(unpopular?) opinion: light had some genuine fondness for matsuda during at least some points in the series

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Absolutely. By the end, Light was totally incapable of trusting anyone — but whatever he felt for Matsuda was about as close as he could get. In the second half of the story, Matsuda is the only one he discusses Kira's ideology with absent of any ulterior motives. When Light assuages Matsuda's fears about being a bad person by talking about his viewpoint on Kira, even though he's lying about not being Kira, I think Light is saying things he genuinely believes about himself but cannot admit without that abstraction.

In the end, Matsuda shooting Light makes him completely lose his composure because it wasn't something he was expecting. Light said he thought that Matsuda understood him, that he thought Matsuda would side with him. Delusional thinking? Possibly. After all, he begged for Takada's help despite the fact that he'd already killed her. But I think that Light genuinely thought that Matsuda understood him more than anyone else, and though he was of course totally willing to kill Matsuda, it mattered to him to have Matsuda's trust and alliance.

And he was, to some degree, right. Matsuda doesn't shoot him because Kira is evil or because he disagreed with Light's ideology or justifications, just because Light led Soichiro to his death.

It always sticks out to me that Light is nicer to Matsuda than anyone else is. For example, Aizawa and Light are both convinced that Matsuda won't turn against Light, but while Aizawa thinks "Matsuda never thinks," Light thinks "Matsuda trusts me completely." Light's manipulations of Matsuda don't hinge on Matsuda being stupid, but on Matsuda being trusting, selfless, and reckless with his own life. Ryuk and Misa both have a low opinion of Matsuda, but Light never joins in, even though he doesn't have to keep up the Good Boy facade around them. Light is really good at reading people, and Matsuda genuinely is a capable person who trusts him. Light understands that.

Ultimately, Light and Matsuda saw each other more clearly than anyone else did, and that led to a certain trust...but neither of them actually saw each other fully

I know this is just a me problem & I need to just suck it up and deal with it but I feel... incredibly guilty about not wanting to have sex with my friends. For one, I've never had a friend actually want to engage in that with me so a part of it might be me feeling bad about "not being good enough", but another part of me feels like the queer community is advancing to new places that gives them more joy, freedom, and love and it feels like since the topic is so triggering to me (for no good reason mind you) that I just don't really belong? I haven't been able to talk to other queer people or go to pride events because I'm in such a small, homophobic town. But I feel like if I showed up to a queer event, I just wouldn't fit in and they just would not like me. Not only for looking overly masculine and kinda yucky (not in way thats celebrated in the queer community) after my transition, but because the accomodations I would need for my triggers would just be too unrealistic to expect them to accomodate to (I've been in therapy for nearly 10 yrs, unfortunately some triggers just dont go away). And also bc I'm a sapphic trans guy and ,, man idk if that would piss people off.

I just want to ask, is it okay if I still view sex as sacred for myself but don't think poorly of people who have casual sex or sex with friends? If anything, I'm envious of them for being able to have such a connection to their friends that I would never be comfortable having.

I’m glad to hear you’re seeing a therapist, it’s very clear from your ask that you’re struggling with very low self-worth and I’ve been there and it sucks.

As for your question itself — sex positivity and sex acceptance are about finding a sexuality that feels good for you and don’t shame those whose sexuality feels good to them but isn’t the same as yours. If sex is something sacred to you that is for you alone or only to share with a select few then that is always valid as long as it feels good to you. At the same time, having sex with friends and having multiple partners is just as valid as long as it’s what the people practicing it wants. Neither one has the right to shame or devalue the other.

I notice a pattern in your ask, where you make claims about how you feel people will respond to you. This is a normal thing our human brains do, but this anxiety seems to be preventing you from going out and trying. You think but you do not know that people wouldn’t accept you. Thou think but you do not know that you wouldn’t fit in. Internet queer discourse is poison basically and people in the irl communities are usually a lot more accepting. Online we kinda forget that we’re interacting with other people, but irl we can’t do that as easily (although dehumanization of minorities is a thing, so not impossible but it takes a lot more organized, structural effort). In Swedish we have this expression “provtänka” which roughly translates to “try-thinking” or “attempting-think” where we sort of say a thought we had to other people, usually friends, to try it out. It can be something beneficial like “wait isn’t it strange that inflation is up 4% but benefits have only increased by 2,6%?” and then we can all curse capitalism together. But it can also be (and this is a real example of a thing I said when I was 16) “there are so many bad parents like shouldn’t the government like make you take tests and and out a license for you to reproduce so no children get harmed” and your friends will rightfully go “no wtf??? That’s such an over-reach of government power what are you on???”. Like you try out a thought that you haven’t thought about that much or aren’t that invested in and you do a vibe check basically. Like that pregnancy thought was whack but I hadn’t really thought about it. Luckily my friends were reasonable people who asked what tf was wrong with me and explained why that was a horrible thing and I haven’t thought that way since. Online, you sorta either get jumped which has the effect of you doubling down on your not even fully formed opinion bc you get defensive, or you find other whack jobs who agree and that’s how radicalization happens.

So to the point bc I lost it bc that who I am as a person: people are a lot more forgiving offline and if someone has doubts initially, they’re less likely to voice them, and if they do they’re likely to get checked, and if they don’t just spending time with you will humanize you (which is why people from bigger cities are usually more open-minded, bc exposure to people different than them).

And a last point to wrap up: you write that you’re “envious of them for being able to have such a connection to their friends that I would never be comfortable having”. Relationships aren’t a hierarchy. Romantic relationships aren’t superior to friendships, and sex with friends isn’t superior to hook-ups or long-term partners, and partnered sex isn’t superior to solo sex. They’re different flavors and not everyone will like the same thing. I can’t stand olives but I love pineapple on pizza. I once dated a girl who despised potatoes. Neither is better than the other. I can’t really understand why she would hate potatoes and most people I believe find it strange, but like that’s just her preference. And I know many people find me strange for my choices in pizza toppings (pineapple, banana and curry).

That is to say: it sucks when you feel left out of some type of relationship you’ll never have — I’m an only child hand have always been envious of people with siblings — but that doesn’t mean that type is “better” or that that type of connection is “deeper” than what’s possible within the types of relationships that would fit you.

-mod liz

hey do you think like its possible for someone to have dormant gene?? like their grand grand parent had smth but their dad didnt??

*intense flashbacks to last semester’s bio lectures*

So, it's possible for someone to carry a dormant or recessive gene that may not manifest in their parents but gets passed down through generations. Genes can skip generations, and individuals may inherit recessive traits from grandparents or even further back in their family tree without those traits being expressed in their parents.

(Long ass bio answer below if you want lmao)

Genotypes represent the genetic makeup of an individual, while phenotypes are the observable traits resulting from that genetic makeup, and because genes can be dominant or recessive, say eye colour.

Gene B is brown eyes (dominant) and b is blue (recessive) and each person has two copies of the gene, 1 from each parent.

So the genotypes are BB (brown) Bb (also brown, but you have an unexpressed blue eye gene) or bb (blue)

If your grandpa had blue eyes, bb, and your dad received a (b) gene from him but a (B) gene from his mom, he’d have Bb which is expressed in a brown phenotype.

But say your mom also has Bb brown eyes, then (see the horrible chart i made from class)

The circles are the genes, the base colours are the actual eye colours btw.

Then the genes will mix like this in possible combinations genotypes/phenotype for what their kids will express (each is 25% possible)

Then they could have a kid with blue eyes, like the grandparent, but unlike their parents if that makes sense?

so many ideas for art projects but no time to do them bc of college apps and calc hw hfdjsalfjdklsa;djfkl;asdjklf

once again i am forced to create the lesbian lore of my dreams all by my fucking self………..

as a huge fan of paleontology, that one borealopelta fossil makes me so fucking emotional. just look at this

this isn't just fossilized bone. this is a fossilized body. it looks less like a several-million-year-old specimen and more like a living, breathing animal that simply fell asleep.

also of note, this particular fossil was preserved in three dimensions, rather than having been flattened over time like the majority of fossils that you would typically find. a lot of specimens look more like an imprint than anything else. but this has depth, and volume. and its so detailed that researchers have been able to determine its skin color based off the compounds found on the surface.

idk it just really makes me want to burst into tears. so much of paleontology relies on making inferences from bones and a variety of trace fossils, and there are likely several details about prehistoric fauna that we simply don't know because they dont fossilize well, and fossilization is already an incredibly rare process as is.

for example, if spiders all died out before humans ever saw any, and all we had left were fossils, would we know they spun webs of silk? would the spinnerets be enough to tip us off?

there are so many things we still don't know about prehistoric life, and likely never will know because it wasn't preserved. can you imagine how many species we just don't know about because they never fossilized?

but here, with borealopelta, we have such a well-preserved specimen that it looks as though it could wake up at any second. It just makes me feel something inexplicable.

Legend and Sky as a duo is so funny to me!!

Red to the last pic

Why did nobody question the reason why Felixs nerdy little pet boy was even so buff for? Like seriously ollie did you sneak to the gym between bouts of patrying and going to lectures? Why the fuck are your pecs so nice? Hmm why is your back so defined? Why are you giving us a gunshow every shot? Bitch you should be a 100 pounds soaking wet little kitten. Why are you so nice and muscly???? YOU'RE A FUCKING NERD. ARE YOU TELLING ME OLIVER LIFTS WEIGHT?? WHATS HIS MAX REP

IS IT PROTEIN SHAKE IN THE CUP???

You’re telling me Stede’s going to go hit it from the back and be met with this huge “TRUST NO ONE” tattoo? 😭😭😭

gently places the Gale and Croissant dolls in a little box and VIOLENTLY SHAKES IT

Also here's what Karlach was right about if you forgot.

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OK so heres some of my favorite things that were talked about during the enter the florpus commentary thing yesterday:

one of jhonen's favorite things in the whole movie is the writing in zim's kitchen that says "do anything is real?"

they clarified specifically that gir was not lying and he did in fact eat a baby at the crazy taco

gir smells REALLY bad. theres like rotting organic matter in his body at all times. he stinks

zim's human suit is made out of actual human skin

zim is acting drunk on nacho cheese during that scene in his house because richard horvitz recorded it while drunk

they planned to have this whole thing with tak's ship only agreeing to go to moo-ping 10 because it knows tak is there. they wouldve shown her in silhouette during that brief explosion and she wouldve stowed away on the ship without anyone knowing and then wouldve shown up towards the end of the movie, but they decided to cut it out

zim did not need to frame membrane for a crime in order to get him into space prison and likely just tossed the guards like 5 bucks for it. its a shady place. they did specify though that if he did frame him for something, it would have been jaywalking

they pointed out during that scene where zim is celebrating peace day on dib's lawn that zim's reaction to seeing dib was very much genuine and that's just how his brain works. he is genuinely surprised to see him pop out of his own house. (they also described his reaction as like "being surprised to see your best friend")

the ham joke was ABSOLUTELY CRITICAL to the film and at some point jhonen remembered it and was like GUYS. WE ALMOST FORGOT THE HAM

there was supposed to be this joke where it cuts to and from gaz and dib in tak's ship and they would've had to stop at like a warp station or something and theyd be waiting in a long queue of spaceships and the radio is broken in the ship so theyre stuck listening to that one song. then itd cut to them like totally braindead drooling from listening to it for so long. and then a little later itd cut back a FINAL time and theyd know all of the words and both be singing along to it. but this was also cut out so only the last bit remained

when asked "who would win: minimoose or mrs. bitters?" the answer was along the lines of "neither, i think all of us lose in that scenario"

the tallest are just two dudes who happen to be the same height and therefore have to share the same job. they are not brothers and they are also not gay lovers ("as much as you want them to be, they are not. there is no love in this universe")

skooge is in fact alive and lives in zim's basement. they wanted to keep the number of "hey remember this thing from the tv show!" moments to a minimum so he was not mentioned in the movie. but he is there

Wrightworth is crazy cus you look at the fan content with edgeworth being the stick in the mud easily flustered one and thats pretty cute, then you look at every game after the first one and edgeworth cannot go 5 sentences without flirting with phoenix in some way. Phoenix just hits him with that autism blast and is too hyperfocused on whatever case he's working to notice. Incredible no notes

lost focus and had a consensual workplace relationship

i watched the hobbit !! it was… an experience…