I'm wondering now if I have a bond with James, too, like... I went and read through my journal entries from the time that we were together, and I was always talking about how easy it was to see him. How I dreamt about him all the time. I was crazy about him.
And in fact, the reason I stopped seeing him wasn't because I lost interest, but because I was afraid of the connection I had to him. I remember him being all I could think about. I remember how it felt like everything around me was changing, how I was changing. And I panicked and told him that we should take a break. And then I didn't feel his presence around me anymore. It was shocking how I had felt so strongly for him one day, and then when I asked to take a break, I just didn't feel him at all. I remember just. sitting there and being like, "Wow. He is really just. Not here anymore."
And then I didn't feel him again until I started seeing Charlie. And then came the dreams of him asking me to take him back. Telling me that we had something beautiful and we should be together again. He wasn't even asking me to leave Charlie, he just wanted to see me again. And I turned him down. Every time I told him that I was only seeing Charlie. And he just kept trying. He didn't give up.
I'm just... idk. I'm gonna have to do some soul searching I think.
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Was thinking about it and HLVRAI has the energy of what a Waffle House is like at three in the morning. The cook that you don't want to fuck with, the customers that insist on arguing and are probably not sober, the two people who sit in the corner and ignore everyone else, and the normal person who just wants to get their food and go home after a long day at work that's dragged into it unwillingly.
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rewatching the sasada content from the recent dub eps really did remind how much I’ve been wanting to see sasada and tanuma be forced to interact in a situation without natsume, it would be so entertaining
there is so much potential for like a trial of courage 2 scenario where tanuma and sasada end up the only two people left after natsume and the rest of their friends/classmates disappear due to Ambiguous Youkai Related Circumstances, and now they’re stuck together trying and hunt down natsume to figure out what’s going on
they both know its caused by a youkai, and they both know the Other One knows its caused by a youkai, but tanuma refuses to let sasada know that she’s right because he’s annoyed she isn’t taking the danger seriously, and sasada refuses to stay out of it cause she’s pissed that he’s not telling her anything (and that he gets to even know about natsume’s abilities in the first place) so they’re stuck together bickering until they can find natsume and get him to tell them what the hell is happening, while trying not to get caught by the Ambiguous Youkai Related Circumstances
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It's kind of jarring to be reminded that everyone around me has always had more than me (aside from a select few). Like I just forget until it comes down to something mundane like buying shoes and I don't know my shoe size because for most of my life I've had one pair of shoes that I wear until they break. And it was usually something someone either got me as a gift (horrified that my shoes were wearing out. As if thats not what shoes do when you wear them) or they were passed down and I grew into them.
Like that's just normal for me. It doesn't bother me either, this isn't a pity party. It's just surreal that it bothers other people sometimes
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I'll have this neat idea that people like but then I can't elaborate on it because like most of my story ideas actually involve monster (or at least monster-adjacent character) x human romance plots and I feel like y'all would be so disappointed in me lmao
Sorry if you guys were interested in some of my ideas I can't let this see the light of day
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