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chryso0 · 3 years

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Theories about new Chapter;

Obviously we all have a lot of questions about the latest chapter and what this all means for the boys. This particular panel threw a lot of people off and for very obvious reasons as its going to change the course of the story quite a lot.

This post is gonna be more focused on Akihito (sorry Asami 🥺), and what happened with him. We are gonna be asking. The WHO, the HOW, the WHY and the RESOLUTION

And we're gonna get to all of that in what will probably be a long post. These are just my personal theories, but this is probably the most cohesive and most convincing theory crafting for what’s to come after that very dramatic episode.

We are gonna start off with the WHO;

SUDOH AND SAKAZAKI. Period.

I know everyone has different theories about who is responsible for why Akihito is like this. But I think I'm gonna take the most obvious answer - its fuckin Sudoh.

I am also inclined to believe chernobog is dead and not involved. It is rare for Sensei to kill people off so unequivocal. The fact that she killed off Yuri and Aaron (#1 and #2) - with no possibly way to return. Sorry I just think they’re organization is just dead. And even if some other faction of chernobog some how came together and regrouped. why in the hell would they work with Sudoh- AGAIN? after he screwed them over, and got all their leaders killed.

Now there are other villains and suspicious characters, for which we don’t know there involvement. Maxim!? Alex?! Asami’s father?!!?

BUT I don’t think they’re directly involved in what happened to Akihito -and I say directly because they could have been secretly pulling all the strings. or purposely turning a blind eye. Or are otherwise working against Asami in other ways.

But to me I think its pretty clear cut that Sudoh is directly behind Akihito’s brainwashing and there are a ton of pretty explicit clues to that in that very last panel of the chapter where Akihito brandishes the knife.

Now when that panel came out on the internet- I saw a lot of people saying crazy theories like. It’s not Akihito it’s Sudoh after facial reconstruction. Which is just- no! thats just to crazy. No!

BUT I do think the image is MEANT to invoke Sudoh. I don’t think its a coincidence that Akihito looks like Sudoh.

The way Akihito hair is just a little bit to straight! That evil look in his eyes. His face parallels with this panel below- half the face in darkness. His hair covering one eye, that looks out darkly.

But to me the most blatant and obvious connection, is the very knife Akihito wields.

The black switch blade. It’s Sudoh’s signature weapon. He’s toting it here in the below images, when he visits Akihito’s dream right before Chernobog attacked the apartment, but he was also using it when he had Akihito captured in the warehouse.

In this other panel of Akihito’s dream, we see the exact same knife but we also see a pretty EXACT parallel to what's happened in the latest chapter. The knife. in the bedroom. cutting a defenseless Asami’s throat. (its like a game of clue)

It’s even a little eerie, in hindsight, that in this panel we coincidentally never see Sudoh face, only his hand. Almost like it could be anyone doing that- Even you Akihito!

But it made me think that Sensei really was doing some foreshadowing and really nothing is a coincidence with her.

Which now leads me to the question of HOW:

Something thats really bothered me about this newest chapter, and something I keep returning to is this- Akihito’s personality, this entire time has been built upon the fact that he is a journalist and truth seeker.

So what throws me about this particular new direction - is even if Akihito’s memories are gone. Is that part of his personality really gonna go away? I just can’t believe that. Even when he was alone and out of touch - like when he was in the temple- he still couldn’t help but seek information and seek the truth. and even in the face with fear, he usually still seeks answers.

Obviously he might have been tortured for months, and it’s more then possible he did fight, but eventually they snuffed that out of him. And while this is totally possible - I don’t believe that sensei would go THAT dark.

So I'm more inclined to believe that they starve off his curiosity by feeding him lies, half truths, and maybe some partial memories of his life.

Now imagine this. Tell Akihito basically everything about his life. At the very least, he seems to know they are ‘supposed to be’ lovers given his theatrics before he wields the knife. So tell him that his feelings for Asami where real. But then use all his insecurities about his relationship that we know know where always there, and that haven’t magically disappeared after their ‘honeymoon’ period on the island. And use half truths and some lies to turn Asami in to the villain.

When people were using that crazy theory about Sudoh getting facial reconstruction- all I could remember was this exact panel from volume 8. This panel is when Sudoh has Akihito kidnapped in the warehouse. Akihito is thinks about his relationship with Asami, and his fears and insecurities, he say

“Will I turn out like Sudo?”

It’s not Sudoh magically turning into Akihito. It’s Akihito becoming more like Sudoh. And he’s already shown that he has had that fear.

Now why does Sudoh hate Asami- The story is obviously a bit more complicated then how Sudoh probably sees himself. But Sudohs feels like he’s been abandoned. That he did everything that Asami ever wanted. That he crossed all the lines. But because he went too far, and got mixed up with chernobog everything completely collapsed and Asami didn’t ever reward his loyalty with anything meaningful.

Is it even that hard to convince Akihito that the SAME thing happened to him. Especially if his memories are messed up and he doesn’t have the full picture (hahaha photography puns). It would be pretty easy to convince him that Asami abandoned him to whatever horrible fate that befell him at the hands of Sudoh and Sakazaki.

Something that keeps running in my mind, is the very timely moment Akihito awakes in the hospital after his coma. It’s such a sad use of tragic timing. He is waking up at the same time that Asami is being safely evacuated and rescued by Alex on orders by Maxim. It’s like they’ve just missed each other.

But I think you can see how it could easily be twisted and made to look as if Asami was leaving behind a comatosed Akihito. Abandoning Akihito when he was at his most vulnerable state. It could easily be twisted into Asami getting whisked away by his men, to some undisclosed location where he's getting top notch care and he never planned on taking Akihito with him.

Then right when Akihito’s wake. its like they’ve just missed each other, and if Asami had just brought him along then he wouldn’t have fallen in to Sakazaki and Sudoh’s clutches.

And after everything Akihito had just been though. All the lines he had crossed. Shotting at Sudoh, his willingness to KILL for Asami. The lengths he would go to protect Asami. Literally TAKING THE FALL damage for Asami. and using his own body. Just for all those things to be manipulated and twisted into- Asami never cared about you, you were just his play thing and he left you behind to rot- then yeah. hell yeah thats a Revenge Arch in the making!

Obviously the truth is being distorted, manipulated and twisted in some way by his captors. He doesn’t remember Asami’s confession, or how Asami used his own body to take bullets for him. Or all the other things that Asami has done, or the promises they made to each other on the island

This whole thing reminded me that during the naked truth arc Akihito had no assurances that Asami would rescuing him. He was constantly doubting himself thinking Asami wouldn’t go that far for him. And yet. we also know that some part of him was still holding out hope while he was in Hong Kong, thinking maybe Asami is coming.

Maybe at first he doesn’t believe everything. he fights it, as we know he is a fighter. But the naked truth arc kidnapping was Maybe a month of separation. We are talking about a whole half a year of no rescue, of no word from Asami. of enduring whatever hardships Sudoh and Sakazaki likely did to him. After a while, he might have given up hope entirely and believed that Asami had really left him.

and y’know we all know Akihito has a bit of Stockholm syndrome. its not that much of a stretch to think after a while he started to agree with his captors and sympathize with them.

I can see that when somehow when word finally reaches that Asami is back and he’s looking for Akihito- I can see that being such salt in the wounds for him. Like he comes now? after all this time, to come in and pretend to be the knight and shining armor. It drives him even more into doing this.

NOW here comes the WHY:

Well it seems pretty self explanatory why Sudoh would do this.

I’v said this in other post but I'll say it again. To me what happen to Akihito wasn’t just about one thing- I think a lot of people want to make what happen to Akihito about Asami. That the goal was to assassinate Asami, that he was the intended target, and theres some wider underworld thing happening. When to me- this was very much a personal attack on both of them.

and when I mean personal I mean personal. it’s not about who’s in charge of the underworld, or someone trying to usurp Asami. this was an attack on them. on their relation. this was an attack meant to hurt both of them in the worst way possible.

hell I dont even think Sudoh did this because he reasonably believed that Akihito could assassinate Asami- BUT y’know it was probably worth a try. And I’m guessing Akihito was eager to do it.

resolution:

I don’t have a real solution- I have no idea what's gonna happen next chapter. But I do have some theories. I think it would be real interesting to have Akihito use his photography and his journalist instincts, that seeking the truth personality of his to find out what really happened and to figure out what the truth is.

We’ve gotten a lot of volumes recently that revolve around Asami’s world and what's going on in the underworld. So Idk it would be kinda nice to have Akihito getting back to his roots in some ways.

BUT I’m also like we’re finally kinda getting all these Asami POV (which is nice) and we’ve just learned a bit about Asami’s past so it makes me think that the focus of the next volume is gonna be on Asami more then Akihito.

But I think whatever the solution is it has to be Akihito getting/finding out the real truth, and probably getting all his memories back. And maybe Asami is the one thats going to give him that, or maybe Akihito has to do it himself and become the focus of his own investigation.

Thanks for reading if you’ve read this far ❤️❤️ I think to much about finder obviously 😭 this was literally sitting in my drafts for weeks cause I was struggling with how to convey all of this.

#finder no hyouteki #finder series #takaba akihito #findertheories #findermetas

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ashenberry · 3 years

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I gotta know your opinion on 6-5 (for obvious reasons ;))

TURNABOUT REVOLUTION and absolute BEAST of a case (it’s two in a trenchcoat)

man. Where to start. ok first of all I think ima tackle it through the characters instead of these little case summaries I’ve been doing cause. Beast of a case. anyhoo

Apollo

as whats framed as Apollo finally becoming his own as a lawyer and the resolution of a three game arc. I like the idea of it being up against Phoenix. A lot in fact I love the civil trial and Athena and Apollo get to burn evidence heheheue but. god does it lack buildup. and it takes a lot of the punch out of it. As for Apollo in the criminal trial half of revolution you go little man ❤️ I also love Apollo and dhurkes relationship holy shit. Dhurke I’ve only truly known you for 5 minutes but GOD. they’ve got such a great dynamic and god the afternoon they spend in kurahin it’s.

Most faults I have with dhurke I find to be more of a problem I have with sojs writing than anything I felt the character is if that makes sense? Like that one comment about Apollo n Trucy and an issue I’ve seen people have that dhurke sent Apollo to the states but Nahyuta more just coming out from the fact that the writers are bending backwards here. I also love datz here datz my man truly one of the characters of all time I wish you got a better name buddy. datz

Phoenix

its. 3D games Phoenix. he’s there. I think I enjoyed him more as the opposition than as a playable characters in this case opposition Phoenix was fun! he was a bit of an ass but it isn’t passive agressive and he’s fuckin losing! When we are playing as Phoenix he’s screwing Apollo over in what seems like ignorance and it’s irratating And during the second revolution trial he’s just making one liners. also sorry Maya they’re retreading your farewell arc ❤️ I actually didn’t mind it it works out pretty well ^-^

Dhurke

ok I touched on dhurke a little on the Apollo section but man. I love dhurke. the twist that he was dead the whole time because he fell into the Defense Attorney Trap (in which every defense attorney shows the big bad that they have evidence they’re the big bad. Unfortunately for dhurke this time they had a gun) Is Really interesting and he’s just one of the stronger characters in this case

Nahyuta

WOOOO NAHYUTA GOT SIDELINED IN THIS CASE HAHAHA there is a connection between how much Nahyuta is allowed to talk in a case and how enjoyable it is MAN. I skipped over his confession to the murder I don’t know if there’s like. Life changing dialogue there but man. I think there had to be a stronger Nahyuta apollo connection in this game like really. like the line that apollo has a dragon and Phoenix burning inside of him good shit good shit. I do think Nahyuta can be salvaged as a character but it did not happen in this case that was a half assed redemption.

Rafya

GOD POOR RAYFA SHE she is going through it in this case her dad is dead and her mom is a bitch rayfa 🤝 apollo solving the truth during the rest of the game shes just a middle schooler with the hubris of a monarch and it’s great and you just see it all fall apart in this case rayfa 💔

Garan, Inga, and Amara

garana a shit monarch AND a shit mom unbelievable. I don’t know how much a prosecutor that can say they win at anytime really effects the stakes it’s just a general soj problem the stakes are too high so theres like no tension in that regard and your more just curious how the murder happened. Inga is just a mob boss (got the accent to back it too) but goddamit he’s better than garan in the sense that he’s shown to have loved rayfa. man. Amara. There’s a character thread there that I don’t think at all was intentional because I don’t have that much respect for sojs writers where I don’t think Amara ever wanted to rule. There’s a lot of moments where revealing she was alive would have prevented a lot of shit (tho. evil sister not the easiest) but also the fact that rayfa is the one to take over at the end. a lot of it can be hand waved as like monarchy semantics but I think reading is cooler so

Rest of WAA + edgeworth

hhhh I think they deserved better in the rest of the game but here in revolution I think they all had good roles. Trucy gets the best joke in the case. Edgeworth is used for his private jets. it’s all good this case really is more about Apollo.

Obligatory Jove ‘Jangly’ Justice because I have a brand to keep up with

EVERYTHING SURRONDING THIS MAN IS HILARIOUS JESUS CHRIST. FIRST OF ALL. HIS DESIGN WAS DEFINITLY LAST MINUTE DONE IN A WEEK THIS MAN RECIEVED NO LOVE FROM THE DEVS. SECOND OF ALL HE SOMEHOW GOT INVITED TO THE ROYALTIES HOUSE WHILE ON BABY DUTY? AND HE INTRODUCED HIS BABY BY HIS FULL NAME CAUSE HOW ELSE WOULD DHURKE KNOW APOLLOS NAME UNLESS JOVE HAD APOLLOS BRITH CERTIFICATE ON HIM WHICH IS A FUCKING POSSIBILITY CAUSE I THINK ITS GENERALLY WAVED AT THAT APOLLO WAS SENT TO THE STATES BECAUSE IT WAS EASIER DUE TO POSSIBLE CITIZENSHIP THAT MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY PROOF AND THAN THIS MAN IS THE ONLY MAN TO FUCKIN DIE IN A POLITICALLY MOTIVATED ARSON WHERE EVEN THE INFANT LIVED AND GUESS WHOS THE ONLY PERSON IN THE POSITION TO SAVE BABY APOLLO. THATS RIGHT GARAN. APOLLO SIGITAR AU BABY. AND THEN NOBODY CAN ID JOVE AND THIS LEADS TO LIKE 20 YEARS OF A MASS LAWYER KILLING. JOVE JANGLY JUSTICE WAS THE START OF IT ALL. HIS NEWELY WIDOWED WIFE GOES ON TO BECOME THE BEYONCÉ OF BORGINIA.

^some of thats probably inaccurate. mostly about Apollo having proof of us citizenship but like. is there anyway for Apollo to get that information later or it’s kinda like he never existed because I doubt Newley enemy of the state dhurke got him any kurahin legal papers i don’t know I’m not a lawyer. But it’s funnier to imagine that Jove did have all of Apollos information on him that survived the fire.

anywyas all and all turnabout revolution is a very fun cass but I would trade it in a heartbeat to never have Soj ❤️

#Sorry for the Jove rant but I can only assume that’s what you wanted #Hope you enjoyed my thoughts on soj and hopefully they were coherent enough ❤️#Ashen.ask #<- did that on accident bht im doing that for asks now

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the-symbiote-army · 4 years

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If this covers your feed I'm sorry idk how to do cuts on a phone, but also its about Venom 2 so theres that.

Alright with the second Venom movie coming up, I wanted to mention what I very personally think would wreck this movie for me. And a few good things too.

Note: Hardly any of this will be as bad as I make it out to be. Army is very dramatic alright? Army is so dramatic that she once made this fan page at two am while crying because Donny hurt Red. I'm dramatic.

1: Just be our frenemy.

Anyway first off this is bound to be a difficult movie to write because, well, fandoms aren't the easiest to please. But I do not want this movie to be in any way fanservice. There's this very delicate balance between fanservice and fanhatred.

For example let's look at two writers we got in the Venom series. We got Mike Costa, and Donny Cates. To pick between them you're most likely going to pick Mike Costa. Because he does some great fanservice, but, is it not a bit slow? Or boring in some ways? If not that's fine too, but you might find it boring because things are a little too perfect. There's not enough going on that makes you feel a thrill.

However, the other side of the coin, Donny Cates. Here we have too much going on. He's taken the perfect life of Mike Costas run, and screwed around with it too much. There's no real fan service, which drives us away.

I think an example of balance would be The Hunger. You've got both that fanservice happening with twists and moments of panic. Will Eddie kill Venom?! You think it just for a moment, drawing you far enough away from the perfection. Then when he doesn't the relief is there. Because there was some actual worry.

I want them to do this with the movie. I don't want it to be some perfect life between Eddie and the symbiote. That's just too boring and not their real character. They need their bumps and I hope the movie can add those without going too far and demolishing the dynamic or making the symbiote out as evil. Would I like a kiss? Yes. Would I like an argument between them? Also yes.

2: The Carnage connection.

Don't mess up the Carnage bond, please. Now it shouldn't be hard to do this. Its been mentioned multiple times that the bond between Cletus Kasady and Red, is one stronger than that of Venoms. This is why you have Venom saying "We" while Carnage says "I", so if somehow they mess this up and show Cletus like Lee whose just using Red, I'm going to be very upset. I mean, they really shouldn't because follow me through the interwebs guys. Hang with me.

You go on to Cletus Kasadys fandom wiki, you scroll down and, ah... There it is. The quote that tells you exactly how they are. So if they mess this up, then honestly I got no words.

3: Shriek and Carnage

Please, please, pleeeease don't do this cliche

Shriek: *Gets hurt because she's in Carnages way*

Shriek: *Gasp* but I'm your lover!

Carnage: I was just using you! I don't actually care! Hahahaha!

Shriek: *Screams and attacks him*

I swear I'll heavy sigh.

4: Carnage Design

please do not mess up his design. When you all think of Carnage, I 100% guarantee you do not think of a giant monster who has the buffest of muscles. No, you think of the small but fast and clever red and black symbiote. So help me God, if I click the trailer when it comes out and I see a giant muscle boi I am going to be angry.

A good statement from the Lethal Protector book, Carnage does not have muscles but he's got creativity. Meaning he does not need muscles we don't have to give him muscles. Just make the skinny one really creative with how we murders people.

Also, if I see, even for a second, a single swirl on this symbiotes head, I am going to be the new wrath of Knull and destroy someone's bloodline. We do not need 5,000 different designs from all the past comics in this one movie. I just want the classic Carnage and maybe, maybe, we can get another design like Carnage 2016 design or something like that.

5: Dan the destroyer of toxin masculinity man

please do not ruin Dan as a character I kind of love him, because the way he handles Eddie in the first movie, is just really what we need. I do not need the jealous man stereotype. I just need Dan to be a good man. I just need him to continue his journey of yeeting toxic masculinity.

And and if you delete another scene, of this man carrying a very dazed Eddie Brock out from a restaurant, I will cry.

6: Pronouns

all right this one is one that I kind of expect. So I'm not going to completely lose my mind, just a little bit lose my mind. If I go to that theatre and I'm having a great time through this whole movie, then Cletus kasady, calls Red "He" or "Him", I'm going to be really disappointed. And before someone yells at me it is definitely female pronouns for her. I do not have the time to go through every single comic, and grab all the different times he has said she, or her, or girl, or missus, but he hasn't done it so I don't want them to throw that away.

Also fun note: my favourite comic is the Superior Carnage Annual, which is one of the times he uses female pronouns. but I also just love this comment because it is a good representation for them and it was a fun read.

Anyway honestly it wouldn't take too much research to know this, so I don't think they can really mess this one up that bad. Just a few reads in the comics where Cletus addresses Red, and you know she's got female pronouns.

Also on to that nickname Red. I believe he only uses this once in the comics and we just as a fandom kind of stuck to it, but a proper call out to her actual name would be great. (I don't count calling Cletus Red)

7: Sleeper

I think the avocado child showing up would be a little too much. I know I know we all love Sleeper, but honestly I don't want him to show up just yet. This kind of goes back to the fanservice one but I feel like that would be too much right away.

I'm definitely going to get yelled at for that note but I don't care.

But I will happily take a mention of him. for example if Red is in fact born from Venom like she should be. And Venom tells Eddie that he's going to spawn and Eddie responds with "What if this child looks like an avocado or something?" They win the whole movie. That's it the whole movie is done. That's all they need for this movie to be successful in my book.

Now let's give a really positive note, if at some point in this movie Cletus kasady picks up a baby and then throws that baby, this also means that it gets an instant win in my book. It's very easy all he has to do is throw a child. They can do this.

#Venom 2 #Venom #Carnage #Venom movie #My opinion

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lesbiansastiel · 5 years

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i asked my gf who’s never watched spn to tell me what these pictures of spn characters make them think:

he has very bad promo pictures

ofc its sam! .. is that sam?

your favourite, theres at least 8000 lgbt headcanons for him

he definitely peels apples before eating them

no idea

he looks like hes in a cereal commercial

propably plays fortnite???

oh my god what the fuck

his parents needed money so he was forced to do promo pics for a school and if u uncrop this picture hes holding a backpack and a book that says like. ABC

haircut is making me think thats young sam but im not sure

me: that is young sam

ok cool!

thats a homophobe. i know a homophobe when i see one

me: the actor is

i know that thats dean, leather jacket looks smelly

i dont like or trust him bc his voice is too low, no offense

but he was funny in that episode when they thought they were... when they were the actors, i like that they shamed the actors (jensen ankles?) trailer

i always assume hes dead, every time i see him im like oh fuck hes not dead yet????

he looks like he dies first in a zombie game protecting the protagonists daughter

opens beer cans with knives (stabbing them from above)

has touristy fridge magnets

hillbilly neighbour that just stuck around

later: OH HIS NAME IS bobby

um........ lost journalist from a chick-flick

looks too enthusiastic to be in this show

name starts w an R and dies dramatically and causes trauma for multiple people?

me: its charlie

oh....

me: do you know who that is?

shes the one that causes angst in ur fanfic? someone’s ex? writes paranormal articles- like someone who works in a pokemon centre and takes care of the reporting to the media i know this is not true but that’s how it should be based on characted design

why.. what is that shirt

she looks like she’s from twin peaks but like a weird 90s techno nostalgia version

probably not real, but someones hallucination, like a little sister that someone lost and then hallucinates coming back?????

me: that’s jess.. from my fic

oh no im so sorry, i thought that the previous one was that one

then thats like a college person who sam did like drugs and beer with and they were happy and then she died.. tragic :(

umm öööööö, uhhhh

kinda looks like a serial killer, like a bad one who hasnt killed anyone in years so his face is tired. he wants flesh

um,i say um to everyone im so sorry

he has a conflicted expression

i think he’s sassy or just tired of everyone

no idea who that is.. i just feel sorry for this character idk why

*laughs*

a 12-year-old who got a toy gun for christmas bc hes american

hes gay probably and pretending to like guns so his dad doesnt get disappointed

for real, in this show, a young new hunter and messes up and then does one heroic thing and dies immediately after?

this looks like the perfect love interest who dies dramatically and is relationship with an important man character whose controlling when she wants to be independent and doesnt want to hide in a basement like the man wants her to

me: ??????????????????

she also looks like a cop like every woman in this show somehow but her character design is too soft to be a tv cop woman lady

2009 hair

probably a cop?

is styled in a way that always looks way too make-uppy and probably wears heels to work bc this is a bad character design show

me: shes not a human i can say that much

then shes a demon bc thats what all the women are in this show, theyre all demons

i hope shes not evil, this might be trap she looks friendly but that isnt the truth

this looks like a slightly messy and like, bohemic twin of the reporter that works in a pokemon centre

is probably rich

lots of anger that is not showcased in this picture

clenched fists

all in all, suspicious

probably supposed to be related since theyre in the same picture and different ages but they dont look related at all

they look like they’re from teen wolf

and probably would star in a scene where they see that someone has key’ed their car and theyre like fuuuuck

i think this character is supposed to be a cool friend woman whose not supposed to be super feminine and love-interesty bc shes wearing plaid and drinkin beer but they Failed

probably a werewolf

also is she wearing nothing under that plaid what is this...

me: oh fuck why is this picture so HQ compared to the rest...

it’s bc he’s an angel

obscene amount of powers that seem useless bc if he actually had Power they wouldnt need this show and he could just figure everything out

i know that people wear those annoying pins that say theyre waiting for an angel in trench coat. but i dont think he’s ever going to come :(

i think his name is castiel and mishaapocalypse happened w his face

and i saw his face taped to a mcdonald door in a small town in finland

yet another teen wolf character

looks like a suspicious teenager who lives in a town where they (the brothers) stop to get gas and he’s hanging out at the gas station

hes like heyyy youre not like other people here are you perhaps... hunters bc my mom died and now my house is haunted

daddy issues

me: correct

um. another beer lady. probably, people have decided, a lesbian

looks like a stock photo of someone eating salad at a rural setting after a hard day at work milking cows

also somehow looks like works in a lab

is related to the weird open-flannel-no-t-shirt woman (the beer one), probably her mom

thats all

um. major demon

probably has a scene where she tries to kill someone with a knife seductively

hated in the fandom and in fanfic someone who tries to steal deans man (which is stupid bc deans a homophobe anywaY)

also looks like fantasy show self-insert but evil

me: i think that’s a teenager

welcome to my twisted mind

im sorry...

happy

which is making me think that he probably dies, sadly.

probably takes care of an older family member

has some demon problems

that’s all

post-apocalyptic show character where theyre trying to have something else than 40yo white hilbilly men bc thats not media sexy

i hope that she doesnt die but probably does bc shes not a major character

me: can i reveal something i know

yes please

me: her and the blonde that you called demon had a thing canonically

cool!!!!

probably lives in a ranch that has no electricity due to demon problems

me: :D

and still does her hair somehow

uuummmm this looks like someone’s weird flashback version that is supposed to look like a teenager but actually looks older

me: uhh this is a bad picture let me find a bettter one

me: there we go

looks like this character needs a cowboy hat

probably writes dean’s name in her diary??

COMPHET

thats all

#spnedit #pls rb #personal #i thought this was so funnyyyy

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perfecttravelerdinosaur · 5 years

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The feeling when you hate existing to the point you sit in your room avoiding contact with everyone because you're so insecure and don't know how to handle social interactions anymore, only to drive yourself deeper and deeper into that feeling, because no one chooses to be born and you don't want any of the responsibilities associated with existing in this world. But you're torn between feeling that and the guilt that people have life much worse than you do and people love you. I'm never sure whether I actually love people. It mostly seems just a good thing to say back to people so you don't feel guilty and they like you. Lust and love are different, but either way they are just a twisted compulsion to breed and create groups. I wish I could have the mindless drive to achieve human goals like other people do, I barely feel alive, nevermind human. Is keeping people with mental and physical illness alive any good for the human race? We just prolong our deaths and cause more heartbreak than is needed. But what is life without heart? Empty as it is without love. I don't have any drive to be healthy anymore, I just eat what feels good, sit at my desk and feel sorry for my own existence. I hate myself for not liking life, sounds stupid. I hate the arrogance people have.

It sounds stupid to say I never asked to be born. No one chose to be born. Why is it so bad, the idea of people killing themselves? They have made a choice with their own body and they think it is a good idea. I still fear an afterlife and it's honestly one of the reasons I haven't done it myself. The other being it hurts to imagine my family and friends finding out. I don't want my parents to blame themselves.

Why do I have to fixate on trying to sleep with people so much, It hurts feeling so alone all the time. Life feels desperate. A lot of the time I just put my foot down in my car for as long as i can, kind of makes you feel more alive, part of me wonders how hard youd have to hit something to just die. But I don't want to be crippled, then I am likely to just kill myself. Always odd how little someone can care for their own safety and push limits at the same time. The feeling of panic once you realise what you did was stupid, the horrible cold/hot sweat that shudders round your body after you nearly hit something.

I wouldn't want to hurt other people, what's the point in making someone else's life miserable, that makes me feel worse. I don't want to be a burden. Other people seem to like life so much.

Why does it feel like I want to be miserable some times? Arrogance makes me want to bite people's throats out. I wish I was joking. Why do I feel like I have no right to anything? Does anyone have right to anything? Does right even matter in a world where people can and do just take or do whatever they want? What the fuck is the point in subsistence.

Is having a child selfish if there's a good chance they'll grow up to tell me they don't want to live either? I wish I had the ambition I used to have. How long have I been depressed for? Did I used to be depressed when I was a child? I remember feeling like life wasnt real. I remember a few steps I took in figuring the world out. It felt confusing, a lit of it took a while to understand. I always feel like theres another layer to existing, something I'm not seeing, people aren't saying, or no one knows about. People have a LOT of ways and sentences to rationalise the irrational. You dont even have to be right, if you can make a compelling argument, you may just make people believe you, that's dangerous. Hormones are strange, they make you act so impulsively. I understand it from a survival point of view, but it's a strange thing nonetheless.

I feel like I want to just step out of the way of people who care so much about existing, I dont do things the way they want a lot of the time. I'm terrified of people who care about existing some times, I guess that's confidence I'm afraid of. At least confident people. Baffles me to think someone can be so sure of themselves. But I would imagine they often might be baffled to think people dont feel so sure of themselves.

I wonder, if I was given great power, would I use it for good or evil? Part of me imagines becoming a beacon of hope, but the rest of me imagines destroying everything I could and sealing myself away. Enjoying life requires proactivity. Old me would be spinning in his grave.

So I subsist, make jokes about mental health with people, carry on with college course, try to sort out my life somehow on little to no motivation. Why the fuck would I harm myself actively? Surely this just instantly makes you suffer more. I realise by eating how I do I'm harming myself, but I dont like pain, I want to minimize pain. Surely we all do? I dont even want to eat proper food anymore, avoiding leaving my room while I can.

Antidepressants are strange. How does a pill stop the horrible weight on your skull? How do hormones dictate the meaning of life in someone's mind so much. There is no meaning as much as there is all the meaning in the world. To some people the notion that there is no meaning is meaning enough. If we ever even reached a decision on what the meaning is would we ever be able to come up with an answer everyone could accept? Do we put life on a pedestal? Are the fears we have towards existence justified? Is there something telling us to die for the good of people? I dont see why this is not as great as the compulsion to survive, they each can serve a purpose to improve the world. Is the idea of dying and feeling nothing greater than living to see if you enjoy the feeling you end up with if you survive?

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thoughtsofdarc · 6 years

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My Latest Mission... Part 15

Reader (Y/N), Rumlow, Pierce, Bucky, Some of the Avenger-gang. Warnings: Language. Being a Hydra asset. Anger. Angst. Violence, Blood. Words: 2698

A/N: I’m really, really trying to get the entire story to fit in a few chapters, but as i write, i always get carried away... Sooo, maybe theres a couple of more chapters coming than i thought. But really... the end is coming closer!

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 - Part 12 - Part 13 - Part 14 -

Feeling the hot water run down my body is amazing. I'm still sore in every single muscle in my body, even though it's been a few days since the training fight in the gym, where Jones decided to go rogue and attack me for real. Aiden had to be hospitalized, the hit Jones gave him was far too hard, and the doctors fear severe damage. I've been denied access to come visit him and no one can give me any information. I truly fear for my friend's health, and I can do nothing but wait to see what happens.

I turn off the water and grab the towel to dry my body. As I wrap it around my hair and stand up, I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I shudder as I see a long red scar on my lower abdomen and trace my fingers lightly over it. I remember the day I got it. My memories were starting to come back, and I was slowly trying to come up with a plan on how to escape, 'trying' being the key word. Every fiber in my body wanted to fight against what HYDRA wanted me to do, but I had to pretend to still be their puppet.

"She's the best hacker in the country, and your mission is to make her find the information we need" Rumlow points to a woman behind the glass window. She looks scared, her eyes are red and puffy, she has clearly been crying. He face is dirty and her jacket is torn. she keep twisting her hands in her lap, staring at the door like she's waiting for someone to come in. "She hasn't been quite cooperative as you can see, we had to rough her up a bit" He looks at her through the glass as an evil grin spread on his lips. It takes all my strength not to break his neck right then and there, because I know what Rumlow means when he says' Rough her up a bit'. The two other agents in the room laugh as if he just told them a joke. "Apparently not enough if you need me to make her do what you want" I say, toneless like I don't give a shit, as a look at the woman in the cold interrogation room. "Well, that's because you're more suited for the job to come if she keeps refusing our orders" Brock looks at me, enjoying this way too much. "You see, we have her son now..." the door to the room opens and a kid, not more than 6 years old, runs in and into the woman's arms. I stare at them as I see her hug him tight, check him for injuries and then hug him tight again. "If she keeps refusing, your job is to kill him". "No!" the word leaves me way too fast by the thought of killing a child and Brock glare at me questioning.

Shit, I just showed way too much emotion for my own good right now. "I'm not doing your job, just because you don't have the balls to do it yourself!" I peel away my eyes from the mother and child and slowly turn to look at Brock. My eyes are hard, challenging and hateful. "I'm not your pet, just because you are a fucking pussy!" I add spiteful. "You will do as you are told, Soldat! Or life will be hell for you!" his eyes would kill right on the spot if it was possible. "It already is, you fucking looser" I mumbled under my breath turning back to look at the people in the other room. Brock's eyes never leaves me as he taps on the window and an agent come in to forcefully take the kid away again. He starts to cry, the woman starts to scream and all hell break loose in there. The last thing I see, is an agent storming towards the woman with a raised baton, then the window turn black from the flick on the switch that Brock hits. "You will do what you are told, or you will regret it, you stupid little piece of shit" he spits, as he slowly walks towards me. I don't step back like most people would do, but stand my ground, looking relaxed, bored even, but on the inside i'm so very ready to fight. "Or what? What will you do Rumlow?" I challenge, knowing very well that I can take him down easily. The agents behind me shift their full focus on me and take a step forward. His fist land on my jaw, but I did foresee that blow so I keep still only my head turned to the side by the hard strike. Slowly I turn my head back to look at him with a smirk, as I lick my lower lip and taste the iron in my blood. I spit out the mixture of saliva and blood and the thick mass land perfectly on his face. Quickly two sets of arms grab me from behind and try to hold me down. I use their hold on me to keep me up, as I raise both legs at the same time and kicks Brock hard in the chest. He slams into the wall behind him with such a force that he releases a mixed sound of a grunt and a wheeze, and parts of the wall crumble under him. "Hold her!" he screams to the agents and takes out his military knife. The anger I feel inside towards the man walking towards, me cannot be described with words and I struggle against the agents to get free. I head butt one of them, and get my arm free from his grasp. As I try to hit Rumlow's knife out of his hand, he instead swing it at me. The swing is low to avoid my reach. I feel the blade cut into my stomach left to right, leaving a long gash almost all the way across. The warm sticky blood starts to flow freely and I feel my clothes get soaked. The agent I head butted is back to his feet and grab me again as the door swings open with a loud crash and Pierce walks in. "ENOUGH!" the outburst rumbles in the tiny room "What the hell is going on?" I say nothing, just keeps staring at Rumlow, daring him to attack me again. He doesn't, but instead starts to ramble about me not obeying my orders. Pierce looks like he is ready to murder us all, as he dismiss Rumlow and walk over to me, his face mere inches from mine. "When you get orders you obey them, is that clear, Soldat? Or do you have a problem with that?" I can see in his eyes that he is questioning why I disobeyed Rumlow and I have to get a grip on myself, not to reveal what's going on inside of my head. I relax in the arms of the agents, straighten my back and take on the demeanor of the soldier that I am to them. "Yes sir!" I tell him, as a plan start to form in my head. "Good! Now take her to the infirmary and get her patched up, she has a fucking job to do" he commands the two agents. Pierce gives me a last look before he leaves the room again and the agents starts to walk me to get stitched up.

I pull up the sweatpants, as I take a last look at the scar before I put on a tight fitting t-shirt. God I should have killed Rumlow when I had the chance.

I walk back into my room far away in my thoughts, but I am jolted back to here and now, when I spot a person by the wall. He is standing with his back to me tall, muscular and long shaggy hair that falls forward as he stands there with Steve's drawing in his hands. Fuck... Fuck! What the hell is he doing with the picture? Why does he hold the drawing in his hands? Did he find it? "Bucky?!" my voice is small and a bit shaky. He doesn't move, doesn't even seem to register me at all. I walk over to him slowly and on guard,as I try again "Buck? What are you doing here?" He turns his head slightly towards me, but keeps his eyes on the picture in his hands. His voice is low and sad as he starts to talk. "We had it good back then, didn't we? Always happy and ready to make some trouble. Do you think it was faith that brought us together?" I step up to him and put my hand on his back. I feel him tense under my touch, but he doesn't move away, just keeps staring at the picture. "I don't know Buck? I would like to think that there's a reason, a greater good, to why we became inseparable back then" He doesn't seem to notice my answer. "I remember a lot from back then by now..." he continues "... But not all. I'm jealous of you because you can remember everything. It hurts that I can't" Now he looks at me, his eyes are so sad. There's no hate, no anger, no blame, just sadness and my heart drops. "I'm sorry" I whisper, I don't know what else to say. He looks back to the picture and let his thumb brush over his face on the paper. "I do remember our dreams... Do you? Can you remember the day Mrs. Rogers got buried and the three of us stayed at Steve's place afterwards?" I do remember and I give small hum to tell him that I do. "You wanted to travel the world Y/n. You wanted to make people happy. Steve wanted to be an artist maybe even an art teacher. And I... I just wanted to get married, have a bunch of kids and be a fucking dad..." he pauses for a bit "... And now look at us? Death, war, destruction! I wish we could go back... God, I really wanted to have a family and now I never will" His voice is shaking and his knuckles turning white from how hard he's holding the frame. My heart starts to beat a bit faster in fear of him breaking it. I give his shoulder a squeeze before I reach out for the drawing in his hands. "It's not too late Bucky, we have gotten a second chance in life, to do good and to pursue our dreams" He releases the grasp of the drawing and I quickly pull it out of his hands, into safety in mine. As I step forward to put it back up on the wall, my fingers search the back and I let out a relieved sigh when I feel the USB secure in its place. I turn to him and put my hand on his cheek, knowing that I might very well overstep his boundaries, but I need him to listen. "We are not death, war and destruction, we never were. Our hands was forced, our minds was broken and reprogrammed. If we had been ourselves when we did all of that shit for HYDRA, we wouldn't beat ourselves up for it now" Bucky, my strongest friend throughout life, has tears falling from his eyes as he listen. "We never chose to do those things, Bucky. Remember that! It may have been our bodies they used, but it wasn't us! You are a good man James Buchanan Barnes, and don't you ever let yourself or anyone else tell you differently!"

His eyes search mine, looking for the truth in my words. His breathing is shaky and the tears flow freely down his cheeks.

When he doesn't find anything else than truth, the sight before me will haunt me to the day I die.

It looks like he breaks on the inside, like every damn memory of pain and hurt well up in him, all at once. He wraps his arms around me before I even register that he is moving. He buries his face in my neck and sobs like a child.

All the emotions he has been hiding inside, is spilling out through tears and I just hold him. Hold him close and pour as much love and comfort as I can into the hug, trying to calm him down, to let him know that everything is and will be okay and to let him know that he is never, ever going to be alone again.

"Good news y/n, your boyfriend is released from the hospital. He got lucky, no damage what so ever, the doctors call it a miracle!" Tony walks in to the common room where I'm sitting with some of the other guys watching a movie. "Didn't know he was your boyfriend y/n, do I need to have 'the talk' with him?" Clint mocks before he takes a sip of the beer he's holding in his hands. I roll my eyes at him, starting to feel like I do that at him, as much as I've done to Steve and Bucky throughout the years. Apparently, that's a sign of my affection towards my friends. "He's not my boyfriend, Dumbass!" I throw a pillow at him and almost hit his beer, making Clint chuckle. "But that's awesome news Tony! I'm so happy for him, he must be excited to go home" I feel a little stab in my heart as I say it, because I know that Aiden lives on the other side of the country, so that means I won't see him much anymore. "Actually, he's coming back here. He doesn't want to quit when you are so close to being done. So you'll see him in the next session" Tony says as he throws himself into one of the large chairs in front of the TV. "Are you serious? He almost died just last week, and now he's coming back?" I can't cover the shock in my voice "Is he insane?" the sorrow I felt about losing a friend to distance, is suddenly overwhelmed by worrying about his health. "Just sounds like he's going to be a good agent... Not staying away from the job for too long. Sounds like other people I know" Natasha adds with a smirk, and looks around to the men on the couch and in the chairs. "Hmm" is all I can say, my thoughts already long gone. A sudden feeling of guilt is creeping up my spine. If it wasn't because of me, Aiden would never have been put in that position, where he had to defend me from Jones. Jones wouldn't have attacked him like that and he wouldn't have ended up in the infirmary. "He's a strange dude, I don't like him" Bucky adds to the conversation but doesn't elaborate further.

"You don't like anyone and don't be jealous tin-arm, you can't keep Y/n to yourself, you have to share" Clint mocks as he throws the bottle cap at him. Bucky catch it without even looking up and fling it back at Clint hitting him perfectly in the head, making the archer whine "Hey man! Ouch!"

I look at Bucky and are just about to ask why, but F.R.I.D.A.Y interrupts "Mr. Stark, Captain Rogers you are needed in the conference room. Miss. Romanoff, Mr. Barton and Sergeant Barnes, you are all needed as well"

We all look at each other questioning. What is going on? It's not common for the entire Team to be called in like that, without at least one of them knowing what it is about. "Thank you F.R.I.D.A.Y, we are on our way" Tony says and stand up, the rest of them follow and make their way toward the elevator. "Sorry Quees Elsa. It looks like we need to leave you behind for a while" He adds apologetic.

"Don't worry about it T. Go save the world" I send him a smile and wave him away with the others.

As I see the elevator doors close behind them, I can't help but to wonder what it's all about, an eerie feeling creeping up my spine.

Part 16...

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voidselfshipp · 3 years

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The Sea Serpents Jaws

Cw: ask to tag.

Ok to rb.

Summary: Malcom Graves and Tobias Fate are once again in trouble, being saved by none other than their very angry shapeshifter girlfriend.

A/n: id recomend listening to some cool pirate music while Reading this, it gives it a bit more of ambience.

The moon shone its silver lights on the sea, far away from the shores of bilgewater.

Hanging like serpets waiting to be gutted, twisted fate and graves looked at eachother, that little stunt they pulled with gangplank some months ago came back to bite them in the ass.

Now, they werent sure if they were scared of the most famous pirate in bilgewater, or the tantrum that jerico would throw if they didnt come back in time for dinner, because for them it wasnt past midnight.

Smug, heavy steps were hears as gangplank almost struts his way across to them, with anger, resentment and pure evilness.

-- well well, look what the tide brought to the shore, you guys Will pay for what you stole

In the upper deck, the pirates, lackeys of gangplank saw the water...different.

A newbie, said that he saw a huge water serpent and he informed gangplank.

At this moment,malcom and tobias wished for a Giant sea serpent to eat them, itd be better than to die at the hands of the pirate before them.

Yet, the Windows and cracks displayed in their room provided a much needed visual.

A huge green eye peeked through the window, the Newbie freaks out, graves and TF sees It.

-- take him upstairs, the sea is clearly gaining up on him-- demanded gangplank...

Tobias snorted-- gangplank, youre in a while world of trouble...--he said-- tell me, did you pay your offering to the bearded Lady?

-- yes of course I did! What kind of idiot would i be If I didnt!?-- protested the pirate.

Malcom chuckles-- then you best hope something took yer coin

-- cause if it is who we think it is, youll be in for a world of pain-- finishes tobias.

Before gangplank can say anything, the newbie calls him, theres been another Sea serpent sighting.

The pirate starts to chew out the newbie before the shipp is hit by something, a blunt punch.

The men go upstairs leaving the two men behind.

Jerico freaked out when she saw the hour on the clock, the food would get cold, she wouldnt mind, she could re-heat it, but her boyfriends were no-where to be seen.

So, she took off for the docks, nothing, nobody had see them since noon.

So, she took for the Ocean when she found out gangplanks got them.

She payed her fee to the bearded Lady, in the shape of a huge sea serpent with sharp green eyes she swam through the water.

She hovers over the shipp, a thousand teeth, sharp spines Growing from her back, she roars, and chews off the mast of the shipp.

She sinks down and then jumps, swallowing Half of the shipp.

From the water then she emerges with twisted fate and graves holding on one of her back spikes for dear life. Soaking wet.

-- I told ya!-- said Tobías.

Jerico roared headbutting the rest of the shipp, and swimming back home at full speed, gangplank cursing behind them.

-- thanks for saving us, dear-- said malcom gaining a huff from the shapeshifter.

As soon as they got home se detransformed.

And even though she was smaller than them, that did not stop her from chewing them out on their reckles behaviour.

Eventually she calmed down, and hugged them tightly.

-- I was just worried-- the men hugged her back.

-- we know, we are sorry for all the bad blood we caused ya-- apologized TF.

-- thanks for saving our asses again,we really dont deserve you-- graves added.

Jerico sighed and kissed them both briefly-- dont say that, go take a shower, we'll eat outside, my treat

Both men smiled, running for the bathroom to see who got there first ( both took exactly the same long hours, but they argued that the other took the longest) saying-- yOURE THE BEST GIRLFRIEND EVER!

when they got Into town, they went somewhere quiet, where they enjoyed a good warm meal.

--nothing beats your cooking though-- said malcom kissing the top of jericos head

Jeri only laughed, and kept walking with her hands holding each of their arms.

The Next day, they told the high tale of the sea serpent who saved them from gangplank. Jerico only smirked and rolled her eyes taking another swig of her hot chocolate.

What would they do without her?...

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galimatios · 4 years

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sci fi ya au musings from twitter thread mostly nts

maybe i do want to write YA science fiction ya with gay and all my favorite self indulgent tropes and also plugsuits

I HATE MYSELF I IMMEDIATELY HAVE SCENES IN MY HEAD . ITS BEEN TWO GODDAMN SECONDS. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE CHARACTERS ARE YET tjinking about those rooms in that one ep of black mirror where youcan program jt tk show whatever you want on the walls. maybe projection of virtual reality vs reality as a major motif. simulations and distance... long distance relationships during a war in space action too... have to think about an enemy but maybe we rag on capitalism a littlle maybe some conglomerate is fighting a proxy war using aliens vs the govt the protags are in the military for theme.. war sucks bye but also theres dynamics i want

UM I CAN PUT BIG MECHA INNNNNNNN YEAHHHH anyway i want 2 loyal dog dynamics to juxtapose w eachother + platonic soulmate type protag duo, best friends , one girl one boy, theyre both equally important, some SHIT happens and theyre forced on different sides at some point one loyal dog is treated well, like an equal, will follow x to the end of the world the other is Not treated well. i want to explicitly make that relationship abusive so i can point at it in the text itself and have other loyal dog be like , that's not love. abandoned loyal dog gets adopted by main duo, ends up in a relationship w one of them (whichever one makes it gay), im ship girl with side character who inspires tf out of her, sort of like. theyre competitive and the side character is light years more skilled but girl wants the challenge, wants the chase, is fueled by the prospect of catching up so "wait for me" LAYS DOWN NONE OF THESE CHARACTERS HAVE NAMES OR DESIGNS OR ANYTHING BUT IM ALREADY ATTACHED TO THESE CONNECTIONS mc pair: one techy soft boy nerd who just wants to protect his family so thats why he agreed to help develop/operate tech bc he thinks this is how he can help headstrong pilot ace girl who has no one but wants to prove herself and make a name for herself so she'll be remembered she wants to win glory for herself and comes off as super confident but actually she's just. asuka evangelion except she doesnt crash and burn so bad bc she has the boy who sees thru it, you dont have to try so hard probably happens after a fight where she's reckless hes not one to get mad but this time he's pissed bc she was exceptionally close to dying, yells at her, why do you keep trying so hard to die kinda snaps her back to reality he wants her to rely on him more bc that's what hes here for anyway loyal dog defects from enemy + meets this pair after other loyal dog suggests he joins the crew, tech boy is kind to Everyone but loyal dog FORMERLY AN ASSASSIN ???????? TYPE?? SNIPER?? develops baby crush girl sips her drink :3c

I HAVE TO THINK MORE ABOUT THEM BC OH NO THEYRE CUTE but girl is chasing after some nb femme prodigy who she's rivals with and admires for more than just her skill theyre both emotionally constipated idiots tho so its like. (hand touch) thats enough for 100 years there is. so much tension. and prodigy seems so perfect on the outside but is actually in some kind of super strict fucked up program bc of her skill, and she hated it and is suffering ace pilot is the one to barge in headstrong and fuck everything up and get her out of there girl believes prodigy is amazing. really. incredible. a part of her feels like she'll never catch up . but even so watching prodigy walk into the unknown unflinchingly resolute ... it's both sad in a way bc she's being left behind but also she wouldnt have it any other way bc she thinks forward is the only way prodigy should be facing. its what inspires her. that strength ... h they definitely settle down together in the future tho bc i need ththattt

"when this is all over" said the prodigy, "come find me" this is so self indulgent anyway plotwise once both the govt and the enemy r revealed to be equally bad the main cast defect to a revolutionary group. they will Not win within the span of the novel but theyll have a small victory, very les mis one day more flavored, and even if they did not win they stood for something they believed in, did something to try and tell the truth... also i need more of a cast so i can kill characters off nice now all i have to do is fill all this in with world building and action and stuff and ill have a novel so many sci fi things have done the 2 pilot mind sync emotional thing right so if i do the same thing no one knows if i took it from one franchise or another i need to twist it around a little but i may have ideas haha i can. totally make this a part of my fucking huge sci-fi au really wanna call main girl lane and main boy khemrin . .. i cant unsee the girl as rey flavored so shes ending up w red hair and irish, but boy is SEAsian with a huge family, loyal dog who defects is african, prodigy is asian, other loyal dog feels south american prodigy... astrid is her real name but she may have a codename fsr? idk why i feel it. icarus? assassin defector... something that starts with an o or a d other loyal dog... i need to think but i also need to figure out the personalities of their respective pairs inserts minh as evil one. done. maybe mephis adjacent character for the... no mephis doesnt care abt anyone BUT hed be a great side character OH god what if au jonah and ambrose oh boy. FUCK jonahs probably there for some special task bc hes. attuned to some shit idk

I GUESS IM GONNA DEVELOP AMBROSE MORE ive only written him as a young adult but as a teen hes angry and rebellious and got drafted, ended up being a simple foot soldier but he meets jonah and a lot changes jonah's there on top secret bullshit, same program as astrid definitely has some shit to do With Experiments. astrid has enhanced eyesight/coordination on top of being an ace combat pilot, i think jonah might be able to open up warp gates or limited pocket space mephis is evil scientist who doesnt care abt casualties

I'm thinking about unnamed pilot lesbians and i am. enamored immediately holy shit god they're both so goal oriented and focused but once the fighting is finally over they finally allow themselves to embrace the intensity of their emotions for eachother and i am fucking perishing they were essentially raised as child soldiers so it's this clumsy process of trying to figure things out for the first time, this kind of innocent but intense and blooming love between two hardened soldiers, the years of war coming away when they're together for the first time actually fuck i did name them but i'm still not sure about ace pilot girl? i want to name her lane or something monosyllable, maybe i'll revamp raine and make her this oc instead... either way i'm just. ugh. UGH. FUCK. holy shit they love eachother so much

I"M GETTING REALLY FUCKED UP ABOUT THE POSSIBILITY OF THE PRODIGY (ASTRID) DYING IN THE LINE OF DUTY or well at least goes missing, presumed dead but raine just... doesn't believe it. astrid can't die. she's too amazing. there's no way fucking. huge disbelief. she refuses? raine going on a near suicidal self-appointed mission against commander's orders to rescue her, khemrin tries to hold her back but he can't, she' fucking gone speeding off on one of the fastest scouting ships she can hijack raine finding her alive but barely conscious in a damaged cockpit floating in space for who knows how long, raine unable to open the hatch and get to her but anchors her ship to hers, NOT EFFECTIVE BUT HER ONLY REAL CHOICE w/o compromising the air seal. makes the journey back astrid barely makes it to the space equivalent of a truck stop (unaffiliated) and raine calls for backup in panic and tries her best to tend to astrid's wounds an feed her and she's fucking PANICKING but trying so hard to keep it together astrid wakes up and raine's crying i don't have anything specific its just really soft and raine never Does this god when they meet again after the war, raine running her fingers over the scar left from astrid's helmet shattering h raine in a tux and astrid dressed like a princess and raine kissing her shoe sorry im gay bye

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kyohiba · 5 years

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snow white + prince cursing. jiang cheng and wen ning fix it post canon au

WEN NING TAKING A BLOW TO THE CHEST FOR JIN LING N JC TAKING AN ARROWN TO THE HEART FOR WEN NING LMAO

ssyifpfff🌙 i dig it, havent thot much of it tho

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 but the idea of wen ning trailing behing sizhui and jc trailing behing jin ling n thm meeting while they keep their respective babies safe os *kisses filgers* DOLCE

May 16 i feel like a whole 4th eye of mine opened to that... but my mind probably wont be able to focus much. i hate how i can only hyperfixate in one or two ships at time

ISNT IT SO DOLCE? FORTÍSSIMO!

yeeting patriarch jiang cheng's hostility decreasing as they kept meeting...

yeeting patriarch perhaps wn and jc could get my ass more than jc with huaisang !?

but nothing will ever get ur ass more thn jc/happiness will it

jiang cheng n huaisang is v Aesthethic bc huaisang is a pretty pretty hoe

ssyifpfff🌙 bUT W WEN NING THERES A LOT OF ANGST

May 16 jc + happiness is all that matters

but... the sweet angst road of wn and jc...

yeeting patriarch IT CAN AND IT WILL LEAD TO HAPPINESS !?

and yea the Appeal of jc ano nhs is that huaisang is Very Pretty plus his scheming charm. but we arent given much canon background to work on this. not that it matters, lord knows we built the content when we really want to make anything

but The Flavor, of the canon background content for jc and wn Is There And It's Stronf

yeeting patriarch nevermind what i said im already ass deep into it. i love both jc and wn way too much, the appeal got me immediately

ssyifpfff🌙 ALSO BC WUXIAN DITCHED BOTH OF THEM FOR THT WANGJI D LMAO

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 them bonding over how dumb wuxian would act "he would float in the water n pretend he drowned" "yea he told a-yuan he needed to be buried in order to grow big n tall like a raddish" they look at each other n want to laugh but jc doenst know if hes comfortable enough for tht n wn doenst know if hes allowed to

May 16 yeeting patriarch REPRESSED DUMB BABIES LAUGH TO UR HEARTS CONTENTS TOGETHER :(((((

but oh god, the way jiang cheng is,

their road would be So Long

yeeting patriarch another slow burn, uh...

and then so much confusion and conflicted angsty feelings along the way when everything is better because jc was almost forgetting that..........wen ning is dead :) hes a corpse. what future awaits them. this is terrifying

yeeting patriarch ...why cant i have anything nice and just soft. i need to throw angst in or i die?

ssyifpfff🌙 its awful its a terrible idea to ship tht what r u doin

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 but wen ning being a pure boy, dogs would love him, dogs would gather around him bc he has a Good Aura, n jianc cheng just observes from afar thinkin How can he be so approachable whn hes a fierce corpse

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 like it would have to start w jc thinkin wen ning is less thn a human u understand

May 16 yeeting patriarch

ssyifpfff🌙 SAJGDASDF

May 16 IM CRYING imagine one day jiang cheng finds wen ning, on the floor, on top of him there are like four different dogs all swaying their tails all that hyper bullshit dogs do.

the incident repeats quite a few times

yeeting patriarch jc notices dogs are drawn to wen ning?

ssyifpfff🌙 he notices MAYBE?? hes not a dangerous zombie after all???

May 16 he lets it slip and asks how wuxian reacted to it

as wwx is terrified of dogs

and wen ning is like. where we... spent most of our time... there were no dogs

(awkward silence timel

ah. ruined it again.

okay 2 take

when they're on those night hunts, wen ning + sizhui & jiang cheng + jin ling

fairy starts being Too Friendly towards wen ning

both jiang cheng and jin ling were initially taken aback by it

yeeting patriarch but as the time goes on... it Softens their heart

ssyifpfff🌙 iT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE BC FAIRY IS A SPIRITUAL DOG N IT WOULDNT NVR BE FRIENDLY TO AN EVIL GHOUL SO IT RLY MAKES THM SEE THT WEN NING ISNT A BAD GUY

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 also take 2 on tht dog thing, wen ning is like "ah wei wuxian made me chase any dogs away, i quite like dogs but i had to" to remind jc of the puppies he had to give away bc of wwx lmao :)

May 16 yeeting patriarch THEY START REALIZING WEN NING IS THE PUREST ANGEL... and opening up, in their tsun ways, with him

yeeting patriarch i like how the canon wen ning art is him with a ginger cat, but for the sake of jiangning we made him a dog person

i honestly picture him being the snow white os mdzs, just all animals gathering around him

bird perching on his shoulders, deer eating from his hands. jiang cheng confused af

hes Prince Not Charming

ssyifpfff🌙 Prince Cursing, if u will

May 16 yeeting patriarch WEN NING SNOW WHITE OF MDZS AND HIS PRINCE CURSING JIANG CHENG IM YELLINGGFFKDJSKSK

yeeting patriarch jiang cheng going thru the trees and shit then he finds wen ning all surrounded by all animals cutely around him, the birds singing, some squirrels on the top of his head, a butterfly kissing his nose and suddenly the scene seem to have 💖Sparkles 💖 around. jiang cheng is like *rubs his eye and looks again* What

ssyifpfff🌙 "hey you... you have some animals on you" n wen ning was just super still he only focuses on jc "Oh yes. they do this sometimes. its ok i enjoy it"

May 16 ssyifpfff🌙 "everytime i wake up theres a few little ones on me, they must think im a rock or something" jiang cheng, internally, seein all the animals: CLEARLY THEY ENJOY IT TOO???

May 16 yeeting patriarch JIANG CHENG MACHINE BROKE

ssyifpfff🌙 MEAN JIANG CHENG.EXE STOPPED WORKING

May 16 PRECISELY HENSKLDGSKLS

i would like the idea of, somewhere farther into the future,

some cultivator bitch being mean to wen ning and by instinct jiang cheng ends up standing for wen 5

wen ning*

but then hes a sect leader and...

yknow how it wouldnt work

yeeting patriarch BUT A NYARI CAN DREAM!?

THEY CAN AT LEAST BE ... LIKE.... PHILTATOS

ssyifpfff🌙 MOST BELOVED

May 17 jiang cheng has responsibilities but thEY CAN BE LIKE YOU KNOW.... CASUAL

ssyifpfff🌙 they dont gotta marry. not every couple can be wangxian

May 17 PHILTATOSSSSSSSS

tbh im all in for casual couples too

yeeting patriarch not everyone needs or can have Marriage

hmmmmmm the more jc starts seeing The Light in wn, when they're at the middle of the road,

yeeting patriarch more tangled his emotions get?

he was supposed to LOATHE wen ning but then he sees what happened wasnt wen nings fault. hes angry, who to blame then? wuxian! but it also isnt entirely wwx's fault he lost the control, the dark cultivation is a dangerous path after all... and wwx had a lot on his shoulders... and most of all: it was the only path he could follow without his golden core :) the very golden core that now resides inside jc. who should he blame? who should he hate?? Himself???

yeeting patriarch goddammit can i stop with the suffering

me: snow white au hehe you, chaotic bastard: what if jiang cheng hated himself lmao

i hate specifically tht iT MAKES SENSE

ssyifpfff🌙 HE SPENT. OVER A DECADE BLAMING WEN NING N WUXIAN N TO REALIZE HE WAS WRONG, HE WASTED ALL THOSE YEARS. WHOS HE GONNA TURN THT HATE TOWARD??? HIMSELF OFC!!!!! OF COURSE!!!!!!1

May 17 HOLD UP THAT I GRAB BOTH OF US TO JUMP INTO THE HELL HOLE BUT I CAN ALSO SAVE US

listen up,

one day all those feelings that keep growing and bottling up inside jc overflow and he explodes in yelling and tears and etc

wen ning, whom was with him, witness all that

yeeting patriarch and tries to soothe his state of mind

yeeting patriarch telling him that it's no one's fault. none of them couldve known what would happen. all sides had their good intentions here and there, but unfortunately fates can twist it in a way they never expected

BUT THEN jc returns with an "then why do u look like u blame yourself as well?" BECAUSE WEN NING DOES

yeeting patriarch sorry apparently the half brain cell i have working, only does suffering hours

"THEN WHY DO U BLAME URSELF"

nyari u sAID U COULD SAVE US

ssyifpfff🌙 wen ning is like "..............." jiang cheng: i know it wasnt anyones fault but then what am i supposed to feel? who am i supposed to hate??"

May 17 yeeting patriarch IM LAUGHINGS O MUCH IM NOT BRSTJINENSKS

wen ning is like No one. there isnt any1 to blame anymore

ssyifpfff🌙 im franctically tryin to make it bETTER NYARI LEND ME A HAND DAM IT

May 17

MY THROAT HURTS IM TOO BROKE LIKE (MANIC LAUGHTER)

yeeting patriarch okay lemme get myself back together and try to offer some fix it

yeeting patriarch me: *shaking, weakly offering a tiny ass pink hello kitty band aid* This Will Fix Everything (the hell hole im offering the band aid for is like 17cm)

yeeting patriarch wen ning goes confident mode again and says that he cant help it as much jc and wwx, all of them will feel guilty no matter what anyone says. they tried their best but it backfired and they will need, they have to, learn how to live in terms with it. not forgetting, but still forgiving themselves and each other

wen ning obv has the wisdom of some1 who has died, seen death, been death, and come back to life

he has an appreciation for the little things no others would have

if any1 could emotionally guide jc it wOULD BE HIM1!

ssyifpfff🌙 "i have regrets too, but theres no choice for any of us but to live w them n learn"

May 17 ssyifpfff🌙 ALSO

May 17 ssyifpfff🌙 i think wen nings sensibility woULD BE SO GOOD FOR JC, hes always tense he needs a break of him just being so still tht birds can perch on his shoulders

May 17

WEN NINGGGGGGGGG

yeeting patriarch he'll literally become jc's heaven sent angel... his solace and calm

like, after that breakdown and the things wen ning said

yeeting patriarch jiang cheng actually does feel... Lighter

wen ning boutta be jiang chengs therapist

ssyifpfff🌙 its what he needs

May 17 but as jiang cheng starts dealing better with his internal demons

he starts seeing more too that wen ning isnt only light

wen ning carries his pain too, inevitably

and jc starts to help wn as well

yeeting patriarch each other's company start being the healing they needed?

woke

ssyifpfff🌙 jiang cheng teached wn confidence and wen ning teaches jiang cheng stillness and softness

May 17 i teared up here

after The Wen Ning Effect, and jiang cheng softening. people of his sect start to be... less afraid of him? AND BETTER, the respect level only grows!

jiang cheng realizing there is strength in softness too

that to be tender doesnt mean to be weak

of course his actions arent Oh, Super Obvious as he is a tsun

yeeting patriarch but u can feel The Difference on his aura

YOU HAVE TO BE SOFT TO BE STRONG JIANG CHENG

ASKJDAJSDGF

ssyifpfff🌙 I KNOW THAT WHEN LOVE IS LOST..............

May 17 yeeting patriarch I LOVE HOW IN SYNC WE ARE MY MIND ALSO WENT SOFT TO BE STRONF .MP3

ssyifpfff🌙 WE'VE KNOWN IT ALL ALONG THE TRUTH IS............ YOU HAVE TO BE S

May 17 yeeting patriarch ME, ON THE FLOOR, SOBBING, SINGING ALONF,

ssyifpfff🌙 EXTREME MOOD RN

May 17 yeeting patriarch we did done it again and again... i cannot believe it

honestly if the ppl in his sect see tht jc has the ghost general over for tea they'd be like Wow sect leader cheng rly is amazing

ssyifpfff🌙 hes so fearless

May 17 im tearing up again

HMMMMMMMMM his relationship with wen ning also being a bridge for some fixing for his relationship with wuxian...........

takes so much time and it's slow

but

after he took it all in, and especially wen nings words that he shouldn't forget to forgive, and has to live with it

he starts Understanding the events. that is was inevitable. and that the anger would not help nor be good for any of them

yeeting patriarch that for the ones around them (like jin ling) they need to... overcome it

*sobbing* wen ning even helping him to overcome his inferiority complex !?

yeeting patriarch making jc see that this and this sides of him are greater and make up for this and this other ones. that he, too, was of vital importance on here and there

tht the ppl around him look up to him, tht they dont compare him to wuxian, tht the strenght he has shown isnt just coming from his golden core but from his choices as well

from his leadership

also jiang cheng realizing yanli wouldnt want him to hate

ssyifpfff🌙 the worst part abt yanlis death is tht we dont ever hear her last words

May 17 ssyifpfff🌙 she doesnt get to finish sayin thm, we dont know what she was gonna say to wuxian n i firmly believe tht if she has finished n she had said she didint blame him, thn jiang cheng wouldnt have been as hung up on hate as he was

May 17 yeeting patriarch

yeeting patriarch tbh yanli... she just Understood more. faster than the two dense dumbasses

SHE WAS SO BRIGHT

AND MATURE

ssyifpfff🌙 I MISS HER EVERYDAY

May 17 and it's like. Obvious she wouldnt want them to be that way. she would want them to understand the terms of the situation and overcome it TOGETHER

IM SO SAD SHE DESERVED BETTER :(((

but after jiang cheng learns how to deals with his demons,

and most important of all: Grows (emotionally)

he starts seeing things a bit more like his sister would

yeeting patriarch WWYLD (What Would YanLi Do)

yeeting patriarch hmm now what's left is his daddy issues

WWYLD!!!!!

sadasdfsf the fuck jiang dad

ssyifpfff🌙 can u believ wen ning is jiang chengs love+fear era

May 17 hmmmmmmmm let's say that as he watches himself raise jin ling he starts to understand his dad couldn't be easy on him. and that he Had To be softer on wwx's for his situations

i cant go deeper on this one because his dad messed up

yeeting patriarch but let's say that was really the case,

ssyifpfff🌙 yes theres no excuse for his dad, he had a soft spot for wwx n his favoritism showed

May 17 ssyifpfff🌙 its more like, its important for jc to Know it doesnt matter, he grew up to be a good leader n tht proved his dad wrong

May 17 IT'S HARD TO FIND A SITUATION OUT OF HIS DAD REASONS he messed up

BUT!!! YES!!!!!!!

learn to let go of those feelings towards his dad

yeeting patriarch and the day it finally fully clicked inside him that he became an amazing sect leader, he proved it

it's also important that he could realize having wwx golden core inside him means as if wwx really kept his promise

he stayed by his side

yeeting patriarch a very important piece of wwx will always be with him

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whatthefcukc · 6 years

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i think i like being single a lot. when im with someone i start to meld into them they become a part of me and like being free nobody has expectations set for me either unless i want them to or i surround myself with those kinds of people. my mind and body r free and im not blaming someone else for holding me back either, i dont feel held back. im not worried about whether its right or wrong, atleast not like i am when im thinking about the person im with. and i dont have that crushing empty feeling like i need them and theyre not there or its not working out or whatever the fuck. i really gotta make a conscious effort to stay this way not because i need to because it feels like breathing it feels good to me and right. i will be ok either way. no heroin and no meth. the orher night i did a lot of molly cut with meth. i dont like that. it was fun when i was up but i dont fuck with that. i couldnt think clearly even though of course i thought i was thinking perfectly. i couldnt stop moving. it made me realize i like having control at least a little because i have a rational mind when im sober im bless d with having that and i dont want to not have that with me at any time really. yes i like calming down. but i also need ti know whats going on and be able to look out for myself and my friends. i dont fuck with entirely losing myself like that on uppers who knows what id end up doing. thats why theres all these fucked stories i hear from tweakers and such evil surrounding them. i dont like it. some people do but you can tell theyre scared to come down too. they stay up for days or a week. up is the easy part and the coming down is hard when you realize how crazy and irrational your mind was. and when you stop recognizing that..thats crackheadedness i guess..you twist your brain back and forth so much that it ends up crazy cause it doesnt know how to come down anymore. rationality and a stable mind really is a blessing. it really makes me sad what these people are doing to themselves. but asking me for all this advice when im high on this shit all night..i gave horrible advice like any tweaker would. like its fine everythings fine keep doing more or whatever the fuck idk. it makes you see things surface level and lose the depth. but you still feel like you have the depth its just not backed up by anything. theres no way to think out anything your thoughts are going so fast..you cant even light a cigarette without forgetting once or twice. bam. bam. everything seems perfect cause u dont really think about anything long enough for it to be different. til you do. then you tweak and tweak and your best friend makes you tea to try to calm you down and you say i fucked up and im sorry and i love you and she says its okay. but its not and you try to do anything to take your mind off it but nothing works. you feel evil everywhere and dont trust anybody in the world..those you feel you can you think will hate you. your hearts beating out of your chest. the last thing u remember is this spanish man giving you a fat ass line and trying to feel you up.

i guess i also just realized like..i can convince myself all i want that i lobe drama and craziness in life but i think its just what ive been used to doing. i really do hate that shit. its all bullshit maybe a good story once in a while but like..its always the same story really. im with some people who dont really gaf about me we're all chasing something we wont get..all angry or sad or manipulative..lonely people being lonely together trying to fill the void with drugs that drive us crazy and arguments that have no end. conversations about nothing repeat over and over. about other stupid people who did dumb shit. its not drama and chaos and "young wild n free" its pointless and unenjoyable to me anymore. atleast with people like that who do drugs like that and heroin too for that matter. h is hard though because my brain does crave it it feels so good to me like nothing else even matters but it when i get a good shot or whatever. but its never ever gonna be right and its gonna fuck my head up even more if i let it. i have a natural tendency to think theres at least something wrong with me even when nithing is wrong im usually worrying about something. silly. and when i hear heroin suddenly i worry even more..convince myself i need it...im like that with stuff that calms me down. i need to learn to be calmer so i dont feel like i need to take the edge off. i feel good a lot of the time lately its very new compared to the couple months before this past couple weeks. a lot of it is from relationships in my life. i need to find calm within myself or the universe. i feel i am on my way. sometimes i ask when will i get there? when ? when??? but its about figuring out stuff like this along the way. need to find a way to be calm without relying on external things sometimes i really can do that too sometimes i cant i mean maybe its as easy as accepting im not always gonna feel calm i think thats definutwly a part of it. and if i alwayss was calm it would be weird. lol i just put two and two together kf course i dont like drama if im obsessed with downers. acceptance is key though. calm and acceptance. everything is already ok. what would i like to do, i can do anything w that mindset

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