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sooo... I'm getting my adhd assessment today
I'm excited and terrified at the same time
#surviving with undiagnosed adhd#adhd#adhd struggles#adhd stuff#adhd diagnosis#adhd problems#adhd things
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Lmao these TikTok asks gives me life. Are you a bit tempted to get TikTok now?
i prefer the curated version, aka y'all showing me sparkly things to look at so i don't have to go on the demon website that would eat what's left of my attention span
#my undiagnosed adhd ass would not survive#i would never write again#personal#Jay Answers Asks#anonymous#anon#ask
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The illusion is that "I'm better than this, I can get better". While things can improve, if you have depression, it doesn't just go away. It doesn't just get better because you try harder. People used to tell me "if you just tried I know you could do better" or "you need to try harder, believe in yourself" people said this, to me, a then 8-12 year old who had zero idea of what was going on. Zero understanding about what depression or adhd or autism even is/was
(To be fair, back in the 90s there wasn't as much info, but it's no excuse to be cruel. I wouldn't count this as cruel exactly but a lot of people equate it to being lazy, which it isn't.)
People would ask me why I didn't want to go to school, and I really didn't know, but looking back I remember how I felt and I can identify what it was now. It was because it was hard to get up, it was hard to do anything. I knew I had a problem, but at that age, I just didn't understand why I couldn't do things. Yet people would physically attack me because I was "being lazy". Like not getting up in time. But of course, when you literally try to pick up an autistic child of that age who doesn't feel well, you're gonna be met with a bad reaction.
It's only now at age 35 that I can identify not just how cruel my parents were but the school officials that literally mentally, emotionally, and even physically abused me. While I did grow up in a better setting than some people I've met or known, it was the one area in which my parents failed me. They didn't know why, just as I didn't know, but it's hard to..forgive it, because I feel like I would have made a different choice.
It wasn't that my parents didn't try to understand, but it was that they made choices that were just less cruel than what the school officials did to me. It set me back as a person. It stopped me from living what allistic and non-disabled people call a "normal life". Secretly unbeknownst to me. My entire family didn't believe that I could actually take care of myself. It was only after I moved that they saw what I was capable of. They literally told me this was the case after the fact, and it hurt me, because they told me all those years to believe in myself..but they...didn't even believe in me!!!!!
All those years I hated myself, I literally believed I was nothing and worthless. That I was a burden, that I was just bad. Even the school counselor told my mom that I was a bad student!!!!! Like..just because I couldn't do work, or because I..had problems. And..even though I'm passed all that now, it's still there. The pain sometimes rushes back in and I feel it all over again.
But you know...I say to all you right now who have read this far. Never give up on yourself. Never let anyone tell you you're bad or evil. To deal with what you, what we have to deal with. It isn't easy. They can't understand the weight of what we have to carry every single day of our lives. So I say, you're not lazy, you're not a burden, you're not bad. We're just people with problems. It's okay to have problems. It isn't our fault. We never chose this life.
#autism#autistic experiences#autistic problems#adhdlife#adhd things#living with adhd#undiagnosed autistic child#depression#anxiety#mental health#mental illness#mentally tired#abuse#trauma#trauma survival#trauma support#positive mental attitude#disabled person#disabled#disability
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if jesse was a dog hed be a pitbull. you all know im right now give me 5$
#finnposting#like it makes SENSE with the stigma around pitbulls as fighting dogs vs around addicts as violent and stupid#but both literally depend entirely on environment and upbringing and support and actual personality#also have you ever seen a putbull with a really round ass scruffy face. now go look at later seasons jesse. yea#ALSO the parallels of dogfighting rings with the drug business#+cropped ears vs buzzcuts and masculinity as a performance of aggression for survival and the damage that does to the ability to recieve#be it sound or kindness#also smth about tail docking due to misguided understanding of dog health as a metaphor for the trauma of mishandling undiagnosed adhd#jesse pinkman#brba#breaking bad#better call saul#bcs#anyway. im sitting on a fic where jesse adopts a dog thats a metaphor for all his trauma and this is what im working with
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kinda wanna learn how to play the guitar. oh no
#im extremely impulsive i'll quit after like 2 seconds#but still#my posts 🌌🦑#i've got too much undiagnosed adhd swag to survive. see: the keyboard i bought on impulse
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How to write The Doctor well:
Step 1: give them the most raging case of unfettered unmedicated undiagnosed ADHD the world has ever seen to the point where they'll start experimenting with what poisons they can survive if left under stimulated for too long
Step 2: you can wing it from there lol
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Okay while I'm pretty sure what I'm having right now is a flu and not the beginnings of burnout, this is still something I had to learn the hard way and want to tell you too: Forcing yourself to do shit you don't want to do is a limited resource. Not a depleting one, but it burns out faster than it grows back, so you can't run on that shit forever. Or even as a routine measure.
Sure, you can't go through life only doing fun things and only doing the things you have to do when it's fun, but there's a sliding scale of work tolerance, with fun things you do for fun on one end and Just Grit Your Teeth And Fucking Push Yourself Through It on the other, and the regular habitual work you just do going in the middle. You should be spending most of your time in the middle, getting to do enjoyable tasks sometimes to recharge and resorting to pushing through as necessary, but only as a last resort.
It takes grit to develop a tolerance to doing shit you hate, and keeping on working when your heart, soul, mind, and every thread of the fabric of your being - save for the part that's consciously, rationally aware that you still have to do it - is telling you No. You really do have to force yourself to force yourself to do things sometimes. I went through the first 27 years of my life with undiagnosed and unmedicated ADHD, and I can absolutely tell you that you just gotta tough it out sometimes. But that should be a skill, not a habit.
Make Yourself Do Shit -Juice is a scarce and quickly depleted resource. An emergency reserve that should be preserved for things like enduring calamities, self-preserving self-care for really bad health days (mental and physical!), and enduring relatives that you see once per year. Not everyday things like work, sleep and exercise. You have to find a way to make the things you have to do tolerable and something you can endure. Finding at least some level of enjoyment in things you have to do every day isn't a priviledge or a luxury, it's a necessity for perpetual survival.
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I was sitting in a box when I realized something. I've given you guys GENERAL facts about my Hazbin Rewrite, but have I given you STRICTLY angst facts? Sad depressing facts about these characters? I have not. Good thing I have angst to spare.
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Angsty, Sad facts about my rewrite for Character purposes, general information, or because I want your day to be a little worse than it was.
TRIGGERWARNING: DEATH, RACISM, SEXUAL ASSULT, GROSS TOPICS IN GENERAL. PLEASE BE WARNED!!
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Angel's wife died in child birth. She wasn't a main priority condensending she's a POC like Angel. The baby managed to survive but Angel developed depression after that instance.
Nifty's parents were never able to have a proper funeral for their daughter. When Nifty was pushed into the fire, her husband's mistress ran out of the home, leaving Nifty's body burning. She was so unrecognizable and burnt that he parents couldn't have a funeral. (I kinda just spoiled why Nifty's in hell didn't I?)
Arakaniss was the one to mess up Angel's eye. Angel holds some resentment over this but not as much as he rightfully should. Arakaniss still makes himself suffer for it.
Angel almost killed Alastor when they fought. He's the reason Alastor has that scar at the base of his neck.
Valentino gets... handsy with Vox, even more when he's drunk. It's never gotten super far but he's definitely had to be pushed off. Vox refuses to call himself a victim. (He is.)
Angel has alot internalized homophobia. Like alot.
Valerie's crack on her head is from her ex boyfriend smashing her head into the counter, affectively killing her.
Valerie's parents are kinda homophobic. Not viciously homophobic, juts passively homophobic. Valerie ended up in a relationship with a man even though she's a lesbian because she didn't want her family to disown her.
Lucifer kicked Charlie out and claimed to disown her. Lilith was the one to gift Charlie the Hotel so she could achieve her dream.
Cherrie Bomb was absolutely terrified when she showed up in Hell. This terror and confusion lead to her almost being murdered by a exterminator. Good thing Angel was there.
Cherrie was heavily abused and neglected by her parents growing up.
Angel kinda lost himself after his daughter died.
Madame Pentious was harassed and fun of when she was alive for being "ugly." She's never really been treated well.
Husk is someone who is passively suicidal. He isn't going out of his way to off himself in his afterlife but if Alastor snaps or a exterminator happens to catch him then he won't do much to fight back.
Cherrie actually gets really upset she can't hear well.
Valerie will do anything and everything to make sure Charlie is happy. Valerie has been treated so bad that she thinks "I'm nothing without you. I have to do everything right cause what am I without you."
Arakaniss and Molly we're the one to find Angel's body. They died shortly after him. They don't like to talk about it.
Husk will let you treat him like a punching bag.
Nifty has undiagnosed Adhd. She also doesn't know she has Adhd. This leads her to breaking down at times because she doesn't understand what's wrong with her and why she can't just be normal.
Alastor's parents died extremely young. Being a orphaned black child that inspired to be in a white dominated job lead to much harrasment and troubles. Over coming this harasment and being successful is one of Alastor's greatest achievements. This is where his ego stems from.
Angel, Alastor, Nifty, Valerie, Arakaniss, Molly and Velvette have all been harassed for their race.
Angel used to be like Cherrie in the worst way. Arackaniss is really bad at showing his love and appreciation so this lead to unintentional harshness he showed on Angel. Angel strived for YEARS to make Arakaniss proud. Cherrie is like this currently. Angel is trying to change this mindset because he knows how exhausting it is.
Husk was abused by alot of people in his life.
Husk being transgender has caused him problems when it comes to dating. Men see him as a woman, Woman see him as a woman. Sexual relationships are even worse.
Valerie used to self harm alot. She still has these scars on her arms. (Charlie tries to put bandaids on them not understanding that she's not actually in pain.)
Angel isn't someone who relies on drugs. He's more of a passive drug addict. He only resorts to drugs when things get tough or if he's in his own head to long. This developed after the death of his wife but got worse when his daughter died.
Isabella, Angel's daughter, died even younger than Nifty. She was somewhere in her teens. She's not in hell. She's all alone in heaven.
Henroin (Angel's dad), died before Isabella. He doesn't know how Isabella died or when she died.
Henroin, Arackaniss, and Molly don't actually know where Angel is. A Lil bit of a lore dump: After Angel became a overlord, he doesn't go out barely at all. He doesn't go to meetings ND he doesn't show his face. He only goes out for personal meetings or when he needs too. Most people don't know who he is or what he looks like, like the spider family. The spider family also keeps a low profile considering they are a actual mafia. Both sides are actively looking for wach other.
Henroin doesn't know Arackaniss is the one that messed up Angel's eye, Angel never told him.
I have more but I feel like this is enough. Why I decide to write these I don't know, just felt like I needed to take these characters and be them down emotionally.
Asks are always open, art is always here, have a good time :)
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#hazbin hotel rewrite#hazbin hotel critical#hazbin hotel criticism#hazbin hotel rewrite blog#hazbin hotel angel dust#hazbin hotel redesign#vivziepop critical#hazbin hotel angels dad#hazbin hotel niffty#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel charlie#hazbin hotel husk#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel pentious#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel vaggie#angst#triggering content#triggering themes#triggering topics
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thinking about my old ocs again sooooo
meet the six of hearts!!!
oliver "ollie" miller (he/him) 15 years old, has adhd dyslexia and asthma, grew up really sheltered with has parents openly preferring him over his brother
jackson "jackie" miller (he/him) 17 years old, deaf and autistic with really bad anxiety, has hearing aids but wearing them for too long overwhelms him, i wouldnt say hes openly gay but he never really had a chance to be in the closet, ollies older brother, grew up with his parents treating him like a failure
sage arlene (she/her), 15 years old, audhd and ocd, has two supportive gay dads, ollies best friend, generally a very cheerful person but ollie and terry joke that she should come with a "will bite" warning like an agressive dog
terry cuervo (they/he), 16 years old, autism dyslexia ptsd and panic disorder, half latino on his dads side, emo theater kid, survives off of energy drinks
via wilson (she/her) 16 years old, c-ptsd and anxiety, sages gf, grew up with a single dad
rosy moren (she/they) 16 years old, undiagnosed audhd, grew up in foster care, vias adopted sister, the friend to go to when you need comfort, advice, or simply a distraction
before you get too attached to any of them, this is my horror wip.
#asher says stuff#ashers writing rambles#i might put jesse in a reblog#hes not a protagonist but hes jackies bf
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Stan head canons
Hii, these are a little based on the episodes and popular opinions, but I also wanted to share some of my ideas. I guess most of them apply when he is older. ( Also, excuse my bad English in some of the phrases. I’m not sure if it’s right)
Please feel free to share your own head canons ^^
He is the messiest person to ever exist. All his clothes are scattered around his room together with music sheets and occasionally cans from energy drinks.
He loves animals, especially dogs. He sometimes goes to the local animal shelter to play with them. He drags Kyle with him.
He also invites Kyle everyday to walk Sparky with him. He loves walking around at dawn since the streets aren’t that busy.
His sleep schedule is completely messed up. He stays up way too long even on school days to play video games or work on songs.
He either has too much energy for the day or no at all. There is no in between.
Whenever he has to do an assignment, he is always procrastinating until the very last day. Somehow he always managed to finish it ( sometimes with Kyle’s help)
He wouldn’t survive a day without music. His headphones are always turned up to the max, making his friends question how his ears are still okay.
His music taste includes almost everything and he couldn’t tell you what his favorite song is. He also writes his own songs and plays the guitar. He wishes to be in a band again and is trying to convince some of his friends to join.
He somehow is still the quarterback of the football team, but he doesn’t take it really seriously. It’s fun sometimes though. The school forces every student to join a sports club.
His best subjects are music and history. Everything else is pretty average.
He only drinks at parties or with friends, but he often overestimates himself and ends up drunk and Kyle has to get him home.
He has undiagnosed adhd.
He is really good at Super Smash, but sucks at Mario Kart.
Stan loves Kyle’s hair and always tries to talk him out of cutting it. ( he had cried once when Kyle shaved his head as a kid)
He is the cousin of Craig and also has peruvian roots. He can speak Spanish, but is mad that Craig is better at it.
He is bisexual.
He absolutely can’t flirt without making it extremely awkward. His bros are the exception.
He either replies to a message immediately or weeks later. Phone calls aren’t even let through with a few exceptions like his mom, Kyle or Kenny.
Stan has given himself an earring and wanted give himself a piercing too. Kyle stopped him ( fr don’t do that. Mine got infected).
He has the habit of dying his hair blonde whenever something slightly inconvenient happens and regrets it afterwards.
Stan used to hold Kyle’s hand whenever he had to take his insulin shot. Since Kyle once nearly died from his diabetes, he is a bit more cautious about his best friend’s health.
Almost everyone likes him since he is a pretty chill guy.
He rarely eats meat and pays attention to only buying bio products.
#south park#sp style#sp stan#sp stan marsh#south park stan#stan marsh#stan marsh hc#style#south park style#sp stan hc
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u were so right abt puppyre jesse pinkman maybe u could do a puppy jesse moodboard!!! :3
Folks, I present: Jesse Pupman
Thank you very much for requesting this, I had a lot of fun lol. Jesse is such a good character and I love him to bits. I'm also submitting this to the petre/animalre contest that @theregressionlibrary is doing! Yay! Hcs below the cut :>
For starters I think he would unconciounsly resonate with working/obediant breeds. He really does want to be well-behaved and play by the rules but that's never worked out for him (caugh undiagnosed ADHD/ASD cough). He's a natural follower probably partly because he's been taught that he's always 'wrong' by so many figures in his life, though he can lead quite well when it's called for but he doesn't see himself as a leader. I think he usually gravitates to collie, alsation, shiba, jack russel types but he doesn't really care about breeds.
Doesn't really remember when it all started but he became very aware of it once Walt reentered his life. He had it rough before but good gravy.
He's often in a constant state of survival which doesn't let him slip or be any kinds of vulnerable until he feels safe. But to a certain point his brain just gets overloaded and does a force shut down, leading him to go pretty deep into doggy mode.
It's a big mix of comfort, stress, turmoil and dissociation but it does help him get through things, even if Jesse is a bit ashamed of it. He does quite like it when he can enjoy it though. I truly believe with an outlet/coping mechanism as strong as this, he could have escaped a lot of the show lmfao.
Alternative timeline: he embraces his regression, moves to "Oregon or whatever", starts a new life, does a lot of self disovery and maybe even meets a caregiver/guardian figure.
Still a lot of angst from his journey so far but he's like, safe. Yo.
I do think he would benefit from finding someone really caring though, and open minded. It'd do a lot of good for him to be able to meet someone who doesn't riducule him and instead forms a healthy, balanced bond with him.
And who buys him puppy chew toys (because those ones are softer on teeth)
btw when he's puppymode he has the biggest most expressive puppy eyes. if you care.
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#breaking bad petre#breaking bad pet regression#tagging agere too because.#well.#its my post#breaking bad agere#i heart you jesse pupman#chickpeaoriginals#ITS TEN PAST IM SORRY.#fandom regression#fandom petre#fandom pet regression
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just heard about rsd - rejection sensitive dysphoria - as an adhd symptom and yet again so many things start to make sense
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My ADHD Broke Me
I was thinking today about how harmful it is to grow up with undiagnosed ADHD while also being a responsible, rational person (like most of us are). like, it’s obviously hard when you keep getting feedback from parents, teachers, coaches, etc. on how you “should be doing better”. but it was so hard, my whole childhood, to also look into myself and think internally “yes, I should be doing better. why am I not doing better?” and having no answer.
like, the absolute gut-wrenching trauma of being in the principal’s office or at the dinner table, being told I should have done this and that, and I’m sitting there in tears saying “I know”. and because the adults in my life didn’t have ADHD, hearing me agree and even preempt their criticism with criticism of my own, they came to the conclusion I must either be lazy or lying. how can a person know exactly what they should be doing and still not do it? obviously, they either chose not to do it, knowing the consequences, and are just “acting up”, or they are lying after the fact, pretending they knew what they should have done. either way, I was a “bad kid”. I beat myself bloody trying to conform to outward expectations, and I still walked away with the label of “rebellious” and “troublemaker”. labels I had to agree with, based on the evidence.
it fucked me up. how many times did I look inside myself wondering desperately “why can’t I do this? why do I know it needs to be done and I’m still not doing it?”. for a lot of years, I was convinced I was evil (catholic upbringing, bear with me). I felt like I was sharing my skin with a traitor. I felt like nothing in the world could possibly ever be improved by me or controlled by me. I felt I couldn’t rely on myself. I doubted my own opinion of my value, my needs, my comfort, my priorities. I got better at anticipating the desires of other people and completely lost touch with myself. because what good is it to listen to me? I am a liar.
I’m always the problem, always the one fucking up, always the one that doesn’t do what I should. my intentions and my actions are so far removed from one another that sometimes I might as well be a stranger to myself. disassociating was a survival tactic. it was so hard to feel centered in my body, present in my life, responsible for any of my choices.
I still don’t know how to forgive myself. I am trying to relearn how to trust and value myself. I am still working to reattach myself to my body and to my life, and some days I just can’t.
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Junior surviving and living with Miss Fairchild AU
Junior 100% has undiagnosed ADHD. It wasn’t something Rachel fully picked up on until she was homeschooling him. With subjects he was actually interested in, like English and science, he plays pretty good attention to and doesn’t get that distracted. But with subjects he dislikes, like history and math, he’s all over the place. He’s constantly distracted and trying to change the subject, fidgeting, even getting up and pacing around because “I just don’t feel like sitting, I’m bored”. If he’s not understanding something (he’s terrible at math because I’m terrible at math, I’m projecting), he gets really frustrated and will start aggressively flapping his hands before forcing himself to stop by clenching his fists since when he stims like that, it embarrasses him (also projecting, leave me alone). Rachel, who also has ADHD, is the one who knows how to get him to calm down and do breathing exercises with him before giving him breaks so he can get his focus back.
Oh absolutely, the undiagnosed ADHD becomes a lot more obvious to Rachel while homeschooling Junior especially when they get to a subject he doesn’t like, like math for example (I hate math too lmao). As soon as he starts getting distracted, fidgeting and pacing she immediately realises that Junior seemed to be showing symptoms of ADHD, his frustrated stimming further confirms that point for her considering she has ADHD as well and does all of this stuff, just not with work because that’s something she fixates on but other things. After realising this she tries to help in anyway that she can by doing breathing exercises with him to calm him down and help him to focus, getting him a few stim toys and even adjusting her lesson plan and trying to make things a little more interesting for him.
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Cons are good a.u.
How much better would the decepticons handle neurodivergence?
Hmm well, I'm sure they would have something but they're not really that far away from Cybertron.
Decepticons were originally from Cybertron and followed their rules until they were outcasted. Some of the best medics and mechanics were sided with Decepticons, although with lack of proper equipment and medicine, there isn't much to work with outside of major cities outside Cybertron they control.
Despite things not being registered in the medical code, the Decepticon medics handle such things as any real issue one would have.
For example Shockwave/Longarm- he has a slight personality split thing from creation. He was originally just a normal civil mech just living his life as more than one person. When the war was brewing he joined the Decepticons and with his ability to be one person with many faces he acts as a spy for them.
Blitzwing is a whole new thing- he was programmed with some sort of AuDHD (autism+adhd). He was originally a seeker working in the Decepticon file department along with Shockwave and got the appropriate treatment but the need to move and be in action was eating him inside out, so Megatron re-assigned him to be a seeker scout. Then the war got rougher and Decepticons were forced to abandon any honor they had left and turn to more heinous means.
The projects to improve their frames started and along with that several candidactes volunteered or were picked. Blitzwing originally didn't want to do it but got persuaded by Megatron. The success rates were low but Blitzwing was a success... at a cost.
Something went wrong with his programming when adjusting to another altmode and now he had a permanent personality disorder. He was the first and the last to go under such procedure and be alive.
Blitzwing may be scared of Megatron after this but Megatron still treats him with respect. He thinks of Blitzwing as his son and will protect him if need be.
I don't really know where i was going with this, i'm a bit rusty but to summarize: The 'cons are aware of the existance of such issues and are trying their best to help folks with them. They have treatment and try to share it with whoever they can without getting them killed for having associations with Decepticons. Those that have neurodivergent and other issues get assigned to appropriate jobs to do well in.
Cybertron's council is corrupt and they only care about profit so people are forced to live in this pretend-utopia dystopia to survive and deal with whatever shit hits them. If they have those undiagnosed issues the society only treats them as useless troublemakers and they are most likely quick to lose jobs.
Bumblebee, being forged in the corrupt era of Cybertron, had several issues with his programming and ended up being an underdeveloped frame that got classified as minibot. He struggled with academy and somehow landed a job at a club, the owner was secretly a decepticon-favoring folk and got him in touch with specialists to patch whatever issues he had, even sponsored it when he didn't have money for the procedures. He had a little easier life.
On earth he got diagnosed with ADHD and symptoms of depression- Ratchet never says where he gets the treatment pills for him but they work so he never bothers to ask. Prowl has autism so he's also on the treatment list, Optimus too (PTSD stuff).
(He pays Swindle to deliver him stuff a normal supply delivery wouldn't give him. It's the only reason he's able to maintain them all working. A less ethical practice of his is copying one's files to another hard drive in case their system crashes and deletes them, he keeps quiet about it.)
I think that's about it? Lemme know if i missed something.
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I got up this morning and the world didn’t want to fistfight me! It’s gonna be an okay day. I got a bunch of paperwork done and went through the Europe file one last time to make sure I wasn’t missing anything, then printed it.
One of the reasons I wanted to print at the UPS store is that while I HAVE a printer, and it even prints in color, it doesn’t print very well in color, and it was being fussy about being low on ink. When I force-printed what I needed, however, it came out fine. I also cleaned for the catsitter including pruning my windowsill garden, pulled together enough cash to leave out as tips, and assembled all the trash that needs to be taken out.
My replacement phone will be an upgrade because Pixel no longer makes the 5a, so I also bought a new case for it and a new popsocket to stick on the back, since the popsocket on the old case cracked in half when I tried to pull it off (it was a promotional pop from a CRM I hate, so no great loss).
It is looking more and more like the damage to my phone is internal and I may not be able to pull any data off it. I don’t back up my photos to the cloud, but because of that I’m diligent about backups -- the only month I’ll lose is April. Which is a bummer, but a lot of the photos are either here on tumblr or were texted to people, and I can recover those. I’m going to have to rebuild my file of pictures of my niece, but like, what a chore, sifting through all my photos for all my pictures of her. How will I survive. I also had a “reference” folder of photos of documents and reaction images I use frequently but it probably needed cleaning out anyway. There are a handful of notes I kept on my phone that will be a pain in the ass to lose, but the important ones were backed up.
I’m working on figuring out if I ever backed up my podcast subscriptions, but if anything could use a cleaning-out it’s definitely my podcasts. Besides, there’s lists of what I follow floating around on this tumblr somewhere.
The greatest loss in the end may be if I can’t pull a backup of my Merge Dragons game off of Facebook. It was my anxiety game early in the pandemic and I’m very attached to it, but I can always start with a fresh game. Otherwise I think the calamity is survivable.
Good phone hygiene is one of the coping mechanisms I developed for having undiagnosed ADHD while owning a Distraction Machine that lived in my pocket at all times. Keeping important stuff on the cloud so it was accessible from multiple locations, while keeping stuff like photos and music frequently backed up, is about to really save my ass.
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