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katfreaks-hidyhole · 2 months

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somethingaboutmint · 1 year

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Quick ugly doodle of cassidy contemplating her sexuality at some dump somewhere

#fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #rose of sharon cassidy #fallout cass #veronica santangelo #yeah sure ill tag her too #art'd #LISTEN. IF I DONT TALK ABOUT MY CASS/VERONICA IDEA I WILL EXOLODE #basically they meet thru stim and like veronicas interested but gives up the idea pretty quick cuz cass is “straight”#and cassidys like omg finally a woman around here LETS HANG OUT GIRL BEST FRIENDDD and veronica goes along with it #but after cass tries to get her to oogle at dudes with her one too many times as a bonding activity veronicas like #cass im so sorry i cant do this im gay and cass is like (brain fart) um font worry im a hashtag ALLY.#and then she mentions she also sleeps with women and veronicas like ????? that does not sound straight to me #cue cass being like pshhh whatever and then having a multi long sexuality crisis #and also becoming obsessed with veronica in a very gay way for some reason #sorry my demons took hold of me #i love dumbass bisexual cassidy you guys dont get it......or do you (eyebrow raise)

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sea-buns · 6 months

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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

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braskide · 4 months

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this is somewhat a spontaneous thing to state but — everytime someone on my dashboard posts something about their character, i can't help but care. you just saw a pic and wrote fifty tags in the rb to talk about your character associated to it? i read it and i care. you just went into heavy details about their romantic needs? i care. you analyzed every word they've ever said in their source material? get me on the phone cause i care. you just wrote a 2 sentence headcanon / 3 meters long meta post about that one frame? i definitely care and think about it. it's kinda dumb, maybe? but sometimes i also try to think through the choices of tags for example, most people use poetry or lyrics and i always wonder how they're associated to the muse, does it make sense? it's also not just a generalized feel-good way i'm trying to say this, not in a “all of your muses matter!!!” ( they do! ) kinda way, but on a more specific level, i can't help but see the appreciation the people i have surrounded myself with have for their characters.

it's like — i will admit, sometimes i do not have that knowledge about that one muse specifically, or perhaps it's very just.. on the surface kinda level ( i have not played all the titles 🥲. ) but just reading someone being so passionate about their character like they were the one in charge of them makes me feel really light somehow. i may not like all posts ( this is my own issue because i think i'm dumb with thinking i'm annoying sending notifs to people lmfaooo sh*ot me ) but i definitely read the majority of them like its the newspaper and the more in depth one goes the more i want to know what's the next topic, what's the next inspiration, what's the next thing.

#tbd.#i can't sleep so i really just went on the for you tab and read through the posts i missed today.. ...#and i realized how interesting it is!!! !!!#it hit me like when ur frontal lobe finally develops fully #also ! i love when u all post about ur characters cause i'm like.... ..#holding out my palm : put them here .#anyways !!!!#i may not have a lot of free time but .#when i do have time to search through the posts i love reading them !!!

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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months

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— Emperor Charles VI's diary entry on Count Althann's death

[text: "My only heart, my comfort, my most faithful servant, my soulmate, who loved me dearly as I did him for 19 years, [we] had a true friendship, we were one heart and one soul, and we never concealed anything from one another. He will always be in my heart, [my] beloved friend..I. have lost everything."]

#this is like. incredibly niche.#but also hopefully a quote one can look at without context and still feel emotional damage about #idk. i think about this quote probably at least once a week and then have to stare at it and cry a bit #its just GOD. yknow??????#theres this one paper(which i linked) that i originally read as research for the AU #but i go back to it probably twice a month to reread it bcs im so !!!! abt it #i think its cause charles vi is just not that relevant but is relevant to me so to have this paper abt his personal relationships is very !#its both nice as ref for the au but also very interesting to hear about historical queer relationships/dynamics #the sections about him and his wife are very endearing as well #but god like him and count althann. im literally so invested in this 300 year old relationship #this is obviously from his death which is incredibly depressing and heart wrenching to me #but the other things he wrote about althann in his diary are very sweet to me #they were inseparable to the point of often sleeping in the same bed and charles called him his 'eternal love'#AND ON ALTHANN'S DE WIKIPEDIA PAGE IT LITERALLY CALLS HIM THE EMPEROR'S FAVORITE #anyways literally every part of this quote absolutely destroys me but especially how he refers to althann and then the ending #and its interesting to me bcs apparently his diary entries were usually pretty to the point #but when various people in his as althann died he would write these extremely emotional entries that are so </3 #if you have any questions abt their dynamic pls i will talk abt them 🥰🥰 i find it fascinating #theres a book about his diary but its in german and 500 pages and kinda hard to get hold in but maybe one day!!!#also in AU contexts: althann and charles vi would be mark and seb so take that as you will 🤭😭#as i said this is great for ref but also made me sooooo fucking invested in him #i have no idea how to tag this #historical #holy roman empire #emperor charles vi #catie.rambling.txt #historical quotes #habsburg #habsburg monarchy #ah wow if only my german prof could see me now. fucking...habsburg posting. why am i like this

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wantbytaemin · 4 months

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i want more wino in my user tag however i am SHY to ask more people…..

#ive been WORSE instead of better on here LMAO like i feel like it’s so annoying to ask people to do these things and also just been feeling #kinda annoying in general like i deleted the selfies of the year from my blog too bc it felt so like. pushy of me IDK it’s so WEIRD bc #i obviously don’t think the same of my friends/mutuals but ofc i hold myself to a different set of (deranged) rules #it’s really not that serious though like it’s tumblr of all things it’s just been interesting to me. things that make you go hmm for sure #well… probably sleeping will fix me so ! adios my sweeties gooooodnight 🫶🏻

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xejune · 2 years

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[slaps these on the table] BABIES

@lakka-arts's monster!geralt & dandelion bc i am so soft for them

#[holds them in my hands] these two can store so much angst and comfort and crack ideas it is impressive #also hello tags time. time for me to shout @ lakka how much i love ur ideas & art. you inspire me so much??#bless ur talented talented hands and ur magical mystery mind #& also thank you for hanging out w/ me in the server. its such a joy having you around <33 #and please do always feel free to infodump/throw ideas at me. your ocs & concepts are super fucking interesting #& also i hope you get the recognition you deserve <33 #ANYWAY IM OFF TO SLEEP GOODNIGHT #the witcher #art #gerlion

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localratwithcowboyhat · 9 months

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MEET THE ARTIST/INTRODUKTION THING

Special interests:

Will wood / will wood and the tape worms

The magnus archives

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You are very welcome to ask /dm me! ( I’ll just probably be very arkward)

You can also find me on Pinterest @sleepisrat tho I am more activeon here :)

(I am a minor so don’t be wierd!)

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heaven-dope · 4 months

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kind of a big fan of how unintentionally opposite soleil is to lili

#so like. where would i even begin. it was a complete accident but really fun it turned out this way and im thinking about it now #really interesting to me how lili likes to teach and soleil likes to learn.#how one is arrogant and one is humble #and lili holding onto the concept that he will leave the life of a fighter while soleil is hellbent on becoming one #lilis a city boy and sol is a forest child #super fun what they choose to learn with lili picking to achieve perfect mastery of things hes skilled at #while sol is extremely curious and will learn things theyre inherently poor at just for the experience #2 mind vs 0 mind.#how they navigate society - one being absolutely dogshit clueless with the other being incredibly politically savvy #and it just keeps on fucking going im not even done but i need to sleep im just thinking about it at 3am. sorry #sorry sorry. their friendship is just really cool to me! despite having so many opposite traits they get along great #talk tag

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milflewis · 1 year

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feeling v . hmm. interesting

#not bad actually ! just. interesting #my roommate cut my hair into a mullet/wolf/shag cut Moment and i luv it #but i’m hearing a oversized hoodie and gaa shorts and feeling lowkey gender? in a way that i have never felt?#like i’ve looked at ppl and felt Gender and seen that but i’ve never felt it like this when looking at myself?#and it’s a little. hmm . huh . bc i was very Like That when i was younger. 13 - 15 and didn’t want to be a Girly Girl bc.#internalised misogy . and it was Loud. and i’ve unpacked that (and still have more to go ofc!) but u am way more comfortable in myself now #and i luv makeup ! and dresses ! and traditionally v feminine things ! and i don’t give a fuck if ppl see me like that or if that’s their #first thought when they think of me ! it doesn’t bother me if they don’t think of me sparring or playing gaelic or any Tough Lad Stuff #and i’m not questioning my gender (rn anyway. who knows what the future holds) but i’m kinda vibing in this Gender feeling if that makes #sense? lol mb it doesn’t. mb i am wayyy too in my head and hyped up on no sleep but it is what i am feeling ! so i am going to enjoy it !#thank u for coming to my ted talk #will delete later #probably #if not ->#diary posting

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highlifeboat · 1 year

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No thoughts only under appreciated OC Elizabeta

#actually i do have one thoght but it's not about them but i'mma ramble in the tags anyway #so i was thinking about max and his love of arachnids/spiders #and like #he probably wouldn't be able to make daniela un-afraid of them #BUT i think he could convince her that they really aren't a huge threat and that they don't have to be killed and she could probably #even hold one and it wouldn't do anything since 90% of the time she's in human form anyway #but also him being like ''I really like arachnids I think they're cute and amazing and they're so interesting let me go on a big info #info dump and tell you all about them" and just seeing him really passionate about something makes dani's heart melt #because max never does this stuff #he never rambles or goes off on huge passiionate tangents like that #it's usually HER rabling to HIM #and he's so genuinely happy while he talks about them and it's like #She's just never really seem him like that and even if spiders are a big part of it that doesn't matter #because ''holy shit he's smiling and he's talking so much and by miranda he's fucking cute''#anyway i forget what my point was but yeah i think max should ramble to daniela about arachnids cause no one else'll listen to him anyway #this tag rant would have been way more suited under a daximus post but i didn't have any art and if i didn't write it now i was gonna #gonna forget *wheeze*#if anyone takes the time to read my sleep deprived rambles about maximus n spooders thanks lmao i'm going to be now #my art #oc elizabeta #oc max #daximus #tag ramble #re 8 oc

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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months

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#hmm its been an interesting week i suppose #very busy in a good way. but that is always how it starts. i make myself so busy and it feels good and then i wobble and fall out of my body #so im feeling wary. also bc ive been under sleeping more than ususal but im not really tired but im also not boiling out of my skin with #energy. i just feel ok. so thats good. but also a demon in the back of my head is always like: then stay up all night. lets see how far we #can push this. which is not good. and in fact ive been proscribed like basically emergency mood stablizers to knock me out if i start like #losing my mind and not sleeping lol. bc i dont wanna b getting ready for something big and like completely unavailable to control my #ability to think. and ive also been proscribed birth control to get a handke on my fucked up hormones. so we'll see if that makes things #less all over the place. hopefully it works bc im so busy i kinda dont have time to like freak thr fuck out #but i am a lil apprehensive bc like i can count on my hormones to make me feel things when a lot of the time i dont have much emotional #range. so its like fuck finally i can cry abt this. or like fuck this is so beautiful. but then i also cant function sometimes #so i guess i just gotta see what happens. sigh. also the typical frustrating in having to read so much. like ppl hear im dyslexic and r like #oh do u want accommodation? like literally wtf r u gonna do to help me as a grad student? it just takes an agonizing amount of time to #understand thing. i have my computer read to me and i suffer. theres literally nothing else to b done abt it. and fucking next week i have #to teach a fucking lab abt reading scientific papers. they have to read a paper in class. fuck off. those r the types of exercises that make #me feel so fucking stupid. like do this thing right now. read it right here and answer questions abt it. and i fucking read it and retain #fucking nothing. im fucking 26 and literally in my grant writing class i have to apologize to every person before i give them feedback like #lol sorry i can barely fucking read. i fucking cant understand language. its fine but it sucks. theres nothing to do abt it. it just makes #me mad i have to teach a class that would have made me cry as an undergrad. so ill prob hold their hands thru it more than the other TAs #will. bc fuck u im not making them read a whole fucking paper in class. fuck u #plus the frustration of not being able to express myself well in thr moments. like theres a delay in my brain so i feel so dumb when im #trying to convey myself off the top of my head. like give me time and ill write it all out for u i just cant actually process wtf ur saying #to me. also i probably spaced out for a sec so i missed part of the convo lol. frustrating but at this point its just how it is. it makes me #more empathetic when i have to teach i guess. like listen ive got all kinds of fucking learning probs i just wanna help u learn something #how can i help? fucking dyslexia. god. i dont wanna prep for class this weekend. ive gotta show up like yea i kno reading papers is hard at #first but it gets easier! fuck u. its worth the suffering if i enjoy to topic but its always suffering. but thats what i get for going into #academia. thr dr who proscribed me stuff was like well sounds like u have a stress trigger and ur a phd student where life is stress... u #gotta figure out whats gonna work for u. sometimes thats a career change. not in like a pushy way just like: if what u do makes u suffer #then wtf r u doing? and hes got a point. but in contrast to what i was doing this is a massive improvement #well see if its manageable. ugh. i just wanna draw #unrelated

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niconebula · 2 years

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#sleep well cinnamon boy #this post has been haunting me for a week now. I can’t stop thinking about it #the way he is like seventeen. the way she posted him instead of the food. the way the food wasn’t even the problem. the dirty sheets.#hunter toh #the owl house #and then when i find something interesting ti must be related to whatever hyperfixation i currently hold. thus...

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electracraft · 2 years

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how do i get a better personality ☹️

#i have found this kind of group of new friends in uni but they never let me speak gothic font #i mean i’m not the most interesting person to talk to but they could hold polite conversation with me at least they just look away #and start speaking over me 😭#i suck at this ☹️#okkk good night now i should sleep tomorrow ill be the most social person alive REAL!!

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agallimaufryofoddments · 1 year

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Do I attempt to salvage the thought I had about Fermet printing Fermetes 2+ hours ago into a post at 10:23 PM or do I salvage the 1883 words of a .md file I apparently wrote before the two hours of helping someone assemble monitor stand + cable management session began into some droll post for tomorrow?

#Baccano! Light Novel Spoilers #personal #it's probably the latter #I finally sat back down after the two hours and attempted to write said pithy post #but my already sleep-deprived brain is not having it.#*droll not pithy #*blatantly terribly written not droll #It's not even a particularly interesting or deep thought but the primordial instinct within me telling me my B! knowledge is hopelessly #wrong and that I should factcheck some of this is holding it back #(but seriously though. Fermet hive mind supervising SAMPLE branches across Europe and NA ...#(...these not quite carbon copy Fermets but /very/alike Fermets just. supervising the multi-continent perpetuation of #~child torture cult~#(hm. yes. how will these SAMPLE seeds sprout in America. I know. I shall water them personally but allow them to blossom idiosyncracies)#(I'm not saying that's what Fermet did. I'm just asking you to imagine hive!Fermet in Fermet-progeny homunculi cultivating their culty crops #simultaneously across two continents minimum - three actually (Asia via Japan) - for however many years (???decs???) it's been since #Fermet cottoned on to whatever constituted proto hivemind alchemy #Wow it's easier to write and post things to Tumblr in the sweet sweet informal casual atmosphere of tags #and not the formal 'wuh woh your content may be treated seriously' posts themselves.This doesn't count as a post...#(Really definitely not saying that. Nothing I say in these tags counts! Take this flourish on top of the cartoon evil and be put out.)#Looks like those 1883 words also referenced Huey hive mind

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sipsteainanxiety · 2 years

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i havent even released dragon bkg yet but im already thinking of a spin off oneshot

#ask me abt it once chapter two’s out LMFAOO #too early to be thinking of this #go to sleep shay it's late o'clock #omg i could also do a short one shot of life after the events of holding out #👁👄👁#that could be interesting….

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