ok fine im a bit pissy

I did not spend HOURS of EVERY DAY this week, most often WELL AFTER MIDNIGHT

doing things for certain types of encampment that I CANT TALK ABT ON SOCIAL MEDIA ON RISK OF SELF-INCRIMINATION

to be palestine-guilted over MEMEING ABOUT MISHA COLLINS

I did not WORK MYSELF TO EXHAUSTION

face *REDACTED* and *REDACTED*

to be told that my HAPPY LITTLE FANDOM POSTING on a site with NO FINANICAL OR ALGORITHMIC SIGNIFICANCE TO CELEBRITIES somehow undoes alllll of that.

is this a good post? no. does it apply to a lot of ppl? prolly not. could I lose followers/moots for this? yeah.

but its what I'm feeling rn.

Enhypen Imagine - The fans don’t support your relationship

*second post wooho! thank you so much for the likes on the last post, make sure to give me positive feedback im still looking for ways to improve <3

warnings: angst, breaking up, hate comments

Heeseung-

“y/n i can’t handle this anymore.” Heeseung says while looking at you sitting on the floor crying over yet more hate comments. “I’ve told you so many times to not read those comments but you always do.” he sighs. “Are you b-breaking up with me-?” you manage to say through your tears, and you look back at him to see him nodding slightly. “I’m sorry y/n”

Jay-

“Why didn’t you try harder?! Do you even love me?” These arguments have been going in for the past few weeks ever since you announced your relationship. “Of course I loved you y/n but this isn't exactly easy.” he says, obviously mad. “Loved?” you breathe out, tears forming in your eyes once again.

Jake-

Jake and you haven't exactly been talking for the past few days, there's obviously unspoken tension and poor Jake is super stressed and CANNOT handle this much hate, so he would probably just send you a text. “I’m sorry y/n but I can't do this anymore, it's not you I promise. This hate just isn't healthy for either of us. I'm sorry, I love you.”

Sunghoon-

“God y/n why are you being so dramatic, it's obvious we were going to get hate, i don't get why you're mad at me.” Sunghoon sighs “If you can't handle this, then maybe we should just break up.” You can’t even say another word. All you do is nod, respecting his wishes and leaving him alone.

Sunoo-

“Jagiya i'm trying my best.” he confesses because you've been yelling at him for the past hour. “Well your best isn't enough! You need to fight for us” you keep yelling back. “I-i can’t! I'm sorry!” Sunoo is starting to cry. “You can't or you won't.” This argument is going nowhere and you're starting to get tired of this.

Jungwon-

“Why aren't you trying harder to stop the comments!” you are yelling at him because this hate is ruining your perfect relationship. “I am trying! You don't understand that I get tired too, there's only so much hate I can take myself!” Jungwon confesses, probably crying but you fail to notice as you're already leaving.

Ni-ki-

I honestly have no idea how he would react, probably similar to jake. Ni-ki already gets a lot of hate but now everything is double since he revealed your relationship. He wouldn't even be able to face you, just sending a very simple text “We should break up.”

Tears, Laughter, Sorrow.

corny, pero wla ako mapost e wla akong no choice last march pa 'to sa drafts CW: Angst? mostly none, corny writing, i hate writing esp since i cant think of anything good/this is why i dont post anymore ffs Spoilers for Lantern Rite '23, not sure if i mention anything but yk its just to be safe A/N: i love school, but i went from rank 1 to rank 3 and i absolutely hate everything and everyone im going to cry sorry for not posting anything recently(and ever), and as usual, English isn't my first language, so please don't have any high hopes for this piece. I might go back to completing the Slowly series but im not feeling well since i last went on here to write a serious fic Read utc!

*:･ﾟ✧ Zhongli *:･ﾟ✧ "Would you live to see Liyue's downfall, or always relive the one most painful moment you have felt in your lifetime?" You pause, thinking on an answer to your friend's question. "The latter. Liyue's downfall won't happen for another thousand years, I doubt that any of you would be attending my funeral any time soon." Your friend tears up at the thought. "Right... yeah probably right." "I'm kidding of course! An endless time loop would keep me stressed, I'd rather have you by my side." ... "I'm... relieved? Hey listen, it's getting late, you should be getting home. I'll see you tomorrow." It was unlikely for your friend to suggest to leave this early, but you don't mind, as long as you see them again tomorrow. Then again, it was too tiring to walk home just right now, maybe you could walk around the harbor, after all, you and your friend have been playing by the docks all day, without anything better to do. "I should be getting home back to Zhongli." you mutter. Although cold, the air in Liyue would always smell of various floral scents, specifically the Glaze Lily. You hated Glaze Lilies. There wasn't one word in the dictionary that could describe how much you loathe these cyan-petal, night-blooming lilies as much as you possibly could. Well, truth be told, you hated the person Zhongli associates with these blooms, and it drives you insane. Guizhong, Zhongli's late friend before the Archon War, used to be so close to him. He would return late from his ventures with his friend in tow that he forgets to come home to you every single time. You couldn't really argue with the reasoning he has, since he is more of your superior rather than a lover. It's been so long since he spent time with you without reminiscing about Guizhong, probably a little over your 429th birthday. Oh yeah, did I forget to mention you were old? The more Zhongli leaves you to mourn Guizhong's day of death on your day of birth, you resort to laughter every time he comes home instead. The false joy of seeing him return home after a mournful day which he marks Guizhong's passing, your laughter behind the façade you show for your lover. "How's Guizhong been? Any response yet?" you muse. "I prefer you not adding salt to my wound." "Oh yeah, you guys ended on rather good terms, it would be a shame if I were to slander her in front of her good friend." The statement always seems to make Zhongli seethe with fury, and it looks like he's had enough of your insults and remarks. "A true shame you did not get to know her, or were you busy burning away your lifetime serving false gods?" "You know well better than to bring my past stature into this conversation." It pains you to think about your past, when your parents sold you off to a minor god for wealth, leaving you to rot in the god's hands. "I'm tired, I do not wish to make this into a heated argument. Go to bed." ... "I honestly wish it was you instead of Guizhong, I miss her dearly." That was what made this memory painful, it was what made you cry in the eve, and sob in the morn. In the end, when you were asked the same question years ago, immortality seemed like a dream, now turned into a living nightmare. You only wish to awake from this horrible dream, again, and again, and again. "So... Would you live to see Liyue's downfall, or always relive the one most painful moment you have felt in your lifetime?" The question that would mark another day of the loop, spent in misery and sorrow. The days you've spent celebrating your birth over, and over again. "Happy 7,329th birthday, to me."

Reo x reader

Now do you guys have any idea that I love writing angst shits? but I'm not writing that rn so don't worry you'll be fine.

Tags:toxic(especially you),reassurance , Long distance relationship, lack of communication(cliche let me laugh).

A/n:not proofread.

You transferred school in England making you two experience long distance relationship.

You two always fight with the same reason."I told you don't ignore me like that."You said sitting in front of your laptop looking in isagi's Instagram post , it's Reo and his teammates in a resort hanging out after they won U-20 championship.

"I told you I'm not ignoring you it's just I'm busy but I never ignore you,you know that."you can hear his heavy sigh."Again we're fight about this all over again, I'm tired lets talk tomorrow please."He said hanging up on you.

You threw your phone into your bed and clenched your fist. you hate it, he hang out with his friends unaware about his day or where he's going.

"He's tired?,He's getting tired? No that can't be."Paranoid you can't help but pull your hair in frustration.

You picked up your phone and started sending messages to your boyfriend.

To:Hun.

Ok, this time I'm wrong but it's your fault if you just update me about your day I wouldn't have to over think about everything who knows what you've been doing there.

From:Hun.

It's just a little celebration is there something you have to be worried about?.

To:Hun.

Are you cheating on me? Im going back to japan who knows what kind of woman she is, Say it you love me right?.

He just left you on read that makes your blood boil,you cant help it overthinking about different scenarios where he cheats on you.

After counseling with your psychology professor you realize that it you , you are the problem, constant checking, restricting his time,and insecurities that lead you into overthinking things.

Reo finally called you after two days of ignoring you.

"im sorry can we talk?."reo asked you.

You nod even though he cant see it."Im sorry to i realized I've gone to far these past weeks i just want reassurance about everything cause i cant feel it."

"i know them im letting you feel that way but promise i never intended to,I always love you these past week im just understanding you and your situation its probably hard for you to adjust in this type of situation that's why i don't mind."Your tear rolled in your face making you shut your eyes.

this is the best for the two of you having to tell each other how much you cared and love them."i know im sorry."you said

"Just open your door babe."after hearing that you Rushes to the door and say Reo's smiling and holding your face bouquet of flowers.

He hugs you thight you can feel how happy he was and hug him back.

After that you two talked deep on how to fix and adjust in your situation making your bond together strong.

A/n:We all need to respect our partner and never make toxic behaviors leading you two in the most unhealthy scene or worst break up.-Your ex is probably otoya or aiku tsk tsk tsk.

Im sorry everyone but I'm going to go on break for awhile. I just got finished burying a kitten that had fading kitten syndrome with my little sister. My grandma is close to dying and I'm so very, very tired. I'm sorry I probably won't post much as before, nor will I finish/write Wormsnax like I'd promised I would. I wish to rest and take time for myself and family, I'm going to my dad's for maybe a week or two as I'd promised I would if my grandma wouldn't get better. Im sorry if this is disappointing news, if anyone does read this.

Rest in piece my baby Fransisca, you were barely a month old but I knew you had a beautiful, lovely soul. I'm sorry you didn't live long, I'm sorry I couldn't help you like I'd wanted. My sweet baby, no human nor animal deserves such a fate. And I hate how I couldn't get a picture of you before your death. May your spirit rest and your body come back to earth and help with soil.

Id rather this fate on myself and not on an Innocent little kitten that could barely walk. I'm sorry

Hello there, thanks for stumbling across my blog!

(Here's a lil comic I made for a school assignment)

I'm going to start putting my social energy levels in my bio... There's a lot of stuff I want to respond to but i currently dont have the energy to do so, and so if I don't respond within like a day, check my bio and see that... I always feel bad about being on tumblr when theres things people have sent me but responding to those things is a different level of interaction than reblogging a post... so yeah... Sorry to the people i havent responded to yet! I will soon <333 (writing this on low energy, sorry for the incoherence)

Who am I / Where else can you find me?

First of all, feel free to call me Eli!! I'm on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis. I am agender and aroace-spec.

I am verrryyy enthusiastic about the things I am interested in (hence the URL hehehe). And currently, those are: podcasts (theres a list at the bottom of the post), good omens, ofmd, bbc merlin, star trek!!!!, lotr, and probably more things that I am too tired to think of right now!

I am a very big fan of the oxford comma and double brackets. Semicolons are pretty cool too. And ellipses are incredible.

i love all of my mutuals dearly!! Making cookies and hot chocolate for you all <33

I try to use tone tags as much as possible!

Boundaries:

Things I am okay with sharing/doing:

My age, gender/sexuality, things about my guinea pigs!!, and most other things

Things I am not okay with sharing/doing:

The city I live in, pictures of me/anyone I know, my full name, my birthdate, my phone number/email address, meeting up with people irl, sending/receiving money/gifts, dms (<- though if we're mutuals and interacted a lot dms are fine!!)

^ this applies to everyone im not in the discord with

I will let someone know if they cross boundaries, and *really* would like other people to let me know if I cross theirs!!

DNI: people who are here to spread hate and anger. Just, stay away. I dont engage in discourse. I know DNIs dont deterr these people, but this is a demonstration of my core values :)

Updated to clarify - I do block the generic tags such as Israel and Gaza, which most of the posts are tagged with by the op, so if you forget its no big deal!!

Tags:

(At the top cause otherwise it will get lost) ALSO #tw body horror

I block quite a few tags but most notably #tw war and other ones to do with the war in israel/palestine. This is not because I don't care. I care so so so much about what is happening and I cry every time I see a post about it. It breaks my heart that such horrible things are happening. However, I really struggle with high empathy, and seeing a post about it can really affect me for a while, and I need tumblr to be a safe space away from the real world problems. If I follow you - please could you tag things to do with war. Thank you <3

A list of all the podcasts I listen to because y'know, its fun:

Fiction:

The Amelia Project

Wooden Overcoats

The Adventure Zone

Sherlock & Co

Alba Salix

Unseen

And a whole lot more that i no longer listen to either because they havent updated or they are a little too creepy (Welcome to Night Vale falls into the latter category)

Science:

The Sci Guys

Lets Learn Everything

Lingthusiasm

A podcast of unnecessary detail.

Comedy/other:

Dear Hank and John

The Unmade Podcast

Books Unbound

Lateral

A book list of recommendations from mutuals for my own use:

abigail by Magda Szasbo (@mack-anthology-mp3)

The Alphabet of Candice Phee (@jamie-dinow)

A list of music reccomendations from mutuals:

in the lap of the gods revisited by queen, why can't i be you by the cure, pyramid song, and lucky & the tourist by radiohead, when the sun hits by slowdive, dancing barefoot by patti smith, tangerine by led zeppelin, autumn sweater by yo la tengo, rubber ring by the smiths, water by pj harvey (from @/mack-anthology-mp3)

imi hendrix’s all along the watchtower (from @/catholickedd)

Oh no I hate Fan too. Fan was not a good character in season 2 and he didn't actually face any consequences for his actions. Paintbrush was like the closest we got to Fan being criticised and people considered PB to be the one overreacting. Paintbrush is done so dirty because the fandom put their own belief about the bright lights being family even though Paintbrush never actually got along with them. They talked to tt like once, bickered with lb until the last ep they were in and then there's. Fan..

Also I think I hate fantube a little more after the theyrebasicallycanon polls put enstars against ii. Glad rinniki won they deserve the win against fantube imo.

Sorry I was tired of being critical of ii so I don't like it anymore 😔

But hiiii we haven't talked much in a while ik :(( I'm on holiday rn but feel free to talk to me if you want!

ALLLL OF THIS

Paintbrush was in every way in the right to yell at fan, he constantly bothered and nagged at them and the stuff about marshmallow was definitely the final straw

i only ever liked the whole bright lights family thing because honestly it could’ve worked imo!!! but they just never took that chance they never really developed the brights lights AT ALL most season (beside from marshmallow) the bright light felt more like the comical team (not really but can’t think of a better way to describe them) compared to the grand slams who definitely got way more focus and development

it’s shitty because i think the brights lights could’ve had potential but they were just casted aside until the last few episodes where “oh hey look development!! :] oh wait nvm they’re eliminated now <3” like ????

paintbrush definitely got the short end of the stick here. literally having what was supposed to be their episode mainly centred around tt and lb and having their feelings about marsh being completely casted aside. i wish more was done w/ marshmallow and them vs them and lb

looking back a lot of their scenes w lb just felt kinda off??? i don’t think can articulate this probably rn but paintbrush deserved better

but at the same time i wish the team got more time w/ each other in general, they have so many great opportunities to do it like in the maze episodes but again they’re kinda just cast aside as just comedy

and w/ s3 oh boy i hate what they did with paintbrush and their “arc” in the last few episodes. they quite literally and figuratively took away their edges, i miss sassy, sarcastic confident paintbrush they feel so dulled down in iii and it’s like no one in the writing team understands them at all. it’s like they didn’t even write s2 (but hey back to the point i mentions last post that show writers really ought to stop listening to fans sometimes because this is how fanon seeps in </3)

i hate how the a lot of the fans view paintbrush especially if it’s only ever in the context of lightbrush or shipping (another thing that pisses me off btw is how they’re always treated as irrational and or just plain out abusive FUCK PEOPLE WHO PORTRAY PAINTBRUSH LIKE THIS)

they’re such a great character who gets absolutely fucked over by the writing and fandom (not all of the fandom of course, i love seeing ppls takes and discussions on them but it’s just some fans who just </3)

i don’t like discouraging ships, if ppl are mature and respectful and don’t put other ppl down then that’s all great and stuff but my problem is that i really wish paintbrush was just seen as more than their ships yknow

Fan is.. the more i think about canon him the more im like yeaaa… uh no thanks…. (mainly w/ him and paintbrush and cabby)

idk if im even allowed to say they changed tt this season because.. she didn’t honestly have a lot of screentime last season compared to a whole lot of other characters, but in iii she feels off?? honestly all of them do even the new contestants later on during the season

idk if i have the words to describe why s3’s characterisation is so off and at time frustrating, their arcs too, was going to point out some characters but honestly i could make a case for nearly ALL the contestants the ones who weren’t voted out early at least

that’s the end of my ramble tho, sorry ik i talked a lot about paintbrush, i want to talk about the others too but they’re the one i still even think about. hopefully this isn’t a bit hard to read, ik im not that organised w my rambles sometimes

top five terror men (this is a command)

I got another ask which is about my favorite tertiary characters so these will be excluded from my ranking so here's my top 5 terror guys (main and secondary characters edition)*

1. John Irving: as I said in my pinned post I am a JIRVGIRL AT HEART. idk man everything about his character is delicious to me. the self-denial and subsequent mixture of self-righteousness ("I'm better than you bc I can repress control myself") and self-loathing ("I'm horrible bc I feel these things and I'm going to hell I'm not good enough") is just. chef's kiss to me. he makes me crazy.

2. Cornelius Hickey: my baby my cult leader my everything. one of the more overtly "villainous" characters but he was so masterfully written and portrayed that he feels like a real human being; i feel like I can *understand* why he does everything that he does, every loathsome action, we understand why he thinks what he thinks why he made the choices that he made. even if the show gives us very little information on his backstory we can fill in the blanks- the "bugger Nelson, bugger Victoria" speech is so telling!!! I love him beyond words.

(Jirv and Hickey are my top 2 characters even including my pet tertiary guys)

3. Edward Little: I was really struck on my second watch by how much *rage* he's repressing, which is something I hadn't noticed my first time around (when I didn't even register his existence until like ep 5). this is in many ways a show about the failures of the people in charge- from the Admiralty picking goldner cans bc of the low price and not sending rescue earlier, to Sir John's hubris and Crozier's MANY failings as captain- and when our boy ned gets put in charge what does he do? he fails ❤️ which was not entirely his fault, the guys' reluctance to go save crozier is due to them both being tired as hell and probably not liking crozier all that much. his relationship to crozier is also fascinating to me, he's soooo eldest daughter coded I felt it in my bones (also an eldest daughter, also a flop). he hates what crozier put him through in eps 4 and 5 due to his faulty leadership, but I think he also develops respect for him due to trying to kick his addiction and everything that followed after they left the ships. by the time crozier gets kidnapped I think he genuinely really respects him. and, you know, dutiful to the end!!!! essentially refusing to die until the captain came to relieve him of his duties!!!!

4. Thomas Jopson: after the eldest faildaughter comes the golden child!!! fascinated by this guy. he gets many moments of tenderness which the other guys (with the exception of crozier and fitzjames) don't really get as a rule, but we see in his confrontation with hickey that he's no pushover. i find the contrast between these 2 fascinating; I think they came from similar origins but their life choices led them to develop vastly different outlooks (one isn't more valid than the other btw!!!!). aside from like blanky he's apparently one of the few guys on Terror who really knows what he's doing which is also commendable. I also just find characters who occupy "servant" positions really interesting.

5. Solomon Tozer: my dog-coded boy!!!! the breaking of solomon tozer is one of the most fascinating arcs in the show for me. at first he comes off as confident, sarcastic (his interactions with hickey as they bury david young!!!), one of the lads (im not British sorry if my usage of the term is cringe). but then one by one the marines fall (bryant killed by the bear, heather with his brains poking out of his skull, alive but not alive) and finally we get the tragedy of carnivale and his desperation to save heather which of course he's unable to do. that's always what tozer wants to do, he wants to save everyone, he wants to protect. the alienation of the marines from the rest of the men is also fascinating to me. and he falls under the spell of hickey bc of this desperation to save the people he cares about and himself and they develop that weird as hell psychosexual shit that makes me crazy. love them forever.

*main character: actor in the opening credits. secondary character: not in the opening credits but gets a relatively substantial amount of screen time/lines/a story arc more generally.

dearest bl

hello violet i hope this ask find you well i

so whats up with you as of late me an

i have some things to tell you, you might not like it and im sorry if

you dont have wattpad so you might not know whats going on but

me and pha francis (moonmxple) have something to tell you about neobix (no hate on him but)

like you might have known. uhhh things had have NOT been going well for neobix, cuppy and francis right now. im not gonna get into too much details about it since it's none of my business but, neobix is writing a book (and make a lil video for it. u can see in their tumblr)

its called "dead or alive". now i dont want to say anything be rude diss on him or anything, there's no issue with him quite literally write fics twice almost everyday/lh good for him. its just that this book is special since it features YOU now i dont know if they asked for your permission or not but he did "credit" you

so without futher ado. ill let the fic speak for itself (see what i did there? nudge nudge? wrong timing? okay-)

now the first chapter (it only have 1 chapter so far)

..actually you know what? lets just cut the crap, this was originally just about the fic and how you are in it. and im sorry but ive got to talk abt some stuff (inhale) he had:

1.make cuppy uncomfortable (i mean he said bezel presured him to making rubcha content but i feel like he could have handle it better, 1 is jsut a reason for 2 tbh)

2.doesnt accept that cuppy doesnt want to talk to him anymore and still kinda pester xem

3.that online/pet name post, u know the one..

4.keep writing fanfic of you guys (meaning you, cuppy and francis). like that one fic he wrote (well not rlly it jsut have notes for now) (the one he didnt credit your character for). and now this other one

5.in this fic as you can see he portrayed you guys (espically francis) as the villain who manipulate him! like i wouldnt even be okay if its your character but it's even more bad that he said its feature you guys!! the people, not even the character as you can see from his crediting.

6.he treated francis and tagging aer like friends even though he wrote aer as a bad person (which show quite clearly from his lil video in which he made for the au/fic)

yeah basically francis and is tired and so does cuppy. and i understand if u dont want to answer this ask or talk about it <3

i hope you have a nice week mac 🧡🧡

Yeah- I've been told by someone (anon) (I'ma be totally honest, I slimed through that-) anywho he/they didn't ask and it's sort of bothering me- but I'm trying to have a good birthday sooo I'm going to put it off till probably next week- I know that sounds kinda bad- but Idrk what to do about it yet... Thank you bin <3

hi jade this is so very random but i justw anted you to know that i appreciate you a lot :< it must be rlly overwhelming to have such a large follower base especially when they start making very rude demands but you remain calm amidst it all and i admire that sm 😭 beyond the quality of your work i truly admire how it’s like you never tire of writing!!! u have such fresh ideas and i love seeing when you add a new character to your list even tho i have no idea who they are… sorry im just rambling at this point but i really truly do adore you and you’ve made such an impact on my life solely from your writing and kindness

ik this probably means Nothing when you receive so many kind words from your followers in a day but still i feel it had to be said… have a great day!!!

firstly I just wanna say that it doesn't mean nothing, it means everything! The shine of a compliment literally never fades and I'm so fucking lucky to be in this position and to recieve such kindness, please be assured that it means a lot to me every single time!

it was overwhelming at first, I mean it gets more overwhelming every day but in a different way? I had such a massive rush of new people last summer that i didn't know what to do and didn't know how to cope with demands being made of me nor what to do with so much positive attention! Things are much easier now because while the insane and frankly amazing (in the fullest sense of the word, I am literally amazed) support remains, I think there's been a big decrease in people trying to police me and also negatives in general. I still get hate and stuff but it gets easier to deal with because you learn how how sort it into credible criticism versus bait versus personal pref framed as something you've done wrong, if that makes sense?

I really do love writing and getting better and seeing the difference, plus I'm fortunate to have endless possibilities at my fingertips. I have "such fresh ideas"??!! I could lit kiss you that's so nice and super nice to hear😭😭😭😭 I really love getting to do this and knowing there's someone on the other side who's going to be reading what I've made and hopefully enjoy it! Plus it's an escape for me that I treasure because I'm not always very well and I don't talk about it too much here, but the impact that your kindness and the kindness of my other readers has made on my life is far from small. I can be having such a terrible terrible day and then someone tells me they liked reading a drabble I posted and I feel better because I feel like I've been able to do something for someone else !!

Im really sorry I think I've rambled too 😭 anyhow please don't think it goes unfelt for me, I feel lucky in a way I can't explain, I really can't understand the reactions I get sometimes and even hearing you say about the quality of my work is a pleasant surprise, I feel tacky saying I dont believe it but sometimes I really don't! But I hope I can keep deserving all the love and care that's sent my way ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

hi again. im the anon that spewed the long rant about how, historically, censoring the "bad stuff" leads to queer stuff in general getting banned. had the words "most fandom elders and newbies alike think it's reprehensible!" in there

i feel bad for explaining it the way i did. i'm a firm believer in "fiction is fiction (including RPF) no matter what" which is an opinion that would get me run out of what is probably 99% of fandom spaces i'm in. i recently just unfollowed a mutual bcuz they wouldn't stop posting cringy "lol old people in fandom are weird" and making fun of those concerned about ao3 getting purged. to say i was high-strung and tired would be putting it lightly. i don't want people to think that they can't be squicked by whatever makes them uncomfy as long as they aren't harassing ppl and properly filtering their own internet experience, because i've been running into folks that go out of their way to rag on people who don't like "problematic content" for some reason (they're def not the majority and don't cause anywhere near the same amount of harm as antis, but they exist and confuse the hell out of me), hence the word "reprehensible," but i realize that was a bad way to do it

i've always wanted to make more friends that like dark stuff, even if i don't focus on it myself. those kinds of authors are always the most chill ones in a fandom, but unfortunately, i worry that since i like stereotypical found family fluff n shit they'll think i'm one of the shitbag antis that wants to call the cops on them for harmless fiction. thanks for ruining that, you puriteens

besides, the ppl that claim to hate and despise taboo fictional stuff sure love to talk about said stuff way more than the actual fans of it for some reason >_> gives me projection vibes

so, sorry to anyone i offended or hurt by wording it like that, esp leaving it vague when so many idiots are actively watering down serious terms to one up ppl in their ship wars :P you guys aren't doing anything wrong, and i support your right to artistic freedom as people always should. my crappy wording is why i tend to avoid commenting on discourse altogether bcuz my emotions get the best of me, and then it's not fun for anyone (not to mention all the grammar mistakes i missed, yeesh). you guys are awesome, and i appreciate the lengths you go to keep ao3 safe

(oi, i type way too much for my own good)

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Eh. I think it can be hard to find a space that isn't darkfic focused that has a strong dl;dr, sals, and ykinmkato stance. But people? I promise there are plenty of people who like badwrong content who also like found family and won't instantly assume you're awful.

It might be easier to find people in some very oldschool fandoms, but finding your people is always hard.

Honestly the constant discourse about Kyman, as someone who ships it, is kinda making me want to distance myself from what used to be my OTP. People speaking ill of Kyman shippers is working on me and starting to make me worry that I'm doing something wrong by shipping it. I shouldn't care about what ppl on the internet think and I usually don't but constantly being told that I'm "supporting" something thats "abusive" or problematic is getting to me. Like dammit, I didn't even know about the discourse when I got into Kyman; I got into it by watching the show itself and it was my first SP ship but honestly if I knew that people gave a shit about it in the SP fandom I probably wouldn't have bothered. It'll always have a place in my heart but I'm getting tired of this shit 😔 Im extra emotional rn so Im not being rational here and you dont have to publish this. I know fandom shouldn't have that affect on me I'll get over it after Style vs. Kyman fight 2192943290 blows over. Idk if you're comfortable with vents sorry if I crossed a boundary here.

Oh, anon. It never used to be like this.

Fandom discourse these days is insane. Unhinged, even. The idea that anyone is more morally correct than someone else for what they ship and enjoy in fiction is absolutely ludicrous. Especially within the context of shipping fucking South Park characters.

The hard truth is that every fandom is like this now. You don't have shipping wars just arguing over what makes more sense 'in canon', but moving on to an ever-changing line of what is and isn't 'morally acceptable.' As if that's ever something the majority of people would ever agree on. (Hint: it's not!)

But there is a certain irony to see people arguing this for South Park of all things, as if we aren't all equally degenerate for enjoying such a 'problematic' show in the first place. Like... seriously. Be so serious, people. It's South Park. Everything is exaggerated for comedic effect-- including character's personalities, their actions and their relationships to one another. It's never going to be a character driven show no matter how much this fandom sometimes wishes it was. We're going to have characters who don't give a fuck about each other, literally wishing death or plotting to kill each other in one episode and then they're just going to be chilling playing video games in the next episode like nothing happened. It's episodic. That's part of the appeal. It's why it's such a sandbox.

Even if you didn't ship Kyman, their dynamic is impossible to ignore, try as some might. They say they hate each other, yet they keep hanging out. Both parties are there of their own volition. They both enjoy each other's company, and no amount of write-up's anyone can post on tumblr dot com is going to change that canon fact. They're friends.

Also-- they are just plain fun to watch, fucking hilarious and a huge appeal of the show! If someone else who watches the show doesn't like them, that's their problem. Them not liking an aspect of the show isn't going to make that part of the show any less valid and/or canon. And guess what? You're supposed to like their dynamic. It's supposed to be entertaining and captivating. How you interpret it is up to you, but there is 100% nothing wrong with watching an episode of South Park and enjoying Eric and Kyle's dynamic-- that is what you're supposed to do. So don't feel bad about it. The show is made for people to enjoy, after all. Also, it's important to keep in mind that just because you can find a dynamic appealing doesn't mean you endorse everything about it. That's such a wild and new-age fandom take. Fiction is an escape-- a safe space to explore unrealistic relationships and unrealistic characters. You're allowed to like fucked up things in fiction. You're allowed to like stuff in fiction you'd find repulsive or abhorrent in real life.

I think I can speak for a good chunk of the fandom when I say, I'd fucking hate Eric Cartman in real life. Hell, I'd probably hate Kyle, too. I have a lot of favourite characters from different fandoms I'd probably hate in real life. They're fun because they're fictional and it's different from real life. If I wanted to read about stuff that happens in real life, I wouldn't be here.

In the end, anon, fandom is supposed to be fun. To me it's just fun to take these silly little egg construction paper kids, draw 'em as anime characters, and give 'em some angst. It's fun! There's so much to do with them! They're soooo dynamic!

But if you're not having fun-- if you're stressing-- there's nothing wrong with taking a step back for your own mental well-being. I'm not about to tell you your feelings are invalid, because I know how any internet discourse, no matter how trivial or silly it may seem, can still stress you out. If you're constantly being told you're morally corrupt or problematic, it can take a toll on you-- even if you know you're not. The truth is you're never going to agree with everyone on the internet, and people will weaponize something as trivial as a South Park ship to make them feel better about their ship while also making you feel worse about your ship.

Anyways, when it comes to stepping back, I think there's a few ways you could go about this;

You could disengage with the social part of the fandom-- focus on the show itself, maybe just hunker down with some fanfics.

If you'd like to remain active on social medias, I think it wouldn't hurt to start blocking liberally. Anyone who has anything along the lines of 'Kymans DNI' in their profile, just block right away. You don't want to see their opinion, anyways. You're never going to convince them otherwise.

If you have a few close friends, I recommend sticking close in a small private discord server where you can discuss your headcanons and gossip in private. It's much more liberating than trying to get involved in any of the insane discourse that plagues both here and Twitter.

Anyways, anon, do what's right for you. Kyman shippers will always be here to welcome you back! They can say what they want-- we have too much canon fodder for us to ever go away!!

Okokok. If ur alright with me blowing up ur inbox. This is a romance in New York. I'd say Dally is like 15/16 here. I know the timelines a little screwy but im willing to ignore it cause everything else works so well. Imma just call the main character M/C because i dont know what else to do. So M/C is a kid from the better side of New York. Their folks arent great but they are pretty rich. M/C is dating a guy their family thinks would be good for them but they don't really like him. They spend a lot of time on the bad side of new york trying to get away from it all. Only a few of their friends know where their from. The first song on the album is kinda explaining the character.

Castle-

Verse 1

Sick of all these people talking, sick of all this noise.

m/c is tired of this whole petty gossip thing the upper class have going on.

Tired of all these cameras flashing, sick of being poised.

They hate having to doll up for the cameras, they just want to do whatever without having to worry about how other people view them.

Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it,

Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it.

They pretend to be all cool and tough and stuff but their actually pretty vulnerable. Someone who's just desperate enough to be a danger to themself and those around them.

Chorus

I'm headed straight for the castle

They wanna make me their queen

And there's an old man sitting on the throne there saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean

They want to make something of themself outside of their family's shadow.

I'm headed straight for the castle

They got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne there saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut.

There aren't many opportunities for someone like them in this kind of world, people don't expect them to do anything but sit there smiling for the cameras.

Straight for the castle

buuut they are determined to make something of themself despite these barriers.

Verse 2

All of these minutes passing, sick of feeling used.

They can practically feel the time passing. They want to do something.

If you want to break break these walls down your gonna get bruised.

They have walls up, essentially. But its also a challenge. They want someone to come along and care enough to want to see all of them.

and the rest of the song just repeats itself. I'm really sorry for how long this was. I have so much more ideas for this if you can put up with super long posts.

(Who am I? I am not this confident in real life.)

That’s so cool?? And like?? Such an interesting line to follow?? I’m invested in that dude. What else you got for me? Please share!!

Hey same anon here. So... no offence but do you think people who ship something slightly controversial are going to just not interact with the rest of the fandom at all? I'm sure you're set in believing it's a bad ship but I really don't think everyone who ships it is a Bad Person on principle. Like them putting shipping in a separate blog with a similar url to their main is probably not them being secretive to get around dni's. Because this just in, anyone can get around dni's by ignoring them...

Shippers of controversial ships keep things separate from their main account usually to avoid subjecting people who don't want to see something to that thing, and to avoid getting hate/being called out, which is what you're doing....

Also, I don't think everyone who ships one lesbian cousin inc*st ship is inherently a proshipper... Most fans of the ship are just regular splatoon fans who contribute a lot to the fandom. I would know, a lot of people in the notes on your post have supported posts from an explicitly aohota blog

Also respectfully, I guess you want to warn people of someone shipping it but I think people can make that judgement call on their own... Filling the tag which is already separate from the main fandom tags with hate and putting individuals on blast seems more harmful than shipping fictional characters imo

hi im going to address these points one by one and out of order, im tired today

actually, you make a good point with it being put in the ship tags, i'll fix that. regardless of everything else i know how much it sucks to go into a tag for something you like and be met with hate for it

second um... incest shippers ARE proship by definition, because it means pro- ships that involve incest or pedophilia or both. there are probably other things that fall under that definition but those are the two big ones, so im sorry to say that is literally what it means

the point of a dni is that you enforce it by blocking people. there's actually been a history of people making blogs like that for the purpose of evading blocks- the main example i can think of is terfs making innocent-seeming main blogs with the express purpose of infiltrating trans-positive communities who would otherwise block them on sight. the fact that people in the notes have interacted with callie/marie shippers is exactly what i was trying to alleviate with that post, because the tags are obscure enough that a lot of people may not know what it means & interact unknowingly.

do i think everyone who ships problematic content is a "bad person"...? no, not really. they're often perfectly nice and kind and all that. but do i think they should keep to themselves and stay out of the larger splatoon community, besides others who are pro- or neutral to these kinds of ships? well... that WOULD be pretty unreasonable to ask, wouldn't it? but the thing is... someone being proship puts all those interactions into a different light. i shouldn't have to worry, if i make a post about callie and marie, that someone is going to interpret it sexually. i shouldn't have to worry if i make a post about one of them individually that someone is going to take it and apply it to their romantic/sexual dynamic of the two. it's something that makes me extremely uncomfortable, and it's a boundary i can only enforce by blocking (since as you said people can simply ignore dnis.)

which brings me to my last point... y'all have your space, which I unthinkingly put hate in and for that i'm genuinely sorry, but we have our own boundaries which we can ONLY enforce via dnis and/or blocking. the only thing we can really do to keep our space our own is to block, both the tags and the people that post in them, and that's all i told people to do; obviously i can't actively force anyone to block people, that's just my suggestion to keep them from unknowingly interacting bc other posts from people will show up even if they have the tag filtered.

i called out that particular person in the tags because they stood out to me, with the experience i'd had with the two blogs; also because i couldn't really name other active members of the community, seeing as i have nearly everyone there blocked already. my intention is to spread awareness, not to incite harassment, and if they're getting harassed (or if you'd like to avoid that possibility) i can delete those tags, likely instead putting them as part of a larger blocklist rather than focusing on one person. but again, that one person stood out to me and i wanted to prevent others from having the same experience.

i think that's all for rn, thank you for the ask and your understanding. feel free to send more asks, or if the person in question would like to talk to me directly, i would be willing to unblock them to have a discussion if they so choose

three seconds in and wow... those are such Noises. this man is homosexual im saying this because 1. no straight person would be connected to this type of music and 2. i think this is the guy in the picture u posted earlier

impulsive, never stops moving, was this the guy getting the bj in that one scene, has dreams that are unachievable but you better bet hes gonna fucking try, if you try to stop him he will bite you, probably destined to die and is trying to live as much as possible before that happens

im diagnosing you with AJR addiction. im doing a quick sweep of all ur public playlists and so far only fugo, narancia, dazai, and teru's dont have an ajr song

this mfer is living life on the edge good for him i would hate to exist around him. NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA ANA NA ANA NA NA NA NA AN NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAN NANA NA AN ANNA NANA NA NA NA NA NAN AN NA

anti-depressants turned into a human

im going to save this playlist as a stim-playlist theres so much Noise here

is i'm ready by ajr one of the earlier songs? his voice sounds younger. wait was that fucking bob l'eponge

this playlist is providing a lot of songs for the WIP MILF playlist thank you

🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃 THIS IS MY ROARING ROARING 20s 🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃

basically i am getting that this guy is ready to live instead of survive and is going to sink his teeth into the flesh of the world and fuck living an easy or boring life

BANGER playlist and character both you and him would be allowed to get the aux on my imaginary mutual roadtrip i think i like him a lot he seems like a vibe also fun fact the ask rectangle covers most of ur header except the dancing character at the very far left who i think might be mista

he would probably call up random people in a phone book to ask them about their day

he has a bucket list and follows none of it because life fucks hard and he's living one day at a time and who cares if we die it's just another adventure

is he a fun criminal?? thats what im getting by lotta true crime but idk

the end got like rlly sad suddenly wait what

we're back to cool shit 😎 cult of dionysus. this character just seems like a 24/7 party. he'd be the person who never shuts the fuck up at a sleepover

i think he could witness the absolute worst horrors and traumas ever and would go "lol okay!"

final thoughts: homosexuality. also how dare you expose me to hayloft 2 AGAIN

this is incredible you have his personality down Perfectly

i am too tired to do a full response but:

yes he was the one getting the blowjob and yes he is also the dude dancing on the far left of my header

i full-heartedly accept my ajr addiciton diagnosis </3 they're my favorite band i literally cannot get enough of them

ANTI-DEPRESSANTS TURNED INTO A HUMAN I'M CACKLING

hh yeah the noises are So Good in this one

i think i'm ready is one of their first songs ! (ajr addiction coming in handy rn)

i am absolutely adding the him calling random people to my hcs that is so cute and it's definitely something he'd do-

he's def a fun criminal, i'm p sure part of his backstory was that whenever he was low on cash he'd just fuckin. rob people outside movie theaters who were badmouthing the actors?? (also he's literally a mafioso so like-)

he wouldn't shut up during a sleepover and that is a Fact

oh yeah that happens several times in canon jhgfdfghjhds

i am sorry but hayloft 2 is such a good character playlist song-

this was very fun to read/respond to asdkgfskj ty for listening <33

hii! idk if you'll want to answer them all, but i'm curious about 1, 6, 10, 13, 15 and 16 from the "i'm not from the us set"

if you don't want to answer some of them no worriess 💜

Hii!! Thanks for the ask!! :) (im just now realizing most questions in that post are like suuper hard for me but shh ill try to answer them as best as possible) (also sorry not sorry if you wanted to know this about spain, im making it about catalonia only😋😋)

1. favourite place in your country?

welp, just starting and already a hard one lol 😅😅 After spending like 10 mins moving around google maps trying to get inspiration, I think I'm going with a beach village called Calella de Palafrugell. It's like super pretty and I love it every time we go there! It's just around 20 minutes away from where I spend the summer, so we go a few times every year, I also have some really cool memories there :)

6. most hated song in your native language?

Ok so this one is probably the only one that isn't hard hahah there are two very close contestants but ill have to go for Supermercat by Lildami it's just such a stupid song and it's just so terrible i hate it and it was pretty popular for a while at least for the kids in my school so i ended up hating it so much more. so thankful lildami isn't going to canet rock 🙏🙏

Second place is Milionaria by Rosalia (i think thats what it was called) I just really don't like her songs and she had to go and make that 💀 everyone was singing that shit for a while but whatever at least it got a lot of ppl listening to a catalan song i guess

10. most enjoyable swear word in your native language?

huhuhuhu i love catalan insults because they are all so ridiculous (once you get past the basic ones which are basically the same as in spanish) Basically you pick two random words and slap them together. Some of my favorites include ensumapixums (pee smeller), bleda assolellada (sunny chard? idk thats what the traductor says but it doesn't feel right) and figaflor (fig flower). These aren't really said in day to day life, but knowing they exist makes my life better.

(i decided to take swear words as insults because while insults in catalan are a gold mine, swear words are basic af. you have merda(shit), puta(bitch but used more like fuck), hostia(idk i only use it as wow or to make puta worse) and you can pretty much stop counting there. we usually use spanish to swear (and to insult too but shh))

13 . does your country (or family) have any specific superstitions or traditions that might seem strange to outsiders?

Tbh i don't really know, but ive been told that putting a caganer (man pooping) in the nativity scene is usually considered weird by non catalan people and so is hitting a log of wood for christmas until it poops your presents (traditionally in only pooped christmas sweets, but now it can poop basically anything lol) (yes there are jokes about us being obsessed with poop)

I'm too tired rn to answer to the last two, but i will try to rb this with those questions at some point :)

not from the us ask set