifestyle by running credit card scams, as an example. While undoubtedly Dean became the main character, after over 300 episodes, we wind back to Sam and see Dean through Sam’s eyes. He deflects about losing Cas. We get just the tiniest glimpse things aren’t right with Dean when he’s by himself - that hug with Miracle, getting up and leaving the bed unmade - but ultimately that’s it. Everything else Dean experiences in the remaining 20 minutes of the episode where he’s still alive, he’s with Sam.

And speaking of visions, I almost wonder that what we see of Sam’s life might not actually be what happens but rather a daydream of where he might go from here. He could marry a faceless random woman, have a kid - if it’s a boy, definitely name him after Dean, and try to hide away from the hunting lifestyle. If he doesn’t put pictures up, maybe the images of people like Cas and Jack, Jody, etc will fade from his mind. He’ll teach the importance of family to his son. We know that’s important to Sam by the enlarged picture of his parents and Dean (from Lebanon promo pics) in the middle of it all. And he’ll definitely keep the Impala.

And that might be what happens in Sam’s life. Or it might not. We really don’t know what happened after he closed the bunker doors.

"I almost wonder that what we see of Sam’s life might not actually be what happens but rather a daydream of where he might go from here."

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OH MY GOD. THE DREAMY LAST SEQUENCE AS SAM'S DAYDREAM WHILE DRIVING HIS WAY TO THE NEXT HUNT. See, Sam's listening to Carry on My Wayward Son, but in his mind, it becomes...this.

I friggin' love that idea, though! Like, when you lose someone, you do find yourself thinking, "I'll see them again, someday. They're probably in Heaven right now. Jack fixed it, so it's better. Cas helped. Everyone is together. I'll probably meet him on a bridge...when I too cross over." That's so...normal.

"He could marry a faceless random woman, have a kid - if it’s a boy, definitely name him after Dean, and try to hide away from the hunting lifestyle. ...And he’ll definitely keep the Impala. And that might be what happens in Sam’s life. Or it might not. We really don’t know what happened after he closed the bunker doors."

The woman is blurry, because Sam doesn't have a clear idea of it just yet, but she will be transformational and zen and so, so normal. Sam has a very poor idea of what aging will actually look like for him, too because none of his fam has ever actually made it that far. Which is why the wig looks so weird.

Sam has a very poor imagination of what "normal" looks like, because he is and has always been a weirdo. Like, he really thinks he'll be decrepit and elderly by the time his son is a young adult.

Not only do I love this, but I spent the last three minutes laughing at how Sam put his entire neurodivergent heart into his grief-fantasy, and it looks like that.

spectacular! @lemon--verbena

#asks #HELP I'm LAUGHING #spn finale #cw spn finale #sam stuff #sammy #sam + grieving #tfw + grieving #wayward on main street #fic brainstorming #file under best asks ever

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topaz-stars · 2 months

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TFW you’re entire existence was created by a really petty and mean game dev who’s dreams were crushed by capitalism and his shitty boss, who is also deeply depressed and grieving his dead wife. And you just have to cope with that while you draw silly pictures.

#stumbler o’hare #shipwrecked 64 #shipwrecked #shipwrecked 64 spoilers

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vendettasfanfictioning · 5 months

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I think human! Cas makes perfect sense as an endgame and a loophole to get him out of the Empty. The Shadow said it's the place angels and demons go to, right? Because they're a separate category from other monsters (for some reason) so the most logical conclusion tfw could've jumped, after finding a way, some spell or ritual, to get to the Empty was to make Cas human.

And that's on counting Jack doesn't altogether meddle with Cas' fate, which he still ended up doing for the supposed finale. Plus, say it with me now, Dean gripping Cas tight and raising him from perdition would've been the most narratively satisfying way to end the show. The fuck do you mean it was pointless all along, that Dean still ends up dead in a hunt, never stopping the cycle they started on. They sacrificed so much, lost so many people, and they couldn't even break free? Continuing that loop and making those sacrifices futile?

They could've easily shot Sam and Dean mourning in the bunker. Sam lost Eileen, Dean lost Cas, they both essentially lost their son, and you're telling me neither of them would want to just lay down and grieve first? No, nuh-uh, I hate this sm.

#supernatural #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #castiel #eileen leahy #destiel #saileen #spn finale #jack kline #this post lost me but my point still stands all my homies hate the finale

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soullessjack · 4 months

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so of course the basics of the jack/Azazel parallel is “yellow eyed thing that kills Mary Winchester,” (who saw that coming), but it’s also about the parallels between sam and dean in the early seasons with the Azazel storyline, and them at the end of s14, which the show directly makes with that “we got work to do” trunk shot (and sam even saying in 13x01, “these yellow eyed things just keep coming.”)

early season 1 is about an angry grieving man who lost a woman dear to him because a yellow eyed monster killed her and that angry man wants revenge, no matter what it could cost him or how it could destroy him. in fact, it’s a worthy sacrifice to destroy himself, if it means he can get revenge.

end of season 14 is about an angry grieving man who lost a woman dear to him because a yellow eyed monster killed her and that angry man wants revenge, no matter what it could cost him or how it could destroy him if it means he can get revenge, except this time the yellow eyed monster in question is his son, and he cannot bring himself to kill his son even when he’s so grief-stricken he can only see a yellow eyed monster. this time he has something that’s worth more than revenge, and so he chooses forgiveness.

Azazel, to keep it simple, is a monster. he’s a force of sheer evil and destruction with poisonous blood he uses to infect his soldiers. he destroyed numerous families while creating his army, and he destroyed the Winchester family by killing Mary Winchester, launching john into a spiral of grief and anger and vengeance that only further destroyed them.

Jack has always struggled with the fear that he’s evil and a monster and can only ever cause destruction, particularly towards his chosen family; jack winds up living this fear as a reality when he kills Mary, inadvertently destroys the Winchester family and launches dean into a spiral of grief and anger and vengeance that only further destroys them. he’s also blatantly accused of infecting sam and dean because of who his father is (read: his blood) and of, you guessed it! destroying the family.

the only difference between Jack and Azazel is that jack is family. he’s one of Mary’s boys. he’s just as much her kid as he is TFW’s. he is loved by them and he loves them back. he becomes psychotic with grief over Mary, and the sheer horror of what he did to her—what he did to his family. in s15 he is suicidal with guilt over his Heaven murders, of destroying Mary and destroying his family. he had spent his life trying to be good and safe and prove he wasn’t a monster or villain or bad guy, just for it to happen anyways and to almost become Thee Bad Guy that started it all

@insanesonofabitch :3c

#spn #supernatural #spn parallels #jack kline #azazel spn #spn meta #sort of i guess #sam winchester #dean winchester #dean and jack #mary winchester #spn 14x17 #spn 14x19 #moriah #castiel #tfw2.0 #team free will 2.0 #don’t even get me started on jacks mommy issues it is actually insane #he’s a very insane guy when you really look at him (speaking from experience)

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rosalinesurvived · 4 months

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Tfw you’re married to an dangerous unstable butcher and made queen to this guy and everyone at your court waits for you to die too and you have nightmares about this man killing you as he killed his wives so you hide your religion and placate and love him and keep yourself a secret as best as you can and do everything right but you’re still in torment with these dreams and their judgement and they give you his dead wives’ jewels and clothes and castles so you have to wear the gowns of a murdered child whom you can’t even admit was innocent because her name was dragged through the mud so much and just as you think you’ve achieved his love and reunited his family he paints his dead wife in your clothes on the royal portrait and she is in your clothes as if you are the ghost, alongside all the others who came after her and this was the woman he abandoned in childbed, and all of this happens to you smack bang in the middle of public so you can’t even rage or grieve smhhh

#look objectively i know that phillipa gregory can barely be called a historical writer but DAMN #catherine parr #kateryn parr #she was holding shit together in that court #tudor era #jane seymour #katherine howard #catherine howard #henry viii #the taming of the queen #phillipa gregory #I WOULD’NT reccommend this book btw! you don’t need to read it!#its a barebrush detailing of kateryn parr but the ending is so wildly inane and i HAAATE thomas seymour and how they portrayed elizabeth #house of tudor

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hoziernaturalevents · 1 month

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Hoziernatural Recs: Gen Fics/Character Studies

Sign-ups for the 2024 round of the Hoziernatural Multi-Ship Bang are open, and people will soon be working to create a whole new batch of Hoziernatural content! However, for those of you who would like something to read between now and posting, we have some recs to fill that need 💚

Everything listed below is gen, but if you're a person of varied taste, then check out our Wincest, Destiel, and Rare Pair rec lists!

After The Raven Has Had Its Say by @spnyuri

Beta: @munchablemusic

Hozier Song: In a Week

Rating: Teen & Up

Word Count: 5,008

Pairing/s: Castiel & Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Castiel/Dean Winchester

Warnings: Major character death, suicidal thoughts

Additional Tags: Canon Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Post-Finale, Unrequited Love, Panic Attacks, Memories

Summary: Sam is coping badly after Dean's death. Jack, unable to interfere directly, sends Castiel down to help him. They grieve Dean together.

Don't Let Me In by @gen-spn with art by @outofnowhere82

Beta: @hermit-writes

Hozier Song: It Will Come Back

Rating: Teen & Up

Word Count: 6,691

Pairing/s: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester

Warnings: Canon-typical violence, canonical character death, alcoholism, unhealthy coping mechanisms, unhealthy relationships

Additional Tags: Dean Winchester Character Study, Pre-canon, canon era, Stanford era, s15e20 Carry On

Summary:

Dean is always on the wrong side of the door, but he’s used to it by now. Not fitting the places life shoves him in.

The problem is when Sam’s on the other side.

(A character study inspired by Hozier's It Will Come Back.)

he feels no control of his body by @withthekeyisking-writer with art by @amberdreams1960

Beta: miajackswild

Hozier Song: Foreigner's God

Rating: Teen & Up

Word Count: 8,117

Pairing/s: Gen

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Additional Tags: Sam Winchester's Bodily Autonomy Issues, Religious Sam Winchester, Character Study, Grief/Mourning, Self-Worth Issues, Hurt/Comfort, Non-Linear Narrative

Summary: Sam Winchester has spent his entire life believing in things and people who never believed in him in turn.

Tame Your Demons by @withthekeyisking-writer

Hozier Song: Arsonist's Lullaby

Rating: Teen & Up

Word Count: 2,027

Pairing/s: Lucifer & Sam Winchester

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply, Past Torture

Additional Tags: Episode AU: 11x09 O Brother Where Art Thou, Sam Winchester Says Yes to Lucifer, Lucifer Possessing Sam Winchester, Manipulative Lucifer, Sam Winchester Has Issues, Hurt Sam Winchester, TFW Your Abuser is Possessing You, Sam Has Cage Trauma, Open Ending

Summary: The deal on the table: say yes to Lucifer and be his ride out of the Cage, and in exchange get his help defeating the Darkness.

It's the absolute last thing Sam wants in the world. But he caused all of this, and they need to defeat Amara. They...need Lucifer.

when we begin again by @entropic-saudade with art by @outofnowhere82

Beta: @outofnowhere82

Hozier Song: All Things End

Rating: Teen & Up

Word Count: 5,766

Pairing/s: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester

Warnings: Mentions of canon deaths/trauma

Additional Tags: Episode: s12e11 Regarding Dean, Temporary Amnesia, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hugs, Accidental Cuddling, Broments

Summary: The spell Rowena uses in Regarding Dean doesn’t work right away.

Dean learns who he is again, with Sam by his side.

#hozier #spn #hoziernatural #spn gen fic #spn art #Castiel & Sam #Sam & Dean #Sam Winchester #Lucifer & Sam #rec list

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